I’m going to start throwing down some candid writing on my blog.  For me.  Because I need it and I need to process and I don’t journal but I will blog.  (Whatever)
Before I put it out there for my two readers, here are my disclaimers:  
I love my children.  Full stop.  Adopting them…. being their mom… is the greatest decision I have ever made.  I love being a mom and I love being a mom to these children.  I am incredibly blessed on every single front.  I adore them with my whole heart.  Even Zechariah, who came home just before turning 7, feels like he has been with me forever.  I birthed every one of them, as far as I’m concerned.    
So when I write about trials and hard stuff and my frustrations and my life, please don’t assume this means I have regrets.  Don’t assume I wouldn’t do it all again in a heartbeat.  Do not assume I don’t love every moment with these babies and every day of our crazy lives.  It’s just hard sometimes, okay?  Living life is often living in the grey.  The good and the hard.  The love and the pull-your-hair-out frustration.  All of it.  I love them forever.

Here we go….

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