Post a Comment On: Inner Pearls

A life journey can include many challenges. Some will be experiences that we shy away from, fear, resent and are confused by. If we feel that we are going through the experiences alone, either because we don't have a close friend or companion to talk to or to be with, or we are simply not being heard, it can be easy to wall ourselves off even further from people.

We can tell ourselves and come to believe that no-one else could possibly understand who we are, what we have experienced and what we wanted to experience instead. Indeed, there are those times when we are so tired and vulnerable, that an inner sense of loneliness can overwhelm us and we can feel quite desolate.

Imagine yourself curled up into a ball, as if you are remembering an experience of a time before you were born and everything is okay ... and you are curled up like a seed and newly planted into soil, whole, intact and not yet broken into or open and just relax.

The wisdom of hindsight arrives through being able to reflect upon an experience from a larger perspective, with fresh data and understanding, an open heart, a place of calmness and willingness to explore. Fundamentally, with much less resistance to a situation and it is because of our ability to move beyond suffering that we refer to time as being a great healer of wounds.

A passage of time gives us a sense of spaciousness, through which we can open into, process and integrate the many experiences we've had. We can call it growth or wisdom, but it is as we open an inner eye of awareness and comprehension, that we begin to know ourselves with increasing authenticity and truth.

We couldn't do this if we stayed curled up in a seed pod, safe and isolated from the world. It takes interactions and challenges to our perceptions and belief systems to break us open and into increasing communion with life.

This is because as we move into authenticity within ourselves, we begin to see others with clarity as well, and it is through this conscious opening into relationship, that we are able to transcend blame, which is the avoiding of taking personal responsibility for our choices.

It is what allows us to know in our heart, that our suffering has endured, only because in any given moment, we have been unable or unwilling to comprehend the underlying beliefs that were driving us to make our choices and how attached we were to what we thought we knew.

This realization is key towards living and expressing life openly and authentically and is also what has been referred to in many spirituality texts and from those who have stumbled upon it with courage, as a journey from the head to our heart.

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 Seed of Life, Spinning

But,
as I hear you speaking through me
I couldn't remain a seed
and had to be broken open
to experience unity with you
and be all that I really am?

I didn't choose to be a seed
and life has closed me down
the betrayal of those I cared for
the judgment and harsh words of others
the sense of being alone
the despair of not being able to have
the goodness of life that I sensed
whilst others seemed to thrive
and to effortlessly have it all

All that, you see, has had effect
and made me into a seed
and closed me off from you
it's that very same medicine you gave me
that has created a wound with you

And all the while, you say
that all I have to do...
is be willing to release
and change my view of you?

You've spun me in a circle
and I've nowhere left to go
life isn't what I thought
and I don't know how to be now
as I meet me more in you...