One day when I was getting a hold of the bible, I was led to the book of Ecclesiastes. I’ve never realized that this book is containing 12 chapters in 4 leaves. Too short but the messages were really amazing. Full of wisdom, to the extent that anyone who will read it will surely have a change of heart and mind, from worldly to Godly perspectives.
It was a big revelation to me by God, I believe. He led me to this book in perfect timing. Why? Few hours before I have started browsing Ecclesiastes, I was thinking about the task given to me by our pastor, which is to formulate plans for the ministry in Guinobatan. I was actually pressured and something seems to pull me away from the right position. It’s a big task. I am partly excited because that is a big privilege to serve God. But something is telling me I am not worthy (I definitely know who’s telling me that).
Knowing myself, I don’t think I can accomplish such a big mission. I am broke and I was thinking that I cannot finance another youth camp that will be attended by 3 participants and 10 facilitators (like our 1st super outnumbered youth camp!). But God is faithful, you know what He did? In BCCL, I got a lot of answers. I didn’t realize how selfish I have been. I realize that it is really not about me but about God. It is not me who’s going to work for I am just going to be used by God, who is actually the one working already. God is using mam mayeth to show me the things I need to get rid of. Like a pot, a lot of imperfections are eliminated so I will be molded to a more useful container. It’s painful, but I appreciate the corrections. God wants me to be well. I never thought I was so sick and unwell. But praise God, He has given me the capacity to take the challenge and become moldable in His hands.
The same day, before I was led to Ecclesiastes, I was praying to God, how will I start. It was really surprising that right then, my cousin (in Toronto) sent me an IM. Out of nowhere, he asked me about our “old-rotten” organization that was actually rejected by our highschool principal. He asked me about how we are going to revive the group. I didn’t really expect he will still have such a great support for the group. (guess what? Right at this moment, my cousin signed in!)
It was a great encouragement. The exciting thing about it is that, before my cousin sent his first message that day, I was browsing our picture during the servant-leadership seminar. While browsing the pictures, I was praying to God, “Lord, how will I start”. And that’s it, my cousin came in.
Now the next thing that happened? That day was actually a great surprise to me, because one of our former BS attendees texted me and asked about the possibility of us, being convened again for a BS. Imagine, it was about 3 months since we had our last BS and out of nowhere, he texted. Long ago, it was me and sis ems, my ministry partner, who were texting them about the schedule of our BS, but the opposite happened this time.
A month ago, I resigned from one client, because I had to unload tasks from secular work. Perfect for the circumstance, I have ample time to prepare, plan, and work out the youth ministry. I am so glad that thru the learning that God has given me in BCCL, I am able to comprehend His real purpose and timing. I have understood my real role and His role. It is not me who’s going to work. It is Him. I am just invited to join Him. Glory to God!
(2nd assignment, CLF- Experiencing God)
posted by Lanilane Ocbina (chibi) at 8:03 PM on Aug 1, 2009
"When was the last time you’ve heard from God about specific assignment? How did you know it was Him?"
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