Wendy

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Gender	Female
Occupation	x-ray tech
Location	kaysville, utah
Introduction	Once upon a time I was timid and indecisive. Once upon a time I was needy and insecure. All this changed when I had my first baby, my abnormal baby.He was a perfectly wonderful baby to me. He nursed well,he got fat and smiled and played. Except he was so relaxed and content. A true dream for a new mom.He didn't move much,didn't hold his head steady,didn't make much noise.I remember how I held him, how he melted into my arms, how he never tried to wriggle out of my grasp. Later I would learn that he was missing milestone after milestone. They called him floppy, hypotonic,dysmorphic.They were worried about my boys development.So after seeing specialists who provided me with a lot of meaningless well rehearsed uncertainty,and thereby receiving absolutely no workable information toward a diagnosis or a plan, I left with a twinge of hope but mostly despair.I wouldn't find answers unless I diagnosed him myself,I would research until my hands fell off.