Chasing The Sun

452: Back to blogging :)

2009-10-12T20:03:00.000-07:00

I quit blogging for a couple of months, have no idea why. I think I should start again. I think it's important to me. I used to keep a diary for a few years when I was a kid. I used to love writing. But now I don't. I don't know why. I think I'm tired. But I'll try. :)

Went to the zoo this morning. He was grouchy and grumpy and sleepy for having to wake up early. The zoo has become boring for us. Same old things all the time. No changes. Boring place. I think we'll have to visit the zoo once every 2 years for it to be interesting for us.

I'll be doing back-end admin work soon. I think it's good for my career. But I'm afraid of the changes. I'm not one to adapt to changes quickly.

We applied to ballot for a flat here at Toa Payoh. I really really really hope we can get a ballot queue number that can allow us to choose the flat that's just opposite my parent's place. I think it's a good move for our relationship. We're moving on. :)

I think I've matured quite a lot. I think I've grown up.

2009-10-12T05:26:00.000-07:00

Moved. :)

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451: Looking on the bright side :)

2009-08-01T23:03:00.000-07:00

Let's all look forward to work okay! Let's all keep up our cheerful spirit, just like last time! We know there are so many changes now. Every word that they say, we have to listen and follow, even if we don't like it. But we are all together in this! :)

Enough about that. I don't have much things to update on my life, except that I feel that I'm actually at a very happy point in my life. We are on the search for an HDB flat! My parents don't mind, I think. I told my ma, my ma told my sis. I think my pa knows too.

OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!! :):):):):)

450: Babies

2009-07-10T21:43:00.000-07:00

I wonder how Xiao Ah Min or Xiao Meng Meng will look like.

I think they'd be round round and filled with love. ♥

449: Bloodsuckers

2009-07-10T07:49:00.000-07:00

They are bloodsuckers who want to suck us dry. We are underpaid, overworked, and unappreciated.

But they expect even more out of us.

How can you expect our sales to be as good as last year? Hello, have your watched the news or read the papers? The world right now isn't economically healthy you know?

Or do you need someone to drill that into your thick skulls?

If we are "skiving", as you said, the sales would be of average about $2,000 a day.

When it comes to setback, you threaten us. We only feel demoralized. You should find solutions and encourage us, so we will continue to fight as a team.

We fight for you, you don't appreciate us.

From now on, you are the bosses, we are the staff, there will be a wall between us.

As management, you fail.

448: Date

2009-07-08T23:03:00.000-07:00

Today is my off day, so met the BF here at Toa Payoh. Went to walk around in search for black socks, because tomorrow will be the first day for me to wear the new uniform. We went around and around but stupid me forgot that there is a Bata shop here, until we saw it, then we dashed inside and bought 4 pairs. Then we had rojak and ban mian for dinner, and after that he came over to my place and we chose the photos that we took in Genting that we were going to get printed.

I'm going to buy some photo albums andprint lots of photos to keep them as memories, the old fashion way. Because we may forget the events that pass us by, but photos can be kept to preserve the precious memories. :)

447: Back from Genting! :)

2009-07-04T12:23:00.000-07:00

Returned back from Genting last night. Reached home and about 7 plus. The BF came and stayed over another night. He just left. I think this is the longest period of time I've spent with him. From Tuesday until today. Anyway, going to meet him later again, after he's unpacked everything. :)

Took about 270 photos. :) But am lazy to upload the photos into blogspot, uploading photos into blogspot is a chore. :( But uploading into Facebook is easy, but the limit is only 200 photos, so I've uploaded only 200.

Facebook link: http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=105694&id=615876816&ref=mf

448: Update

2009-06-30T12:24:00.000-07:00

Been looking forward to this day for quite some time, because we're going to Genting tomorrow! And today is the first of my 5 days break from work. Work has been hectic, because of the school holidays. But sometimes we wonder, why are so many people still going to crowded places like the zoo, when the germs of H1N1 are flying around? People are sneezing and coughing but I don't think anyone seems to care, except for the number of people I can count on one hand, who are wearing masks to the zoo.

No more talk about the workplace now, because I'm freeeeee!!!!!!!

Later I'll be meeting my partner, we'll be going to pray at the temple for a safe trip. And we're going to the money exchange and also buy some stuff, then he'll be staying at my place tonight and we'll leave for Genting at 6am tomorrow morning!

447: 20th June East Coast Park Outing

2009-06-21T10:07:00.000-07:00

Went to East Coast Park with Orlina, Jia Xian and Joey yesterday. LOTS OF FUN! :)

446: 19th June Crab Dinner

2009-06-21T09:26:00.000-07:00

Went to have dinner with the Kidzworld staff, Auntie Eng Hwa, Auntie Belle, Su Yi, You Tai, Zhi Xiong and plus me and Huiling at a seafood restaurant in AMK. I LOVE THE CRAB! The pincher was the size of my hand!

443: Our new furry friend!

2009-06-14T21:22:00.000-07:00

We have a new friend! Auntie Alice found her yesterday at our shop's backyard. I assume it's a female because when I lifted it's tail I couldn't see any "thing" down there. She must have lost her mother during the heavy rain yesterday. She's a little baby squirrel and she's freaking adorable! I'm in love all over again. We fed her some food and gave her some water and left her in the rat's trap last night before we left. Because we didn't have any place else to keep her.

Someone let her go this morning. I understand we have to do that because squirrels are wild animals and shouldn't be kept as domestic pets. So they let her go. But in the evening, she came back! She must have been unable to find her mother or family and was starving from running about the whole day, and came back to us because we gave her food. The poor thing. Once again, we gave her some food and water. We absolutely HAD to take photos. And I put her inside the Merlion Light Up Pen box and put the box inside my stupid Venus Fly Trap Project (don't ask about that, everyone at work knows that it's a huge failure).

I hope that she'll be warm and snuggly and full of love when I arrive at work tomorrow. She's something new to look forward to. I've decided to name her 小毛. Nobody's keen on that name. I have no idea why.

PHOTOS! :)

☺

442: Shopping with Ah Khiam

2009-06-12T18:47:00.000-07:00

Went shopping with Ah Khiam in town just now. Walked around and around and around. My purchases were 1 tube top, 1 nail colour and 1 top coat, and 4 bras. Haha. ☺

441: Random Part 2

2009-06-12T10:27:00.000-07:00

It's 10:27 now in the morning. I uncovered the Lipton tea bag box. I thought the beetle bug thingy was dead. But just when I was about to get something to remove its corpse, it started walking away, like it was trying to escape!

So I covered it up with the Lipton box again, and this time I put my iPod on top of the box, because I'm now charging my Omnia.

Am going shopping with Ah Khiam Khiam later! Yippeeee!!!! ☺

440: Random Part 1

2009-06-11T22:12:00.000-07:00

A beetle bug thingy just flew and landed right beside my laptop. I found a Lipton tea bag box and made my sis cover the beetle bug thingy with it. And I put my Omnia on top of the box.

439: Plans

2009-06-11T20:47:00.000-07:00

My partner and I are going for a Genting trip next month!

HOORAY!

At first my family was like, "我们也要去!!!"

I think they sensed my disapproval straight away. Because they shut up after that. I want to go with my partner and romantic romantic lor! They can come with us the next time, but this time around. There will only be the 2 of us. I INSIST.

YAY I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!! ☺

438: Hello World

2009-06-11T20:12:00.000-07:00

Oi blogger, I've been neglecting you again. Sorry lor.

I've got motivation to blog again. :)

Okay, here are the latest updates on my life. I had 2 days of MC on Tuesday and Wednesday, because I've been feeling sick since last week. And I didn't really want to go to work anyway, so I went to the doctor. I didn't realise that I was running a fever until the lady told me after she took my temperature, which was 37.7 degrees celcius. The doctor asked if I wanted 1 day or 2 days MC, I was like, "Errr...." The doctor said, "Give you 2 days lah, because you have a fever. You must let the fever clear up first." I went, "Ookaaaaay...." But inside my heart I was bouncing like a hyperactive bunny. I know you must be thinking that I'm not really sick right, I just didn't want to go to work. But I was sick okay. But a part of me didn't want to go to work. I guess that part has always been there, teehee.

So, 2 days of MC, plus 2 days of off. I'm now on my 2nd off day. Went to meet Elaine, Auntie Eng Hwa and Auntie Su at Bugis for lunch. We went to a nonya buffet restaurant called Chilli Padi which was located opposite the National Library. The food was alright, but I particularly liked the nonya kuehs. And after sitting there and talk and eat and talk and eat for about 3 hours, we went and walked around until Auntie Su had to go for her aerobics class, then me and Elaine and Auntie Eng Hwa walked around some more and then we went our seperate ways.

I took the bus home. I was sitting near the front of the bus, then an old man boarded the bus. He looked around for a seat, but all the seats were taken, so being the nice, considerate, polite, courteous and adorable citizen that I am, I gave up my seat to that old man. At first he said, "不用啦,你坐." But seeing that I was making no move to sit down myself, he gladly took the seat, thanking me. A few stops later, he got up and asked me to sit down, saying that he was going to alight at the next stop. So I plumped my ass on the seat again. While waiting for the bus to reach the next stop, he stood beside me and told me, "谢谢你，你真的很好。有些人都不管我。很少人会让位给我。" I politely smiled back at him. Then he said, "你知道吗？我 80 岁了还在做工。" I was like, "Har? 真的啊？" He said, "对lor，看不出hor？" I was flabbergasted not by how I didn't believe he was 80, but by why the hell was he still working at the old age of 80 years.

Then the bus stopped, so he got down. After he alighted, he turned around and with a huge smile on his face, waved me goodbye. I waved back too. Too bad our friendship ended there, I would have liked to know him better. He sort of made my day, and in a way, I think I did the same for him. ☺

437: Update

2009-05-21T08:24:00.000-07:00

Everything's fine now. We have to move on sooner or later.

Went to the Zoo (again) with my partner yesterday. As usual, he complained about the heat. But I wiped his sweat for him. At one point it took 3 tissues to dry his face and hair. Boy, can that man sweat. Hahaha.

We left at about 4.30pm, and headed to AMK Hub to watch Angels & Demons.

Will upload the photos another time. :D

436: Came back

2009-05-05T22:41:00.000-07:00

We came back on Sunday. The wake lasted 5 days. I can't bear to write everything down in words. Then it was back to work on Monday.

435: Letting Go

2009-04-28T07:44:00.000-07:00

My ah ma has gone.

434: My dream

2009-04-21T22:05:00.000-07:00

I dreamt of my ah ma last night. After we received the news from Malaysia, my ma called my 1st aunt to ask her if she wants to go back and see ah ma for the last time, because she hasn't been back there for quite some time. Actually it's been years. And back when ah ma was healthy and fit enough to travel, at times she would come over to Singapore to visit us, and she would go and see my 1st aunt too. Actually, come to think of it, I have never seen my 1st aunt visit my ah ma in Malaysia before. I don't know the reason why but she just refuses to leave the country. She rarely even leaves her house.

The weirdest part of the dream was that my ah ma was healthy in it, ike 2 or 3 years ago. I really want her to be alright. I want her to be healthy. But I'm not really that close to her. Partly because I live in Singapore, and partly because I'm just one out of her 38 grandchildren. Come to think of it, when you are losing someone, you regret having not spend more time with that person. I just have to tell myself that this is part of life. People are born, people will die.

This is a photo of my ah ma, it was taken last year.

433: Tattoo blues

2009-04-20T20:18:00.000-07:00

We went to Changi Airport T3 yesterday. Before that we went to Expo to see if there were any interesting things to see. But sadly there was only a furniture fair and a John Little sale. Then walked around a bit and went to T3. We had Popeye's chicken, as usual. Then walked around and sat at the place where we can view the planes. He leaned on my shoulder and napped for a bit, until my shoulder ached and I shrugged him off.

Then we walked around and went to Harris bookstore. I saw this book about tattoos. I was super engrossed in it. It included the history of tattoos and all. And even had many many tattoo designs and the meaning behind each classification of each tattoo design. You know the genre of music I listen to, so easily I'm influenced by my idols. They have tattoos all over their bodies. It's like their bodies are the canvas for artists, in this case tattoo artists.

So the bf came over and saw what I was reading, I told him I wanted this book. He wasn't too happy about it. Then I told him if I got this book, I might want a tattoo, and after the first one I will want more. He walked away. I put the book back. Then he sulked the rest of the way while sending me home.

After that, on the phone I told him I will not have a tattoo, because I know he would be furious if I did. He told me it's my skin and my body. I can do whatever I like with it. But after a while, he told me that he will never allow me to get a tattoo, because it's ugly and dirty. Even if I got a small one, I will get a bigger one the next time.

I wanted to get a tattoo of Avenged Sevenfold's Deathbat, which looks like this:

But I realized that it's too rough. Then I decided I'm happy with just a small one. Maybe a 力量 on my wrist.

But that's the end of the story. I will never have a tattoo.

432: Update on this week

2009-04-18T00:35:00.000-07:00

Monday

Family came back from Malaysia. Seems like there's nothing very very serious with my ah ma, but still, her time is nearing, but it may take a while. My sister found out that the BF stayed over, because I had forgotten to keep his towel, toothbrush, and shaver. And somehow my ma found out too. I think they were suspicious in the first place. They confronted me, I admitted, they didn't say anything after that. Teehee.

Tuesday

Went for a 4hr grooming course at work. The man taught us how to walk, to sit down, to iron our uniform properly blah blah. As if we didn't know all that already. The lady taught us how to apply make-up, match the colours of our make-up to our uniform, style our hair blah blah. This was kind of useful. They even had us take before-and-after photos, of us with and without make-up. They said they had to submit to HR. WTH. We got a box of make-up brushes and eye-shadow colours for free.

Wednesday

Common off day with the BF. It was also the first day of the launch for The Peak here at Toa Payoh, the DBSS flat that they have started to build now. We took our queue number and proceeded to wait for about an hour before our numbers were called and we went in. We met another one of the BF's army mates. I was so shy. His friends are all so adult-y. But I'm still so very young adult-y. You know what I mean.

Oh my gosh. I loved the 5-room high-ceiling living room, but it costs a frigging $720,000. The 4-room was okay, there wasn't a show flat for the 3-room. But the 4-room costs about $480,000. If I could I would buy the 4-room, but we can't afford that now. Sigh. What a waste, if it was under HDB and a lot cheaper, I'm sure we would have applied for a unit without a moment's hesitation. It's only a 5-mins walk from the MRT station, and right across the street from my parents' place. Haiz. If only.

Thursday

Work. Boring work.

Today

Went to Marina Square with Huling after work. Reached there at about 8.30pm, we had no time for dinner so I grabbed 2 breads from BreadTalk to munch while walking, while Huiling munched on her Subway cookies. We went to Marina Square because Huiling wanted to buy her jeans. I wanted to see if there were anything worth buying. But I saw nothing I liked, as usual. I want to shop! But can't seem to find anything I like. But the things I like are so frigging expensive, like that darned DBSS flat. SIGH.

431: Update

2009-04-12T18:36:00.000-07:00

My family left for Malaysia on Saturday afternoon. My younger sister left me an sms and off they went. They've gone to see ah ma. One of my cousins would be driving down to Singapore so they can catch a free ride back.

I called them just now. My cousin and my aunt both answered the phone just after one ring. I guess they're anxious for any phone calls. I asked my ma how was ah ma doing. She said she's alright. She's eating porridge and drinking milk, so her stomach is not entirely empty. I asked if she can talk, my ma said yes, once in a while. She's got dementia, which makes her forget people. But ah ma remembers my ma, if she doesn't, my ma will be devastated. Ah ma doesn't recognize my pa, but it's not surprising, because it's been some time since my pa visited her. It's only right that he goes over now. I'm glad the situation isn't as bad as we thought. My ah ma even said to my family that there's no need to go see her, everything's fine.

The BF came over to stay with me last night, else I'll be alone at home, and who knows what kind of inner demons would be unleashed from the back of my head. I'll probably be thinking up loads of horrible things. But he's gone to work now, and I'll be alone tonight.

I'll just occupy myself with One Piece until I fall asleep. And hope they'll be back when I return from work tomorrow.

430: Looming death

2009-04-08T08:13:00.000-07:00

Our family received bad news from Malaysia yesterday. Our grandmother's time is drawing near. My mother is able to take the news calmly, because she has already mentally prepared herself months ago. I hadn't expect it to be so soon. I am weeping as I write this post, because death in the family is my biggest weakness, it saddens and terrifies me more than anything.

Whatever conflicts or unhappiness at work or among friends, any unpleasantness going on right now is at the back of my mind. The only thing that is occupying my mind is my grandmother, I want to go back and see her for the last time, before it is too late.

I envy those who have their family close to them in Singapore. It's at times like this when all you want to do is to run over to see them, be with them, for the last few precious moments. But they are so far away.

I came home last night and saw my ma watching TV, but she rubbed her swollen and red eyes when she saw me, at once I knew that my mother is not as strong as I thought. I myself cannot imagine my own mother dying. I can feel the pain that my mother is feeling.

I cannot stand the solemn and dark air in the house.

429: Update

2009-04-07T00:13:00.000-07:00

Work has been hectic for quite a while, but finally our financial year stock take is done. Time to rest. Am taking 2 days of annual leave this month, going to have some romantic-ness with the BF. It's been quite a while.

Tomorrow's Ubin plan has been canceled.

I realize that I'm tired. Of work, of friends, of trying to please people.

Give me a deserted island. I want to be alone for a little while.