tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-89004532009-12-21T11:48:27.119+04:00Heaven, Earth and HellBornConfuzedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03218390217469455529noreply@blogger.comBlogger181125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8900453.post-68515324919225197132009-11-25T17:50:00.002+04:002009-11-26T15:37:48.678+04:00My baby turned six =)It was a hot Sunday afternoon in an apartment in London city. There was loud relentless crying coming from the stuffy living room, a scared child amidst more scared adults. What was going on? What's wrong with her? Another child stood near the door, thinking she was to blame, she started crying too. I came down, the heat intolerable, nose stuffed with tissue paper, feeling drowsy and tired. Will BornConfuzedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03218390217469455529noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8900453.post-22402870682926286842009-11-20T12:31:00.000+04:002009-11-20T12:31:47.230+04:00Quarter-life crisisYet again I find myself at a point in time where I resent my life. I find no meaning in my day, no passion or drive.
Have I hit quarter life crisis already?
I spent more than 21 years of my 25 years on this planet as a student. Kindergarten, elementary school, preparatory school, high school and the infamous seven years of med school. Exactly ten days after my last exam I started my internshipBornConfuzedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03218390217469455529noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8900453.post-87706350332490255212009-11-09T11:46:00.000+04:002009-11-09T11:43:09.432+04:00قال رسول الله صلى الله عليه و سلم:
"رأيت قوما من أمتي على منابر من نور، يمرون على الصراط كالبرق الخاطف، نورهم تشخص منه الأبصار، لا هم بالأنبياء، و لا هم بالصديقين، و لا هم بالشهداء، إنهم قوم تقضى على أيديهم حوائج الناس."
صدق رسول الله صلى الله عليه و سلم.
Empower your Business with BlackBerry® and Mobile Solutions from EtisalatBornConfuzedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03218390217469455529noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8900453.post-65693703576618257692009-09-30T23:14:00.000+04:002009-09-30T23:20:26.686+04:00Goodbye"You died in my arms. You died in my arms! You freakin' died and then you left instructions that I was not allowed to save your life. You wanna know what I am scared of? I am scared of everything! I'm scared to move. I'm scared to breathe. I'm scared to touch you. I can't lose you. I won't survive. And that's your fault. You made me love you. You made me let you in and then you freakin' die in myBornConfuzedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03218390217469455529noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8900453.post-33881644546047054762009-09-26T20:12:00.001+04:002009-09-26T20:12:40.124+04:00"The mud clings to my shoes, muffling my footsteps, and I wipe off only a bit. It leaves a greasy residue on my fingers, but I'm in no hurry to rinse away the rich organic sediment trapped under my fingernails. It's the antithesis of my studies, an immersion in a life of the mind that encourages withdrawal from all that is physical. Surrounded by the library's marble walls, carefully modulated BornConfuzedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03218390217469455529noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8900453.post-40450239220848967062009-09-16T05:57:00.000+04:002009-09-16T05:58:50.454+04:00حدثنا محمد بن عبد الله بن نمير حدثنا أبي حدثنا الأعمش عن أبي صالح عن أبي هريرة قال قال رسول الله صلى الله عليه وسلم : (قاربوا وسددوا واعلموا أنه لن ينجو أحد منكم بعمله قالوا يا رسول الله ولا أنت قال ولا أنا إلا أن يتغمدني الله برحمة منه وفضل).
و بكى صلى الله عليه وسلم: (لو آخذني الله و ابن مريم بما كسبت هاتين) يديه، (لعذبنا عذابا شديدا).
رواه بخاري و مسلم.
Empower your Business with BlackBerryBornConfuzedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03218390217469455529noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8900453.post-13503191051932135412009-09-15T06:37:00.003+04:002009-09-15T07:12:42.840+04:00Very superior intelligenceTaking IQ tests when you are sick and sleep deprived may not be the most intelligent idea!
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120-140 Very superior intelligence
110-120 Superior intelligence
90-110 Normal or average intelligence
80-90 Dullness
70-80 Borderline deficiency
Below 70 Definite feeble
DoBornConfuzedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03218390217469455529noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8900453.post-47700651907012393222009-09-08T16:24:00.000+04:002009-09-08T16:20:08.260+04:00Bas..I don't have it in me to fight life, for my life.
I admit it, I lose, you win.
What more lessons do you have to teach me?
You killed my soul, shattered my dreams, and crippled me every time I tried to rise after a fall.
Isn't it time for my sun to shine?
How much longer should I stumble in this darkness?
Haven't I been punished enough?
What more sadness should I endure?
How much hollower am I BornConfuzedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03218390217469455529noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8900453.post-65272982338093356202009-09-05T16:37:00.002+04:002009-09-05T16:40:01.118+04:00I am blank.BornConfuzedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03218390217469455529noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8900453.post-65555731399478070292009-08-23T20:18:00.000+04:002009-08-23T20:15:42.174+04:00Ramadan KareemAnd the second day of Ramadan came to an end.
May Allah accept our fast and our prayers, and grace us with his mercy and blessings. May he accept our repentance and forgive us. May he purify our souls and hearts and lead us to the path of righteousness.
Empower your Business with BlackBerry® and Mobile Solutions from EtisalatBornConfuzedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03218390217469455529noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8900453.post-45737828215947769702009-08-15T09:49:00.000+04:002009-08-15T09:46:44.547+04:00I believe...In feeling beautiful at any age and size.
In family fridays, despite the loud conversations, the heated debates, the noisy children, and missing me time.
In rewatching classics.
In planning ahead, and sticking to them.
In striving for your own academic advancement, even if it means committing to a couple of hours of daily studyinig less than two months after graduation.
In diamonds, they are BornConfuzedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03218390217469455529noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8900453.post-34054503530359236892009-08-12T21:36:00.000+04:002009-08-12T21:34:00.234+04:00TestingTesting 1, 2, 3.
Empower your Business with BlackBerry® and Mobile Solutions from EtisalatBornConfuzedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03218390217469455529noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8900453.post-28838290553133795092009-08-01T07:49:00.000+04:002009-08-01T08:01:45.825+04:00previously on bornconfuzed...Started workDriving under probationJoined health factoryWorking outTried to get in touch with old "friends", received with coldnessMaking new friends at workGot addicted to the coolest online storeRenovating my roomTook care of my back I need to write to ventilate. I don't know why I am ignoring that need.BornConfuzedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03218390217469455529noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8900453.post-90601196690632789182009-06-24T17:33:00.002+04:002009-06-29T19:41:49.231+04:00Finally =)أقسم بالله العظيم أن أراقب الله في مهنتى وأن أصون حياة الإنسان في كافة أدوارها.. في كل الظروف والأحوال باذلا وسعي في استنقاذها من الهلاك والمرض والألم والقلق وأن أحفظ للناس كرامتهم. وأستر عورتهم، وأكتم سرهم وأن أكون على الدوام من وسائل رحمة الله، باذلا رعايتي الطبية للقريب والبعيد، والصالح والخاطىء، والصديق والعدو وأن أثابر على طلب العلم، وأسخره لنفع الإنسان... لا لأذاه وأن أوقر من علمني، وأعلم BornConfuzedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03218390217469455529noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8900453.post-63734768897725267242009-06-14T19:16:00.003+04:002009-06-14T19:20:49.991+04:00Mercy184 brutal questions over 4.5 hours daunting hours. Half way through I had a sudden urge to yank my hair, "al6um" and run screaming out of the examination hall.I am exhausted, emotionally and physically. Breathe in, breathe out, off I go to study some more.One down, three more to go.Ya musah'hil!BornConfuzedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03218390217469455529noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8900453.post-67263543365987852372009-06-09T10:58:00.002+04:002009-06-09T11:05:16.056+04:0016 more days to go!ليش كل ما أصكر عيوني يطلعلي الامتحان؟ و ليش كل الأسئلة تعجيزية؟ و ليش السؤال اللي أعرف أجاوبه، أفز بنصه من الرقاد؟!ست أسابيع مب متهنية بالرقاد! خلاص تعبت!و دورولي حل ويا هالصداعBornConfuzedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03218390217469455529noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8900453.post-24161920999026682872009-05-31T15:48:00.001+04:002009-05-31T15:49:16.066+04:00I need to know there's more to life than this.I need to see the silver lining.I need to reach my own happy ending.BornConfuzedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03218390217469455529noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8900453.post-70768210133441346022009-05-24T22:48:00.003+04:002009-05-25T15:03:24.721+04:00Ya mu3eenWe are spending almost every waking moment revising, asking each other questions, counselling, breaking bad news, whatever it takes to get that piece of information to consolidate. From the moment we open our eyes, till the moment we fall asleep, we bombard each other with questions, in the hopes that maybe we will be asked this question, or somehow it will miraculously be in the exam. Why doees BornConfuzedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03218390217469455529noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8900453.post-2213965177809827642009-05-22T23:28:00.002+04:002009-05-22T23:39:45.624+04:00Count DownI'm almost there, at the end of the line. The moment I have been working for for all those years. All seven years, all eighty exams, all 1120 commuting hours, all early mornings, all sleepless nights, all coffee cups, all 8 to 9s were all means to this day.I am scared but thrilled. I am hesitant yet hopeful.I haven't had a peaceful night in a month now, every time I close my eyes I'm at a stationBornConfuzedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03218390217469455529noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8900453.post-36178849025722615002009-05-08T12:21:00.001+04:002009-05-08T12:23:08.457+04:00WitDeath, be not proud, though some have called theeMighty and dreadful, for thou are not so;For those whom thou think'st thou dost overthrowDie not, poor Death, nor yet canst thou kill me.From rest and sleep, which but thy pictures be,Much pleasure; then from thee much more must flow,And soonest our best men with thee do go,Rest of their bones, and soul's delivery.Thou'art slave to fate, chance, BornConfuzedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03218390217469455529noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8900453.post-3766905852380779952009-04-06T15:30:00.003+04:002009-04-06T15:46:59.003+04:00TormentedI have strangled my conscience, stuck a sock in its mouth to muffle its sounds, locked it in a dark corner and lost the key. I don't hear its voice anymore. I need it now more than ever before. But it is asleep and the cries of my agonized soul are uncapable of waking it up. I am afraid it will never wake up. I am afraid it is dead. I am afraid I killed it. I am afraid my burdened soul cannot BornConfuzedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03218390217469455529noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8900453.post-38749863443499462792009-03-31T20:42:00.002+04:002009-04-06T15:57:38.271+04:00Kiss the RainEarly morning in the parking lot, I bumped into a friend I had not seen in a while right before her exam. The first thing she said with a huge smile on her face was "I'll take that as a good omen". It made my day =)I totally out-did myself(and everyone else for that matter) by showing up with two heads at a costume party. It was scarily creative =)You are weird. I have been getting that quite a BornConfuzedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03218390217469455529noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8900453.post-82256339580950325982009-03-07T17:41:00.004+04:002009-03-07T18:34:39.409+04:00In last week's episode of BornConfuzed...An ENT surgeon told me I have a "bulbous" nose. I always loved my nose and thought it was my best feature. Now, every time I look at myself in the mirror, I zoom in on my "bulbous" nose, and I it makes me feel ugly!Got addicted to apple and ginger tea. No sugar added. Yum. I am trying to replace my java addiction with different kinds of tea, so far this is my favorite.Complained about tactless BornConfuzedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03218390217469455529noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8900453.post-28557086188789397052009-02-28T23:45:00.005+04:002009-03-07T17:57:22.226+04:00Random blabber part 2I will finally admit this; I don't have any muscle mass. My core is so weak, it might as well be jello! I almost died doing pilates. Not only did I have to do the modified moves, I could not hold the positions long enough. The session was nauseatingly painful, and I'm still sore, two days later. Long gone are the days I considered myself athletic. I need to admit that to myself and start from BornConfuzedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03218390217469455529noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8900453.post-18493843952025510332009-02-25T23:45:00.004+04:002009-02-26T00:03:58.335+04:00Random blabberFour years I've been doing something wrong. Today someone taught me the right way of doing it. Imagine, four years, and all I needed was a tweak in my technique. It was like someone suddenly switched on the lights!I colored the tips of my nails with a yellow felt-pen I was using as a highlighter while studying. Now, my nails have a yellow dirty tinge. Nasty!There's something called over-sharing. BornConfuzedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03218390217469455529noreply@blogger.com0