tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8824478.post-1126649419551469362005-09-13T15:11:00.000-06:002005-09-13T16:10:19.633-06:00Haven't posted in a good week or so. Here is a little update on what's been going on with me since you heard from me last. Went to a riders game, fell off the church stage onto my back four times, helped with kickoff weekend, drove a stock car, garage got graffitti'd, went to two blades games, recruited 4 leaders, bought four new fish, mowed my grass, bought nhl o6 and madden o6, (for very cheap might I add). And a bunch of other random stuff I am sure. It sounds busy....maybe even exciting but it wasn't really. There were some exciting things like driving a stock car and the blades hockey tournament, other things that made me mad like my garage getting hit (I have a target on me I swear!). Anyways...quite lovely. <br /><br /><strong>It's just one of those days</strong><br /><em>This could be read as a poem or something...but really, it's just how I feel today</em><br /><br />Why I feel like blogging today. Well I have been at the church for 3.5 hours this afternoon and I haven't done a thing. Other than look at houses, cars and jobs. <br />It is just one of those days. <br />Not one of those "good" days as you would put it. More one of those "bad" days. It seems as though in full time ministry these days come more often than for others, but who is to say really. It's just a day where I just want to quit this whole ministry thing, find a well paying job, have no worries about my income, etc. <br />Just one of those days...<br />Ministry is so strange...for those of you in it or close to someone who is you may be able to relate. It's not really a job, it's a life. For me...I am fully engaged in this 24/7 in my mind, body and soul. There is no escaping it. I can't watch a movie w/o looking for video clips. I can't watch tv without figuring out the characters problem. I can't read a book without taking quotes from it. When they say full time it's full time. Even if it's part time, it's still full time. Maybe this is me just complaining and having alot of self pity but...<br />It's just one of those days. <br />I am sad, I feel burned out and the year hasn't started. I feel like crying and being comforted but there is no one around. <br />It's just one of those days. <br />I worry about my money because I don't seem to have very much. Maybe I shouldnt worry about it, but if I run out of money. I am in big trouble. It would be very easy to find a better paying job than this. Very very easy. But is that really what I want. Today it is...tommorrow it might not be. Who know's. <br />It's just one of those days. <br />So today I have just sat and stared at this screen for abit. Then at the wall for abit. Trying to figure out my options. Trying to figure out my life. Trying to figure out why no one has asked me if I am ok today. Yet I am no further ahead. Probably further behind. But I guess...<br />IT's just one of those days. <br /><br /><br /><br />A dream of mine : To be a full time speaker, wether it be christian, motivational, whatever. That is where my heart is. That is what I enjoy the most. <br /><br />A dream of mine : To maybe someday run or work on a ranch. Maybe it's the farm kid coming out in me. The lifestyle is not easy, but it's laid back. It's at peace. I am tired of feeling restless. <br /><br />A dream of mine : To be a hockey scout. Wouldn't that be the best job in the world. If you like hockey?<br /><br />A dream of mine : To write a book that inspires people or helps people in their job or life. <br /><br />A dream I once had : TO become a full time youth pastor with no schooling, just experience. Maybe the problem is I am living my dream right now but am feeling like the next one is taking to long to come or I am not doing anything to get me there? Who know's? <br /><br />A perk...<br /><br />I just had a phone call from the president of a sports business and scouting school. For an interview to take a course. Interesting...<br /><br />That's all for now, I need to go and look at the wall some more :)<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8824478-112664941955146936?l=thomasmillroy.blogspot.com'/></div>Thomashttp://www.blogger.com/profile/06411026363317321615noreply@blogger.com3