Preparing for Pregnancy with HG

this time last year

2007-11-22T22:21:00.000-08:00

Today I remembered where I was last year. I was terribly sick in bed and pissed because I couldn't enjoy thanksgiving. Now this thanksgiving I am miserable I don't have my baby.

The feeling of not being woman enough to carry a child is weighing on me. I couldn't do it because I was so sick. It is an emptiness that has haunted me.

I can't even talk about it. My family gets this glazed look in there eyes when I bring any aspect of the situation up. Then we have to move on to another subject, because it would be wrong for anyone besides myself to be miserable.

We have been talking about just getting pregnant again and getting the help I need this time because my family knows what to do. But seriously, how bad would I have had to get before they would have got me help anyway? I don't know if I can trust them.

It has been a while

2007-10-23T21:45:00.000-07:00

My career is keeping me entirely too busy. I am always rushing and doing one thing after the other.

I don't know when I will ever get the time to get pregnant. Sometimes I think it might just be better that way. I seem to have had more than enough chances. I can still hope.

With that said my only child just turned 10 on oct. 21st. She is the light of my life. She was an HG baby. I was sick for the first 3 months with her. Agonizing misery. Vomit, ratty hair, withering body, and red gatorade. thats all that life had consisted of. And to figure how something so beautiful and happy came out of something so miserable and ugly is just one of my better accomplishments.

I am going to post here as often as time permits. I often come across interesting links concerning HG and you will find them posted here.

we have moved... and an updated plan

2007-09-10T16:57:00.000-07:00

We have moved. I now live in Stockton,Ca. The place is cuter and the rent is cheaper. This is one step towards getting pregnant again... less rent!

My husband and I have devised a plan for income when I get pregnant. I currently have a pretty neat part time job that i don't want to lose. I take pictures of cars for used car dealers and upload them to the internet. I do about 10 car dealers and will be marketing soon so I will hopefully have a couple more accounts.

Anyway the place we just moved to is a big Victorian house divided into 3 apartments. The landlord lives about 1 1/2 hours away and manages other properties also. He decided to give us the place because my husband is a handyman. He can rip out and install cupboards and counter tops and windows. He can wire for the electricity, paint, he can do it all really. So hes going to be doing handyman stuff around here. Hes going to try to turn it into a full time job with in the next year. Then before I get pregnant I will train him to do my job and he will take over the cars for about 3 months. I know it might sound far fetched, but we have been making things happen lately. Of course the plan might change like it has in the past 8 months since we decided that we wanted to get pregnant again. We just have to be smart about it all. We have to make sure we have an income while i'm pregnant and after.

We are really determined to get pregnant. I'm sure all those who have, are or will be dealing with a HG pregnancy know it is a very trying time, but you want that little baby so bad. At the same time too, you don't want to jeopardized your family thats already here. It is a difficult matter and planning for it will only make us succeed.

Its Just Depressing

2007-08-22T16:17:00.001-07:00

I haven't been writing here I think because the subject really depresses me. I want to have another child so bad and it just can't happen now. I am really struggling with previous pregnancies that were terminated or lost. Especially the last one 8 months ago.

I am very frustrated that I didn't get the help I deserved. Every time I see a pregnant woman it is all I can do to hold back the tears. My daughter is about to turn 10 and I just keep thinking that I want to do this soon. I am only 30, but I feel like time is just flying by. I guess that would be that biological clock ticking away.

I hate that I get so sick when I get pregnant. I can't stand hearing how most women bearly get sick and pop kids out left and right.

I really want to try again, but I just can't now. So my days are filled with things that keep my mind else where so I don't burst in to tears every moment of the day.

Hyperemesis gravidarum - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

2007-07-26T23:36:00.000-07:00

Hyperemesis gravidarum - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Here is the Wikipedia entry for HG.

what i need and what i don't

2007-07-25T12:54:00.000-07:00

Obviously I need loads of money to get pregnant again. Well not loads, but enough so I don't end up living in a shelter or worse, the gutter, puking my brains out.

I am having a hard time dealing with the fact that I can't have children normally. I mean I don't have infertility problems. I think this is gods evil way of installing birth control. I have terminated pregnancies due to HG. Ridicule me if you will, but if you ever had HG, you wouldn't blame me and you would know of other women that terminated due to HG, like I do.

I'm older now and a bit wiser, so I know getting pregnant by accident or planned won't help our situation at this moment in time.

I just want to scream and yell. At my mother, at my husband, at the doctor at the stupid county clinic that said I just wasn't sick enough.

YJHM: James S. Wilk, M.D., "Hyperemesis Gravidarum"

2007-07-21T20:59:00.000-07:00

YJHM: James S. Wilk, M.D., "Hyperemesis Gravidarum"

This is a poem written by A physician in internal medicine and medical disorders complicating pregnancy.

I like it. x;)

oooppps... its been over a month! an update and some HG links

2007-07-20T18:27:00.000-07:00

So no prego yet. We haven't been trying so its a good thing.

I don't know when Its going to happen. We are busy working and He will be the sole source of income if I get pregnant.

here is a link on some natural remedies for morning sickness and mentions HG http://healingherbs.wordpress.com/2007/07/18/morning-sickness/

here is a link to some HG facts
http://www.angelfire.com/fl/silentnight/index.html

and here is a slide show I found. These women walked 120 miles

a personal update

2007-06-17T01:51:00.000-07:00

It is getting pretty close to the time to try to conceive, yet I don't think we are going to try. I think we might wait a couple months. We have issues like MONEY (blah) that make it difficult to have an HG pregnancy.

That doesn't mean I won't be updating this blog. I have been running into some good stuff regarding accounts of HG or situations relating. I think I am in this for the long haul. "This " meaning HG education.

This i all very frustrating. I want to have another child, but a the same time I feel I am subjecting my family and myself to a death sentence. I can't talk enough about how HG can suck your life from you. I'm not talking about petty or vain life experiences. I am talking about finally going pee after holding it FOREVER (because you are too weak and sick to get up), because I will definitely piss myself if I don't.

There is never ending crying, vomiting, suicide thoughts, picturing your landlord throwing you and your family out of your home because there is no money for you pay rent. The horrible, doomed thoughts go on, what seems like, forever.

It is awful, but I have rights as a woman. I have exercised many rights as a woman and went through hell for it. This is no different.

Hyperemesis Gravidarum - WebMD

2007-06-17T01:21:00.000-07:00

The Web MD page for Hyperemesis Gravidarum.

The Raving Atheist

2007-06-17T01:19:00.000-07:00

The Raving Atheist

A post on a confrontation with Ashli McCall apparently around the time Ashli first got sick, and how this blogger gained a sort of respect, or at the least showed empathy.

Fructus Ventris

2007-06-17T01:08:00.000-07:00

Fructus Ventris: Everyone who cares for pregnant women should own this book

A post by a midwife endorsing Ashli McCall's book.

Mel’s Mundane Meanderings

2007-06-17T01:06:00.000-07:00

Morning sickness � Mel’s Mundane Meanderings

Here is a post about Ashli McCall's CNN interview and the author's own account of HG.

Heartfelt

2007-06-17T00:59:00.000-07:00

Heartfelt

This is an account of a woman who suffered from HG earlier this year.

Charlotte Bronte Might have Died from Hyperemesis Gravidarum

2007-06-15T17:15:00.000-07:00

I read this blog post on BronteBlog about how it was possible Charlotte Bronte died of Hyperemesis Gravidarum! I wonder how far back HG goes. I mean when was it first diagnosed?

Read the blog post here. (you have to scroll down about half way. The words "Hyperemesis Gravidarum" are linked.)

HG experience

2007-06-09T17:48:00.000-07:00

Here are some post relating to Silver's HG experience.

Click here to read.

CNN.com Video - Ashli McCall

2007-06-01T20:51:00.000-07:00

CNN.com Video - Ashli McCall

this is a video of Ashli McCall the author of the book
Beyond Morning Sickness -Battling Hyperemesis Gravidarum

That counter is putting on the pressure

2007-05-17T23:51:00.000-07:00

The days are getting less and less between the time I TTC and now. Sometimes I'm wondering what the hell I'm doing. Am I a glutton for punishment? No, I just want to exercise my womanly rights. I mean the level of sickness I go through is no joke. And only HG women can really identify with what I am saying.

There is a lot to be done still to get ready. After all it is less than a month and a half away!

counting down...

2007-05-14T22:55:00.000-07:00

it is getting nerve wracking waiting for this day. then I'm wondering what if I don't conceive that month? oh god... i don't know if i can handle waiting another month.

There is still things that have to be done, but they will get done by july 3rd.

i am even wondering if i will even want to write in my blogs when I am sick. Well Wouldn't it be wonderful if Id dint get sick? I know I will. but I am trying to be optimistic.

anyways... its getting closer...

nervous

2007-05-01T18:37:00.000-07:00

So its not that long until its time to try to conceive. I am so nervous. Sometimes I wonder what I am thinking. But I really want another child before time slips away.

I think of how sick I will get and it makes me sick thinking about it. But I know I have to go through that.

well this blog will be more active becasue the time is getting closer. If everything goes as planned I should be getting sick aroun the end of July. 3 months and two more period to go!

Allison Quets

2007-04-14T15:42:00.000-07:00

In all the Dr. Phil excitement (even though I didn't watch it :/) I didn't realize the story that was running with the HG segment. The story is of Allison Quets who suffered HG and was driven to put her babies up for adoption. I wasn't sure what the story was about at first or if it was even related to HG. I finally went to the website set up to aid this woman in her legal fees and release from prison.

Now that I know the facts I am extremely upset with our system. That woman was sick and didn't have a damn soul who understood her or what she was going through. She was taken advantage of and now is being imprisoned for being a mother.

This is just another example of the government's ignorance ion women's issues.

Here is her web site. Support Allison http://www.allisonquets.com

Dr. Phil Show Transcript

2007-04-13T22:10:00.000-07:00

I didn't watch the show. I have a cold and had an obligation to get ready for so I skipped it.

Here is the link to the show. Click on The Hell of Hyperemesis.

This is going to be a rough journey for me. Its fabulous that this issue has gotten some national coverage. But I already know what the hell is and what it can do to your head.

I need all the well wishers and support I can get.

My friend Valinda Has signed on for cleaning and to take me scheduled appointments when shes needed. In return I am going to help her paint the inside of her house. :)

Things are coming together.

hyperemesis gravidarum on Dr. Phil

2007-04-11T21:31:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow April 12th Dr. Phil will air a segment on HG. This is the first time HG is getting national television coverage. I hope people will watch. This is a horrible thing that happens to women. It might be a small percentage of us ( I'm the only one in my whole family) that it happens to but it is there and it is real.

It is also horrible. It is not just morning sickness. It is uncontrollable vomiting, dry heaving and misery. Music makes you sick, certain things on the T.V. make you sick, thinking about everyday living makes you sick. It makes you sick and depresses you. Its a horrible condition.

Even if you don't watch, make sure to look it up.

purchases

2007-04-10T14:11:00.000-07:00

I am going to buy my shower seat and my bed tray this weekend or early next week. These are ESSENTIAL for me. It will make bathing, eating and working on my laptop much more comfortable.

Conceiving time is only 3 months away. I am very nervous and excited as well.

I'll be going in soon to talk to doctors so I'm going to be gathering all my information (articles, web addresses, etc.) plus the questionnaire i posted before.

moon time and things to ask doctors

2007-04-01T11:32:00.000-07:00

Well I started my period yesterday (3-31-07) So thats 3 more until its time TC....

I will be talking to doctors in the very near future and I was actually wondering what to ask. A list I have compiled goes a little like this:

do you treat HG?
How do you treat HG?
Are drugs covered?
Under what circumstance would I be admitted to the hospital?
Is there home therapy?
Will you sign my disability papers?

So those wll be the topics of discussion with al the ob/gyn's at kaiser. :)