Daddy needs to lie down

We bought a house.

2007-09-10T13:23:00.000-04:00

We bought a house. We're moving. Back to Dracut, of all places. The move should happen late october / early november, but there is lots to do.

Slowly freaking out.

Hawkman Hover Cycle

2007-08-28T10:38:00.001-04:00

Hawkman Hover Cycle, originally uploaded by quibx.

First time playing with a drummer in what.... 10 years?

Flickr and the dead camera

2007-07-23T12:48:00.000-04:00

Ironic, that they day I sign up for a flickr pro account, my camera dies on me. I'm calling olympus today to see what they can do, but it looks like I will be spending some cash to fix it.

In the meantime, looky - new photos!

2007-06-26T12:44:00.000-04:00

2007-06-21T12:31:00.001-04:00

2007-06-06T09:48:00.001-04:00

Bacon Birthday

2007-05-23T11:23:00.000-04:00

I had a bacon birthday

Bacon wrapping paper:

Bacon Air Freshener:

Bacon Cake:

A good day was had:

More here

http://family.quibx.com/gallery/v/Family/2007/Bacon/

2007-04-05T08:19:00.001-04:00

Soon I discovered that this rock thing was true

2007-04-04T22:13:00.000-04:00

Soon I discovered that this rock thing was true
Jerry lee lewis was the devil
Jesus was an architect previous to his career as a prophet
All of a sudden, I found myself in love with the world
So there was only one thing that I could do
Was ding a ding dang my dang a long ling long

So, this book I am working on, it is not going the way I wanted it to. Instead of being co-author, it looks like I am ending up just as a contributor. Hell, I doubt my name will be on the cover, although my website will be. The book will be co-branded, with S7's logo on top and CDX at the bottom. S7 did most of the work, the layout, the essays... they are handling the production, distribution, and shouldering all the costs. I guess I just imagined me having more of a hand in things...

Still, I will be part of a book, and it will be for sale, and you will be able to buy it. So that is kind of cool.

It is going to be published by these guys http://www.gingkopress.com/

Things here are on autopilot. I go to San Francisco in 2 weeks, for business, to attend the web 2.0 expo.

Work is paying for it, I have spending money, hotel, etc... Should be fun. Never been that far west before. When I come back, it is going to be chaos.

When I sat down to write, I planned to talk about all that ails me. I thought, maybe it will be a weight off of my heavy head. Now, the urge is gone.

Well, maybe not.

Has it ever seemed like things are spiraling out of control? They say that you are in the drivers seat, that you are in control of your destiny. But are you really?

Things seem to be spinning so fast. Everything seems like a chore. I have an office full of free toys to open and play with, and I have no desire to do so.

Point. Click. Buy. Receive. Repeat.

If this were drugs I would have been dead long ago.

Mondays

2007-04-02T09:03:00.001-04:00

This morning was very much a monday morning. Cold, Dreary, bleh....

I was driving to work when I spied it out of the corner of my eye. Next to someone's garbage, was a tall vinyl Peter Griffin! I had to have it. I whipped a U-turn and snagged him.

He has a hole in his leg, but this enormous Peter Griffin is now on my desk at work. And as a bonus, he talks!

Now, monday rocks.

Parenting

2007-03-14T11:21:00.001-04:00

P3114313, originally uploaded by quibx.

Being a parent is tough work. It is quite possibly the toughest job one could ever have. Not only do your decisions and actions affect the here and now, they affect the future. You're shaping a person here.

Last night Nathan was giving us a real hard time about going to bed. His thing is now that he didn't get enough time to play. Never mind that he rode his bike ourside for hours, played with dragons, played video games and more.

My wife tries to lay down with him in our bed until she has to go to work but he is just crying. I take over when she has to leave and manage to calm him down. he gets up and has to go to the bathroom. When he comes back, he starts all over again.

I was done. I say, go to bed and leave the room.

Around 10pm i hear a noise behind me in my office and he is right there behind me.

Now you are starting to piss me off.

he starts crying

Through the blubbering comes something that sounds like;

"Bawuheyewahnnasweeponnacow!"

What?

he wanted to sleep on the couch. Fine, sleep on the couch.

Half hour later, he is unconscious on the couch.

4 am Justin is in my room.

"Hi Daddy"

Hi. Come into bed.

Justin crawls into bed. And stays sleeping until I get up at 7.

Yay parenting.

Frustrating

2007-03-13T10:07:00.001-04:00

P3114307, originally uploaded by quibx.

It frustrates me to see people doing all the things i want to do, but better. It's a harsh realization that I will never be as good as I want to be at all of the things I desire.

There are better artists

Better Musicians

Better Parents

Better Husbands

Why can't I be better at something?

Duncan

2007-03-12T11:22:00.001-04:00

P3114297, originally uploaded by quibx.

This is my dog, Duncan.

I almost killed him this weekend. He has been driving me nuts and I have come to the realization that I am not in a place where we can have a dog in the house. I know, we've been down this road before. I thought I was better, but I guess I am not.

My house is already crowded enough.

Times Square 2007

2007-03-08T10:27:00.001-05:00

Times Square 2007, originally uploaded by quibx.

I've been kind of anxious lately. Every time I sit down to write i get nervous, distracted.. I just hit delete. Who wants to read this shit anyway?

My job is starting to suck, if only a little.

Our tax refund check literally blew away. Right out of my wife's hand at the mailbox. We can't find it. The MA DOR can't cut us another check for 30 days.

Shooting pool tongight, but what it really is is a thinly disguised intervention.

Be seeing you.

Toy Fair Floor

2007-03-01T21:04:00.001-05:00

021207_11501.jpg, originally uploaded by quibx.

Toy fair took a lot out of me, suprisingly. The thing was massive, but I think it was a combination of the cold and the company. I don't do well traveling with other people. Eventually they all get on my nerves.

Thumbs up

2007-03-01T09:34:00.001-05:00

100706_20481.jpg, originally uploaded by quibx.

I uploaded all of the pictures on my phone to flickr. I give Flickr the thumbs up. Prepare for retarded picture flood. This is me in the Batcave.

Times Square NYC 2007

2007-02-28T14:54:00.001-05:00

Times Square NYC 2007, originally uploaded by quibx.

Hello cats and kittens.

2007-02-26T09:55:00.000-05:00

Hello cats and kittens.

Friday Night was Gourmet night. There was some domestic disturbances at the hosts house, and we were tired, so we ducked out early.

Saturday we steam cleaned the cellar. Our neighbor came over and we troubleshot the lights in the cellar. The problem ended up being that a wire in one of the outlets was disconnected, breaking the circuit.

We then drank beer and ordered chinese food.

later that night, my wife went to work. I got in my PJ's ready for a night of playing with toys. But the phone rang, it was my wife. She locked her keys in the van, running, while trying to get un-stuck from the snow. So I drove out to her work in Andover and unlocked the van, then I had to push it out of the snow bank. At that point I just went home and watched Dr. Who.

Sunday we made a list of shit we needed and went to Home Depot. We got some new blinds for the kitchen, and a half dozen bulbs that were burnt out around the house. I spent the afternoon installing the new blinds, which look really nice.

Sunday night we just hung out and watched Simpsons and Family guy... then to bed.

What an average weekend.

flu

2007-02-21T12:57:00.001-05:00

flu i hate chu.

2007-01-28T16:03:00.001-05:00

Children of Menu

2007-01-14T17:36:00.000-05:00

So here I am at Panera. It is Sunday night, and Mike and I are hanging out. We just watched "Children of Men" at the theatre, and it was amazing. A really moving movie. It really makes you appreciate children, and what society would be like without them. I recomend you go see it.

i've been thinking a lot lately about the things I like: the movies, music, art and books I enjoy. It seems so random. I love japanese noise bands, and classical music. I love abstract art films, and retarted comedies. I love classic fine art like Wyeth, and new japanese pop artists, like Mori chax. So what thread holds these things together? What draws me to extremes.

Vision.

The power of a single statement. I have realized that all the things I seem to enjoy are the product of a singluar vision, seemingly untainted by outside factors. People who had an idea, and stuck through it to the end, not caving in to corporate pressure, or censors. Let me give a few examples, of things I really enjoy, and why.

Mike Patton. You may know him as the lead singer of Faith no More, but when you dig beneath the surface, Faith no More was just a gig. Mike patton is a visionary. All of his musical projects before and after FNM have been from the heart, all what HE wanted to do. I havent loved everything he has done, but it's all been at the very least innovative.

George Lucas. When star wars came out, it got rejected by more studios than i can count. But he
had a singular vision of a space opera inspired by flash gordon serials. he stuck itout, and did it his way, and that vision was pure and complete, at least until episode one.
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Avatar the Last Airbender. The vision of 2 guys, they plotted their story from start to finish, and what has resulted is one of the most remarkable TV series in recent years. Completely original in tone, story and substance.

hayao Miyazaki. Founder of studio ghibli, and the biggest animator in japan. his movies are some of my favorites. he handles every aspect of production. When one of his movies comes out, you know it has his stamp of approval and it is nothing less than magical.

perhaps this is why I hold so much mass media in contempt. Music designed by commitee. movies written by an army of people, but everyone ashamed to have their names on the credits. Concepts driven by commercial potential and dumbed down to placate the masses, any sign of creativity stifled to not offend.

We hold you on a pedestal, you innovators.

nagai go
mamorou oshii
takeshi kitano
George lucas
John Singer Sargeant
Aphex Twin
mobius

you are my heroes.

ikea

2007-01-07T22:12:00.000-05:00

What a weekend, so busy. Saturday I fixed my dryer.. that took pretty much all day, but it is now fixed. It hit 73 degrees here yesterday... Yes, I had the top down in the convertible. it was SOOOO nice out. We still haven't had any snow to speak of. Jan 7 and no snow. How odd. I kind of like it.

I accidentally locked my cat in my office last night and she took a big dump in the tent I use to shoot my photos in. Man it smelled in here, but its fine now. Spent half the day at IKEA looking for storage solutions for the girls room. 4 hours and $600 later, we are back. Took me 3 hours to assemble an armoire... got a bureau to do tomorrow...

For now I think I am going to catch up on HEROES... lots of it on the DVR...

I will probably be upgrading this to the new blogger, which allows protected posts. Would you be interested in that?

A gift for you

2006-12-21T11:00:00.000-05:00

Somewhere Over the Rainbow

JB122106

01. Eyes of the South - Down

02. A Pillar of Salt - The Thermals

03. Before you Snap - Yonderboi

04. Monster - Meg & Dia

05. Love Me or Hate Me - Lady Sovereign

06. Blindfolds Aside - Protest the Hero

07. The Wolf is loose - Mastodon

08. Rodeo - Zazie

09. Lets Make Love and Listen To Death From Above - CSS

10. Combat - Deftones

11. Monster - Meg & Dia

12. Alfie - Lily Allen

13. Remorse - Sarah Blasko

14. Somewhere Over the Rainbow / What a Wonderful World - Aselin Debison

Download Zip

Enjoy!

What a day.

2006-12-18T22:23:00.000-05:00

What a day.

It hasn't been a bad day, just a day. Work plodded along.. I went out to the mall for lunch to do some last minute shopping. My wife asked me to get a gift certificate for her sister, so i took the opportunity to get a few more stocking stuffers. Ended up being a 2 hour lunch.

I also hit Tower Records again. They are going out of business and they close for good on Wednesday. everything is at least 80% off. Got a bunch of cd's, dvd's, and even a toy. This is like the third time I have hit the store during its closing and I must have gotten 30 cds so far. I'm half-tempted to go again on Wednesday, just to see what it is like. 90%? who knows.

Last night I hung out with Mike for a bit. I feel bad sometimes, that I am not available to hang out more. Mike probably thinks I am avoiding him... But I make it a point to hang out whenever I can. We went to Tower first, then to the Java Room, and finally had dinner at the Olive Garden. Mike surprised me with a nice gift - a notebook with decoupage covers that he made himself. I can't tell you the last time someone MADE me a gift. It was very thoughtful and very appreciated.

My wife is sick. She has bronchitis, and has been couch-bound all day. As a result, the house is a mess. It is not her fault, she is sick, but the kids could help out more. Unfortunately, tonight was Rachel's chorus recital at the school, so Megan and I went to that and she stayed home with the boys. It was a wise move - it was so crowded... and hot. but they actually put on some amazing performances. There was a 7th grade girl who performed an acoustic song of her own creation, and it was really excellent - I think she will go places. Reminded me of Letters to Cleo.

So it is Christmas time... I'm not feelin it. Although I have caught myself singing Christmas songs in the mall. Last year I was SO depressed at Xmas.. This year, I am not so much depressed as I am not anything really. Just kind of ambivalent to the whole thing. We are hosting x-mas eve here this year again, and we are expecting lots of company, so hopefully once the party is into full swing I will get into it.

In Other News....

I am on a list called freecycle. its a mailing list where people post stuff they want to give away, and people post things they need. Well, I read a message about a mother who had no money for Christmas and couldn't buy her 7 year old son anything. This moved me, because no little boy should go present-less. 7 is a very formative year. So Mel and I went to Wal Mart and bought 60 dollars worth of toys, wrapped them, and then delivered them to their house. The lady cried, and all was good with the world. I did it for the kid, but somehow I expected it to make me feel a bit better...

I'm off to play in my second life...

Yay for you

2006-12-05T10:32:00.000-05:00

So hey look an update. Yay for you.

Life has been going on as usual, things are busy gearing up for the holidays. It definately does not feel like christmas. The only reason I am lookng forward to it so for the kids. Once they dont care about it any more what is the point? Each year i struggle to come up with ideas for gifts that are ultimately not used at all. last years toys sit unused at the bottom of toy bins. It's a shame really, my kids don't know how good they have it.

I haven't drawn anything lately, sorry.. Haven't been in the mood. been just too tired lately. I guess my creative burst of energy has passed. I suppose it comes in waves. I could FORCE myself to create, but I just don't want to. I guess that is what separates me from a true working artist. It comes and goes, I just can't force it.

I've been kind of a hermit lately... My wife has been working so much that I just seem to stay home all the time. I often don't ask people to hang out because they must get so bored with just hanging out at my house with me barely staying awake. i've been watching a lot of TV lately thanks to the DVR box. Recording Voltron, Oban Star Racers, Avatar, House, Heroes among others... There are a few other shows I forget to watch and I need to add to the list. I added the Office, and I need to add How I Met Your Mother.

Dave is in Japan right now. I am jealous. But would I even have a good time? I dunno. Guilt would probably make me depressed. I have to remind myself that I can't afford it anyway.

I reconnected with an old penpal through myspace, and it's been really cool... The wife saw it another way though. We had a tiff about it, and I think she is ok now, but she feels that I am unhappy with her, that i am reaching out to have my needs met. In a sense she is right, but not in the way she thinks. She cannot satisfy nostalgia, she can not engage in my nerddom, so yes, I reach out for that, but for love, compassion, and companionship, she is my wife.

blah blah blah..... Back to work.