glac le faoi rún

tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-84511802009-07-08T17:17:00.741-04:00glac le faoi rún.undercover adoptee.Joannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01859920588225741105noreply@blogger.comBlogger154125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8451180.post-85964464772806258432009-04-20T08:05:00.003-04:002009-04-20T08:17:15.804-04:00"I watched you..watch him. It was different. I want that."

There's a feeling. When he was little I watched you. I watched you..watch him.I saw you look at each other. It was different. I want that."Then She Found Me - Eleanor Lipman is it...denial? It has to be. In watching the movie Then She Found Me (which..the book kind of sucked. royally. but I love Bette Midler and felt it was my duty to endure..) there was a scene between the (adult)

Joannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01859920588225741105noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8451180.post-6174862656254169392009-04-16T09:33:00.003-04:002009-04-16T10:25:35.970-04:00"We'll sleep when we're dead."

I am exhausted in every sense of the word. The transition from Philadelphia back to Connecticut has been a bit difficult, and moreso, the transition from "student" to "unemployed". Moving in was a chore. Living here seems to be a chore as well. The neighbors don't seem to like us very much, and minus my paranoia, actually seem to have it out for us. I think their issue is that we are two

Joannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01859920588225741105noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8451180.post-20804491686996227992009-03-24T10:47:00.003-04:002009-03-24T11:08:12.669-04:00little Joanna with the big blue eyes?

Gradutaion is right around the corner. Three more days and I will no longer be considered a student! I will be saying goodbye to Philadelphia and 'hello' to Connecticut once again. I'm going to be a grown up! It's exciting and scary and sad and amazing and every emotion under the sun all rolled into one day. Amidst the excitement, however, there will be a touch of longing. S*, my first mother,

Joannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01859920588225741105noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8451180.post-21934687856120549142009-03-18T19:00:00.000-04:002009-03-18T19:01:45.252-04:00there must be a way to bring the two together;;

I had my final class today; the last class ever. It was a Marketing and Promotions final critique: 12 judges sat in the classroom while we each presented our materials and portfolio and were then judged on our "packages". I went in confident and assured. I came out in tears.They loved my commercial work; they hated my logo, but loved the photographs. We disagreed on individual images and their

Joannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01859920588225741105noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8451180.post-72094722249776012382009-03-15T20:24:00.003-04:002009-03-15T20:43:52.455-04:00you're not even really my sister;;

A friend from Connecticut came to visit for the weekend. It was refreshing because it's been years since I have been able to play 'tourist' in this city. We set out toward Independence Mall to hop on a double decker tour bus. We bought our tickets and decided to go to the bathroom before we embarked on the hour and a half city tour.In the terminal, I waited outside and held my friends purse while

Joannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01859920588225741105noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8451180.post-7909966577012459332009-03-12T18:15:00.001-04:002009-03-12T18:23:02.695-04:00yearning for the lost mother of childhood;

..I seem to have lost all the words for this post..

Joannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01859920588225741105noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8451180.post-48208904346407009012009-03-12T13:48:00.008-04:002009-03-12T13:57:11.668-04:00what do you mean i can't see you; i can always see you;;

So, like. Does Disney have some inherent need to make every mother character leave the child? Truth be told, I cried even just capping the Land Before Time picture. I haven't seen that movie in years because every time I've watched it, I just turn into a mess. So...now I'm projecting my 'mommy issues' onto cartoon characters? This can't be a good sign.

Joannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01859920588225741105noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8451180.post-67272733508783295322009-03-10T14:10:00.005-04:002009-03-10T14:24:21.788-04:00you'll be in my heart;;

Dear Poor, Neglected Blog;I'm here now. With a renewed sense of my adopted self.Thanks for your patience.Love,Joanna.This week (wait..it's only Tuesday) has been strangely packed with...triggers. All of them in the most unlikely of places. Or maybe not so unlikely. In any case, it has spawned the idea for a PICSPAM! SO. Introducing: "Adopted, Still: A Picspam".Now, I battled with myself in

Joannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01859920588225741105noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8451180.post-78669475087139946022009-03-06T09:48:00.002-05:002009-03-06T09:56:44.380-05:00OHHHHH YEEEEEEAH

I still feel like I have nothing insightful to say. I've sort of had to compartamentalize everything as of late, and adoption is definitely taking the back seat. School is sucking up all of my energy as it is...I just don't have the energy any more. Obviously, the fact that S* and MK* aren't coming to the graduation is disappointing. On one hand, I have to just believe that it wasn't meant to

Joannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01859920588225741105noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8451180.post-80335868806907787792009-02-26T10:28:00.004-05:002009-02-26T10:34:01.534-05:00this has happened before; and will happen again;;

Hi, my name is Joanna! And I'm avoiding adoption issues! For as long as I can! ...Which will be a week or two, tops! ...Because what could be more impossible to avoid?! Seriously, though. I need a break. At least through this weekend. Probably more. I'll be back to my usual tirades once ONE of my mothers does something crazy. Which could likely be tomorrow. Laterz. (

Joannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01859920588225741105noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8451180.post-50220128863223113222009-02-20T21:31:00.004-05:002009-02-20T21:38:38.944-05:00my mother's eyes were with me;;

is there such a thing as an 'inherited biological clock'? Like, is that even possible? Because if so.. I think I am a victim. I swear - maybe not so early as 15 - but definitely by 16 I was feeling it. And I find it just the teensiest bit interesting, since MK* gave birth to my f-mom at 17..and before that, A* gave birth to MK* at 18-19. Since I've been in reunion, I haven't been able to

Joannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01859920588225741105noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8451180.post-34047620285599348512009-02-19T09:20:00.007-05:002009-02-19T10:32:50.962-05:00to flirt with rescue when one has no intention of being saved;;

You know you're adopted when: You can't even listen to Dame Judi Dench sing 'Send in the Clowns' without finding the parallels to your own adoption experience. Hearing the line "I thought that you'd want what I want, sorry, my dear," I immediately thought of my adoptive mother - the day I tried to explain to her that adoption is not all roses and lollipops (Gypsy!), counter to her beliefs. I

Joannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01859920588225741105noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8451180.post-9348118937897578482009-02-15T20:46:00.004-05:002009-02-15T21:05:54.481-05:00glac le faoi rún

for all you non-irish speaking folks out there, glac le faoi rún translates as: "undercover adoptee". Appropriate, I thought, since this will be the fifth(?) time I have opened, closed, quit and un-quit this blog, all for the sake of saving the hurt feelings of those 'others' in my life. No more, I say! So glac le faoi rún it is.Following this extremely emotional weekend with Suz and Margie, I

Joannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01859920588225741105noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8451180.post-62475312005025413212009-02-14T18:23:00.002-05:002009-02-14T18:27:00.858-05:00the oasis;;

after much thought and consideration, I've decided against closing down this blog.yeah, you can still find me on livejournal...but I've decided to compartamentalize.I'll be keeping this blog specifically for adoption-related posting - so, yay! no more random battlestar galactica posts! the livejournal account will be picking up the slack for the day-to-day, random garbage that I feel the need to

Joannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01859920588225741105noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8451180.post-2808892068504227442009-01-28T12:40:00.003-05:002009-01-28T12:44:36.097-05:00i'm not really like this; i'm probably plightless;; Part II

It's kind of funny...how..even the smallest things - things that in any other case, to any other person - would be so menial...can trigger the deepest hurt. I've always loved this photograph. This is the photograph that made me fall in love with Annie Leibovitz. It follows me everywhere. Without fail, every semester, someone shows this photograph. And every time, without fail, I feel a

Joannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01859920588225741105noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8451180.post-22760388723608475602009-01-28T10:18:00.002-05:002009-01-28T10:21:03.394-05:00i'm not really like this; i'm probably plightless

I'm thinking of quitting. Blogger. For..ever.I may move to livejournal.. or I may just peace out completely.annnd.. that's.. it.

Joannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01859920588225741105noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8451180.post-92041680672590147842009-01-26T12:00:00.004-05:002009-01-26T12:06:14.488-05:00bitches don't let up...

Uh...wow. Check out the awesome PSA link on the right of the homepage (www.ichooseadoption.org) . It's...pretty amazing.

Joannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01859920588225741105noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8451180.post-70027023446717052372009-01-24T09:51:00.003-05:002009-03-21T00:25:35.328-04:00CUE THE CELESTIAL CHORUS!

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Oy. Even though this was the most chill week ever, I am going bonkers. I still haven't gotten rid of this cough from Christmas break and it's driving me up the wall. Not even this horrible episode of Ryan's Hope that I'm watching can cheer me up. But at least my earth isn't a radioactive wasteland. Can I get an 'amen'?At the strong suggestion of the woman I am interning with, a new blog has

Joannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01859920588225741105noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8451180.post-88795386058219052652009-01-22T13:46:00.003-05:002009-01-22T13:53:40.193-05:00Fionnula Frakkin' Flannagan

This has absolutely nothing to do with Fionnula - except for the fact that I saw her on last night's episode of LOST and was like, WTF?! TEENSEY?!Anyway. This week was excessively dull. But it's okay. Cause Battlestar is on tomorrow!I finally settled on a topic for my portfolio grad show...and - shocker - it's adoption related. The whole purpose, I realized, of my going on such a scientific

Joannahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01859920588225741105noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8451180.post-74794203392081790982009-01-19T08:49:00.003-05:002009-03-21T00:24:52.773-04:00jill colridge is an emo;

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