A Bit of a Smile.

SIX months!

2008-08-28T09:44:00.000-07:00

It's all going by too fast! I know people always say it.... But I guess they say it because it's true! hehe.
He's getting so big though.
Yesterday Rob and I walked to the waterfall with Corbin. It was lovely! :) We didn't really do a whole lot though, other than that.... We layed in the grass for a bit, just in the backyard... It was a beautiful day out..
Then in the evening we had cake! Very tasty. hehe. Oh--Also, Michelle bought Corbin a tie dye diaper shirt, from summerfolk! :) It's the same kind as the one we got from summerfolk last year, only different colors. (and bigger! hehe) It's funny because the colors are the ones I really liked last year, but they are more boyish looking... And last year we didn't know if he was a boy or girl yet, so we got one that had all colors in it....
So yay! :)

So yesterday made me all 'reflective' and stuff, I was all ghey. :P But I mean.... augh.
My life wouldn't be nearly this fantastical if things hadn't changed so drastically for me. I wouldn't have a son, (and if I DID, he just wouldn't be Corbin :P lol) I wouldn't have a house, I wouldn't be this friggin happy...
I'm so totally in love with Rob. Not just IN love, but I just plain LOVE him.... y'know? whatever. We get along amazingly. And we fight amazingly. We fuck amazingly. Everything we do. :) We're smart enough to know that communicating is supah inportant. If he pisses me off, I HAVE to let him know, and vice versa. Oh hey this is going nooowwwhhhere. But I can write it anyways.
I don't think I would be this close to my family... I think it would be like it was before.... and that sucks....
I'm not holding Rob responsible for all this goodness -- haha -- nooo.... I'm just saying, ... woot! haha.
AAAAANNNYWAYS....
Corbin is 6 months old, and that makes me happy and sad and everything all at once.
I wanna 'nother one. *humpf* hehe. Not yeeet....... We've got plans, and they don't start yet. ;) hehe.

I'm going to take Ry and Vince outside, while Corbin's still sleepin'. :)

2008-08-23T08:34:00.000-07:00

Eeeewwwwwwww.

There are some people that I know....

That make me want to throw up. Just a little bit.

heheeheh.

Last night Rob and I were up with Corbin, a lot. He would just wake up and SCRREEEAM. He's been workin' on his two bottom teeth.. I hope they come through soon... Poor kid-o... :P

I'm at my parents today, Rob dropped me off here before he went to work.. They are away for the weekend, so I'm taking a nice little break from normalness for the day.... I get to watch TV! hehe. 'Yo Gabba Gabba' is on at 2:30, I'm pretty excited about that. So is Corbin, I know it. hehe.

Corbin likes to grab at my tattoos. Supah cute! lol.

So this weekend... Not much going on... Rob is working until 5 today, and he has tomorrow off. Yaaay. :) But I don't think we are doing anything. Just hanging out at home...:)

Anyways.... It's almost lunch so I gotta grab something to eat before Corbin gets his lunch... muahahah.

haha

Front porch.

2008-08-22T16:55:00.001-07:00

I'm sitting here using my laptop on my front porch. sitting in a rocking chair. bahahaha. I felt like a super big loser at first, (and I still partially do..) but I don't care as much now... Except there are bugs! Ah! Dumb bugs.

We have to leave shortly, as we are watching my parents house for them over the weekend. And by watch I just mean we drive there, feed the cats, watch TV, go home, and do it all again the next day. ha ha...

My internet protection is about to expire! How dirty... hehe.

My neighbours came outside to leave and I waved at them. I wonder if they were like 'ummm she's on the computer, what a nerd' buuut oh well... Rob is putting up the guttering, so I wanted to sit out here with him and watch.... So now I am watching him... Ha ha. And watching the cars go by.. I think it's kind of special, that I havn't looked at the screen, or my fingers, siiiince.... Around the time when I started talking about how I was watching Rob doing the guttering.... I really hope I haven't missed like.. EVERY key... haha... a couple screw ups is ok.. but... ok.. I'll check..

Wow not bad! hahaha.

Sooo anyways...

No teeth for Corbin yet.... boo... :( He gets so sad and upset from everything... He'll just sit there and scream every once and a while, while he naws at his hand.... Or one of his teething things...

FRIG

There's so many flies all of the sudden, THEY SUCK!!!!

I'm going in.... auuugh. In a minute... Because Rob just went inside and Corbin's out here... Ok. He's back.

ha ha.

We are leaving now. I guess this whole thing was pointless

but then again

when isn't it...

Would you like your breast pinched?

2008-08-16T18:14:00.001-07:00

We went to Rob's grandparents today, so Rob could install their toilet! woo. They took us out to Wendys. Yum. ish.

I get the grey bruce freecycle thing in my email everyday, and there is this lady that is wanting to give away her collection of martha stewart magazines.. haha. She has like, 10 dozen, and she said to email her and tell her how much you love martha. And she wants the whole thing to go to one person, and you have to really want them because Martha is awesome and stuff. I think it would be funny to get them, and then set them on fire in front of her. hehehe. That would be fuuuuun. :)

Aaah....

So my sister is scheduled to have her baby on September 18th. Another baby in the family, holy hell! hehe. After that Rob and I will have to get back into the baby makin' sessions and make us another one... hehehe.

Hmmm... Rob is making a fire outside, but I can hear him through the baby monitor. Don't wake up Corbin!!! aaah!

I really don't have anything to say... We moved the rest of the patio stones around to the front of the house, so now we have a front walkway.. We just have to even it out now, like the ground under it..

Ok. Im gonna go have a lovely little campfire.

See ya fuckers.

mofo

2008-08-10T14:02:00.001-07:00

Sex with you makes my fucking day.

Like . No . Other .

I'm glad we've grown acustomed to each other.

I quite like it here.

PEE -- S:

Your hoooot.

ReflectReflectReflect

2008-08-04T18:22:00.001-07:00

I'm just really happy about how today turned out. It was BEAUTIFUL out, very sunny but just when I got a little too hot, clouds covered up the hot sun and gave me a bit of a break.
My neighbours rented a digger, because they are putting in a pond in their backyard. They were bringing me loads of dirt all day, as we're doing a bit of fixing up in our yard as well. So all day I was in and out of the house, spreading out dirt. When that was done I did a bit of gardening. I also cleaned the yard up a bit.
Unless Corbin was down for a nap, he was right there with me. I had the playpen outside, and just moved it around wherever shade was to be found.
I've also got my dog here, who lives with my parents as they are a bit further into the country than we are, and he has always lived with them (I got him a couple years before I moved out.) but they are away on holidays, so he stays here when they go away. He's a german shepard mix. I've also got my dog that lives here, who is a chihuahua. So I had both of them outside as well.
Around 5:30 Corbin started to get cranky, so I took him out of the playpen and layed a blanket down in the shade, and sat with him. He laughed and blew rasberries, and grabbed at the grass with his cute little hands.
The dogs layed down around the blanket, just enjoying the shade in such nice weather.
Rob came home from work after Corbin and I had been playing for about 15 minutes, and he came and sat with us, told me about his day, I told him about mine, and we played with Corbin some more.
Then we all went inside, Rob and I took a shower while Corbin played in his crib, then Rob fed Corbin his supper. Very shortly after Corbin passed out from his super busy day.
Rob's just doing a couple things, and when he's done we're going to go outside for a campfire. I'm just sitting, relaxing, because moving all that dirt around was hard work!

I really like this stay at home mom thing... I like "putting in an honest days work" around the house, even if I'm not getting paid for it with money.
I'm a little sore from shoveling and raking so much, but I would much rather be sore from this than anything else.
I like this feeling of tired, better then any other kind.

:)

I like being here.

summah time.

2008-07-30T12:06:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was fun. I cut the grass and you were setting up the bunny house. You had Corbin beside you, in his playpen. And you had to stop every once and a while, to take him out because I guess he was getting grumpy. And then you were done everything you could do for the time being, so you went inside while I kept cutting the grass. Then I came inside. And you were giving Corbin a bottle. I sat on the toybox and talked to you, and Corbin looked up and at you and was jabbering away. CUTE. We bathed him, and then got him ready for bed. I cleaned up a bit, and then used the laptop. You put him to bed. Your suuuuch a good daddy. :)
I'm so excited because today you only work until 4:00, and you've got tomorrow off too! I babysit in the day tomorrow but who cares, it's Vince and Reiley and they are awesome. :)
We got a new bunny yesterday. He's supah cute. So, that's why Rob is working on the bunny pen, so they can live togeather in awesome bunny happiness and procreate if they must. So, anybody want a bunny? ha ha. It's kind of neat that if they do make babies, they will be a mix between holland lops and lionheads...
Nothing exciting has really been happening.. Wish I could say there has been, buut... OH I have a new email, this could be exciting. Nope it wasn't exciting at all.... ha ha. Dumb.
I have that... "lovin' you, is easy because your beautiful... do 'n do 'n do doooooo, aaaaaaaaaaaahhh" song in my head. Gheeeyyy. lol.
I'm wasting sooo much time. I should be doing something. But Corbin fell asleep.... So now I'm just kinda being lazy...

Corbin just woke up. so I'm off. bye bye.

Kinda like Jesus

2008-07-20T07:25:00.001-07:00

I was doing some gardening yesterday..
And then I was doing some gardening later in the evening, because it was so hot. So it was a bit darker out. And I was digging up a wild flower plant in the backyard, and the ground is harder at the back of the yard... So I was jumping on the shovel, to dig the plant up, and I slipped off the shovel!

And THEN, at the end up my little slip... I landed on a nail! Ha!!
I pulled my foot straight up, and I thought "aah, ha ha ha! I stepped on a nail! This changes my plans for digging up this plant!!" I dropped the shovel, and took my shoe off and looked at it. It started to bleed, but it wasn't that bad looking. It didn't hurt at that point, whatsoever.
So I turned around to go back around to the front of the house, and I was like "oh! I should grab the shovel, I don't want to leave it here, because I will probably forget about it." So I picked it up. and THEN, I was like "well, I kind of already started to dig up the plant... Should I get it?"
But.
Then I decided I didn't want to do that.
So I limped back. And Rob was on the roof, so he jumped off to look at my foot. AND he forgot his wrench. hah hah.
So, anyways... I called telehealth and they said that the shot I remember getting in high school was a tetanus shot, and I should be fine. But to get it looked at within three days. So.
It's the next morning now, my foot is supah-sore. Like, it hurts to walk on it. But oh well. My only concern is that we are going to Walmart this afternoon, and I will have to limp like a nerd. I'm going to go jump on my foot a bunch, to get it use to being walked on.

speak

2008-07-16T13:02:00.000-07:00

I am in love with your mouth.

I am in love with the way you speak.

I love your lips

I love your tongue

I love watching you talk

Sometimes I just sit there and watch you speak, I watch you tell me all about your day. You drive me crazy, you really do.

<3<3<3

Ice cream cones of love.

Short form.

2008-07-15T18:38:00.001-07:00

Sometimes it helps to write in point form, so I will try that now.

Rob's birthday was fun. The day before we had a surprise party for him. We set a couch on fire. I got too sick. And then passed out inside. Then I felt bad because I wasted the party.
Monday Rob, Corbin and I played outside on a blanket under an umbrella. It was lovely!
We went out for chinese food last night. yum. My fortune cookie said I will be pleasently surprised soon. yay!
The party had Michelle, Martin, Jeremy, Jon, and Kenny there.
They brought potato salad, and a cake with tons of layers!
Now I am craving potato salad.
It is a very nice day out today! But all three boys are sleeping, and Rob is at work.
Sunday night was Corbins first night away from us.. :( He did awesome, but we were sooo sad... hehee.
Corbin came back Monday and we played with him lots!!
Rob has this coming weekend off, so we may go to the boat with my parents. I don't know yet...
I seriously *LOVE* Corbin. :):):)
I like laying down with my laptop on me, because it keeps my stomach warm. :)
Corbin just woke up from his nap, and the first 10 things he does is stretch and fart.
I ate a burger for dinner and now I have a food baby.

I have to go. I am done writing.

Lovin love love lovin

2008-07-12T13:01:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I get too violent. Not violent towards anyone, just towards...things. lol. Yesterday morning I was just like retarded. I wish I could say why but I don't even know what started it. I gave Corbin a bath and I filled his tub up, buut the plug wasn't pushed in all the way and it poured all over the kitchen floor. sooo after his bath, Rob was in the other room with Corbin while I made him a abottle. but there was only a bit of formula left so I went to pour it in a bottle for him, and when I opened the container it was in it sprayed out a bit and got on my face... then I poured it in... and it wasn't even enough for him to eat for more then 2 seconds.... sooooo. I threw the bottle (they are plastic. big deal. Lmao) on the floor and it splashed alll over and it was in my hair and eyes. so then I grabbed a NEW bottle and started pouring water in it, to make formula. and then i realised I wasn't even measuring how much water I was putting in, sooo I threw THAT bottle on the floor, getting more crap on the floor AND more crap all over me.

aaand then I decided I shouldn't be in the kitchen anymore and I stormed out of the room and went to go into our bedroom, and I pushed the vacuum cleaner over and kicked stuff and blahblahblahblah.

like seriously, chill!

I'm such a dork.

I found an old profile of Rob's on a dating site, from before we ever met. and it made me happy.

because going from what he was looking for and looking to try... I'm the giirrrl of his hot erotic dreams. :P

hehehe.

Soo... I cleaned this morning... And now I'm just...chillin'. hehe.

I want to put a needle through my lip.

oooh dear..

Why did my writing change? wtf's up with that. It did in this email anyways...

2 more hours... *my writing just changed back. gaaaay lol* yep 2 more hours until Rob is done work.. Then I guess he'll be like half an hour until he gets home. uuuugh.

http://bestparentever.com/ funnnny..... Some parents are sooo weird... lol.

It's 3am, she won't put out.

2008-07-11T12:40:00.001-07:00

What the shit, my picture didn't show up last night and it doesn't make sense why it wouldn't. Stuuuuupid. I can hear children whispering. It's one of the worst noises. haha. One because in horror movies there is always children whispering, and TWO when they whisper to each other it usually means something bad is going to happen. lol.

I am watching premonition. It's a wee bit sad. Yep.

Corbin likes grabbing his feet now... he lays down and pulls them up, and tries to eat them. hehehe now he is farting... I guess he's straining pretty hard to grab his feet. siiiilly boy.

My parents are coming home today. I'm at their place right now actually... Doing laundry because my washing machine is GAY... and just hanging out.. haha....

I wish Rob didn't have to work today. Or tomorrow. I want him home. grrr. lol.

Ummm.... hm.

Excuse me would you like to screw? Excuse me would you like to screw?

I am, so amazing in the sack.

It's three A.M...

she won't put out

Let's go make out with her friends,

make out with her FRIENDS friends!

Corbin likes the three am part. He laughs at it when we sing it to him.

~+.,._.,.+~+.,._.,.+~

swiiingtown

2008-07-10T19:40:00.001-07:00

iz decent.

Wii ah watchen iit now.

And then we ah gonna go curl up in muh bafftub. Niiice.

Mrs. Lady and Mr. Man

2008-07-10T11:22:00.001-07:00

I made Rob some peanut butter pie, he's gonna be sooooo happy when he gets home :) :) And he works until seven today, so I am going to have dinner ready for him shortly after he gets home... We will eat a nice dinner OH I should have candles -- and then we will have dessert and coffee, and then we will go to my parents and check on their animals..Then we will come home, and put Corbin to bed...And then maybe we will go in the bathtub and get all relaxed. And then we will watch a movie and cuddle up on the couch together. And that'll be nice. :)

Corbin and Vince are watching boo-bah's. And Corbin is screeeaming. But happy-like!! :)This morning he was laying in his crib and he started to get grumpy. So I went down the hall, and told Ry and Vince to be quiet because he was probably going to have a nap, and when I walked back into his room, he was asleep. awww. haha

BUT . Now I don't know what I am writing about. I should always have a topic to discuss. but...sometimes I don't feel that opinionated about much. Or at least enough to ... talk about it that much. hah hah.

I don't understand. Are boobah's suposse to sound like they are farting? Or is it just coincidence?

Whatever....

I was cleaning Corbin's room today ... I mopped the floor a bit. annnnd I started cleaning our room. It's seriously a meeeeess....

omgomgomg. Corbin smells. :P lol.

aiight. this has been dumb.

DUMB.

Grilled Chicken Sandwhich

2008-07-08T19:12:00.000-07:00

Today we went to buy a pool at Canadian tire. They are all sold out of the one on sale. So we went to Walmart, they only had super expensive ones...

APPARENTLY... It's not pool season anymore, the lady at walmart told us...

wtf.

blah oh well.

We had a campfire Sunday evening. It was just Me & Rob, Michelle, Jeremy, and Martin. It was nice! :) It was all relaxed, and we sat around our picnic table and smoked a couple joints... Soooo... That was nice. ^_^

I felt kind of bad. Because I have Jersey for the week, and Michelle brought Daisey. Which was totally fine, and I hope she feels comfortable to bring her more... But Jersey is a big jerk around other dogs, other then my old dog Bailey, and our dog Wicket... I thought it was only girl dogs he got along with, buuut he didn't seem to like Daisey, and he does like Wicket.

Weeird. So anyways. It'll be better when Jersey isn't there. Even though I looooove having him over.!!!! :) :)

We are at my parents right now. Watching TV. :)

Now 2 and a 1/2 men is on. I like this show. I like Charlie Sheen. :)

awww... I have nothing to write. I probably do, but now I've started doing other things online... and now I'm bored of this blogging... I wanted to write about sunday. about how it was fun. but i guess i forgot most of it.

laaater.

2008-07-05T07:20:00.000-07:00

TRIMESTER 1~

What month did you conceive in?
June

Did you conceive where you live now?
Nope! conceived in our little basement apartment!

Do you know the exact day you conceived?
The doctor said June 27th. And then we looked back at my old blog and on June 27th we got druuuunk. lol

Were you trying to conceive?
Yeppers!

Did the daddy want a baby too?

He sure did! lol

Was he the first person you told?

He was there when I peed on a stick! hehe

Why did you think you were pregnant?

I have noooo idea.

Was the line on the HPT dark or light?
Pretty dark! preeettty obvious lol.

What brand of HPT did you use?
I think it was first response, but I have noo idea... But we didn't really believe the first one, so we bought some dollar store ones too. heheeh.

How long did you wait to tell your parents?

A week later, when they got back from vacation lol.

How far along were you when you had your first appointment?

6 weeks.

What stuck out about your first appointment?

ummmm nothing really. not muh belly! hehe

Do you remember what the first heart rate was?

I have nooo idea.

What's cuter? Daddy's Little Girl or Mamas Little. Boy?
I'm a daddy's little girl... hehe

What did you want? Boy or girl?

boy :)

Which is more fun to dress up? Boy or girl?

boooyys

What was the worst part about trimester 1?

It was prettty boring. lol

Best?

I was preggo! but I could do anything really lol.

º °º °º °~TRIMESTER 2~º °º °º °

When did you start to show?

geeze I dunno.... At my 20 week ultrasound, I was showing by then....

Did you go buy any maternity clothes?

no... my sister gave me her old ones :P

Was there a point where you thought you just looked fat?

haha yeah, cus I did! augh lol.

Was the daddy excited that you were showing?

yeah. he's weird. lmao.

Do you remember what the heart rate was at most of your appointments?

No, but I remember being told that it was in the normal area.

What do you remember most about your second appointment?

nadda.

Did you get good profile pictures at your 'big' sonogram?
I got awwwesome pics :)

Was the gender easily identified?
Yep sure was. heee's a boy! lol

Was it a Daddy's girl or Mama's Boy?

a boy :)

What's cuter? Baby girls or baby boys?
Well geeze yeah I have a lil' boy, what the hell do you think my answer would be. heehee. kidding, boys are no matter what! :P jk lol

What was the first thing you bought your baby?
hm. Rob and I bought him a tye dye diaper shirt, when I was like... 2 months preggo. at summerfolk :)

Did you like the 'orange stuff'?

I liked it! It made me a little dizzy while waitinf for them to take more blood, but it was tasty :)

What was the best part of trimester 2?

When I found out Corbin is a boy:)

Worst?
bein' all fat and stuff.

??????~TRIMESTER 3~??????

When did you have your baby shower?

umm. lol . I can't remember the actual date. but it was after Corbin was born :P

What was the best gift you received?

Hm. geeze I got a lot! lol. Corbin! lmao.

Did the baby move much?

oh yeah. he was a mover. lol.

Throughout your pregnancy did you have any cravings?

for freezies! hehe. and peanut butter and jam sandwiches. and barqs root beer.

Did you ever count kicks?

mmhmm.
Did you go on a 'babymoon'?

uuuh is that where we make the bebe? lol no i didnt.

Were you in maternity clothes?

some of them. some of them were just regular clothes.

Did you get any stretch marks?
I suuuure did lol.

Did the daddy love your belly?
Yeah. Like I said. He's weird. HE didn't even mind it gettin' in the waay... lol.

What was the best part of Trimester 3?
The baby popping out thing. hehe

Worst?

ugggh hypertension stuff. and having to be induced because of it.

EDIT

2008-07-02T09:48:00.001-07:00

Edit(only not really because it's a whole new shiny post):

I hate.

i've never wanted to dance with anybody but you

2008-07-02T09:45:00.001-07:00

Maybe it was because we didn't have a music store here for a while, or maybe because I was preggo and oblivious to the rest of the world, but I missed the MSI cd 'if' coming out. I went to HMV the other day with my mom, and saw it there. So, I bought it (duh) and another cd. um... it's a girl. and I can't remember her name.. but she has a pretty voice. she sings the song 'magic' and 'capri'. it's not your type of music.

I feel as though I have something big to say. But. I don't think there is anything.

Last night Rob and I cuddled up in the bathtub with a blanket. Jenny and I have been telling anyone we can that it's the best thing to do, and if you're upset or tired or angry or happy .... then curl up in a tub with a blankie :)

Then we went out to the campfire, and sat in a different tub. It felt like we were just sort of... placed there, and that the fire and backdrop wern't real. It was nice. :)

Gotta grab soother!

phew. got it. :p

Yesterday, canada day... went to my parents for my sisters birthday. (which is today.)

Sunday...Rob worked in the day... Then at night.... We watched TV!

Monday...We did some things around the house... I went out with my mom.... Then in the evening my mom called and asked if there was anywhere I needed to go, because everything is closed canada day..and she had to go to walmart.... Sooo.

I went to the liquor store.

and I bought blue characo (sp) and peach schnaups(sp) annd then we grabbed a blanket and went in the bathtub.

and the next morning I wanted to shoot myself in the head. Quietly.

I went to check the mail with my chihuahua.

and then a big dog ran towards us.

so I picked up my chihuahua.

and took the big dog home.

I am wanting my hair dye I ordered to get here... and my headband... and my t-shirt for Corbin!!!! Aaaaahhh.

i wanna make some babies, i wanna get it on...

ha. not yet. rob bought condoms yesterday, and they came in a cooool tin.

im goin to the dr.s soon , to get somethin better , then noooo condoms :)

just do somethin sexy...i dont care, just do somethin sexy. just whatever you do dont talk about your fuckin boyfriend when we're having sex, how bout that!!

fooooney..

but yeah. no more condoms. will be nice .

Kate. I want your help, soon! :) hehe. when we are done the bathroom (which is taking like, forever) I want to have the walls painted, all nice and a light color... and then i was wondering, if you could come over sometime and paint on the walls.. i want like... black bamboo going up the walls. not all the way up, just at the bottom...

and if you could paint bamboo siloettes (sp) that would be...super.

but we'll figure something out, not now. bathroom isnt even done yet.

I painted my kitchen yellow.

I had a painting on the wall. and i liked it.

but it did not match the white walls.

so i painted the walls yellow.

Muh bebe is cuddled up beside me, straining to see what I'm typing. Well, y'know.. whatever. he's so cute. Maybe i will let him type for now.

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ok. that was fun. hehe

tonight we have to finish cutting the grass.

I spend a lot of time on a baby forum.

well i mean for mommies and stuff....

and we are talking about lesbian porn on it. and why its better then regular porn.

Some girl asked on the site for advice on how to take it like a champ, when her husband cums on her face. and how to swallow it without gagging.

I told her to make him cum under water one day, because that is funny to see. that shit changes consistency like nobodies business. haha.

I made peanut butter pie the other day.

it was tasty.

ah- I wanted to be informative. and interesting.

2008-06-27T08:02:00.000-07:00

really hot. just really friggin hot.

2008-06-26T15:26:00.001-07:00

Stupid horrible humidity! aaahhh!!!

I had Reiley, Vince and Kyla over today... Kyla brought a bunch of toys over, for the spareroom. She's going to be working this summer and Reiley and Vince are coming here. Either every day, or 3 times a week, not sure yet...

But it'll be fun. really hard sometimes I'm sure, but they are my nephews, it's not like they are some other ppl's kids... hhahah.

I barely slept last night, thinking about that stupid kiddie porn thing.... They were suposse to have their bail hearing thing today, I don't know what happened from it though... there was an article in the paper about it, and I guess the most serious thing they did was "making available child pornography".. I don't really know what that means... Like, they were finding child porn, and distributing it?

It hurts my head though. Thinking, that you really don't know people. aaaahhh...... :S And child porn technically means anyone under the age of 18, but I guess this was involving 'very young children'. I feel really fucked up...thinking... about like , all the pictures I've put on the internet of Corbin.... They can't be taken as something bad, can they? But I think they can, because some people are just fucked. f.u.c.k.e.d..... auugh.

anyways...Rob is home from work now.... so I'm gonna run.

like, run from here. not run away from him. aah hahahah

We put bells on our cats and dog. ha !

2008-06-25T20:18:00.000-07:00

I hate when you cut your nail too short. Not much you can do though, just let it grow. augh. haha.

So. On the news this evening , and my mom told me earlier but was unsure of the names, two guys were arrested for child pornography. To be exact 'one count of Possession of Child Pornography, one count of Making Available Child Pornography and one count of Accessing Child Pornography. ' They were two brothers. The one; I *was* friends with. The one, I talk to quite regularily on the internet. I talked to him on the phone a couple weeks ago, because my laptop was broken (my old one) and he is a huge computer geek (ugh) and was going to try to fix it. The one, I have JOKED around with about stupid things like having a computer full of porn. The one, that I was going to have over sometime to hang out, to meet CORBIN. The one, that I will smash in the mouth if I ever see him again. I'm SOooo happy I never had him over, and he never saw Corbin in person. I wouldn't have actually left them alone anyways, he probably wouldn't have even held him, but I would have felt a lot worse if he had of been around him.. It makes me feel sick that he was on my facebook, and on msn, and would have seen lots of pictures of Corbin. But I'll just try to convince myself that it doesn't work like that -- That pictures of Corbin wouldn't have been looked at like that. I have no idea, really, but I can't think about it like that.
It's fucking sick. I hate that technically, you can't trust anyone. I mean I've known him since I was.... 16. or 17. so around 6 years. His profile picture on facebook, is him standing there, WITH A LITTLE GIRL....
People make me sick.
I'm staying home. for a long time.
auugh.
:(

grumble grumble.

2008-06-17T19:41:00.000-07:00

Can someone - anyone - try clicking on the link to the right? The one that says 'my.experimental.game.DELIRIOUSLY.UNSOUND' ... I have been told it doesn't work but whenever I click on it, it works fine. For some reason I feel as though it use to do this, and I'm not sure why...
And to the person that told me it wasn't working, do I know you...? Just wondering, is all. hah. Unless your Miss Jackson. Then... Damn you people and ever changing ways to say your name! pffft. haha.

Went to Reiley's soccer game tonight. It was fun. Rob worked tonight, so he did not go. He works tomorrow too. auuuugh. lol. I finally get him out of the house, and all I want is for him to be back. hehe. enh. Absense makes the heart grow fonder. Or is it absynthe? hah-hah.
Wicket is barking. He seriously barks at everything. There was a bug in a box yesterday, and he was barking at it. DUMB dog. hahaha.

Corbin really likes eating his cereal :) cute cute.
ok. well.
I was just checking things and stuff. have nothing else to say.

Tangerinetrees

2008-06-16T06:49:00.001-07:00

You may have noticed a new link in the link list. What is it, you ask? It's just my other blog. It's nothing new. In fact I've had it since........March 11th, 2005. So no it's not new. And I haven't even written in it for a long time. But I think I will. Because it's always felt nice to write in it sometimes.
I feel like I can write anything.
It is my heads escape.
So if you don't want to read that, then don't.
But it use to be locked, and now it is not.

Enjoy.

Unicorn

2008-06-16T06:28:00.000-07:00

They found a unicorn. http://news.aol.ca/article/Best-News-Photos-of-the-Week/104/ ha ha.

So Vince's birthday party was fun! Big mess, lots of presents, cake, food, and then of course near the end lots of snarky comments, argueing, normal family stuff.

I am - A LOT - closer to my parents then I use to me. They've done SO much for me!! They've lent me millions of dollars (definately not a million, but..) whenever something big came up and we didn't have the money right then, (as in Grim's surgery..) They've lent us the pick up truck sooo many times, let us stay there while we were working on the house when we first moved in... etc.,

BUT family is family, and when you get everyone togeather, in a hot house, with kids running around, there is bound to be argueing...

Yesterday was father's day. I gave Rob cards from Corbin and I, and a new watch. He likes it. :) I also made him steak for lunch. Super tasty. hehe. THEN he ripped up all the carpet in the front room, and now we have nice hardwood floor. I'm very happy with it, it looks nice. We are going to get paint for the walls in there soon, but I am not sure of the color yet... Something light. But not too light. ugh. I don't even know. There is a really big window in the front room, that lets in a lot of light. And the hardwood floor is that, light orangeish type of stain to it. So I don't want the walls to make the room look too washed out or something.

1 lb small red potatoes

1 lb green beans

6 fillets of wild salmon

1 tbsp dijon mustard.

1 shallot

1/3 cup oil.

We started feeding Corbin cereal yesterday! It was so fun. He likes it. Everytime I took the spoon away and was getting more, he would grunt and get mad until I gave him more. :)

I just realized it was raning. I wonder how long that's been going on for.

Silly.

2008-06-14T11:38:00.001-07:00

You always know how to make me happy. And if you don't, you don't stop until you figure it out.

I love having campfires with you, I love laying in soccer fields with you, while it rains. Except now we have our own yard and can do it any night. I loved going to the waterfall with you, we need to get a bug net for Corbin's stroller. I love taking care of a house with you. I love looking outside to see you cutting the grass without your shirt on. I love coming outside to rub tanning oil on you. I love coming to you when I need something hung on the wall and it's too high for me to reach, I love coming to you when there is a spider, I even love how half the time you carry them outside so you don't have to kill them. (But I'd probably be OK with it dead too.) I love how some nights you just can't sleep until we, y'know. I love the relief after, I love just laying beside you.

I love how you built a deck. I love how you bunny-proofed it. I love how you make a front step right before you leave for work in the morning, so when my grandpa comes over today he won't have any trouble getting in. I love how your so damn polite. I love how I can teach you. I love how you can teach me.

I love laying in bed facing you, touching noses while our son sleeps between us. I love the connection, I love the synchronized breaths, I love stealing your lines. But I do. I love hanging inflatable animals from the ceiling with you, I love getting angry at streamers right before you laugh and do it for me.

I love looking at him, because he's what you and I made. I love his little noises, his silly smiles, his vacant stare when he wakes up, and his forehead. I love how easy it is to have him, and how hard it is all at the same time. I love how hard you work. I love how hard you play.

I love you but that was already obvious. Your the father of my son, and tomorrow is fathers day! You have a fathers day!! <3<3<3 sometimes those hearts look like funny ice cream cones to me.

this is silly.