--Zany Zany Zan--

Endless problems

2008-09-13T00:31:00.003+08:00

Dad got admitted to CGH again...
Prior to this, his condition had been bad.... he's not eating well or talk much. he's getting weaker by the day. this worries me so much.... yes, got to admit i was very much pressurised by his conditions. Today is his 3rd day, i dunno how long he's gonna stay there but i much prefer him to be there cos he seemed so much healthier n livelier over there.
He's getting more emotional n sensitive by the day... i think it grows with age. One thing i need to really learn is to be tolerant n calm. i have the patience but i think tts not good enough.

I think the paycut im getting is getting too much for me to handle n i got too troubled by it somehow i kinda lost control of myself. I am really blessed to have Ir beside me to calm me down n put me back on track.

There's also alot alot of other unsolved, complicated, pressing issues tt kept troubling my restless mind. Gosh, im still trying hard to keep things under control. So far, i have been handling it well. And i must say, I really got to congratulate myself for that. Sometimes, its nt gd to keep being troubles by on the problem on hand. We shd all learn to handles the situation n control your mind to think of solution n switch ur brain to be a little positive.

Hari Raya is jus ard the corner n so is my birthday. Goodness, time flies!! gonna be 24 soon.... ohhhh pressure... pressure....

~~Love Zann~~

AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME!!

2008-09-06T14:07:00.016+08:00

WOW!!!! ITS BEEN A LONG TIME I LAST UPDATE!!!

hmmm.... alot had happened....
but wats life without worry?? without the ups n down....
well lets not talk about the bad stuff....

i gt tix for NDP 2008 all thanks to my sis.
its so cool.... love it this year. the have the awesome air n sea display....

i just got my long awaited Australia trip!!!!
i figured timing fits well as im kinda financial prepared n Yanie's on a break too...
n yeah i get wat i wanna do, travelling ALONE.
i must say, its been a good experience... AWESOME holiday.... busy schedules everyday but i love the pace there... its alot slower.... calmer... not as rushy.... but its chilly... wore 4 layers at first, got a lil used to it n drop to 2 layers of clothing....
highest temperature 14 degrees n lowest at 3!! tts how cold it is.... ohh no... minus 5degrees at mount buller!!
i get to see kangaroo n koala... no time for penguins though!
ok.. i been to Victoria n New SOuth Wales state of Australia!! tts means Melbourne, Ballarat, Mount Buller, Geelong, The Great Ocean Road and Sydney.... awesome awesome!!!

I got a lil sick during my stay there.... fever, cold, cold sore, skin peeling, hydrating n moisture lost!! i didnt get homesick though!!

I went to Tioman island, malaysia with Ir a day after i came back from Australia...
oohhh i love tioman.... nice beaches.... lovely corals....
its so carefree.... its so chill.. i love it!! especially having him with me....
its my first time snorkelling n im loving it... i was amazed at how nice the corals n fishes are swimming past and around me. i was kinda suprised i didnt struggle while snorkelling....

Going back to work after 17 day of leave is so so so draggy!!!

~~Love Zann~~

2008-05-18T03:23:00.002+08:00

weather hv been really really hot these days....
so humid tt i cant slp at nights!
its almost 4am n im still awake n gotta get up for work soon....

so stressed up now....
my mind is bottled up with far too many pressing issues
i cant seem to open up to anyone... n its killing me... i jus cant speak up these days, i dunno y
its so pressurising to think of so many things in life... future is so unpredictable!!
i hate growing up.... wish i was still a carefree child...

haiz... work is getting ridiculous....
the traffic is so heavy n work is hectic due to stricter/hightened security measures...
of late, some staff gt terminated due to various reasons
i cant wait for my turn to be posted out bt then again, tt will take years!! so i can continue dreaming about tt day to happen.... haiz...

i really need some sleep now....

~~Love Zann~~

2008-05-08T10:49:00.001+08:00

i dun seem to hv time to update n mantain my blog....

considering to close it down :(

~~Love Zann~~

spendrift

2008-04-24T10:47:00.004+08:00

so much hv happened...
i bought new hp... the slim sony ericsson w890i!!! love the size n the classic look... very nice brown..
bought alot of random stuffs like bags, tops, shoes, sandals, make-up, nail colours n etc etc... ohhh i dine alot too.... just treated my family for a hearty meal for sis's 18th birthday at a seafood restaurant... gosh really cost me a bomb!!! its a good get-together-gathering, i hadnt seen my aunts n cousins for sometime now, so its all good!
sis better appreciate it!!! i bought her the JLo Live Luxe perfume as a bday present!!

these days been spending alot like nobody's business... i think i spend alot in the supermarkets!!! i love supermarkets.... tt day we went groceries shopping for our food ration at work n it cost us ard $60 n tts jus stuff like chocs, biscuits n instant noodles.. hahha
my own groceries cost alot more, tts a different story altogether!!!

the reason i been spending alot is because of the bonus i get. so i sort of took advantage of it!! thinking about it again, should hv save all tt loads of money for future use like travelling or savings.....
the govt giving us all another gst top-up thingy, i better save up on tt.

~Love Zann~~

short trip... work... cramps...

2008-04-07T12:59:00.002+08:00

kinda jus gt back fm a short weekend KL trip...
it was alright. good break fm work. could be better though!!
absolutely love my Brooklyn Suite at Berjaya Times Suites!!!

had a heated arguement with mum at Petaling street in KL, gosh she yelled at me in public!! and im proud to say tt i kept my cool n didnt shouted back.... i jus walked away!! seriously walking away cos im damn pissed at her..... n the best part, sis followed me n defy her orders not to follow me. haha.... she's pissed, really pissed at us. but she made a scene not me.
its like the first time ever, i didnt give in to her like i always do. Sis n me took one own sweet way back to the hotel on our own.... without the parents!!
when they got back to the suite, she was superly nice brought us suppers!! she knows she's in the wrong in the first place.....

im not very satisfied with the new work scheme. argghhhh..... cant be bothered alrdy. im jus contented im earning an income.

had my worst menstrual cramps yest..... gosh! its damn painful.... so much so tt I cried, yest i cried......
it was right after my night shifts ends n i couldnt sleep, keep tossing n turning in bed.... im in cold sweats....
sis was so sweet to bring me water n medicine. awwwww... love u babe!
Ir made it worse for me for his un-caring n un-concerns towards me, tt made me cry much much more!! thank god he made up for it.... love u dear....

im getting lazier by the day.... work really burns me out!!
putting on weight at fast rate.... thanks to all the food indulgence moments for the past 3 days in KL....

~~Love Zann~~

happy

2008-02-25T12:08:00.003+08:00

finally.... i had my total relax azizan's off day on friday....
woke up really late tt day.... went for my facial spa n massage, den pedicure n finally a haircut. so tts like.. face, body, feet n head massages!! woahhh so pampering!!!
after tt went to fetch sis fm work n off we go to Expo for metro sale. i kinda dun like sale cos there's no one who really attend to me, "no trying" policy or the queue is too long, plus i'll buy unnecessary stuffs!!!!

ven cldnt make it on sat, make last min plans with fana.
Sunday was the best!! been anticipating the day!!! to meet my baby!!
im so damn happy, i dunno how to describe it. miss him too much. i jus grab n hug him n dun wanna let go...
Sparkie is finally out... changes here n there... nice la. better of cos but i kinda gt scared at the speed it can go....

catch L changes the world yest, we gt free choc!! i tot there wld be some link to the Death note series... the only link is Watari, tt old man. its a nice movie still!! very smart but i so dun want it to end cos we all know tt L gonna die at the end.
we had Breekz! chicken for dinner. i hv to stop dining alrdy... cant seem to afford it alrdy... spending on dining like some rich kids!!

my new hair cut is kinda hard to mantain. urgghh! wat i like is tt, its totally black now!! no more brown ends... im so loving black hair!! :)
ohhhh im kinda pissed tt i had to ballot for my leave in march. but yay!!! its approved.... im so darn lucky!!! KL here i come!!! the last time i went to KL was years ago. i wanna be up tt Eye of Malaysia, screaming on those thrilling rides at berjaya times, staying n realxing on Berjaya times suites hotel, shopping ard like no one's business, indulging on the good food of Malaysia!!!
parents r coming along, which also translates to more spendings n lesser fun. but it doesnt matter, i badly need tt break. a short holiday break.

urgh!! night shifts again tonite.... the cycle never seems to end....

~~Love Zann~~

worries

2008-02-17T20:45:00.002+08:00

People ard me r not doing so well n im so upset tt i can do much.
Deepest condolences to Fana n Nazia for the death of their grandma. i hope things r fine. Fana doesnt seem like she's taking it well.
Ven going thru tough times, i really hope she can pull herself thru. Kinda frustrated tt our shifts clashes. Haiz... but im really happy tt im catching up with her this sat.
Zizz is rushing thru his school work cos he lost all his work due to negligence. Poor him. He had to re-do everything in such short time n juggling between work n school. he even suffered a strained neck. catching up with him yest is so good. kinda miss the guy. i'll make a point to make time for him since he's the one who hv lots of commitments now.
Fuzzy is very disappointed with me for not turning up for his gig. He was expecting me to come. I was the only one from work he so-called invite or told abt his gig.... he repeatedly reminded me of it n coincidently, it was the only time where my shifts do not clash. I had the intention to go, but i jus gt stuff to do n i jus dunno who to ask along. i'll have to remind myself tt my goodfren here needs my support. we havent been catching up too. i need to find time to catch up in real time.
i hadnt contacted Yam or San for sometime now. sms a little but tts basically it. i really need time to catch up with pple.
n my dear darling sis..... i miss her.... hanging out together. haiz....

People close to me doesnt seem happy when i told them tt i got back together with Amir... haiz... it worries me alot. a little upseting for awhile, but then again, its a good thing. i knew they meant well. Yes, i made the decision all on my own. i followed my heart.
i didnt exactly consulted anyone about it. im happy with the decision i've made.
i guess they r just worried i might hurt myself again n again.... i really appreciate all tt care n concerns. thanks guys. love u all.... i know... we're talking about my ex, the one who used to hurt me alot alot alot n almost bring me down to insanity.
but i'll be fine. i know wat im doing.

~~Love Zann~~

love is in the air

2008-02-15T19:24:00.009+08:00

love love love
amir & azizan
white puma sweater gift fm him
nice!! he's unaware when i snap this
funny look!! hahahz
Earl Swensens at ViVo city... we gt exclusive seats as compared to other couples!!
the yummilicious calamari.... a must-eat item!
crayfish seafood pasta for 2.... its enough for us....
my sizzling apple crumble pie
his banana wrap
ir & iza
reflection
the lovely-dovey us
im tired la baby
night safari.... fun fun fun.... still hadnt had enough!!
hmmmm..... who's tt on the phone?
wats with the face Ir?
at the carpark
i jus wanna fit in the pix... haha... kepo!
iza... ir... in love....
supper at Simpang bedok
amir, azizan, fana, nazia
us at MOS
us again

W-O-W!!!
very very hectic schedule!!!
im so tired, the sofa is where i doze off.... sleep is never enough...

with Ir fetching me with sparkie... i became a lil too pampered....
hehehe.... i need to have less of that...
im too preoccupied with other stuff in life tt i guess i missed out blogging abit about love life.

goshhh... gosh.... GOSH!!! im sooooooo in love with my baby....
i realised tt,(actually i knew all along) no matter wat happens, the only one person tt stays in my heart is him. the one n only reason y moving on is so difficult n getting over it is almost impossible!
love is unconditional. so true!! no matter how much better off in any aspect the next guy is, nothing beats the guy u love most. well, i believe it is!!
i need a guy who loves me wholeheartedly, to manja with, shares my sad n happy moments with, spend my life with.... a guy to pamper me, support n protect me emotionally n physically unconditionally... i dunno how to describe it in words.... i jus love him so so so much
the one im crazy with all the time... no matter wat, no matter how..... even when im in denial...
the one tt i want. fullstop.

though initially i was the one who wanted things to work between us, i think he's the one making most of the efforts..... watever it is, it felt so good.
parents kinda not in the way anymore..... i guess after all we had gone through, they wld hv approve knowing how much we love n fight for each other.

we never did celebrate valentine but since we're both rostered off..... Ir decide to bring me to the Night Safari!! weeeeee~~~~ it was fun!!!
felt kinda lost cos its kinda dark n its my first visit there, so im kinda blur. every little things excites me.... hehehe..... nice! i wld wanna go there again...
prior to tt, we had dinner at Earl Swensen's at ViVo. nice yummy food.

~~Love Zann~~

pix of past trips n events

2008-02-02T18:48:00.000+08:00

me, aliff n half of faizal at woodlands nite
christina, yun, faizal, zan, vera, erin
aliff, fana, faizal, yunus n me after 1.5hrs of Uno game!! haha

fana was almost camoflauge in this pix. haha!!

ok... faizal cant be seen here... haha
the gal
r we on a holiday???
illegal immigrants
saz, lela, fana, farhan, zan
my medic, shyamir

ohhhh welcome welcome!!
cycling time!!!
pit stop... tired la....
cute!!!
the nice fall

miss tt good ol ice lolly
nasi ayam penyet time!!!
lela enjoying her food
nice drinks combo!!!
where's lela??

i looovveee this pix
on the 2nd highest level
resting time

top of the Jelutong tower's spiral staircase

~~Love Zann~~

time for some pictures....

2008-01-29T11:21:00.000+08:00

swwweeettt.... yum yum....
messy messy
oooooohhhh i love it!
Nanz bought this for me cos it reminded her of me when she sees it... so sweet!!
chilling....
shopping at expo... dis was sumtime ago... haha
i love love love love love love love dis gal soooooo much!!! muackkzzz
she's drawing out cash.... draw out more dear!!!
i like the Expo mrt station.... so futuristic!
need to say more? its all written all over her!!!
Voted #1 Shopping Queen & Shopping makes me feel happy

our Jewels!!! mine n hers
my sweet artpiece... hahaha
so comfy.... my new ipanema sweet pretty sandals...
my Cotton On sandals suddenly became my mum's. haha i gave it away
touch-up time baby!!

i jus wanna say..... I LOVE U BABY SIS!!!
im workin n she's working so hard to find time together.

u may not hv done well for ur O's but i wont blame or push u....

she request today off cos its my off day too jus so she can SPEND time with me.... awwwwww..... so sweet!!!!! i had lots of plans but i cancel them all for her cos i know she'll do the same for me.

its almost 12pm n she's still asleep while i gt up by 8am. hahahhaa....

~~Love Zann~~

stress???

2008-01-26T18:00:00.000+08:00

ok... im having a hard time managing my time...
feel sick again yest.... doc says its due to stress, insufficent rest, sleep deprivation n overworking!!
my blood pressure went up again... haiz... aiyoohhh... gave me anti-depressant thingy....
my body aching seh... feel so lethargic

i argued n shouted back to my superior... well.. i made a mistake n admit but he's too much, he's just rude. dun think im someone u can push ard. i dun normally burst unless provoke. now, i gt myself into trouble n hv to write statement. watever!!! i wont respect u cos u dun earn tt fm me. take away ur uniform n rank, ur jus nobody.

ok lots to update. let me backtrack abit. its gonna be at random. my injuries r slowly recovering. i can now use my right arm/palm with force. tried doing push ups. its OK!!!! yay!!!
woodlands nite's duration was too long but its fun.... i won a home telephone. hahaha. faizal was so sweet to fetch n send us hm tt day.... ohhh ya i help the magician make the table fly n had to act 3 sets scenes fm the movie titanic. nonsense sehhh.... hahahaha!!!
after tt we went to Mount Faber to chill n play the longest game of UNO at 1.5hrs!!
went to MOS for Iswandi's 24th bday.... was fun n scary.. lots of fights n siti j passed out. we almost lose her. thankfully they ppl ewe're with were certified first aiders n performed cpr before the ambulance came. she was admitted to kk. the incident really scares me off n im trying to stay calm, panic really doesnt help.
went to macritchie reservoir for the hsbc tree top trail but its closed on mondays.... we jus trek ard tt area. my shoes gave way tt day, i threw my nike right after tt.
went shopping with seha n bought myself a blue dress.
went blading with lyana n yati at ECP. finally!!! after such a long time!!! yay.... it wasnt as fun cos we can speed.... we taught yati to skate, poor gal fell a couple of times... ouch!!
after tt went to amir's bbq pit... get to know more pple there.... skate some more when pple r so busy catching up amongst themselves... wahh shiok man... speed up n songs blasting fm my mp3!!!!

had supper n catch rambo 4 with nazia n amir. nice movie. still recovering fm the after effects of the violence fm the movie. took my medicine n sleep. gosh hate the fact tt im so WEAK.
arrrggghhhhhh!!!!!!!!

~~Love Zann~~

busy busy busy

2008-01-17T17:40:00.000+08:00

ok two words: FREAKING BUSY!!!!!!

yupz... been so occuppied with so many things these days
plans here n there... cancelling n making them... kinda tired trying to keep up with it.

im tryin to meet up with alot of pple whom i miss.... trying to find a slot aint easy... now i can only try to plan 2 weeks in advance....

i've been HAPPY. my appetitte starting to g-r-o-w!!! Omigosh... its unstoppable!!

really... been eating so much lately... like i havent eaten for days!!!

right now.... i've been trying to catch on sleep... seem to be missing on that!

sleep deprivation... arrrggghhhh the root to all my crapiness n forgetfulness....

im so tired easily, yet i still try hard to make it for watever plans i had... i dun like to cancel plans unless i really have to...

love the feeling of being loved.....
i knew love was there all along.... u jus need to put those ego down
all that drama can finally end!!
been giving in alot now... plus i dun much hv time due to shift work...
it aint gonna be busy... but im trying to make it work.... *wink*

all that shopping hv to STOP!!! spending way too much alrdy....
i dunno y i keep buying sportswear... they're nt cheap!! we're talking about more than $40 per piece!!! hmmmm, its supposed to be motivating me to do something abt my physical self which i hadnt get myself to do yet!!

my palm still hurts when i pressed it down or accidentally hit it.
its alrdy irritating me n restricting my movements!!!
urghhhh!! i can even wear gloves to do physical stuff.... wearing my wrist guard hurts too... so skating will hv to wait!!!! urrgghhhh!!!!!
taking care of the wound slows me down, hv to do things slowly...

speaking of which, i drag morning shift so much! simply cldnt wake up!!
reported late... took cab.... rush rush.... etc...
cab fares r ridiculous!!!! my ezlink card value seem to be depleting so quickly... hmmmmm

i tot Dec 2007 was a busy period for me.... Jan 2008 is the busiest!!!
thankfully i hv an organiser to help me keep up with my appt n activities...
hope things slows down by feb....

i miss lots of pple now..... im trying to find time to schedule a meet-up
pple i wanna meet:
- Ir
- KakReeina
- Venassa
- Shaz
- Zizz
- Widya
- Ala
- Eddy& Shaf .... n lots more!!!

~~Love Zann~~

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2008-01-07T19:02:00.001+08:00

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funny!!!

2008-01-07T17:45:00.000+08:00

see!! its jus minor injury only.... my palm hurts the most, the wound is quite deep!! i cut a few layers of skin to clean it. still hurts now. haiz such a hindrance esp when working.

look at them so relaxed eh.... i was shivering by then.
the old-skool favourite coloured "air batu". its 50cents ok! so expensive.
Saz, Fana n An happily eating at Changi V
Lela enjoying her food, didnt bother when i was snapping her pix
our colourful drinks. so pretty eh!!

its funny how the simplest things can excites me.

its like an instant happiness :)

a simple text msg, call which may sometimes mean nothin more than jus "hello"

meeting is so exciting, so looking forward... im willing to cancel my plans jus to see u. hehe. i may not show it but im so happy deep inside.

hehe. i miss tt. tt feeling of falling in love. or hv i fallen??

or maybe i hv always been in all along??

hmmmmmmmm.....

its funny how quite a number of pple knew about me falling off my bike at Ubin. haha. paiseh. so fast ar pple know!! i dun take mc cos of my fall ok, im really sick yest. aiyoohhh... hehe.

anyhow, my wrist still hurts. it hurts stamping. ouch.

supposed to be blading at ECP today but Lyana didnt want to cos of my injury :(
i badly wana blade!!! miss it. haiz....

the botanic garden photography session with Matt on 18jan hv to be cancelled too!! urghh!!

arrrggghhhh i keep having to cancel on my plans!! irritating!

funny went hm with Dila n went to BK. weird service given. hehe

Dila's responsible for tt!! cos she wldnt wanna give her number to tt guy :P

but the burger is good. n the onion rings. yum! so filing :)

its funny how the rumour abt Fahmi n me maybe wasnt a rumour. maybe cos its initiated by the person himself. hmmm maybe some pple really want tt attention huh?? hmmm i definitely dun need it.
im sick of it infact!!! im trying to stay low all along n being cant-be-bothered by watever happening n im happy wif it. if u want attention, at least, dun make use of me. upsetting seh.

somehow, wat some wise frens said makes sense. i aint gona do anythin abt it cos it doesnt affect me. i can deal with rumours pretty well all these while, so its all good.. i jus need to be a lil careful i guess....

im glad my frens knew who i was n was sure tt i wldnt do certain things tt wasnt me. so good to know tt :)

~~Love Zann~~

overexerting myself

2008-01-06T16:59:00.000+08:00

hmmm..... lets backtrack abit
ever since we crossed over the new year.. i've been rather busy...

i got sick on 3jan... contracted by the flu virus, followed by fever...
my eyes gt watery n developed some irritating headache. i clnt sleep tt nite but i hv to report to work by 8am the day after. took medication n left. when im sick, my movements r slow, so obviously i hv to report late for duty for abt 15mins. my condition worsen tt day, 4jan, i almost wanted to report sick n took mc but i cant, i alrdy performed few hrs of ot n the next shift is wif my own team, so i figured it shd be ok. true enough!! i gt good deployment. chhoo-choo train!! ohh yeah. i took some medicine fana recommended but i dun think it works! my fever gt higher n higher.
i cldnt even concentrated on the job!! Mr Ng was nice enough to let me sleep n rest for awhile n told me nt to do counter n go standby at x-ray instead. luckily the Cisco guy who did x-ray was Marzuki, he entertain me abit. by tt time, i was shivering like mad. was wearing uniform plus my bomber jacker plus the i-care jacket n still shivering!!! gotta thank radiah for the i-care jacket!! i was "high" by tt time alrdy.

Fana was so sweet to wait for me aft work. Pple fm train usually go hm late. Abg Ipin offered to send Su, Afzan, Fana n me hm, he's so sweet!! we all live in the east - tamp/bedok/pasir ris while he live in woodlands! Ir picked me up fm work cos he gt to know im sick. So went off with Ir instead. We had supper at Simpang n do some catching up. i hadnt seen him since 4dec. i gt hm ard 2am. had wake up at 7am for my cycling trip at pulau ubin, but i didnt. when Saz sms me at 8.15am, tts the time i woke up. rushed to get ready cos Saz n An alrdy under the void deck, i can see them from my kitchen. haha! i couldnt decide which to take but An told me to take his!! yay..first time on SP! plus he's kinda big so i feel safer, ermmm Saz's rather small. hehe.

Den go fetch Fana at her plc den to white sands to meet Lela. she dunno how to go changi on her own. so cute on her guilera. had mac breakfast there, den off we go to Changi v!!! wahhhh the new arrival/dep hall there is so nice, unlike the old one! even the boat rides r not so bumpy now!! :)

its Saz n Fana first visit to Ubin, Lela's second, me n An been there a couple of times. An's grandparent used to live there so he hv childhood memories at Ubin. Fun trip!! we went to explore so many places, kinda got lost a little n went to some dead end. but we gt back on track. oh yah, we visited An's grandparents abondoned hse. they moved out 3 yrs ago, now its a mess n the govt gonna demolished it soon. we had to leave our bikes outside n walked thru the bushes to get to the hse. An looked pretty sad. "this is where i used to sleep on... the tv used to be here.... behind tts the durian tree... etc" i felt eerie in tt hse. like "someone" was there. the mirrors/closet/ doors/ rooms... scarry! at tt time i feel like slapping Saz to shut him up, he wldnt stop taking unnecessarily n making "offensive" jokes n touching things ard the hse. An is another one, telling us tt this is the spot where he had his "encounter" with "her" so n so... Fana jus keep taking pictures ard n asking An qns after qn. haha cute! Me n Lela kept quiet all the way cos we both felt the same way i guess. When we're at our bike, Lela snap at Saz for being so complacent. hahaha!!!

so many up n down slopes.... down slopes r ok, up slopes r the killer ones, he had to get off the bikes n push!!! tiring... ohhh speaking of slopes, i fell off the bike from a series of steep slopes.... haha!!! they were all far ahead of me but i was moving at high speed i overtook them downslopes, den i realised my breaks were nt working.... i lost control n threw the bike to the left n fell to the right. oucchh!! its painful.... wounds everywhere. my skin got peeled off n my attire filled with mud. even my $89 dry-fit pants gt torn!! ouch heart pain!!
the injury hurts but still bearable!! :) the guys were so sweet when they help me when i fell. didnt wanna be such a wimp n spoil the day so we jus proceed on venturing....
it was tiring but fun. i rem Ubin but somehow, it looks different now. even An said so. the path, the Nordin beach n etc. we were all tired but we still had time for picture-taking. haha. im the cameraman for the day. Lela's digicam is with me all the time! snap snap snap!! :P

left ubin n had Nasi Ayam Penyet at Changi V. its raining so we cant move off, so we chill somewhere first. cldnt decide wat to do next even when the rain stopped. We plan to catch a movie together later. Fana insisted tt i had my wounds cleaned so we went to her hse n chill. watch "snakes on plane" on hbo while eating, he mum cooked noodles. i didnt know her bro was my junior in sec sch till he told her he knew me. haha my medic was my jr!! thx Shamir!! he did a gd job though it was painful n i feel like punching his head when he was cleaning it with alcohol n pressing down the wounds. haha. Fana was so sweet to give me a new pair of clothes on. they were all tired so we all left hm. An send me hm. i rested for awhile n went out to fetch sis fm work n buy supper. i slept immediately when i reached hm. i cldnt woke up this morning cos my body was aching all over. im in pain!! fever is running high n i totally lost my voice. im still upset tt i gt sick so early this yr!!! but.... Fana n Fahmie called this morning to go doc so i decide nt to go work. Kinda wasted cos i wanna go work today, supposed to do ot today too with team Charlie. i told abg champion im gonna do ot, i hadnt seen him for awhile. haiz.... next cycle la.

all i did today is eat n sleep. boring!!
i've been taking my medication this time. im "high" on drugs now. haiz. i wanna work.

~~Love Zann~~

My Day outz.. love them all..

2008-01-02T23:30:00.000+08:00

Farz & Yam. the lovely-dovey couple
tt Liverpool soccer match. liverpool didnt win. heh.
internet browsing session.
reading this while waiting for Zizz
where is he? hmmmm....
Zizz!! isnt he cute?!
Zizz & Zann
Yam & Zann
Alla & Zann
cuzzins. colleagues. closefrens.

San & Zan
San's shy??!!
oooooo..... totally love Java Chip Frapp with extra Choc drizzle
Ven & Zann

my blue cotton on slippers.... yeah slippers r the way to go for shopping activities!
love love love!!! *muackz*
erm.... this was at a gig.... some time ago... Arts House

the VIP table!!!
Shazzy n Zanny
shorties
pretty Shaz!! *winks*

Kak Reeina's SUV
She look so small next to her car. hehe

love her!! it was 4am... sleepy look! hehe

phweeettt!!! woman on wheels. check out this cool chic!!

our breakfast. Indian style. Lots of pratas! different kinds! n teh tariks

~~Love Zann~~

new year eve

2007-12-31T14:36:00.000+08:00

~~ Zizz & Zann ~~

the cute ones. hehe

c.o.l.o.u.r.s. love colours!!
in a lift
this walkway is usually crowded!!

peace out!!

weeee!!! im on leave. dun hv to work nite shift tonite! :)

many of my plans backfire... so lets wait n see how it goes la

watever it is, im jus happy nt to report to work. contented.

slpt really late last nite... ard 4am... watch soccer with Zizz...

liverpool vs man city. he wanted to watch it.

at the same, tryin to study last min, but no use la bring the books along! didnt really read.

hmmm boring match!! tkde thrill ar. kinda upsetting.... 0-0

but ok.... lucky the goalkeeper, Hart, kinda cute. haha. oh well, girls!

its funny, cos we're like passing each other stuff. he jus gave me dvd.

n oh!! espirit voucher!! yes!! he gave me. oohhh love him!! :)

i tink i been using shopping vouchers n spending alot alot more than watever the vouchers' worth. hehe. its ok. shopping will hv to stop today!!! im so going for last min new yr eve shopping later..... for one LAST time!! a fren told me "wahhh lucky im nt a girl" haha

woke up early at 6am but reluctant to get ready... slp slp slp n delayed till 9.30am n i started rushing! hehehe... at the back of my mind, "hey!! its the last day of the year.... there's always cab.. so y not?" so i took my time ar.... came on time la but taxi cab fares r really pricey now!! i wont complain cos its NYE.

one hr in class n i gt bored. dun feel like proceeding anymore. hehe. tired la.

i text Ir to meet for lunch but he cldnt make it. hmmm.... so it makes the class draggy-ier.

oh btw, wats interesting is, i bumped into so many pple there. even Rafi was there. n ohhh my eyecandy!! he's there too.... in my next class... he's so cute la. dun see him ard at work anymore, transfer alrdy i think. tts an instant smile! hehe

bumped into an old fren. makin cute seh die. chat abit abt his band den i hv to go.

i went hm smiling... so happy!! yay... was supper hungry n i bought lots of snack n eat them all up in the bus!! bus ride nvr been so busy, i was like texting non-stop!! one msg aft another!!

yay!! Ven's coming back in a few hrs.... nt sure if she hv the energy to go out later. haha. hope she hv a good time there. miss her.

my aunt called to chat. love talking to her.

oh gosh! im sleepy + tired. but i gt lots to do.

im so excited for new year!!! which is not long later.'

2008 will be a busy year, i tink.

thinking back.... 2007 was a very quick year!

life hv its ups n down. i realised my temper is better. i dun get angry easily. much more calmer now. im contented n more appreciative towards everythin. i argue less with everyone... no bf mah! n esp with my parents, i dun argue with them. cant say im much more tolerant n patient.

2007.... i spent the most!! i cried the most!! alot alot alot. haha

but i sleep the least. i spent lesser time with family n friends.

2008??? its too early to say.

hope its a better year. will list down my new yr resolution soon.

i need to rush off. Happy New Year!!!

love love love

*muackz*

~~Love Zann~~

last day at work

2007-12-30T21:42:00.000+08:00

today's my last day at work for the year!!
i can say its been a nice day...

finally, hv some time to catch up wif my dear Fana!! miss tt babe!!
walk ard causeway point n tampines central areas... its rainin heavily this evening
been snacking alot whole day.... n still hungry!! hmmm is tt a sign?
hmmm.... satay hotdogs r nice!!

Ir contact me after nt long ago. there's no means of me contacting him cos i delete his hp no, msn, friendster. yup i did all tt cos he gt me really pissed n mad! so the only way is, him contacting me.
hv to admit i miss him. doesnt matter if he doesnt feel the same way.
he wans to know how im doin now n if i picked up smoking lately so tt means he cares. "it will break my heart if u start smoking"
i dunno wats tt supposed to mean but he doesnt seem bother much after tt one long conversation we had. no other sms/calls/meetups. but the concern is much appreciated.
i tink i dun like the fact tt he text me cos its affecting me more now....
haiz... watever it is, i dun wanna cry anymore. which im nt! so its a gd sign :)
i jus wanna be happy...

im happy tt my relationship wif certain pple in my life is getting on fine, if not, better!!
im taking a step at a time. treasuring n appreciating the joy n happiness pple brought to me
to those who stayed by my side, to be there for me, to hear me out.. to love me... to make me smile... THANK YOU
im giving myself a chance to be happy. i've stop sufferring myself .
happy thoughts!!

hmmmm..... still no plans for countdown yet.
oh crap! i'll probably jus stay hm....

~~Love Zann~~

tiring....

2007-12-29T22:29:00.000+08:00

ooooo..... who's tt?? my fav helmet... so cool.... best at nite
waiting for...... christmas ar??
i look so blue.... thx to the Jab's car blue lights
abg Bob's toyota Wish.. front seat again!!

Jab's subaru impreza
Lan's hyundai accent
Wati's & Aidi's Mazda
Abg Bob's Toyota Wish
Impreza cool interior

no pix of Abg Ipin n Cik Zainal's hyundai matrix.

haha.

i forgot its the weekends alrdy... the days seem to pass by so quickly
2 more days left for 2007!!!

i havent had sufficient rest/sleep...
really2 tired.
i had the "best" roster so far... aiyoohhh how bad cld it be?? its ok. im like watever. gasak kau la nk kasi aku ape!!

i'll make it short. go jb on thu nite aft work. dvd, eat, chill, pump petrol. ok go hm.
last trip, 6 cars. 2 Hyundai matrix, subaru impreza, mazda 3, hyundai accent, toyota wish.
cldnt make up my mind which car i wanna be in. supposedly Hyundai matrix but i chose Jab's Subaru Impreza cos i started with tt n ride on Toyota Wish home. fickle. hehe
Jab is crazy... like crazzieee!!! he spends over $2k jus for the new sporty-look bonnet cover jus recently. today, he told me he change to the new gold rims!
reach hm at ard 6am.

work up at 8am. chill. breakfast. den off to eastpoint for appt.
Dion is sighing n worried for my skin condition!!! yup its horrendous. ok exaggerating! nt tt bad la but still, bad. gt to start taking care. darnz! sign up for more sessions n bought facial products. wahhh so ex! nvm... hv to invest abit for beauty sake! haha
meet up wif sis on train n off to Expo for metro sale. Shop like crazy. den off to orchard for more shopping activities....cant believe movies r sold out so darn fast. skip on tt n move on to shopping. spend alot at watson's again!! only crazy gal like me spends almost $300 there!!
off to topshop, cotton on, forever 21 for more shopping. walk here n there. feet aching even when im in slippers!! *pain pain*
i guess im nt used to standing for so long!! work only requires me to sit. hehe.
carry all the stuff hm. hands burn out due to lots of stuff to carry.
snack here n there n supper at ljs. go hm, unpack, sleep.
work up early. go work. "best" roster ever. sweat alot. wash-up. rush to town. fana cldnt make it, go alone. heck!
more shopping. meet up with Fuzzy n go back to tamp. pasar mlm. snack. drop by sis's workplace. go hm. chat with dad, go online n sleeping soon.

oohh goodness!! spend too much. nvm, festive seasons, cant blame myself for it.
hv to stop by next yr!!

sis help with my laundry n changed the new bedsheet!! love her!!!
thanks dad for the cover!!! love it

~~Love Zann~~

SOS!!!

2007-12-26T13:04:00.001+08:00

ok help needed!!
i feel so unkept now.
havent been taking care of my personal self n my room... my wardrobe! gosh... its horrendous!!

pimples starts popping up... arrgghhh!!
i need my beautician badly now!! Dion been tryin to get thru me but i jus in a fuck-up state to bother n make appointments.
so i called her earlier n she said slots r full den when she ask for my name, instantly, she said, "Azizan!!! Dion here!!! u busy huh?? working on full shifts lately?? ok ok tmr 11.30am ok."
hehehe... wahhh feel so priviledged!!

my hair need some tender loving care too... some treatment will help!!
dunno when i'll find time to fix appointment with my hairstylist.... but he's kinda irritating la, keep asking me to go for ceramic perms! gosh... i dun hv time to take care of curls la... plus im always tie up my hair. im still keeping the perms in mind though! they're really cute..

pedicure. still looks gd. but need to mantain it.
only hv time for appt next yr..

health. gosh! im feeding myself rubbish n junks all the time!!
have to stop somewhere. nxt year la....need to change eating habits completely!!
craving r really strong n irritating la!!
i can see the sun lately, no reason not to run alrdy. ok... nxt year!! :)

gosh.... i sound like some tai-tai. hahaha!!
no harm pampering myself!!

ohhhh i hv pple i dunno calling me up lately. those, frens of frens introducin me kind of!
really irritating!! dun mean to be rude but guys, ur moving too fast!! mcm desperate!
friendship is all i want, no more.
dun let me find out whoever my frens who gave/pass my number to them!!! im gonna be mad.
i hv 3 such persons now. it betta stop here.
~~Love Zann~~

so this is Christmas

2007-12-25T13:16:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas!! ho ho ho...
its christmas!! parents went to malacca, siblings working, im hm alone
hahhaa i shd be sleeping soon....

woahhhh!!! nite shift finally over....
shitty roster.... my breaks taken up again for 2 days in a row!
no time to sleep.... nvm....
lucky i gt nice partners :)

i met so many pple i know....
the awkward one was Fred n Iffah.... was suprised to see them... with his new car.
we're nt even talking, i jus smiled. she doesnt look pleased to see me, like making faces. dunno if she's annoyed by the jam or anythin else la. he seem paisey of her reaction. awkward!! we both jus smiled at each other. nt a single word.
but the sweet thing is, he sms me to apologise. nice guy :)
suddenly recall the memories we shared, really sweet but... no, it didnt happen. my decision. no regrets.

yest was christmas eve!!! Fana n me were singging christmas songs n irrirates Dila all the way. haha. she's boyfriend-less for so many days cos Burn in KL for holiday....
she calls us Santa's Elfs. hehe.

i hadnt seen fana for so long cos she's on long MC. nite shifts r often draggy n makes us lazy. so to perk things up, Fana offered to pick me up by cab. best nye. hehe...
actually, was supposed to go work wif Fahmi but i miss Fana. hahhaa! he's kinda pissed cos he had to go work alone. ohhh recently, some kepo pple hv been talking abt us. heck it la. Fahmi is like a bro who looks after me, just like abg Ipin.

~~Love Zann~~

pix of me now....

2007-12-24T11:43:00.000+08:00

Ayul... the little rascal....
she's strangling me... urgghh... tts my lil monster!
purple
art. newspaper/magazine design inspirised.
the cool bed
ayul. boyboy. kak ijan.
chilling
alla. lynney. zann
wind blows my hair

my new Playerz Girl jacket. artistic.
caught in the moment
pretty purple pedicure!!!
hey!! gimme back my stuff. my lil monster took my hp away.
nerdy me in specs.

sipping a drink on a hot day!

so basically..... i've gained alot of weight.
dun wanna reveal it. *paiseh*
maybe cant really see it in pictures cos i usually take pix in angles tt doesnt make me look fat.
im fat. urgh.

~~Love Zann~~

happy!!

2007-12-23T20:06:00.000+08:00

im in happy mood!! :)

slamat hari raya haji!! this is late but i wanna say it anyway...
i get to eat my so-called seoul garden!! best nye....
i finally gt my sports shoe!! yay.... all my sports items cos me so much so i better start working out next year!! after the rainy seasons tt it!!

been happy lately... finally!!!
been meeting up with lots of pple.... busy busy
im on leave yest n was kinda upsed tt i cldnt make the KL trip... haiz... nvm... i enjoyed my day....

went to JB with Jannah n Fara on friday nite.... bought DVDs n stuff... so happy to finally hv time to go out with my batchmates fm Team Charlie!!
reach hm close to 3am... was supposed to meet up with San sometime ard 3am but i went hm too early n by the time he called n sms, im gone!! lala land!! hehehe....

den i had to work up early for JB again the nxt morning(yest), Zizz was already downstairs to pick me up when i hadnt even showed.... so fast game, i jus grab a dress!! the fastest n easiest stuff i cld find in my wardrobe! hahahaha
was supposed to go by bus but last min change of plan.... we ride all the way tt day!!
so we had breakfast n straighttaway went for the photo shoot... they all look good la.... lawa n handsome la!! :P
unfortunately for Zizz, after the whole photo session, the photographer told him tt they lost all the memory of his shots in the memory card!! wahhhh screwed up.... he's pissed seh!! so kecian.... lucky they did something to compensate him.... so sayang cos his frames r so nice n gorgeous!!
Faizal was being bossy n irritating seh.... cos he used to do freelance photographer n model... mcm2 ar his ideas n directions... but it was fun n funny in a way...
I bought this really nice black Playez Girls black sweater which i totally fall in love with at first sight. i dun even look at the price tag!! kinda ex but Zizz says its so me n shd jus get it!! which i did!! yay!!
i also bought a very pretty ipanema white/pink/gold slippers.... love at first sight hgain!!
we had nice dinner before we left
it rained quite heavily so we're drenched... n super2 cold.... thank goodness i bought sweater if not, i'll be freezing!!! the jam is pretty bad but luckily the bike zones r clear...
reached hm ard 10pm den changed n went again with Kak Reeina!! love her love her!!
i fell asleep sey... poor thing she had to wait for sometime before i realised she called. we went to Starbucks to chill n watch The National Treasure at Cathy!! nice movie... very engaging... it was 2 plus am but im still wide awake!!! oohh tt Riley guy is so cute!!!
den we had breakfast at Simpang!! best nye
we had special VIP service... haha... the only table left!! reach hm ard 6am.... i love my Kak Reeina so much!!

had lunch with Shaz today!! miss her so much!!
we did some shopping n chill out at Starbucks.... totally loving the company!!
catch up on life is so cool.... lots of laughters!!
cant wait for the next outing with her... shopping n maybe clubbing.... hopes she touch down on my off days!!!
spend so much today... aiyohhhh!! im so good at this!! spend spend spend

so basically, i had lots of fun... meeting up with pple!!! -big hugs-
im eating really2 quick as i type now.... i need to rush to work....
Fahmie shd be on the way to fetch me... hahaha im only on leave for awhile n he miss me already!! i hope roster for tonite will be a gd one....

im having lots of fun now...
i cant wait to make plans with so many pple....
im having lots of plans next year too... hope things work out well for me!!
im crosssing my fingers for better days ahead!!
i'll post up pix when im free again....

~~Love Zann~~

wat im doin so far? nothing much really

2007-12-20T13:09:00.000+08:00

hmmm..... hadnt had time blogging

Hady Mirza won Asian Idol... congrats! Singapore Idol is the Asian Idol!!

alot of different response to tt but hey, he won! deal with it!! haha

Taufik Batisah is still my Idol..

i think im going deaf... hehe... keep blasting music!!

there seem to be something tt happened everyday at work...

oklah, at least, its nt so monotonous....

frens. we're like drifting apart now....

Mila taking Bob's car now... kinda miss her n our "bimboness"... haha, my bimbo partner!!

Fana is often MIA, sad tt she's sick n bothered. dun see much of her lately. im very worried. Dila is often nt ard ever since Burn trfrd.

alot of them slowly moving out to Airport.... its mixed feeling!! happy n sad... haiz

next year, most of the girls r getting married... one after another

so now, they busy doing OT n with the bf/fiance...

ohh i havent been doin OT for months, finance is really bad now. spend like crazy some more!! jus dun wanna worry too much la...

new staff keep coming in, didnt hv time to mingle ard... they're really quiet. plus, our locker room is different. maybe it takes time to warm up la eh. most of the time, before i introduce myself they sumhow alrdy knew abt me... dunno la... words go ard...

"so... ur tt Azizan??" yah yah... tts wld be me. hehe. im trying to be positive here, so, i'll take it as a compliment. :)

i've watched lots of movies lately... they r some which i really really wanna watch. anticipating..

hmmmm.... i wonder where do i find time to watch Alvin n the Chipmunk with Mila?? well, she promised. i didnt watch it cos of her.

i didnt watch The Golden Compass cos of Ir... n eventually he watch it w/o me. so i hope it wont repeat again. i usually gave in alot especially for pple who matters to me. i dun wanna pin too much hope.

kids. oh naughty kids. they're so cute. i see alot of them everyday at work. love them.

they always light up my day :)

each time i came across kids with cool name, i smile at the kid n call up their name n then look the parent. they really hv cool names!!!

i love it especially when their names starts with 'A'.... n usually its the whole family! i want my kids' names to all start with 'A'. i had it on my mind way back when i was 14, so yeah, tts before i joined service. speacking of which, i was looking thru my chopbox n i found a piece of paper wif all the names i wanted to name my children. hahha... those were the times i was happily in love. hehe.

yest was mixed emotions at work. i ran, i shouted, i scolded, i complained, i cried, i ignored, i whined, i passed sarcastic remarks.

all for different reasons all together. haha

so many events took place. lazy to elaborate.

Yam finally realised something's wrong n apologise. i dun tink she really gets it but the thing is, yes it still hurts, but she apologised. forgive n forget.

i keep buying cigarettes when i hate them. i keep buying bubble teas when i dun want it.

i keep buying snacks/junks/food at pasar malam for fun.

i keep eating shaker fries, mcspicy, filet, milkshakes n OCK cos im starting to get addicted to it. my daily breakfast are malay kuih at the mama shop. ohhh no!! wat the heck?? hahahha

supper is a must now!!! no supper, no sleep. yes, its tt bad.

maybe its jus the weather. cool n cozy n dunno wat else to do other than eat!!

i ballot for leave on new years' eve but i dunno wat to do.

i better go some place to party if not its such a waste!

no plans jus as yet... i hv a few in mind... pple did initate la but im keepin my options open

i miss my lil monster.... tt gal msg me everyday!! calls when she's bored. cute la!!

she wld msg me wat shifts n outlet she doin, her off days... customers, boss n sales of the day.

she's pampered!! i picked her up fm work. once, i rushed hm to get her sweater for her den rush to city hall to fetch her n all the way back hm to tamp.... hehehe da takde keje!! sweet kan?

hehehe... da mcm her bf lak!! but yeah, we're tt close! love her.

im planning alot for next year!! cant wait!!!

hope life will change. i only wish for the best.

~~Love Zann~~

--**Zany Zany Zan**--

Endless problems

AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME!!

spendrift

short trip... work... cramps...

happy

worries

love is in the air

pix of past trips n events

time for some pictures....

stress???

busy busy busy

seventeen?

funny!!!

overexerting myself

My Day outz.. love them all..

new year eve

last day at work

tiring....

SOS!!!

so this is Christmas

pix of me now....

happy!!

wat im doin so far? nothing much really

--Zany Zany Zan--