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501 must visit islands

2008-07-25T17:23:00.002+08:00

i was hanging out at mango tango, my favorite bookshop (pinaliit at pinasosyal na national bookstore) when i saw the book: 501 must-visit islands. and i'm sooo proud to see 10 (TEN!!!) philippine islands featured there. and i couldn't be any more proud, my beautiful camiguin island is there! yay! =) i got so excited i am buying the book! =)

among the 10 philippine islands, i have been to nine of them. the one island(s) i haven't gone yet is alaminos island, one of the "hundred islands." among the islands listed, alaminos is like three to five hours away from makati and i've never been there. how sad! but i am proud, i have been to almost 22 islands out of the 7,107 islands of the philippines. 7,085 more to go!!! hahaha! goodluck! =)

i love the book so much i spent almost an hour standing up and reading it. AND my favorite island of all time is there: MYKONOS, greece. =)

i think my calling in life is to own an island. HAHA! i think God wants me to own an island so i can finally get away from hateful people and have a peace of mind.

who didn't love this song?

2008-07-25T02:28:00.001+08:00

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2008-07-23T01:05:00.003+08:00

today was the biggest test i had to encounter in my lifetime. clearly enough i cannot live alone and phoneless!

i am so pissed off at everything and myself i can't even write about it. you know the feeling when you are so mad you cannot breathe, you are all flushed and tears stream down your face and you feel like you're going to explode anytime soon. in the street language of my dear friends tessa and angeli "alta presión" is what i had earlier.

i felt better in the afternoon though. thanks to my high school friends and carmel (even if it means breaking my my 1-week no alcohol (delusioned) promise, smoking, drinking too much coffee--not to forget, almost killing two pigeons while having my coffee at mc cafe---and spending unnecessary shit on a new phone!)

i was going to cut my hair REAL SHORT, as in bob style, but i chickened out at the salon and re-sked for hair color next week instead. should i go a shade lighter or darker? or just get highlights?

i am so tired and my feet's all sore. =(

i miss mother superior. =(

new and improved me

2008-07-21T01:22:00.004+08:00

i wrote 5 things i want to do in my other blog. 5 things that are, um, realistic and attainable (fine, except number one cuz tuni said 1. i don't have a car here and 2. i can't drive. TUNI, ALL I NEED IS TOTO!) anyway, here goes....

1. Go on a road trip, or any 4-hour drive town AWAY from singapore. I dont want buses, trains or boats. I want a real road trip, cdo style.

2. Play scrabble. I dont know why but i want to play scrabble.

3. Watch movies, as in dvd movies. I want to watch moulin rouge again. I want to watch phantom of the opera again. I want to watch harold and kumar, wanted, and all the recent movies i missed.

4. I want to paint my nails black.

5. I want to join capoeira here in singapore.

normally i want to imagine that i'd do fancy things like go on a holiday in maldives, go on a cruise and whatnots! haha! seriously though, i decided to make a list of things i can do right now. so items 2 and 3 were actually 'materialized.'

God must've heard my scrabble cry last week. i was visiting my housemate michelle's room to borrow some books (yes, im a hardcore book reader now) when i found her disney scrabble on her bed-it was visibly laid out on her bed like an offertory. without hesitation i picked it up and claimed one-night ownership of it. i can't remember the last time i played scrabble, siguro high school, or college. but i remember the rules of course. this disney scrabble is so much fun cuz you can actually spell out disney character's name (obviously i'm good at it) and you get double word score! i played all by myself because oue said i've gone crazy. so i had imaginary opponents"oue" and "brian" and without question, i won. of course. three nights later karen and mapet had no choice but to play scrabble with me. and obviously, without question, karen won. (we don't need scrabble to know who's good and has wider vocabulary, let's just look at our grade school and high school academic attainment!)

second thing: i watched movies! gay movies to be specific. gay art films/movies on youtube.com in 12 parts to be more specific. after two movies, i already have a favorite line "it's only love. what's everyone so scared of?"

painting my nails black is very easy, i just need to find time to buy that black nail polish!

then there's the road trip and capoeira thing. i'm putting them off the list FOR NOW since i know there's no time at all. but we'll see. i know God will always make a way when there seems to be no way. =)

another thing i sort of want to do is to wean off alcohol. 5 days is a good start. the last beer i had was in sentosa with karen, mapet and joanne last tuesday. and now its sunday. and i didn't dare touch my jd at home. i will try to hit 2 weeks without it and i can, i'll carry it on until mid august. or when brian comes back.

oh god, work is crazy. i'm on my toes now cuz i need to. i've lost focus again and i'm scared for my career life. God help me.

GOOD NEWS

KAREN my beautiful friend is going to be a temp barista. and guess which starbucks? one fullerton, my favorite starbucks in sg. (nothing beats starbucks rcbc but of course coffeebean is still my love.) too bad there's construction going on so you can't really see the view of the river. congratulations kar!!! i'm so proud of you, my new barista friend! yay! =) (by the way, karen used to work at czhech embassy! she is my diplomat barista friend! haha!)

UNCLE ERWIN, mother superior's younger brother is coming over to singapore and i'm going to see him on tuesday! and he's bringing me cigarettes! yay! (yeps, i'm smoking again, =( blame it all on mapet!) i can't wait to see him!

I THINK I'M STARTING TO LIKE KIDS cuz i held one of our customer's baby this afternoon. i held it like it was mine. or him, i held him like he was mine. "him" pala, not "it". pero yeah, i think i am open to the idea of having a baby eventually. BUT then i'm thinking, how do you raise a child? i mean feeding it and changing diapers is easy, you can always hire a nanny. but raising is a different thing. raising, as in how do you discipline your own child? how do you tell her/him about life, sex, death and all the bad things on earth? how do you teach her math and science (oh god, this i'm so scared of!) most of all, where do you get all the patience? (especially at night when he decides to become a monster and cry for no reason at all, would you, like, just slap him for him to shut the eff up? or just cradle him in your arms until you've gone deaf from all his crying?) anyway, this is good news, at least i am starting to open my heart about this "child" issue (this is all mother superior's fault, she wants a grandchild already. my goodness, ma, please not me!)

anyway.

photos of the day:

look how bad the weather was!!!! (the reason why we had to find shelter at the bar! haha!)

ps.
everyone of the now-defunct BAM is going to pansol on august. i'm so tempted to go but obviously i can't. i hope they serve "PASTA IN THE MORNING" especially for b1. haaay, i miss you all guys. it was nice to talk to you last night. =)

singfest

2008-07-17T16:43:00.002+08:00

jason mraz is coming. JASON "i'm yours and 1,000 things" MRAZ will be in singapore. there will be 17 other artists/performers that i don't care about. i just want to watch jason mraz sing 'im yours" and "1,000 things" in person. and i don't care if i go and watch alone. haha!

there's panic at a disco, stacie orrico, one republic, pussycat dolls, jamie scott and alicia keys. i think i'm interested in watching alicia keys too because she's mother superior's favorite.

obviously i can't go. for one, its a sunday. i'm on do not disturb on sundays. i have work on sundays. so there. it's a given. whatever event is happening on sunday, i really cannot go.

so i guess there's no point in talking about seeing jason mraz in the first place.

there is not point. at all.

if you're interested in this event, go to http://www.singfest.sg/ and enjoy yourself!

facebook horoscope

2008-07-17T16:32:00.001+08:00

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Romance, the arts, and other of life's pleasures seem to take center stage. If you don't understand something today then ask for clarification. Confusion on your part will lead to missed opportunities. Give everything you can to a relationship before giving up.

my bali dreams

2008-07-15T01:19:00.004+08:00

i dream of moving to bali next year. i need not elaborate on that since i think i've shared too much of this 'dream' in my other blog.

so i am planning a year ahead. my target month is june next year and as early as now i am looking for a house already. he's on a business trip in bali now and i asked him to check on this townhouse in kuta that i like. i want to stay in a 1-bedroom apartment with a dog. i want to live alone for a month and see how if i come back to singapore alive with complete body parts. this explains why i want a plant at home. big dreams start from little.

i know this is not another one of my 'african dreams' episode. two years ago i vowed to myself that i will do volunteer work in africa. pfft! africa my shit! look where i am now. i did my part and my application in plattenberg bay was accepted. the main issue was the money (and mother superior's approval.) i had to have much money to pay airfare and the food as well. the accomodation is covered by the organization. i could find a temp job there but i would still need a huge amount of money. obviously i didn't get to save. i spent so much on alcohol, plane tickets, breakfasts, dinners and havaianas. i had so many excuses--no money, i'm not ready to leave my comfortable life, africa's so far, what if i get sick there, mother won't allow, the alignment of the stars--all the reasons i could give for me not to actually go there. if i really wanted it so bad i would've found ways to raise funds and flew to africa right away, but no, i was lazing and enjoying the prestige of working in rcbc plaza where there's 4 starbucks and one coffeebean within the block.

moving to bali won't require so much money, 10 million rupiah is more than enough to feed myself for a month. 10 million rupiah is about 45,000 pesos. imagine you have 45,000 pesos and you live in camiguin island. you can have a free flow red horse party everyday, all day! seriously though, i think this is 'feasible' enough than my africa dreams. although the adopting a dog part is going to be difficult but i have already decided on it, i am getting a pet dog. i searched online and came across this website of bali dogs where you can help out by adopting a dog. my god, they all look like skinless hyenas! i want a cute furry white puppy. reading more of the website i realize these are stray dogs and some dogs are being sent to java to be eaten! haha! scary shit! my brother will surely be surprised he finds out i have a dog myself. i barely touched his dog named kyle, an obese black monster of a labrador (who's exiled to camiguin by the way because he drove my mother superior and neighbors crazy, he thinks he's the king of the world and barks like there's a terrorist attack going on the neighborhood!)

fine, my planning skills may not be as good as some people i know but hey, this is a good start. this time i know this dream is going to happen. =)

5 thoughts: thinking aloud.

1. i sometimes wonder why some people don't have childhood friends. everytime i hear people say they don't hang out with their childhood friends anymore i'd always ask "why?" and then i blab and brag about my precious ~~high school~~ kindergarten friends and that they're like sisters to me and how i love them so much. how about you? where are your childhood friends?

2. i notice my recent ex-men in the name of art and bom is on stealth mode on yahoo messenger. they don't want me to see them online. why, why, why?! (this is alarming, am i a bad person? lol!)

3. where are my two frisbees??? tuni and i bought two frisbees last year and those two kept us sober during daytime in boracay. i can't find them. i've brought all my beach paraphernalia all the way to singapore but i can't find them in my boxes. i know i brought them with me the last time i went home to camiguin and i'm sure i didn't leave it there. tomorrow i will be hitting sentosa with karen and mapet. and i need the frisbee to keep me away from hanging out at the bar.

4. how long can i go without alcohol? just a random honest thought without an honest answer.

5. how do you keep the love alive? hahah! okay, this is not a random thought. this is a line from the recent book i've read 'the choice.' in as much as i want to talk about how to keep the love alive, i think i have no right to even mention it. for one, i suck in keeping the love alive. maybe the abovementioned two stealth boys can tell you why.

i'm reading another book again 'i don't know how she does it' by some british writer i don't even know. i couldn't even remember where i got this book from. must've been from those $5 book sale at great world. not sure.

anyway. i'm going to sleep now. i'm still off tomorrow but i have a meeting at 10 at the shop with singapore airlines magazine writer.

goodnight beautiful friends!

i'm hopeless

2008-07-14T17:30:00.002+08:00

i am not queen amidala anymore as more pimples are about to grace my face anytime this week. i'm so stupid for eating the free peanuts at the bar last night. i was at 60 nuts per minute, in short i ate one or half a peanut (or whatever my fingers can pick up from the bowl) per second.

i cannot remember half of my ym conversations with brian last night. maybe because he had no sense or maybe i was, um, intoxicated. haha! i knew we were talking about the love of our lives. or um, something else. i cannot remember.

mapet came over to eat lunch. "you're off today right? cook lunch for me, i am on my way there. i'm starving." my brat of a friend came over to try my another failed adobo dish. in my lifetime i only cooked adobo twice. one was at brian's house and he said it wasn't bad. this time i would have to say its that bad. mapet even commented "this is like humba!" humba is like a sweeter version of adobo. i like to cook for my friends, some attempts resulted to inedible dishes but they all ate anyway (out of respect i know!) but i have to say i cook good pasta, especially the tuna one. all the rest, forget it. i can cook good fried eggs thoug! haha! =) i will learn how to cook. one of these days i will cook a 5-course meal, from starters to salad to soup to main to dessert. maybe i could even make a drink aside from the usual jack and coke i fix for myself during lonely nights. and the (un)lucky person who will try it will have to be oue, no one else. i know he's always supportive of me. my high school friends are so downright honest and will tell me to just forget the idea of doing a 5-course meal. (although i know in the end they will all appreciate it if i do it for them!)

*pause*

mapet and karen are here. i have to entertain my beautiful friends.

brb.

you to me are everything

2008-07-14T15:56:00.001+08:00

last night i dreamt of san pedro

2008-07-14T02:10:00.005+08:00

i cannot remember the last time i sang LA ISLA BONITA. maybe it was the day i left before camiguin. or makati. not sure. the onl thing i'm sure about is that its my second time to go videoke here in sg. the first time was at home in jurong when yette came to visit and she brought her magic sing along with her. hmmm, i don't think i'd even count it since i couldn't sing out loud cuz of this law they call "public disturbance". earlier on with caroline and jun was at an old school pub in pasir panjang. and yes i sang with my usual high pitched demure videoke voice. if you've been to karaoke with me then you know what i'm like when i sing la isla bonita, madonna style. hahahah! i hope this is not the alcohol talking or i'd be embarrassed of this whole blog in the morning.

anyway.

today was quite busy at work. lunch crowd extended all the way up to 5! believe it or not some people are delusional when it comes to the word "bruch". i will talk about it tomorrow when i'm sober enough to explain what i really think of the word brunch. wikipedia says:

Brunch or bruncheon is a meal eaten between breakfast and lunch that combines foods usually eaten for breakfast and lunch.[1] The term is a portmanteau of breakfast and lunch(eon). Brunch is often served after a morning event or prior to an afternoon one, such as a wedding or sporting event. While common in the United States, according to Punch magazine, the term was introduced in Britain around 1896 by Hunter's Weekly, then becoming student slang.

i want to go all out about this brunch shit but i want to sleep. i have two days off and i don't know what to do with them. i'm so used to having one day off which i normally devote to sleeping and offering myself to the slumber world but this time since my sisters are here (in the name of karen and mapet) i think i will have to spend more time with them. i'd like to play beach volley on tuesday and get some sun. or maybe just stay in and cook lunch for them. i don't know yet. my mood will figure it out. the only thing i'm sure about is doing my laundry. and um, packing up again....

...packing up again because this bloody landlord of ours decided to sell his stupid house. meaning, i will be homeless again in one month! haaaaaay!!! (read: a very heavy sigh)

i miss someone. bow. but the stupid idiot is out of the country. bow again.

i was this close to buying THE plant earlier. i was this close in getting an orchid. yes, a plant that flowers. a plant that needs extra care and attention. it was 18 dollars but now down to 12. i think i've decided on getting a plant that flowers. i think it makes more sense to see the plant bear flowers. hmmm... i need to think harder. shit, this is like thinking about having a child or not. i didn't know its this hard. haha!

okay i think what makes more sense is to stop all these rubbish i'm talking about.

caroline said something very important on our way home earlier. and i totally forgot about it. i wanted to write on my phone but as usual my phone got lost in space. the space being my big bag.

i want to sleep now but i'm talking to brian. the boy's got soooo many things to say about his holiday in manila! i envy him. i want to go home too. i want to go to makati, cdo and camiguin. yes, all three are 'homes' to me. well, makati has been my 'home' for the last five years. cdo is where i grew up and camiguin is where my heart is. camiguin is the shit, i'm telling you. its unspoiled and beautiful. and it is where i am going to have my wedding. and it is the only place where i can sing la isla bonita perfectly with the score of 99 in magic sing.

oh shit i think i got to sleep now. brian's becoming the most useless person to talk to so i better go sleep before i cut and paste our conversation here.

i wanted to talk about oue's newfound interest: learning two languages at the same time, german and spanish. i was this close to throwing all the plates i was washing last night at him. the kid was counting 1 to 100 in spanish in front of me while i was by the sink. i'm telling you, no person can handle oue's kakulitan. i am a very impatient person but i don't understand where all my patience comes from when it comes to oue. hehe!

anyway. i am seriously going to sleep now.

goodnight everyone! cuddle cuddle! =)

her majesty, queen amidala....

2008-07-13T00:01:00.004+08:00

these two red spots are a bit disoriented and don't know where to place themselves!

i do not have a pretty face that's why i'm almost going crazy about having pimples. okay fine, i freak out when i have them cuz i rarely get them.

oue is not home yet so i ended up eating coco crunch and milk again! and i've been eating this shit for the last few days only to realize its KOKO KRUNCH, not coco crunch. i've seen that stupid idiotic bear on tv commercials but i never realize its spelled with a "K". this goes to say i'm not observant. or i simply just have half a brain.

anyway. should i cut my hair short? should i? should i? everyone at work is doing something with their hair. noke, our salad thai chef, cut her hair short. jane, our cashier, permanently curled her very straight hair. being the inggitera that i am, gusto ko din magpa kulot or magpa short hair. we'll see.

my "plant" plan has an improvement. i think i am getting a fish as well. oue and i are still negotiating on how do we go about getting a fish and who's the primary care taker of the fish. i think the plant will take so much of my time and energy. but oue insists getting a fish is better "kasi buhay siya rons" (i don't know what he meant by that, siguro he was thinking i'm getting a dead plant!)

anyway, i have to go and sleep now. its quite busy today and i need my beauty rest. otherwise, these queen amidala spots might bear child. haha! seriously!

sweet dreams my darlings (with or without pimples!) XOXO

the plant

2008-07-11T00:41:00.003+08:00

i am off on monday and tuesday next week. i'm thinking of hitting the beach for two days but if its sentosa i'm talking about then i'd rather forget about it.

so i'm buying THE plant on monday or tuesday. i need mapet and karen with me, i need their moral support. these girls are as good as plants, except that they need more attention and time and love so they should be able to help me pick out the perfect plant.

i'm already thinking a nice name of the plant. hmmm....

this whole plant thing is becoming an obsession. i've googled so much on what best house plant i should buy. i haven't decided yet and i would only know once i see the plant. oue suggested i get a cactus, i can just put it in a pot and leave there for weeks. getting a cactus will defeat my purpose of taking care of a plant.

okay, i think i am this close to going crazy.

i am feeling better lately, medically speaking. i've taken all my medicines religiously. i still can't take solid food though. at work, the thai and western chefs take turn in cooking my staff meal. they had fried chicken earlier, i took about five cutlets but my boss stopped me from eating it cuz i am still not allowed to take solid food. i don't know what kind of gastro flu shit i have, they said all i can eat is porridge, lugaw, conggee, or whatever you call it, basta sabaw! but not tonight, i am currently eating coco crunch and milk he picked up for me from mustafa (the amazing 24 hour indian department store!) coco crunch is definitely not in my so-called 'soft diet' food list.

i am not feeling any better emotionally. i am still a wreck cuz i allowed myself to become one. especially these past few days where i feel like i'm the shittiest lousiest person alive. i need guidance, a whole lot of it. i was actually looking for a therapist or life coach here. i met one and she's at 180 sgd per session, each session is at 2 hours, succeeding hour is at 50 sgd. 180 sgd can bring me to the closest indonesian island. so, i don't know. although this time i know i have to set my priorities straight. time is not gold, but it is running.

brian is leaving for manila tomorrow. i feel sad for not being able to see him before he leaves. okay i did, last week when he cooked dinner for me. anyway, have a safe trip bri and always be good, ok?

oue is sleeping. i think i'm gonna sleep now too. i'm so exhausted. i have so many things in my mind.

nostalgic

2008-07-09T01:52:00.002+08:00

i was facebooking when i read the invitation to the GnR event at saguijo tonight.

i miss makati all the time but tonight's different. i miss saguijo, i miss guijo street specifically. i miss our apartment in makati. our beautiful 2-bedroom apartment. =( it's a small untidy inner unit but it had a character, it had a life. HAD because i'm not there anymore. i was the life there. hahaha! seriously though, i miss myself living there. =( i miss my easy life there. i miss the convenience of it all. i miss walking to and from rcbc. i miss the 6AM church bells. the carinderias within the vicinity. mcdonalds and kfc. shopwise. saguijo. my housemates and their noisy jamming. rodrigo, his drums and his undying love for youtube and anime and cream-o. niku and his never ending 'you'll be safe here' song and overly played nba dvds. natnat and his oc-ness and girlfriend visits. bom and his annoying midnight lamp. jumangs and his high-pitched voice while he's in the shower.

so yeah, guns and roses at saguijo tonight. please go, for me. hehe! =)

goodnight again! =)

this is it

2008-07-09T00:40:00.002+08:00

so i am getting a plant, even after the two most important people in my life bet that the sad plant will die in two days. "you can't even take care of yourself!"

he suggested i'd pluck grass from the streets first and put it in a pot and if it survives after one week then he buys me a real nice plant. taking care of a plant must be a good start. maybe later on i can take care of my man. just maybe.

punyeta! i have got to stop obsessing about getting a plant. oue suggested i get a fish then later on commented that i need to replace the fish every two weeks cuz it'll die anyway.

no one is helping!!!! hehe!

i just finished reading a book entitled "the choice" by nicholas sparks. he's the one who wrote message in a bottle, a walk to remember and the notebook. i didn't read the books but i saw them all in film. forgetting that these movies made me cry, i started reading the book with so much excitement. first few pages were so romantic, so sweet, so fairytale: neighbors cum lovers, parasailing and hanging out by the beach together, making love in the mornings, going on motorcycle rides, walking their dogs together, got married, raised two daughters and then bang! they got into an accident and the leading lady went to coma. fuck shit its so heart-wrenching!

but i liked the book. it's written so, um, nicely. haha! the book got me through my three days of sick leave. yes, my friends, your beautiful friend is sick. i went to the doctor yesterday and he said i have to watch what i eat and drink because i have gastric flu. my fever is on and off, i get dizzy all the time and vomit a few times. i am not and will never be pregnant for sure. so now i have three kinds medicines to take in one day. and i extremely hate medicines! but i want to get better, i've been lazing around at home doing nothing. mapet and karen visited me twice already and i cooked for them for both dinners. i miss this, having friends over. actually, i miss my girls. i can't wait for us all to finally get an entire flat. its so hard for us to get together because for one, they're currently living at my ex-boyfriend's house cuz my landlord doesn't want visitors in his house except for immediate family. all i can say is that its like your sister crashing at your ex's place. isn't that awkward? but it's okay lah, he may not be there for me anymore but at least i know he still cares for my friends (oh, in karen's case, his friend's sister. hehe!)

i have a video i want to post but i'm not sure if its appropriate to post because it contains explicit words. oue and i were talking about the word 'sex' in tagalog and bisaya. both are extremely not good to hear. oue says the bisaya word for sex is okay to say while i say it's okay for me to say the tagalog word for sex. both words are kadiri anyway. the kid secretly took a video of me saying the word. i like it, i think i look pretty in the video. hahaha!

okay, i have to go sleep now. i'm working tomorrow after three days of resting. i hope i'll be fine. =) goodnight darlings!

cuddle cuddle!

humahabol!!!!

2008-07-07T03:55:00.002+08:00

chico sci 43%

urban dub 39%

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trying my best

2008-07-07T03:36:00.002+08:00

so, i am becoming a horrible person. and at least i acknowldege it. horrible in a sense that i recently hate things and people that need to be taken care of. for me, living and non living things are all the same, maybe even dispensible. see, i told you i'm becoming a bad person now. (caring for my family and friends are out of the question here.)

caroline, my 56 year old colleague, said i need something to take care of. a pet, a plant or any living thing. well, at least start i can start from there, you know learning how to take care of "things" again. then maybe i can start caring for people, and even myself.

so i decided to get a plant. i will get a plant this weekend and will see if i can "raise" it for year and if i do then that's the only time i can get a boyfriend to take care of. haha! i even told her im thinking of getting a dog when i move to bali next year. she said i'm too ambitious. but i really think i can do it. i seriously think i can raise a dog and feed it properly. then maybe from there i will start to like kids. who knows? (comparing children to animal pets is damn pathetic!)

for now, i will settle with taking care of a small plant.

i used to have a little plant back home. please don't be surprised when i said it died in two days.

i attempted to get a fish as my pet in makati. i only managed to get a fishbowl (and put on my accessories in it later on. no fish ever lived in that sad little fishbowl!)

so maybe a plant can help me. we'll see.

seriously, what do you think? a cat, fish or plant? CAST YOUR VOTE!!!! =)

from the desk of Urban Dub

2008-07-03T00:36:00.005+08:00

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this song is too beautiful to not post

2008-07-02T16:07:00.002+08:00

i told myself to stop posting lyrics in my blog as it has been becoming a cycle and its sad. but i can't help it, this is krysse's song for me and its just perfect. i'm almost in tears while reading the lyrics. i'm going through a very overwhelming experience right now and this is just my song.

Tailor Made (Colbie Caillat)

Twenty-five,
All of these mixed emotions,
Tangled up in pure confusion,
It’s hard to let go of the past, but it seems,
Easier as time is moving.

Well you said he makes you laugh,
And he makes you happy,
He sees you smiling back,
It is everlasting,
And so he’s tailor made for you,
With stunning golden hues,
And one sweet tone to soothe,
Your persistent beating heart it’s just a start,
And I, have seen you everyday,
You’ve never been like this before,
He’s tailor made, tailor, tailor made.

So let go all of these mixed emotions,
Forget all your hesitations,
Together entwined inside this feeling,
Feet off the ground, head hits ceiling,
Then he whispered in your ear,
He’s absolutely falling,
The words he said are clear,
So don’t insist on stalling

Because he’s tailor made for you,
With stunning golden hues,
And one sweet tone to soothe,
Your persistent beating heart it’s just a start,
And I, have seen you everyday,
You’ve never been like this before,
He’s tailor made,

Oh sister, don’t be troubled,
Oh sister, please be calm,
Cause this isn’t, what you’re used to, at all,
He’s tailor made for you,
With stunning golden hues,
And one sweet tone to soothe,
Your persistent beating heart it’s just a start,
And I, have seen you everyday,
You’ve never been like this before,
He’s tailor made, tailor, tailor made

how how de carabao?

2008-07-02T12:17:00.006+08:00

i just got off the phone with nokia care hotline. and i'm surprised i'm satisfied with the service. so satisfied that i agreed to be transfered to the "customer satisfaction survey" and gave the highest score of 5 to the agent who handled my call. i feel good about myself for doing it (for one, i have zero patience in waiting). i'm sure i made the agent's day. getting all 5's from a customer is always an honor. i should know. =)

why did i call nokia care line? my phone is dying. one more drop and it will break into two. i was hoping to bring my phone in and have it checked because i remember my phone warranty says 'international' but then i couldn't find everything else---proof of purchase, warranty card and even my damn charger! maybe i'll just wait until my phone dies. and when it does, i won't buy a new phone and i'd go phoneless. hmmm... heheh. just a thought. =)

i had to stop here and go over my cds. i finally found the cd i was looking for: the photos of my gxs/industrial/makati despedida 1 year ago. this cd is my "treausure" and once "released" the people in the photos and videos are going to be embarrassed. i'm like a paparazzi who's holding million-dollar photos of celebrities except that my friends are not celebrities, they are more than that! seeing yourself singing "wowoweeee" and screaming "ikaw ang bigatin!!" drunkenly in youtube is going to be a huge huge huge hit (and shame at that!) =) so if your name is tuni, andrew, paul, b1, b2, kiko, irish, rema and lemuel, be very nice to me, ok? bonani behaved that night so she's safe. hehe!

hay, i miss gxs so much! the convenience and easiness of it all. the people, the place, my cube, the karaoke contest at the conference room, the babyshowers at the pantry, the gossip, the clients, the 'known issue', the 'no flip flops at work' issue with the HR, the breakfasts and midnight lunches and all the breaks in betweens. haaaaaaaay, it was too happy it had to end. =(

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anyway. change topic. i finally solved a mystery. the mystery of why my genius of a roommate kept buying flavored yakult. at first he bought yakult apple, i've always wondered: if you grew up with yakult, you will never EVER believe that yakult is better with flavors. yakult is yakult. a true blooded yakult kid will never like yakult apple. so this oue bought a whole pack of yakult apple that tastes like shit. (yet i drank it!) that was two weeks ago, i kept mum about his weird yakult purchase. yesterday, he bought yakult orange. this time i had to ask him "why do you buy flavored yakult? why, why, why?" he cursed at me saying he couldn't identify the original yakult from the flavored ones. the kid is color blind. yakult apple is green. yakult orange is orange. and oue cannot identify these colors. he can't tell until he opens and tastes one. i told him not leave the yakult purchases to me. this domestic partnership with oue is just amazing, we never had issues except for his electric fan addiction and yakult purchases. i'm getting the hang of his miss universe addiction, i know its temporary. =)

haaay im going to miss oue. he's off to bangkok tomorrow until sunday. and i'm going to sleep alone. or maybe not. hehe! =)

siyet, brian is off for manila din pala. =( ano ba yan, why is everyone leaving me??? hahahah!!!! mapet and karen are arriving this sunday though. my goodness, this is a a riot!!!! karen and claire in singapore were okay but mapet??? i cannot imagine! i was on the phone with her last night for only 12 minutes because of all the nonsense she's talking. she was drunk with samantha. so there. i have enough people to keep me sane here in sg: there's krysse, brian, oue, caroline, jun and karen. then mapet's arriving, she is enough to drive me crazy again. i cannot waiiit!!!!!! =)

okay, gotta go now. i'm getting ready for dinner.

sabi ng horoscope ko sa facebook

2008-06-30T18:06:00.003+08:00

Rona,

Do your best to reduce your expectations to a realistic level. Try to put your own emotions on the back burner today. Instead, focus your insight on giving someone else the attention they deserve. Something you say or do this evening may snowball into a serious argument.

why like that??? hahaha!!!

hmmmmmm... wala akong masabi. gusto kong mag-blog ng tagalog or bisaya kasi madaming usi sa opinisa namin at ang mga bago kong nakilalang mga kaibigan or ka-ibigan kuno dito sa islang ito.

now i remember

2008-06-30T01:28:00.002+08:00

okay, the husband just got back from a business trip. from the airport he went directly to a restuarant to have lunch with his wife and 1 (or maybe 2) year old daughter. the husband got to the restaurant first and sat himself at the cornermost table. he was waiting excitedly for his wife and daughter. the minute the wife arrived with the daughter in pram in tow, the husband stood quickly and went up to them.

the wife, with arms wide open, was very excited, all smiles and even hearts in her eyes.

the husband, fell to his knees to hug and kiss his daughter (who can already walk by the way but was lazily chillaxing on the pram!). the husband was beyond excited, "oh honey, daddy's home. i miss you!"

kisses. hugs. kisses. hugs.

after 2 long minutes, the husband stood up and kissed the wife on the lips. it was not even a lingering kiss. it was a quick smack.

seeing the wife waiting in anticipation on when her husband is going to at least hug her inspired me more to not like babies. this is why i hate them. maybe because i'm obsessed with myself and maybe because i want my husband all to myself. don't get me wrong, i like kids, i just don't like little people who cannot talk. period.

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2008-06-30T01:18:00.002+08:00

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Now i know

2008-06-28T22:17:00.000+08:00

Each day the Lord gives me valid reasons why i should never like kids. Today is just another day.

im staring at my phone for 20 minutes now. Im so brain dead i like looking at this empty white space. Should i carry on with my children-bitching? Is it the truth? Is it fair to all concerned?

serious. I think im still drunk. I hate this feeling, it reminds me of my carefree university days. You know those days, those mornings when you say "im never gonna drink again!" after you got plastered the night before, but then you find yourself sms-ing friends the minute you recover from hangover.

my god i feel so old. I dont like drinking anymore.

the beach test says it all....

2008-06-27T01:50:00.003+08:00

What the Beach Test Says About You

You tend to be a very social person. You live for your friends and family. You can get social burnout occasionally though. You aren't a total extrovert.

You fall in love with ease and confidence. Even if you've had bad experiences in the past, each new love is a reason to start completely over.

You are deeply passionate about several things in your life. You're not passionate about much... and the few passions you have are truly obsessions.

Your sense of humor is goofy and silly. You are good at making almost anyone laugh.

The Beach Test

you gotta have faith, faith, faith ---george michael

2008-06-25T11:30:00.007+08:00

i am a terrible, terrible OFW! i didn't know rudy fernandez died until i read my friend's blog. i didn't know ces drilon was abducted until my pinoy colleague told me she was already release by the abbu sayaff men. and i didn't know about the bad typhoon and the ship that sank until my singaporean friend SMS me and asked how's everything back in the philippines.

this is heartbreaking. all the deaths is scary. =( i've said my kind prayers for the souls of these dead people--for them to have a peaceful after-life and i even prayed for the abbu sayaff--for them to finally find peace in their hearts and not hurt or kill any more people. please do your part and pray for everyone as well. in this world where everything seems hopeless, the least you can do is pray and have faith (well, aside from donations and etc). He always listens you know.

sooooo, i am back. i haven't blogged seriously for the last few weeks because i can't. i was out of the country for nine days and there's so much things to think about. i have random thoughts that i type on my phone, random ideas here and there. random things, random people. random - adj. having no specific pattern, purpose or objective. there's no direction for me just yet, and i like the randomness of my life: not knowing where to go and what to do. i tell you its exhausting, but it works for me, for now. yes, i'm out of my balance again but this time, i know what to do. i just like to temporarily float. =)

my five random thoughts

on my social life and eating alone. sg is fabulous but what the eff, i have the most boring social life here! i am no social butterfly back home but i used to have a life with random tagaytay breakfasts, coffees and laughters with friends. today i am so nostalgic. i was on ym conference with tuni, b1, rema and aller and i realize i miss those idiots. yeah, i go clubbing here once in a while but those are planned gimmicks and coffee breaks are scheduled! i miss the "uy, tara! bistro! now na!" at 4 in the afternoon and get drunk as early as 8pm. i miss waking up to text messages like "north part or max's? ngayon na." or "starbucks! dali!" its either i am slowly becoming a boring person or everything here is just expensive (the alcohol lang siguro!) haha! serious! i miss all the randomness and simple makati lifestyle. sg is so small but everyone doesn't seem to have the time. it makes me sad. in makati, i never ate alone. everyone's a text message away and everyone seems to be available. and if you were me here in singapore, ay pucha, mamamatay ka sa gutom! hay, this saddens me. you should see my phone entry about eating alone, i have been cursing about it since i moved to sg (because i believe it is not right for a person to eat alone)! haha! my lifestyle now is office-bahay-office, no juicy gossip breaks in between. =( and yes, my social life is based on me eating alone or with companion. pathetic!

on my ex-boyfriend. i shouldn't be writing this but i want to get myself used to the word "ex-boyfriend" when referring to bom. yes, we officially broke up a long time ago but i couldn't bring myself to use that word because it never felt like we really broke up. we still shared the same roof, same room, same bed. we still had dinners together and we still had each other. and mother superior still loves him. i do, too, but this time its different. it's the real break-up thing. same city, not the same house. no news about each other, no more "where are you?" and "what time are you coming home?" i cried over it, talked to him about getting back together, prayed hard, cried over it again, got mad at him, prayed harder, cried again, and finally got tired of everything and accepted it and let go of him. and like every other girl who just had a break-up, i thought i'd die without him. now i got myself together and i can say i am totally fine. its funny when i think about it now, who am i bullshitting? why would i want him back? i'm not in the right state to be in a committed relationship now. i will just drain the shit out of him. the ex-boyfriend said i need some growing up to do. and if he waits, it's going to be a long wait.

where did it go wrong? since i'm on that topic, i might as well go all-out about how the relationship failed. there were days i asked myself the very same question: where did it go wrong? what have i done? nothing went wrong, we both just fell apart. the relationship was never a priority. he was busy with his career, and me, busy with my own personal soap opera, getting depressed, and hanging out with my friends. i think i even spent more time with my friends at the beach than with him at home. i was out with my friends all the time. he's working all the time. there was no common goal, not even a single hint of interest on how to keep the relationship alive. we both allowed it to happen and the relationship slip away just like that. there were warning signs but it was ignored. the fact alone that i allowed myself to like and date someone else. the ex was informed and he did not pay attention to it. that was it. it was inevitable. the break-up was bound to happen. but then i realize just recently, why did we last that long when we never thought of marrying each other anyway? why did we waste all those years? what was the relationship for in the first place? see, this is how you gauge your relationship. if you don't see yourself spending your lifetime with the person you're with, leave now. but you know, sometimes you are in a relationship to learn things. and i learned so much from this another failed relationship. it's sad, of course, but it's a beautiful heartbreak. no more anger, bitterness and all that emotional rubbish. what's over is over. and now it's time to say "okay, next."

"next" is someone very special and important to me right now. =)

getting ready. after all is said and done, i am still not giving up on my desire to find a good man. i won't be in a serious relationship anytime soon but i know what i want from my future man. and i know what i'm going to be as his woman. after another failed relationship, after all of it, i know what i want in a relationship. i will be in a relationship because i want to be happy. women should never be in a relationship where they seek attention, time and affection from their men. he should be able to do it effortlessly and willingly. and like one good friend of mine said, the man should love you more than you love him.

i'm on the laptop for 9 hours today and i haven't done anything productive except for talking about my past relationship, conferencing with tuni and the rest of the gang, gossiping with brian the entire day, organizing a girls' beach day out at a nearby indonesian island next week with krysse, and looking endlessly at our holiday photos. hmmm, i guess my off day is not that useless after all. and at least i know i'm back in the blog world. =)

i have to go now. phone ringing.... =)