~* Berries's Dove *~

Confuse

2009-08-04T23:20:00.002+08:00

I never know whether my choice is right or wrong..
I have been feeling insecure all the while..
I want you, I love you but it seems like not working out..
I respect your decision as what you always said..
Clueless..

Despair

2009-07-29T21:25:00.003+08:00

When you have chosen any other thing over me..
I ask myself, how much I worth to you..

I'm walking away..

Flow

2009-07-28T02:32:00.005+08:00

If even though I am someone to tell you not to do something..
And if you really want to..
I believe that still I do not have the power to stop you..
Well oh well, I am here to accept..
=)
And to accept every little thing..

Love, feelings and what-so-ever..
I do respect whatever decision you have made or going to make..
It is because you're important..

Appreciate is the only word I can be expressing myself..

Love and feelings will be down to the bottom of my heart..
- Locked up -

I want you..
And I really do..
I'm there, still there.

Enough

2009-07-26T23:54:00.003+08:00

If you ever do not know how to appreciate me..
If you ever do not appreciate my love..
If you ever do not appreciate my effort..
If you ever do not take me seriously..
And if you ever take me for granted..
Enough is enough..

Sorrowness

2009-07-24T01:32:00.002+08:00

When things do not work out, people start blaming on Fate.

Instead of putting effort to make things work out once again.

Baring it all alone.

Sighs

2009-07-23T21:11:00.005+08:00

I don't wanna fight no more.
I got it alright?
I just want someone to listen.
And I am finding a way to release.
Whatever it is, I am sorry.
The moment we hug..
The moment I miss the most..

Are you, taking your steps and leaving me behind?

Abnormal

2009-07-21T01:28:00.003+08:00

Gees why must you behaved so abnormal as being, showing or acting that you don't care? Or you seriously never mind about it anymore and if is like you're alright with any single thing. I realized that I have actually never know how to react towards it. Is heart broken that when someone meant a lot to you but you're just no longer to keep telling him all the words like I miss you, I love you, you meant the world, you're important and stuff when the particular person is not giving any reactions to you which showed that he is actually or might be numb with all that??? Ouh yea.. I ended up thinking so much as why is he acting that way lately. I do take things seriously but sadly people will only think or thought that I'm fooling around. Like what Andrew actually throw it right on my face! And yes I ended up having a fight with him and telling all sorts of stuff deep down the bottom of my heart. I don't need to prove and I do not need to write on my forehead, start telling and showing everyone that how much I care, how serious I am and stuff alright? If you couldn't feel it then leave it! I would rather keep it to myself. I am tired and I just want someone that I can actually lean on and take care of me. Someone who can actually make me feel belongs to. If you no longer have feelings on me.. Sleepless night and I got to attend that freaking work tomorrow at 730 a.m. and do nothing in the office BUT receiving complains regarding that I am too free. And now I got blame for being free as you hired me for nothing and you got no work for me to do! I would like to throw a sentence of WTF right on your face, stupid bitch! And I do feel like quitting! My patience are so going to reach the limits. It seems like everything so fucked up!

- Nik's wedding pictures will be upload soon -
Signing off * trying to get some sleep
Cath's mood: Upside down. If you're not important..

Lyrics tell it all..

2009-07-14T21:22:00.002+08:00

Adam Lambert - No Boundaries
Nickelback - If Today was Your Last Day

Clueless

2009-07-14T11:05:00.002+08:00

Great I am having right side migrain now in the office. All by myself alone.
Can't you just stop calling and sms-ing me as I've already freak out by your emotional and actions.
Guys.. who taking promise so so so important..
I've got too many disappointment from promises and I knew the feeling of being disappointed...
Why promise when I know no one can do it and expect me to do what I've promised..
Promise, always causing me trouble and problems.
The best thing is I never promise but I am accused that I've promised but in the end I got anger and hurtful sentences in return because I never fulfill it.

* I am left clueless! *
- I never like this feeling. =.=ll -

Piss!

2009-07-06T10:24:00.003+08:00

I am getting more and more frustrated over the Management of the college as they are happily holding my full transcript as well as my letter of completion! I could not proceed with the process of registration with another institution without the document! Dumbass!

-They love to drag and drag and drag no matter what it is regarding about!-
It is so so so inefficient!!

Off Track..

2009-07-03T10:16:00.002+08:00

Not into updating lately. Don't ask it is because I don't have an idea why is it so.
Maybe I'm spending my time only on Facebook.
I am so off track lately. I've lost my sense and never know what I want to do and what I am going to do next. It seems like I have already missed out a lot of things..
Sadly, I've no longer able to capture with what I used to handle..
* Hiding silently at the corner *
And if only what he blogged is about me..
=)

I'm not Blessed

2009-01-25T01:40:00.002+08:00

You will never knows that how she feels while you blamed on her for not telling her there's a class as do you think she can remember everything and be like a postman or internet to keep everyone update on everything when you do not even give the effort to ask her? C'mon! She's a human and she got her own problems to settle. She's not a machine okay?! Do you ever think of how she feels while you're blaming her and questioned her in front of everyone? More over is your responsibility to find out if there is a class as someone does. After all you are showing your temper by switching seat! Godness, she's so disappointed! Why human lately tend to be so selfish and not thinking of how other people feel? Especially when he says: I wonder if there's somebody is willing to marry you as a wife... He never ever thinks that is so hurtful to a girl as she is his own girlfriend and the sentence came out of his boyfriend's mouth. Oh My God! What is happening to the earth?!

- I started to feel that I am not blessed with anything and anyone in this world -

* Whatever! *

Latest Photo

2008-12-21T17:31:00.001+08:00

Here's the update of my latest look =.='

And please stop complaining that I never update my blog as I am really lazy!

Is Sabrina and Me!

Difficult Time

2008-11-12T20:23:00.002+08:00

Going through difficult time alone lately.

Really need to take a break after my internship!

Neglect

2008-11-07T20:12:00.002+08:00

I'm busy as usual. Went to the airport to pick up an important guest from the airport for the sake of picking up and get a better comment for my internship which caused me have not enough rest! Due to the busy days, I've realise that I've been neglecting a lot of stuff around me. Well, is actually I've get disappointed and bored over something. There's changes need to be make, I'm afraid and feelings are fading away. More and more questions are popping out in my mind. Why this and why that.. Bla bla bla.. No answer still! Lately is like I do everything for the sake of doing. I got everything for the sake of having it. One word can be described all, Meaningless! And why should I pretend that I know nothing when I actually know what is going on?

Win a Free HandBag!

2008-10-04T13:27:00.002+08:00

Hey girls!

Wanna win a free handbag?

Click on this link!

http://www.handbagplanet.com/

Act now without thinking twice!

An Amazing Calculation

2008-10-04T12:56:00.003+08:00

Again. I've received this by my e-mail.

1) Key-in the first 3 digits of your handphone number (not the 01x number) into the calculator.

2) Multiply by 80

3) Add 1

4) Multiply by 250

5) Plus last four digits of phone number

6) Plus last four digits of phone number again

7) Minus 250

8) Divide by 2 at last

Look at what you got?

Have Fun and Stay Cool Always~!

Dancing With God

2008-10-02T12:26:00.002+08:00

Well, I just got this e-mail from Patrick. =)

When I meditated on the word Guidance, I kept seeing "dance" at the end of the word. I remember reading that doing God's will is a lot like dancing. When two people try to lead, nothing feels right. The movement doesn't flow with the music, and everything is quite uncomfortable and jerky. When one person realizes that, and lets the other lead, both bodies begin to flow with the music. One gives gentle cues, perhaps with a nudge to the back or by pressing Lightly in one direction or another. It's as if two become one body, moving beautifully. The dance takes surrender, willingness, and attentiveness from one person and gentle guidance and skill from the other. My eyes drew back to the word Guidance. When I saw "G: I thought of God, followed by "u" and "i". "God, "u" and "i" dance." God, you, and I dance. As I lowered my head, I became willing to trust that I would get guidance about my life. Once again, I became willing to let God lead. My prayer for you today is that God's blessings and mercies be upon you on this day and everyday. May you abide in God as God abides in you. Dance together with God, trusting God to lead and to guide you through each season of your life. This prayer is powerful and there is nothing attached. If God has done anything for you in your life, please share this message with someone else, for prayer is one of the best gifts we can receive. There is no cost but a lot of rewards; so let's continue to pray for one another. And I Hope You Dance!

* I've found it a meaningful one *

Small Little Meet Up

2008-09-28T13:02:00.003+08:00

Small little meet up session with the secondary schoolmates!

EeLing and Me!

Pao Kok, Me, HuiYen, EeLing and JunHo!

* My face is swollen in the photos as I am having serious allergic. =( *

Missed Out Photos

2008-09-28T12:48:00.002+08:00

I've just realised that I've missed out all these photos on my blog!

A night outing with the Girls in The Curve.

Enjoy!

Me and Adeline

Me and Adeline in The Apartment.

The Mirror Picture in Empress Cafe.

A Cheekie one by Amenda, Me and Adeline!

We Are Having A Good Time!

Love Amenda and Me!

Please Do Stay Tune, More to Come~!

Under Construction

2008-09-27T02:44:00.001+08:00

Due to Hui Ann and Kim who didn't know how to access further in my blog and Ivan keep complaining about my blog's navigations, I've decided to use back a simple template. Blog link will be update soon and decorations needed. Give me some time as I've just finished my yummy supper and heading to my bed! Adios!

Uh oh.

2008-09-26T01:45:00.002+08:00

Oh well, I think I better get back on track as ChinJou asked me to keep my blog ALIVE once AGAIN!

Here's a few things that I am going to update all of you:

1) I'm currently doing my internship in Glenmarie Holiday Inn Kuala Lumpur. So, I'm gonna be a little busy until December.

2) Unfortunately, I am allergic to the chemical that used in the housekeeping department of the hotel and I am on 2 weeks MC. Hoping to get well. My face swollen badly =.='' !

3) The skin of my hands and both legs are cracking. Thanks to the chemical and spent some amount on lotions, lip balms and medicine to get what suppose to be smooth, to be smooth again, what suppose to be recover and heal, to be recover and heal!

4) Good news. I got my facial wash that I wanted to use so eagerly back again and I've get rid of the cosmetics like foundation, bla bla EXCEPT my eye lashes mascara!

5) I am dying to collect more Belly Dancing Hip Scarves or costumes. So, please do tell me if you know any places are selling them!

6) I am so looking forward for a holiday right after my internship. I need to relax! The job is killing me!

(*-*) Signing off for bed time!

Serious Thought

2008-08-02T22:17:00.001+08:00

I really do feel like giving up ...

I see no future

Meaningful Day

2008-06-26T00:34:00.002+08:00

A very meaningful day for me...

Well, finally I have met up with a few of my cousins from Pang's family ^.^v in the hospital as my third cousin brother admitted due to the sickness of dengue. Of course, he is getting better and better. And soon we are going to have dinner in his restaurant right after he is back to his duty.

I felt the warm welcome from them, espcially my elder coursin brother who keep in touch with me until now. Is great to see you again and thank you for the hundo and asking permission from my father to allow you to take the responsibility as a cousin brother, to take care of me!

Thank you for letting me know that there is still somebody out there for me.

Cure

2008-06-02T00:14:00.001+08:00

Cure my heartaches

and

Stop my tears

- All the broken hearted, that once was me...