C'est la fuckin' vie

Path of no return?

2009-11-15T12:53:00.000-08:00

As I sit at my desk, watch out my window into the darkness that is embracing Copenhagen now I feel a little uneased.
I should be at peace after a relaxing weekend, catching up with family and exploring Denmark a little more but I'm not.
It's not an uncomfortable feeling I'm having. It's kind a more "oh man, why am I here?"
So I'm in a need to soulsearch a little and figure my way a little again.
Being so busy I haven't had the time to confirm where I'm heading and if I'm satisfied with it.

I miss my lifestyle of travelling, of discovering new cultures, people and being on the move.
Now I'm getting into a routine, something I haven't done in years and it feels strange. Routine is not bad and I am discovering new things - but in the field of my studies.
It's just a feeling like I'm missing out on life!

I know that's not what's happening as I'm preparing myself for the future.
But the fast track I've been on is becoming slow and steady and familiar.
There is no uncertanty, no breath of fresh air, now feeling of accomplishment.
Perhaps this feeling is starting to show it self as I have began to question the path I'm on now.. Dont get me wrong, Denmark is great!
But I'm not completely satisfied with my study program and maybe that is pushing this doubt, this feeling on going nowhere into my heart.
Perhaps I just need to sit down, analyze my life as it is at the moment and discover if I'm on the right path or not.

Maybe I need a time where life takes an unexpected turn, brings in color and excitement and get's me motivated again.
As I read in the book I'm currently reading " Principle-centered leadership" by Stephen R, Covey...
Motivation is a function of the heart - more than the head..
And maybe I'm not following my heart as I should be.
Maybe I am and I just dont realize it because the other alternative looks more interested - the gras is greener or the other side..
But is that ever the case?
I should just hold back and rediscover who I am and where I'm going - to make sure my path is taking my the right way!

-with love-

I'm just joking ( and leaving you a hint )

2009-11-12T04:28:00.000-08:00

With every sentence we say, in joke or in real, there is always some level of seriousness behind it. Even if you might not see it in your own words, it's there.
People say something, knowing that it's a joke but the little portion of truth in it might find it's way to the listener.
Wierd topic I know but I've been thinking about why do I make the jokes I do. Is there some truth that I'm trying to send out to the listener - as I do believe that there is meaning with everything I say?

Like Skunk Anansie says - I'm lost in time I can count the words.. That's what I'm doing.
I'm counting my words, making sure I'm not saying something I dont really want people to hear, understand or see.

I made a joke the other night that lead to interesting discussions, but the thing is.. I wanted those discussions to happen. I wanted to see if the thoughts were still there with the listener.
So I used the joke to manipulate the aftermath of the joke towards topics that I found to hard to just start a discussion on.
So the joke had a truth, a meaning, an hidden agenda.

I'm becoming more and more aware of this.. and therefore I'm trying to not just joke randomly but "use" the jokes in a right way.
Although I'm getting more aware of this - I'm not sure that others are aware. Or sometimes it feels like they are not aware - and the smallest joke can leave traces of truth, hurt and pain after it's said.
But is it my role to ask people if there is a little truth behind each joke? If they meant something more then what they wanted to say?
Well, we all learn by getting constructive feedback from others, we spend time with, work with and so on.
But is this something that can be given in a form of feedback?
I'm just not sure.

- with love -

Self R-E-S-P-E-C-T, tell me what it means to me!!

2009-10-31T03:21:00.000-07:00

it's the end of the month. a month that always seems so gray and dull - October.
Last October I spent in Paris and somehow it didn't seem as gray. I actually enjoyed the autumn leaves and the beauty that Paris has to offer.
Here in Copenhagen, it's not that the month has been gray. It's more that it's been cold and stressful that took the color out of it.

I've been thinking a lot about me and my personal beliefs and strengths. This book I'm reading is really bringing up some questions and they are challenging my thoughts. They are challening me but also leaving me with some interesting points I should potentially look into.

Question about self respect.
Where does it come from?
is it as simple as making a promise and keep it to yourself?
and from keeping the promise you feel better and start to repsect the fact that you can do what you set your mind to?
I dont know
I want to know.

The questions that are circling around in my head are related to my personal self repsect and self knowledge.
I make promises and dont keep them. And yes of course it sucks. But somehow I dont feel it's the only part that builds up self respect.
What other objects, feelings, actions lead to self respect?
I'm gonna keep on reading the book.
See what I find more out.
I will share here!

-with love-

Procra..... Neh I write it later!

2009-10-26T14:17:00.000-07:00

Procrastination is a very interesting word I find.
I find it so interesting that I would prefer to leave my work, watch a movie and then have to be stressed later to finish my work.
And I'm not the only one!
Then we complain about stress, lack of time, not being 100% prepared and wonder why we dont do better then we did!

Procrastination comes too easily to me.
I wonder why?
Why is this so easy?
Why can I not just stay on top of my plan and work according to my schedule, stressfree and happy?

It's not that I'm not happy now, believe me I am.
But I also just know somewhere deep in my head that I have to deal with the consequences later.
I'm fully aware of that, yet I dont stop delaying things. My focus does not get clearer, and my mind does not stay on topic.
Why?
Psychology researchers use three criteria to categorize procrastination: for a behavior to be classified as procrastination, it must be counterproductive, needless, and delaying - Wikipedia
I'm definitely the last part, delaying all the studying as much as I can!

I found this interesting video online - I actually saw it couple of months ago. But as I watch it again now, it's speaking to me!
It IS me!

I have to find ways to stop procrastinating, stop leaving important stuff hanging there.
How?
I will hopefully find a way!
-with love-

lack of dialouge leads to pain?

2009-10-25T05:00:00.000-07:00

The fall has officially arrived to Copenhagen. The cold has been here for awhile but it's the grayness, the foggy weather and the light rain that really make it look and smell like an autumn.

My days are becoming less organized then when I came here. I'm becoming more flexible. That, for me, is a sign of feeling comfortable.
I like it!

as the day become shorter, darker, wetter, my spirit becomes lighter yet stressful, happy yet nervous, awake yet tired.
My mind is always at work and not always working on the right materials.
So what is on my mind these days?
Complains and comparisons!

I have noticed that many people, sometimes even including me, complain heavily. Especially related to health.
But what bugs me even more than that is the fact that when someone else is sharing their pain as well... the pain is never as much as with the first people.
They are the one suffering.
It bothers me so much!

Why do we do that?
Why do we compare pain and lack of health?
Why do we insist that our pain is worse then someone elses?
Why do we think this topic is interesting to others?

I keep asking myself these questions, hoping I can learn from them for my behaviour.
I know we are all different, we can not take as much pain as the next person or whatever, but we should be able to respect that we also dont know how the other person is feeling and if your pain is worse.
I think this subject is doomed to lead to frustrations with friends and family - as everyone is hurting sometime.
We can not help it.
It depends on what time of pain we are in, but it's there - sometimes bad and sometimes bearable.

I think there are certain topics that people can not discuss without being very objective and open for a dialouge.
But many people aren't able to do so!
then what to do?
Stop whining - listen to people and they will listen to you!!

-with love-

People are alike - in so many different ways!

2009-10-16T08:59:00.000-07:00

I'm facinated by people.
I'm facinated about their interests, their lives, their education, their music taste and their behaviors.
I also know that I attend to put people into specific categories based on their appearances and behaviours at first sight.
I dont intend to but based on generalizations already established in the society my thoughts tend to follow the path.

Some people do fit in with the steriotypes, the generalizations, but most people dont.
That's why I love to get to know people with different interests, backgrounds, social status - all just to challenge my thoughts of the categories I tend to put people in.
It's working.
I love when people surprize me, are more then meets the eye.

People are so interesting beings.
We, as a race, value so diverse things, some are religous others are atheists, some like country mucis and some like Rock, some want children.
We are so different. French, icelandic, African, indian, tribal, Asian.
But even though we are so different, I believe there is no species just as alike as we are.
We have emoitions,some show them and others hold them in - but it's there.
We have motivational aspects in our lives besides just keeping alive and raise our youngs.
We believe in things, wether it's God, ourselfs, friends/families, the environment, famous people or something else.
We love. We want to be loved. We want to express love.
And we do express our believes, loves and emotions in one way or another. Some I might not agree with, Some I think are wrong But we all express us in some ways.

As I learn more about people, the more I'm attatched to the knowledge of human behaviour, motivation and passions.
I want to continue challenging my view of people.
I will express myself and enjoy my likeness with the person next to me as I continue my path in learning about my friends and family, people I love or could love.
what an interesting path I have to say.

-with love-

Motivation, such an interesting word

2009-10-12T12:30:00.000-07:00

Where does motivation come from?
Why am I motivated about some issues but not others?
Why can I not keep motivated to write my essay?

I have this final exam essay to write and I love the topic, I enjoy reading my data but I can not start writing.
I can not put my thoughts into words. I would rather spend my time watching TV, facebooking or reading something completely different.

I dont know what's wrong.

But I'm getting more and more settled in here in Copenhagen. I am starting to grow to this environment, learning my ways around and feeling comfortable at my home - love it!
The only thing missing is my motivation.
Both for my essay and also getting out in evening to meet friends and potentially start excercising.

So that's why I'm wondering about this word "motivation" and where it comes from. Why am I motivated about some things and not other?
What motivates me?
Interests = Motivation?

I love these questions as I think about the answers as I post them here.
Now I just have to really think, and hope to find my motivation and delegate it into my essay.
Let's hope :)
-with love-

Indulgence - where art thou

2009-10-07T03:53:00.000-07:00

Sitting in my bed with no light except the one from the computer, playing “the first cut is the deepest” with Duffy I’m feeling a little blue ( and no – it’s not from the cold in my apartment ;) )
I have to give up one thing that really makes my day good. One thing I look forward while waiting for breaks in classes, my way to wake up – Coffee!

These past few days I have been having heartburn and feeling quite tired. But I have also been drinking way to much coffee ( according to some people ). And to find out if the coffee is making my feeling bad, I need to take a break.

It sounds very simple when I’m writing this where, the music has changed to Creed playing very melancholy song – fitting very well to my feeling.
But when I actually think about giving up something that means a lot, makes an impact and I enjoy it doesn’t seem so simple anymore.
Why do I feel like that when I know it’s better for me to leave it. It might be the thing that is causing my heartburns?
Why do we have such hard times giving up the bad habits but we find it so easy to take new ones on?

Listening to the words of Red hot Chili Peppers – we just have to give it away.
Why isn’t it just that simple when you realize what it is you should give away?

Sometimes I find the human mind, feelings and stubbornness a very interesting issue. I have so little knowledge when it comes to these things. But I do like asking questions, challenge and wonder why I’m so weak at some areas when I’m so strong in others.
What decides where I’m stronger and where I’m not as strong and where I am a complete mess?

I’m not happy as I go into a new day where I will leave out few things that I like. I love myself to much ( meaning I don’t want to do hard things even though they are best ) to take something from me – but now it’s asked by someone else, someone who cares about me enough to make me realize what I need to do. And then I need to listen.
I need to by extra strong this week – without my coffee ;)

-With love -

What's the meaning of your brands?

2009-09-28T02:33:00.000-07:00

It's interesting to think about how some things become a big part of your daily routine and some would say an obsession as well.
Like for example facebook.
Now, since I got the internet home I feel the urge to check facebook out regularely and check out what my friends are doing and what is going on in the world.
Facebook is becoming my means of communicating.
Does that mean it's becoming a part of who I am?

One of my course in school is talking about corporate Brands and one of the question that was raised in class is do brands become what they are because of the consumer's consumption? Meaning - do companies create the brand or is it we, the people who buy it and therefore strenghten the signal they are supposed to mean for people?

I never thought I was a brand person, buying and using brands just because they are cool.
But I do.. but maybe not for the coolness of them but for the sentimental value they have with me.
They are part of me - who I am and what I stand for, in some way.

I think it's very interesting to look at people this way and see if they are aware of this.
Because I think I'm not the only one that uses branded material to state my identity, who I am.
I think we all do in one way.
Do you buy organic?
You prefer fair trade goods?
You buy Nike because of their link with the atheletes?

Now always, but most of the time there is reason behind our purchases.
Are we aware of them, that's my question.
Facebook definetly is a part of me and my way to communicate.

- with love -

obsessed much?

2009-09-26T04:50:00.000-07:00

Somehow, these days, I'm constantly tired.
I started this semester so hard core, making sure I will not stay behind, misunderstand or fail my courses.
Now I can not even read one chapter :s

But besides these mild uncomforts I'm doing great.
School really is challenging me and my thoughts. I'm loving it :)

Why do people get obsessed with certain people/things?
I'm wondering as I seem to become easily obsessed with things I find interesting.
Then I just dont think of anything else, I share it with everyone and try to learn as much about it as possible.
What is it do be obsessed?

To preoccupy the mind of excessively.
v. intr.
To have the mind excessively preoccupied with a single emotion or topic
- from dictionary.com

How can you find the line between "normality" and "obsession"?
I dont think we will find that solution in a dictionary. But then again I dont think I know where to search.
Should you just feel it?
What if you dont?
What can happen if you overstep the line - even so far that the line becomes just a dot to you ( Joey Tribbiani - Friends )
I wonder.

Maybe obsession is normal in small doses - it keeps us interested in people/things and motivates us to learn more, be more.
But as long as you dont go too far from the mentioned "line".
I wonder.

I dont expect to come to a concrete answer - I will just stay a little obsessed with my things and hoping I can always keep the line in sight, stay interested and move on when the time is right ;)

- with love -

world of challenge leads to a better me

2009-09-15T10:46:00.000-07:00

Three weeks already and my first two courses are about to end – with a big essay where I have to analyze business strategies and alignment of organizational identity within an organization of my own choosing.
What company should I choose?

It’s interesting to be reading about organizational culture and identity. I can relate many of the readings to my own experience, both inside an organization as well as just personal experience. Being new here in Copenhagen is bringing culture shocks and challenging my personal identity and what I stand for as an individual.

I feel challenged every day here.
The amount of reading materials is not something I’m used to, riding my bike in a different traffic ( and just trying to ride the bike after years of no practice hehe ), staying focused in classes, being analytical of the texts I’m reading, trying to get used to cook in the new kitchen, not understanding what people are saying and so many more.

But without challenge I wouldn’t want to strive to overcome them and become better, stronger, faster and able to speak Danish. Without constant challenge I would just be.
I don’t want to just be – I want to be great! I want to overcome these challenges and find the next ones as they will be harder, deeper, different.

I’m still trying to adjust to living in Denmark, learning what I can do after school, during weekends. Where I can sit down with a coffee or a beer, where I can meet friends, sit down and enjoy the weather.
I’m still learning. So far I think I’m doing good. But that doesn’t mean I could do better – I know I could!

-with love-

strengthen my faith to survive

2009-09-08T06:00:00.000-07:00

It's already been 2 weeks since I moved from Iceland to Denmark, I'm getting settled in already, my room looks quite good and now it's just getting into the learning mood - reading all the time and have this analytical thinking.
it's just harder then I expected :)

As I sit a little longer at school looking at people that strike me as being so completely different from each other, with different backgrounds and different ways of thinking, I start to look at myself and ways that I am using my background and contributing with my different thinking - Am I doing that?

I sometimes doubt myself when I look at those people around me, I doubt my intellegence, I doubt my points in discussions and I doubt that I'm making a big fool of myself when I am trying to communicate.

“Doubt is a pain too lonely to know that faith is his twin brother.” – Kahlil Gibran

I think that the reason I'm feeling this little these days is that I'm not comfortable in the environment yet, I haven't build up my self esteem amongst my peers. But that's what they are - my peers. They are no better/worse then I am. Just different and I need to overcome the doubt that my difference will not be accepted/understood and just go with the flow.

I dont want to keep this longer as I need to continue studying.
I just wanted to get back to these thoughts that I'm having and what I feel is my way out of situations that I have gotten myself in, no matter if they are rightly there or not!

- with love and faith -

what have you got to say about your life?

2009-08-31T00:58:00.000-07:00

Today is the last day of August and Septmber and the autumn is just behind the corner.
A lot of things have been going through my mind since I came to Copenhagen as this is a rush of experiences, feelings and learnings.

I'm currently sitting at my school, waiting for the first class of my Master program to start - Business Strategies - and I have a tingle in my stomach.
It's all about to begin.

I was watching a movie yesterday, Set it off with Jada Pinkett and my favorite actress Queen Latifah. I have seen this movie before, it's sad, it's heart breaking but still it has a good message in the end.
Short term solutions might seem the best way to go - but if you want to change, take a different course in life and get out of the hard life you are living, you have to plan forward. You have to realize how your short term plans and actions are contributing to where you see yourself in 5 years from now.

The girls in the movie didn't get that. Easy money and life was great. Until the Consequences caught up with them and they had to pay.

It was just interesting to see and hear how people in certain aspects believe that they do not deserve any better then what they have at the moment.
Is that correct? No!!
If so, then society ( in my opinion ) would never evolve as people were to afraid to learn, to adapt, to change.

Well, I just wanted to put this thought out there as I have to start learning and I had to release these thoughts :)
- with love -

reality to the right - wonderland to the left

2009-08-15T15:10:00.001-07:00

It's saturday night and I'm sitting at home, listening to music and working on my computer.
what comes to my mind is the change that is about to take place in my life in the coming week. But also the fact that I will miss my family and friends and face the challenge to make new friends.
Yes I do believe it is a challenge - to make new friends. why I'm not sure... maybe because I dont have all that confidence I should have?

It's strange.. I planned to go up north this weekend, party with friends and see some friends play for the first time in a band on a stage.
But reality sank in, I have too many things to organize, plan and pack before I leave this lovely country of mine.
I realized that, even though I'm fairly organized individual, I'm very unorganized and my prioritation could be questioned. But I always see it in the end - let's hope I always manage before it's too late!

Reality.. what an interesting word.
What is my reality? Where does the reality end and my dream/hopes begin?
Reality is easy to change but I think people ( including me ) dont realize how to.
for those who believe in the "secret" reality is what they dream of - it becomes true!
That's great.
As I listen to Aerosmith with the song "walk this way" I start thinking about the paths that I have been walking and the reality they belonged to.
So I'm just gonna walk this way - that I'm on now - and when the time comes, I will change my reality according to what I want, where I'm heading and how I see would be the best for me!
It's that easy ;)

Well, I'm off to sleep
-with love-

happy as a hippo?

2009-08-12T06:20:00.000-07:00

as I have mentioned here before - even though I dont blog things are still running crazy around in my head. This is no exeption!

In just few days a new chapter in my life will start and I'm getting so excited about it. It's a chapter I chose for myself with a lot of thinking and soulsearching.
And It's almost here.

A new chapter which includes both a new challenge in educaion as well to move and adapt to a new country, new environment, new culture.
I'm ready.

I had a very interesing talks with two friends, Lyuba and Hildur, the other day.
We meet to talk about how to find the paths we want to take in life, choices and action steps towards personal development.
I realized I have many ways to work, may good and some not so good. I like sharing my experience and find out options for friends to gain a valuable experiences, finding themselves and be happy - whatever happiness means to them!

What is happiness?
I believe 2 people have exactly the same deffinition on what happiness is for them.
and maybe due to that people question the fact they will ever find happiness.
My opinion is this,
You have to understand who you are and what makes you happy, what is happiness to you!
Without this basic understanding of you, you are running wildly tryig to catch something that might not even be valuable for you.
But I dont think people realize that happiness can be different from one person to the next.

I am one step closer to fully understand what happiness is to me.
At this point in life I am as happy as I can be, with he understanding that I have of myself.

-with love-

a choice a way from experience

2009-08-01T05:31:00.000-07:00

as July has come to an end and my favorite month starts with pouring rain and freezing cold I feel satisfied.
July was a hell of a month with hard work, meeting friends and being extremely proud of the summer course I was cooperating on.

In a hard time like Iceland is facing these days, to be supporting 20 new entrepreneurial companies to start business is an amazing feeling. It's kind a hard to explain.. you just have to experience it your self..
the feeling of joy, of success, of gratitude to those who also made this happen and to participants who managed to make this experience come to life.

Now, as I sit at my cousins place up west, I start to think about all the action steps that have led me to where I am today.
it's all about choices and not being afraid to take them.
You never know if they are the right ones for you at the time.. but with every choice and decision you are at least one step closer to another experience.
If you are too afraid - you just stay at same place and dont develop.
that's my experience

So from january this year I have been trying to take smart decisions that lead me to where I want to be.. and so far I have managed to come safe and stronger from each choice I have made.

Choices are so important and to tell people about your choice builds a commitment towards it.
Then you are more likely to stay true to the choice and where it leads you.
Personally I know, there are some choices I have to make - for myself - but I dont speak about them to others so there is no commitment building on my part!
I know this about myself, I know the choices and the decision I have to make but I just dont want to!
What is that all about?

Well.. first step I guess is to realize I have to make a choice.
Then to make it
Then to stick by it ( that's the hardest part sometimes )
then to enjoy the good things that come from this decision!

Hopefully I manage soon!

- with love -

building a dream on sand!

2009-07-27T12:29:00.000-07:00

How easy is it to create a feeling? or rekindle a feeling you thought had left your life?
I know I'm a very sensitive person who feels a lot, but for example love - doesn't come easy to me.
I fall easily but the fall is always short and fades away soon!
But the feeling comes quickly - it doesn't take a lot
Why?

Maybe it's just because I know how it feels to be in love and it's a feeling I wouldn't mind feeling again. So I'm trying to slowly but steadily to get there?
oh man.. just a random thinking I know but it is something that I have been thinking about as I have noticed this with me.

Maybe it's because I like this tingling feeling of liking someone.
but why does it come so fast and fade a way even faster?
Who knows.. certainly not me :p

Even though the tingling feeling is nice, I sometimes dream to much and build ideas on sand... then when it rains my dream is shattered.. and I'm left without a tingling and have to start all over again.
So I ask again.. why am I creating feelings that most likely are built on sand?
What encourages me?
What do I stand to gain? or loose?

I guess I have some more thinking to do!
-with love-

expanding my zones of comfort

2009-07-26T08:52:00.000-07:00

I think people are afraid of stepping out of their comfort zone, trying things they have never done before and meet people they usually would not meet.
I experienced this yesterday when I decided to step out of my comfort zone and go to a metal concert with three Icelandic metal bands.
This was my first time, I was feeling a little nervous about not fitting in but I also had this excitement feeling in my stomach.
I wanted to try!

I dont think I have been so nervous about what to wear in years. Usually I dont care, but yesterday I was nervous. I had to get help from my sister-in-law.
But when I was sure of the outfit then all fell into place. I was feeling much much more secure.
It was just this first step towards something new that was scary..
When that was done I new I would just enjoy this experience with friends who by the way were also stepping outside their comfort zones.
There's power in support I have noticed!

By now I have gotten to know more people, new type of music and Icelandic band that is about to tour all over Europe but I had never even heard of them.
So I have to admit, taking this step yesterday and just go with the flow and not being to uptight - that has been paying off for me this summer.
I feel good about this.
Actually, I feel great!

I wish more people would do this, not being afraid.
Then I guess understanding, patience and potential cooperation would be easier amongst people!
Just a thought.

- with love -

Body and mind

2009-07-22T14:59:00.000-07:00

Our bodies are very interesting "invention".
No matter how hard we work it without little or no rest it proves that it can take almost everything we bring..
But for a short period of time - I mean - without proper resting and relaxing.

This, I am feeling right now.
I have been working maybe a little to much without a day off and relaxing.
Today I felt the consequences.
I had fever, head ache and felt really bad.

Of course I started taking it more easy but it's hard when you are at work.;)
Did I listen to the body?
Neh, I knew I should have gone straight home after work, rest and maybe even take a bath.
But I decided to meet a friend.
Of course I do not regret that decision as i haven't met her in a long time.
But I also feel as I get home early that I needed it.

So now I'm starting to realize that if I want to be able to take Copenhagen head on I need to take it easy now.
Even though I am enjoying working so much.. I need to rest, relax and charge my batteries.
I will need them full when I go back to school.

Yes,
Your bodies and minds are amazing.
How much we can use them.
But I think we dont use them as much as we should - in a proper way at least ;)
Anyway..
I'm starting to talk crazy..
I'm going to sleep, resting my body as well as mind.

- with love -

what I make of life

2009-07-16T06:45:00.001-07:00

I started to blog yesterday but I never got the time to finish it.
So let's just start again!
Today I finished a big working schedule - 13 days without a day off - and I managed. Although I can admit that this morning I was not really ready to wake up.
But I always enjoy going to work.

It's so strange but I feel like when I keep myself so busy I dont really have time to sit down and reflect on my thoughts, experiences and feelings.
Like when I was in Paris.
Then, I was feeling so much but with a lot of time to digest the feelings and thoughts that came with.
Now, my feelings have not faded but my time to sit down and analyze what they actually mean is less these days then I actually would like.

A sentence was said to me today at work - "work is what you make of it" and I do agree.
I think both work and life is what you make of it. And now, I want to be happy... So I am happy.
Even though I havent had many days off I still enjoy the work I'm doing, the people I work with and I know I will be able to use the salaries in a good way towards something that I really want - my studies!

So you can basically say, I'm grabbing life by it's head and making it be as I want it to be.. as beautiful as it can be... and stay as happy as I can be!
Positive attitude is the key, that I have really figured out!

- with love -

Self awareness but no will power?

2009-07-10T15:52:00.000-07:00

Time is flying so fast these days that I feel like I'm loosing balance. I can not finish everything I need. Or that's my feeling.
But even though this feeling is there I still enjoy my life, my work, my activities.

There is something extremely frustrating about myself that I can not seem to figure out a solution to.
I have so many ideas of what I want to do for my self and I know they are good for me, but I dont make them happen.
I keep thinking... I'll start on monday.
Then monday comes and I think.... man, I will start on wednesday or something.
And all the time when I'm procrastinating these action steps i should take, there is a tiny voice in my head saying.. Thordis, you lazy bastard.

Where do people find the strength, skills and will power to change their behavior from one way to a better but more challenging way?
And what is it that is making me so lazy to go the direction I know is good for me?
What to do when you know the destination but the journey there is still a mystery?
What then?

If you figure this out, please let me know.
I need to do something.
I know that.
But I just need to figure out how I get myself to do it!

- with love -

Life sure is beautiful

2009-07-05T01:34:00.000-07:00

A new month has arrived and life sure is beautiful.

I enjoy my work, I'm doing interesting things in my free time like snorkeling, Whale watching and spending time with friends and family.
And the best thing of all is that life sure is following my idea of where to go.
I got accepted to CBS for my master studies in Economics and business administration - with focus on Strategy, organization and leadership :)
And that makes me just so much more happier.

So as July starts with big bangs that are so many things that I need to start thinking of, plan, organize and do.
but somehow I can not seem to find the time.

Getting accepted to CBS is a milestone for me towards my goals in the future.
I was so scared that I wouldn't get accepted as there were so many people applying.
But I did.
Leaving to Denmark brings me closer to what I want to do in life, it's what I'm passionate about and I'm looking SO much forward to take on this challenge and also live in a different country.

I do feel blessed, I feel lucky and I feel happy these days!

Life sure is beautiful. :)
- with love -

One yes towards a good experience!

2009-06-28T04:41:00.000-07:00

June is about to end and I feel like it started yesterday. Time has flied so fast and when I look back I see why it has gone so fast. I'm working, working and keeping busy after work as well.
No relaxation for me! ;)

This weekend I went out of my comfort zone a bit. Not by doing something different then I'm used to but saying yes when I feel like saying no!
But I'm so glad I said yes in both occasions.

Both occasions gave me something, I met new people and had amazing fun.
When I think back, that's so priceless and I was just one NO away from not experiencing it!
How sad would that have been.

But today is a beginning of a new week with work and new challenges.
I was going to relax this weekend, but that somehow went out of the window.
Relaxation is needed.. I will try to get some today!
Lets see how that goes.
I hope for it.

-with love-

a live message - inspired!

2009-06-25T11:41:00.001-07:00

I'm sitting in a university class room, listening to a friend of mine talking about his experience in making a business plans.
The reason is...
it's Thursday's class in "establish your own company" and we are making sure that participants understand what a business plan is and how to do it!
So important!

So why am I blogging and not listening to carefully?
I wanted to share something with those who read this.

I'm very inspired by people around me.
I'm also working on my own business plan in relations to markets in Asia.
I have many more ideas about possibilities that are lying all over Iceland.
I feel empowered by my own abilities, motivation and passion.
I'm following a dream!

And the best thing is also.. the people here are also following their dreams.
And I'm supporting them in making it come true!
How cool is that??? :)

there is only one thing today that can make life even better ( it's great as it is)and hopefully I will know in 2-3 weeks!
Cross our fingers!

- with love and inspiration -

Vision towards impact

2009-06-23T14:23:00.000-07:00

June has been a very demotivating month for me regarding writing my thoughts here.
I have many things going on in my mind but they somehow dont feel "writable" here, not sure why.

Even though, things are really happening in my life. I finally got a job, and when I did I managed to get 2 this summer :)
So hopefully I'm getting into a routine and therefore become more effective in using my time ( not that I wasn't - I can be so much better ;) )

There is one thing that I did want to share and that's the regarding family.
I am always learning more and more about my family and what members are interested in.
I'm building relationships with people and I'm working towards great ideas with laughter and motivation.
That is amazing feeling. Becoming closer to family by working and sharing ideas on a topic both people are interested in!
Love it!

And the idea I'm working on is super exciting. Water in Iceland is plenty.. other places face Water Bankruptcy.
I wanna make some positive impact in that area.
Now I'm learning, finding ways if possible and seeing where my idea could be of best use for people both in Asia and also in Iceland.
What an exciting project to be working on.
But of course, as a true entrepreneur and pro activist I have more projects lining up!
What will happen with them will just come clear soon!

But as I still feel a little blank writing here I think this will be the end.
I have work tomorrow and then I will put the 'water project' hat on again and continue finding my path towards impact :)

-with love-