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2009-07-08T14:02:00.001-04:00

“A dog is not considered a good dog because he is a good barker. A man is not considered a good man because he is a good talker.”
-Buddha

Little one

2009-05-02T10:30:00.001-04:00

Little one, originally uploaded by Close to Spectacular.

Congratulations Lisa and Jeff!

breathe

2009-03-25T16:58:00.001-04:00

breathe, originally uploaded by Close to Spectacular.

Squid Twirl

2009-01-09T14:41:00.001-05:00

Squid Twirl
Originally uploaded by LennysDriveIn

12/31

2008-12-31T13:05:00.003-05:00

Today is the last day of the year 2008.

Today is also the 3 month anniversary of quitting cigarettes. I have to say, I am proud of myself. And that doesn't happen often.

I have a few goals for 2009 and one of them is being smoke free the entire year. Some other goals include:
-Eating better food and treating my body right
-Getting those pullups at the gym
-Be able to do "Fran" without stopping and without scaling
-Start school and be well on my way to a new degree
-Thinking more positive about everything, most importantly myself
-Enjoying the moment, being present

Cheers and Happy New Year!

Tick Tock

2008-12-08T17:07:00.002-05:00

I have lots of time on my hands nowadays...because I was laid off by my employer. I am legally binded to not discuss the details.

So..I have time to sleep. Time to workout. Time to read countless blogs. Time to figure out my next career goals. Time to sleep. Time to clean. Time to go to NYC. Time to see Neil Young and Wilco at MSG and stay at a swanky hotel and be hungover the next day and not give a shit. Time to go Christmas shopping during the day when most normal people are at work. Time to sulk. Time to freak out. Time to take pictures. Time to snuggle with the Pig Monster. Time to sleep some more. Time to be.

I'm trying to embrace all this time.

Talking to myself

2008-05-01T12:07:00.000-04:00

You have the most strange way of wearing your heart on your sleeve

Featured in...

2008-02-27T12:23:00.001-05:00

schmap

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My grandmother would be so proud...

2008-02-08T12:50:00.000-05:00

http://www.bananarepublic.com/browse/product.do?cid=21800&pid=546494&scid=546494022

I want

2008-01-29T11:53:00.000-05:00

http://www.etsy.com/view_listing.php?listing_id=7191590

Link

2007-07-23T09:18:00.000-04:00

I had this idea 5 years ago damnit.

http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2007/07/22/AR2007072200216.html

Dear Mister

2007-07-18T22:11:00.000-04:00

I just want to say that I love you and I'm sorry. I tried really hard, really hard for years. I feel like the biggest piece of shit right now. I'm crying while I type this because I can see our picture together above this. I don't think I'll ever truly forgive myself. But I know I loved you more than anyone else in the world.

I'll miss you Senor. kisses.

First Draft

2007-07-06T08:01:00.000-04:00

In somewhat of a particular order, with some rearranging left to do and a lot of more places to add, here is the first draft of Travel Bear's itinerary:

Petoskey, Michigan
Rockford, Illinois
Chicago, Illinois
Omaha, Nebraska
Wall Drug
Mt. Rushmore
Yellowstone Nt'l Park
Missoula, Montana
Everson, Washington
Vancouver, CA-NA-DAAAA
Seattle, Washington
Portland, Oregon
Lake Tahoe
San Franciso, California
San Jose, California
Yosemite Nt'l Park
San Diego, California
Pheonix, Arizona
Grand Canyon
Petrified Forest
Park City, Utah
Great Sand Dunes Nt'l Park
Sante Fe, New Mexico
Austin, TX
Crater of Diamonds
New Orleans, Louisiana
Cape Coral, Florida
Savannah, Georgia
Charleston, South Carolina
York, PA
Philadelphia, PA

Any other suggestions?

Campsite #37

2007-06-25T12:43:00.000-04:00

Being paralized by the fire, night #1
"Iron Bitch" song
Us vs. the wind in the canoe
3rd place in my age group
"What kind of triathlete are you Brenda?"
"I forgot about the stars"
headlamp fun
pack of coyotes
"Lake Waramaug Seductress"
real and wooden Woodpeckers
s'mores
"Who's better...?"
muffler music

Summer!

2007-06-21T14:05:00.000-04:00

It's officially Summer!
And I'm going camping tonight.

This makes me happy.

Heavy Heart

2007-06-18T14:10:00.000-04:00

My heart just felt like it dropped down a few notches/beats. It wasn't a good feeling...it was the feeling of a heavy heart.

I think something just happened somewhere to someone I'm in connection with.

Is it you?

Misses

2007-06-17T22:01:00.000-04:00

Just feeling very sad and confused about leaving my kitties at their latest temporary home.

I feel selfish for leaving them there even though I know they are in good hands.

Too bad kitties don't like to travel.

Ghetto Toss 2007 Awards

2007-05-30T12:04:00.001-04:00

IMG_5034, originally uploaded by Close to Spectacular.

Fate has it..

2007-05-29T12:48:00.000-04:00

That after missing (thanks Greg) Saturday night's Bright Eyes show...I got a call yesterday afternoon concerning a free ticket to last night's show (thanks Nicole).

Fate kept me away on Saturday for good reason so that I can go there last night and enjoy myself even more.

The show was amazing..amazing...amazing. We had awesome (did I mention free) seats and Jen-nay came out as a special guest.

Gotta love fate.

Me, Myself and I

2007-05-18T14:18:00.000-04:00

I should be happy right now. In a few hours I'm on a vacation. But this vacation consists of packing up my things and moving out of my lovely home. I didn't think all of this would happen so quickly. I didn't think I would be so upset and distraught over it. I guess the fact that I have to stay somewhere temporarily in between another temporary event makes me feel...uneasy? But with big change comes new and exciting oppurtunities. Unfortunately, with big change comes the feeling of loss of security. Loss of grounding. I do so love feeling grounded.

I remember when I bought this house. I packed up all my things in the apartment mostly by myself. I dealt with the paperwork and formalities of buying a house, by myself. I went to the lawyers office, by myself. I got the keys and came to the new house right away and walked in here, by myself. I looked around and was in complete shock. "Wow, this is ours", I thought. I went back to the apartment by myself. And I packed up the truck completely by myself.

I remember thinking after this series of events, "Why am I by myself?".

And look where I am two and a half years later.

I've packed up my house mostly by myself. I have dealt with the paperwork and formalities of selling a house, by myself. I will relunctantly leave the keys and garage door openers and cones and paint and hard work and love for the new owners. I will walk out of this house by myself. I will be going to the lawyers office, by myself.

So I guess the lesson I'm still learning is you can only count on yourself. I can only count on me. I came into this house with the best intentions for everyone in my life at the time. I am now leaving this house with the best intentions for Me, Myself and I.

Bjork

2007-05-08T13:00:00.000-04:00

was amazing

Maybe it's the cigarette I smoked...

2007-05-04T14:40:00.000-04:00

Maybe because there was some nicotine in my body last night...I had some strange dreams.

The most vivid one was being in church sitting next to Christine. Christine wanted me to say something outloud. I refused. So then she decided to scream it outloud to the whole congregation and then continued to rant on about me being shy and reserved. I cried.

Christine, you made me cry bitch. But I still love you. :)

Day off

2007-05-04T14:39:00.001-04:00

IMG_4845, originally uploaded by Close to Spectacular.

Today I took the day off to start packing. I also mowed the lawn. And I also took a picture of some beautiful tulips I planted last year.

Did I mention I'm going to miss this house?

The Edge

2007-04-23T12:47:00.001-04:00

IMG_4528, originally uploaded by Close to Spectacular.

Sailor

2007-04-19T13:50:00.001-04:00

IMG_4498, originally uploaded by Close to Spectacular.