tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7837516.post-1166569664904232962006-12-19T17:01:00.000-06:002006-12-19T17:07:44.926-06:00<span style="font-family:courier new;">Saturday 11/12/2006<br /></span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;">I really want you to like me,<br />but I guess I'm kind of scared<br />sometimes to show the whole thing.<br />See the thing is, this guy you see<br />kind of charming, laughing<br />having good time<br />confident in writing<br />and up on the mic<br />the guy who takes you around everywhere<br />and seems to have hundreds of friends<br />that seem to love him<br />maybe even look up to him<br />seek his input.<br />What I'm saying is<br />that yes…<br />this is me<br />I can be powerful and confident<br />socially<br />artistically<br />all that<br />It's real, most of the time<br />no falsity here.<br />But the thing is,<br />that's not the whole picture.<br />There are some real flaws too.<br />Other times..<br />I can fall into these boughts of melancholia<br />or wacky thinking benges.<br />Especially during my creative periods<br />when my poet senses are opened wide.<br />I can get abstract and a little weird<br />and sometimes all this inside stuff comes bubbling up<br />fears, insecurities, frustrations, regret, sadness<br />really the whole ugly range of human emotion, </span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;">weakness, and frailty.<br />I'm not terribly fond of it all<br />but it is me<br />a part of me<br />and I have to embrace it<br />and I need anyone close to me in my life<br />in whatever capacity<br />to embrace it<br />or at the very least accept it<br />and give me space when needed.<br />Although to be honest I do have<br />plenty of space in my life already<br />so I kind of prefer the embracing </span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;">and the being there.<br />Anyhow, that's it…<br />It's really no big deal<br />I'm actually a pretty mature, </span><br /><span style="font-family:courier new;">reasonable and experienced<br />fellow<br />I've got good filters.<br />So I'm usually pretty self-contained<br />not much of a problem<br />just a little weird and moody<br />at times,<br />that's me.<br />I hope you like me.<br />No seriously,<br />I really hope that you like me.</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/7837516-116656966490423296?l=poeticusmundi.blogspot.com'/></div>POETICUS MUNDIhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17602559936476616574noreply@blogger.com0