tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7631497501920796782009-10-28T03:46:40.997-07:00One writer, one plant, a world of adventuresEnnui Prayernoreply@blogger.comBlogger89125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-763149750192079678.post-27501022243292750772008-06-10T02:23:00.000-07:002008-06-10T02:24:15.144-07:00

Here we go.

Ennui Prayernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-763149750192079678.post-82408394594816632122008-06-07T12:47:00.000-07:002008-06-07T12:49:22.966-07:00

While I tried to make my life here at Blogger work for me, sadly it hasn't. It's been two months since I made the transition from the Wordpress account to this one, but not to much advantage. I'm once again, moving from the blogger account to a WordPress account. Sadly, this is something I feel that needs to be done.Hopefully, however, I will be kind and only make a small list of tags and

Ennui Prayernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-763149750192079678.post-87928729289180704782008-06-07T06:34:00.000-07:002008-06-07T07:03:22.479-07:00

"If you see here, say hello." I recline back and think for a second that maybe things might shape up, but who am I kidding? There isn't anything here for me and maybe there never was. Or is there. With constant confusion, I've being pulled by the elements and I'm left to wonder what the hell's going to happen now. I know there isn't a single thing for me to think about at this moment, but at the

Ennui Prayernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-763149750192079678.post-32369013784677606372008-06-06T18:37:00.000-07:002008-06-06T18:57:32.495-07:00

Come gather 'round peopleWherever you roamAnd admit that the watersAround you have grownAnd accept it that soonYou'll be drenched to the bone.If your time to youIs worth savin'Then you better start swimmin'Or you'll sink like a stoneFor the times they are a-changin' I've been thinking a lot about the future and I know in reality this whole road trip to wherever is just me running away. However, I

Ennui Prayernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-763149750192079678.post-23308206862525850642008-06-03T09:29:00.000-07:002008-06-03T09:34:30.812-07:00

Need to get some writing down. I haven't written about anything in a while. I think the first thing I should write is the list of things I need. I know I never get any reading done when I'm out, but I feel naked without a book. Then there's the pens and paper (I have two journals so I'll just need one of those). I gotta find my other baseball cap. I need to think things straight and figure out

Ennui Prayernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-763149750192079678.post-27431942460963315092008-05-30T13:39:00.000-07:002008-05-30T13:50:45.335-07:00

There isn't a single track of all music history that I'd rather off myself than Mr. Tambourine Man. Besides its heavy drug overtones, I hear a song of melancholy. The dreadful decay of a person who wants so badly to continue on but without the aid of the drug, the narrator doesn't have the nerve. A song about heroin withdrawal never sounded beautifully. Each time I hear this song, I picture a man

Ennui Prayernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-763149750192079678.post-3464492727131627112008-05-25T12:08:00.000-07:002008-05-25T12:17:14.564-07:00

I've been so defiant when it comes to taking medication for my depression. I'm aware that pills help some people, but it's not a natural feeling for me. "Feel like yourself again," the slogan reads. That's funny, I think. I thought that's what I was trying to escape.I walk around in the morning feeling a sense of emptiness. With Jyg removed from the equation, I feel like a weight has been lifted

Ennui Prayernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-763149750192079678.post-70755300570203381552008-05-23T12:01:00.000-07:002008-05-23T12:08:51.842-07:00

I feel as if I have to explain myself because of my last post. A lot of you know that I'm Agnostic and that I have no problem with believers or Atheists at any level. I've always been on the middle ground and given people a benefit of the doubt.My last blog was in no way an intentional attack on Christians in of themselves, but a question posed for fundamentals. I've offended and upset a few of

Ennui Prayernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-763149750192079678.post-49695855667364782962008-05-22T20:22:00.000-07:002008-05-22T20:26:14.884-07:00

I find this slightly bemusing, yet rather ironic. You're a Christian singer and you make a life out of brainwashing those around with your garbage about the existence of a one true god, so how does your divine creator repay you? He gets your teenage son to run over your five-year-old. So where is your god now, Stephen Curtis Chapman?

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Ennui Prayernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-763149750192079678.post-17478170197798899102008-05-20T18:42:00.001-07:002008-05-20T18:44:59.387-07:00

I'm pulling my hair out. There is a reason why I haven't called any of you lately and that's simply because I want to be left alone. I've enough on my own that I don't want other people's burdens upon my back. I'm doing things that I can't explain anymore. I don't want to talk on the phone. I just don't.What little of my life I have left is vaporizing and now I have to worry about my mother. I

Ennui Prayernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-763149750192079678.post-27906488286345273822008-05-18T00:51:00.001-07:002008-05-18T00:53:57.963-07:00

Yeah. I've been out of it. Sorry. I have much to tell and much to do. I'll do it later though, because today I have to introduce and network you to a friend of mine.Please visit his blog, Axtlanadu. I'm sure those of you who read mine and who get along with me and my sense of the world will like him. He's just starting out, but he has a Myspace as well. My friends on Myspace will just have to

Ennui Prayernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-763149750192079678.post-64365851473022264122008-05-15T13:25:00.000-07:002008-05-15T13:34:40.991-07:00

I hate meeting people online. Main reason: So many people that I'm introduced to online live so far away. Case in point, Jenndiggity. I love her. She's the best person I've ever met online and I'm sad that she lives all the way in Spokane.And now I meet Riot Girl. What are the fates trying to tell me? Are they urging me out of that door, out of this city, out of this state? Without money and an

Ennui Prayernoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-763149750192079678.post-79222021264414512822008-05-13T15:00:00.000-07:002008-05-20T01:15:05.898-07:00

each part of me that i held on to for so long evaporated in the heat of our passion.

Ennui Prayernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-763149750192079678.post-79632601997800949222008-05-11T11:08:00.000-07:002008-05-11T11:48:31.805-07:00

Marilyn Manson - Putting Holes In HappinessUploaded by MarilynMansonMourners gather round the bodywhile mothers weep the dirgeof a man's undeserved love.The saints are in the meadowwearing stained glass smiles,martyrs with suicide-style mindsSo nail my coffin, seal up this tombmake your heart emptyto make room for the someone else.You've got your blackI've got your chainsto steady me from the

Ennui Prayernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-763149750192079678.post-11212697858384370272008-05-11T10:03:00.000-07:002008-05-24T05:58:28.426-07:00

Because I'm writing about Cannabis and been focusing on the subject for a good chuck of my life last few weeks, I had forgotten about this until an e-mail arrived one morning.Well, it's about time.

Ennui Prayernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-763149750192079678.post-72776300531154810672008-05-10T17:16:00.000-07:002008-05-10T17:19:44.387-07:00

I want your pain to be the sanguine that bleeds from my heart&eyes.And I want my pain to be your Stigmata.

Ennui Prayernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-763149750192079678.post-37656503584287110552008-05-09T21:59:00.000-07:002008-05-10T11:57:35.492-07:00

The reading at Hastings went over well. It was afterwards that ruined the night for me, Jyg, Philosopher, Bell and The Squid. It was so horrible that I had to call El Senor to come over from Newmans, a bar right across the street, to make sure the menace wasn't still outside. But more on that later.I read a few poems, three actually, at the reading. I intended to be prepared, but things got in

Ennui Prayernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-763149750192079678.post-6258867152655077672008-05-09T13:31:00.001-07:002008-05-09T13:51:13.726-07:00

Earlier, Philosopher said I had a Christian dating site ad here. That's nothing compared to the anomoly that Adsense has created here. Well, take a look for yourself:Well, Christian Clipart is nothing. It's something that just is. Why anyone needs it, I'll never understand, but it's here. However, just in case you're a Christian, and a single Christian male, then perhaps you should also have a

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I Am He That Aches With LoveI am he that aches with amorous love;Does the earth gravitate? does not all matter, aching, attract all matter?So the body of me to all I meet or know.Walt Whitman, Leaves of Grass

Ennui Prayernoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-763149750192079678.post-25142443439679456592008-05-08T16:51:00.002-07:002008-05-08T16:57:16.223-07:00

My friend Alice called me. I haven't spoken to her in at least two years. It was depressing to hear she was married because of her situation. I'm not sure what to think, really. I'm just glad to know she wants to hang out with me.Marilyn Manson - Heart-Shaped GlassesUploaded by clemeiro

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Ol Biker's a conservative in many ways. I never asked about his political views, but his religious views are strong. Before I became president of Sigma Tau Delta, I tried to tell him that not everyone is a Christian after he suggested we have a Nativity Scene at our booth for the Night of Lights. His reasoning was that Christmas was Christ-mass. I tried to tell him about the pagan origins of the

Ennui Prayernoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-763149750192079678.post-33212439336366106202008-05-07T21:24:00.001-07:002008-05-08T11:23:11.360-07:00

"Perfections"Only themselves understand themselves and the like of themselves,As souls only understand souls.---Walt Whitman Leaves of Grass

Ennui Prayernoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-763149750192079678.post-25327085864616392652008-05-06T23:56:00.000-07:002008-05-07T00:00:45.881-07:00

I'm not well. I said and did a lot of weird shit yesterday (meaning monday) and I'm not too proud of them. Oh well, I forgot to post on Tuesday.Sorry...I'm trying to write a new poem...I have the words stuck in my head...and I think I'm gonna name it Stigmata when I'm done...----------------Now playing: Afroman - Because I Got Highvia FoxyTunes

Ennui Prayernoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-763149750192079678.post-43663863386716526002008-05-05T22:15:00.000-07:002008-05-05T22:43:55.741-07:00

El Senor takes a huge chop of his cookie, at least it looks that way to me. The two sandwiches in my stomach haven't done a dent in my hunger. Of course I did eat them hours apart and that was hours before the Hastings trip and about thirty minutes before Adam's house. Fuck, I think. Will El share this fucking cookie or what? And if I'm this hungry, I can only imagine El's twice as much with THC

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