tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-70519202009-11-12T11:56:49.519-05:00Living Divine in 2009sj-the-infamoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01765972182815747061noreply@blogger.comBlogger316125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7051920.post-31296341431049068452009-08-31T18:39:00.000-04:002009-08-31T20:46:39.326-04:00

I saw this on PostSecret and saved it. It spoke to my state of mind about dating some 2 years ago. Being invisible in this city of millions. No one seeking me.But today, I found it, for it speaks to that state of being invisible. Some days I wonder -- if something happened to me, and I was gone tomorrow, would anybody miss me?Death has been SO prevalent this year and while I've kept it together

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I swear this is the summer of snippets. Can't get a full-on blog thought out for the life of me. Maybe in the fall, but in the meantime, here's what's on MY mind:"Don't cry because it's over. Smile because you had the experience." Quote from a mother character in E.Lynn's final book. Resonates with me deeply this year. Especially since I had a heart-to-heart with my best friend across the

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I've found myself REPEATING that phrase this summer. It's painful to count the number of deaths, public and private, that I've learned about.The tragic...The unexpected...The expected, if you will.The latest (knock on wood) surely took me by surprise (again). I remember meeting E. Lynn back in the 90s at Vertigo Books, when it was in Dupont Circle. I had copies of his latest book in hand for his

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- to be completed- before the end of the month- promise!It all started with ice cream and trains...and ended with rainier cherries and rug burns. The "..." won't be revisionist history, nor is it the stuff of novel(as), but it should be documented...::More to Come::..Song of the Day: "Everybody's Somebody's Fool" by Etta James

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That Chrisette Michelle version allowed for one final Jill Scott version and I'm left with scars!!"Watching,Watching as he took the holder off his shoulderFire in his eyes, hands getting bolderQuiet, quietGrowing excitedDug him for his bank account, but really forhis privateDamn about a mindsetReally wasn't into thatNeeded me some pleasing, Mr Perfect looking real fatLaidback was his foreplayAll

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him a positive post. That much is true. So what if he's following me on Twitter. I'm not protecting my Tweets for nobody. Never have I hidden my thoughts. But, for all that he may perceive as negative, I'm in a grown state of mind, and he needs to see that there are things that I love about him, too....Always a day late, and dollar short, though......::More to Come::..

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In the end, it wasn't as painful as I thought.But finito, it is....por fin!!We wish each other well. We go our separate ways. God's blessings are in store....and that makes me smile, even when my heart is breaking.....Song of the Day: "Yesterday" by Shanice

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I am thankful for such a beautiful day today. I got my "iPraise" on in the Park today!I am feeling more confident about changing my mind. I have tolerated less than I deserve for entirely too long and it's past time for me to put my desires and needs FIRST, for a change. Even if that means possibly hurting another's feelings. I read my horoscope for the day and it resonated deeply:"You want

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Friday night's agenda:Birthday party @Taboo2Bachelorette Party with 2 entertainment "features" Afterparty with.....Tonight should be quite the wild ride. Damn shame, I have to be up and out the house before 9am on Saturday....I hope I can drive, let alone stand by morning LMAO

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A year ago today, I became a first-time homeowner! I didn't blog about that process much, if at all, but believe when I say it was an exciting, thrilling, all-encompassing, process that birthed a home that I most enamored with!I look forward to many more years growing into my space and filing it with the love of family and friends. It's everything I wanted in a "starter" home, I suppose. More

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MotivationandInspirationdesperately....Cuz that which covers my thoughts is nothing to talk about. I've got to be led in another direction, by SOMETHING.Anything, at this point.For revitalization purposes, of course.And when I get just a moment of freethinktime, I'll be fleshing out the previous posts' that I've left....hanging...:: More to Come ::..

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Got some filings replaced today, after some 20plus years....I'm numb, my face feels like its sliding off my skull and I am HUNGRY!!!!Mental note: Dental work should be done at the END of the day, after I've eaten and enjoyed ALL my favorite foods.Yogurt, ice cream, and smoothies feel good to the sensitive area, but a sista is STARVING!! So, I'm going to pop one last Tylenol PM and dream of the

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Events of the last week have me questioning the level of HATE apparent in relationships and then I saw this:And I'm literally left speechless.....so let me compose my thoughts and I'll be back to address this place holder...::More to Come::..

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All I can say is may Michael Jackson rest, peacefully. Finally....It's been quite a day. I need a bucket of chicken. Who wants to share?! LOLOLOLOL

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What happened to "am I my brother's keeper?"Y'all gotta help save each other. This ish is ridiculous. Preventable. Irresponsible nonsense. We ALL know better.Lives have been damaged. Needlessly. And all I hear is the same lame excuse -- the 'lil head' made me do it.Really though? REALLY? That's ALL you got?! Wow. Just wow...that's all I can muster in response.BOOKS have been written on

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In the spirit of Number 58, and because I really DO want to knock more of these off the "to-do" list, July will be the month I succeed in crossing one more off the list. And I gather it will be therapeutic in a sense. A retreat, if you will, back into a space I can call my own. I won't promise anything profound, nor mundane, and cannot even promise fully developed thoughts or paragraphs, but a

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When it rains, the skies completely open up. Everything is soaked, drenched and I'm left wondering if there is any precip left to fall?I'z here. Settled, enjoying the solitude. The beach will call to me in la manana, as will the pretty drinks at the tiki bar by the pool.Catching up on my reading. Journaling & blogging. Resting.Massage all my tension, worries, stress awayyyyyyyyy.....If

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I can't call it. Maybe I'm just *sensitive* or perhaps it is passive aggressiveness rearing it's insensitive head. But it has me SCREAMING on the inside, and it is making me ill, as I can't release this externally, but alas my blog, my blog...o neglected blog.Insult/Assault from the "man": He says to me a couple months ago he wants to go on said trip. I tell him I'd go with him, we'd have fun

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When others have been telling us what we both ALREADY KNOW...When WE are already certain, we are preventing ourselves, and each other, from acheiving the potential we both hope and dream and long for....That we need to....LEAVE.EACH.OTHER.ALONEWhat is it that KEEPS us....attached?Entangled?Can't stay away.I've heard that love is love. Doesn't matter that you aren't supposed to be together.But I

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Dedicated to ~ Mr. PerfectAfter one whole quart of brandyLike a daisy, I'm awakeWith no Bromo-Seltzer handyI don't even shakeMen are not a new sensationI've done pretty well I thinkBut this half-pint imitationPut me on the blinkI'm wild again, beguiled againA simpering, whimpering child againBewitched, bothered and bewildered - am ICouldn't sleep and wouldn't sleepWhen love came and told me, I

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"...it is a relationship that I am growing to care about and want to take care of. Can't say I've felt that way in a long time about a relationship with a Black man."Now THAT'S profound!..::More to Come::..

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More like diarrhea of the mouth, just to clear my mind of all that has occurred lately. Also because I have not been blogging and I think blogging.every.day is on my 101 things to do list, for which the time frame is quickly running out, so I probably need to go take a gander at those things I said I would accomplish before the end of September, eh? But I woke up this morning feeling like a blog,

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Unrequited affection.Unrealized potential.I've shed a tear.Karma is a bitch.A few years back I was a brothas piece. Yes, me. It was a strictly dickly affair. Now, he was "reasonably attractive" (I've always wanted to use that phrase LMAO), single, no kids, employed, with his own place and car, got along with his family, non-smoker, educated, yanno....all the things I said I wanted in a man.

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My love tank is fluctuating. I gotta blog this out......The pain of losing/giving up/moving on and realizing it wasn't a friendship after alljuxtaposed with....The joy of finding all your long lost acquaintances from your youthand the fact that at work, spring term always just rubs my emotionsSimultaneously, I guess it can be enough to make a grown woman cry.Enough has been said about the loss.

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Yesterday, I had a moment of clarity around a lyric. I changed my FB status to read that I was: "realizing that "the man's a bad decision" is not quite the same as the "demands of bad decisions".... Selah!"Having LOVED this song from the moment I first heard it on some movie soundtrack (somebody help me out here, cuz I surely have forgotten WHICH flick LOL), I was always perplexed by a

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