This Child Aint Yours

My Flying Angels

2009-11-13T12:29:00.000-08:00

My angels are flying, they left early this morning. It was kind of difficult to let them go, as this will be the first time ever that they are travelling without me. Last night I had written everything that they will have to do while travelling in a little note book, and my little angel was in custody of that book.

Someday I have to let them go, someday I have to believe that they can survive without me, someday I will have to watch them from a distance, I know I will have to someday, but for now I can’t. My heart was tight too tight to let loose the strings to all my angels, for I am the only one that they have.

I will never fail them, this I promise. You will forever have those wings beneath your wings my darling angels.

As If By Magic

2009-11-12T05:08:00.000-08:00

And although
You're the only home I know
As if by Magic
Thoughts of you are gone
And now I'm keeping my head in the clouds
And it's not so tragic
If I don't look down

The Liar And The Bitch

2009-11-11T01:58:00.000-08:00

I heard of your divorce, am I surprised………………. No, not at all. I am happy for her but sad for the 6 children.

I heard of your mild stroke, this must be your second one after the first, when you were alone and busy chasing your position in the country’s number 1 car production. Or was it when you were slapped with too much to chew?

Anyways, I could not care less about you. I am now waiting if you will ever tell them the truth, especially that bitch who is your mode of communication. I wonder also if you will ever tell that man with the many funny humongous rings in his face, that you were suspecting him of stealing from you through the bus factory, and that you wanted me to terminate him, well, maybe someday I hope.

Oh, can I also say thank you for sharing your intimate stories, you must have been pissed right, because I could not even be bothered with your 3 million, if you think having an affair with your millions was my game, damn………………… you were wrong. But, hey listen if you are still desperate, now that you are single again, I know someone who is a champion at home wrecking, she is married though, but nevertheless, she will do anything to live in money.

You both will be a perfect match………….. the liar and the bitch!!!!!

To Those Ass Lickers

2009-11-08T05:44:00.000-08:00

OFFICE ARITHMETIC

Smart boss + smart employee = profit
Smart boss + dumb employee = production
Dumb boss + smart employee = promotion
Dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime

P/s: Honey, print this and paste it on the a…..e’s forehead.

FAT UGLY PIG ................ YOU ARE!!!!!!!!

2009-11-06T00:22:00.000-08:00

You fat ugly pig, where in heaven do you think that we are gonna miss you. Oh …………….. pluzzz, we are not suckers, and we don’t even want to know your name, least be related to you. Go brag your obnoxiousness where you are needed, not here, not at our doorsteps, we don’t need you, we loath you.

Do you get that in your fat empty skull?

So ………….. buzz off and do us a favor, stay as ugly and as fat forever. Not that looks matter, but in your case, you are a perfect package.

Trainee At Work

2009-11-05T22:02:00.000-08:00

Look at how busy her training life can be, she barely smiled when we paid her a surprise visit, but after some teasing those sexy lips finally smiled. During days like this, home means nothing to her but the comfort of a bed to rest her sore feet and back.

I am confident that you will have long successful steps in your career.

Rambling

2009-11-04T23:15:00.000-08:00

What’s rambling right now?

- Wondering how the heavy cream could go so wrong?

- Trying to give equal attention to three important people in my life, yet deep in my own thought

- Figuring out why it is so damn difficult for hubby and Chef Diva to be tidy

- Still could not understand why this peaceful country still bread Hilter’s philosophy of life

- Enjoying the last fall of the autumn leaves, yet very disturbed by the abundance of snow

- Missing my precious daughter back home, and hoping that she knows this

- Listening to the ever changing snoring sound of hubby, but why?

- Hating to have to prepare the house again as someone is coming this afternoon

- Wishing that all the documentations will be ready for us to take the next step

- Wondering why some people are being employed yet they don’t even have a pea brain to perform

- Still trying to understand how on earth can I believe that a villain was an angel (in fact I wonder everyday on this)

- Calculating when actually I will write that card out, wrap the gift and get it sent ………… putting things on hold is something so creative

- Ahhh ………………… I figure that some insurance company especially ‘P’ must be an extended arm of Murdoff fonzie scheme. Regrets …….. yeap a tiny bit

- Wondering how can some people think that they are super important, when they are just like a speck of dust on the road that’s not worthy of half of a glance

- Got to go, time for my tiramisu *smile*

"Tis The Season...................

2009-11-03T23:17:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was one of those days where we had to run a couple of errands. Hubby had taken some days off from work to keep me company, as well as to have time to finish off our pending matters. My morning started very early as usual to see Chef Diva off to work, it was very dark and raining, so I told her to take the umbrella with her.

Next it my little angel’s turn, lunch pack, breakfast taken and ready to leave, when I looked out of the window, it was suddenly snowing like mad. I told her to get the other umbrella as she was already down with heavy flam and cough, and I do not want the weather to aggravate her situation. However, she prefers to walk in the snow and just use an extra jacket to keep her warm. Ahh…………………. Well, what can I say?

By the time we finally left the house, there was no sign that the snow was going to be slowing down, Alhamdulillah though it was not windy; hence it was bearable for the long ride to our first destination. We had to go and sort out our insurance, next I had a doctor’s appointment at 1pm, then we were to rush back to meet Chef Diva and my little angel, and onwards to the Embassy to collect her passport.

We never anticipated that the time spent at the insurance company would drag on till past my doctor’s appointment time. Therefore, that had to be cancelled, we left the insurance office at around 2.45pm with the hope that we could get a quick bite before meeting the girls, but moving in the heavy snow had however hindered our plan for that.

As usual at the embassy, I always get carried away with catching up on news, and I actually forgot that Chef Diva had her language class to attend later, by this time I was so not in the mood to cook, and both hubby and I were so hungry already. We decided to take the girls out for dinner, but Chef Diva was kind of upset as she cannot come with us. Well……………….. tough luck, next time maybe.

By the time we arrived home, we were all exhausted, we couldn’t even bring ourselves to watch half of a movie. We got knocked out much earlier than our normal bed time, true this is the season for hibernation.

Ice Skating

2009-11-02T00:19:00.001-08:00

My little angel has been asking us to take her ice skating for a couple of days; today we finally managed to have the time. She was joined by Chef Diva (who was so not into it), and later hubby took over to accompany her. Me, hemmm.............. of course I can't, simply because I am scared to break my old bones (ha ha ha). True, somehow, I am so worried about aggravating the pain on my shoulder, and my lower back. What is important is that my little angel is happy.

End of Autumn Fun

2009-10-31T11:32:00.000-07:00

It is nearing the end of Autumn, took the girls out for Saturday quality time. As usual Chef Diva loves fooling around, and the little angel will follow after being coaxed to do so. The pictures of fun playing with the autumn leaves.

Sausage Rolls for The Flood Victims

2009-10-30T06:14:00.000-07:00

She came home breathless one afternoon and told me that the next day will be the bake sale for her class, students are required to bring something baked for sale at the school, the proceeds will go to the flood victims of Philippines.

It was already late, all shops close latest by 7pm here, and I could not think of anything to do that fast. Chef Diva volunteered to try and bake some short bread for her. This was her first try at baking the short bread. Sadly, the results were not something that is good enough to go for sale.

Luckily I have 2 packets of chicken sausages, and a packet of the puff pastry. I convinced my little angel not to worry, as I will get up very early tomorrow and make some sausage rolls for her sale.

She was very happy by the time she was leaving home, a container of sausage rolls was ready for her to take to school and to be sold as part of her donation to the flood victims. A mother’s work will never be done, and like many mothers I have to be quick to come out with a solution. May the Lord give me the strength always. By the way my little angel was so happy that her sausage rolls were the first to be sold out.

Please do not surprise me too much ok darling………………… you must realize now that your mama is aging already *smile*

She Wants To Snuggle

2009-10-30T00:36:00.000-07:00

Chef Diva had suggested that we all will watch a scary movie to end the Halloween week this weekend. We agreed on the movie Orphan, and hubby is to hook up the sound system to make it more theater like. We are all excited and looking forward to the weekend.

My little angel is in her autumn break now, and so more than often she will come to snuggle up to me. Yesterday while she was busy at the computer, I was continuing watching a movie titled ‘Paranormal Activity’, when she wanted to come and watch with me. The movie was kind of slow and boring in the beginning, but we just wanted to know the ending.

The buildup of the excitement of the movie was towards the end, then I saw my little angel was covering her face with my blanket, and I started to laugh because it was so funny to see her so scared, yet she wants to carry on watching.

Anyways, we were alone in the night as Chef Diva had gone for her language class, and hubby has the boys’ night out. By the time they both returned, I was quite sleepy, but hubby suggested that we watch another movie, I could only last about 20 minutes before I dozed off. I am quite sure that it was already past mid night and both the girls had their lights out already.

I can’t remember how long I have been sleeping, when suddenly I was awaken by a shoulder shake, I opened my eyes to see my little angel standing there. She said “Ma, I can’t sleep, I am not tired (she will always say that she is not tired, instead of not sleepy)”. I could hardly open my eyes to argue, when she continues “I have recited all the supplications but I still cannot sleep”, hemm…………….. I know what she wants exactly.

I told her to come into bed with me, immediately she was lying next to me, all prepared with her blanket and pillows. Arr…………………. My little angel at 14, she still wants to snuggle up with her mama. Once settled I turned and hugged her, though I could not sleep on my left side because my shoulder situation is getting worse now, and it hurts me so much to sleep on my left, but for her I forego my pain just to let her know that I will always be there for her, including nights like this.

Our bed is big enough for all four of us to snuggle together, but ……………. Ermm………….. hubby and me do need our space too. So girls please don’t make this a habit ok.

The Curious Duo

2009-10-29T08:40:00.000-07:00

These pictures were taken during the Trooping of the Colors ceremony. Chef Diva was more curious than the little angel, but she tagged along nevertheless, and they both enjoyed the experience.

This Is IT

2009-10-29T01:32:00.001-07:00

I had a date with hubby last night; it was the opening night for Michael Jackson’s “This is it”. We booked the tickets online, and I met hubby at the Cineplex after office. Before leaving home, my little angel hugs me and tells me not to cry.

What can I say about the show, nothing, everything that could be said about MJ has been said. Do I cry? Yes, I am not ashamed to admit that I cried, I was mesmerized throughout the two hours show. No one left the theater even when the movie was over.

Some were standing and moving to his music, some were just not having enough of him, as for me I left with a very heavy heart, realizing that there can never be another MJ. He is simply irreplaceable. He is just him, and I love him, still loving him.

P/S: to anyone who is planning to go and watch, do not leave the theater till the curtain falls ok.

Les Feuilles Mortes

2009-10-27T22:37:00.001-07:00

She Is 14

2009-10-27T12:24:00.000-07:00

My little angel is 14 today, I thank the Lord everyday for a beautiful angel. She is so perfect in my eyes and I could only pray that she be given the perfectness of everything.

Trooping of The Colors

2009-10-26T13:58:00.000-07:00

Monday was a public holiday for us, we woke up early so that we can all go to witness Trooping of the Colors by the autority here. It is to mark their national day celebration. It was indeed an interesting experience to see, how less is more. Unlike the lavish celebration, where expenses are from the tax payers back home, here the exhibition and celebration are more of an educational benefit.

The Nose and The Glasses

2009-10-25T09:46:00.000-07:00

When she was accepted to attend the school here, my little angel had to go through a thorough medical examination by an independent doctor. It took us more than an hour to complete the medical checks, in the end all was clear with her health, but she was recommended to see and optometrist because her eyesight was not that good.

She had prior to this complained that she could not see properly when she is seated at the back of the class, I told he to start sitting in the front then, as this would also give her better concentration. However, she later told me that she will have to copy some notes from her friends as she could not see the white board at all.

Two weeks back I took her for an eye check and it was confirmed that she needed to use the glasses, she was so excited when selecting the frames, but it was not an easy decision as she has got no bridge on her nose, we finally go with the one recommended by the optometrist himself.

This is how she looks with the glasses on, not too bad for a start.

Talks Are Cheap

2009-10-23T01:48:00.000-07:00

One evening during dinner a friend told hubby whether he realize that it has been said that he is the best programmer and developer that they had ever come across in a long time. Hubby is one man that is expressionless, his response was “really?, but talks are normally cheap”. I was surprised by his cool demeanor, but what he said does carry a weight of truth.

Talks are considerably cheap nowadays, people just talk and talk and talk, nothing will shut them up except when they finally dropp dead, and that gap is totally shut by venture of force.

Take a look at all the expensive meetings that the head of countries have been holding with regards to fight against AIDS, Nuclear Power, Global warming, world peace etc, yet every day we are being fed with news of disasters pertaining to exactly the same talks they had had. Sad but true.

Then take a look at all the family institutions, everyone talks and talks and more talk. They each wear a different mask each time they talk, either the villain will be an angel or the devil will start wearing Prada, yet what do they achieve? Zero results. You only see a husband being nailed in the nose like a bull, or a daughter reverting her meanness of a mother’s portrait, or they will shamelessly hang their dirty laundry for everyone to see.

I wonder if their tongues will ever get tired of talking, I wonder if they will one day realize that they are only fooling themselves and no one else, or maybe they were actually brought up that way. One day I hope I will stop wondering.

Because talks can really be cheap!!!!!!

58 Going 85

2009-10-22T00:27:00.000-07:00

The buzzer rang, and I know that my little angel will be walking into the house soon; I was still in the kitchen browning my meat for the beef casserole this evening. I rushed out quickly to open the door and ran back to the kitchen, without greeting her with the normal hug.

She called after me but I told her to come to the kitchen, in a minute she seated herself in front of me, and started telling me how unhappy she was with her French results. This is because she said she deserved a better mark, and that she has also volunteered to be the first presenter. Seeing how frustrated she was, I told her to talk to the teacher tomorrow, and to find out what was really the matter.

I guess that calmed her down, then she asked me, “Guess what did I get for my math?”, she was smiling now, and I was sure that the results must be what she had expected for, actually after the math’s assessment, she came home not too happy as she said the paper was tough. I just told her that it is alright, at least she has given it her all, and she should just leave the rest to the Lord.

It is very normal for them to compare results in class, and there is this funny Indian girl who is in the same class (she was adopted by a European couple), whom no one likes to call a friend, who keeps telling my little angel about how she has everything in life, even a castle, but she said she does not want to show off (hemm). So one day in the math class, she told my little angel that she thinks she will be moving to a higher math class soon, she was just telling her but not showing off ok.

When they got their results today, my little angel asked her what was her marks, instead of answering; she wanted to know first what my little angel’s score was. Honestly, she told her what her score was; the girl paused for a bit then told her that she got 85. My little angel of course feels happy for her, and said “oh you score higher than me then”, and she turned round to tell another girlfriend who were seated next to her.

To my little angel surprise, the girlfriend told her, “No, she only got 58”. Wow, we both had such a good laugh over this pathetic Indian girl. In case you are wondering my little angel scored a 75, but it is alright, I am happy when she is happy.

The poor Indian girl she must be too smart and busy not wanting to show off that she could not make the different between a score of 58 and 85. Ah…. Well, some people do start young.

Something STUPID

2009-10-20T06:30:00.000-07:00

I hate it when stupid people call you on your personal number and ask “Is this your number”? No, idiot, this is not my number, this is the funeral parlor. STUPID

I was watching this reality show on TV one night, and the PR guy told the lady who was attending an audition, “I hope you will break a leg”. She was so furious and shouted back, “You go and break your leg too”. Honestly, I thought that was nasty till I realized that break a leg means wishing you good luck………….. I hate it when I have to wonder who on earth will come up with such stupidity ………. Break a leg for good luck?

I remember when I was working before: my fat ass secretary would walk into my room when I was on the phone and typing away at my computer, and yet she can still ask if I was busy and stands there waiting for an answer, despite me talking on the phone. What the fuck! Like are you blind or are you deaf? STUPID!!!

There were times when I was attending a dinner and busy chatting with the person next to me, when suddenly the person opposite me (who was the odd one out) asked, “Are you going to eat that?" Wait a minute, which planet were you on? If you want some just say so, instead of making me feel like a glutton for wanting to eat it. DUMP ASS.

Ok, ok I bet many of us have gone through this most annoying moment each time you go to a new clinic or to visit a doctor. You will have to fill out the Medical forms, then the nurse will come and take your weight, your blood pressure, your temperature and what not, and she will ask you questions; You answer the Nurse's questions; then you wait for at least 15 minutes before you are called to the Doctor’s room. Hold and behold he will ask you the same questions that you have answered on the forms and repeated to the Nurse. So may I asked, what is the purpose of filling out those medical forms and having a nurse screen you, when you have to answer the same questions being repeated by the STUPID Doctor.

I hate when people pretend to look surprised when I say "I am a Grandmother and my eldest son is twenty over years old”. Look if you need a favor from me, just ask, you don’t have to compliment me with that surprised look, and then think OMG she is a Grandmother, no wonder.

Will You Get Me A Camera Please?

2009-10-19T23:50:00.000-07:00

They both were begging me to get them cameras, each was interacting with me at the same time, on the same subject but neither one of them knew that they were communicating with me about a similar subject, I like.

Chef Diva wanted me to get for her the Sony Cyber Shot as she read online that this is one of the good cameras, and she needed this before the concert, she so wanted to capture her moments of the coming concert. She told me to get for her first and she will pay me back later (sounds familiar).

Meanwhile, my Medic princess wanted to get a camera to quench her hobby of photography, she wanted the Nikon 5000, however, I suggested that she should try and settle for the Nikon D90 which has got far better features and sharper capture. She went to shop around for the price and discovered that the later will cost her more than RM1000 as compared to the Nikon 5000.

Whatever they want, I hope they will get it, I can only make suggestions to the best of my knowledge, but in the end it is important what will make them happy.

Hey, wait a minute, why are they asking for things when it is my little angel’s turn of a birthday wish………… Hemm, I wonder (*wink*).

Two Sisters

2009-10-19T05:17:00.000-07:00

Two sisters, they are worlds apart in their characters and behaviors, but one is always the mentor of the other.

Two sisters, one is a natural born selfish, while the other is so tolerant and forgiving.

Two sisters, one is so stubborn and obnoxious, while the other is mild and very understanding.

Two sisters, one is always Cinderella's step mother, while the other Cinderella herself.

Two sisters, though one is black and the other white, but they have one thing in common, they have so much love for each other, the house is always full of their laughter, their whispering and their secrets.

Two sisters that I am addicted to.

She Did It

2009-10-19T04:07:00.000-07:00

My little angel completed her 6 days of fasting in shawal for the first time yesterday, Alhamdulillah. So to celebrate her completion of this practice, I asked her what she would like to have for iftar. All she wanted was okra soup, aubergine and anchovies chili. What a simple request, then I decided to also do her all time favorite the plain omelet.

She will always have the duty of putting the rice on the plate for the three of us (as hubby does not eat rice), the first plate will be mine, second will be Chef Diva and lastly will be her plate. Each time she will discover that she will have the least of rice; of course I will give half of my portion to her. This little angel of mine is just so considerate and is never a selfish person.

Each time I look at her, I thank the Lord for His blessing of this wonderful child.

I Don't Want My Father's Name

2009-10-15T01:36:00.001-07:00

One evening in our warm kitchen, while watching me preparing for dinner:

Chef diva: mama, can I drop my father’s name from my name?

Mama: (surprise but acting macho), of course you can, why?

Chef diva: (not answering the question) can you tell me how to do it?

So I told her that she will need to take an oath at the court back home, and give them evidence why you wanted to do that, and then you will have to take the court order to the registration and do the formal changes there. However, dropping of a father’s name might need a very strong reason (knowing the sensitivity of the family institution over there).

I took the liberty to tell my little angel of the conversation that I had with her sister, her eyes lighted up suddenly with excitement, and asked me if she can do the same. My jaw dropped at her excitement, and asked her why. Her answer was that she wanted to take my name instead. She was persistence on this, wanting my name to be with her name.

Arr……………………….. I wonder what next they will be thinking of. My wonderful angels.