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Man...Guy Issues Continue

2009-07-14T00:46:00.002-04:00

So i was driving one day and the Boyfriend #2 song came on. As long as its been out, i have never actually listened to the words. But this time I did.
Pleasure P is so effin' lying about being ok with being #2. But then I tried to come up with the scenarios in which being BF #2 may work lol
This is what I came up with...

Girl A and Boy B are together.... meaning Boy B is BF #1

Boy C is Girl A BF #2

@ the same time Girl A must be Boy C GF #2

lol... I dont cosign this shit either... i was just thinking.

Is my guy issues along the same line? I'm begining to think so... unfortunate... but i'll be gotdamned if imma #2.

Frustration...curse words

2009-07-07T09:10:00.000-04:00

Why is it that I seem like I a pursued by a shit ton of guys... but no one wants me for like an exclusive relationship?
Even if right now i'm technically not single...or technically single... however you want to look at it...
the guy doesnt want to place a title on anything.

I told him i thought he was trying to have his cake an eat it to... or at least have th option to eat it to...

but he denied those allegations....bullshit! It whatever tho, I'm not going astray to be all by my lonesome...

Still waiting on Mr. Right....

I wasn't looking for Mr.Right until I received 80% of Mr. Right.... now I want it all...

hence my frustration

HAIR UPDATE!....:Sew-In

2009-06-28T09:27:00.002-04:00

So soon... I will hit the 5 month marker for being without a relaxer. It was very difficuly for me to manage my relaxed hair and the new growth.... Im def ready to cut it... but imma try to wait until Oct....Nov... or Dec.

Here is a pic of the full sew-in... i'm loving it bc very very little of my hair is out... and its in the front with the texture that is easier to manage.

Even though MJ is gone....

2009-06-28T09:19:00.002-04:00

His music transcends decades...
I' jam to Beat It and Billy Jean like it came out when I was in school or something... when in fact I wasnt even a thought in my mothers head @ the time.
Don't even get me started on the Thriller dance....
It like... whenever I have kids...they are going to know who MJ is w/o me even mentioning it =]

Top 5 MJ songs for me

1. Beat It
2.Smooth Criminal
3.They Dont Really Care About Us
4. Remember the Time
5. Scream

See I only actually remember when Scream came out... it was Side B on my... You Are Not Alone tape haha

R.I.P MJ

Help Me the Fuck Out: Question for the Masses

2009-06-18T18:05:00.000-04:00

Lets say a guy or gal has 2 individuals that they are involved with.
Why would they try to keep the other a secret from one. Telling them that they are the only one. But tell the other that they arent the only one and they are in fact involved with another? WTF is the POINT

On a Scale of 1-10...10 being Gorgeous

2009-06-14T07:02:00.000-04:00

I went to the pool Saturday... I hate pools and bathing suits but my friend wanted to swim and my apt. complex has a pool.

Anywho, I guess it 2 things I want to discuss...

You know how your homies may ask to describe how a potential boo looks on a scale of 1-10...10 being the best? I noticed that there is a discrepancy when conversing between the sexes lol
A guys 10 definitely does not equate to a girls 10. My ace boon (who is a guy) an I figured it out... like freshman year... but I feel like typing it now...

It's fairly simple.... a girl will start off giving the guy a 1 and then points are added on due to various attributes (height, style, interest ect.)

A guy starts a girl off at a 10 and points are taken off for various reason, maybe her boobs are small... idk lol

Talking to my guy friends... they may give a girl a 8... an i'm like HOW!?! thats why lol

If a guy is a musician or athlete, thats an automatic 6 for me lol both ur starting out at an 8 haha
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Other topic.... back to being at the pool with the girls. There was some guys... blk guys (thats rare lol) in the pool prior to our arrival. My friend was amp'd for the pool until she saw the guys.... WHY is that? We were talking an both of my friend agreed on the fact that they think that the guys would be watching them as they got undressed for the pool. I don't see why its so traumatic.... my homie used the word 'immuned' to describe my 'i dont care' attitude.
I don't care if a guy looks! That's what they are born to do... look at chicks lol
I told them I kinda understand their feelings tho. I would probably be the same way had it been females in the pool. I feel like chicks watch and not in admiration either lol And therefore I have a problem

=]

It's Been Forever!

2009-06-10T09:31:00.002-04:00

OKKKKKK So I have been too busy to post I guess. Probably not, TWITTER has taking over my life and everything that happens ends up on there.

I'm going thru a certain situation, that I'm not really sure I want to post about since its kinda personal and personal to all parties involved.

I'll just say, I've learned a new lesson, and hope 'he' has too.

I'm dealing with summer school, work, and other work.

TTYL Ppls

Follow me on twitter for the latest updates lol

twitter.com/gorgeousgeek

Sixth Sense...maybe

2009-05-26T12:45:00.000-04:00

I'm not seeing dead ppl lol
So have you ever got a feeling that you can't describe and/or you cant't identify where on earth it is coming from. Like I feeling some kinda of way right now but everything in my life is peachy you know.
But something doesn't feel right...or something is under the RADAR... like i feel like if i knew what was causing the feeling then hell would break loose or something. UGH its so hard to describe.
It almost makes me want to strategically remove ppl or elements in general from my life one at a time... to see who or what is giving off these ill vibes.
It's like a gut feeling or a hunch... but to what i'm not sure.

That's it... it makes my head hurt to think about it.

Due to recent developments... Before I Get Married....

2009-05-24T10:27:00.001-04:00

I want to have a career....

Paying a mortgage... not rent

Have my own car... even though my current car is nice =] mommy pays it....

pretty much... FINANCIALLY STABLE... by myself.... then we can talk marriage

I would hope the guy is FINANCIALLY STABLE also

I am opposed to joint accounts until we have been married for XYZ years

and I believe in prenups lol

Thanks,

Me =]

HAIR UPDATE: Bantu Knots

2009-05-21T17:06:00.006-04:00

soooooo i got bored an did some bantu knots in my hair... like my friend did when I was a little girl. This is a pic of how it cam out. Not really.... Its just me smiling for the cam... but you can see how it is in the front... I want some damn twist tho, I'm tired of doing ish to my hair =/

My American Idol is Adam Lambert

2009-05-20T22:47:00.000-04:00

I despised American Idol after Fantasia won, and this season I decided to watch again. And once again I am disappointed, an I am not watching next season. I don't think it was rigged or anything... American's very well could have voted for Chris but I honestly think that some voted for Chris just b/c they didn't want Adam to win due to the pics that surfaced of him that suggest he may be Gay. Who the fuck cares?
The guy has awesome talent... Chris can sing but he's just like the next pop singing white guy. Adam is like a RockStar... he's clearly better than all the contestants on the show and better than the previous winners of American idol (my opinion).

*Bernie Mack voice*... America... you made me sooo happy when you voted a half black man in to office but you just took a step back in progress since Adam Lambert didn't win American Idol 2009 =/....

I know i say nothing is THAT serious... but you know this is pretty close lol

Bills? I don't quite get those lol

2009-05-18T07:43:00.015-04:00

I have a blackberry with AT&T. At the moment, my an my mother are one the same plan BUT she is getting annoyed with the, what she calls, 'extra' stuff i have on my phone. The Blackberry data plan is $30 dollars per month plus the regular plan. She expressed he dismay in paying this. So Ii was thinking that we separate =[ and I take on my own cell phone bill. I don't know how that will work, I don't work that much, but I guess I can pick up more hours second summer sessions or something. I need the minimum minutes (450) which is $39.99/ mo. soooo I'm looking @ $70ish a month...ugh

I just had to fall in love with Blackberry's didn't I, or smart phones in general.

I was trying to decide between the HTC Fuze and the Blackberry Bold. I think imma go with the Bold...

Picture: Young Gorgeous Geek lol

2009-05-17T04:20:00.000-04:00

I'm amazed at how happy I look....these days I think I walk around like imma kick someones ass lol

Fear Not... I Am Alive in tha 704

2009-05-15T09:00:00.000-04:00

Soooo I have been MIA for a week. Well I haven't posted anything in a week. I was still reading you all's post and stuff.
Last Saturday, I started the task of packing and moving, that was sooooo much work. My mother drove up to help, but nonetheless, I am moved in to my new place and loving it. I always wonder why ppl stay in the surburbs away from everything? It's kinda nice not having traffic since I grew up 'in' the city in Charlotte,NC... shout out to the 704! lol Only thing that bothers me about where I stay now is the country like 2 lane roads w/o street lights... But you got to love the college community

I'm currently @ home in Charlotte now. Charlotte is so prettiful, the downtown area an stuff. It's a nice small big city =] The city skyline keeps increasing in length everytime I come home. I need to find a pic... K found one that actually has the 'under construction' buildings photoshopped in...

The one with the triangle is being built, I believe it was suppose to be wachovia BUT now its Duke Energy lol
Locate the tallest building (BofA) well the one that is half its size directly in front of it is another BofA building. Lastly the one on the far right, that looks green, that would be 'The Vue' which is condo's I think...
Charlotte is the ish... staying in Raleigh makes me realize that lol Yeah the college scene is bumping in the Triangle but Charlotte has pro-teams and NASCAR (i dont really care lol)
I am going to stay in Raleigh for a year after I graduate then hopefully go to grad school in VA, GA, or FL but after that I soooo wanna come back home.
Ya'll are sleeping on Charlotte for real =]

Untitled

2009-05-08T15:54:00.002-04:00

Soooooo a homie from high school... that's a year younger than I... was charged with murder. Interesting... right....

This is the second person i know charged with murder....

again I state.... NOTHING is THAT serious.... sheesh

Summer 2009 MOVIES! WORD

2009-05-07T01:26:00.001-04:00

So On July 17th or 18th... Summer movie season 2008 officially ended with The Dark Knight... It began with Ironman in May. I did a blog on May 27, 2008 about the movies that I would like to see for the summer and July 20th, 2008 I ended it officially and mentions some movies for 2010) soooo let's do it again....

Summer movie season jumped off with Wolverine (which I saw again in the theaters lol). My chick friends were like 'it was ok', my heart just about stopped lol and one even said she fell asleep kinda. WTF were we watching the same screen here?

Anywho here is my rundown. (I cant wait to do my honorable mentions for summer 2010...in July =/)

Star Trek (May 8th)- Ummmm I like watching Star Trek: Next Generation with Professor X... i mean Captain Picard lol so I guess i'll see this movie

Angels and Demons (May 15th)- Soooo Da Vinci Code (the movie) sucked... but the book rocked. Angels and Demons looks more promising as a movie... I was going to say less controversial BUT they are killing Cardinals in Vatican City soooooo nvm =]

Terminator: Salvation (May 22nd)- Ummmm the trailer looks cool and its been playing since last year soooo i think its kinda a big deal. As soon as Dark Knight came out ooooo Christen Bale has another move coming out NEXT summer....

lets skip a month....

Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen (June 24th)- Oh the trailer looks like the movie should be called Decepticons Beat that Ass lol I think the Autobots will loose so there will be a third movie lol I must post the trailer that they showed during the previews to Wolverine. It's like orgasmic... like my heart rate increased while watching it. You know I actually have a Transformers pillow case =] such a kid am i...

Alright lol It end with Transformers... I can't focus any longer...

Hair Update: Went to the Dominicans =]

2009-05-05T15:24:00.003-04:00

Soooooooo... even though I 'did' something to my hair after removing the twist. I still couldnt do anything to my roots soooo I decided to take a trip to the Dominican salon so I can have my roots blown out professionally. They charged me $5 more than usual... guess the new growth is that bad lol here are pics...
I have a dinner to go to tonite for my job an I wanted to look nice. Did I take a pic of when I cut my hair in Feb.... b/c i think it's all back now =] with more defined layers hmmm

X-Men Origins: Wolverine =] Critics R on some BS (no spoilers)

2009-05-03T16:21:00.000-04:00

OKKKKK so if you don't know by now, I am into comics an cartoons an stuff and X-men is like my baby. Like I here some ppl older than me talk about Transformers when they were younger... X-men Animated Series is all me... like Saturday morning '94 ish lol.

Anywho...I've began to read Wolverine Origins like last fall just to make sure I'm up on my game. I have to say that this move was an excellent biography of Logan. Hugh Jackman is like ripped lol not as big as comic book Wolverine but good enough. My fav X-men is not Wolverine actually... it's Gambit, who made his debut.

My beef with the X-men trilogy was the absence of Gambit. He was a little more agile than I recall... never seen him fly thru the air with a stick or bouncing off walls. the actor who played him had his cajun accent down... its so sexy lol. But I dont't remember him saying 'mon amie' or 'mon cher' one time in the movie hmmmm His eyes werent red either... they only became red when he kinetically lit shit up... i guess thats iight.

Sabertooth is sexy... comic book Sabertooth is not... the end. The next Origin movie is Magneto =] It should have some interesting mutants making their apperance.

But HONESTLY greatest villain in X-men history is... Apocolypes. After all he's like the 1st ever mutant lol That would be a crazy stupid movie... if done right.

Storm and Rouge both deserve an honorable mention on their Origins too lol

I Guess I'm Not THAT Strong-Willed

2009-05-01T12:28:00.000-04:00

OKAY...Where to start... I thinking I'm about to put myself out there a little more than I usually do. At least to my close friends.. please don't mention it to me unless I ask for your opinion or something. I feel that this is out of character for moi.

So question is... can you be around someone pretty consistently an not develop feelings for that person? I think it's inevitable. I think I spent a lot of time in my life trying not to catch feelings for people. Yeah it's cool when ish is mutual but I can't seem to be on the same page with anyone...Or maybe I am on the same page but I see the story heading in a different direction.

So this go-round. I am openly admitting that I like someone... like I am so not fronting... Usually I would have been chucked the deuces before ever getting to this point. Just kiddin'... I don't chuck deuces... i just disappear w/o warning.

But I feel like I am kidding myself in another department. OK yeah I like someone... but I think I am completely lying to myself when I say that I am content with whatever it is... that's not what I meant... 'I wish it was more' but I am telling myself I don't...that's not really it either...DAMNIT

Analogy time... the situation feels like I am enrolled in a 4 credit hour class with a lab, that I have to make a C in to pass... but it doesn't count towards my degree. I like the class... but it doesn't count for anything, so whats the point. Like taking a class on Dinosaurs... oh how I would love to take a class on Dinosaurs lol

That's a perfect analogy. I like dude...and I don't mind chillin' and hanging out an ish, and doing stuff BUT....why? lol i feel like i should credit-only this class... which translates in to... doing all the things above.. without the feelings.

I don't want to drop the class completely... but... i was advised that I should. To avoid getting hurt. Other words drop off the face of the earth... but that's kinda hard when feelings are there =/

What to do what to do.... I don't want to stop ish just out of fear of what will happen. that not how i like to go about thing.

Oh well...still waiting on the wonderful.

Hey...You Guys

2009-04-30T05:34:00.002-04:00

My grades this semester are going to suck. Not fail suck but like B-...B... suck =[ NOW I'm going to blame it on the fact that I have been in classes non stop since jan. 2008 b/c I took Physics II and Biochemistry during summer session 1 and 2 respectively. It's possible to get burnt out on school work isn't it?
I just need a break. Sad thing is I am taking Advanced Human Anatomy and Physical Chem both summer sessions AGAIN ugh.... I need help. I should just chill, but I feel that I am wasting precious time by not taking a class or 2.

I'm moving off campus next week =] Maybe the change of scenery with help out. My friends are like WHY ARE YOU LEAVING STEPH!?! and i'm like... THESE CAMPUS APT COST TOO MUCH TO BE SO LITTLE.

During the summer is $612 per summer session so that's $1224 for the summer. My rent is $535/mo and that's June... July sooooo that's $1070. That's $124 that I'm saving which can by a book lol

Another reason why I'm trying to get the hell off campus is... I'm turning 21 =] To get the full effect of being all the way legal... I want my own place... where I can have my many bottles of vodka, Jose, and Jack out in the open...paint a wall... and most importantly... decorate my bathroom lol I have a vision... def hitting up Bed Bath & Beyond next week =]

I need a new TV.

Updating Hair Again lol PICS SHOULD WORK NOW lol

2009-04-29T10:00:00.000-04:00

Sooo yeah my new growth is the ish and I am quite motivated to see this transitioning thing thru. even if I revert back to a relaxer later, its nice to know what my natural hair is like since it has been MIA since I was 10 lol

So I did my hair yesterday after removing the twist. I washed it, deep conditioned, blow dried, flat iron. I won't do that to often, too much work. But yuppers... imma post a pick of the back shot of it. I wear my part on my right side sooooo right there I blew out my roots so it looks straight but run your fingers thru the back part if ya dare lol.

Guys really don't get it =[ All they see is me cutting my hair (again) and they don't like... sheesh dudes... i'm really going to have to say fuck you! on this one =/

Here is a new grwoth shot frm yesterday

Hair now... It's not nothing spectacular but considering I did it... its amazing

Hair updates lol

2009-04-28T05:56:00.002-04:00

So i have maybe an inch of new growth stretched.... about 12 weeks post-relaxer.

I'm excited because i'm noticing my texture an mess....well like the different textures lol

What I am seeing is like 3C ish in the front and something as u move back lol

I'm quite sure it maybe 4a since the last time I went without a relaxer my roots began to coil and i was like o shit how to I detangle this mess. I tried to get a pic but my camera phone doesnt have High Definition capabilities lol

It's really tempting for me to just cut the relaxed off right now lol I'm too anxious... I must make it to Aug.

I'm taking out the twist today after my exam and i'm going to hit up a braid-out/ bantu knot do.

i was taking to my boy about my hair and he was like yeah... u have nice long hair why dont you just wear it out? I just want to shake him and beat into his brain that that isnt the point right now, an to stop reminding me of my length. I'll be sure to get a pic of the braid out... I like big hair =]

I've noticed...

2009-04-26T12:24:00.000-04:00

Well before I explain what I've notice. When someone ask to describe someone, how do you proceed? I usually start of with height, size, maybe hair style if its significant, maybe their choice of clothes to wear, a nice purse, or nice shades lol... then I completely have nothing else to say.

I notice that a few of my friends have a complexion thing... like ask them the same question and the 1st thing they start off with is... he's your complexion or she's light skinned. Like I don't see it... I'm not choosing to omit their complexion in the line up of traits, it's just something I don't pick up on.

To my friends PLEASE DON'T GET UPSET WITH MOI =] thx
OK, so I was trying to describe a guy to my friend, and I would much rather have them go to facebook an do a search b/c i suck at descriptions of people. So I said... he's an [fraternity he's in] and then she asked about his complexion...i was like yeah he's kinda bright lol And that all the description she needed. I felt like I didnt say much at all. But yet that said everything to her...WTF

Then on another occasion, it was a different friend of mine, another friend an moi.. just chillin'. An out the blue, one of my friends said 'you two are the same complexion' at that moment I was like 'WTF that was random, who notices that'

THEN a guy friend of mine, was talking about like how light skinned dudes arent in, and his yellow complexion.... Problem with this statement is, he's not yellow haha Like do you want to be yellow? When you look in the mirror do you see your self lighter than what you really are. Maybe he's one of the lightest toned people in his family and they always mentioned it... cuz dude is like a half a shade lighter than me.

Lastly, I was sitting with a friend and previously we concluded that a guy was the same complexion as me... like way previously. We all (me, friend, dude) went out one day and after the dude left, she was like he's lighter than you. I'm like...seriously... who cares?

So maybe i't not a big deal but I find it weird! I think they subconsciously have an issue with their complexion, why else would you notice it so much? The only thing that I can think of that I notice on people are like tattoo's and piercings...because I have a thing for them... or an addiction lol

It doesnt bother me, when they mention those things... I just worried about why they address it so much...

Tagged, And I Tagged YOU this time...YEAH YOU!

2009-04-23T09:01:00.003-04:00

I was tagged by Saved Girl... yuppers

8 Things I look forward to:
1. GRADUATION May '10
2. Last Day of Classes tmw =]
3. Moving into my first REAL apt. (on campus apt. arent ish)
4. My next tattoo and/or piercing b/c its inevitable
5.Being hired lol
6. New blackberry
7. My Jeffy (ex) coming home to visit frm the Air Force
8. Awesome head game =/ (so serious lol)

8 Things I did yesterday:
1. worked frm 2a-7a
2. Accomplished the majority of my Microbio Term Project
3. Watched 2 episodes of the Avatar that I had never seen before from 2005 & 2006
4. Talked to my homies Rob and Kish briefly b/c they stay right there but yet I dont see them any more
5. Went shoe store browsing with guys... DSW and RackRoom to be exact lol
6. Had one of those giant cans of Arizona Sweet Tea
7. Kicked ass in Scrabble
8. Included my NuvaRing in a list of 'Top 5 things I carry with me all the time' haha

8 Things I Wish I Could do:
1. Not procrastinate so much
2. Have a Pesto Chicken Panini frm that Greek joint
3. Be the person who reviews cell phones
4. Stop liking him so much
5. Gain control of my 'nymph moments'
6. Pass this anatomy exam today
7. Go home to Charlotte, NC... like teleport right now
8. Take the twist out my hair lol

8 Shows I watch:
1. Wolverine and The X-men
2. X-Men Animated Series
3. Inuyasha
4. Avatar: Last Air Bender
5. Fringe
6. House
7. Jimmy Neutron
8. King of Queens

8 Bloggers Tagged:
1. Delio (what's up with the name dude?)
2. A life in the day of Raymahl Sutton
3. [{TASH}] -
4. ...ramblings...
5. Who Knows???
6. That hot fish grease!
7. [your name goes here]
8. [and yours here...]

OKKKKKK Back to studying yo.

Columbine...

2009-04-20T13:41:00.003-04:00

Sooo it's been 10 years since the Columbine incident. I was 10 years old at the time and the whole thing freaked me out, I was scared of the thought of going to high school for a while. I remember my grandparent talking about how the world was at that time. And talking about being able to raise childen in a world that is so... mean.

WELLLL... I think that the word has gotten so much worse. At 10 years old... i couldnt imagine 9/11... I couldn't imagine a war, I couldnt imagine that the people that were in my 5th grade classroom with me... watching the news coverage on Columbine would be effin' murdered few years later.

The world is a cruel place. I dont think I want the task of trying to raise children in it.

If everyone had my views on life... i think we could have a utopia. To me... nothing is that serious. I mean things are serious... but not THAT serious ya feel me?