tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-65296442009-07-09T09:44:27.773-06:00yoga freedom...feel free...Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12026436911422978815yogafreedom@gmail.comBlogger199125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6529644.post-32171812140892962852009-07-09T09:34:00.003-06:002009-07-09T09:44:27.782-06:00donation-based beginners' yoga series!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_OVI1Z32ewHI/SlYP9Pq0U9I/AAAAAAAAAhY/TNjVzIIgFBc/s1600-h/IMG_1656.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 150px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_OVI1Z32ewHI/SlYP9Pq0U9I/AAAAAAAAAhY/TNjVzIIgFBc/s200/IMG_1656.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5356486351656342482" /></a>Tuesdays + Thursdays, 2:30-3:30<br />Sundays, 3:30-5:00<br />July 14 - August 2<br /><br />Black Swan Yoga, 1114 West 5th Street, Austin<br /><br />Learn or review the basics of hatha yoga + meditation. Workshops will cover alignment, ASANA (physical poses), PRANAYAMA (breath), DHYANA (meditation), DHARMA (truth/buddha nature), CHAKRAS (energy centers), and more! <br /><br />Instructor Michelle Fajkus has practiced hatha yoga for over 15 years and is student of Jesus, Buddha, karma and the present moment. She has taught yoga and meditation in Austin and the San Francisco Bay area since 2002. <br /><br />A donation is a grateful act of giving. We suggest a donation of $10/class or $75/series (9 classes)<br />Pre-register to Save! $60/series if paid in advance by July 14. Contact Michelle at yogafreedom@gmail.com or 512-917-6995 for more information.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6529644-3217181214089296285?l=yogafreedom.blogspot.com'/></div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12026436911422978815yogafreedom@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6529644.post-7995459384146566262009-07-07T18:54:00.004-06:002009-07-07T19:17:47.336-06:00room for rent in yogic south austin household<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_OVI1Z32ewHI/SlPzqj34iJI/AAAAAAAAAhQ/2fJ8V5FfxXQ/s1600-h/arch2.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 256px; height: 192px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_OVI1Z32ewHI/SlPzqj34iJI/AAAAAAAAAhQ/2fJ8V5FfxXQ/s320/arch2.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5355892294383339666" /></a><br /><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_OVI1Z32ewHI/SlPzqaEmEPI/AAAAAAAAAhI/xoF-u6XcKTQ/s1600-h/618Dittmar_Front.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 256px; height: 192px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_OVI1Z32ewHI/SlPzqaEmEPI/AAAAAAAAAhI/xoF-u6XcKTQ/s320/618Dittmar_Front.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5355892291752300786" /></a><br />I will be moving to teach in Guatemala starting this August, and I am looking for someone who is interested in renting my house. I have owned the home since April 2006, and it's a charming, well-maintained 2-1 in South Austin.<br /><br />The home comes with a wonderful roommate, a 25 year old female who is employed full-time at a middle school, very responsible, tidy and a fabulous cook and gardener. She is especially interested in sharing the household and kitchen with someone who shares her appreciation for vegetarian/ macrobiotic cuisine and yoga. I also have two 3-year-old indoor/outdoor cats who are very sweet and low-maintenance, and my ideal tenant would want to keep them at the house and love them. If not, I will make arrangements for the cats to live elsewhere. <br /><br />We have a large yard with a hammock and a fire pit, lovely herb/vegetable/butterfly gardens, a compost, and a newly covered backyard deck. The home is fully furnished, and depending on whether the new roommate would like to bring his/her own furniture, I am willing to leave the furniture where it is and let him/her use it.<br /><br />Rent: $200 initial deposit, monthly rent is $550 + 1/2 bills (usually $50-90 per month for utilities and wireless internet) <br /><br /><br />Timing: it's a 1-year lease beginning in mid-August (this is somewhat flexible). <br /> <br />If interested, please contact Michelle at yogafreedom@gmail.com or 512-917-6995. Namaste~<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6529644-799545938414656626?l=yogafreedom.blogspot.com'/></div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12026436911422978815yogafreedom@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6529644.post-78025743654460676162009-07-01T11:24:00.003-06:002009-07-01T11:38:59.082-06:00scrambled eggs and tears<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_OVI1Z32ewHI/SkufFL0HcTI/AAAAAAAAAhA/kbBnXSGjvPY/s1600-h/IMG_1166.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_OVI1Z32ewHI/SkufFL0HcTI/AAAAAAAAAhA/kbBnXSGjvPY/s320/IMG_1166.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5353547493479510322" /></a>The sky is crying today<br />Cooling everything off<br />Covering Austin in a mist of relief<br />From the steaming concrete<br /><br />There's nothing like a good thunderstorm<br />There's no place like home<br /><br />I am crying too<br />I am grasping, clutching and then letting go<br />I have five weeks left here<br />All it takes is a sad song and some raindrops<br />And thinking about leaving<br />This place I love and these people I love<br />Jumping off into the unknown<br />(Which will surely be a mind-expanding adventure)<br /><br />I think of breakfast tacos and night swims and Alamo movies and yoga classes and my cozy little casita<br />How lucky I am<br />So close to my dear friends and parents and siblings<br />The thought of leaving is surreal, and when it hits me, I lose it<br /><br />I cry with premature nostalgia<br />It feels good to sob a little though,<br />To know that I am in touch with my emotions<br />To mourn the home I have created in this city that I love<br />And trust that it will be here for me<br />Upon my eventual return.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6529644-7802574365446067616?l=yogafreedom.blogspot.com'/></div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12026436911422978815yogafreedom@gmail.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6529644.post-44488899441751635592009-06-18T12:21:00.004-06:002009-06-18T12:33:12.496-06:00time she flies<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_OVI1Z32ewHI/SjqHP5Q9c8I/AAAAAAAAAgg/tAr8xGnMq-0/s1600-h/PhotoXfer+from+meanmachine2+024.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 240px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_OVI1Z32ewHI/SjqHP5Q9c8I/AAAAAAAAAgg/tAr8xGnMq-0/s320/PhotoXfer+from+meanmachine2+024.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5348736214595630018" /></a>Five years ago, I was living in Palo Alto, California, teaching yoga full time, mysteriously in love with a Christian, eating a raw vegan diet, and 24 years old. Today, I am a homeowner in Austin, teaching school full-time and a little yoga on the side, eating a lacto-ovo-pesca-tarian diet, not in love with any Christians, and 29! I'm so grateful for the continuity -- dear, old friends who remain close even if geographically far away, and YOGA, without which I would surely be dead, or clinically insane at the very least. As I sit here in the Hyatt hotel in the suburbs of Baltimore and DC, mulling over the notion of leaving the country, leaving Austin, leaving my beautiful friends and family and home, I feel calm and open to whatever develops. Guatemala? Brazil? Staying in TX? Maybe it's the food coma from the delicious Indian food I had for lunch, but I'd like to think that I am just basking in the present moment. Why stress? Life is short. Namaste...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6529644-4448889944175163559?l=yogafreedom.blogspot.com'/></div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12026436911422978815yogafreedom@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6529644.post-5840589557129582102009-06-14T10:24:00.001-06:002009-06-14T10:25:33.529-06:00Ode to Eagle River<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_OVI1Z32ewHI/SjUkdPKZWGI/AAAAAAAAAgI/UotoYCTOeww/s1600-h/IMG_2094.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 150px;" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_OVI1Z32ewHI/SjUkdPKZWGI/AAAAAAAAAgI/UotoYCTOeww/s200/IMG_2094.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5347220217277274210" /></a><br />Here I awake with a joyous breath<br />And drift to sleep in peaceful rest<br /><br />A choir of pines and aspens sing<br />Their great strong trunks ever towering<br />Mr. Blue Heron glides across the satin lake<br />His perfect neck curved like a snake<br />Even if you wanted to fret or worry<br />The loons would say slow down, don't hurry<br /><br />Audrey writes poems in sweet, thoughtful rhyme<br />And peruses my prose with her wise, kind eye<br />With books in hand to the pier we walk<br />Ever engaged in placid picnic talk <br />So little to do, so much to say<br />With long missed friends the day whiles away<br /><br />We swim and lounge in a sunset snapshot <br />As if unearthed from an ancient treasure spot<br />The leaves turn lime in the fading sun<br />When did doing nothing become so much fun?<br /><br />With effortlessness in the brisk summer air<br />These sacred north woods are a true yogi's lair<br />Spontaneous union of the self and nature<br />All elements combine to make the mind most clear<br /><br />Oh Aldridge Lake, oh Audrey, oh Skip<br />I could not have fathomed a more ideal trip<br />If I could dwell here for the rest of time<br />I think that would be absolutely sublime<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6529644-584058955712958210?l=yogafreedom.blogspot.com'/></div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12026436911422978815yogafreedom@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6529644.post-26494323619705922322009-06-08T20:59:00.001-06:002009-06-08T20:59:35.202-06:00wise words<object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/ZFIrlDzhFqE&hl=en&fs=1&"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/ZFIrlDzhFqE&hl=en&fs=1&" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6529644-2649432361970592232?l=yogafreedom.blogspot.com'/></div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12026436911422978815yogafreedom@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6529644.post-84988245270235225622009-06-07T16:58:00.001-06:002009-06-07T17:00:49.400-06:00leggo my egoThe ego is not a bad thing. It is what it is: the part of our brains that tells us who we are, where we've been, where we ought to go and how we should operate. Being dwellers in time and space, these logistical skills are important to us. <br /><br />However, the ego dwells exclusively in the past or the future... never in the present. It adores competition, especially with itself, but with other people too. And it is ultimately ego-centric, only caring for its own well-being and happiness. The ego is a powerful thing and the source of much pain and turmoil when we completely identify with it. <br /><br />The good news: the instant we step back from the windowless white cell in which the ego thrives and come into contact with the "witness" or our "true self," ego is immediately exposed: its attachment to identity, clutching to ephemeral joy, churning up never-ending drama. To do that, simply begin to notice when you are overtaken by attachment or aversion to something (which often manifests as things like anger, jealousy, envy and pride). Notice and release, and notice again 30 seconds later when it happens again. And release. And repeat. <br /><br />The popular, current spiritual writer Eckhart Tolle writes eloquently and simply about ego and how to diminish its power in his books, like <span style="font-style:italic;">A New Earth,</span> which I recommend. Just like anything, dropping ego-identification and living more presently is an ongoing practice. The more you know about ego, the less it drives your life. And that is not a bad thing.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6529644-8498824527023522562?l=yogafreedom.blogspot.com'/></div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12026436911422978815yogafreedom@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6529644.post-1634147212628119962009-05-20T17:52:00.002-06:002009-05-20T18:09:36.392-06:00yoga for any budget<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_OVI1Z32ewHI/ShSbo6NuArI/AAAAAAAAAgA/YRhDGrVpffU/s1600-h/logo.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 109px; height: 200px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_OVI1Z32ewHI/ShSbo6NuArI/AAAAAAAAAgA/YRhDGrVpffU/s200/logo.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5338062585464750770" /></a>Austin's only *DONATION-BASED* studio is opening this Saturday, MAY 23rd. Named for both a Thom York song (of Radiohead fame) and a best-selling non-fiction book, <span style="font-style:italic;">The Black Swan: The Impact of the Highly Improbable</span>, the goal of the Black Swan Yoga is to make yoga accessible to all, regardless of economic status or yoga experience.<br /><br />I am thrilled to be a part of this innovative studio. Many yoga studios in Austin and across the US are prohibitively expensive for regular folk, charging $15-20 for a drop-in class, or requiring you to put forth a large chunk of cash for a multiple class card. This is an outrage that discourages many from starting or continuing to practice regularly at a studio -- especially in the current economic downturn. <br /><br />At Black Swan, there is the freedom to donate what you can afford and still have access to the amazing teachings of yoga and meditation. The studio is spacious, clean and stylish; the location is central; the classes are diverse and frequent. It is located at 1114 West 5th Street, two blocks west of Lamar.<br /><br />I hope to see you there soon! I will be teaching on Saturdays from noon to 1:30 and Mondays, 4:00-5:00 and 5:30-6:30. <a href="http://www.blackswanyoga.com">See studio website and schedule.</a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6529644-163414721262811996?l=yogafreedom.blogspot.com'/></div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12026436911422978815yogafreedom@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6529644.post-73411989615510863242009-05-13T09:55:00.002-06:002009-05-13T09:59:56.283-06:00gospel yoga -- praise your breath<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://yofa.net/gratitude.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 284px; height: 423px;" src="http://yofa.net/gratitude.jpg" border="0" alt="" /></a><span style="font-weight:bold;">What is Gospel Yoga?</span> An eclectic combination of hatha yoga poses and flows, both "yang" (active, strengthening, heat-building) and "yin" (cooling, restorative, focused on deepening flexibility). The classes incorporate Buddhist and yogic philosophy, meditation, pranayama (breath work) and are always open to beginning, intermediate and advanced practitioners. <br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">About the teacher:</span> Michelle Fajkus is grateful to have practiced hatha yoga for over fifteen years, as it has helped her cultivate flexibility, strength and balance, both physical and psychological. She earned her 200-hour certification from Yoga Yoga and has taught in Austin and the San Francisco Bay area since founding Yoga Freedom in 2002. A left-handed Gemini, Michelle is an avid elementary school teacher, writer and swimmer. <br /><br />Join me, <span style="font-weight:bold;">9:00-10:15 a.m. <br />Sundays at Love Yoga Co-op</span><br />2525 South Lamar, #9. 78704<br />$10/class<br />Walk-ins welcome<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6529644-7341198961551086324?l=yogafreedom.blogspot.com'/></div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12026436911422978815yogafreedom@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6529644.post-73926360589976504862009-05-08T23:01:00.002-06:002009-05-08T23:15:01.325-06:00hard lessons, simple truthsIsn't it amazing how life continues to present us with lessons, over and over? Learning does not end when we graduate from school. As we ignore them, these lessons only get louder (and often more obnoxious). Whether it's finding love and contentment within ourselves before seeking it in another; slowing down and living more mindfully; or treating people with greater compassion and understanding, there are lessons to be learned from every situation, in every moment. <br /><br />Yoga practice "on the mat" is an ideal laboratory for study. If you're beating yourself up in a challenging pose; your ego is straining to push further, further, too far; you're sending malicious thoughts to the girl in the perfect handstand next to you -- that's not yoga. That's perpetuating the need for further lessons. So notice your mind when you practice. Notice the thoughts and emotions that surface with each pose and each breath. Keep coming back to the anchor of the present moment.<br /><br />The good news: everything is impermanent! No matter how foul a mood, it is bound to pass, sooner or later. Likewise, positive feelings will inevitably fade. Having the discipline to practice yoga regularly offers the priceless gift of knowing yourself better. What are your patterns? What poses do you gravitate toward and shy away from? What lessons is the universe trying to teach you? <br /><br />Of course, no lab work is useful unless it is utilized outside the lab. Breathing, stretching and strengthening body and mind on the mat naturally translates to deeper breathing and better posture in our daily lives. Most importantly, it is the calm, centered compassion that is cultivated in "proper" yoga practice that we all must strive to embody, for the highest benefit of ourselves and all beings.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6529644-7392636058997650486?l=yogafreedom.blogspot.com'/></div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12026436911422978815yogafreedom@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6529644.post-66988160122879402152009-05-06T10:24:00.002-06:002009-05-06T10:28:26.456-06:003 quotes<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_OVI1Z32ewHI/SgG6oBxEBzI/AAAAAAAAAfQ/lmjoQP-btgE/s1600-h/IMG_1672.JPG"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 150px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_OVI1Z32ewHI/SgG6oBxEBzI/AAAAAAAAAfQ/lmjoQP-btgE/s200/IMG_1672.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5332748630615131954" /></a>"contentment is natural wealth. luxury is artificial poverty." -socrates<br /><br />"the deepest waters make the least noise." -guatemalan proverb<br /><br />"nature does not hurry, yet everything is accomplished." -lao-tzu<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6529644-6698816012287940215?l=yogafreedom.blogspot.com'/></div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12026436911422978815yogafreedom@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6529644.post-11858142896986919542009-05-01T11:58:00.004-06:002009-05-01T12:33:06.893-06:00the long-term ramifications of shaving your headIn the past week, I have had not one but two blowouts with women: my mother and my boss. Last weekend, my mom had a delayed conniption fit about my practicing yoga on Easter Sunday. She thinks that by meditating on anything other than the passion of Christ, I am rejecting Christianity/Catholicism. We've been having this argument for years. But what is different is the way <span style="font-weight:bold;">she denounced yoga, as if it's some satanic ritual, not the rich spiritual, non-dogmatic practice it is</span>. Although I cannot blame this battle on my formerly shaved head, I do attribute it to my strengthened practices of Buddhism and yoga. <br /><br />One thing I know for sure: If you're a woman who works at a public school in Texas-- even little ol' liberal Austin-- DO NOT shave your head. It is not looked upon kindly. I know, because I did it myself, in November 2006, during my first year of teaching. My reasoning is irrelevant. It was a choice, not chemotherapy. <br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Although my hair has been growing out for nearly two and a half years, the principal of my school still cannot hide her clear disdain for me</span>, which I am sure began on the day I showed up to school with no hair. Back then, she lied and manipulated and almost got rid of me before Human Resources swooped in and saved my job. She kept her vile hatred under wraps for most of the current school year, seeing as I had done her the huge favor of becoming a bilingual special ed teacher. <br /><br />The truce has officially worn off. This week, it became clear that she has it out for me. She's blatantly lied and accused me of violating TAKS regulations, a serious offense that can lead to losing teaching certification. Luckily, I'm not a scared first year teacher anymore. I don't have to let her tell me I'm a bad person, or a bad teacher. When she told me that my overall attitude is the problem, I said, and I quote, <span style="font-weight:bold;">"I'd like to know where you're getting this information, because you never observe me teach."</span> Which is true. I rarely interact with her at all, which is fortunate, as she has an absurd personal vendetta against me. <br /><br />I'm hoping to land a job at an international school and gleefully resign as soon as possible. But if that does not happen, I want to be welcomed back at my school, where <span style="font-weight:bold;">I work hard and care about the students</span>, communicate well with my colleagues, and am respected and trusted.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6529644-1185814289698691954?l=yogafreedom.blogspot.com'/></div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12026436911422978815yogafreedom@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6529644.post-10446116561341480482009-04-22T21:30:00.003-06:002009-04-22T21:54:58.317-06:00la vida y la muertein 1989, i developed an acute fear of death<br />because that's what people do<br />at the age<br />of enlightenment<br />to the fact <br />that this precious life ends<br />so<br />i couldn't bear to leave the house<br />obsessed about eternity<br />eternally<br />because<br />death happens<br />and no one knows what it means<br />but why not believe in heaven?<br />why not believe in rebirth?<br />reincarnation?<br />reinvention?<br /><br />my most tragic memories:<br />a tornado hitting my school<br />lightning striking our house<br />getting the phone call that makes everything cease:<br />family members in wreck, helicoptered to hospital<br /><br />i'm lucky <br />to have avoided intimacy with sudden death<br />except for my childhood kitties,<br />spice and peppy,<br />who died before their time<br />under the wheels of fast cars<br />and tiki, the first chihuahua,<br />her delicate bones crushed by accident<br /><br />now, buddha challenges me to ponder life and death<br />in a new and ordinary way<br />to contemplate the bardo realms<br />and compassionately wish for freedom from suffering<br />for all beings<br />no exceptions<br />to meditate on impermanence <br />and to know death<br />all while staying present<br />and living most fully.<br /><br />===========<br /><blockquote>"The only thing that is real is the being in you that is going to die.” -Carlos Castaneda</blockquote><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6529644-1044611656134148048?l=yogafreedom.blogspot.com'/></div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12026436911422978815yogafreedom@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6529644.post-15697404269753530732009-04-16T21:18:00.004-06:002009-04-16T21:43:33.877-06:00choo-choo!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_OVI1Z32ewHI/Sef6DhXrfTI/AAAAAAAAAfI/OkvX9CCH5TM/s1600-h/DSCF1614.JPG"><img style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 200px; height: 150px;" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_OVI1Z32ewHI/Sef6DhXrfTI/AAAAAAAAAfI/OkvX9CCH5TM/s200/DSCF1614.JPG" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5325500022793141554" /></a>I write more when I’m down. Lately, I have not been journaling because I am up, happy, centered, good. It is the four-year anniversary of my big nervous breakdown. Today.<span style="font-weight:bold;"> I graduate to a new level of sanity. </span>Four years post insane asylum. <br /> <br />I am present more often than ever. Not more often than not... yet. Tonight during savasana, <span style="font-weight:bold;">my mind hung on to the caboose of many trains of thought. </span>One was a plan to do a fruit and veg detox, mostly raw, for ten days. Another: how I have not dragged myself to the gym in weeks, though I often bring my Nikes to school with me with that intention. It has been so gorgeous outside, so I’ve been taking lots of long walks with my loyal Chihuahua, Lucy. Lucy and a boy. I have a minor crush on a country boy from Nebraska. He’s tall, blonde, no-nonsense, subtle and interesting. It’s totally platonic at this point, and he just left town for a month. I still adore 'The One' but it will never work. Sigh. My dear ex is thankfully fading from my consciousness. He’s living in Houston, doing his military job, dating some lame chick. Intellectually, I know it's for the best that we are not in touch. Emotionally, it still kind of sucks. But time helps. Distance really helps.<br /> <br />Meanwhile, school, yoga and meditation fill my days. I'm learning lots about Tibetan Buddhism. I’m teaching at Love Yoga Co-op on Wednesday nights. Last night there were five students. I hope this is a sign of increased attendance. Up to now, I’ve had zero to two people per class. I’ve been so busy/present, in fact, that I am not giving much thought to the fact that <span style="font-weight:bold;">I may move abroad this year after all.</span> I ruled out the idea of getting a Masters from UT after about a week, because the bureaucracy of UT irritates me to no end. I will visit Baltimore in mid-June to attend an international teaching job fair. Immediately prior to that, I will spend a week in Eagle River, Wisconsin, hanging out with my best friend's parents at their picturesque lakeside cabin.<br /><br />Right now, mostly, I am content to be domestic. To sweep the hardwoods and read <span style="font-style:italic;">Newsweek</span> in the hammock and pull weeds from Leanne's garden. To be a householder, as my Vipassana meditation guru, Goenka, says. I bought some Advantage for my two cats and dog. It doesn’t get much more domestic than getting rid of fleas on your pets. It’s mid-April, I’m sane and liberated. <span style="font-weight:bold;">Life could not be better.</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6529644-1569740426975353073?l=yogafreedom.blogspot.com'/></div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12026436911422978815yogafreedom@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6529644.post-61900545869411462572009-04-14T21:33:00.001-06:002009-04-14T21:33:48.489-06:00green tara mantra<object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/lqcWl6VAB_M&hl=en&fs=1&color1=0x5d1719&color2=0xcd311b"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/lqcWl6VAB_M&hl=en&fs=1&color1=0x5d1719&color2=0xcd311b" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6529644-6190054586941146257?l=yogafreedom.blogspot.com'/></div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12026436911422978815yogafreedom@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6529644.post-52117485164290503842009-04-13T21:34:00.003-06:002009-04-13T21:58:20.144-06:00practice makes progressTwo weeks into this six-week advanced yoga training and already I feel more challenged, content, disciplined, healthy, humble and compassionate than before. Amazing what a little practice can do. Really amazing what a lot of practice can do. It's like anything. Running, writing, crossword puzzles, piano playing. The more you do something, the better you get. Not that perfection is the goal. Simply presence. Enlightenment isn't golden fireworks and chakra hallucinations, it's being present. All the time.<br /><br />When I think back to where I was four years ago this month -- spiraling into manic oblivion and committed to ten days in the psych ward after my closest friends notified the police -- compared to the mental and emotional stability I feel today, it brings me to tears of gratitude. I can walk around the grounds of the State Hospital and feel eons away from those dark days, yet eternally grateful for the many lessons that experience taught me. I know I have my dedicated yoga practice, both before and since 2005, to thank for the progress I have achieved.<br /><br />As part of the Dharma training, I'm reading <span style="font-style:italic;">The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying</span> by Sogyal Rinpoche. He says, "The gift of learning to meditate is the greatest gift you can give yourself in this life. For it is only through meditation that you can undertake the journey to discover your true nature, and so find the stability and confidence you will need to live, and die, well. Meditation is the road to enlightenment... It is a practice that at once transcends the dogma of religion and is the essence of religions."<br /><br />Wow. What a beautiful way to put it. I'm off to the meditation cushion. <br /><br /><blockquote>May whatever merit that comes from this practice go toward the enlightenment of all beings; may it become a drop in the ocean of activity of all the buddhas in their tireless work for the liberation of all beings.</blockquote><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6529644-5211748516429050384?l=yogafreedom.blogspot.com'/></div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12026436911422978815yogafreedom@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6529644.post-91318714790960278172009-04-09T15:14:00.001-06:002009-04-09T15:16:11.242-06:00happy easter<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_OVI1Z32ewHI/Sd5leEwvTuI/AAAAAAAAAfA/S0C4XwI8bms/s1600-h/9.32E4.jpeg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 320px; height: 223px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_OVI1Z32ewHI/Sd5leEwvTuI/AAAAAAAAAfA/S0C4XwI8bms/s320/9.32E4.jpeg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5322803376947154658" /></a><br /><a href="http://www.snopes.com/photos/animals/tigerpig.asp">can't we all just get along?</a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6529644-9131871479096027817?l=yogafreedom.blogspot.com'/></div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12026436911422978815yogafreedom@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6529644.post-55748001610325011962009-04-05T00:01:00.003-06:002009-04-07T21:23:37.339-06:00yin yoga in a yang world<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_KO4lwcnBZ9A/SYky9s_IIwI/AAAAAAAAA4I/HQ3d4g0rpEw/s400/yin_yang.gif"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 310px; height: 300px;" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_KO4lwcnBZ9A/SYky9s_IIwI/AAAAAAAAA4I/HQ3d4g0rpEw/s400/yin_yang.gif" border="0" alt="" /></a>My car was broken into this afternoon. I was on a hike, surrounded by nature, with an old friend and our dogs. It was lovely. When we returned to my car and found the window smashed and my purse missing, I felt pretty zen about the whole thing. At first. Within moments, I passed through sadness, violation, anger, confusion, regret, worry, and so forth. What would I do without my ID, debit card, cell phone and lipstick? Especially cell phone. Without instant access to all phone numbers, I felt vulnerable, lost. I like to think that it not a necessity, but come on. I am just as an avid a talker and texter as the next guy.<br /><br />"These days" it's not uncommon for kids to have mobile phones, even in elementary school. As a teacher, I witness increasingly short attention spans every day. ADHD is rampant. Programming for kids is so fast-paced and over-stimulating, it borders on the obnoxious. We adults aren't much better, with our Blackberrys and iPods. Why read a boring old book when you can browse the New York Times headlines and check up on what your childhood neighbor-friend is up to this week and find out what movies and bands are playing tonight, all in the span of ninety seconds. (Don't even get me started on Twitter.) We are all so connected, ever-seeking (and finding) entertainment. Stumbling upon a single moment of silence and peace is more precious than ever. <br /><br />Even in our yoga, Americans have managed to Westernize and bastardize things to the point of absurdity. The most popular styles of hatha yoga here typically involve intent focus on specific alignment of the physical body (I love Iyengar, but come on, if you <i>can</i> outwardly rotate your shins while inwardly rotating your thighs and spreading your toes and lifting your pelvic floor simultaneously... why bother?) and/or contorting into a prescribed sequence of poses whilst sweating profusely (a la Bikram, Ashtanga or "Power Yoga"). While these practices certainly have value as physical workouts, all too often the spiritual side of yoga, the meditation, the deepening of Awareness-with-a-capital-A falls by the wayside. <br /><br />To be fair, "yang yoga," (it's not called that) is wonderful. I practice it; I love it. It improves strength, balance and flexibility both physically and mentally. At its best, it is a spiritual practice, a moving meditation. And it can lead to weight loss, better circulation, killer abs and glowing skin. However, it tends to bolster our American tendencies of go-go-go, faster-better-more dynamic. It is hard to overthink things when you're jumping from downward dog into plank or trying to perfect your handstand. It's tough to brood when balancing on one arm and leg. A fabulous compliment to this style of yoga is a relatively uncommon practice called yin yoga.<br /><br />Yin yoga is the antithesis to our yang world -- the Internet, multitasking, being a slave to the monkey mind. Yin yoga is sitting, bending forward, reclining, twisting -- ever so gently -- just being there. Holding poses for extended period (two, three, five, ten minutes, depending on the pose and time of day and the body practicing it). Letting go of all muscular tension. Letting the spine round. Releasing the jaw, the face, shoulders and neck. Allowing gravity to do its thing. And while all this is delicious for the body, it's not easy on the mind. Staying with a pose for so long, not jumping back and doing a vinyasa, the mind is free to wander. And wander it will, into the past, down memory lane (what my life could have been, if only) ... into the future (what's happening next, tomorrow, this weekend, in ten years), to impatience (how much longer are we going to hold this god-forsaken pigeon?) and judgement (my hips are not as open as they used to be). <br /><br />Like traditional seated meditation, yin yoga gives us the opportunity to bask in nothingness. Which is excruciatingly difficult at first. Things come up, rapid fire. Items you absolutely must write on your to do list immediately. The perfect name for your second born. How badly you need a pedicure. Worries about a troubled friend or aging parent. As a yoga instructor and meditation advocate, people often confide to me that they can't meditate because their minds are too active. That's like saying you're not flexible so you can't do yoga. Or you're not strong, so you can't lift weights. Start where you are. Meditation is not a blank-slate mind. Yoga is not pretzel poses.<br /><br />The mind (the ego) will try anything and everything to get you off the mat, out of the pose, away from the present moment. That's its job. And your job, as a yogi, is to notice all thoughts, memories, sensations and ideas with equanimity and balance. Say, "thanks but no thanks, ego," return to your center, your breath, your connectedness to all beings, and savor the silence.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6529644-5574800161032501196?l=yogafreedom.blogspot.com'/></div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12026436911422978815yogafreedom@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6529644.post-59678131496327364102009-04-04T12:50:00.002-06:002009-04-04T12:55:51.314-06:00april 8th yoga classesCome on down -- take your pick from 2 consecutive classes this Wednesday, April 8, at the <a href="http://www.loveyogacoop.com">Love Yoga Co-op</a> (located at 2525 South Lamar). <br /><br />The 6:30-7:45 pm class is hatha flow. The 8:00-9:15 pm class is yin yoga. Both classes are suitable for all levels, including beginners. Hatha flow is active, energetic, heat-building, and strengthening. Yin yoga is relaxing, restorative, cooling and focuses on flexibility. Classes are $10 per person. No need to RSVP. ...Namaste...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6529644-5967813149632736410?l=yogafreedom.blogspot.com'/></div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12026436911422978815yogafreedom@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6529644.post-13295451939255508352009-03-22T06:35:00.002-06:002009-03-22T06:51:33.912-06:00new york, new yorka full parade of days<br />walking in the shadows of the empire<br />snow falling on cement<br />bustle and thrill morphed into agitation and aching arches<br />there's no place like home but<br />there's really no place like new york:<br />the frenzy of a billion heartbeats<br />and brain waves and conversations <br />the lives of the poor and famous intersecting underground<br /><br />didn't make it above 42nd street<br />but it's okay<br />yoga was an asylum<br />from the speedy mind<br />always seeking what's next<br />where next, who next<br />scarcely able to complete one thought<br />before the next waterfall of people<br />cascade down the stairwell <br />and vie for their lives on the crosswalk<br /><br />made new friends and kept the old<br />meditated in manhattan<br />basked in the relative calm in brooklyn<br />powered through brunches and shops and times square<br />ate systematically from every delicious cuisine possible<br />i do love this city<br />i did enjoy this spring break immensely<br />i am ready to return to my quiet little corner of the planet<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6529644-1329545193925550835?l=yogafreedom.blogspot.com'/></div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12026436911422978815yogafreedom@gmail.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6529644.post-2220885379059341482009-03-17T15:29:00.001-06:002009-03-17T15:29:46.160-06:00breathing easy<object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/zIxic471NLM&hl=en&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/zIxic471NLM&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6529644-222088537905934148?l=yogafreedom.blogspot.com'/></div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12026436911422978815yogafreedom@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6529644.post-28453401625148696052009-03-17T09:31:00.003-06:002009-03-17T09:38:07.311-06:00keep austin spicyalthough i must admit that i am getting sick of the endless revisions of the city slogan, "keep austin weird," this festival should be fun, cultural, and spicy. i will be there volunteering with love yoga. here's the info:<br /><br /><a href="http://www.keepaustinspicy.com/">Keep Austin Spicy</a><br />Asian Food & Culture Festival<br />Saturday, March 28, 2009 - 11 AM to 6 PM<br />Fiesta Gardens, Lady Bird Lake (just east of I-35)<br />$5 tickets -- Benefiting SAHELI for Asian Families, SafePlace and Capital Area Food Bank.<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_OVI1Z32ewHI/Sb_DyvmspgI/AAAAAAAAAeg/gVVNmQUPbok/s1600-h/anuradha_crop.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 134px; height: 200px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_OVI1Z32ewHI/Sb_DyvmspgI/AAAAAAAAAeg/gVVNmQUPbok/s200/anuradha_crop.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5314181361860126210" /></a><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6529644-2845340162514869605?l=yogafreedom.blogspot.com'/></div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12026436911422978815yogafreedom@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6529644.post-71258681714821251112009-03-14T08:15:00.003-06:002009-03-14T08:29:31.545-06:00the love shack is a little place where we can get together<b>Update on my new Wednesday night yoga classes...</b><br />The first two classes have been lovely and tiny, each with two students and myself. The space has nice energy and plenty of new props to play with (bolsters, blankets, blocks). We do meditation, yin poses held for 2-5 minutes apiece interspersed with "yang," strengthening and balancing poses. As always, the grand finale is pranayama (breathwork) followed by deep relaxation. I have committed to three months on the schedule. I need three people to attend each week in order to cover my cost of renting the space. I am so out of practice with promoting yoga classes, but I am confident that the momentum will grow. If you build it, they will come...<br /><br />p.s. Though I will be out of town this Wednesday, class will go on with a wonderful teacher, Lauran Janes, the mastermind behind opening the Love Yoga Co-op.<br />******************************************<br /><b>More information on the studio:</b><br />Love Yoga Co-op is Austin’s only yoga co-operative. <br /><br />We are a community of yoga teachers, students, friends and family who share the responsibilities involved in bringing yoga to our community – from tending to our practice on the mat to tending to ‘practical’ realities off the mat. <br /><br />The teachers in a co-operative are all part owners in the “home” we share. We work together to support each other on our mats, in our business efforts, and in our lives. The betterment of one is the betterment of all. As students of a yoga co-operative your affordable $10 class fee goes directly to your teacher (not to pricey overhead expenditures). The co-op model offers the most direct way for students to support their teachers. <br /><br />As co-op teachers most of us have been studying or teaching yoga for nearly a decade. Our lives and practice are deeply interwoven. Our eyes have been sharpened by hundreds of students. Our vision is to help people tune their breath, clear their mind, and remember the miracle of life. <br /><br />Love Yoga Co-Op. Community Powered. 78704.<br /><br />Please visit <a href="www.LoveYogaCoop.com">our website</a> for the class schedule.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6529644-7125868171482125111?l=yogafreedom.blogspot.com'/></div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12026436911422978815yogafreedom@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6529644.post-1307812144671460272009-03-09T20:38:00.003-06:002009-03-09T20:49:11.771-06:00mi vuelta(my flight)<br /><br />woke up from a dream<br />in which i was a witch<br />in plainclothes<br />propelling myself at will<br />high into the storm clouds<br />the ground far below<br />brown and unwanted<br /><br />i smiled down on the evergreen trees<br />no one could do what i could<br />no one noticed<br />and i didn't care<br /><br />woke up on a sunlit morning<br />sad and confused<br />dwelling on my middle class woes<br />and unable to fly<br /><br />flipped through the material world<br />saw smiling children in africa<br />whose bright teeth made me cry<br />and feel guilty and grateful<br />and wish that they could fly<br /><br />oh, that i could meet them high in the sky<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6529644-130781214467146027?l=yogafreedom.blogspot.com'/></div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12026436911422978815yogafreedom@gmail.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6529644.post-52514034654735192352009-02-26T22:12:00.001-06:002009-02-26T22:13:57.569-06:00march is for yoga and meditation!<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_OVI1Z32ewHI/SadofkG8t4I/AAAAAAAAAeA/priQ2SQu3js/s1600-h/crisplogo.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 300px; height: 51px;" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_OVI1Z32ewHI/SadofkG8t4I/AAAAAAAAAeA/priQ2SQu3js/s320/crisplogo.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5307325577357473666" /></a><br />Yin Yoga<br />8-9 p.m. Wednesdays<br />beginning March 4th<br /> at the new <a href="http://www.loveyogacoop.com/location.aspx">LOVE YOGA CO-OP</a> on South Lamar (south of Oltorf, behind Maria's Tacos)<br />$10/class<br /><br />Gentle Yoga & Meditation<br />7-8 p.m. Sundays<br />beginning March 1st<br />at <a href="http://www.yogafreedom.com">YOGA FREEDOM</a> near South First and William Cannon<br />Donation-based ($5-10 suggested)<br /><br />These classes are suitable for beginners, intermediate and advanced yogis. Email or call Michelle at 512-917-6995 for more information or to RSVP! Namaste.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6529644-5251403465473519235?l=yogafreedom.blogspot.com'/></div>Michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12026436911422978815yogafreedom@gmail.com0