Can You Relate?

Siblings we fight a lot :)

2010-03-18T12:50:00.007+08:00

Azam in green, Naz in black
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I have 5 siblings including me. Nurul 26, me 17 (ehem2), Naz 23, Azam 18, Azem 15.

All of us have different characters, different qualities, different abilities and unique in every way. But, we are SIBLINGS. Siblings, we fight a lot, we quarrel, we shout at each outher, haha, those were when we were small ;P

Now, we are grown ups, we take care, we celebrate our differences, acknowledge our different accomplishments :)

Hence, I am very ♥♥♥ proud of my brothers and sister. My sister is the smartest, she started with 9As for SPM and went to Usa, followed by Naz then to Melbourne. Now, Azam. He is planning for flying courses. :)

Eventhou they did very well, mine was not so good, Im average. Sometimes I feel like I have to match up with them, not sometimes, but everytime. Fuh!!~

But, its ok :). I have great siblings, Im proud of them ♥. Hope that they will do well in their future ahead. With Allah's willing.

4000?

2010-03-17T20:03:00.003+08:00

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Pembaca yang ke-4000, terima kasih! ♥♥♥! ;) hugs**
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Abby's Funeral

2010-03-17T16:06:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was gloomy. Abby passed away in his sleep at his hostel. He was still young, just 24 years old, and was an active person. All he said to his family before going was, "Abah, minggu ni abby balik". Maybe, it was a sign of his ajal.

His father is so strong. No tears. All of his family managed to stay calm. When somebody comforted his father, then he replied "takpe, its okay". (I tell you, I cannot see people cry. If I see one, I will cry harder than that person. )

Many friends of his came, by bus, UITM bus. Imagine if its U**. Will there be any bus? (huu, sempat lagi fikir tuh) Imagine if I were in his mother's or sister's position. Maybe, Ill cry like crazy.

Semoga roh nya dicucuri rahmat. Amin.

The Confidence to Let Go of the Past and Our Suffering

2010-03-17T01:37:00.002+08:00

Every single one of us on this planet suffers in some way. Doesn’t matter if you’re rich or poor, male or female, white, black or purple. As my friend tells me, “it’s part of our contract in being born. We have to suffer.” Some people seem to experience much greater personal tragedies than others but we all have painful issues we have to live through. It is part of life on this planet.
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Suffering can happen in thousands of different ways and whether it takes place in the form of abuse (physical or mental), people cheating on us, loved ones dying on us, parents not loving us enough, car accidents or even losing our jobs, it doesn’t really matter in that we’re all affected by it at some point or at many points during our lives. Suffering is whatever causes us great emotional upheaval and we all have to go through it.
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The difference is how we deal with our suffering and whether we're able to move on to emotional healing. We can deal with our pain or we can let it slowly destroy us. An important part of gaining confidence is to “let go” of our suffering and have the courage to move on and be the whole person we know we can be.
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There’s two main steps in achieving the confidence to move past suffering.
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Forgiveness

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Forgive the person. This could be one person or it could be many. It could even be God. It’s whoever you feel has caused you great pain. Forgive them. Write them a letter.

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I forgive you for [state whatever you feel has caused you the greatest emotional distress and anguish]. Be as completely honest as you can. Write it all down. You are NOT going to send this letter. You are the only person who will ever see this so get it all out. It’s important to write it down though. Saying it to yourself in your head does not make it “real” enough. Write it down. No one will ever see it so you don’t have to be afraid. Remember though, this is a letter of forgiveness and not blame. Blame is for victims and it makes you powerless. You are in control of your ability to forgive. “I forgive you”.

When you have done that, it is time to forgive one more person; yourself. At the time of the event, you did the best you could. Forgive yourself for letting it happen, for not doing something, for doing something. Whatever happened, forgive yourself. You cannot change the past. You can only become stronger from it.

Forgiveness is so important as the first step because it signifies a mental shift from being a victim to being the master of your life and having complete control over your destiny. You make the decision to forgive the person. You make the decision you are going to move on with your life. You are now taking action instead of simply reacting. You are in the process of taking back your power and being the master of your thoughts and your life.
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Let It Go

This step can be harder than forgiveness. It can be quite easy to say “I forgive you” but still continue to hold on to the hurt and attachment to the “crime” and what you feel has been done to you.

Usually when we forgive someone, we are “blaming” or acknowledging that a wrong has been committed against us by that person. The problem comes when we secretly hold on to that crime. True forgiveness is about no longer holding on to or focusing on the action that got us so upset in the beginning. It is about moving on and completely becoming detached from the event.

The other part of letting go is that we can never truly feel the joy of today as long as we’re continuing to process or make sense of a past event. As Lynn Grabhorn says in her book the Excuse Me, Your Life is Waiting Playbook “So rather than denying or stuffing your past, go ahead and look at it, but without judgment. Look at it, express it, admit it, acknowledge it, accept it, and move on. In other words, let your past become something that is simply a matter of fact. That’s all. Express your disappointment, your regret, your anger, and then LET IT GO! If you don’t, you will continue to draw to you the very events that you are still resenting or regretting."

Letting go also means letting go of the anger. A lot of times we are so filled with anger against the person or event but feel that we are helpless to do anything about it. When this happens the anger can turn inwards and we become very self destructive. Self destruction can take any number of forms as we seem to be very inventive when it comes to hurting ourselves. Eating disorders, addictions to drugs and alcohol, bad relationships, crime, self mutilation, not being able to keep a job, being constantly accident prone and on and on it goes. Each one of us finds a different way to take out our anger on ourselves.

You have the power so let it go. You no longer need it.
It is important to understand that forgiveness and letting go won’t happen overnight. After years of having the hurt and anger bottled up inside, it can take a while to develop the willingness to let those emotions go and to allow other positive feelings to take their place. You just need to take that first step to allow real healing to take place. Keep forgiving and keep letting go. The emotions can be incredibly painful but there’s no way to heal except to go through it and feel the emotions.

You are the only one who has the power to let the past go and to move on with your life. It doesn’t matter what anyone else says or does, only you have the power to take control of your life. It is incredibly empowering when you get to the stage when the past does not control your future anymore. You are relieved of your burden of anger freeing you from your previous self destructive behaviour. You may find at this point that you are able to help others who are going through the exact same thing you did. You have gotten your life back. You are liberated from the past and you are finally truly free. You have gained unbelievable confidence in yourself and the world around you. You have moved beyond suffering. It is one of the greatest lessons we can learn during our lifetime.
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by Catherine Pratt

If today is my last day

2010-03-16T10:51:00.002+08:00

Today is different. My cousin just past away. His name is Abby, 23 years old. Last time I saw him, was Raya time. He was the most fauvorite cousin amongst all. He was the friendliest, chatiest, smiliest, helpfullest amongst us. Im just grateful because I managed to see him during Raya.

We never know when our ajal is. When the time comes, no one can stop it.

Ixaty Turner

2010-03-15T23:15:00.002+08:00

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You're simply the best
Better than all the rest
Better than anyone
Anyone I've ever met ;')
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(layan main gitar sekali hahaha, mission failed!)
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Its a ♥ Story, Nadia Just Say YES :)

2010-03-14T21:38:00.007+08:00

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We were both young when I first saw you
Kau duduk sebelah aku dalam kelas 4c dan 5c
Kau kawan aku yang gila sampai aku pon gila sekali
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Kau throw pabbles kat tingkap rumah aku
tingkap pecah pulak
haha...
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Time sekolah, kita panjat pagar
Gila hebat kain tak koyak langsung
Lepak kat JJ wangsa maju ngn Jalilah n Shira
Ape kabar la mereka berdua
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We were both young when I first saw youuuu.. ;P
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Hari ni berjalan2 dengan hebat, kalau tak kurus jugak tak tau la. ;P Makan juga sangat hebat, kalau tak gemuk jugak, tak tau la ;P

Cuba tengok, apa saya makan....

Cili giling! Hahaha! tak la

saya makan ini :) sedap!
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At the souvenir shop, Aquaria.

Ala, baru nak tipoo korang kata tu ular betul, tapi da tercakap kat atas at souvenir shop ;P

dugong ke ape tah, tapi gebu gila

Now, u may kiss the bride ;P

Haiwan comel dan gebu berbentuk gelang

Lebih meriah dari jam tangan

kenapa kau dah gemok Nemo?

"Off with the heads" red Evil Queen dalam Alice in Wonderland ;P

Look, at our skinny legs.. Haha ;P

Skinny gila, kalah budak2 skin head ;P Sudah, lemak banyak tu.

Makan Petang, bukan kuih muih bersama family tecinta, tapi, dengan nasi lemak tercinta! bersama kawan tercinta! ;')

Mangkuk ayun bawah ni best kalau buat makan maggi kat asrama terchenta ;') Slurp!

Makan senja, kek yang berkhasiat. Kalau makan, pasti turun berat badan ;')

Da~ Sepatutnya hari ni register kelas gitar. Tapi terlupa. Sedihnya ;'(

Takpe, cheer up! My student, Nisha got 7A's for SPM. And A for the subject that I thought that is Science. I tell you, this girl is one hardworking gila punya!

Alhamdullilah! my brother, Azzam got straight A's. Fuh! Update about the diner for Azzam's celebration later ;)

Bye

Disappointed.. haha, gelak pulak

2010-03-13T16:22:00.004+08:00

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Salam
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Asrama di U terchenta tak de eletrik. Jadi balik ke rumah terchenta seperti hari2.
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Hari ini dapat phone call dari Sofi kata, ada Interview di Texas Instrument, bukan di Texas, USA, tapi Texas UK (Ulu Klang). Tapi sekarang dah pukul 2.30pm. Saya pon bagai pelesit yang hebat bergegas balik ke rumah. Lepas tu, macam "dem! original certificate tinggal kat U terchenta!"
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Sebagai pelesit yang hebat juga, saya pulang ke U terchenta untuk ambil fail original cert. "Fuh2!"

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Memang best la hari Sabtu, jalan jem =_=".. Huhu....
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Takpe, think positive. Sampai je di TI kat UK, berhenti depan pak gad. Pak gad tu kata "TAHNIAH! sebeb adik comel sangat, walaupon dah lambat, pakcik bagi masuk jugak!"
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Tipu je.
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Instead... dia kata ini
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"Sekarang da kol 3.45 dik, baru je abis tadi. 3.30 last. Sory the biskut mary"
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Saya macam, eh, pak cik ni baca blog saya ke, pakai sory the biskut mary ni? Haha..Ok, sory the biskut mary tu saya yang tambah.
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I dont mind tak dapat TI tu pon. Walaupun tempat tu glam.

Macam, "Kau kerja mane?".

Dibalas "Aku kerja kat Texas siyut!!!"
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Im just disappointed with *****. If ***** obey the agreement, I will be the best worker ***** ever had. Hihi, gelak comel.
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However, setelah banyak membaca artikel supaya positif, mungkin ***** lewat membuat perjanjian ada hikmah nya.
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Seperti kata2 pujangga di bawah ini :)

We don't always get instant gratification, and some of the best things in life require years of hard work and waiting. ♥

Part waiting tu yang tak tahan tu...... positif2 beb.

Grey's Anatomy, Season 2

2010-03-11T13:35:00.001+08:00

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"I miss my Mc Dreamy", Meredith Grey
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Mummies care much

2010-03-09T00:33:00.005+08:00

I was in a makeup room, there was a mummy next to me. She looked angry, stressed while she was making a phone call. She was making a phone call to her child. Maybe her daugther I assumed.

Mummy: Where have you been yesterday? I called u many times. U didnt answer your phone.

Daugther: (i didnt know what she replied)

Mummy: There must be a reason! I tried to call til 1 am! U must tell me the reason! When, I call u later, u better tell me! (her voice raised, face worried, mad)

Realizing that she was not alone in that room, she immediately hung up the phone. Looked away. Like nothing just happened.

I was pretty sure, she was dissappointed with her child. She looked down, and didnt even looked at me. Maybe she was ashamed. I pretended like I didnt hear anything, hence I applied my makeup and looked busy.

I will never let my mother to tears. I want her to be happy. InsyaAllah, if she is sick when she gets old, I want to take care of her. She always supports me. When I was about to do the surgery, she was beside me all the time. Never complained. Just ask anything, for sure, she will do it if she can.

Because .....

Because someday, I will be a mom too. Hopefully a good mom.

Haha

2010-03-08T20:28:00.003+08:00

white and gold makes u more elegant

white and silver makes u look soft, +include a great smile :)

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attending friend's weddings make me wanna look for my future wedding dress.. haha.. -_-" not that serious, but just browsing the website about 'baju pengantin'. to me, white and silver, white with gold are the best! i dont know about u, but i really like white!
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white makes u look so humble, down to earth, soft elegant, especially white and gold. but if u want to be glamoruos (diva, haha ;P) buy urself an overall gold dress. haha. im not a fashion designer or fashion lover, but from scale 1 to 10, maybe my fashion sense is 4. stil a number what! ;P
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p/s: i dont know, maybe ill change colours when the time comes ;)
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Tina's Big Day

2010-03-07T23:14:00.000+08:00

The husband sang a song for her wife "Kau tercipta untuk ku"

Everyone, i tell u, FELT LIKE CRYING!

Sangat sweet, touching gila~ ;')

It was Tina's Wedding 6.3.10. Me and Tina were in same school, in Sekolah Menengah Kebangssan Taman Melawati. These two are engineers at Petronas currently. Hope Tina and Husband last til the very end. Take care of each other ;) InsyaAllah.

Melawatians. We are happy for Tina ;)

The girls are crazy taking pictures.

Like, everyone brought DSLR, huu, sedih pulak takde DSLR

Kene beli satu before my wedding ;P

Maiza, Azyan, Me, Nadia, Jaja, Sara, Fiza (in front)

I was tired this time, it was 11.30pm already.. huu..

Nyways, I liked it, everyone was having super fun and being crazy, because most of us havent met for almost 7 years already. Gila lama~ ;P

p/s: Readers, get marry soon, jemput i ok ;) Nak datang ;)

Gone Prof Dr Wahyudi

2010-03-07T02:46:00.004+08:00

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We just lost an amiable and strong professor. Gone yet not forgotten, your memory lies within us, forever in everyone's heart. Al-Fatihah Professor Dr Wahyudi Martono, HOD Mecha Dept.

Di Tag oleh Sri Hana ;)

2010-03-06T12:39:00.004+08:00

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1. Adakah anda rasa anda HOT?
Mm, prinsip hidup saya satu je, jgn lebih diva dari pengantin ;P haha
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2. Upload wallpaper pc/laptop yang anda guna sekarang.
(tengok sendiri la ;P)
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3. Cerita pasal gambar
Family holiday

4. Kali terakhir anda makan pizza?
Lama sgt, last year October, time celebrate befday wit family ;')

5. Lagu terakhir anda dengar?
Diri sendiri nyanyi lagu "Bengang" akim af7

6. Apa yang anda buat selain menyelesaikan tag ini?
Baring

7. Selain nama sendiri, anda dipanggil dengan nama apa?
Pink Diva! haha.. tak la.. si comal pon boleh (lagi tak la kan) ;P

8. Tag lagi 8 orang
(i dont think people read my blog, banyak hanya go thru saja.. ;P down to earth la u ni *blushing*)

10. Katakan sesuatu kepada orang No.5
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11. No.3 ada hubungan dengan siapa?
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12. Bagaimana pula dengan No.4?
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13. Pesanan kepada orang No. 6
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14. Kata-kata cinta untuk orang No. 2
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15. Adakah No.7 dan No.8 ada persamaan?
- sri hana, she is my roomie
- selalu tengok ugly betty, nak jadi ugly betty agaknya
- banyak cite

16. Berikan 5 yang anda tau tentang orang yang mengetag anda
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17. Persamaan antara kambing dan lembu
ada 4 kaki

18. Perasaan anda buat Tag ini?
-Hu, I tak tag orang la ;(

19. Gay or Les?
Saya perempuan normal ;P
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Alice in Wonderland with Idayu :)

2010-03-05T23:46:00.003+08:00

Alice in Wonderland sangat best! Takde la best macam 'The Prestige'. Tapi yang sedih nya cermin mata 3D yang tak berapa vogue tu dia (TGV) amik balik. Baru nak holiday dan bergaya pakai cermin mata 3D ;P

Sedih sangat bila basuh baju dengan penuh kasih sayang, sidai dengan senyuman, memuji2 haruman nya, tiba2 hujan dan tak sempat angkat sebab time tu dalam kelas... ;'( Rasa seperti tertipu dengan cahaya matahari yang terik.

Pelik tapi benar ;P

2010-03-03T23:24:00.004+08:00

Sangat pelik bila 'Flag Hits' yang baca blog saya dari US dah hit 100. Haha, 100 je pon, kecoh. I mean, like, who reads my blog? Macam, adakah mereka target saya sebagai pengganas dan stalking saya.. ;P

Fuh! Lega~

2010-03-02T19:03:00.011+08:00

L~E~G~A~ sebab da abis presentation research proposal. Lega rasa macam kau baru habis akad nikah. Lepas pastu pakcik kiri dan kanan kata sah ;') Semua ini disebabkan oleh kejadian bawah ini..... (tiba2 kat bawah bahasa inggeris)

My previous research proposal title was "Nonlinear Optics Metarial for Quantum Entanglement". However, I was asked to change last minute, 5pm yesterday to be exact, to "Phase Shift Compensation" because first title is too general. Hence, yesterday til today before the presentation, was CRAZY! I didnt sleep until it was 5am. Can u imagine doing reasearch proposal in one nite?!

Fuh! But, Alhamdullilah. I dont know, even thou I have to summaries everything yesterday, but I managed to stay calm. Siap bolah balas2 comment dalam Facebook, stalking orang dan update last post dalam blog ni okay ;P

Okay la. Take care everyone. Hugs!** oh yea, the presentation was OK, just need little adjustments ;)

Helo Dears ;)

2010-02-28T19:45:00.006+08:00

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Jiran sebelah jemput family untuk wedding anak lelaki dia di Restoran Chieng Mai, Sungai Buloh (jiran sebelah ialah owner restoran itu). FYI, she has MANY houses! Rumah sebelah saya ni, jarang dia singgah, maybe sebab ada banyak sangat rumah ;P
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The owner, is a S.H.E, is very workaholic! She started from the very bottom, now, she owns a big famous restaurant.
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Last time, when she still lived next to my house, mamy said, at 3am she was already up, drove 'lori pasar' went to pasar to buy groceries for her restaurant. Bayangkan, dia wanita, dan bawak lori pasar. Hebat! I really admire her. Very nice woman tau :)
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At the wedding, she invited the WHOLE village! Ramai sangat datang ;') Baik sangat aunty ni.
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Maybe because of her kindness, Allah blesses her.
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Abah, yang jakun. ;P

Adik beradik lain kat belakang tu jakun juga.

Saya tahu beg tangan tak matching. ;(

That is the owner (in the middle)

Ok, sapa yang gatal tinggalkan number matrik (G0922702) kat "buku wishes" for the married couple?

Ya, inilah dia 'dalam hati ada taman' saya

Its my dad! :)

Fine landscape.

Mamy tak sempat ambil gambar pula.. ;(

Adik yang baru habis spm, lama tak jumpa..

*tiba nak buka restoran juga* ;P

ok, bye, kena siap kan research proposal.

Awak stalking saya ke? ;)

2010-02-28T02:15:00.011+08:00

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Selama ni saya sangat2 tak suka Facebook, tapi sekarang, kalau boleh, setiap 5 minit stalking orang. Orang yang tunang diam2 pon saya tahu.. *gila stalking* ;P
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Haha. But 1 thing I learned for sure, jangan tulis merepek-repek kat status. Even, kalau kita rasa benda tu tak salah, tapi kalau benda tu mungkin menyakitkan hati pihak lain, baik jgn tulis. Kan..? :)
*angel, wink2*
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Banyak dah saya tengok, kadang2 kita tak maksudkan status apa yang kita tulis, tapi kadang2, orang yang baca tu salah interprete.
So... tu la.. kan.. susah je..... -_~
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Jd, jgn susah2.. Kita happykan diri dengan tulis status best2. :)
Dan letak gambar comel sebagai profile picture :)
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Seperti status best dan comel, bawah ni.... :)
"Give something today, right now, no matter how small it is, a smile, hug, respect, love, advice, gift, book, cloths, some food, help or comfort someone or just make someone feel good :) "
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Dan, gambar profile picture yang comel begini... :)

Comel kan? Ok, sedia kan beg plastik, saya tau awak nak muntah.
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(P.s: tepi tu bukan boifren, tapi classmate. ;P
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Bahaya ni..

2010-02-27T00:19:00.000+08:00

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Isk, bahaya ni, dalam hati ada taman... ;P
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Dalam Lab...

2010-02-25T21:20:00.007+08:00

kenape atas meja ada Happy Meal? ;P

Research proposal dalam Lab E5. Fuh! Fuh! ;P

I kena cari supervisor CIE (tapi I dulu student Mecha). What do you know? I dapat PROFESSOR KHALID!? Homaigod! Scary the biskut marry okay. Sampi Ekin and Anis kata, "horror weh dia tu".

Scary sampaikan..........

sampaikan, thumbrive saya pon bengkok akibat terlanggar T_T

Terlanggar secara tak sengaja .. Tapi pelik, still boleh pakai. Nice ;)

Petang-petang...

2010-02-24T22:31:00.003+08:00

Hari ni, teman mamy jalan2. Saya kena duduk diam2 kat tepi sebab kena buat research proposal. Kawan2 sangat jeles kate, "best nye xaty, kalau kau kerja tak dapat nak rehat2"

Rehat? cuba tengok, saya kene study juga la ;P

Jgn lebih....

2010-02-24T21:29:00.002+08:00

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"Jangan lebih diva dari pengantin" :P
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What do you know!?

2010-02-23T23:15:00.005+08:00

Oh, my, GOD!

I wrote on my friend's wall at FB, before that, I'll explain this:

I met L at The Mines last two months I think. She was with her boifriend. Turns out, that her boifriend is someone's husband! (she is CRAZY!)

So, I wrote to her wall, "Eh, U dengan lelaki yang hari tu ke? still dengan dia?" I was hoping she'd broke up with that loser already. To my suprise, she did not reply, instead, it is that LOSER (married man/her bf) replied.

"Yeah, she is still with me! kan sayang"

Can u imagine? That man has 2 kids, married 2 years to a woman, but he is having an affair behind her wife. Adding to that, for God sake, I met HIM and L twice at different shopping mall in the same month wandering around in KL. And his wife didnt even know.

L said they have been together for 1 year or so. But can u imagine? He has a facebook, and probbaly changed his name so that his wife couldnt find him.

I just want L not to be with that man. L too is s***** to be with him. This is so wrong. Wrong and wrong.

I need...

2010-02-23T00:08:00.001+08:00

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I need more time, to do the research proposal, help! ;P
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