tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6330207378622435784.post-60208712881443289612007-10-22T15:07:00.000-07:002007-10-22T15:08:36.851-07:00There is a strange phenomena called “ Anticipatory Grief” that I have been wrestling with for two years now. It is grief ones experiences for a person who has not died yet, but is dying. Both my parents have suffered with Cancer of kidney, and breast. I thought I would lose my father, but prayer pulled him through, and every holiday, I wonder if this is my mom’s last. So Kiantha’s sermon and personal testimony really brought me to my knees and turned me inside out. I have never met anyone so young who has been through what she has gone through and have such faith! <br /><br />For someone who has never stepped foot in Seminary, her understanding of the word of God, and the will of God is crystal clear. Sis. Duncan Woods spoke about how we need, and demand a Miracle! “Did you understand me?” She would say, “ I said demand, not request a miracle!” That’s me to the core…demanding a miracle, begging God to ‘Make this happen!” or “ please God, make her love me!” or, “ Please God, Bless my Finances!, pay these bills!” I am guilty, as we all are of demanding a miracles, and not paying attention to ‘all the miracles He provides each and every day!”<br /><br /> Sister Kiantha defined a miracle as being “When your need is GREATER …than your seed!” When it is totally outside your power to make this come to pass. It was the Lord speaking directly to me about how his has been with me and still is no matter how difficult life is. If my parents die, God is still with me. I can stop all my ‘anticipatory grieving’ and focus on living. What I love about both our Pastors is that they speak in a language that I can understand, that I can relate to, that I speak myself when I’m home behind closed doors. This Sunday was no exception. Alter call was made and we in need of special prayer came quietly and discreetly forward while the Choir sang softly in the back ground the song “Anointing, fall on me.” <br /><br />If you haven’t come to worship with Liberation Ministries, consider coming. You can be as private as you need to be. You can dress the way you want to dress, and you can praise God in silent humbleness or out loud with voice, or you can sit quietly and cry like T and I do, out of gratefulness of his love and his goodness. Do what you do, and don’t worry about being caught up in things that make you uncomfortable. It’s not a game or a show, it’s a place you will be welcome, accepted and loved, by your just doing you.<br /><br />Mercedes NicoleLiberation Ministrieshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16297072265156173390noreply@blogger.com