tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6141043369640894544.post-35964150548154528922008-02-03T19:49:00.000-05:002008-02-04T01:17:34.403-05:00I'm not going to lie - I have no plans on watching the Super Bowl tonight (they actually have a show called "<a href="http://animal.discovery.com/tv/puppy-bowl/puppy-bowl.html">Puppy Bowl</a>" where you just watch puppies, on a mini astro-turf field, rolling and playing with each other cutely. As a football-dunce, that's just about my speed for a "sports" channel).<br /><br />Instead, I'm just doing some homework and going to watch a movie. In my post earlier today, I mentioned finding a "front" photo...and in my computer digging tonight, I found a great picture for the blog. The perfect photo. I had been on vacation with a few friends, and there was a giant wooden frying pan attached to the side of a diner (we were in the middle of nowhere, it was understandable to signal "FOOD!" to travelers). As a joke, I was goaded to stand in front of this sign and pose for a picture, which I did comically.<br /><br />I totally forgot this picture even existed. I'm pretty sure we didn't even eat there. But this picture perfectly captures:<br /><br />1) My real size at the time, because VERY few "body shots" exist of me at my highest weight, because I would insist on only shoulders-and-up photos being taken of me.<br /><br />2) Unhealthy people-pleasing. I didn't want to take the darn picture. But I did to please my friends. It's a characteristic I'm trying to lose along with my weight...because I'm learning to value my own feelings in situations and listen to how I feel.<br /><br />3) What I thought I looked like in my head was NOT reality - I was bigger. "The camera just 'caught' me looking fat", I would reason, seeing a photo like this.<br /><br />I'm pairing the photo with a picture of my workout outfit for tomorrow - so I can counteract my past with my future.<br /><br /><a href="http://bp2.blogger.com/_wAvRe3cOmT4/R6ZhSpt0EzI/AAAAAAAAACE/9ACAs0PE2wQ/s1600-h/body+shotblog.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5162920995890402098" style="CURSOR: hand" alt="" src="http://bp2.blogger.com/_wAvRe3cOmT4/R6ZhSpt0EzI/AAAAAAAAACE/9ACAs0PE2wQ/s320/body+shotblog.jpg" border="0" /></a><a href="http://bp0.blogger.com/_wAvRe3cOmT4/R6Zh5Jt0E1I/AAAAAAAAACU/DJgt0D_vccw/s1600-h/bodyshot2blog.jpg"><img style="cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;" src="http://bp0.blogger.com/_wAvRe3cOmT4/R6Zh5Jt0E1I/AAAAAAAAACU/DJgt0D_vccw/s320/bodyshot2blog.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5162921657315365714" /></a>Christinenoreply@blogger.com