Comments on Irate Weirdos: Max: A Kvetching Observed

My life sucks, but that doesn't make me an optimis...

2008-06-03T23:05:00.000-07:00

My life sucks, but that doesn't make me an optimist!

I really hope you aren't looking to me for a glimm...

2008-06-03T20:33:00.000-07:00

I really hope you aren't looking to me for a glimmer of optimism.

We have never been able to help each other. We've ...

2008-06-03T18:44:00.000-07:00

We have never been able to help each other. We've been able to cheer-lead for each other, but that's usually where it ends. There are many instances, for instance, this, where cheer-leading will do no good.

So, yet again, I get to watch you suffer, not a damn thing I can do. Not the first time I've done it, you've done it for me plenty of times. This is one of the pillars of our relationship; the helpless, sinking feeling.

It never gets less frustrating, does it?

I know my kvetching is leaving you feeling frustra...

2008-06-03T17:27:00.000-07:00

I know my kvetching is leaving you feeling frustrated and powerless. It's best if you just accept that short of going to med school and becoming a shrink, or inventing the ultimate treatment for depression, you're just along for the rise.

I appreciate the thoughts, though.

I'll light a candle for you.

2008-06-03T16:46:00.000-07:00

I'll light a candle for you.

Tomorrow is my official semi-anniversary, the firs...

2008-06-03T12:53:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow is my official semi-anniversary, the first day my current employer would even consider cutting me loose to go perm here.

But my immediate bosses here who would like to hire me on have to wait for permission from above.

Yikes. How long before you get hired on perm?

2008-06-03T12:27:00.000-07:00

Yikes. How long before you get hired on perm?

I don't think I realized how bad I am until I spaz...

2008-06-03T10:32:00.000-07:00

I don't think I realized how bad I am until I spazzed when you dared question that video I posted. Almost as soon as I posted my first response I realized how irrational I have been getting when I let my guard down. I did not realize this as of my last appointment, two weeks ago.

My shrink is cool and is will to play with the meds as necessary. I just need to get back in to see her. However, she is not on my current insurance plan so I need to wait until I get hired on permanently and get better insurance, or until I have enough cash to cover the cost of an appointment.

I'm no doctor, just a curious observer. My observa...

2008-06-03T10:20:00.000-07:00

I'm no doctor, just a curious observer. My observations are worth no more than you paid to hear them.

However, a while back you went off your meds because you were broke. Since then, it seems like you have felt worse, or at least you have been more open about not feeling great.

I assume you have a care provider who is proscribing your meds. Have you talked to them? I wonder if interrupting your meds is causing your issue. I also wonder if maybe you need a different dose or maybe a different med. You know as well as I do that there are many different drugs on the market.

If your provider isn't willing to work with you, I'd look into finding a new provider.

Sounds to me that you are being diligent in dosing yourself, the least your provider can do is find a med and dosage that works for you.