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Turn Around and Walk Away

2009-11-20T12:44:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday!

2009-11-12T16:18:00.002+08:00

Now, I would like to wish happy birthday to my bro, Nicholas Lee which turning 22 today! Well, sorry that I didn't prepare any presents for you but I promise I'd make up for it and I really hope that I can see you someday soon, cause I didn't seek you when I back to Malaysia.

Kent

Muahaha...

2009-11-12T16:13:00.003+08:00

Well, today is an ordinary hikikomori day to me. I missed an exam paper viewing session without any reason. Hmm, I stayed in my own room for the whole day, and out of sudden, I just took out some book and do some reading. While I'm reading, something random came up to my mind, and made me think about what I did during my past, and I compared to my present and gave a thought about my future; if I stayed this way of life.
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha! Hate me, no one will give mercy, no one will pity, no one will sympathy this pathetic jackass in the universe.

I'm off,
Heading the cliff.

21st of September

2009-09-21T23:01:00.003+08:00

Why bothered to make maple night where you promised to talk to him? Go enjoy yourself and talk to him the whole night la. I don’t want to be in the situation where I have to keep quiet at the side, playing maple, whilst you are happily chatting right beside me. I don’t want to be in that awkward situation. I just want to be alone.

Leave me alone.

16th of September

2009-09-17T19:57:00.001+08:00

Sentences keep on popping up in my mind for the past few seconds. I had come to a point where I don’t feel my life plays a role anymore. An advice told by Mr. Eugene Quah, says that ‘as an adult, we will face limitless amount of people, whether its friends, subordinates or superior. The key thing to ensure your life is valuable and meaningful is to keep your level of confidence up while ensuring they trust whatever you are doing.’ I am different; I acted the other way round. I put myself at the lowest possible position among everything. Now I’m lost. My mind now starts thinking about conspiracies that despises people like me. I keep on feel that I am suiciding with a knife stabbed right to my heart. Days and night, the imagination is so rich where I even know how I’m going to react and feel. What happen if this imagination turns real? Seriously, I’m hoping that there is an ‘offline meeting’ like in the anime ‘NHK ni youkoso’. That would be the best resolution for me.
Bye.

2009-08-30T12:11:00.003+08:00

Post deleted due to usage of explicit words.

Tagged by David

2009-08-11T23:52:00.002+08:00

1.What kind of song you usually listen to?
Anything, basically anything.

2.Name 10 of your favourite singers(Solo/Band)
1.Linkin Park
2.Avenged Sevenfold
3.Taylor Swift
4.Secondhand Serenade
5.Katy Perry
6.Adam Lambert
7.Lily Allen
8.The Killers
9.The Script
10.Lady GaGa

3.What makes you like a song.
Lyrics

4.Most favourite clubbing songs
No idea what's playing in clubs.

5.Other than english songs, do you listen to song in other language
Japanese Anime Soundtracks, Chinese songs recommended by friends, Malay/Indon (last time)

6.Do you listen to chinese songs
Sometimes

7.Open your player and press next until it goes to a chinese song and write it down.
No chinese songs in my directory though

8.Do you know what is the meaning of the song
=|

9.Do you like the song
=|

10.Press next again , write down the song.
Lady GaGa - Summerboy

11.Do you buy original album or download songs illegally
Bought everything from iTunes

12.Based on question 2, according to the list name the your favourite song sang by the singer/band.
You should ask earlier you know!
1.Points of Authority
2.Unbound (The Wild Ride)
3.White House
4.Suppose
5.One of The Boys
6.No Boundaries
7.Not Fair
8.When You Were Young
9.Before The Worst
10.Brown Eyes

13.Now tag 10 friends of yours.

1.Lau Kong
2.Juanita
3.Ashvinii
4.Chia Ming
5.Suet Yeng
6.Lavinia
7.Zetty
8.Mun Yee
9.Ivana
10.David (Ran out of idea)

14.Hard Part, find a song for each ot them.

1.Maybe - Secondhand Serenade
2.La La Land - Demi Lovato
3.Perfect Love - Hillsong United Youth
4.Perfect Love - Hillsong United Youth
5.Lonely No More - Rob Thomas
6.Dare You to Move - Switchfoot
7.I Will Remember You - Ryan Cabrera
8.Love Today - MIKA
9.Love Today - MIKA
10.Helena - My Chemical Romance

15.Last Question.Dedicate a song to all.
Her Morning Elegance - Oren Lavie
Don't Trust Me -3OH!3

2009-08-05T18:30:00.003+08:00

Feeling so old, and far away from fantasies when looking at people experiencing things that I used to do, think, fantasize, dream.

Haha, what the hell, these words can come out from a person like me. Player sia!

2009-08-02T16:21:00.002+08:00

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Just took this test in curious.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Maybe

2009-07-18T11:34:00.000+08:00

Light

2009-07-06T20:01:00.003+08:00

Currently, Kent had seen the light, and walking towards it

Kent =)

There is a boy...

2009-07-05T18:24:00.002+08:00

There is a boy, who claims to be abused by his parents, every day and night. He swore to himself that he will fight for those who got abused in their home. But when he grew up, he turned into a successful adult and he has a family. He got charged for child abuse. No matter how much he hate child abuse, fought for child abuse, he, eventually turned up to another child abuser due to the revenge that he wants to pay to his parents.

This story originally told by Lau Kong, Chee but I just feel like telling this out.

Cause, I'm no difference....

Kent

Secondhand Serenade - Your Call

2009-07-02T21:53:00.002+08:00

Breathe - Taylor Swift (ft. Colbie Caillat)

2009-07-01T21:45:00.000+08:00

2009-06-30T08:42:00.001+08:00

'Kent, look at me... SMILE!! =)'

Wishes to everyone

2009-06-29T14:29:00.002+08:00

Right now, Kent is here to hope everyone will do these following things.

1)Enjoy life, and live your life
2)Ask yourself, things that you should do and just do it
3)Go out of where you are looking at this post, start talking to people you know and tell them how much you appreciate them
4)Balance life with some activities; not just being a couch potato and stay at home.

Kent, Ooi

Decisions....

2009-06-09T10:07:00.002+08:00

Everyone always face tough decisions to pick and might even regretting picking the wrong one. For me, yes I am, facing a big problem, choosing which path I should take. This blog is not meant for asking readers' opinions but just to express my feelings. Now I would like to say, I MIGHT choose to leave this place. To be honest, this place seriously is not meant for me. I'm just an outsider here, facing huge issues coping with things over here. Maybe I'm just can't be independent enough to face all these things yet but what I can say is, I'm proud of myself that I faced this before. Seriously, Australia had left me with tonnes of scars that I don't wish to have. I'm not that type of person that actually can stand up straight after I fell. Call me pussy or BFLV or primary school childish minded or whatever you want, this is Kent. This is just me, I can't move on. I want to leave Australia and return home to Malaysia, as soon as I have sufficient qualifications to enter a decent university in Malaysia. The best I can aimed for is getting into Monash, Malaysia campus which requires all my best shots that I can do now. Or I'll just slack and get into UTAR next year.

Screaming for once and for all, never again and never get involved again.
Kent, Reverting.

Tagged by Suet Yeng

2009-06-08T14:48:00.002+08:00

1. Besides your lips, where is the favorite spot to get kissed?
Neck

2.How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
Sighs

3.Who was the last person/people you took a photo with?
No idea already

4.Would you consider yourself spoiled?
Yes

5.Will you ever donate blood?
No, don't even know my blood group.

6.Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
Yes

7.Do you want someone to be dead?
No

8.What does your last text message say?
'Ok', from David

9.What are u thinking right now?
Empty

10. Do you want someone to be with you now?
Yes

11.What was the time you went to bed last night?
Slept without checking the time (2~3am I guess)

12.Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
Damn old tee, got no idea where I got this already

13.Is someone on your mind right now?
No, this is what I can answer.

14.Who was the last person who text you?
David

TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz.
1. David
2. Lau Kong
3. Ashvinii
4. Suet Yeng
5. Chia Ming
6. Jay Wyn
7. Weng Sum
8. Mun Yee
9. Ivana
10. Lavinia

15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with?
Not in relationship (as I know)

16. Is no. 3 a male or a female?
Female

17. If no.7 and no.1 get together, would it be a good?
They are good friends already

18. What is no.1 studying about?
Getting into university soon

19. when was the last time you chatted with them?
1. Yesterday night
2. Quite some time ago
3. Quite some time ago
4. Last week
5. Few days ago
6. Quite some time ago
7. Quite some time ago
8. Quite some time ago
9. Quite some time ago
10. Quite some time ago

20. Is no. 4 single?
No

21. Say something about no.2.
One of my supportive bro, studying in Nilai and getting a rig soon.

22.What do you think about no. 2 and no. 6 being together?
They are good friends already.

23. Describe no.9.
Hope the best on your 'change'

24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 fight?
Clash of two geniuses!

25. Do you like no.8?
Yes, maybe.. Just friends.

Past week

2009-06-07T23:08:00.002+08:00

Since last week, I've been doing a lot of things, as in.. a lot!

What I've done last week, (in order)
1)Found someone special that actually thinks that I'm weird
2)Done first trimester in Monash College
3)Joined friends to heaps of fun, right after exams
4)Felt care that I wished for
5)Met a family filled with warmth and laughter where I missed
6)Lost

What I'm gonna do this week, (random order)
1)Do some shopping
2)Go Tasmania to visit my friend and as a trip with friends
3)Think about something, decide if I have to
4)Stop sulking

Ps: I wrote this is not according to my feeling, but this is according to what I actually should do and face it. =)

You and I Both - Jason Mraz

2009-05-28T09:23:00.001+08:00

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
all things are gonna happen naturally
And taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in the lines

And the bright lights turn tonight
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just dreamed of
others only read of..
the love.. the love that i love

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages for words
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive

cause you and I both, loved
what you and I, spoke of.
and others just read of.
and if you could see me now.
oh love love.
you and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
more importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well than I'm almost finally out of
well I'm almost finally finally.
oh i am free

and it's okay if you had go away
oh just remember the telephones where they both work in m both ways
but if I never ever hear them ring
if nothing else I'll think the bells inside
have finally found you someone else and that's okay
cause I'll remember everything you were saying

you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see me now

28th May

2009-05-28T09:15:00.002+08:00

Hmm, this is muy first time that I actually blogged using another person's laptop. This laptop is quite cool and easier to type compared to mine =P

Nah, I just feel like telling out that my exams is in hours away (can't really tell the time, where the clock itself is blocked by a note written 'DON'T LOOK' lol) and I'm just not in the mood to study anymore =D

Just that, yesterday I really had my best chat in my life, where I can actually freely speak out anything I can think of and the only the funny thing is, I found that we do have something in similar (but dun think the other way round) Just felt that I'm actually so fortunate to have such friend that I met here.

Kent, Not touching this laptop anymore.

Wooohooooo

2009-05-23T19:48:00.000+08:00

Yes!! I just formatted my laptop(GREAT THANKS TO MOSES!!), backup media files in a new hard disk, registered iTunes (means that I'm not a pirate anymore!) and made some shopping!! Whew! This is fun but yet pain lol.. Anyway, I won't be enjoying anymore cause exams is coming!! I must start studying!! But now really feel like released everything away from my head already and its really give me a better condition for me to do things that I have to do.

Kent =)
p/s for those who got disappointed, please allow me to apologize for what I've done, and I promise that I will not touch it anymore.

Not in the mood

2009-05-21T10:29:00.002+08:00

Sighs, just as stated in the title. Just not in the mood to update, furthermore I don't really think anyone will read it anymore, due to my stupidity.

Kent

Kent vs Me

2009-05-18T11:53:00.002+08:00

I'm so sorry for those who read my previous blog and tell me not to smoke. Seriously thanks for all of your care and I wanna tell all of you, I'm not anymore! Its just trying out and believe it or not, I wanna blame it on depression from everything around me here. Sometimes, I do really wish that I could fly back to my very home stay in my very home and being lazy as usual. But come to think over it, I CAN'T JUST WASTE MY LIFE LIKE THIS?! So, I'll stand up now, looking ahead and do the things that I am responsible for. I was shocked about the chat last night, and I'm filled with guilt on my both ex girlfriend's for what I've done to them. I've changed them, as I initially thought to. But I just end up dumping them letting them alone, covered in misery and tears. I'm just another jerk anyway, so now, I will tell myself and I will hold to this, I won't get into another relationship anymore, cause I found it I'm just selfish for people's care but I'll end up doing nothing for them. Kent don't deserve this care, so I'll stop myself from hurting anyone, anymore. I can't move on from my past relationships?? Yes and No, because I'm in a so confused state now where I can't tell the answer. What I know is, I can confirm! That the very angel that gonna care me will eventually fall and become another victim of Kent. So I'm gonna stop this, stop luring them to the trap.

Lost because trying to avoid

2009-05-11T15:03:00.003+08:00

Hmm, these few days is already been real though to me. I just can't stop it. Is there anyone willingly tell me anyway, not just to make me smile, but makes me feel better. I can't stop dreaming, and hoping for things. I'm feeling empty. Don't compare to most of you, but I just feel this. Listening to loud songs, looking sad all the time, smoking and eating tonnes of strepsils. This is what I'm doing all the time. Moses, just tell me that this is the most emo phrase that he ever heard, but what can I do?? I need to stand up!! I need to wake up!! I need to forget!! I need a new life!!
Face reality and look ahead. Stop destroying myself and get myself clear, all the time!

Kent, looking towards reality.