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Soulstudio is Moving To A New Website

2008-08-18T20:56:00.001+08:00

The articles on this site would be moved to Soulstudio's new website: soulstudioonline.com. So update your bookmarks! :)

Soulstudio is Evolving

2008-06-09T23:41:00.005+08:00

Dear All,

A short message here. Sorry that there hasn't been any new posts or updates. Truth is, I have been busy setting up a "real-time" Soulstudio. Yes, real-time as in a solid 3D physical space where there would be a series of workshops, group work and classes available. It's amazing how things just happen so rapidly; and before I know it, Soulstudio is evolving from a mere website to a full-fledged studio at Lily Cenario cafe.

More on the details of this studio later as soon as the new website is up. But in the meantime, for those of you who's interested in joining the Soulstudio team, do email me. I am looking for mind-body-spirit teachers, healers, energy workers, and any like-minded lightworkers who would like to volunteer their time and talents for both the studio at Lily Cenario and for the new website.

However, rest assured, once my team and I get everything up and running, I will continue publishing more articles online.

Thank you to all of you for your support and patience.

Love,
Lily

A Very Short Intro to EFT: Master Sehkar Taps It Right

2008-05-02T13:47:00.005+08:00

An article by Andrew Khor of Khoracles

For all of you young people out there who are completely ignorant of Tamil Indian movies, MGR was a famous Indian actor who used to make grown Indian women swoon. With a handle bar moustache his highly visible trademark, MGR romanced the leading actresses of his day.

Master Sehkar, minus the handlebar moustache facilitated an EFT class two Saturdays ago. If you take a close look and visualize a handle bar moustache, he looks amazingly like MGR. Whether he has the same hypnotic effect on women is I suppose open to debate. Over a jug of beer though, the truth may be dislodged more willingly.

On that Saturday though, Master Sehkar, a very close friend and healing companion, used his eloquent skills to conduct a class on EFT – Emotional Freedom Technique for a small group of students at Khoracle.

EFT is like acupuncture, only this time, instead of using needles, you use your fingers on the important meridian points. I too attended since I had heard so much about it but had never learned the skill.

And it was a very interesting session. I had no idea it was so simple to learn and apply. The morning breezed rather quickly for the group as the demonstrations were so simple even a six year-old could do it.

In the group, we had eleven year-old Natasha. And she was annoyed with Dad for not buying her ice cream one day. So the group worked on Natasha’s annoyance at her Dad for not buying ice cream.

Sehkar shared an interesting observation. Natasha’s annoyance with her Dad for not buying her ice cream may just be the tip of the emotional iceberg.

There may be more anger brewing beneath the surface based on previous confrontations hidden away in the subconscious.

But, by applying the EFT technique, Sehkar said, we were not just clearing the tree but also the forest. That was important to know as the subconscious retained a lot of suppressed anger. And as we all know suppressed anger eventually leads to emotional dysfunction and illnesses.

As we moved on, I volunteered a healing problem for the entire group. I had received a request from some friends in the Philippines to help a colleague called Joyce who had been hospitalised for a week due to an airborne virus.

The group most graciously agreed to work together on Joyce and Sehkar taught us the method to heal Joyce from a distance. Joey from the Philippines text’d us the next day to thank all of us for the distance healing and said that Joyce was improving.

I went to the website of Gary Craig, the modern day founder of Emotional Freedom Technique and I was amazed at the healing possibilities. With EFT, you can stop addictions like smoking and anorexia. You can help to manage serious illnesses. You can treat uncontrollable fears, depressions, traumas as well as sexual issues. You can improve your mental and physical performance in learning and physical education. Just type Gary Craig EFT and you will get to his website immediately.

Sehkar will be conducting a hands-on EFT workshops once every two months at Khoracle and if anyone is interested, please call Letchumi at 603-80606970 or email us at khoracle@gmail to register for the next workshop. I will try and persuade Sehkar to grow a handlebar moustache. That might make the older ladies in our workshops pay more attention. Hmmm, then again, they might not.

Andrew is the founder of Khoracle, a holistic center in Puchong Malaysia. To know more log on to www.khoracle.com.

More Articles by Andrew Khor:
Reiki-ing Your Pet: Here's How Padma Healed Snoopy
Clairsentience: Feeling Each Other’s Emotions

Creating Soulful Relationships

2008-05-01T19:21:00.001+08:00

Soul relationships are beautiful, I can say this with full gusto. But like art, they can be subjective; at least to the eyes of the beholder; that is are you going to experience them through the eyes of love or through the eyes of fear?

But first, what exactly is a soul relationship?

Here's how I see it - purely my definition, based on my personal experience.

Of course everyone we have a relationship with is a soulful one – for we are all souls. But the term that I am using here is referred to those people who touch your life in significant ways. Meeting them is sometimes pure sychronicity. And interaction with them often brings about a new creation, growth or a lesson. They can be of romantic nature, but not necessarily so. But, yes they are considered soulmates anyway.

Soul relationships defy time and space. Meaning, the connection you have with another does not take time into consideration. Sure, you have just met her and know nothing about her. But why do you feel you are reunited with a long lost sister? Also, space is irrelevant here. With a soulmate, physical distance does not seem to apply because for some reason you feel they are always with you even though you are miles apart. Soul relationships live in your heart, and has nothing to do with geographical locations or time differences.

I would say that above all, the most beautiful thing about soul relationships is the connection with them is intimate on an energetic level. Simply put, you always feel as if you have known them for a long, long time eventhough you have just met that person. In actual fact, you have; if you take past lives into consideration.

And this is where it gets complicated.

Past Life Connections

You see, I had been enjoying the simplicity of close connection with many people in my life - they are free-flowing, they are warm and comfortable and just, well, simple. That is, until lately that I began to get recollection of some things that had nothing to do with our current relationships. They are not full-blown regressions for me, rather, they are what I call, spontaneous emotional memories. It's akin to when I wake up from a dream that I can't remember. But even though I have no visual memory, the emotional content of that dream is so vivid that it lingers throughout the day. It is confusing because I have no 'solid reasons' to support what I feel, yet it is there. My past life memories are like that. Even when I do regressions, it's like walking blindfolded with earmuffs in my ears - can't hear, can't see. Yet huge emotions overtake me. I'd cry, shiver and panic; or sometimes be flooded with warm fuzzy emotions. What I do these days is to use my mind to create a story inside my head as symbols to support those emotions so I could relate to them in someways.

It's really like dreaming. For instance, when dream that you fall off a roof, it doesn't mean you fall off the roof. How did you feel then? Was it courage to jump? Then that's the cue of what your subconscious is telling you. My past life regressions are the other way round though. First, I'd get the emotional impression, and then I create a symbolic story to make sense of it.

Coming back to soul relationships, sometimes I think perhaps, this the ONLY time the Veil is useful. Because we get to clean the slate and start all over with someone, without all the dramas. But then again, could we really? Especially when that first handshake or hello already got you back into the old loop of love, hate and everything in between, regardless whether your third eye is responsive to past life memories. And when you are sensitive to all this, and those memories surface, it would make things a little (or maybe a lot) complicated in the relationship arena. For me, it is actually both perplexing and amusing when I start getting random emotional memories of some people with whom I could have had shared thousands of lifetimes, where we had played many different roles with each other.

So what happens when you start remembering all those different forms of relationships?

What if your father feels like he is a son and your mother, your sister? Or a woman you have just met feels like your mother?

Or what if with that one person you have just met, he feels like a father, brother, son, lover, enemy, husband and best friend all rolled into one? How do you relate?

And, what if you meet all of your lovers in this one lifetime? Ooh..messy, messy. Because each time you meet, you recall some of the emotional memories of sexual attraction, undying affection, intimacy, jealousies and betrayals? AND, this happens with a few different people AT THE SAME TIME, men and women alike? Do we hide/shut these emotions up because they are so off the grid? Are we going to be judgmental and let others label us as having serious issues with women/men and our sexuality?

Relating Energetically

Daunting as all of this sounds, they don't come up all at once, of course. Like dreams it's a piece here and there, and doesn't make much sense. And with time, I'd forget about it. And because most memories are just small emotional clues, they don't really bother me at all. It does become amusing, though.

But there are some people who bring up such strong currents of emotions that you cannot ignore, and that even if you tried, it would be a form of repression. And they are not 'bad' ones, of course. They can range from comforting warmth and excitement to resentment or plain indifference. Sometimes all in one person, for no reason at all.

And interestingly, some friendships cycle through a full range of emotions ON ITS OWN without either of us doing anything out of ordinary at all. It would be all friendly, jovial and humorous at one time, and then suddenly there's tension and static for no reason. Understand when all this happens, it's all in an energetic context - meaning there's no word exchange or action taken - yet something has changed. On the surface, my friend and I are still talking normally as if nothing is going on, but the 'air' between us is charged differently.

As I began to understand my sensitivity to emotional energy, it made more sense. I was merely picking up the energetic ambience between us that had already been charged with past emotions in the first place. That's how 'triggers' with someone work. You so much as sneeze and the other person suddenly dislike you, not knowing why. Perhaps that was the same way you sneezed when you stole something from that person in another lifetime.

All this makes things complicated with people. You can say I am making it complicated, and you are right. Yet, those emotions must be allowed as well. Just that this time, I am not letting it make my life complicated anymore. India Arie has once sung that "Simplicity is making peace with your complexity". That's how it is going to be.

Gift of Space

"All you need to do is just step back." my Guide advised. "Give others the gift of loving space."

That means letting others be who they are without changing them. Because when we try to change another, we try to control, and that sucks us back into the circle of unnecessary dramas. When we are in a drama, life becomes complicated because we are trying to meddle with everything to get it to work our way.

"Just stand still and watch what happens for once," Guide added.

So I did. And that gave me the opportunity to observe the changes in some of my relationships. It was very uncomfortable of course, especially when I was feeling each and every of the emotional energy of that relationship. At times it would get unbearable because I feel such hostility in the whole situation. I'd feel compelled to write an email or call up the other person to ask what's wrong. Guide would then hold me back and remind me to just stay still and do releasing exercises for those emotions.

So I stayed with it and breathed through it. This became somewhat like a meditation in itself.

What happened was I actually witnessed the hostile emotional ambience cleared up on its own after a few weeks with that person. Was I imagining things again? I mean all this was happening without any physical contact with the other person. This was confirmed when the other person contacted me and it was all good again.

I have had one friendship that cycled through this many times. The first time I met my friend, I was completely attached to him. I mistaken it as romantic interest at that time, but it really wasn't that. It was just the feeling that I had lost him before, and now that I have 'found' him, I must hold on tight to him. I didn't do anything at all actually. But that friendship became so awkward at one time that he completely avoided me. I was confused, of course. Was it some crazy vibes of mine that sent him away? So I did a lot of forgiving exercises, cords cutting and such. And that was all, I didn't do anything 'solid' at all because there is nothing to do. Trying to win back his affection is in vain because it would drive him away. Besides, why do I need to win his affection at all? Why did I need his acceptance? I began to really see where I was emotionally dependent.

The distancing hurt a lot but it helped me to practice detachment. About half a year later, when I have almost forgotten about him already, he popped up again into my life. And it was surprising because there was a complete turnaround. This may seem really out of it, but the friendship evolved into one that is more light-hearted, supportive and fun than before. It is very enjoyable now because whether he's here or not here, it doesn't matter. It's a present moment kind of friendship.

Divine Love

So yes, all of it can get complicated, if we are not conscious. My Guide says that to remain conscious, we can choose to take up this 'stance': “Stay centered in Divine Love – loving with freedom, wisdom and peace.”

Love with freedom: Give everyone you meet the gift of freedom and loving space. This means allowing the other person to be who they are and releasing the need to control how the relationship should be. Freedom also means choosing to love the other person as they are NOW, on a clean slate basis. It's forgiving and forgoing the past, releasing the need to repeat history even if you remember them. This is about appreciating that you are having an excellent opportunity to love them in divine ways now. So give them the freedom to be a new person now, and not hold them hostage in your old visions of them as your lover or your enemy.
Love with wisdom: Use your heart to see the truth. It maybe passionate, exciting and completely getting you all topsy turvy. But is this coming from lower desires or of higher states of love? Often in the midst of it, we cannot tell. But what we can do is keep checking: Who are we when we are with them in this state? Can we remember ourselves? Is this attraction happening because of what's now? Or what's before? What is this passion based on? Make strong and loving boundaries. What you would want to risk. If being with another means subjecting yourself to a more complicated life, would you want to? Be loving and loved with your heart open, but also love with your eyes open.
Love with peace: Maintain peace inside you at all times. No matter how torrent-like emotions are with another, go back to the peaceful center. It is always there no matter what sweeps you over. And only from that state, can you see all of it for what it really is.

All in all, it's about allowing the emotions to be there, and make peace with it. If you feel depressed and rejected, you feel depressed and rejected. It's not something that can be avoided, rejected or denied. That said, you cannot NOT love the other person that passionately, because it is already there - you really had indeed loved him/her before you met - Darren Hayes got that right. But you can choose to propel that love into a Divine state.

The key here is that we have a choice. Ultimately, when all relationships are nurtured with Divine Love, it would evolve into soulful ones. And then you can love freely and infinitely, because this Love is just Love, no identity attached to it. And when it evolves, and you know that you and the other person are in divine love, then you can choose what forms of relationship to build together. Best friends? Business partner? Life partner? You can then play a role with him/her, but not attached to it. For the foundation of that love is a Universal, spiritual one.

But how would we know? The saying "if you love them, you set them free." Yes, when you can at any time let the other person leave your life and bless him/her, albeit your sadness and remorse and there is no grudge, then you are stepping into Divine Love. It's a lifelong process as all relationships change all the time. I am still learning to let go emotionally and say goodbye to old forms that do not serve me. And it does take constant conscious effort to do so, everyday.

Beautiful Souls

Of course not all soul relationships with past life connections are so emotionally uncomfortable. As I said soul relationships are beautiful:

The qualities that you like in your new friend, are the qualities that are blossoming within you. I found that when I connect with some people, they help to draw out a long forgotten quality that has been lying dormant within me. Eg. you like someone because he is sincere and compassionate. The same qualities are also in you. When you choose Divine Love, you can appreciate that quality in him at the same time see it within you. Or someone annoys you to death. Being grounded in Divine Love, instead of allowing that annoyance to eat you up, you challenge yourself to develop patience.
Past life memories of your relationship with another would also awaken the talents and gifts that you had during that lifetime. Eg. if you met a musician this lifetime, and you connect with her, chances are you both could have been in the same work before, and your talents in that area are about to emerge. That is, if you can tame the jealous streak in you through Divine Love and appreciate HER talents. Appreciating another is appreciating yourself, eventually.
Having open up to Soul Relationships means you are on reuniting with your Soul Family in a conscious manner. This could mean getting together for a mutual mission. When we choose Divine Love, this allows us to step out of any past life dramas that we automatically play with one another and move our focus into a higher purpose.

Being aware of my past life connections, while it can get a tad confusing, actually helped me to feel oneness, and that makes forgiveness easier.

Men/women/adult/kid/bad guy/good girl - it makes no difference anymore. They are just identities that these soul friends wear like a coat to define who they are on the Earth Plane. This leads me to see each and everyone the Divine beings of light and love that they originally are.

This is an important lesson in love and relating to people, because all this allows me to make more conscious choices in my life regarding relationships and not just drifting on the sea of emotions, helpless, entangling myself into more dramas. That said, it gives me more power to form the kind of relationships I want. And this means Divine relationships can be consciously created, not something that happened to happen to you.

The key to that is Divine Love. Because once we can experience each and everyone in our lives through the heart and eyes of love, they all become the beautiful soul relationships that we thought only live in love songs and love stories; but now is ours.

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Embracing Creative Expression

2008-04-30T12:24:00.006+08:00

It's a peaceful morning so far. I am at the office waiting for a CD so I can wrap up my last issue for this magazine once and for all, and consider it done. Yes, the ending for this part of life is near because a new beginning is already waiting. Still...there's this bittersweet melancholia that has been lingering and I can't make sense of it. Well, after all, I had created the mags from scratch. We all love our creations somehow eventhough we don't acknowledge it enough.

But that's done. It was good practice in creating, and Soul is itching to go create something else. What? I don't really know yet. That's the mystery of it.

I was just pondering out loud to my sis, Audrey, while listening to Donna De Lory's beautiful track 'Glow'. "Do you think she's already heard the entire piece of the song before she produced it?"

"I don't think so. She might have had a melody first and then begin to build up from there," Audrey replied.

"Yes, I think so too. Much like artists. Just a concept and then start drawing/painting. They won't know how it is until they finish painting. Isn't it amazing, how no one would ever know how their creation would turn out?"

Sis nodded.

Much like with the mag, before we produce a feature story, we don't really know the end result of it until we had finished doing it. All we have is an angle and random resources at hand. Then at the end, we are sometimes surprised (or disappointed) with what comes out. Nevertheless, deep down, eventhough we might judge it harshly, we still love it because we had brought it forth from 'somewhere'.

Can we not apply this to life itself? Whatever becomes, becomes. It is. We had created it. Can we just love life for how it is because of the very fact we had created it? It's only when we have acknowledged that and taken responsibility for our life creations that we can finally reclaim the creative power within us and create more consciously.

At that point, life becomes a blank canvas, where we are bestowed with the ultimate brush of life to paint on it.

Through us, the All That Is inspires us to make that first stroke, that first shape, etc. But the Source doesn't stop there, because as long as we are willing to listen and to follow, It will continue to guide our hand to complete the creation. God, then, is certainly in the details.

So whether it's a song, a painting, a poem; love, love, love them. Even things that no-one label as creative like washing the dishes or punching on the calculator are still creative because they are still your co-creations with all of life. I mean how beautiful is it that you can end up at that perfect moment at that sink which was created by someone, holding those white plates produced by someone, soaking them in water from the tap that someone installed, etc... all at the same time to make washing dishes possible? Ponder that.

Creativity can only happen in the now. When you go back to much to the past (how your other creative products were devastatingly disappointing) or too much into the future (overplanning what would be the end result), you would come face to face with the nemesis of Creativity: Resistance.

Resistance comes in many forms, and the most famous of all is Procrastination.

We know the Big P well, don't we? I sure do because there are traces of it everywhere in my house. Ie. my moldy watercolour set, half-baked art projects, unfinished manuscripts, books I read halfway, etc. Don't even get me started on my many many online blogs that I have started and then forgotten.

That said, I don't think Procrastination would go away, ever. Not even after numerous Time Management study courses, doing 101 different GTD (Getting Things Done) techniques or Just Do It mental bootcamps. What we can do when Procrastination gets in the way of Creativity is to work with it. Here are some tips and tricks that I have used over the years to actually JUST DO IT.

First, make friends with Procrastination. Yes, Mr.P isn't all that bad. In fact, sometimes it's sending us a message from out intuition to step back from 'doing' and look at our concepts and ideals again. Of course, here you must exercise discernment. Is it really my intuition telling to me take a break or is it my fear of failure that's holding me back?
Don't let Procrastination hang out too much with the Perfectionist personality. Put them together and they would party till dawn trying to get everything perfect that nothing gets done at all. Remember: No Creations are Perfect. Creativity is Divine because it evolves infinitely, and when there's evolution, there's no such thing as perfection because in this case perfection signifies the finale, the end. Paradoxically, because there is no final perfection, all is perfect however it is. (yes, please ponder this)
Do a Turtle - take it slow and easy. Don't overwhelm yourself. There's nothing new with the tip to break projects into manageable parts - but it's really effective. Combine that with single-tasking (NOT multi-tasking) and do your tasks steadily with focus and concentration. Let the creative process unfold itself to you. Meaning, when it's time for Action A, do A well, then let B emerge when A is done, and then do B with the same steady focus. Repeat for C to Z.
Understand that Authentic Creativity is IN the process, not the result - because as explained above, we won't see/know the masterpiece until it is actually done. So appreciate the moment-to-moment activities instead of rushing yourself to the finish line.
Finally, don't overcommit or say yes to too many things/projects. I have that tendency to bite more than I chew because I am fascinated by many different things at the same time. But it doesn't do me good (or my throat chakra!) when I feel overwhelmed and get nothing started at all. Choose one (or at most three) channel of creative expression at one time. So you can really put your heart and soul into it.

Heart and soul. In all simplicity, that's really the only thing you need for Creativity.

Clairsentience: Feeling Each Other’s Emotions

2008-04-26T09:41:00.001+08:00

An article by Andrew Khor of Khoracles

Someone called me a few days ago. She had come to see Selvi the clairvoyant and I for a reading and so she knows what energy work is all about. Lately she said that when she goes to crowded places she feels very ill or very tired. Or sometimes suffer from headaches. And she doesn't know why.

After asking a few questions about her health and she's normal, I told her that she was becoming clairsentient.

Being clairsentient means that you can feel the vibrations or emotions of another person or place.

Let's say you are walking around a shopping complex. Depending on your level of clairsentience you will feel the group emotional energy of the place.

Most people have very scattered thoughts and emotions all at the same time. We call this the monkey mind. Put a thousand such people in the same location and if you are sensitive enough, you will be able to pick up the tangled cluster of emotions.

Since most of us are walking around emotionally hurt one way of another, a sensitive person will pick up on these disturbing emotions. And it will affect the sensitive person. She may feel sick or depressed but she doesn't know why.

Here is another example which we are all familiar with. You enter a room full of strangers and gradually you feel attracted to certain people but repulsed by some. Or you’re standing next to someone and suddenly you feel some pain or discomfort in your heart or your head. Well, you are picking up on that person’s pain.

We once had a young girl referred to us. From the age of 14 she used to suffer pain and discomfort whenever she was in crowded places. The parents quickly sent her to a doctor. But the doctor could not find anything wrong with her. Prescribed some Panadol and sent her home. For the next 5 years this girl would have these painful experiences but no doctors could find anything wrong with her. Fed-up the parents took her to see faith healers. None of them could find a permanent solution for her - till she met us.

We took one look at her and told her that her kundalini had spontaneously awakened. So that was the problem.

In various cases of spontaneous kundalini awakening, the person becomes extra sensitive to people and places. If she stands next to someone with severe relationship problems or physical problems, her kundalini will make her chakras pick up on those emotions and she will then feel the discomfort on her body.

So we told her what was going on and taught her how to detach emotionally from people and places.

As we enter the spiritual age or Age of Aquarius, more and more people on the planet are going to experience spontaneous kundalini awakening, whether they are spiritually prepared or not. You can go to Spiritual Emergency Network on the Net to read about all the cases of spontaneous kundalini awakening.

Kundalini is Sanskrit for the divine feminine spiritual life force, or you could say the YIN aspect of your Godhood.

So if you are clairsentient or extremely sensitive to places what do you do?

At the location itself, you mentally say I detach, detach detach from all these emotions. Then say I forgive everyone, I forgive myself as often as you can until the feeling of depression, anger or headaches go away.
When you get home, take a salt bath. That is a very old remedy for getting rid of unwanted emotions that are attached to your body.

So what on earth is happening? Well, being sensitive or clairsentient is something that we are all born with. Some of us are more sensitive and some are less. An awakened kundalini makes you very sensitive to others.

The idea of clairsentience is not new. It is just that when we open our hearts through any spiritual practice we begin to feel MORE. We begin to feel other people's emotions. We begin to sense other people's feelings through the heart. If you turn to the chapter on Corinthian in the Bible, you will read about the gifts of the Holy Spirit. And in truth, clairsentience is one of those gifts.

When you can feel another person's emotions on your body, you are beginning to experience ONENESS. The concept of oneness is no longer just something that is talked about. It is something that you can now experience.

When that happens, you then begin to exercise compassion for another person. We may have our own unique personality and ego but beyond that the experience of clairsentience tells us that we are all God’s children.

The old saying then comes to mind. Treat others the way you want to be treated. And if everyone does that, well.....when someone is in joy that you too will feel that joy within yourself. If someone is in anger, you will feel that anger. What do you choose?

Me, I choose good old fashion UNCONDITIONAL LOVE everytime. That way if someone is feeling happy, and my being clairsentient and all that, I will also feel joy and happiness.

And make no mistake; more and more people are going to become spontaneously clairsentient on this planet.

Andrew is the founder of Khoracle, a holistic center in Puchong Malaysia. To know more log on to www.khoracle.com.

More Articles by Andrew Khor:
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Manifesting with Angels (Part 2) : Radiating Your Inner Flames

2008-04-24T21:33:00.001+08:00

Part 1 | Part 2

An article by Victor Lu

After putting effort into the exercise of co-creating with the Angels, they guided and showed me all the necessary and basic steps to really create change within myself. So much so that I realized the old stuff within us must be acknowledged consciously from our hearts. To be free from repetitive cycles, we must choose to let things that do not serve us go. This is utmost important, and it will continue to be so in supporting our journey - the journey of co-creation and integrity.

This is a time where we face challenges as way of improving ourselves. But most of all it is about taking responsibility for ourselves in exercising our will or conscious intention with integrity.

The Angels say that time and allowance for this process is important. More still is the flame of faith within us. Do not shut them down yourself but instead allow them to burn brighter when we come face to face with our challenges!

I recently came across an article from a channeler that I truly trust. Her article somehow confirmed the information that I have been getting from my Angels. She said that Angels help us to radiates our energies. So when you intend for something, say for protection, your intention to call for protection ignites the flame within you. Here, the Angels will help you to radiate this flame outward.

What I read from her article resonated with the knowledge in my heart. You see, when we intend and pray for something, we ignite a flame within us. With this, the Angels help us to radiate that out to the world while bringing in a change/shift within us.

I pondered upon that. Perhaps that's where the practice of burning candles in churches (in the West) and in other spiritual practices come from? Could it be that the candle flames remind people of their own inner flame?

Flame is an energy of passions, of movements. If directed towards positivity and the welfare of others, it will burn brightly and vibrantly. So, let's allow ourselves to reignite the flames within
us, let it burn brightly and allow the Angels to carry this inner flame and shine it out to the world!

Victor S.P.Lu serves as a Spiritual Healer, Counselor & Teacher. Having awakened to his gifts in 1996, he has since then studied various disciplines/modalities on energy healing and integrated ascension-spiritual practices that have allowed him to step forward in sharing his gift with others in year 2002 as a Crystal & Energy Healer.

Victor now specializes in Angelic Guidance, Crystal Healing & Flower Essences that facilitates conscious evaluations, refinement and integrations in ones life in a holistic way. End of 2005 Victor facilitates Angelic Courses – ALT levels 1- 4. These workshops are imbued with Victor’s personal experiences and wisdom from the angels to bring forth enriching and practical ways for one to experience and journey from.

Working closely with the Angelic Realm, Crystals & Plant vibrations, Victor is able to assist his client in forming a holistic and integrated perspective. He now shares this journey with his clients through one on one private consultation/energy healing, teaching weekly ascension class, monthly angelic courses and other self empowerment workshops to those that resonates with his work.

Victor holds certification of:

Angel Intuitive ™ Practitioner with Adv Training by Doreen Virtue Ph D
Crystal Healing from The Crystal Academy of Advanced Healing Art founded by Katrina Raphael
Intermediate Phytobiophysics ® The Mossop Philosophy, Podo-Rhacidian Mobilization Therapy, Jump Leading & Lymphatic Drainage
Traditional Usui Reiki Master-Teacher (western style), Pranic Healing and Energy Massage

For details, check out Victor's blog at soulfullawakening.blogspot.com

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Manifesting with Angels (Part 1) : An Insight on Intentions

2008-04-22T17:30:00.004+08:00

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An article by Victor Lu

I've been asked again and again by friends, students and meditation participants: "I have asked for help or protection from the Angels but how come they aren't responding to my request?"

The Angels say this: "We are glad to be of service especially when many people are acknowledging our presence and taking their first steps to call for our assistance.

However, many of you have not set forth a clear intention and totally surrender your fear to us. And as always, we can't work with you unless you give us full permission to do so. Many times, lessons
have to be learned from yourselves. You have to be clear in what you want and do not want - it's a choice for everyone to exercise their own will and their intention, to align with Divine Will in affecting a
physical change."

The Angels taught me that if you feel vulnerable, don't just call for protection, also ask for help in releasing the need to give away your power to your fears. Ask for their guidance in assisting you to remain vigilant, centered and harmonized within your higher frequencies.

Angels carry the energy from our intent. So the clearer you
are about your intentions, the easier it is for you to release the need to take the role of a victim in any situation you might be experiencing. If you not clear on that day, ask the angels to release the cloudiness you have in your mind or emotions.

Many have asked me: "When I meet someone or when I am at shopping malls, I feel myself attracting or being attached to unwanted energies. What should I do?"

It surprises me when people ask me this. I mean, when you are already conscious about it (the negative energies or whatever) why would you still allow them to stay in your field? Why couldn't you allow yourself to just immediately release the need to feel those unwanted energies? Have you asked the Angels for help in this? I don't suppose so, right?

Actually, it's the same thing with the the events that you are experiencing day in and out - that is, whether you are really co-creating with the Divine?

It's similar to cords cutting really. Most people just know the standard "recipe" to ask Archangel Michael to cut the cords, but deep inside they have not exactly allowed Archangel Michael to cut them! So, how is Archangel Michael going to help you with that?

The alternative is: ask Archangel Michael to release any
FEARS that you have attached to your cords or attachment. Ask him and your angels to assist you to feel safe to let go. I would say when you do this first, it would be easier to slice off your cords rather than just the typical cut! :P

So, once again, it's about allowing ourselves to be conscious of
our intention and what we do with our own energies.

Coming up >> Part 2...Victor talks about how our Inner Flames influence manifesting

Victor S.P.Lu serves as a Spiritual Healer, Counselor & Teacher. Having awakened to his gifts in 1996, he has since then studied various disciplines/modalities on energy healing and integrated ascension-spiritual practices that have allowed him to step forward in sharing his gift with others in year 2002 as a Crystal & Energy Healer.

Victor now specializes in Angelic Guidance, Crystal Healing & Flower Essences that facilitates conscious evaluations, refinement and integrations in ones life in a holistic way. End of 2005 Victor facilitates Angelic Courses – ALT levels 1- 4. These workshops are imbued with Victor’s personal experiences and wisdom from the angels to bring forth enriching and practical ways for one to experience and journey from.

Working closely with the Angelic Realm, Crystals & Plant vibrations, Victor is able to assist his client in forming a holistic and integrated perspective. He now shares this journey with his clients through one on one private consultation/energy healing, teaching weekly ascension class, monthly angelic courses and other self empowerment workshops to those that resonates with his work.

Victor holds certification of:

Angel Intuitive ™ Practitioner with Adv Training by Doreen Virtue Ph D
Crystal Healing from The Crystal Academy of Advanced Healing Art founded by Katrina Raphael
Intermediate Phytobiophysics ® The Mossop Philosophy, Podo-Rhacidian Mobilization Therapy, Jump Leading & Lymphatic Drainage
Traditional Usui Reiki Master-Teacher (western style), Pranic Healing and Energy Massage

For details, check out Victor's blog at soulfullawakening.blogspot.com

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Sending and Receiving Love (Part 4): Flow is the Key

2008-04-21T21:22:00.006+08:00

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Lately, my Bliss moments are becoming more frequent. Of course I welcome them, but as it was becoming more and more intense, it frightened me a bit.

You see, when it's intense, I weep out of joy – really sobbing it all out. Other times, despite the blissfulness, ironically it also becomes uncomfortable because it feels as if the chest area is too small for the heart.

It puzzled me. If it were Joy, Love and Bliss, why do I cry like this, or feel like I was about to burst like a bubble?

I got the answer while I was driving to work the other day. I took the long route to escape a traffic jam. It was a beautiful morning. The sun was shining, illuminating the green, green trees that flocked the sides of the highway. I had Pachelbel’s Canon in D playing. I felt connected, alive and happy. That Bliss moment came.

I was actually prepared to enjoy it, but I never expected to experience such intense energy. The last time this happened was while I was in Bali, near the ocean. But during that time, it was actually just energy of immense gratitude. This time, I really didn’t know what it was. It was a new one.

High energy just came in huge waves, one after another. I felt myself expand - up until a point, like I could no longer hold the energy anymore. My heart ballooned up. I felt tears coming. I choked back the energy, and got a little light-headed. I had to switch off Canon in D because I had become completely sensitive to the emotional content of the piece. Also, the sun was a little too bright and the greens all around me looked like they had halos around them.

Because I was driving, my mind kept telling me it was dangerous to be having such an experience. So I calmed myself down, and asked my Angels and Guide to help ground me. I contemplated whether to pull over.

At that moment I heard: "Flow it out. Transmit." I then received an image of a crystal.

Everything clicked then. Of course! This energy wasn't meant to be kept within. It was meant to be radiated and transmitted out. Then I remembered my other affirmation that I did everyday: "I am a perfect channel of love, light and abundance!" Now, the Universe is really bestowing me that job! This was Love energy that I was experiencing!

So I relaxed and sent all the Love I was receiving out to the trees, the flowers, to the birds and bees. I find it's easier sending love to plants and animals as they are always opened to it, unlike people with their complex minds that come with blocks and all. But the effect of transmitting Love to people is ten times more powerful. After the flow of that energy became steady, I began transmitting it to my friends, family and colleagues.

After a few minutes, the sense of energetic pressure within me lightened up. It began to feel so, so, so good. Warmth bubbled within me. My heart center was clear and joyous. My mind was clear and free. I felt strong and confident. There was also a huge sense of release. I finally and completely understood what it meant by giving and receiving.

As I discovered, when you can truly receive Love, I guarantee you cannot NOT give it out. It's just impossible, because you would literally implode! Similarly, you cannot receive without giving because you would already be holding this energy within you. Stagnant energy takes up space so there would be no vacuum to receive the new energy. Energy must always flow.

So, suffice to say: to truly experience Love, there's no other way but to be the Lover AND the Beloved. And truly, that is all there is.

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Sending and Receiving Love (Part 3): The Challenges of Receiving Love

2008-04-18T18:08:00.007+08:00

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Without the Beloved being willing to receive, the Lover cannot give his Love. There would be no Love Transmission.

As I write this, my Guide comes in with this message: “The Love that you are transmitting is from God/the Source/the Universe. When you intend to send Love, you are opening yourself up as the transmitter, the channel. That is why you cannot send love when you cannot receive love. Because both action is ONE process.”

Let me explain further with my experiences.

To Give and Receive

About a year ago when I started on LT, it was actually doing it for the sake of doing it. I didn’t know why I felt compelled to do metta, and at the same time kept on changing the original technique. It really didn’t do much for me actually, so after awhile I stopped the practice because I didn’t feel anything from it.

Love (in its higher forms) was and is always a prime question in my spiritual quest. As I explained in my post about the wisdom of love, even with all the spiritual knowledge raining on me, I realized it was Love that I needed to balance off my spiritual work. So I have been asking all this time: how do I love?

The answer didn't come immediately. I attracted a few experiences that gradually lead me to the answer. The missing key was "receiving". The powerful experience of my Love Transmission practice was only evident to me when I started to intentionally open to receive love.

I always thought I was a great receiver, but these few experiences made me see that I was always either busy giving or getting. For instance, when someone gives me a gift, I'd hold on to a sense of owing that person and hurried on to figure out ways to repay her. Then there were many times when I was obsessively doing this and that to gain approval and get attention (both are forms of love energy) from other people.

Mission “Receiving”

Receiving isn't 'getting'. Because getting constitutes chasing after, running after. Receiving is staying still, clear and open for heaven to shower you with her gifts. Simply put, at that time there was no space within me to just accept and receive. The feminine counterpart who was lovingly receptive was missing in the equation. So it was a great revelation when I saw what was going on.

With that I went onto Mission "Open to Receive". Everyday I would affirm "I Am Open to Highest Love". I started to cultivate the practice of staying still and just receiving the 'goods' of life like accepting nice compliments, accepting gifts from other people graciously and sometimes just open my arms wide to allow Love to come.

It took a few months of this practice before I had any feedbacks. And with that, came another revelation.

Love Is…

Formless as it is, Love energy isn't just an imaginary thing, mind you. While you can't touch and hold it, it’s as obvious as the sunrays at 12noon when you start feeling its rainbow of different qualities, its smorgasbord of flavours, its varying temperatures and intensity.

Sometimes it is balmy and cinnamon-like. Other times it can be comfortingly warm as if you are being embraced by a loved one. Or it would surprise you with a sweet and cotton-candy feeling.

Oh yes, this is the gift of spirituality. Soon I began experiencing Love energy waterfalling on me, at the oddest hours! I would be sitting quietly doing something, when suddenly an immense sense of gratitude would wash over me followed by those heart-felt tingly nice feelings.

I call this my Bliss moments and they are beautiful in many different ways. All this time, I enjoyed them because they really were all just pleasant experiences.

Until lately, that is.

Lately, the energies have been very intense. They are still pleasant, but at times it completely overwhelmed me, leaving me breathless. What happened? What is this?

I'll explain in the final part of this 4-part series >> Sending and Receiving Love (Part 4): Flow is the Key

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Reiki-ing Your Pet: Here's How Padma Healed Snoopy

2008-04-17T14:39:00.007+08:00

An article by Andrew Khor of Khoracles

61 year-old Padma Menon is a retired school teacher from Port Dickson, Malaysia. Instead of twiddling her thumbs after retirement, Padma decided to make herself useful. One fine day with a group of like-minded ladies participated in a course on hands healing known as Reiki.

Padma began to practice at first on friends and then on strangers who were recommended by friends who felt better after a Reiki session with Padma.

Unknown to her but known to most hands healers, her healing abilities began to blossom. Eventually she began to be guided to conduct angel card readings for people who lacked clarity in their relationships or careers.

Guided by her growing intuition, Padma began to help people out of their emotional dilemmas. As her intuition developed further, Padma could sense or feel the emotions not just of human beings but also that of animals.

This is Padma’s account of healing for Snoopy, a cat belonging to Adeline and Suresh, visitors to Khoracle, the holistic healing center where Padma does Angel Card Readings on Tuesdays and Wednesdays.

Padma:

"It was my angel card reading day and I was waiting for my next client named Spooky. God, I thought, what a name for a person. I waited for some time and no one seemed to come.

So I walked out of the healing room to find out what was going on and a smiling lady told me that Snoopy was hiding and it was difficult to get her out. Oh it was Snoopy and not Spooky. Andrew as usual must have got the name wrong!

I asked, “May I help?” Quite strange, what was this person hiding? She didn’t want to do an Angel Card reading?

The lady said, “Snoopy is hiding underneath the sofa.” That really confused me.

As I looked underneath, I realized that Snoopy was a cat - a beautiful cat with an exquisite shining coat. She was so fragrant I just wanted to hold her close and put my face against her luxuriant coat.

As I looked at Snoopy, I realized that she was frightened. She was obviously not happy. I felt that she was disturbed and far from comfortable. She kept hiding her pretty face in Suresh’s armpit. She needed security, I guessed.

The first thing I did was to calm and reassure her. I sent Snoopy Reiki healing energy. After about 20 minutes, she was no longer shivering and was calmer.
I reached out to hold her and she allowed me to gently touch her.

When Snoopy had settled down further, I called upon Duke to help me help Snoopy. Duke, a Golden Retriever was my beloved pet who had died and gone on to other side. It is through Duke that I am able to communicate with pets. For this I must thank Dr. Laurie.

I had managed to contact Dr. Laurie through the Internet and she communicated with Duke on my behalf and it is through Dr. Laurie’s guidance that I am able to communicate with Duke right now.

I started to talk to Snoopy. And in my mind, I could hear her talking back to me. Snoopy said that she had sustained a hip injury because of a cruel kick from a human when she was just a baby cat. Thus she had a broken hip with a protruding bone and this hurt her often. It had taken a long time to heal.

There were some naughty children who caused her more pain by mishandling her in her parent’s home. She hopes her parents will take note of this and not allow the kids to hurt her.

Then I asked Snoopy why she chose Suresh and Adeline as her parents? And this was what Snoopy mentally told me. “It goes back to a past life. We were all one happy family. I was a human then. We had a beautiful cat. Somehow the cat was hurt and in great pain and none of us could do anything to stop the pain that the cat was going through.”

So she decided then that she would one day be born as a cat and go through all that pain and distress to find out for herself how a cat experienced suffering. I listened attentively, aware that I was in the presence of a soul that was evolving further.

Snoopy also was experiencing constipation and said that she should be given small portions of milk, some fruits and vegetables. Cottage cheese would also help.

She also said that she was very happy with her parents. She wanted her Papa – Suresh, to do a documentary about her. I conveyed this information to Suresh and Adeline and they were quite happy to receive this news.

I would like to express a million thanks to Dr. Laurie for helping me understand that I could communicate with our pets that have moved on to the other side. They too had eternal consciousness and if we were open and willing, would be able to help us heal pets who were sick in our present moment."

Padma Menon will soon be offering her Distance Energy Healing for Pets & Animals over the Internet. She can be contacted at khoracle@gmail.com. Also read more about Padma at Spiritual Village.

Andrew is the founder of Khoracle, a holistic center in Puchong Malaysia. In 2000, Andrew left an advertising career at Ogilvy to begin his healing journey. It was during this time he met a healing angel called Paru Amma in Kajang. For the next two years, on most Fridays, Andrew learnt as much as he could from Paru.

After two years, Andrew and another clairvoyant called Selvie started aura readings and healing in Kelang. And in 2005 destiny beckoned when Andrew and Selvi did a reading for a client named Sam Low. Sam, founder of a multi-level marketing company was at a very low ebb. After the reading with Andrew and Selvi, he rediscovered the purpose of his life.

The meeting instilled a deep friendship and acted as a catalyst for a new beginning. In March 2007, Andrew started Khoracle with Sam's support.

To know more about Khoracle, log on to www.khoracle.com.

More Articles by Andrew Khor:
Clairsentience: Feeling Each Other’s Emotions

We Are All Already Enlighten-ing, So Let's Have Fun Evolving

2008-04-16T23:49:00.005+08:00

Kryon did a good job K.I.S.S.ing(keeping it short and simple) the whole thing about Enlightenment, describing it in the form of 8 shifts in his latest channellings. I resonated with them, and that transcript confirmed what my Soul has been whispering to me all this time about the whole point of my spiritual path.

To be frank, the concept of Enlightenment for me up to this point has been dull and colourless. It goes something like this: OK, so here I am, clearing this, clearing that, moving up, up, up that mountain, oh..see that finish line already? Cross it, and presto, Ascended, Enlightened I Am. Leave this world, to the light, blend with God. Okie dokie. Finito.

The End.

And that's it?

Not trying to be cynical here. Just plainhonesty. That was the question I have been asking all this time while walking on my spiritual path. In other words, it's no fun, and I don't really see the point.

Truth is, as I discovered (I had an AHA! the other during one of my Divine Wills meditation) - I don't want to leave this world. Nope. Because if being enlightened means now you see me and now you don't, then this Spiritual Oreo experience isn't really my heart's cuppa tea. And if my spiritual work is all about getting "there" to this God-baked chocolate cookie, then hmm...it's a little dry...isn't it? Got milk?

I had many times joked with my friends, "Say, when I am enlightened and I become Ascended Master Lily, I'd let you channel me, OK?" I also had these fanciful ideas that "when I get there", I'd still come back here to build that heaven on earth, spread light to the world, flow love out to everyone, or be someone's Guide - whatever. Okla, so this might be my limited busy 3D mind talking, but I can't see myself 'retiring' into some heavenly realm, shake my leg there and that's it.

Bliss or not, it feels boring. So if that's what my spiritual work is all about - it's really a tad too ho-hum for me...

And funnily, I can't stop doing what I am doing. Despite my mind's mundane interpretation of spirituality, there's still this flame within that keeps on growing. One that I cannot ignore. It's an unexplainable passion that drives, pulls, pushes and directs me back to my path again and again.
It's this unexplainable energy that keeps me on my spiritual routines like my Divine Wills and mantra meditations. It's the same energy that brings out my fears and tears and then works with me when I work with them. The same energy that closes my old doors and then opens new ones. The same energy that is likened to a sun that never sets eventhough many a time I had chose to grope around in the dark with sunshades on.

"Who are you?" I ask now.

The only reply is a flutter in the heart that pulls up a bubble of warmth from my stomach.

"Why are you making me do all these things that seem rather pointless?" I ask again.

Another flutter. I am getting a feeling. It is a fun, engrossed feeling with a sense of timelessness.

Very familiar. I have had this before.

A memory now comes up. Right. Of course. Might & Magic. Final Fantasy. Yes, as in fantasy computer games.

This is a big clue because I realize what keeps me going in my spirituality is the fun of going "Level Up".

If you have ever played CRPGs (computer role playing games) you would know what I mean. On each level, you are presented with a new landscape with new challenges, new monsters and new towns to explore. When you kill the monsters, you get points (and money!) where you can spend both in upgrading your stamina or magic tanks, OR go get training to acquire new skill.
Ohhh..I loved those games. But I never finished any one of them. At the very last level, I lose interest and then abandon the game altogether.

And that's pretty much the 'fun' of my spiritual path all this time. The Level Up. It's the overcoming of fears, it's acquiring new skills, it's building up inner strength/stamina and 'magical powers'. Is there an end to that? I doubt it.

And this spirituality game is even better because the levels are infinite. There is no finish line. Every level IS enlightenment because you see new light in every aspect of yourself. Then with all these new skills, new insights, new this , new that, you cannot NOT use them, for they are already part of you. They are your expression. So you use them in all ways to hone them - and that's where your lifework emerges.

Oh, I am certainly having fun with self-discovery. It's a blast learning about my 1001 emotional little selves and how to talk to them and soothe them. Then there's the art of manifesting and challenging myself to live in a state of higher abundance. And telepathy, teleempathy? Turn out my sensitivity is the best connection tool I ever had. Not forgetting getting to know and communicating with my Guide and angels. Plus gaining access to the Universal Wisdom Library where all potential ideas exist. What about all the new 'towns' I am travelling to: the different energetic landscapes and realms?

Then the big to-do: figuring out how to use all this in the material world...what can I create? Who do I want to be? Now, THAT's exciting.

"So what is the point of your spiritual path?" this time that undefined energy/being/part of me asks.

I am smiling as I write this. It's evolution. And service. That's never-ending. Oh, such freedom in infiniteness.

Nope, I am not going anywhere. Because where there's me, there it is: HOME.

A strong flutter now. The heart / soul / that unidentified fluttering object totally agrees.

Sending and Receiving Love (Part 2): Using Love Energy To Travel Energetically

2008-04-15T11:19:00.006+08:00

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What’s interesting about Love Transmission is I discovered I could actually travel empathically with that energy to visit the other person’s energetic space – according to how much Love the other person allows in their space.

This becomes a sort of a feedback to me. I found that each person is completely unique in the way they receive!

Here’s what I feel when the Love energy I send is traveling towards their heart:

The paths the Love energy encounters to reach their heart (ie. easy, free-flowing, or difficult with many obstacles?)
The landscape or environment along that path – usually this is the mirror of the person’s energetic quality (ie. soft and gentle, or aggressive and powerful?)

Let me illustrate with a few examples.

With my mentor, the LT process is smooth and easy. I feel a rapid rush of strong and warm energy going towards him immediately - no blocks at all. It’s like a pleasant drive passing by beautiful gardens on the way. Also I experience his energetic landscape as protective, comforting, and yet strong and powerful. He is perhaps the only person I have come across who has such a clear and direct space towards receiving love. I simply enjoy practicing Love Transmission on him because it's easy on my heart when I transmit Love to him – no effort at all! Also the quality of his energetic landscape is really inspiring. When I need a sense of support and trusting that things will be OK, I’d travel to his landscape for a brief ‘respite’.

Another friend of mine also has a very clear and direct path towards his heart. When I transmit Love energy to him, it’s feels like I am flying on a breezy day at an open field. Here, his landscape feels completely sincere, enthusiastic, sun-shiny and full of joyful hope. There’s always a sense of expansion with him. Probably because of his capacity to receive, the flow of energy is always a big intense wave. My heart usually cannot flow this energy out for too long, because it is much too strong.

Yes, we need to develop the heart center muscles like we do with our physical muscles. I find when I over-exert my heart center (from either intense Love Transmission or integrating Higher energies), it becomes very tender and sore around the chest area. Love is a very high vibrating energy. So although I might feel very alert and energetic from the inside, my physical body usually feels as if it has just run an hour on the treadmill.

While it’s possible to send Love to just about everyone, not every person would let you into their space. For instance I have a friend who is really a loving and spiritual person. However when I sent Love to her, I experienced a maze-like path with solid walls here and there. The energy seems to keep hitting the walls. I had no choice but to stop the transmission, because I just couldn’t get there. Her landscape feels loving, but it is also mysterious in such a way as if she’s afraid people might find out the truth about her.

And there are other people who have such cluttered paths and 'dense' environment within their energetic landscapes that it tires my heart out before that Love energy could reach their hearts.

As Love is a high vibrating energy, I believe it can cut through, clean and clear, declutter, transform, light up and harmonize all kinds of paths and energetic environment. But it takes a highly focused mind, very strong heart center and very clear ajna vision to direct that Love energy right to the heart center of another who has difficulty receiving Love. And for that level, the Transmitter must have all his spiritual faculties very well-developed.

For me, I am still training myself in the art of Love Transmission. So there’s only so much my heart can do at the moment. But of course, I don’t travel to each and everybody’s heart centers. What I usually do is just intend that energy out and leave it at that – much like living a gift at the door of someone’s house, and it’s up to them whether they take it or not.

So happen with my mentor and my friend, as they are such great recipients, I was blessed with the opportunity to experience their energetic space. I guess because we have already connected at a Soul Level, the channels between us are open to each other.

However, this got me curious so I experimented with other people. Of course, with some I hit walls because I haven’t established that kind of soul rapport like I did with my friend and mentor. But even with those who have consciously agreed or asked for love, it’s not easy when deep down they are not ready to receive.

Which brings me to the next point...the hardest part of Love Transmission is being the Beloved = receiving love >> Sending and Receiving Love (Part 3): The Challenges of Receiving Love

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Sending and Receiving Love (Part 1): The 4-Step Technique

2008-04-12T01:57:00.007+08:00

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Love Transmission (LT) is a daily practice that I do together with the Divine Wills meditation. Inspired by metta or loving kindness meditation, LT is a meditative technique I developed to send and receive love energy through the heart center.

It’s not metta anymore as it has since evolved into something entirely different. I have tinkered and tankered with it many times to find something that I am comfortable with, letting my heart lead the way. Finally, after many months of experimenting with different ways to go about it, it has settled into a pattern that I could now use easily and quickly.

So, what I have now is a simple technique that works simply by intention alone. There are only two parts to it. One, you become the lover and two, you become the beloved. What this means is, you are to give love like a lover and to receive love as the one who is being loved.

The Lover
The Lover is the masculine aspect. He intends love energy out, directing it to someone or something. He moves the energy forward. He projects love, extending vigorously, entering into others, filling and inspiring them. The Lover GIVES Love.

The Beloved
When the Lover gives Love, he must have an avenue to flow his love to. The Beloved is the receiving end. She is the feminine part of us - receptive, all-inclusive and nurturing. The Beloved RECEIVES Love.

The Technique
The LT technique primarily highlights the act of giving/sending. Here’s how I do it:

First, I intend out loud or silently that I wish to send someone Love.
I have that person in my mind and then send him/her a ray of pink-gold energy (signifies love and wisdom) from my heart to their heart. I picture that ray expanding into a pink-gold cloud which envelopes them.
From here I say (silently or out loud), Dear ____, may peace, happiness, freedom, wisdom, happiness, prosperity and excellent health be with you. (This is the adaptation from metta meditation).
Then I imagine violet flame surrounding us both individually as I say: “I forgive you and release both of us from the cords that no longer serve our growth I am free, you are free. I am whole, you are whole. Thank you for being in my life. I love you.” (This is an adaptation from the Ho'oponopono method).

That's it. I then move on to other people. I like starting it with sending Love to my Self first followed by my family, people that I really like, people in my life and that I am neutral with, people I don’t like, every human being on Earth, animal, plant, mineral kingdom, angels, guides, ascended masters and then ending it with sending Love to God/the Universe. The whole process, when I do it slowly would take somewhere between 15 to 30 minutes – depending on the number of people. So if I am short of time, I’d just do my Self, my family, and to all living on Earth. Sometimes I skip the well-wishes and forgiving part and just do the pink-gold cloud.

Other than the altruistic advantages of sending love to everyone and everything, there is more to Love Transmission than that. Next up I’d tell you how LT can give you spiritual adventures >> Sending and Receiving Love (Part 2): Using Love Energy to Travel Energetically

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How the Divine Wills Inspired Me To Quit My Job

2008-04-09T23:50:00.005+08:00

I still have about 5 weeks to go at this company. Today we have moved down to the 7th Floor (the company takes up two separate floors). Since 2005 when I joined the company, this is already the fourth time I am moving from one office area to another.

"How come you don't seem to have anything at all?" My sis Audrey asked as she looked at my very bare table. Yes, we are colleagues too. Her workstation is on my right.

"Zen-ler..." I said. Now she's eyeing the bare spot on the right side of my table thinking if she can spill some of her stuff over. "No, don't even think about it," I told her. "When I leave in a month, then you can do whatever you like. Right now, here? Less is More."

Yes, clear space is that important to me.

Moving down here was actually the last straw, the kick that I needed to finally leave. This space is rather cramped - 1/4 of the size of the office upstairs.

Now, if I were still passionate about what I am doing here, it wouldn't be much of an issue, even if it is uncomfortable to have my workspace size minimized: Less is more mah.

In fact, in a material, 3D sense, this is the "perfectest" job. Let me count the ways:
1. Salary's above average for someone who's only been in the workforce for three years
2. Time's flexible - I can go for long lunches and come in late
3. I get along well with my bosses and colleagues
4. It's only ten minutes away from my house
5. I am doing very well in my job - there is opportunity to get promoted
6. I get darn lot of freebies from this job: free spa trips, free food, free CDs, free movie tickets, free gifts, etc
7. I am meeting influential people, celebrities, etc that grants me access into Malaysia's elite crowd

Frankly, not to sound ego or anything, every single desire I had for a perfect career had been manifested. I was actually getting extremely comfortable with this.

...And then I started on my spiritual path, choosing to work with the Divine Wills. And I remember now how I wholeheartedly, sincerely, and willingly exclaimed : "Soul, I surrender to you."

So surrendered I did - my personality plans, that is. The glamour factors obviously don't work anymore. Now that Soul has taken over, the heart is beating to the Soul's vibration. Now it's about a higher form (quite possibly form-less, for that matter!) of a career: She wants to service, She wants to bring in Divine Creativity, She wants a different kind of abundance where only Love is the only comfort to her restless heart.

No, churning out articles like a machine, or writing advertorials for the sake of helping the rich sell their ridiculously priced furniture aren't good enough anymore. It's an exploitation of creative energy.

Recently, the only meaning I found was being able to mentor my writers and designers to tap into their creativity. I enjoyed seeing how confident they were becoming with creating. And it showed in their work.

You see, writers who are writing from the heart produces writing expressing who they are. Between each word and sentence, it carries their tone, their beliefs, their energy. I can always tell when someone is writing using their passion or writing just for the money. Similarly with designers - layouts which soothe the eyes because of a balance of colours and of shapes are evident of how they align themselves with beauty and harmony. It all shows. And all of this is therapeutic because it leads them into self discovery, self healing, opening them up to their spirit - for one cannot create like that without tapping into the Divine source.

But, they (my writers) still leave after a month or two. And I know it's mainly because of the low pay. Those who stay a little longer, like a year, are the ones who are finding creative meaning from it. One of my best writers was the latter. I understood why he left, because I am seeing it for myself now: our creative energy is being more and more exploited, causing the flow of that energy to become stagnant, because it is not being channeled freely to inspire others.

You see, before this about three years ago, when I was invited into the company to revamp the magazine, I started with nothing but my creative passion. This energy, that I call gnost, was the driving force behind every article and every feature I was doing.

Good thing was I could re-do the entire publication to my liking. From page 1 to 168, every single page was reconceptualized. All I had was a rough version of what my boss wanted: a sophisticated looking magazine. Then everything else evolved from there. I am not the sole creator, I have always known that. The Divine was behind every inspiration. I was merely the organizer of ideas.

The advantage I had at that time was complete creative freedom. My bosses didn't care much about what creative features went in, as long as 40% of the total number of the pages were sold to advertisers. I had a ball of a time - arranging photo shoots, meeting furniture designers, interviewing beautiful homes owners, etc. It was one creative project after another and my visions were expressed in a freeflow manner.

And this attracted more and more high-end advertisers. For Love is a power magnet, no? When I created in such a free fashion, tapping into the Divine for inspiration and then expressing that energy, that's Love.

Then my employers wanted more. Money, that is. I am not against that. I understood that more money meant the magazine can expand. But when they started to sell pages as client-based features like advertorials and special pull-outs, where those pages were done out of obligation (a lot of apple polishing and insincere flattering to please the clients), the connection with Divine Creativity was lost. I was lost in that drama for sometime as well, getting greedy because I was getting a lot of attention and gifts from clients who wanted more pages.

From the material side, this worked like magic. So much so we got the attention of one of the biggest publishing firms in Malaysia who bought us over. It's good news of course, but the balance was off.

You see, the creative team had become the salespeople. We had become flattering machines where 80% of the magazine had become a compilation of apple-polishing features, hard-selling product features. In a nutshell, it has come to a point where the sales department is using the creative department's energy as their sales gimmick - overpromising this special feature and that. Teamwork is one thing, and I am all for it, but when the creative team does the job of sales, then something is sacrificed: authentic creativity.

Six issues back, when I began to get out of the materialistic loop, I had tried steering it all back to the Divine. I had proposed to cut down the advertorials, because then the creative team can spend time creating a quality publication where articles and artwork are actually of real quality. Also, I had voiced out (during many of those meetings when bosses called for brainstorming because of a decline in sales), the reason why anyone would come in to advertise is because the magazine has a strong presence in the market, not because we can give them free features. But for us there's no budget and manpower allocated for advertising and promotion of the magazine at all! So how can we keep using the same "give-you-free-advertorial" gimmicks over and over again and expect the same results? Alas, it all fell on deaf ears.

Clients are not stupid, you see. Sure, you can tempt them with one free feature or two, but how long can you 'trick' them this way? When obviously the readership had gone down because all the creative department were doing then were more and more advertorials anyway. The magazines weren't holding a strong presence anymore because there was no effort from the sales and marketing to do so!

Their strategy was always this: to keep a client or get a new client in, overpromise them with 101 editorial features. Then when they nodded their heads, and signed the contract, your work is done. In terms of keeping the promise, revert them to Lily. Hands clean. No need crack your head, use your creativity. Just push all the thinking work to Lily, and prepare to receive the commission. While another ten to twenty hours added to Lily's workload because she has to come up with a 16-pager advertorial in two weeks. If Lily grumbles, tell her that we all love her work, shower her with compliments, and oh! the client is sending her gift and there's a possible bonus/increment coming.

Before the Divine Wills, I'd ignore my discomfort and beliefs and become all the people pleaser they want me to be because: A. It feels good to be approved and praised. B. I fear I'd lose my perfect job.

After the Divine Wills, everything come out in the open, and I could no longer turn a blind eye to that, because it wasn't aligned to what my Soul wanted. With each advertorial that I did, I became increasingly unhappy. But somehow when that nudge came for me to move on from this space which is obviously not conducive for my self growth, I managed to convince myself to stay again and again, using those seven this-job-is-perfect reasons and my fears of not being able to survive on my own. I even try harder to 'fix' the energy of my workplace, hoping to change everyone's way of working. I thought I could be the spiritual aspect of that space.

Of course, all in vain, because I cannot change anyone! I realized that being the spiritual aspect doesn't mean being over-responsible for everything - like doing things out of my job scope (eventhough I can!) or solving problems and issues that aren't mine. Also, saying yes to things when they are a definite No-no for me is way off the spiritual grid! But I was doing all those unconsciously because that was how the people pleaser in me operated like an autoresponder!

Then I began to see things I never saw before. Things that didn't bother me before became super annoying. All this has been happening since November last year when I started to integrate the Wills' energies.

All these few months I began manifesting all sorts of events to show me what my limiting beliefs were, my subpersonalities' games and my deepest fears. Everyday, I felt more and more constricted, as if my energy was being boxed up.

That brought about a series of emotional upheaval, insomnia, frequent fevers, depression, and to top that off, I had frequent bouts of panic attacks.

In between it all, I could literally feel an invisible hand pushing me forward to just make that dive. Angels and guides were whispering (loud) to just do it. Then my fearful selves would come up and debate away those voices. What a noisy bunch.

Until one fine day, bosses said: "Bad news people, we have to move downstairs to a smaller office because this company is taking over another magazine."

At that moment I looked up and silently said in my mind, "OK, OK, it's time. I hear you."

They replied: "Yes we don't really want to send you a bad knee or a broken leg to get you moving. You don't need that because you can actually hear all this!" Then I got an image of that ten days when I was down with a serious case of flu. During that time, I knew it was an alert already and I had actually told my mother that I would resign after I got back to work. But I didn't do anything.

After all, this job had become a comfort zone already. I could probably do this for the next 20 or 30 years, if this heart wasn't so restless. And the restlessness wasn't something I could ignore. Trust me, I tried. Like Alice in Wonderland, it felt as if my arms and feet were all popping out of the small house. Yes, thanks to my spiritual path which had me taking that "Drink Me" potion and eating a few Mario Bros' mushrooms, there's no way I can stay in a small house anymore.

During my ignorant few months, I had been having sore throats on and off. Then there was that case of tonsilitis and the numerous canker sores. There were fevers and just a feeling of having energy stuck around the throat. Oh yeah, stifling of expression. Body, mind, soul had all ganged up to get that message through.

But I still resisted. I ignored all that, because, honestly speaking I am scared to death of what would happen should I leave. However, when Soul wants to get a message heard, oh yes, it would be heard.

So this moving down to a smaller office was more of a symbolic question: "Are you going to stay confined in a box (now a smaller one), or are you going to expand out of the box?"

That wasn't the first time I was asked this. A month before that, my bed broke, signalling I had to get a new one - which coincidentally (not!) I was already thinking of replacing my single bed with a queen one - more space!

Then there were all other little signs that had the same theme: expansion of space. Like my chronic de-cluttering. I was obsessively throwing out many of my things in my room every now and then. Then there were times when I had to get out of the house because it felt just too cramped inside. I can see that those were all subconscious acts to create more space, because my energy was being blocked by my immense attachment to my job.

But now, I have made the second gung ho move of my life. The first one was actually giving up architecture and move on to publishing. Now it's moving on from publishing to ????

Yes, I have no idea what's next. Oh yeah, all sorts of fears had been coming up. But now I just thank them and move on. Good news is I feel loads lighter and I feel my energy moving again.

So how exactly did the Divine Wills inspired me to quit my job? Haha...it does sound rather crude like that. I don't mean to say that Divine Wills will cause you to lose your job. But it might cause you to end an old job if that form does not contribute to your Soul's desires. Why? Because a new higher dimension of your dream career or lifework is waiting for you.

For me, it all spiralled into something completely different as soon as I asked: "Why am I doing this?" It was a big, uncomfortable question, thanks to the first Will.

Then the second Will was giving me all these visions of past beautiful experiences when I used Love and Passion to create - the joy and freedom of it. I really missed that, but I couldn't reach it anymore where I am.

Third Will then joined in by giving me the key to the Fountain of Inspiration - how could I resist all the ideas and potentials? But at the same time, I was frustrated. Because although I was having so many visions and infinite energetic resources, I couldn't use any of it to recreate those qualities in my work! There was no avenue for me express those things!

So Forth Will came - to show me what was blocking me. I saw my fears of not having enough money to support myself, vs. my strong desire to reclaim my freedom in time and creativity. There was, and still is, a constant battle between those two at this point.

In my times of fear, Fifth Will arrives giving me the key to wisdom. Any questions, just ask. I have access to the Inner WWW. That soothes me, because I feel completely supported by a team of angelic helpers and guides to help me.

Will 6 came in to strengthen my reasons to leave my job for higher purposes. Here, even a recent increment wasn't enough to keep me anymore.

Then finally Will 7 comes bringing gifts of opportunity as if saying: "See one door closes, many others open. Gamate!"

***

To summarize...

Ray 1 - Will to Initiate
Being brave enough to take the plunge and just quit without a plan. Having the fearlessness to face all my fears of lack.
It initiated new consciousness into my creative career - is it just about money and fame, or is it for higher expression of Self?
Ray 2 - Will to Unify
I am living more and more in the essence of my Soul. I can feel my personality being more and more comfortable with Soul taking lead.
Being able to see the higher vision of what I want to do in my life.
This Will helps to soothe me during my times of great fear because it reminds me of the Love that is there when I feel passion and connection to the Divine when I do my creative work. It seems to always say in a gentle voice: "Remember, you are doing this out of Love."
Ray 3 - Will to Evolve
My creative expression takes on a different quality - one that is more conscious. I strive for harmony and beauty and a divine flow of that energy to inspire light and love.
It connects me even more directly to the Divine Source for creative inspiration, where I can access and tap into the infinite fountain of potential energy anytime and anywhere
Ray 4 - Will to Harmonize
Helps me to release limitations and conflicts related to my fears of success and lack.
Builds intuitive insights to help me choose the doors that would lead me to higher opportunities for my lifework
I can actually feel this Ray helping me to channel down the Divine source of potential into and through me to make my inspirations become formed realities.
Ray 5 - Will to Act
Direct access to the Inner Wisdom Library within my Self for all the answers that I need.
Elimates doubts about whether my decision is right, because along with Ray 4, the dualities are harmonized.
Ray 6 - Will to Cause
Integrity and strong devotion to Divine Creativity, so much so that I could rise above the material glamours.
Brings about optimism, hope and humility when I am feeling doubtful
Clears fogs of anxiety, and confusion
Ray 7 - Will to Express
Helps me to create structures that would allow my Soul's plans to come through me more easily
Slows me down: I am more comfortable with a relaxed schedule now
Things get done on their own most of the time
I can organize my life better than before
Helping me to attract many doors of opportunity to discover what's my next step in my lifework blueprint.

Good Habits - Waking Up Early: Week 2

2008-02-25T11:43:00.003+08:00

Where Week 1 was rather uncomfortable, Week 2 of early rising takes on a fuller and steadier quality.

Waking Up
Through last week, as the first alarm went off and the soft music played at 6.30am each morning, my system responded with ease. It felt almost automatic to wake up at that hour. However, while there’s no problems waking up, I had been getting up in a drowsy state, wanting to sleep in again. But, the good news was, towards mid-week, while the Mind wanted to laze in some more, the desire to start the day early was even stronger.
In a way, I have somewhat convinced my subconscious that it’s much more preferable to wake up early because I have ‘proof’: I have been experiencing high productivity and steady energy levels throughout the week. So when the alarm beeps, there’s minimum conflict between wanting to sleep in and getting up early. It's soothing to see that side of me which always resist waking up early (and preferring to sleep till noon), getting up without much fuss like a happy and obedient child.

Sleeping
With a bedtime of: "whenever I feel sleepy", as well as getting an extra hand using Bach Flower Remedies, I slept better this week than before. I fell asleep sooner, between 15 to 30 minutes. Sleep was deeper and more refreshing; and there was less waking up in between sleep.

The remedies are helpful not because they make me sleep (bear in mind, they aren’t sleeping pills) but because they help me ease my busy mind, which is the main cause of my insomniac episodes.

My body naturally got into drowsy mode at about 11pm-12am. So, it turned out that I didn’t really need the eight hours I thought I needed. About 6-7 was sufficient.

Energy Level
My energy level had been excellent all through the week. I felt strong, steady and grounded without major energy roller coaster throughout a typical day.

I am really feeling the benefits of early rising now. There’s something about coordinating with natural daylight with our internal system that works well to keep the body going at optimal conditions.

Adjustments
The first adjustment was mainly letting the Body decide when to sleep, without forcing too much control on perfecting my early riser plan. That was successful because the Body really knew what to do, and if something was in the way, it would guide me to the next action I could take. For example, as I discovered this week, my Body was telling me that there were unresolved issues that were getting in the way of natural sleep. The signals were headaches, brain-congestion and simply a sense of uneasiness.

So for the second week’s, I had some extra help through:
• Bach Flower Remedies to help me release the blocks that were congesting my Mind.
• Healthy breakfast to sustain a stable energy level throughout my morning so I get a good headstart. I am testing out a few types of breakfast, starting with this one: Natural Path’s Organic Instant Hot Oatmeal with Maple Nut. I had been having it for a week, and so far it's been good. My mornings are of a different quality now - more energetic, a sense of well-being and significantly much lesser yawns (I am not kidding you!)! I will be trying a different types of breakfast for this week as I am the kind who gets bored easily and need some varietly.

Insights
It is a pleasant surprise to discover that this early-rising practice isn’t just about getting up at a certain time. From cultivating this one habit, it has opened up many different things – things that align with my intention to live a lifestyle that supports my spiritual and self growth. For instance, paying more attention to how I rest, what I have for breakfast, exploring alternative healing therapies, etc. These are all the little things that contribute to living a healthy lifestyle.

All this shows me that I respond best through a flexible plan with room to grow and evolve, where along the way I’d take guided action according to what my mind and body needs. From here, the quality of trust (trusting the Body and the flow of intention) is also cultivated.

It certainly makes this whole ‘project’ very interesting because I don’t know what I will learn and discover next!

Related Articles:
The Soul Aspects of Creating a Habit: How to Wake Up Early
Good Habits - Waking Up Early: Week 1

Bach Flower Therapy: A First Timer's Experience

2008-02-20T19:40:00.006+08:00

As I cultivate my wake-up-early practice, a recurring physical issue came up: difficulty in falling asleep. It got worse during last week's practice, almost bordering onto a case of insomnia. For four days in a row, I couldn't fall asleep at all, and if I did, I woke up every 2 or 3 hours. By the fourth day, I was already a zombie.

I knew the cause of it wasn't just because of my body adjusting to the early riser habit. I have had this on and off for many years already. My sleeping habits are as erratic as my eating habits. Some weeks, I would sleep like a baby without any problems at all, then for the new few weeks, that sort of semi-insomnia would come back again. It's not great because it's causing a huge drain of energy.

Now, since it's been a recurring thing, I have had tried many, many common techniques - from drinking milk before bedtime to fengshui-ing my bedroom. Some things like progressive relaxation work for me, but not all the time. I somewhat knew that this issue wasn't just physical alone.

So during the course of my zombified state last week, I was pondering whether to seek alternative therapy. I mean, it wasn't a huge problem and would probably go away on its on anyway, yet it wasn't a small one either because it was affecting my daily life. But did I really need some form of holistic help?

Before I even finished rationalizing that question, help came already. As I went online to surf for info on sleep, I also started chatting with my friend Victor on MSN. The conversation started around something totally unrelated and then Victor mentioned his recent therapies. That's when something clicked and I began telling him about my condition.

Victor is an intuitive counselor, healer and teacher. His forte is holistic therapy with the angelic realms, plants-flower essences and crystal healing. When I told him about my condition, he suggested that Bach Flower Therapy could help.

I have heard about Bach Flower Remedies, but was not very familiar with it and was not that interested as well. But that morning I felt a nudge to go try it. So I set an appointment with Victor and was over at his place the next day for a one-to-one consultation.

The Consultation Process
The process was really very simple. Victor began asking me a few questions about my condition as well as my daily lifestyle. Other than my sleep issues, I got around to another ongoing discomfort: stomach-related symptoms like bloating, cramps, gassy feeling and indigestion.

Then we proceeded to his range of Bach Flowers Essences of which I was to choose six out of the 38 bottles that attracted me most. My choices were:

Wild Rose
Willow
Honeysuckle
Water Violet
Wild Oat
Pine

Which were the ones that I could relate to? Victor asked as he showed me a list of what each bottle meant. This was when it got interesting. Because all those six bottles indicated some underlying emotional issue. (below is taken from www.bachcentre.com)

Wild Rose: drifting, resignation, apathy
Willow: self-pity and resentment
Honeysuckle Hornbeam (Strangely enough, while my mind was choosing "Honeysuckle" I actually took the Hornbeam bottle!): procrastination, tiredness at the thought of doing something, homesick
Water Violet: pride and aloofness
Wild Oat: uncertainty over one's direction in life
(I was torn between these two actually) Chicory: selfish, possessive love; Pine: Guilt

I told him Hornbeam and Wild Oat were the closest to what I was dealing with at the moment. Victor then took another four bottles which were for sleep: Vervain, Olive, Whitechestnut, Pine and arranged them side by side. Again, he read out the indications to see which one I could relate to:

Vervain: over-enthusiasm
Olive: exhaustion following mental or physical effort
Whitechestnut: unwanted thoughts and mental arguments
Agrimony: mental torture behind a cheerful face

I laughed silently at Vervain's description because that was how my mind was lately what with so much spiritual info raining in. For Whitechestnut and Pine, it seemed to ring a loud bell. For Olive, I wasn't sure as I believed I had no stress.

Subsequently, Victor proceeded with several muscle testing (applied kinesiology) for body-based intuition reading instead. Here's roughly how muscle testing works: With my dominant arm straight out, I was to resist as Victor tries to push my arm down. "Yes" would be a strong arm (good resistant) and "No" would be a weak one (cannot resist the push).

The Result and Prescription
My Body told him I needed only 5 bottles. And these were the five my Body chose, with more detailed explanation (from www.bachflower.com) :

Hornbeam: "For those who feel that they have not sufficient strength, mentally or physically, to carry the burden of life placed upon them; the affairs of every day seem too much for them to accomplish, though they generally succeed in fulfilling their task. For those who believe that some part, of mind or body, needs to be strengthened before they can easily fulfill their work." - Dr. Edward Bach
Whitechestnut: ""For those who cannot prevent thoughts, ideas, arguments which they do not desire from entering their minds. Usually at such times when the interest of the moment is not strong enough to keep the mind full. Thoughts which worry and still remain, or if for a time thrown out, will return. They seem to circle round and round and cause mental torture. The presence of such unpleasant thoughts drives out peace and interferes with being able to think only of the work or pleasure of the day." - Dr. Edward Bach
Vervaine: "Those with fixed principles and ideas, which they are confident are right, and which they very rarely change. They have a great wish to convert all around them to their own views of life. They are strong of will and have much courage when they are convinced of those things that they wish to teach. In illness they struggle on long after many would have given up their duties." - Dr. Edward Bach
Olive: "Those who have suffered much mentally or physically and are so exhausted and weary that they feel they have no more strength to make any effort. Daily life is hard work for them, without pleasure." - Dr. Edward Bach
Willow: "For those who have suffered adversity or misfortune and find these difficult to accept, without complaint or resentment, as they judge life much by the success which it brings. They feel that they have not deserved so great a trial that it was unjust, and they become embittered. They often take less interest and are less active in those things of life which they had previously enjoyed." - Dr. Edward Bach

These five were mixed together in a concoction that I was to take once a day. And did it help my sleep? So far today is my 5th day on the Bach Flower Remedy, and yes, coupled with the adjusted techniques, sleep has been good last night; and I feel a lot more energetic than I have been for awhile.

Working with the Remedy
I do feel that getting the prescribed remedy is just the first step. I find that Bach Flower Therapy isn't just about getting an essence to relieve our physical discomforts.

Those five essences and what they indicate have actually revealed some clues to which area of my life and my Self that are not in alignment with my highest intentions. They reveal some of my blindspots - issues that no matter how much I examine and explore my life, I am still not aware they are running in the undercurrents of my mental and emotional body.

Victor told me that the flower essences work by "moving into your cellular memories well (as in inner reservoir) to clear and heal them." I understand this means that the essences work by flooding out negative feelings and emotions that are causing our symptoms and physical ails. So in order to clear these emotions, they have to be cleansed from the system.

So, the way I see it, the therapy starts only when we start working with the remedy to clear our repressed issues/emotions. And those bottles that we choose are already a good start to find out where in our emotional world are the roots of our pains.

To be frank, when I first read Dr.Bach's indications for my five flowers, I had no inkling how they relate to me. But, today (already the 5th day), some things are starting to unfold to reveal some of my blindspots.

The emotional pattern that responds to Hornbeam revealed itself pretty quickly on the first two days. It has to do with trusting my Body.

And today, an incident triggered the pattern that responds to Willow. I saw my Self Pity/Poor Me subpersonality in action as feelings of resentment and anger surfaced in me.

Emotional pattern responses to Vervaine and Olive might have something to do with my Mind being overenthusiastic about spiritual information and my incoming truths and wisdom, that I overexert my mental energy to crack the codes of my issues or get to the heart of a new insight. Actually this is much like what I am doing now! I am really pretty beat from a long day and I seriously need a warm shower and then chill to relax myself - lest I can't sleep again. But here I cannot tear myself away from this article because as I type, it is revealing so many, many things about myself.

For white chestnut, I am not too sure yet. I roughly feel it could be the conflict of interest between my Soul's and Personality. There's still a lot of push/pull from within.

Nevertheless, this is just the beginning of my self-therapy work with Bach Flower Remedies. I will be posting individual articles on my experience of each of these flowers. Can't rush this though, (even my Vervaine-side wants to!) because I need to allow myself the time and space for them to unfold.

However, Bach Flower Essences aren't the only factor that spark off an episode of emotional clearing. First, I had already started on different kinds of energy and innerwork - so that had already spun off many events that allow me to transcend my issues.

And on top of doing the therapy, I also went for an Aura Soma reading on the same day with Victor. I decided to use one of the Aura Soma essences to compliment the flower essences, and that contributes to my ongoing innerwork as well.

That said, there's no ONE thing that fits all. I first started on meditation and that led me to many, many other forms of energywork. To decide which to go for, I usually wait for that heart-nudge. I do believe our inner systems know what they need, so as I like to say: go with the flow.

Clairvoyance: Are We Ready To See?

2008-02-18T16:25:00.003+08:00

An article by Harris Surya Jahim of www.harris-surya-jahim.com

We live in a world where we are visually bombarded constantly - images from advertisements, commercials, tv, movies and the list goes on. Therefore we equate vision and the ability to "see" them as the ONLY powerful gift. A lot of us who started exploring, desperately wanting to see. They have not realized if they are ready to see EVERYTHING.

I mean EVERYTHING. That includes the beautiful and oh so pretty colors of the angels, the ascended masters, the unicorns, the elementals (the fairies, the pixies). We have forgotten there are elementals who are not "pretty", but grotesque looking.

Then there are the earthbound souls, the lost and confused souls. The grays and negative ETs, the oh-so-not-so nice beings from the other realms. Are we prepared to see ALL of them? It scared the shit out of me when I saw the latter beings from the OTHER realms. I was not prepared but it happened.

When we do see them, do we know what or who they are? Do we know how to intepret them? Are we able to interpret the visions? Do we know why someone's aura is dark gray and blue on the left with patches of red and orange on the right? Do we know what they mean?

Even though clairvoyance and psychic abilities run in my family, I have experienced many moments of doubts with the gifts, and with the visions I get. I have also made mistakes intepreting my visions and sights. It just goes to prove when it was not tampered with wisdom, things get screwy.

I pose a thought - When was the last time we actually used our ears to listen to the nuances in a piece of music or song. When was the last time we used our ears to listen to the birds chiping in the morning, the rustle of the leaves blown by the breeze? When was the last time we actually heard everything in a conversation? When was the last time we walked past the baker's to inhale the fresh aroma of fresh bread in the oven? When was the last time we inhaled the aroma of coffee beans, and letting it tickle the hairs in the nose? When was the last time we tasted the spices in the curry - discovering how it tingles differently on different parts of the tongue?

We have forgotten to use the five physical senses to its full optimum. This is just a fact because I have been guilty of that.

There are many spiritual seekers desparately wanting to see, wanting to hear, wanting to...wanting to, wanting to. It isn't wrong to want it, but after awhile we must recognize they are just "a want:"

The angels sometimes wonder why don't we trust the inner knowing and wisdom within our higher selves. In your quest, we have forgotten our higher selves. We look outside. We look without, instead of within.

Our higher selves carry eons of wisdom and understanding from living lives as a human being, The angels have not had the privy to experience and power to be a human being. That is a learning experience only we can teach ourselves. These experiences and wisdom have been time tested, over and over again. We need to remember.

In the Sufi prayer circle - Dzikir Prayer, it is also called "Rememberance". Remembering the divine. Remembering the divine in us.

So let us remember.

Harris Surya Jahim is a gifted channeler, medium, teacher and practitioner of Angel Miracles and Isis Lotus Healing. Harris' website: www.harris-surya-jahim.com

Good Habits: Waking Up Early - Week 1

2008-02-17T19:47:00.004+08:00

Today marks exactly one week of cultivating a wake-up-early practice. Here's a review...

Waking Up
Rising at 6.30am was not an issue. As soon as the first soft alarm goes off at 6.30am, I was up and about.

Sleeping
My issue was falling asleep. I did as planned: got to bed at 10.30pm every night. The first two nights, it was major tossing and turning, so much so I couldn't get any sleep at all. And I kept waking up in the middle of the night. Only when I just adjusted my bedtime to: "whenever I feel sleepy" that I could get the sleep I needed.

Energy Level
For the first two days, I was super energetic despite not having enough sleep. Then I totally crashed the following two days. By Thursday I was a zombie. Only when I adjusted my sleep time that I got back to normal.

Adjustments
I realized that I made myself so anxious about my whole waking-up-early goal, that it disrupted my natural rhythm. My mind was super active on a go-go-go mode because I was actually over-enthusiastic about this practice.

All this led me to explore how the mind-body functions. Here, the mind can certainly organize what I need to do to create a conducive environment for this practice well: setting a wake-up time, setting a sleep-time, making the bedroom good for sleep, help my body relax through progressive relaxation techniques, etc; but the mind cannot make me sleep no matter what. Sleep happens naturally, so it can't be forced by the personality's will.

In this situation, I discovered all the mind could do was just focusing on the intention of being an early riser. Yes, that is all.

I tested this out by just letting go of my intention to go to bed early and waking up at 6.30am. I allowed my body to tell me when I would go to bed and when I would wake up. All I did was just observed how my body responded to the intention directed by the mind.

It was a good move, because as soon as I released the need to control the body, my mind relaxed and I was less anxious each time I went to bed.

So on the fifth night I set the second 'loud' alarm to 8am, but kept the soft alarm at 6.30am. I figured that if my body really needs the sleep, I would probably sleep through the first one. If I woke up at that time, then it shows my body has moved into light sleep already and ready to wake up anyway.

So I started by following the natural drowsiness I would feel when my body is ready for sleep. It was 12am when I got to bed that night. I fell asleep in 1/2 hour. It was a major improvement because before that, I only fell asleep after 3 hours of tossing and turning between intervals of getting up to do something to induce sleep.

As I did the same for the next two nights, I got drowsy earlier and had more restful sleep. All throughout the end of this week, I found myself getting back to normal. However I was still feeling drowsy on and off in the late mornings and afternoons because I was still only getting 6-7 hours, and I need my 8 hours for peak energy.

Anyhow this approach feels so natural that I need not even keep my focus on it at all. And, strangely, that's the key to it! Not pin my mind to all the expectations of my goal, because it's the very thing that was keeping me from sleeping! I am going to be using this approach for this coming week, and see where it leads me.

Insights
From this week's experience, I learn to respect and appreciate the physical Body as an intelligent form. I realize the Body has her own level of consciousness and awareness that enables her to respond to the intention that the Mind has set. But she only responds without any issues when the intention is a vision of the Soul's: ie. waking up early is for the purpose of care for the Body and love for life (see my previous article).

Also, during the process, I must be willing to understand her natural rhythms and be patient while she adjusts herself. No force of the lower will. It's a cooperation between the three bodies: mind, body, spirit.

I have also tested this concept out during my yoga classes on Saturday. I performed better than during the times when I used my Mind to force my Body to do things she isn't ready for. With each pose, I just set the intention to do as instructed and then released any expectations and allowed my body to respond to that intention. It really worked.

The summary: the Soul envisions, the Mind intends through focusing energy on the vision and the Body acts to manifest that vision-intention according to her natural rhythms.

Understanding Spirituality

2008-02-14T17:39:00.003+08:00

In terms of metaphysical experiences, I don't see or hear. To be honest, it used to make me wonder whether I am still stuck somewhere, or whether I had just been delusioned all this while and had not actually made any improvements at all with my spiritual growth. And frankly speaking, being surrounded by friends who have highly developed clairs brought out the competitive side in me as well. At one point I also wanted to see angels, auras (I have tried super hard, doing all sorts of eye acrobats - to no avail) and to hear masters speak to me, to astral travel, see past lives, to have OBE and all. Only later when I started to question what my motivations were for all of those desires that I realized it was a way to feel spiritually competent, and to fit in with my psychic friends (I mean, to be honest, it's rather New Age cool, no? :P). Yes, I was using all this as a yardstick.
I was quite depressed and apathetic for awhile when none of it was happening, and went into spiritual depression. I just didn't want to look into my books anymore, listen to anything about spirituality or even hang out with my meta friends. But I couldn't go back to the 'normal' life, eventhough I was tired of the whole New Age hoo-ha. Not a very comfortable place to be in, really. Then at this time, I encountered several relationship issues that bugged me so much that there was nowhere to turn to, but back into meditation - just to calm my emotions.

From here, I began hearing that inner voice again, very faint, but it was there, and I felt reassured - but this time not because of all the metaphysical things I had been taking on, the people with whom I have been hanging out or even the books that I had been reading. I came to realize that I had been depending on all those things to give me a sense of spirituality, and I had not really stepped into my own spirituality at all - I was piggybacking on those things thinking that that's the real deal. Yes, so I had indeed been in a delusional chase and never really even got to the first step of my spiritual path. And, as I delved deeper, I saw the whole truth: books, group, workshops had been a form of distraction for me. I was using those things to cover up the one thing I was running away from: my Self and her whole package of good Lilys and bad Lilys.

Now, please understand I am not saying that books, groups and workships are not good, they are - when used with consciousness. Here, I am just pointing out how different metaphysical tools can be when we become aware of our motivations behind them. If it's coming from an awareness that we are going to use this and this as a way to realize the Self and to help our growth, these tools are extremely efficient. But if it's something you do so you feel spiritual, or as something to give you grand experiences that everyone talks about so you feel special (these two were my initial motivations), then I don't think it's for higher intentions. And at times, they work for a lot of people - they are now seeing, hearing, feeling. Oh, the spiritual high. Here's when we might become dependent on it for a quick fix. It's just replacing an external form of attachment to another. It's all behind the motivation.

True spirituality is about living the truth of who we really are, clearing the paths to see all of ourselves, accept those little people in us, and love, love, love them. We can't achieve spirituality - because it's who we are. We can only be conscious of the paths and then make consicous and highest choices from there so we can take to allow it to blossom in us.

So why am I so enthusiastic about Divine Wills (DW)/the Rays right from the start? Because I somehow knew it would take me back to ME, to I Am. It was an open path that felt completely right. I think that little voice in me had something to do with this, relentlessly nudging me from within.

From the start DW wasn't for metaphysical experiences or to 'feel spiritual', or for something to try "so hopefully I can finally have those spiritual experiences." All those motivations seemed completely irrelevant when I called on the First Ray nonchalantly in my bedroom in a groggy state. And like all of the paradoxes of the Universe, once you drop your expectations, they come. It's from Ray-work that I experienced my first buzz of very strong energy that came from nowhere, my first epiphany about Beauty of Oneness, my first expanded consciousness and my first very strong connection with my Higher Guides, Guardian Angels and Archangels (esp AA Michael who's been with me since day one) No, I still don't see/hear/feel them. But I just KNOW they are here. That kind of KNOWING that any proof would be irrelevant. When you know, even believing is irrelevant. That's how I understand things as well, the heart KNOWS, and then only when the mind is willing (you are willing) to explore into this knowingness, does the insight comes.

I am not bragging here, just to illustrate that spiritual experiences aren't really always mind-blowing or clair-based ones - they are subtle processes that unfold time and again until you understand the true meaning behind every quality that the Soul thrives on.

And, best thing of all, as I diligently do more inner work, that inner voice is so loud now, I can't ignore it at all - although someitmes the stronger Ego wins or when I just pretend not to listen to it. But it comes back relentlessly anyhow.

So how can God abandon us, if we are the essence of God. How can we not love and not have love, when we are the essence of love? I like how KB put it that we feel that way because we see ourselves separate from God, from Love, from the Soul. We aren't. We are made of Love so we cannot NOT be Love. And what/who/where is Love? It's God. Love = God. So if you are essentially Love, who are you?

All this now makes all my metaphysical pursuits even more meaningful. When reading books, or learning something at a workshop or doing healing, I look not to others for answers, but for that spark to trigger my own knowledge, my own healing, my own powers. Sometimes one sentence from an author can shower a waterfall of insights instantly. Sometimes the energy in a group can trigger the same energy in you, only ten times stronger. Sometimes the space that the healer holds can trigger your healing. And this makes me realize that I am here to re-member all of who I am. Not to learn, because I already have all the wisdom I need. You are a Master, with a serious case of amnesia, and a whole chunkload of BS (belief systems) that is in the way of realizing that truth.

At least that's how I understand spirituality, for now.

When the Love of Wisdom Meets the Wisdom of Love

2008-02-11T15:39:00.000+08:00

One day, I asked Divinity: "What does it mean by 'I Am Love?'" That one question led me into a whole new adventure of scouring the jungle of life to seek and re-member the truth behind that simple three-worder.

I have felt for awhile and my heart has been nudging me: there’s something amiss in my spiritual quest for Self realization. Yes, I was doing this, doing that to bring in the wisdom of Self. I learned much, a lot actually. I went on a pursuit for independence and freedom. Then towards the knowledge about involved detachment. I also got into the practice of mindfulness to master my emotions and my monkey mind, and of course the cultivation of inner energy and sacred inner space. Although I am still very new on my path, I know I am doing well. for one, my direction is pretty clear.

Still something felt very incomplete. A missing piece. What was it that I needed on my path of light? That led me to an episode of annoyance. It surprised me why I found just about everyone in my life a major case of irritancy. What I used to not care about in a person suddenly became a major pain in my rear end that I couldn’t ignore. So much so, there’s someone I had wished I could pushed over a cliff and never see him again. Oooo…how evil! I was confused and angry and guilty. If I were so strong inside, why do I react so strangely over-the-top with the most trivial of things in people? It doesn’t make sense!

I spent quite sometime rationalizing and getting myself to forgive, release and all that to make those annoying feelings go away. It didn’t work. Because they were all intellectualizing. I knew quite well about many things, but I didn’t really understood them- not heartfully anyway.

I was frustrated. What is it, angels? I asked again and again. I went through many books and reference materials. More forgiveness techniques. More emotional releasing tools. I was bored. I knew those things weren’t what I was looking for. But what is it?!

So I turned within. But instead of getting answers, I got even more questions from within: Why couldn’t I forgive? Why couldn’t I release those feelings of irritation and annoyance (which has its roots in anger)? Why do I get this congestion and ache in the center of the chest when I think about those annoying people? What is all that pointing to? What is my heart telling me? What, why, how…

After about a hundred questions, I lost count, in the shower one day it clicked.

Of course. The heart. No wonder the mind didn’t get it. It wasn’t something that could be intellectualized.

Love. Pure and simple. I almost cried out in joy for the sheer simplicity of it.

Love and light. They must go together.

Without love, wisdom is nothing. Without the light of wisdom, love cannot move into the right direction.

I remember sometime ago when I did an Aurosoma reading. It was rather simple: all I had to do was pick four bottles which hold colored liquid. I was to choose according to the colors that attracted me the most. I made my selection and waited excitedly for the results. But the practitioner grimaced and told me that because of the coral-colored bottle I chose, the entire reading was void.

“What do you mean? There are three other bottles.” I asked. I was really curious what the four bottles were going to tell me.

“Well, whenever someone chooses this coral bottle, it signifies that they have an issue with matters of the heart. Until this issue is understood, all other readings are void because with this issue, it impairs the clarity of other areas of your life.” In other words, he was telling me that because of this issue, it was the personality making the color choices and not the Soul. So it wasn’t accurate. Wow. It must be a pretty significant thing, this whole heart matters thingy, I thought. I pondered about it. It still didn’t seem relevant.

“Issues with the matters of the heart?” I looked at him strangely. “But I don’t think I have a really huge issue with it. I mean of course we all have disagreements with family and such. But they are trivial!”

He fished out a deck of cards and took out one that matched that bottle. “Maybe this would help.”

I took the card. In front was the name of the bottle. And it was called: LOVE WISDOM.

At that time I had no inkling or resonance with Love or Wisdom at all. After the reading, I thought no more about it.

That was six months ago.

Now, today, those two words are blinking like a neon sign in the darkest of night. It had been there all along, obvious like that. And I had winded myself this way and that to realize it. I laughed out loud in the middle of my meditation.

As I reflected some more, everything that brought me pain had its roots here. When in love, I would always be drowning, drunk with the wine of love – losing all sanity and sense of Self. In everyday life, my intellect, the mind rules all, abandoning the heart. I was seriously out of balance. When I chose spirituality as a way of life, of course I had brought along this issue as well.

This whole thing about Love Wisdom might as well be my life theme. Heck I even have the initials in my name (LW). And I couldn’t even see it at all. Funny how blind we all are.

But of course all the experiences that led me to this have been a blessing. With this realization, I come upon a new place. It is now no more just the path of light. It is a path of light AND love. It is a path of love with wisdom.

And it’s just the beginning. Where I was once very focused on just Personal Power and Freedom, now the path to Compassion is clear as the sky before me. Here both paths merge to lead me to a higher understanding of Love Wisdom. But what lies ahead? I really don’t know. And that makes it more of a higher adventure, one where growth and realization is all there is.

So what is “I Am Love”?

I am answering that question everyday now.

The Soul Aspects of Creating a Habit: How to Wake Up Early Purposefully

2008-02-10T09:31:00.000+08:00

I am working on building some habits that I feel would help give me a sense of structure and centredness. At first I was apprehensive – wasn’t part of being on the spiritual path meant undoing conditioning of the mind? Habits were a form of mind condition, because they were something that goes on autopilot when we do them enough times. Besides I was diligently releasing old thoughts and habits that weren’t working for me for so long.

But, frankly speaking, something was missing. While spiritually, I feel strong, my lifestyle felt rather weak and shaky. Inconsistency was a great issue for me because I couldn’t stay long enough with certain things like yoga practice and meditation. These things are important to me and they aren’t something you do when you feel spiritual. It’s a practice that you do everyday to enhance yourself and your life.

So I thought: OK, consistency is definitely a quality I need to cultivate. That brought me back to the topic of habits. In this case, they are both the same thing. The thing is, we cannot make a quality. Qualities like compassion, intelligence, wisdom, etc are a result and effect of something, a cause. It happens, we can’t exactly cultivate it or make it happen, because if we do, it become forced and superficial. Consistency is the same thing.

Good news is, habits can be turned into tools to allow the quality of consistency to happen. Habits can be the ‘cause’. Instead of seeing habits as merely a form to manipulate the mind to do things, I choose to see habits as a way that the mind, body, heart and soul can work together to make everyday life work with purpose and inspiration. Habits now become habitual practices instead.

But where do I start? Just Do It, of course.

Rise and Shine
So I started off with a habit that I wanted to build for a very long time: Waking Up Early. My objective is to be able to wake up at 6.30am every morning.

This is not the first time I have tried building and maintaining this habit/practice or any other habit. I have tried many, many strategies. After 2 weeks, I'd usually forget about it.

I found it strange, why was it so hard? But I didn't want to give up and keep telling myself "I am inconsistent, therefore habits don't work for me." That was such a cop-out.

So this time around I did something different: I included the Heart and Soul into the whole process, putting them in charge of my Mission Habit. And what I found was interesting. When I turned the whole thing over to my Soul, I discovered two areas that could be easily tweaked to work for me…

Spiritual Tweaks
1. Motivation: Add Love
No, not the mushy kind. Love as the reason, love as the motivation. Love as the answer to 'why?'.

Why am I building a habit of waking up early?

Firstly, for the love of my physical body, I want her feel well-rested. To wake up early, one of the strategies is to sleep early. I have this tendency to pamper my intellectual body so much that I always go online to entertain my mind or read until wee hours in the morning, and end up having not enough sleep. It’s not working for me because I cannot get by with less than 8 hours of sleep. Even 6 is a torture for me. So, by going to bed early, I am telling my physical body that I am focusing on her now, and this is my gift to her: rest, something she deserves.

Secondly, for the love of my everyday life. Waking up early is my way of embracing life fully. As I would have more time, I can go slow and easy without rushing throughout the day. This gives me time to do all that is important to me: meditation, yoga, walks at the park, journaling, etc. Also, waking up early gives me an overall sense of healthy well-being and personal power.

2. Strategy: Relinquish Control
Previously I used my personality's will to force my body and mind to do what the personality think is the best for them. This time around instead of putting my body and mind into boot camp, I took the gentle approach with this one principle: "Just show up."

This means just showing up at the time (10.30pm) and space (my bed) allocated for this habit of waking up early. No expectations for the body to sleep. Sleep is the result of being relaxed physically - you can't make sleep happen, it happens.

Also, no expectations for the mind to quit the thoughts, and go to sleep. I allow the mind to play with as many thoughts as she like while I watch. No resistance is the best way to go about it. As they say, the more you resist, the more it persists.

Support Systems for Waking Up Early
From the above, I came up with a few ways I call support systems to help set this habitual practice in motion:

1. Give it a 30-day trial (I got this idea from Steve Pavlina). Many people say when we do something consistently for 21 days, it would be conditioned as a habit. But I'd just give it an overkill and do it for 30 days. It's a trial because after 30 days, if I find that this habit do not work for me, then I can scratch it off for good.

2. Use a dual alarm clock (an idea from Vincent Cheung, read here for the concept). I prepared two alarm clocks using two cellphones:
A. Set my alarm ringtone to "Fly Me to The Moon" by Olivia Ong - the jazzy music is soft and relaxing, but enough to wake up a light sleeper.
B. Set the alarm of an old handphone to a very shrilling bell-like ringtone. I don't think anyone could sleep through the annoying sound.

3. Prepare a reward. Only one thing that would always seem better than sleep: a good book to read. So why not make it as a motivational tool instead? I figure this would certainly pull me out of bed.

Funnily though, as I tried it this morning, the reward was sort of superfluous when I reminded myself why I want to do this whole waking up early thing. So for this, I'd save it for the days when it is especially difficult to get up.

4. Write down things that are still floating in my mind in my "What's Bugging Me List?". However I don't attempt to plan my day for tomorrow as it would make me too anxious to fall asleep. Besides, I like my day to unfold naturally.

5. Sleep early. There's no way to go about it. I need my eight hours no matter what. So bedtime's 10.30pm. But, because I put no expectations on sleep, bedtime's merely rest time for my body. I am letting sleep happen. On my bed, I go through progressive relaxation several times, just focusing on every area of my body. I pay attention to my thoughts when they come up. No control. Just allowing. This takes away frustration and anxiety immensely.

With love as motivation, and a no-control, no-expectations strategy, the body and mind responds to the whole plan. The resistance I had always felt when I try to discipline myself wasn’t there. There was no struggle between this or that when I completely understood why I want to do this.

I would be doing a weekly review of my progress for this habitual practice for the next 5 weeks in my blog, so stay tuned because in the process there would always be some new discoveries.

Afformation Therapy: Using Afformation as a Mind Clearing Tool

2008-01-31T13:51:00.001+08:00

>> see here for full article: http://www.soulstudioonline.com/2008/11/afformations.html

A Weekend with the Wills

2008-01-21T22:37:00.000+08:00

This morning I woke up with a sense of fearlessness along with a sense of lightness, freedom and a healthy buzz of energy. I think it’s the effect of the Divine Wills’ energies.

Over the weekend, I was at a mind-blowing, body-sensing, heart-pulling, and soul-touching 2-day Divine Will workshop facilitated by KB at Lightworks. It was absolutely intense, energetically speaking. The physical symptoms I had been suppressing for the past two weeks all came up one by one. During the past two week, I kept resisting the headaches, tummy aches and all sorts of physical discomforts because I had a lot to do and had places to go - I couldn’t afford to fall ill. Yes, you can do that, tamper down the symptoms of falling ill. But let me tell you, when it comes, it comes like a floodgate thrown opened. And you can only hold on for so long, because often you’d feel like you are about to explode, which in a way you would.

Energy High
What happened was this: because working with the Wills meant opening up to its energies, the mind, body, spirit and heart must be opened to receive. I was feeling OK on Saturday when I started on the first and second Journeys which was about aligning the Earth Self to the Soul.

For that we have to prep the Self up to receive. At first I thought it’s just some sort of formality when the meditation lead towards Opening to Receive. So I followed suit, thinking it was just some flowery meditative text. My symbol for that was to turn my palms upward.

And receive did I, those energies. Nope, all those words to guide us on our journeys weren’t simply poetic expressions. Each and every word had a purpose. And when it said Open to Receive, that’s exactly what it was – so get ready for the waterfall of energies – which I wasn’t prepared for! v

By the time I completed the Second Journey, which was still at the preparation stage, I could feel the energy sashaying down in waves. My chakras were spinning wildly. It still felt good then. I was thrilled to meet my Soul Family as I recognized their energies.

But hmm…what was the underlying very dull and fatigued feeling?

Same Journey, Different Routes
Then the Journey started. For the first Ray, I expected it to be a strong bolt although I didn’t feel that same feeling when I did it the first time, and was slightly disappointed. When it came to calling for the discs on the crown and bottom of the spine, it felt as if a thick bolt was screwed at the sides of my head with energy buzzing between them. I was like, Ok…strong head pressures – that’s unusual.

Next, I was looking forward to Unify. It’s my favourite as it gives off a spa sensation. While it was much more feminine and gentle than the first one, it was no less powerful. Again the spinning sensations came again. I couldn’t sit at one position for long. I was shifting myself left and right, feeling aches and tiredness all over. I was completely distracted by my physical discomforts. Suddenly the journeys didn’t feel so much fun anymore.

By the third Journey, I couldn’t sit up any longer. My shoulder was stiff, my spine was achy. So I meditated lying on the floor. I thought that would be better. But this time, I drifted in and out of nothingness. I was sleeping but not sleeping. I couldn’t follow KB’s guiding voice anymore. And I was feeling restless all throughout.

Here’s when I realized, oh God, today my Higher Guides really meant business. It’s not sandbox mode anymore. At this point, the overall energy had a very strong sense of purpose. The volume had been turned on 3x higher. I found myself needing to notch myself up to fit the frequency. Oh no, it wasn’t the basic, elementary level anymore, it hit me. These guys were showing me the real deal.

In the midst of Will 3, I kept getting gentle nudges, let go, let go. I was still trying to control the symptoms you see, because I kept on the belief that I cannot afford to fall sick, not on my workshop days! Thing was, the more I resisted and closed down parts of me, afraid of losing control, the energy that came up cannot go through. And it manifested into aches.

When we got to Will 4 Harmonize, I was a wreck. Totally off my grid. Evolve tends to shake me out of my solid rock control systems. And man, did it. 3x stronger. I needed to keep bringing myself back to center, to stay still. But the physical aches were getting a bit too much. I couldn’t concentrate, and had no mood at all to participate in the sharing sessions. My throat started to dry up and hurt and I was getting chills and aches.

By the time I got to Will 5 Act, I really wished KB would just let us go home. I was nauseated by then and couldn’t really take on another Journey. But, nope, looked like whatever it was, we had to do the 5th one. I was getting anxious by then – too much energy – afraid I would really lose control. Yes, I was still resisting all the ‘odd’ things that were happening physically. So to calm myself, I told myself, I’d just rest and not follow the Journey. I slipped into a momentarily deep sleep and couldn’t remember a single thing. But at that time, my head felt like it was going to explode.

Anyway, I was really glad when it was over for that day. I had never had inner work this intense before. I was joking with my sis that I was at a soul boot camp.

Working It Out
By the end of Saturday, after the first 5 Wills, my mental state felt similar to the time when I took 3 exams for STPM. I’m not sure if it’s just me. Others looked rather calm and relaxed to me, although there’s ambience of seriousness, which I saw as an earnestness of each one of us to really learn the Wills.

But I couldn’t eat or sleep when I got home. I was weak all over and by the wee hours in the morning, I was burning up with high fever. And Panadol didn’t help.

That got me so depressed because I really wanted to finish up Sunday’s class. But looking at my condition, I was pretty sure I couldn’t make it. What to do? What to do? I really had no more energy to control. And so, I surrendered. Apathy can sometimes help. No more worrying whether the fever will let up. I allowed my symptoms to pop up while asking Raphael and Azrael to hold a space of comfort and resilience so I could get through those discomforts. Then I fell asleep.

I never realized how powerful that request was.

Because at 8 when I woke up, eventhough I was still burning up with fever, I actually felt strong enough to make my way to Lightworks. Under normal circumstances, I would have probably crashed. So I knew I was having extra help. I doubled the space of comfort up by calling to Michael, Raphael and Azrael again, cleansing my energy field with my quartzes and bringing along my trusty grounding tourmaline stone. So off I went to another day of intense energy work. Yes, it all helped, I was so grateful. All this also helped me build up the faith and confidence that Universal help is always readily available. Ask and it is given, especially so when it’s for the highest purpose.

Hot for the Wills
By Sunday I was doing all the DW journeys with a temperature of 39°C – high fever according to my doctor (yes eventually after the class I went straight to the doctor – whether or not they were detox symptoms, better not push it since I was feeling completely weak). I’m glad I went through Sunday. It certainly looked like my Soul was adamant that Earth Lily completed the Initiations!

The first thing I did before the class started was to conserve energy and ground myself. I meditated for a few minutes and that helped a lot. Will 6 Cause actually moved in to soften the effects down. I felt better. Will 7 was good too – I had always enjoyed working with the Sacred Violet Flame. I guess these two Wills were easier because I wasn’t holding on to anything much anymore, since I was already feeling sick anyway. No need propping myself up for perfect health anymore.

But the rest of the Journeys was hard on my system. I was thinking, how much more I would enjoy the workshop if it weren’t for the fever. Now I realized it was all part of the process. It was all an energy detox and integration episode for me. Throughout the 12 journeys, I could feel the energy shifting from my crown, ajna (third eye), all the way to my lower abdomens. The energy was going up and down, up and down. Good news was I discovered a way to ease up the resistance using my breath. All in all, the key was releasing and surrendering with trust that the Soul knows what she’s doing.

The Lion in Me
Hence, this sense of fearlessness this morning. I learned if we can trust and release, we’d see how the Earth Self isn’t the only one in the evolution process, blindly alone in the Journey. We are supported 24-7. This fearlessness is an inner security, knowing that the Universe is safe enough.

This fearlessness, also meant I have found the courage to acknowledge all of me: the good, the bad and the ugly. It is being willing to be vulnerable, giving up control and recognizing everything the personality is. Because we are not in this alone. There’s help within and without. Remember we have an entire team of Ray Masters as well as our Soul Family and the angels.

I found it strange why what manifested for me were mostly physical discomforts. Usually I would feel it emotionally first. I would feel the energies as love, power, joy – all the full range. At this workshop, it was just a monotonous feeling – apart from being annoyed and worried and anxious about what’s happening in my body.

I can see it now. This is the best part about journaling. Insights come in nicely. I know that I have always been tuned in to my emotional and mental body more – I feel connected to them more than I do with my body. As I have written in my previous blog post, it’s time to honor my body. I do think it’s a manifestation of that intention. To be whole, mind, body spirit must be connected. This workshop made me pay full attention to whatever that was going on physically. Truly, many levels of growth were at full spin during the weekend.

Room to Flow
For me, the two-day workshop was more like an Initiation, rather than a study session. Some had been wondering why I wanted to attend it considering I already knew how to work with the Wills and making good progress with it. I didn’t know why either. When I first started on the Wills, I knew it was just a teaser. Intuitively I knew that there were more to the Wills for me.

I went to class with zero expectations but with a strange sense of anxiety, as if there was an impending change. True enough, as I reflect now, it was about integrating the energies of the Rays within my Self. What this workshop did for me was to hold a space for me to connect more directly with my Soul so that the energies of the rays could be transmitted to me.

I couldn’t do that on my own. An energy space is best held through a group. So everyone who was there wasn’t a mere coincidence. I recognized who they were – some were energetically familiar. Many of them were already highly evolved and well along their path of evolution. There were teachers and healers among them. Some were already very tuned into their clairs and many of them radiated inner strength and a sense of purpose. Already, the energy showed this wasn’t elementary level. Subdued as it may seem to be, I felt it was more like quiet intensity.

On my side, that was just what I needed – a safe supportive space to receive the energies of the Rays. I recognize the service of everyone to me as I am to them. KB, being the facilitator, created an effective and beautiful space to allow the flow of energies between heaven and earth and for us to create a spiritual connection with each other. The others contributed to strengthen the space by being the light that they were, with their unique qualities and talents that they hold within them.

So, in my experience, the objective of the workshop for me wasn’t learning about the Wills. But I enjoyed all the textual descriptions because there were really many things I wasn’t aware about! I especially enjoyed the parts from RLP and Alice Bailey about the 7 Rays. And to be frank, I still haven’t properly grasped the intellectual concepts for Will 5 and Will 6 just yet.

It was more of an energetic attunement for me. All throughout I could sense my Higher Guides, my angels surrounding me, giving me strong nudges to open myself more, drop my resistances and take in the energy.

In terms of inner energy, I could feel myself almost at the max limit, somewhat like, if I went one more step further, I would completely pass out. I felt as if my head was going to explode and my ajna was throbbing continuously throughout. I had never had my Higher Guides work this hard on me before. I kept mentally saying, gently now, gently now. And I kept hearing, you can do it, you can do it. Hence the push and pull within my physical body.

And they knew I could do it. Deep down I knew I could go further as well, yet I was just so afraid of losing control – like perhaps I would faint, fly to lalaland, never come back and go crazy. It sounds totally amusing as I type this out now.

But let me tell you, this fear is very prominent in my life. I am afraid to ‘see’ although I know I could. I am afraid to recognize the voices that nudge at the edge of my mind. I am afraid of speaking the wisdoms that could have never come from my Earth Self. I am afraid to land on the higher realms even though I am already at the threshold. It’s always a peek-a-boo game with my clairs and my spiritual abilities. Sometimes I want it and sometimes I fear it. And all that was hitting on my ajna (third eye) really hard. This was my resistance. But I know, and my whole spiritual team knows I can do it. I realize now that if there’s one thing that I am not expressing, it is my spiritual side. Until I can completely embrace that I would always feel frustrated within.

Will I Am
As I pen this now, I have a completely different view of the Rays. All throughout the many Journeys, there was one consistent theme for me. It’s a strong feeling that it wasn’t learning something new. It was more like reclaiming back what I have forgotten. I felt as if I was taking back the ‘tools of power’ that my Higher Guides were safeguarding for me until I am ready and consciously intend to claim it back. Call me arrogant, but the way I experience it is as if I am not ‘requesting’ these powers from the 7 Great Ones. When I call on them, I felt as if I am reclaiming back my birthright. When I connect and request for the powers, I am integrating with my Higher Self for my natural skills that had been dormant all this time. Simple as that. Now I know why the Wills feel so familiar as if I have worked with them before, because I had!

I understand that these are merely pure energies, ready for me to create something with them. It’s like writing skills – I have them, but it doesn’t mean I would always use these skills to write. Essentially it is a tool for communication. I can still communicate verbally. Or I need not necessary write articles or novels – I could just express this natural skill through poetry or lyrics. Or perhaps I don’t want to use words at all. I could make my ideas visual instead.

Like the essence of writing skills, which is to communicate ideas, the essence of the DW energies is ultimately for transformation. How I am going to use these energies is all up to me. And that’s my next step in working with the DWs. I am excited to explore what I am going to do with them. Right now, it feels as if I have just got a new set of Playdoh, and it’s waiting there for me to form something beautiful with it.

Yes, I can feel the energies of the Wills integrated within me. It’s not the end of it of course, it would continue to evolve and grow as I grow and evolve. And like KB said, it can only grow more in power when we make use of it – or else I would ‘lose’ it like I had once upon a time ago…

It’s a beautiful process how the Divine Wills turned out for me. Before, during the first phase when I tried out the DWs on my own, it felt more like ‘borrowing’ the energy to test it out. They were familiar, yet I didn’t feel connected to them deeply.

But now I do. Because now the Rays are part of me as I am part of them.

At the back of the additional information manual prepared by KB, he put this down in big bold words.

‘Take a moment to say:
“I AM the soul. I AM the Divine Self. I AM Divine Will. I AM!”'

And that’s precisely what the Divine Will is for me. I Am, in fact, the Divine Will itself.

Simple Ways to Revitalize Yourself with Nature’s Energy

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Energy is infinitely available everywhere you are. When you are feeling drained and out of sorts, there’s always Nature to give you that instant energetic boost. I found these few ways to work with Nature's energy while on a working holiday to Tanjong Jara Resort just recently. Give it a try and see if they work for you too. Good news is, it's all free, fun and fast.

TO RECHARGE YOU - for an instant fill of energy
Feeling drained, lifeless and fatigued? Connect with these powerful elements that hold a ceaseless flow of energy.

* Go here for techniques to connect with elements.

Father Solar for the Sun energy, the Moon energy, the Star energy and the Sky energy
Connect with the elements through intention by mentally saying or saying out loud that you wish to connect to them, and then visualize the energy coming down to you from above into your crown. Then imagine yourself being filled up from your crown to your toes like a bottle being filled up with water. Then see yourself radiate that energy out. Breathe deeply. Say thank you.

A Big Tree
Mentally say or say out loud that you wish you connect to the Frangipani Tree/Mango Tree/Palm Tree/etc. The older and the bigger the tree the better, but choose one you have good feelings about. Some trees would just stand out to you. Don’t pick a dead looking tree, of course. You can make physical contact with the tree if possible. Sit under it with your back against the trunk, hold the trunk, hug the tree, etc. See yourself and tree in a protective Golden White Bubble. Appreciate the presence of the tree by noticing its form, its color, its scent. Then see the tree energy enveloping you with its nurturing energy. (If you have seen Celestine Prophecy you can imagine the same energy connection process) Breathe in the energy. Say thank you.

Waves from the Ocean
Connect with the waves through intention (same as the above). The stronger the waves, the better. Face the ocean with the wind in your face and listen to the sound of the waves. Each time the waves move forward, imagine they are radiating energy to you. Inhale as the waves flow to you and exhale as the waves ebb. See yourself being filled with energy. Say thank you.

Waterfalls
Connect with the waterfall through intention. Focus on the rush of sound of the water falling and hitting the pool, like the continuous whoosh . Imagine yourself underneath the waterfall and as the water falls on you, imagine sparkling light permeating your skin and into your entire being. See yourself being filled with energy. Breathe deeply and say thank you.

Fresh Air
Connect with the air by verbalizing your intention. Notice your breath for 7 counts as you inhale and exhale deeply. Continue breathing deeply. Now zoom in to each breath and see the air molecules as balls of energy sparkling with light. With each inhalation, see these balls of energy releasing the light and energy inside your body. Hold the breath for a few counts, visualizing the balls now vacuuming in your stress and discomfort. As you exhale, see these balls which are holding your discomforts being released back to Mother Earth for recycling. Do this until you can see your entire body being filled with light and you feel really good and energetic. Say thank you.

TO GROUND YOU – for centering yourself and feeling firmly rooted to Earth
Feeling a little light-headed, as if too much nervous energy is running everywhere in you? Ground yourself with these natural elements.

Mother Earth
Connect with Mother Earth by verbalizing your intention. Have both your feet planted firmly on the ground. It’s best to have as much contact with the Earth as possible. If you can, lie down on the ground outdoors (where there’s natural earth), or sit down with your sitting bone pointing down straight. Now imagine a cord extending from your spine and going down to the core of the earth. Breathe slowly and deeply. With each exhalation, see your nervous energy or excess energy going down this cord into the core of the earth. Continue until you feel yourself relaxing. Say thank you.

A Big Tree
Connect with a strong, sturdy tree. Establish some physical contact with the tree (similar to the above). Straighten your spine whether you are sitting or standing, in a proud and strong posture. Feel the tree shadowing you now. Imagine the tree is sending you its grounding energy. See roots of energy coming out from your feet, and spine. They are strong like the roots of the tree and they weave themselves horizontally on the ground, clutching to the earth before extending downwards to search for Earth’s nutrients. See your excess energy, or dizziness flow down via these roots. Breathe slowly and deeply. Relax. Say thank you.

A Stone
Pick up a stone, a pebble or a rock and hold it in your hand. This works with crystals too. Connect to the stone. Truly feel the stone: the texture, the form, the weight, the temperature. Imagine the energy of the stone slowing down the frantic pace of your nervous energy. Breathe slowly and deeply. Relax. Say thank you.

TO COMFORT YOU – for getting you back to a relaxed state when uncomfortable feelings hit you.
Feeling angry, depressed, lonely and any lower vibrating emotions can be extremely uncomfortable. But feelings must be allowed fully to facilitate healing because they give you clues on what’s going on inside you. This technique assists you to focus on your center space, so you can observe your feelings instead of being completely overtaken by them.

Colorful Plants or Flowers, A Big Tree, Etc
Connect with anything you see in Nature that attracts your attention. Appreciate it fully – the color, the texture, the shape, the size, etc. You can reach out and caress the leaves, petals or stalk. Breathe in slowly and deeply while allowing your feelings to ebb and flow in you.

Water Elements (pond, sea, stream)
Connect to the water element. Close your eyes and listen to the sounds of water whether it’s a bubbling brook or the crashing of waves. Whatever you are feeling, let it come. When it passes, you can do the grounding techniques or recharging techniques above.

The Sky
If it’s a clear day, connect to the sky. Feel the clear sky in your mind, then bring it down to your heart and then to areas where you feel the uncomfortable emotions. Imagine those areas become as spacious as the skies, and allow your feelings to move like clouds in that space.

TO FEEL LOVED – for reminding ourselves that we are love
We all experience days when we feel lonely, unloved, unsupported, ignored or simply empty and passion-less for life. This is a call for love. As love is what we are made of, and there is an infinite pool of love within us, you needn’t go searching for it outside yourself. All you need is a trigger to bring your loving energy back to your conscious state.

The Sun and Stars
The sun and stars are powerful love triggers. The sun represents warmth and a consistent bright, happy and joyous state. The stars represent our light within, steady, strong and beautiful. Connect to them for triggering love inside you. Picture these elements in your heart center, imagining their light and qualities drawing out the same qualities out from you.

All of Mother Earth
Everything you can see, hear, feel, touch and sense in Nature is love. And every leaf, every grain of sand, every blade of grass is radiating unconditional love.

Connect to an element of nature that you feel attracted to, and imagine its loving energy enveloping you. Breathe in this energy, let it flow to your heart. See this energy spark a light in your heart. See this light in your heart grow bigger and bigger until it fills your entire being. Feel your heart area getting warmer and fully experience the pleasant feelings that arise.

These exercises may open you up to a higher connection with nature. It takes great trust and patience, but when practised many times, it becomes second nature to generate the energy, love and light that you need on your own, through the help of Mother Earth.