Only--This

With Gratitude

2008-07-01T22:48:00.007-04:00

In this story
of me
One can say
I am a lucky man.

For I met a stranger
who clearly
relentlessly
and with great Compassion
pointed to a gift.

A gift
that I had forgotten to open
for many....many years.

Implode

2008-06-26T12:24:00.015-04:00

I was listening to the endless chatter of mind and could feel how it feels like a me doing the chattering. Then I could feel what it felt like to feel I had control over the chattering or the voice. I watched the belief that I am in control of the voice in my head. How it really feels to feel like there is an "I" who has control.

The whole me and control is bullshit . Its just another Santa clause! Just another experience taken to be real. This is really a cool thing.

And then to see that the" I knowing" is bullshit too.

And then to see that this entire post is all just more mind dream stuff.

And to see that the mind dream stuff is just more mind dream stuff .....

And I have a front row seat

watching
the whole thing implode on itself, ......all day long!!!!

I Shine

2008-06-19T10:48:00.004-04:00

In a dark
endless ocean
of One....

I Shine

Lighting the One
with itself
to see itself..

Shining

Light

2008-05-31T10:08:00.005-04:00

The only thing that separates me from you...
is a thought.

My World

2008-05-16T18:24:00.005-04:00

Lost in thought....
Lost in an endless story
of me,
of the world,
of you.

Lost
no more.

I am
Here.
I am
Now.
I am
Aware.

Watching me
lost in a endless story
of me,
of the world,

of you.

One

2008-05-07T13:02:00.002-04:00

On the dark side of the moon,
three feet under the ground,
is a rock.

Whatever is doing that rock.....

Is doing you.

The Love That Is

2008-05-07T12:28:00.007-04:00

God..........
All I see is you.

God...........
All I know is you.

God..........
All there is... is you.

God..........
I
am
you

Circus

2008-03-15T18:35:00.003-04:00

Really,

The greatest show on Earth is looking out your eyes!

Orion's Belt

2008-03-14T12:11:00.006-04:00

Standing on a warm beach,
I look up into the night sky
in awe of the sheer vastness and greatness of it all.

Listening to the night air.

Smelling the great Ocean.

I feel the sand beneath my feet
and sense all that can be experienced
here and now.

My mind lulled quiet by the waves....

In that moment..
It was clearly seen
that this is nothing in comparison to the greatest wonder of them all.

The wonder that Knows.

Great Laughter

2008-02-01T12:12:00.000-05:00

There is no me...
There is only me.

All

2008-01-31T08:54:00.000-05:00

I,
You,
Us,
Them,
Yes,
No,
In,
Out,
Love,
Hate,
This,
That,
.......All God.

Nothing without you.

2008-01-27T16:08:00.000-05:00

Without you.
Within you.
Around you.
Beside you.
No you.
All you.

Never. Not for a split second.
Has it been...Not you.

You are it ALL.

Miracle

2008-01-27T15:35:00.000-05:00

This play that is happening in you is a absolute miracle.
How mind blowing complex....
And so utterly simple you are.
You are so complete .
You are home....always home.
Here.
Now.
Awake.
Everything moving in you, and never moving you.
You are the light and what the light appears in.

Its all you.

It always has been just you.
You are the love...

You...
are the miracle.

Free

2008-01-25T10:45:00.000-05:00

A blazing fire
on a star and moonlit beach,
I dance around.

Waving my arms towards
the sky..
I chant and sing.

Free.

Knowing.....
I am the fire.

All I know is This

2008-01-19T20:50:00.000-05:00

All I really have ever known is This.
This realized dream is all I have ever known.
In this dream I can see a doer and seer.
In this dream , the dreamer can see the dream.
Reality......Dream.......Its all the same.
Anything one can realize is still the dream.
......................
Something knows this.........

Is this something that knows this still the dream and how do we really know....
......................
This dream is both real and unreal. Don't you see....

42 Years of knowing has shattered into unknowing.....

and what sees the fragments.

What would it be like.

2008-01-10T11:40:00.001-05:00

What if somehow it was realized, all that is ever witnessed is this moment, and this moment is both real and unreal.

What if it was realized that "I" am both real and unreal.

What if it was realized that everything is both real and unreal.

What if it was realized that this realization itself is both real and unreal.

What would it be like....

So now what....

2008-01-04T18:36:00.000-05:00

So I have somehow seen that I have no idea what is going on. All I have to figure anything out with is my own mind. And what exactly is my mind? It is seen to be another concept of my mind. So all is mind. EVERYTHING IS MY MIND!! Even that knowing presence or seeing or whatever is watching is also just more mind stuff. What ever I think or say or do or believe or not believe or know or not know is all MIND. No way out or in because that is also mind. Even "THAT" is just more mind! The sense that "I am That" is also mind stuff. The sense of I or Oneness is also mind! This present moment or the Now is my mind. Anything and everything I or not I could ever come up with is ALL MY MIND!

So now what......

A quote by Randall Friend

2007-12-27T12:40:00.000-05:00

"What I am is just this shining presence, the open space in which all this "stuff" happens. I am never touched by any of it! I don't change, I can't think, I can't use words or make decisions, I can't feel or speak. I simply watch.

I have no body with which to feel, to move around. I have no mind to store memories, to accumulate time, to run off into the future seeking some goal.

I have no goals, I have no life, I have no self. All these appear in what I am!

I am simple, ordinary, everyday awareness."

Wind

2007-12-09T21:15:00.000-05:00

I am being slowly worn down
by the wind.
Sometimes it is gentle and warm
with the smell of spring.

Other times...

It is painful and strong,
sand filled and cold.

Either way
I am being slowly worn down
by the wind.
Until all that remains is
wind.

I don't know

2007-12-09T20:52:00.000-05:00

I can honestly say that I don't know anything.

but....

Something knows that.

Forgiveness

2007-11-29T12:45:00.000-05:00

Growing up in a strict Catholic home, I heard a lot about forgiveness. But I never really understood it. I learned that I have to forgive people of wrong doing, or pray to God for forgiveness of my sins.

Why? I thought.

Lately, A new light is shining on that word.
It is seen that what I am, IS forgiveness.
All there is, IS forgiveness.
Every new moment...
Forgiveness.

Storms

2007-11-26T22:26:00.000-05:00

Sitting here, it's quiet.
Just the humm of a distant thought..
Another thunderstorm
come and gone.
and all that's left is the smell of
sweet rain....

Simple

2007-11-24T21:15:00.000-05:00

Can you believe that everything you perceive is That?
That Ising.
Sitting here in front of a warm late November fire,
It again is realized that EVERYTHING is That.
Every person you have ever met is being Issed right now.
By That.
Thoughts about long lost loves and friends and family spill thru my mind.
Wow, they are all That too.
How simple.
No story.......Just this.

How is it possible

2007-11-24T21:04:00.000-05:00

How is it possible
That you are.
How did I miss that you were
never away from me.

Never.

How is it that I see you
everywhere.
How is it possible that I am you
and you are me.

Shovel

2007-11-21T14:18:00.001-05:00

With a shovel

I dig in sand.

With each throw....not this....not that.

Yet the sand fills the

hole again.

Until the shovel is thrown away,

And I am

buried by

Love