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Happy Holidays !

2007-12-30T21:54:00.000-03:30

Hope you all enjoy yourselves:)

Feel free to tell me about it lol.

An Awesome Music Video !

2007-12-22T16:38:00.000-03:30

Alicia Keys Like You'll Never See Me Again

Music Video Codes By Music Jesus.com

Ugly Thoughts From Uglies

2007-10-11T18:42:00.000-02:30

...DON'T LOOK AT ME!

Get the f***ing camera out my face!

I bring shame to my family.

Don't f***ing stare at me!!

I should just kill myself.

I'm a f***ing disgrace...

I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH.

I'm ashamed...

Do not f***ing smile at me!

I should burn in hell.

I'm jealous of the pretty.

I WISH I WAS DEAD!

I'm always JUDGED...

...I AM F***ING UGLY!!

A Letter To You

2007-10-06T19:32:00.000-02:30

It could be love thing, maybe just something that you do not want heard... Letters make secrets more smoothly said. For some, it's less embarrassing, less of a haggle to find words... Letters make emotions come out on paper, escaping the reality of face-to-face reactions.
Have you ever noticed that sometimes you can't tell someone your feelings in their face? Have you ever noticed the nervous, anxious feeling of telling someone a deep secret that you never even said aloud? Forgetting love, how about times when you just can't tell someone something due to their reactions? Or the words won't come out right? LETTERS... Well they saved me a lot of times.

"So many things to say,

I'll put 'em in a letter...

Thought it might be easier,

The words might come out better."

Anyone ever wrote out secrets on letters because of confrontational guilt? How about repressing feelings that you can't seem to say right? LETTERS... Well they can relieve a lot of us.

Yeah...

2007-10-05T14:48:00.000-02:30

"IM SO PIMP,

MY BITCHES SLAP

EACHTOHER!"

Sexy Celebrities !

2007-09-29T07:55:00.000-02:30

Not everyone can be natural! Lol.

PEIRCED !

2007-09-22T23:24:00.000-02:30

I like peircings;

but...

Not as much as them!

RRRRR !

2007-09-20T19:00:00.000-02:30

I FU**ING HATE YOU,
IF I COULD DO TO YOU WHAT I FEEL
IT WILL NOT BE PLEASANT.
NO, YOU WILL NOT DIE FROM IT
BUT YOU WILL NOT FEEL COMFORTABLE.
DEATH IS BUT A RELEASE THAT YOU WILL BE BEGGING FOR.
I CANNOT STAND YOU
AND EVERYTHING THAT YOU SYMBOLIZE.
YOU ARE A SPEK,
A MINUTE INSIGNIFICANT PIECE OF GARBAGE
THAT TAKES UP SPACE!!
YOUR FUTURE I CURSE.
I CURSE THE CURSE THAT CURSES THE CURSE THAT CURSES YOU.
AND DAMN IT ALL TOGETHER!!
YOU ARE A TOY THAT IS ONLY TO BE USED BY
THE GENERAL PUBLIC FOR
SELF SATISFACTION AND FOR YOUR MUTILATION.
I PITY THE PERSON THAT HAS TO BEAT YOU WITH A ROCK
FOR HAVING TO USE UP THE ENERGY TO BEAT YOU WITH IT.
YOU ARE GOOD FOR NOTHING!
AND SOCIETY WILL NOT EVER ACCEPT YOU EVER AGAIN!!
JUST NOW THAT I DREAM OF HURTING YOU,
BREAKING YOU
AND DESTROYING THAT WHICH GIVES YOU LIFE!!
I HATE YOU,
DESPISE,
LOATH,
AND DETEST YOU WITH ALL THAT CAN BE HUMAN PLUS SOME MORE!

DAMN CELL PHONE OF MINE!!

Wow !

2007-09-16T00:51:00.000-02:30

"I don't like crack...

I just like sniffing it."

A rather interesting conversation with my friend lol. Oh, && if you don't get it, don't hurt yourself trying to figure it out.

United

2007-09-13T14:42:00.000-02:30

"United we stand,

Divided we fall."

The war in Iraq is devastating. Simple as that. It's just devastating from us losing our people, to losing our friends, family, lovers, sons && daughters... This whole world seems to be on the merge of dying in a nuclear war. Doesn't matter who started it - Iraq or the U.S. About 2,873 of our American soldiers have died && 21,572 have been wounded. On the other hand, the Iraqis have about 71,308 – 77,864 dead. Now don't say "Oh yes, that's a good thing!" IT'S NOT! Since 2,873 American soldiers have died. Imagine it this way, some are your friends, family, kids, spouse/wife! That is dreadful && not a yay. Depressing. I wish the world could come to an agreement, && not the agreement that Osama Bin Laden sent in his tape (find out about it yourself because I'm not mentioning it). If the world was united, there will be no war. If the world was united, no more death upon soldiers. If the world was UNITED... Well that's self explainatory.

Naughty, Naughty

2007-09-11T14:53:00.000-02:30

His lips, his muscles, or even his cologne. Him being gentle, saucy, or maybe rather nasty. Her breast, her legs, or even her perfume. Her being shy, kinky, or even rather dirty.

What turns you on!?

I Was Judged

2007-09-08T13:39:00.000-02:30

"I don't say only god can judge me

'cuz i see things clear..."

If a man was in jail for 6 years for man slaughter, would you let him into your house? If a young boy went to juvenile for constant theft, would you trust him? If a young girl was a prostitute for 3 years, would you leave her alone with your husband? If a woman was hitting her children, would you let her take care of your kids? If a man was a player, do you trust him to love you?
They are judged because of something they did in the past? They are judged because they will do it again? People are judged because of something they did, will do, might do, && can do. The above people... Everything is WAS. Why do people still judge them?

Angel Baby

2007-09-05T18:09:00.000-02:30

Under the bed?

No, they'll check their first.

The closet?

No, too risky.

In the bathroom?

No, too obvious.

I had to think quickly.

I hear their footsteps comming closer...

Closer screaming my name.

I quickly go under the bed.

A drunk man goes in my room first;

"Where the fu** are you, bastard!?"

The drunk woman comes in following;

"Piece of sh**, child! I'm going to kill you!"

They check the closet,

They run to the bathroom...

They come back into my room;

The woman calling my name sweetly,

The man searching;

flipping things over,
breaking things,

pounding on the wall.

"The bed..." whispers the man...

"That bastard sh** better not be under there!" yells the woman.

I was there silent;

creeped against the wall,

trembling in fear.

I see eyes looking at me;

Glaring, then an evil laugh.

"Get the fu** over here!!" she yells.

Her nails seep into my skin;

pulling my leg,

ripping my pants shred by shred trying to get me.

I kick,

I fight,

I lose.

She got me;

I'm hanging by my neck,

she squeezes && the man laughs.

I can't even breathe.

Then the man slaps my face,

Hits my little stomach,

Punches me everywhere....

I'm on the floor,

bleeding, crying...

The woman && man go away satisfied.

I hear their laughter as I close my eyes.

Everything goes silent,

I silently whisper to myself;

"I love you Mommy & Daddy, always...

No matter what, No matter what..."

Everything goes silent,

The blood keeps comming out.

What's Your Month? =)

2007-09-03T10:04:00.000-02:30

JANUARY
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart.

FEBURARY
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. A real speed demon. Has more than one best friend. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honestand loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind andsympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/ormake them laugh. Able to motivate oneself andothers. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and travelling. A great kisser. Systematic. Hot but has brains.

APRIL
Attractive personality.Very sexy. Affectionate & Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Chatterbox! Loves to talk alot. Loves to get their way. Easily Angered. Very stubborn in the most way possible. Loves to get noticed. Willing to take risks for others. Makes good choices. Has a great fashion sense. Popular personalities. Outgoing. Intelligent. Hates insults. Loves compliments. Flirtatious. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to hold in feelings.

MAY
Stubborn. Hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislikes being at home. Restless. Loves children. Hardworking. High spirited.

JUNE
Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boy/girls love you. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hard working. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurtbut takes long to recover.

JULY
You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt. Like somebody with an August brithday. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. When it comes to films, you know how to pick them! Likes children. Caring. Loves to be loved.

AUGUST
Outgoing personality. Takes risks. Feeds onattention. No self control. Kind hearted. Selfconfident. Loud and boisterous. Very revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an "everything's peachy" attitude. Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted but gets the task done. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves to be loved. Hates studying. In need of "that someone". Longs for freedom. Horny. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. Lives by "no pain no gain." Caring. Always a suspect. Playful. Brave. Mysterious."Charming"or "Beautiful" to everyone. Stubborn. Curious. Independent. Strong willed. A fighter.

SEPTEMBER
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand. Great match with some body in june.

OCTOBER
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Great in bed. Inner and physical beauty. Doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. A meaningful love life partner. Makes right choices. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Does not harm others. It is all about love and fairness. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Day dreamer. Likes to please. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Knows what to do to have fun. Unpredictable. Horny. Someone to have close to you.

NOVEMBER
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind.

DECEMBER
Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating. Kinky. Tends to delay.

My Resolutions II

2007-09-02T12:20:00.000-02:30

Previously posted, I listed some resolutions I made.

Now I'm going to tell you guys if I did them or not.

1. Control Anger.
Well, sad to say, I can't help it! It's a part of me I grew up with. I'm controlling it slowly but it still comes out every now && then. I will still confess it's not like I changed it. Am working on it though lol.

2. Stop cussing.
This one isn't really hard for me. I don't really cuss much except in my head ;))

3. Stop breaking hearts.
That one I stopped! Yay me lol. If you don't know, I like to have "variety" so I can't have eyes for only one person. However, I changed that immature game. Now I only have eyes for the one I'm with/will be with.

4. Stop dragging.
Yep, officially stopped yesterday. Now for those that don't know what that means, it's basically smoking. When I was with my friends && they were smoking, I'd drag, which is taking puffs. It wasn't hard for me considering it was just when I was in the mood, && hey, it wasn't cigarrettes all the time.

5. Control eating.
I have controlled it. Now I eat when I'm hungry, not because I just feel like it lol. That one was pretty easy though :)

6. Wax eyebrows.
That one is officially not a resolution... I decided that I don't really need to do that. Not that I punked down, I just like my eyebrows lol.

Move Along, Friend

2007-08-30T21:06:00.000-02:30

From the happiest moments, to the worst moments, friends have always been there for you. Friends are always there to give you advice, help you grow, help you mature, make you a better person... etc. When you're troubled, you always have a friend to confide to. Some friends, however, become to dependent on their friend. Friends can be with you for your whole life. Some move! I know many people that have currupted their life ever since their friend moved. Not only were they being very mischevious but they had absolutley no idea what they were doing! && when that long ago friend came by... Not only did they not "know" each other, but they were two seperate people. && when that friend's world turned upside down, that friend could do nothing to help them. The only thing that friend could do was go back to their place && carry that heavy memory of their once good friend.

Yay Me !

2007-08-27T23:21:00.000-02:30

Happy Birthday to me!!!

*I'll keep the age a secret*

I'll tell you how everything went tomorrow. I'm really excited, all my buddies are buying me something lol. On my birthday, I like things to be fresh, kind of like a new me. That's why the resolutions were made. So don't worry, I'm still the same Nefty, just a different attitude:] Well talk to you guys tomorrow.

My Resolutions...

2007-08-26T21:04:00.000-02:30

Some resolutions I made for the better...

1. Control anger.
2. Stop cussing.
3. Stop breaking hearts.
4. Stop puffing.
5. Control eating.
6. Wax eyebrows lol.

Need I explain? These are just resolutions I'm making to make the better of me. I'm having a little trouble, but hopefully I can get through them. I'll tell you guys how everything goes. So far, I haven't done any, but will lol.

What You Heard?

2007-08-25T21:24:00.000-02:30

"Put a dick

in your ear

&& fuck

what you heard!!!"

Thank Your Mom...

2007-08-21T14:03:00.000-02:30

When you were 15,
your mom came home from work,looking for a hug.
You thanked her by having your bedroom door locked.

When you were 16,
she taught you how to drive her car.
You thanked her by taking it every chance you could.

When you were 17,
she was expecting an important call.
You thanked her by being on the phone all night.

When you were 18,
she cried at your high school graduation.
You thanked her by staying out partying until dawn.

When you were 19,
she paid for your college tuition,
drove you to campus, and carried your bags.
You thanked her by saying good-bye outside the dorm so you wouldn't be embarrassed infront of your friends.

When you were 25,
she helped to pay for your wedding,
and she cried and told you how deeply she loved you.
You thanked her by moving halfway across the country.

When you were 50,
she fell ill and needed you to take care of her.
You thanked her by reading about the burden parents to their children.

And then, one day, she quietly died.
And everything you never did came crashing down like thunder on YOUR heart.

I Must Hate God...

2007-08-20T18:13:00.000-02:30

"I don't go to church,

so I must praise the Devil."

Once thing that really bothers me is when people ask me if I believe in God. It's nothing personal but I don't see why they need to know...? Anyhows, a "friend" asked me, and I was like, "yeah", plain && simple. So then he asks if I go to church, plain && simple I said "no." Then he starts talking smack saying that I "worship" the Devil. So I basically tell him I don't need to go to church to believe in God, && even if I don't go to church that doesn't mean I promote the Devil. Of course by then I was cussing like a sailor... It just bugs me when religious people think the "un-church-goers" hate God.

Two-Faced

2007-08-17T13:14:00.000-02:30

There's nothing worser than having a friend pretend to be someone they're not to "get along" with you. There's nothing worser than having a friend that you tell them something, a secret, && you have to worry about him/her telling someone else. There's nothing worser than having a friend backstab you. There's nothing worser than having a friend betray you. There's nothing worser than having a friend slowly bring you down. There's nothing worser than having a friend use you. There's nothing worser than having a friend pretending to like you to get popular. There's nothing more worser than a two-faced friend.

Girl Language...

2007-08-14T08:29:00.000-02:30

If I dont call you...
[ its because im waiting for you to call me ]

When I walk away from you mad...
[ follow me ]

When I stare at your mouth...
[ kiss me ]

When I push you or hit you...
[ grab me and dont let go ]

When I start cussing at you...
[ kiss me and tell me you love me ]

When I'm quiet...
[ ask me whats wrong ]

When I ignore you...
[ give me your attention ]

When I pull away...
[ pull me back ]

When you see me at my worst...
[ tell me im beautiful ]

When you see me start crying...
[ hold me and tell me everything will be alright ]

When you see me walking...
[ sneak up and hug my waist from behind ]

When I'm scared...
[ protect me ]

When I lay my head on your shoulder...
[ tilt my head up and kiss me ]

When I grab at your hands...
[ hold mine and play with my fingers ]

When I tease you...
[ tease me back and make me laugh ]

When I don't answer for a long time...
[ reassure me that everything is okay ]

When I look at you with doubt...
[ back yourself up ]

When I say that I love you...
[ believe me ]

When I bump into you...
[ bump into me back and make me laugh]

When I tell you a secret...
[ keep it safe and untold]

When I look at you in your eyes...
[ dont look away until i do]

When I miss you...
[ im hurting inside ]

When you break my heart...
[ the pain never really goes away ]

When I say it's over...
[ i still want you to be mine ]

SORRY !

2007-08-14T08:00:00.000-02:30

To everyone that wondered why I was gone,

my freaking internet wouldn't work!

So I am back.

I missed you all:]

I worried a lot of my readers, but yeah, I'm okay :]]

Old School Love

2007-07-13T15:12:00.000-02:30

You all know that I mainly only chill with boys, so they always ask me how to be sweet && flattering when they first start dating a girl. Top things they ask me if buying them flowers, teddy bears, chocolates, candy... is wack. (LOL!) Well, sometimes it gets hard for me to answer because I'm a rowdy chick. To me, it's okay for the flowers. Chocolates && candy seem a little too jumpy. "Jumpy" as in it's basically old school && doing things unique to show them you're feeling them is more interesting rather than doing things that everyone else does. I tell them it's okay but it's kind of an old move to do. It's sweet but I always tell them to be a little more unique, be unforgettable.