tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-39670082009-11-09T06:58:31.615ZA light hearted look at anxiety, panic attacks and the rollercoaster ride that is life!nikkihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17738779310180551793nikki@littleme1969.freeserve.co.ukBlogger229125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3967008.post-50259126919061847672009-01-03T17:08:00.003Z2009-01-03T17:52:33.812Z

The joy that is being gibbering again... NOT!! Im so glad that the mind forgets how bad it feels over time otherwise we would never get well. Living with a servere anxiety disorder can really get me down at times and the worst of it has been mainly due to fact that before this happened again I was so well, meaning I had that much further to fall :(. My brain was stuck in normal nothing gets to

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What is it about me saying I'm well, that means within weeks I'm going to be a gibbering wreck again..lolI think its called tempting fate :( Well I have to say the past three and a half years despite the odd blip have been really good. Ive had long periods with little or no symptoms and have been able to do stuff I haven't done for years. Its been great, so Its bloody hard to go back to feeling

nikkihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17738779310180551793nikki@littleme1969.freeserve.co.uk0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3967008.post-73640486624875353652008-11-27T13:28:00.000Z2008-11-27T13:29:25.649Z

87As a 1930s wife, I amVery SuperiorTake the test!LOL my god I dont think so.. Thanks to Bacon & cheese for that one :P

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Ive been a member of Friends Reunited website for 5 years or so now and have caught up with the odd person. School for me as I have mentioned before was one huge stress, and other than the few goods friends I made, I didn't get anything out of it. With the exception of even lower self esteem and being so self conscious I only ever felt comfortable going out in the dark LOL. Its funny how you see

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My life has not been easy.. full of many highs and lows. Like most peoples I guess, but at times Ive been tested to my very phisical and mental limits. Just when I thought I couldnt get any lower, fate would hit me with a good kick in the ribs to keep me down a little longer. Though despite all this I'm still thankfull for every moment and have grown so much as a person because of it. I truly

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Well Ive just sat here and read back about 18 months of posts just to get a feel of the the kind of things I used to write about. Its amazing for me to look back and see where my head was at and what was happening in my life.To cut a long story short I'm still here...LOL well thats pretty obvious or I wouldnt be typing this :) Still ploding along in my own little world dealing with things as they

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Ok.. I've been away for almost a year now..Its been one busy busy year :)I have to say one of the saddest days in a long time has to be the death of the great Steve Irwin. Its hard to find the words to describe what a loss to the planet his death will be. His enthusiasm and love of live will continue to be an inspiration to me and I'm in no doubt countless others on the planet.At times when my

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Looks like I'm not totally worthless afterall :) My blog is worth $564.54.How much is your blog worth?

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Well what can I say other than… Goodbye 2005.. was nice knowing ya…NOT!!!!Last year started with such promise, I was feeling better than I had done in years. Life was generally looking good all round and my only goal was to loose about 10lbs and stay sane.. ROFL Well that was wishful thinking on my part I can tell you :( Well to my credit I did loose the weight, but that was more due to anxiety

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Merry Christmas and a happy new year!! What every girl needs these cold wintry days!! **DELUXE MUFF WARMER WITH A DIFFERENCE**

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Freudian Inventory Results Oral (53%) you appear to have a good balance of independence and interdependence knowing when to accept help and when to do things on your own. Anal (73%) you appear to be overly self controlled, organized, and possibly subservient to authority, this effectively narrows your exposure to a wider set of options and ideas lowering the odds that you will make the

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You just have to see this Panda Cam Its Panda Cam at The San Diego Zoo... after watching mum play with her cub for about 5 mins I was hooked :P They also have Elephant/Ape etc.Other good Cams are Waterhole The waterhole at Kruger national Park .Or if its people watching your after.. then why not try Tower cam the Eiffel Tower cam.. :)

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Well what can I say other than AAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!To say its been a rough few months would be the understatement of the decade, hence the lack of posts ? You know how it is.. you think your on the floor and you can’t get any lower. then WHAM!! Fate comes and gives you a bloody good kicking in the ribs to make sure you’ll stay down a while. But.. as ever… you

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Your Birthdate: March 29You have the mind of an artist, even if you haven't developed the talent yet.Expressive and aware, you enjoy finding new ways to share your feelings.You often feel like you don't fit in - especially in traditional environments.You have big dreams. The problem is putting those dreams into action.Your strength: Your vivid imaginationYour weakness: Fear of failureYour power

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I have been contacted by many organizations over the years of doing this blog. For some reason they think that I would be happy to endorse a product that I have never used... more fool them is what I say. As they find to their cost when they get the sharp end of my tongue..lol But I was contacted by an organization who where so confident in their product that they were happy to send me a copy FOC

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But do I care... no.. not a jot my friends!!.. cos at the ripe old age of 36 I finally have a diagnosis of my problem!!.. Hey Men to that!! So its official, I'm suffering from a condition called GAD General Anxiety Disorder. I can't tell you what huge relief it is to put a name to all my problems that have plagued me most of my life. So I'm not bonkers.. Its a recognized condition, that sadly

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Sorry not been around but life's been a bit up and down of late. And sadly that's not in a good sexy way either :P Kind of crazy really when I read back to the Christmas post and how well I was feeling :/ But I guess that's the joy of living life as a gibbering wreck. Up one day.. down the next. One of my major faults is I always want a reason to explain the way I'm feeling, and If I can't

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Just a quickie..till I get time to come back and do some updating, even time for a new Blogger header me thinks :).. What wonderful thing can I come up with to give you all nightmares..lolMy New project people Give it a peek and tell me what you think :)

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You have been involved in a shameful online RPG,and your soul will never be clean. You'vesoiled the memory of a dead author andneglected yourself and other human beings formonths at a time; there is no way to make upfor this. The Lord has turned His eyes from youforever!Keep back, you utter trash! Why Will You Go To Hell? brought to you by QuizillaMoi?...Littleme?.. well I guess I'm such a scary

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ROFL.. what did I tell you.. look in my shout box to the right..:/there's always one who just can't resist..lolWell I say this to you.. MAX .. The fact that you stayed long enough to get the impression that I'm scary speaks volumes :) Come on Max.. come and join the *SCARY/Mad Folk*.. you know you want to really!!.. no point hiding your light under a bushel any longer.. come out of the closet and

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I consider myself to be very blessed. :).. I have a loving family that are always there for me. Great friends, some that have been around from when I was a child. 2 Great kids that drive me bonkers and keep me on my toes. ;) And what can only be classed as an easy life by most peoples standards. But every so often in ones life you come across a person who *rocks your world*.. its the only way

nikkihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17738779310180551793nikki@littleme1969.freeserve.co.uk0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3967008.post-1115718989487790892005-05-10T10:54:00.000+01:002005-05-10T10:56:29.503+01:00

Ok were maybe a litte late but this just had me in stitches so I had to share it."Queen Camilla"Some great stuff on that site.. stop and giggle a while.. I know I did! :P

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A woman walked into the kitchen to find her husband stalking around with a fly swatter."What are you doing?" she asked."Hunting flies" he responded."Oh! Killing any?" she asked."Yep, 3 males and 2 females" he replied.Intrigued, she asked "How can you tell?""3 were on a beer can, 2 were on the phone" he responded

nikkihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17738779310180551793nikki@littleme1969.freeserve.co.uk0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3967008.post-1115566246711445472005-05-08T16:21:00.000+01:002005-05-08T16:44:10.313+01:00

Yes its that time again folks where I bore you with pictures of my tropical fish!! so here goesJack My dwarf Honey Gourami.. off the cute scale this guy :)My male lace gourami.. maybe I should name him..any ideas?One of my New Guinea Red Rainbows trying to swim fast enough so i cant take a pic...ggggggggrrrrBaby Bristle nose plec... Cute :)Big blue.. my male opaline gouramiYesssssssssssss I fell

nikkihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17738779310180551793nikki@littleme1969.freeserve.co.uk0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3967008.post-1115505995256861852005-05-07T23:05:00.000+01:002005-05-07T23:46:35.353+01:00

Ok so yes I've been AWOL again. No change there then....But it has been a funny few months. Husband took his 10 day holiday on a nice tropical island somewhere off Hawaii :( .Leaving me here to sob myself to sleep :/Well not quite, but I did ball my eyes out for the first few hours after he went. Then spent that evening/early morning having the usual panic attack and feeling like shit . :(

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