Journey of a trying twenties....

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I KISSED DATING GOODBYE (EXCERPTS) PART 2

2007-12-04T10:58:00.000-08:00

Hints

1) Friendship is about something other than the two people, something other than the two friends being together. The key to friendship is a common goal or object on which both companions focus. As soon as the two people involved focus on the relationship (intimacy), it has moved beyond friendship.

2) Include others (i.e. friends, family, or strangers) instead of isolating yourselves with just one person.

3) Seek opportunities to serve, not to be entertained.

Early stages of Attraction

In the early stages of attraction, when you have a difficult time remaining clearheaded, , think of an imaginary dialogue; something like this:

Q: What's you relationship to this woman?

A: She's a sister in Christ whom I'm instructed to treat with absolute purity.

Q: Exactly! She's not just a pretty face or a potential wife!

A: No, she's a child of God. God has a plan for her. He's shaping her and molding her into something special.

Q: So, what is your responsibility to her?

A: My responsibility is to make sure I don't get in the way of what God is doing. I should encourage her to keep her focus and dependence on God.

Q: Okay, good. Now to whom is your second responsibility?

A: My second responsibility is to the people around me.

Q: Why do you have to care what they think?

A: Because I have a responsibility to keep the unity of the group, to model the love of Jesus to outsiders, and to set an example for other believers.

Q: And your primary responsibility is to God. Correct?

A: Exactly. I am responsible to keep my way pure, serve others as Christ did, and love my neighbor as myself.

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Friend.. thank you for the beautiful memories. God Bless be with you as you embark on a new journey.

Those years I have spent with you will always be a treasure.

I love you Kitty.. take care always..

:D

I KISSED DATING GOODBYE (excerpts part 1)

2007-11-28T07:12:00.000-08:00

A friend of mine thought that its a brilliant idea if i give this book as a present to my *ex-special friend* to help him heal...

I don't know if its healing from his physical wounds or emotional but unfortunately I wasn't able to get a copy.

I saw the book again during a book fair in the office and I almost bought one but my emotional exhaustion prevents me from doing so, I got tired of self help books .

But when I read the excerpts I was convinced to grab a copy as soon as I visit my fave book store.

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Seven habits of highly defective dating

1) Dating leads to intimacy, but not necessarily to commitment.
2) Dating tends to skip the 'friendship' stage of a relationship.
3) Dating often mistakes a physical relationship for love.
4) Dating often isolates a couple from other vital relationships.
5) Dating distracts young adults from their primary responsibility of preparing for the future.
6) Dating can cause discontentment with God's gift of singleness.
7) Dating creates an artificial environment for evaluating someone's character.

Unless a man is prepared to ask a woman to be his wife, what right has he to claim her exclusive attention? Unless she has been asked to marry him, why would a sensible woman promise any man her exclusive attention?

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Very profound questions right? I am very happy that they still publish books like this.

More to come ...

THE ART OF LETTING GO

2007-11-19T04:48:00.000-08:00

"The Art Of Letting Go"

Put away the pictures.
Put away the memories.
I put over and over
Through my tears
I've held them till I'm blind
They kept my hope alive
As if somehow that I'd keep you here
Once you believed in a love forever more?
How do you leave it in a drawer?

Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that's holding on
How do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I'm just learning,
Learning the art of letting go.

Try to say it's over
Say the word goodbye.
But each time it catches in my throat
Your still here in me
And I can't set you free
So I hold on to what I wanted most
Maybe someday we'll be friend's forever more
Wish I could open up that door

Now here it comes, the hardest part of all
Unchain my heart that's holding on
How do I start to live my life alone?
Guess I'm just learning,
Learning the art of letting go

Watching us fade
What can I do?
But try to make it through
the pain of one more day
Without you

Where do I start, to live my life alone?
I guess I'm learning, only learning,
Learning the art of letting go.

Now I know why I refused to be attached emotionally not just to a person but to mostly everything.

I am a failure when it comes to letting go I tend to wallow in sorrow.

But I believe it's part of growing up. It's not going to be easy but the road to healing will be worth it and will make me a better person.

GOD is always with me... with us his children.

GOD BLESS...

My music

2007-11-13T09:55:00.001-08:00

Music so close to my heart

Last Chance......

2007-11-02T15:01:00.000-07:00

This is my last dance with you
This is my only chance to do all I can do
To let you know that what I feel for you is real

This is the last chance for us
This is the moment that I just cannot let end
Before I know that theres a chance were more than friends

So dont let go, dont let go
Make it last all night
This is my last chance to make you mine

I kept my feelings so deep
I kept my dreams of you and me somewhere inside
Although I prayed that you would see it in my eyes

But this is my last chance to say
Whats in my heart before you stay out of my life
And then youll understand the way I feel inside

So hold me close cause it feels so right
This is my last chance to make it mine
Make this dream reality
So close and yet so far
Gotta find a way into your heart
Gotta speak my mind
Gotta open up to you this time
I cant let you slip away tonight
This is my last dance iwth you

This is my only chance to do all I can do
To let you know that what I feel for you is so real
So dont let go
Just make it last all night long
This is my last chance to make you mine, yeah
To make you mine

My last chance has gone and yet I still don't have you.

Heart wounded, mind puzzled, soul exhausted. May you find your peace.

I love you.

BUSY DAYS...

2007-10-30T13:10:00.000-07:00

I will be very busy for 3 months starting Nov 5, 2007.

My work hours will stretch to 12 hours.

It will be beneficial for me because it will take my mind off every thing. In 3 months hopefully the money in my piggy bank will be enough to support my goals.

The number 3 has been very significant in my life.

Baby...Mahal... Irog..Honey...Sweetheart

2007-10-29T07:56:00.000-07:00

This is an open letter to "you"....

Baby...Mahal... Irog..Honey...Sweetheart, --- Ito ang mga endearment names na gustong gusto ko itawag sa iyo.

Gusto kita alagaan, lambingin arrghh.. napakahirap ng pakiramdam.

I thought it's over... Akala ko natalo na ako sa laban at handa na ako sumuko.

Honey...It's going to be hard for me but I made my decision. Ayoko na masaktan pa ulit. It's been a year and I'm still hurting inside.

I pray for your happiness. I thought that I can stand seeing you everyday, knowing that you are just around the corner but I can't even talk to you.

Gusto kita kausapin, gusto kita ma-akap man lang.

I thought that time heals all wounds but I guess a year is not enough.

Last resort na ito it's time to let go.

It's about to time that I leave this place.

Thank you for the memories.

WHERE IS THE LOVE???

2007-10-21T12:42:00.000-07:00

GLORIETTA 2 - a very well known shopping mall owned by equally well known family - THE ZOBEL de AYALA, known for it's elegant atmosphere and beauty was suddenly turned into a graveyard last week. A bomb claimed the lives of the innocents, the place tore down by the blast, glasses shattered, cars scattered.

It's not unusual to hear heartbreaking stories from tragedies like this, it's always hard to loose a love one in a very unexpected and cruel way.

To all of the victims I pray for your soul God be with you also to the families who suddenly looses a member my prayer is for you to be strong and may you find it in your heart to hold on to God.

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I am going through a tough time right now as much as I want to think of happy thoughts, affirm myself that every thing's going to be alright, sometimes I can't help but loose my focus and start to whine and question God why all this is happening to me.

I admit that I can't think it anymore.

I don't how long I can stand and fight but in the end whatever happens I know that I did everything I can.

Where is the love???
"If it is meant to be, our hearts will find each other when we meet. And if our hearts melt together so will our bodies and souls. Then every word and every touch will fuel our passion flame. I will be yours, you will be mine, and we will be one."

I belong to PANSITAN.

2007-10-12T04:14:00.000-07:00

Sa handaan I prefer Pansit Bihon over Spaghetti because I'm a pesco vegetarian. Kasi nowadays madami na ang nagluluto ng pansit na shrimp, kikiam, squidballs, pusit ang sahog. Istapagets kasi bihira lang nag nakaka-appreciate ng seafoods ang sahog, nakasanayan na din kasi.

Ang Pansit kahit walang kanin solb na, pero masarap din minsan na i-ulam sa kanin ang pansit, carbs galore.

Nakaka-intriga na ang pinaghalo-halong sangkap at mahahabang noodles ay lumalabas na masarap na masarap. Hmm..... yum yum.

Pansit pwde mo halintulad sa pagkaka-ibigan yan, iba-iba kayo ng kulay, hugis, at lasa pero pag pinagsama anong sarap at sustansya.

Ano ang connection nito sa title? Aba eh masaya kung ibinabalita sa inyo na ako ay kasama na sa PANSITAN ni ATE SIENNA.

Naku napakaligaya ko talaga at napabilang ako sa PANSITAN, dahil bukod sa madami ka matutunan eh, napaka-kwela pa.

ATE SIENNA MARAMING SALAMAT po.. :D

What A Wonderful World...

PRAYER

2007-10-09T10:40:00.000-07:00

Dear God,

Thank you very much for all the blessings you generously shower upon us. Thank you for all the challenges.

Thank you for your patience, loving kindness, guidance, support, making your presence felt when I needed it the most.

Father God, I'm lifting up all my worries and cares to you. Thy will be done.

Father you are the great creator of the universe I may never understand your plan, I may be troubled by the injustice ongoing, of all the questions I have in my mind I know deep in my heart that you are the only one who have the answers.

Father whatever your plans are not just for me but for the whole universe, Thy will be done.

Father I pray for my family, may their heart be filled with love and confidence.

Father I also want to pray for the person so close to my heart right now. May he be safe from harm, his heart at peace, and his faith grow stronger.

May he feel your love is stronger than any challenges he will encounter.

Again Thank you Father.

Amen.

FREEDOM

2007-10-04T06:05:00.000-07:00

I am born to be free...

They say that people born under the water sign Aquarius are freedom lovers. Yes I am a freedom lover.

I show respect to others rights and I expect them to do the same. Everybody deserves to live as they please. Public officials are elected to guide people and their country to prosperity, maintain peace, but not to suppress their voices and live their life according to what their Public officials tell them.

I am doing this for Burma and for my country as well. No one wants to be prisoner in their own country.

JOIN US.

When I met you... thank you.

2007-10-03T12:58:00.000-07:00

There I was an empty piece of shell
I smile in my own world without even knowing
What love and life was all about

Then you came, you brought me out of the shell
You gave the world to me and before I knew
There I was so in love with you

[chorus]
You gave me a reason for my being
And I love what I’m feeling
You gave new meaning to my life
Yes, I’ve gone beyond existing
And it all began
When I met you…

I love the touch of your hand
When i look in your eyes i just want
I know I’m on to something good

And I’m sure my love for you will endure
Your love will light up my world
And take all my fears

You taught me how to love
You showed me how tomorrow and today
My love is different from the yesterday i knew
You taught me how to love
And darling I will always cherish you
Today, tomorrow and forever

And I’m sure when evening comes around
I know we’d be making love like never before
My love who could ask for more

Thank you for coming into my life. My life is so much brighter with you by my side.

I am looking forward spending the rest of my life with you.

God bless us.

I love you.

Being imperfect in a "Perfect WORLD".

2007-10-01T10:17:00.001-07:00

It's hard.

Your so called "friends" will make fun of you. They have mastered the art of masking mockery with concern.

"Ang taba mo parang palo-palo ang mga hita mo", " Ang macho mo mas malaki pa ang braso mo sa akin", "Kahawig mo ung bagong janitress" "Parang sinabe mo naman na wala syang itsura"

Of course at the end of those statements are "no offense meant" or the ever famous "joke lang".

You skip meals, deprive your self of food, but still it seems like your effort is not good enough.

You owned every beauty products out in the market hoping that you will have "kutis artista", clear white skin.

You religiously apply every cream, lotion, whitening to your skin but to no avail. Drunk all the new diet pills endorsed by celebrities

No it's not challenging, it won't inspire you to love yourself but instead it will drive you insane. Frustration, dissapointments, you even have nightmares.

Maybe I'm too sensitive , that I can't stand brutally frank people. But I think because I don't treat other people that way and I expect the same respect I have for other people.

*YOU CAN'T PLEASE EVERYBODY* well, well...

What do you care what other people think? those *people are supposed to be your friends so all along you're thinking that they are right and they only want what's best for you.

As for me I already got tired living in that *PERFECT WORLD* and I decided to live in my God's world.

I am a child of God.

Thank you

2007-09-28T16:11:00.000-07:00

Thank you your divine ryeness for showing interest on my Jesus take the Wheel post.

I encourage everybody to join the http://unitedsea.blogspot.com

Let your voices be heard, speak up. Writing is a form of therapy.

Hanggang sa muli !!!

The SECRET.

2007-09-27T16:53:00.000-07:00

I want to buy the book.. Oh I heard so much about it even Oprah dedicated entirely the whole show just for this.

I really really want to know what's behind this book or movie.

Chirpy.. chirpy...

Looking forward to my next weigh in...

UPDATE: WEIGH

2007-09-25T07:26:00.000-07:00

I Lost 3 pounds for this week. Yipeee.

Till the next weigh in. :D

Father, help me build my life around You. Make my heart Your home.

His Light is Shining on Me.

2007-09-19T08:47:00.000-07:00

COMPROMISE

Some people are easy to please; others are hard to. Experience soon teaches us that we cannot please everybody.

People who spend their lives trying to please everyone around them waste so much time and energy. They usually end up frustrated, exhausted, and, sometimes, even devastated.

Some people equate their personal worth with the number of people who are pleased with them. Such worth is a cheap one. Our value does not rely on whether people like us or not. We are valuable even before we please anyone. The blood of the Son of God has already ransomed us. When we are obsessed with pleasing others all the time, we fail to grow. We become slaves of how others think of us. We make our happiness depend on the approval of others. We become no better than a dog that wags its tail when its master pats its head. But we are not dogs. We are disciples of Jesus. We are children of God.

Sometimes a disciple of the Lord is disheartened when others reject the message he or she brings; then the otherwise true disciple begins to compromise. Sadly, though, when a disciple compromises the message of the Kingdom in order to get the nod of others, Jesus Himself is compromised. Jesus did not compromise His mission and message just to please others.

He did not bow to the expectations, much less, to the dictates of others. He was not afraid to be different, if being different was according to the will of the Father. He did not live His life in view of pleasing anyone except the Father. He gave His life so that others may become more pleasing to the Father.

Because Jesus refused to compromise, because He was different, because He could not be intimidated, His enemies killed Him (Niligpit nila si Jesus). But they were not able to silence Him (Niligpit nila si Jesus pero hindi nila Siya napatahimik). On the contrary, Jesus became a dangerous memory to those who were responsible for His death on the cross. It haunted them through the countless Christians who were not afraid but were even willing to die not only for Jesus but also like Jesus.

Fr. Bobby T.

My sincere thanks to everybody. Your sweet spirit inspires me.

I also want to thank those who refuse to believe that I can do it, to those who makes fun of me, who sees me as something not worthy of your precious time, your genuine friendship because I am a nobody, NEWS FLASH the mere fact that you spend time talking about me behind my back is a sign that you care about me though in a different way.

I am getting tired trying to please you, trying to keep up with your expectations. There's nothing left for me to say but thank you. All I can do is live my life in accordance to God's plan.

I know that I'm not cut out for your "perfect world". But I was created with imperfections in order for me to perfect my ways in preparation for my homecoming to my real home, not here on earth but in my Heavenly Fathers Kingdom.

Again Thank you.

TODAY is DAY

2007-09-18T17:34:00.000-07:00

Today is the start of my journey to a new me.

WEIGH in next TUESDAY IM EXCITED.

THANK YOU AGAIN for the SUPPORT. GOD BLESS YOU ALL.

a day before my journey....

2007-09-17T13:41:00.000-07:00

I'm excited.

1 more day and I'm going in Journey to change my life forever.

Thank you to everyone for lifting up my spirit, letting me know that I can do it and that you will be there to support me all the way.

2007-09-13T15:12:00.000-07:00

I am going to participate in the
Look Great in 2008 Challenge
from
Tales from the Scales

Start date: Sept. 19, 2007 Wednesday
End date: Jan 11, 2008 Tuesday

Weigh in Every TUESDAY.

PLAN: eliminate rice, softdrinks from my diet.

Start eating healthy.

1 week to go

10 things GOD WILL NOT ASK YOU

2007-09-13T12:43:00.000-07:00

Very uplifting.

QUIZZESESOSES

2007-09-12T17:23:00.000-07:00

Forgive me.. I just love quizzes..

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly.
You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

How Do You Live Your Life?

Never Date a Cancer

Clingy, emotional, and very private - it's hard to escape a Cancer's clutches.
And while Cancer will want to know everything about you, they're anything but open in return.

Instead try dating: Leo, Sagittarius, Gemini, or Aquarius

What Sign Shouldn't You Date?

HAHAHA last test made me laugh so hard. Now now my dear hush hush.. you're still my friend always remember that.

JUAN TAMAD

2007-09-12T12:24:00.000-07:00

Juan Tamad - a filipino folklore character. He's lazy.

Am I getting old? I don't enjoy gossip while working I get irritated easily by people who seems to not take their work seriously.

I don't fear aging in fact I welcome it with open arms, I am loving every minute of it.

A sign that I am getting old is the fact that I'm seeing my work now as something special, something that I should, must take care.

I started working at a tender age of 13 when other kids my age are playing jackstones, luksong tinik, patintero or watching tv I was already working at a coffee shop in Cebu.

I learned the value of money at an early age.

I joined the call center industry at the age of 20.

Call Center - Sabi ng iba cheap daw mag-work sa call center napaka-baba ng pagtingin nila. Ang iba naman parang diyos ka pag sa call center ka nagta-trabaho.

3 years na ako sa call center and I can say that it's like any other jobs - ano ba ang puno't dulo ng pagtra-trabaho kung hindi serbisyo.

Medyo sabog ung thought ng post kasi mix ang emotions ko.

First I really want to tackle the "petiks" issue in a workplace, Pangalawa ang pananaw ng iba sa pagta-trabaho sa callcenter, at pangatlo ung pangarap na napakataas.

Oo tumatanda na nga ako dahil nakikita ko na ang importansya ng pagtra-trabaho ng mahusay. Dati naiisip ko lang ung binabayad sa akin. Lagi lang ako excited sa payday pero ngayon na-realize ko teka ano ba ang nagagawa ko para sa kumpanya? Dapat din ako mag-sikap hindi yung puro ako reklamo na lang.

Ang call center may iba't ibang uri yan. Hindi lahat customer service lang. Saludo ako sa mga tao na yan dahil sa walang pagod nilang pagsa-salita ng diretso otso oras. Ako kasi nabibilang sa Technical Support.. opps.ss.. endi ng microwave, ref, at kung ano ano pang ek ek. It will really stress the capacity of your brain. Kung ang cisco ay inaaral ng taon taon sa amin instant knowledge dapat, info overload.

Kaya hindi dapat i-understimate ang kakayahan ng mga taong nagtra-trabaho sa call center isa itong marangal na trabaho at higit sa lahat kahit ano pa ang trabaho mo uulitin ko isa lang ang goal natin lahat ang MAG_SERBISYO SA KAPWA.

Sa pag-asenso

Let us  not look for an "ideal job" there's no such thing. May we keep in  mind that a successful career starts from solid work. No matter that the job may  appear humble at first, a person with endeavouring spirit, creative thinking and  a habit of hard learning will eventually achieve  success.

Napakalapit sa puso ko ng topic na ito kaya hindi ko naiwasan gamitin ang aking lengguwahe.

Maraming salamat sa mga bumibisita at natutuwa sa blog ko.

Salamat sa mga sulat. :D

Keep it coming guys.

Update ...

2007-09-11T16:53:00.000-07:00

POSTED ON MY XANGA SITE

Thursday, August 02, 2007

SELOS

I'm not the jealous type - well not until I met bandido.

Being jealous all the time is crazy.

My face turns red, words fails me, my whole body stiffens, cold sweat and etc. In short major heart attack. Urggh..

I can't help it as much as I want to stay calm think about happy thoughts arrggh...

I know its natural to be jealous but Is it right to be jealous even if you don't have the rights to do so? Or maybe the real question is do you need to have rights just to be jealous.

I believe its normal to be jealous. But it can be disturbing.

You do things you don't normally do if you're jealous. Well I'm thankful that I'm still blessed with patience. Thank God.

I'm still praying for strength.

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

Singungaling (LIAR)

NO MORE LIES - I wont tell anymore lies may it be white lies, there's no such thing.

I'd rather hurt people with the truth than mislead them with a lie.

Why? because my heart almost stopped beating when "bandido" lied to me.

It was traumatic.

Elaboration later.

Fast Forward to Sept.

I heard it from him. Although he didn't say it right in front of my face but I heard it clearly. Yes it's true he into somebody else not me, not even his gf but somebody else. I felt bad for "supposedly" falling in love with this kind of person. All along I thought that he's so loyal, true with his relationship that he can endure the days that he's gf is not with him. But who am I kidding? He's weak just like everybody else. I have learned to move on. My friend told me that It's his lost not mine. Too easy to say.

I thought that if I heard the truth everything will be alright that I can live with it. But I felt like a glass shattered without mercy. My heart, mind and soul shutdown for awhile I can't even move my fingers.

Music kept me sane.

I am now confused about what I really felt for him is it really love or pure infatuation?

They said it's not love because I didn't do anything before when I almost lost him, I didn't run to the airport , made a scene and profess my undying love to him. I just kept silent and live everyday as it is.

Maybe because of my strong personality or maybe because at the back of my mind he will be back.

There are times that I wish he didn't come back because I have learned to live life without him.

I hope that day will come that I will finally know my feelings for him and I pray that I may also accept whatever it is that will happen.

I still ask God for strength.

I'm not fighting back.

I live my life the way it should be. Thy will be done.

Music playing: Invisible War - Julia Fordham

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