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Bed Rest

2006-09-30T06:43:00.000-07:00

Doc has put me on bedrest for three weeks so I probably won't be posting much here for a while. My wonderful hubby has rigged me a desk that has a top that swings out so that I can sit up in bed and use my PC when I feel like it. I am just so tired that I have not really used it much yet but I am so lucky to have such a great hubby. He also moved our bed into the living room so that I can be a part of everything thats going on. I got the big screen TV, picture window, and my PC set up. He knew that I would wind up depressed if I had to be cooped up in that dark bedroom for the next three weeks.

. Our baby boy needs to stay put for a minimum of three more weeks your well wishes, positive energy, thoughts and prayers are appreciated. I will try to post and keep you updated.

The Thursday Activist- Religous Tolerance

2006-09-22T12:17:00.000-07:00

Ok so Im a day late with this but I was way too tired last night to write anything.

In honor of Religious Freedom Week ( September 22 to October 2 ) commemorating the constitutionally guaranteed right to practice and observe the religion of one's choice, free from government force or prohibition.

I would like to challenge each of you to choose a religion and educate yourself on that religion. Reach out to someone who practices a faith different from yours and learn what you can from them about their beliefs. Keep an open mind, do not judge and do not debate their religion. If they ask you to tell them about your beliefs in return then feel free to do so but this is not about you spreading the word about your beliefs this is about YOU taking the time to open your mind and learn about some one elses. Those of you who keep a blog write about what you learned from this experience if you feel motivated to do so.

I will even give you a place to begin: Religious Tolerance. Org

WTF Wednesday

2006-09-20T18:48:00.000-07:00

Ok so I've been MIA for a few days.. did ya miss me? I have been pretty tired lately its just that point in the pregnancy where all you want to do is sleep. I have not been motivated to do much of anything the past several days but I coulnd't let WTF Wednesday pass without posting so here we go.

WTF is up with the DMV? Do they just hand out a license to any fucktard who applies these days? I mean they do still require you to take a written test, drivers test and eye exam correct??? I think they are being lax in their duties either that or every lousy driver in the fucking country relocated to my piss ant town because every time I leave my house I feel like I am playing dodge the dumbass driver. I kid you not between my house and Walmart which is all of maybe five miles I was nearly run over at least a half dozen times. It pisses me off to no fucking end and these morons don't even realize that they just about ran me off the road or smashed into me. They are completely oblivious. Apprently in my town the painted lines on the roads and in the parking lots, the road signs, the stop lights are simply suggestions rather than laws of the road that one may take or leave as they see fit.

Today alone we had two tards driving in the middle of the road almost run us off the side of the road. One fucking moron sit at the GREEN light until it went completely through its cycle and then decide to go. Countless driving challenged cocksuckers run through the stop sign and drive diagonally through the Walmart parking lot. Not to mention the fuckers who back out without so much as glancing behind them. Then there was the jackass who pulled out in front of us like a bat out of hell nearly hitting us and then throwing up his hand as if to say, "ooops sorry". Well guess what I am pregnant, I have kids in the car and your little Oh well.. Im sorry gesture means jack shit to me. I swear I feel like getting out of my car and beating the shit out of thsese people. I can totally understand road rage.

I would also like to know why we continue to give elderly people a license to drive? I mean come on some of these people have no fucking business operating a hoverround let alone a vehicle. Now yall don't get your panties in a twist Im not suggesting that people over 65 shouldn't be allowed to drive but I do think that after a certain age more should be required to have your license renewed. They need to be retested! Some little old lady who could barely see over the damn dashboard pulled out in front of us nearly hitting the car in front of us and causing us to slam on our brakes so that we didnt hit her. The scary part she didnt have a damn clue that she nearly cause a multi-vehicle accident.

Oh and would all of you gossip mongers get off the damn cell phone and pay attention to the road. You stupid fuckers are almost as bad as the drunks.

Don't even get me started on the worthless scum who drink and drive.

Teena

What kind of soul are you?

2006-09-15T15:33:00.000-07:00

You Are a Newborn Soul

You are tolerant, accepting, and willing to give anyone a chance.
On the flip side, you're easy to read and easily influenced by others.
You have a fresh perspective on life, and you can be very creative.
Noconformist and nontraditional, you've never met anyone who's like you.

Inventive and artistic, you like to be a trendsetter.
You have an upbeat spirit and you like almost everything.
You make friends easily and often have long standing friendships.
Implusive and trusting, you fall in love a little too easily.

Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

The Thursday Activist - Child Sexual Abuse

2006-09-14T13:57:00.000-07:00

I've noticed in the short time since I started to blog and read other blogs that a lot of people do different little theme based things on certain days. I don't want to fill up every day with a theme but I figured I would jump on the band wagon and do something like that a few times a week. Yesterday I did WTF Wednesday, this theme will likely produce mostly light hearted posts and rants that will be alot of fun. I love to have fun with my blog, love ranting and raving but I also want to be sure to touch on some issues from time to time that are important to me, with that in mind I've decided to do The Thursday Activist. Every Thursday I will write about something that is important to me. I will try to provide resources for you on each topic that you can visit to learn how you might help if you are so inclined.

Today's topic: Child Sexual Abuse

A poem I wrote after my niece was sexually assaulted.

Shattered

A brutal man with a cruel heart,
One battered baby and her innocence part.

The frightened child in a woman grown,
A thousand tears for the horror she’s known.

In few short years the devil is free,
In the mirror shattered remnants of me.

Tortured nightmares of a long lost soul,
God I implore Shall I ever be whole?

This is her story.

My niece was brutally raped and beaten when she was 8 years old by a neighbor. She was outside playing with another neighbors child as she had many times before. Her mother went inside briefly to check on laundry and when she came back out her child was gone. The other child had also gone inside and left my niece outside alone. This monster took advantage of those few moments she was left alone and snatched her. He carried her into his home where he raped her and then beat her so badly that she had large contusions on her head, a bloody nose, busted mouth and countless bruises. He put her head into the toilet then slammed the lid down on her head repeatedly. While this is going on my sister n law was frantically searching for her child. She had 911 on the line. A short time later my niece came staggering home. Her mother was horrified when she saw her, her screams were enough to convince the 911 operator to send a police unit and ambulance out immediately. The monster who did this to her had actually threatened her and told her not to tell anyone what happened. What the hell did he think she was going to do considering how she looked there is no way it would go unnoticed. She told her mom exactly what happened and who had done this to her. She was a strong little girl and she has grown into a strong, beautiful woman with two beautiful little girls of her own. The man was arrested as soon as the police were on the scene. She testified against him and he was sentenced to 8 years. He served all 8 of them but in my opinion that wasn't nearly enough. He served 8 years while she has to deal with this for a lifetime.

CHILD SEXUAL ABUSE

Statistics show that child sexual abuse occurs at an alarming rate. At least one in five girls and one in ten to twenty boys will be sexually abused at some point in their childhood, according to most reliable studies of child sexual abuse in the United States. (Finkelhor,D. (1994). Current information on the scope and nature of child sexual abuse. Sexual Abuse of Children The Future of Children 4(2), 31-69) It is hard to take in this cold hard fact. It means that if you attend a class or concert of 100 people, between 10 and 20 of those in the room were sexually abused as a child.

If you think those numbers are an exaggeration think again! In just my small circle of close friends and relatives I can name atleast ten of them who were sexually abused as children including my mother, my girlfriend, good friend susan, two of my cousins and my niece. Out of all of those I know personally who were abused only one of them was abused by a stranger.

A whopping 70 to 90 percent of cases of sexual abuse of children happen at the hands of someone they know, usually a family member or close friend of the family. It is hard to think that someone you know or even love could be an abuser but it is important that you educate yourself on the signs of abuse and even more important that you ACT if you think a child may be suffering. You can view warning signs of abuse HERE including behavioral and physical warning signs, healthy sexuality in children, what to watch out for when adults are with children and alert signals for an adult with sexual behavorial problems.

I want to touch briefly on child exploitation over the internet. I know that many of you have run across child porn while surfing the net and have been just as appalled as I was when I ran across it but had no idea what you could do about it. The National Center for Missing and Exploited Children has a website called Cyber Tipline where you can report child pornography or exploitation including things like grown ups using Myspace, Messenger, Chat Rooms and other avenues to entice and exploit children. I've seen this shit first hand and it disgusts me. I have reported more than one incident involving my own child. She just turned 16 and has had more than a few indecent proposals made to her by men via Messenger and Myspace.

Parents PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE monitor your children when they are on the net. I use a keylogger on my PC to keep an eye on my daughter, she knows its there and although at first she felt it was violating her privacy she has come to understand why I insisted.

There are countless websites that deal with Child Sexual Abuse and Exploitation where you can educate yourself and find out how you might help make a difference. I have listed some of them below. Please take some time and explore these websites. There are many ways that you can help from making a donation to volunteering to just spreading the word.

National Center for Missing and Exploited Children
Stop It Now
Darkness to Light
Child Molestation Research and Prevention
NCAC
Prevent Child Abuse America
Child Safe Network - Find Local Sex Offenders
National Sex Offenders Registry

These links are just the tip of the iceburg one day I will make a post compiling all of the links I've accumulated but for now I think this post is long enough and those will get you started.

CHALLENGE: I challenge all who read this post to act! Do something today to help with this cause or another close to your heart. It can be anything from making a post in your blog to promote awareness to making a donation to volunteering. Just do something! Post a comment here to let us know what you did.

WTF Wednesday

2006-09-13T12:15:00.000-07:00

I thought I would make Wednesdays ... WTF = What The Fuck Wednesdays so here goes my first WTF entry.

WTF is wrong with parents these days? I consider myself very open minded and laid back. I talk openly about sex with my teen daughter. Im cool with her dating at 16. I know the child has had sex and Im sure she will again in the future. Hell I even get to hear details that I could frankly go the rest of my life without knowing and be perfectly happy but I am happy that she can talk to me about things. I preach safe sex, self respect and demanding respect from others, particularly boys. I am not a prude by an stretch of the imagination as you can painly see from my blog so am I the only parent who thinks that other parents must be out of their damn minds to allow their 14 - 17 yr old daughters have their boyfriends over to spend the night?

WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH THAT??

My daughter may have her boyfriend over to the house to visit. They must either stay in the living room or if they go into her room the door must remain open. They are permitted to cuddle and steal the occasional kiss but not lay up with each other. I presonally think at 16 she should consider herself lucky that I allow that much.

She thinks that I am too strict because all of her other friends boyfriends get to spend the night with them. I know of atleast three of her friends that are pregnant. Two are 16 and one is 14 and she has to ask WHY, hell I thought it was pretty obvious why. I think these parents need to have some sense smacked into their heads.

I know that kids are going to have sex. I know I can't be with her 24/7 to prevent her from having sex all that I can do is make sure she is educated and protected. She got on birth control earlier this year and has a big supply of condoms so there is no bullshit excuse from the guy that he doesn't have a condom. I think all parents should be responsible enough to be sure their sons and daughters are educated and protected.

Now lets get to the spending the night bullshit. I may not be able to prevent her from having sex but I will be damned if I am going to encourage it and it will be a cold fucking day in hell when I provide her with a place to have sex. Hell NO! The way I see if the boy is old enough to dip his stick he should atleast be able to provide her with a place to do the dipping. If he doesn't have a car and a job so that he can at the very least take her parking or get a hotel room then he shouldn't be fucking in the first place he should be getting off his lazy ass and going to work.

You parents out there who are letting these boys stay the night and not teaching your children about safe sex can you please write to me and tell me WTF you are thinking? Please explain this to me?

Parents get your fucking head out of your ass and wipe the shit out of your eyes!

~ Teena

Shaved Kitty

2006-09-12T20:31:00.000-07:00

I don't know about the rest of you ladies but I like to keep my kitty shaved clean. Not only does it just feel better, more sanitary but it doesn't hurt sex wise either. Nothing like flesh against flesh and lets face it no one wants to forge through a jungle to get to the sweet nectar. Personally I prefer that my partner's genitals be clean shaven especially if they enjoy oral sex as much as I do cause nothing kills a moment like hearing PFFFT PFFT PFFT.... followed by a hacking cough coming from between your legs. I hate getting hair between my teeth or stuck in my throat and no fucking way am I touching either a cock or a pussy that has a bush surrounding it. LOL So not only do I keep it shaved for myself but as a courtesy to my partner as well.

So now that we have established WHY I like my hoohah bald lets discuss the methods of achieving said goal.

Hot Wax: Feels great but its expensive and I have to drive to the nearest spa which is almost two hours away so not practical.

Hair Remover such as Nair: No fucking way am I putting these chemicals on my skin let alone an area that sensitive.

Shaving: It’s a hassle and you have to do it continuously but its practical, cheap and once you get used to shaving you don't really have much problem with razor burn.

So I opt for shaving. A few tips for those of you who may be new to keeping your box shiny and smooth.

1. A good razor is a must. I prefer using mens razors I don't know why but for some reason they are much sharper and do not give me razor burn as bad.

2. Use a good shaving cream made for women or a nice hand milled or glycerin soap. Hand milled soaps and glycerin soaps do not dry out your skin like regular soaps.

3. Do not go against the grain shave the direction your hair grows.

4. Use shea butter as an after shave lotion it works better than anything I've ever tried for preventing razor burn. If possible get 100% shea butter you can get it online if you can't find it in stores.

I thought I had snatch shaving down to an art until recently.

My Dilemma?

I can't fucking see my toes lets alone my pussy. I am seven months pregnant and no matter how hard I try to look over or around my ever expanding tummy I just can't do it. I tried using a mirror but that was a mistake everything is backwards and I about gave myself a lip reduction. I tried to just let it go and not worry about it until after the baby gets here but I can't stand it! I hate hair down there it feels disgusting to me so I decided I had to shave it one way or another. I asked hubby to shave me but he is too afraid he will cut me. My girlfriend would do it but she doesn’t visit often enough to keep it up so I decided what the hell I'll do it myself.

So there I am sitting on the edge of the tub with one leg hiked up on the other edge of the tub. My pussy slathered in hand made soap, a razor in my hand. I know I look ridiculous but the hair must go so I begin to shave, blindly reaching around my tummy and making that first nervous stroke. Applying gentle pressure I slowly move the razor across my bikini line. I pull the razor up and inspect it. WHEW only hair no blood or mangled flesh on the sharp blades. I continue being extra careful in all the new crevices I've acquired during pregnancy. I think to myself I wish I could video tape this because it must look funny as hell. I twist and turn, bend over, hang one leg over the edge of the tub and find myself in a variety of absurd positions as I try to feel and shave my way to a smooth kitty. When I no longer feel any hair I decide to sit on the edge of the toilet with a mirror and try to get those hard to reach spots that I missed.

I look in the mirror impressed with what I've accomplished. It is possible to do a blind shave after all. I slather on some shea butter to ensure that I don't get razor burn and have another look at my handy work. A nice shiny smooth crotch! Now where is my hubby?? I think this shave job is worthy of some tongue appreciation.

~ Teena

The other victims of 9/11

2006-09-12T07:26:00.000-07:00

I decided to skip the 9/11 tribute yesterday although I did read alot of those that others posted. I just thought that another 9/11 tribute would be a waste of my time and yours. My heart goes out to the victims families. I don't think this is a day that any of us will ever forget.

I want to take a moment to talk about the other victims of 9/11

There are other victims of 9/11 that many of you may not know about. They are the volunteers who worked at ground zero following the tragedy. The Firefights, Policemen, Sanitation workers, clean up crews and civilians. These volunteers who gave their time to help others need our help now. Many of them are sick becuase of the toxic air they were breathing while at ground zero helping with rescue and clean up. Many of the volunteers have developed significant health issues from diminished lung capacity to cancer.

Roughly 40% of the 40,000 volunteer workers either never had any health insurance or lost employer-provided coverage after they became too sick to work. In other cases insurance companies denied claims because too much time had passed since the incident and the time the claim had been filed as in the case of one couple who BOTH volunteered and worked ground zero together. The woman of the couple passed away from cancer and the man is currently suffering from diminished lung capacity and other problems. It took three years for the Mesothiloma to show up in his wife and there is no guarantee that it won't appear in him in the future. Mesothiloma is a rare form of cancer caused by exposure to asbestos. The only time she has ever been exposed to asbestos was during the clean up of ground zero.

The gorvernment is doing little to help these people, now why doesn't that come as any surprise? The Bush administration delegated $75 million in federal funding for health treatment for the ground zero workers. This is a start but will not be near enough to cover long term health care for the 40 thousand volunteers. The government needs to step up now! It is shameful that those who did so much to help and asked for nothing in return are suffering now. It just goes to show you that no good deed goes unpunished.

Resources:
Illness Persisting in 9/11 workers. NY Times
9/11 Volunteer in a Payday Mayday - New York Daily Times
White House Vows to Aid Ill 9/11 Workers

Montel Williams is also doing a show in this topic today with personal stories from individuals including the husband of the woman who passed from cancer that I mentioned above.

I think it is wonderful that so many did tributes for the fallen of 9/11 now let your voices be heard on this topic as well.

~Teena

Keep your kids home if they are sick!

2006-09-10T14:11:00.000-07:00

I think that I hate school even more than most kids do. It seems every year as soon as school starts back up the kids get sick and then of course I get fucking sick too. I don't send my kids to school if they are sick and I wish to hell that everyone else would keep their kids at home when they are sick but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO parents these days are to fucking afraid that they might have to miss a day of work or actually have to spend a day taking care of their kids. It pisses me off to no end to walk into my sons classroom and see two or three kids with green goo gushing out of thier noses, or dried and caked around their nostril openings. Kids coughing their little heads off or feeling so bad they can barely hold their head up. If parents would keep their kids at home when they are sick instead of sending them to school there wouldn't be so many kids sick and we wouldn't have schools closing down because half the student body is sick with the flu or whatever.

I won't place all the blame on the parents. It is partly the state/gov fault because they are just fucking ridiculous about truancy these days. You can miss 5 days of school out of the entire year. WTF is that all about? Hell a child may be out for 5 days at one time with the flu or strep or whatever bug is going around at the time. I have found myself in front of a judge because my child missed too much school. This was back in 2000. My daughter had been sick with strep on five different occasions that school year along with a few other minor illnesses she missed 20 days of school. I had a stack full of doctors excuses and bills to prove this but it didn't make a damn bit of difference I still have to go before a fucking judge and justify my actions. The judge was a complete dickhead and threatened to put me in jail for 11 months and 29 days if she missed anymore school even with a doctors excuse. That pissed me off to no fucking end. Fortunately there was only a few weeks of school left and my daughter didn't get sick anymore that year so I didnt have to find out if the old bastard would have made good on his word to lock me up. If he had I can tell you this much that town would have seen one hell of an uproar because I would have contacted every media outlet in the country to let them know that I have been locked away for being a caring, concerned parent.

The public school system is out of control these days not only are they doing a piss poor job of educating our children but they are trying to also PARENT them. I could rant on this topic for days. I have considered homeschooling my children but realisticly I just don't think I could do it. I don't have a college education myself and I would worry about the social aspect of it all. Not to mention it is expensive as hell and we are barely getting by as it is. I suppose I will just have to deal with it. Things are much better at the school here than where we lived previously, thus far I've not had any problems with the school system or even any of the teachers.

Sorry about the rant.. got a little off topic there. Parents please if you have a sick child keep them at home!!! I am 7 months pregnant and feeling like shit because I've caught whatever bug the kids brought home from school. First it was the 11 yr old, the he passed it to the 5 yr old and now I've got a sore throat, cough and feel like my head weighs about 20 pounds. UGH The bad thing is I can't even take shit for it. Thank goodness for Roobis Red Tea it seems to be the only thing that helps me at all. I think I need a nice hot cup of it right now. =)

~ T

Making Love is Overrated!

2006-09-09T14:50:00.000-07:00

I enjoy the more gentle love making sessions that hubby and I have been having since I found out I was pregnant. It is sweet that he is worried about me and the baby and I love the feel of his hands moving gently across my tummy and breasts but I have to say that making love is overrated!

There is nothing like a good hard FUCK! I miss getting pounded until I scream. I miss being roughed up, having my face smacked, tits pinched and bitten. I miss the feeling of that stiff rod hitting bottom bringing tears to my eyes and making me scream in pain/pleasure. I miss his hand over my mouth, around my throat, shoving my face into his crotch forcing that massive cock down my throat. I can’t wait to be tied up and FUCKED! I get wet just thinking about it, I feel that familiar throb from deep in my center and I want it so fucking bad !

Hubby is taking great pleasure in telling me what he is going to do to me after I have the baby and am all healed up. The damn tease! LOL All I know is whatever he has in mind I will be up for it. I’ve also told him that I want to start trying anal a little more. We have done it before but its still pretty painful and uncomfortable for me because of his size so we are going to start trying some butt plugs to train me to be able to accept him without so much pain. I don’t mind a little pain in fact I rather enjoy it but you gotta draw the line somewhere and a bloody asshole is where I have to draw mine. LOL

~ T

Natures Curel Sense of Humor aka Sex during pregnancy

2006-09-09T14:32:00.000-07:00

Is it some kind of cruel joke that your sexual desires run rampant the further along you get into your pregnancy? I mean come on during the first trimester when it would be easiest to have sex you have morning sickness, fatigue, and little or no sex drive. Then the second trimester rolls around you’ve packed on 20 lbs or so, your tummy is protruding, you feel clumsy and awkward your sex drive is rekindled and the further along you get the hornier you become.

I am 31 weeks pregnant 30 pounds heavier, feeling awkward and clumsy, fat as a cow and wouldn’t you know it my sex drive is in overdrive. So what’s the problem you may be asking? It’s difficult to find a comfortable position for one thing and once I do find one then it doesn’t last long before my hips start to ache, I have to go pee or the baby shifts and I have to change my position. (this usually occurs right around the time I am getting close to orgasm.) It is damn frustrating to be near orgasm and have to stop for a fucking pee break.

My favorite position is face down, laying flat on my tummy legs spread getting pounding from behind usually while having my hair pulled, ass smacked or being choked. That position is completely out of the question at the moment. If I tried to lie on my tummy now it would look like I was lying atop a beach ball.

Nipple stimulation is out because of risk of premature labor. I also wonder if maybe I should ask my doc about having orgasms. I have strong orgasms. My pussy contracts and throbs, my stomach muscles tighten and I also squirt. I always have this worry in the back of my mind that having such intense orgasms may possibly bring on premature labor. I will have to ask my doc about that on my next visit.

Ok well I there is no real point to this post. I just needed to rant a bit. My GF came to visit us last night and we had a great time but I wound up getting frustrated more than once and I swear I had to go pee like 15 times in the three or four hours we were playing. But hey on the bright side I didn’t have to worry about hubby going limp while I was out watering the lily since he had my GF in the bed with him. She always makes sure to keep that cock hard and ready for me. Isn’t she a doll. =D

Our 4D Ultrasound

2006-09-08T19:59:00.000-07:00

The 4D ultrasound was so cool. The baby wouldnt cooperate of course. LOL He had his face turned and pushed right up against my uterus which is why his face looks smushed up in the one where he is smiling but we did get a few good glimpses of our little boy. He kept yawning like we were disturbing him while he was trying to rest. He also put his hands in his mouth several times which was really cute. Loved the little grin we got too. Of course the hubby was tickled to find that there is no longer any doubt that this is a little boy. LOL

Everything looks good. Im gaining weight. Taking my iron pills for the low iron. We are going in October to take the childbirth classes. Im gonna do my best to do this all natural.

Pregnancy Update

2006-09-07T13:43:00.000-07:00

I found out at my last OB visit that I have low iron. They put me on iron pills which upset my tummy and cause constipation (Just lovely). Ive tried to add some fiber to my diet to help with that. Im feeling a little better now, not quite as tired so hopefully the iron is helping. I am going to ask the doc to check it again when I go back on the 18th.

We have our appointment for the 3D/4D ultrasound in the morning. Im excited and a little nervous. Ive never had this done before but I've seen the images and its amazing I can't wait to see what our little one looks like but of course there is that little bit of apprehension. Hopefully he is healthy and everything is good. We refused the tests they offered to check for abnormalities. This is our child we will love him no matter what and there is no way in hell I could ever abort based on test results that are not 100% accurate anyway. Im a little nervous but mostly excited about seeing the ultrasound tomorrow. I bet I won't sleep for shit tonight. Not that we sleep anymore anyway. I can't get comfortable and once I do finally get comfy and doze off I have to go peeeeeeee. LOL

I will post some pics from the ultrasound that is assuming they give us some pics to keep.

Teena

No More Nipple Stimulation

2006-09-06T20:37:00.000-07:00

Doc says no more nipple stimulation since it can bring on pre-term labor. I am currently 30 weeks pregnant and with my girlfriend out of town and hubby afraid that he will either hurt me or induce labor its seems that the only stimulation I may be getting in the coming weeks will be my Perineal Massage and Kegel Exercises. LOL

In my hubbys defense he is afraid because:

1. I had pre-term labor with two of my previous pregnancies. Both were stopped and went on to deliver healthy babies on time.

2. We both love rough sex. I mean hair pulling, choking, slapping, spanking, slamfucking sex. We have found that we have to use alot of restraint since I got pregnant.

I can't blame him for having concerns and I share those concerns with him but dammit I miss the rough sex and it's my blog so I'll complain if I want to!!!

My girlfriend will be back in town in a few weeks so we should still get in some awesome sex between now and the time our little one comes along. Hubby can be gentle with me and rough with her. I dont mind it gentle when I've got her down there licking my clit while he is fucking me. Do you have any idea how incredible it feels to have your clit licked and sucked while getting fucked? DAYUM

I miss the nipple stimulation as well since my breasts are extremely sensitive right now but oh well a small thing to give up to ensure that baby boy is healthy and not premature.

I'm off to do my Perineal Massage and Kegels. Im hoping to have this baby Natural and the massage and kegels are supposed to help reduce the chance of episiotomy. I'm willing to try about anything to prevent another episiotomy the last one I had hurt for six fucking months after I gave birth.

~Goddess T

Rant

2006-09-06T09:28:00.000-07:00

Beautiful images such as the one above are considered obscene and illegal by these United States. My fellow BDSM folks you are now ranked as criminals right along with child pornographers. The FBI has formed an anti-obscenity squad to pursue obscenity prosecutions. You can rejoice, because apparently the war on terror is over, crime has been eradicated, domestic violence is no more, children arent dying, all is right in the world.... well except for these obscene photos plastured all over the net and since our government has taken care of all of our other more pressing issues that has freed up plenty of man power and money for tackling porn.

GIVE ME A FUCKING BREAK!!!!!!!!!

What gives the government the right to tell me what is obscene? What turns me on is my business as long as its not harming another individual and its between consenting adults it should not be illegal or of any concern to the government. Im personally not into scat or golden showers but if thats what turns on Mr. Smith next door thats his business. I guess the FBI will have to form branches within the Porn task force to target these particular offenses... so Mr. Smith be wary the Fecal Squad or Piss Patrol may come knocking on your door and hall your ass to jail where you are SURE to be safe from obscene acts such as scat, golden showers, oral and anal sex!!

Kink has been around since the dawn of time, its even discussed in the book our persecuters hold so dear.. their precious bible. Who exactly defines what is obscene or not. I personally find the bible to be a very obscene piece of work. For example!

Genesis
19:1-8 Rape virgins instead of male angels
25:1-6 Keeping mistresses is not adultery
32:25 God grabs Jacob's testicles
35:2 Reuben sleeps with father's concubine

EXODUS
20:26 God specifies building of altar to prevent exposure of nakedness
22:19 Death decreed for bestiality
33:17-23 God moons Moses

DEUTERONOMY
3:1-7 Kill men, women, & children
22:23-26 Virgin raped in city given no pity
23:12-14 Defecation: Carry paddle, dig hole, & cover up
22:28-29 Paying father to have sex with daughter
28:30 Lord's curse: Another man shall lie with groom's bride first
28:53-57 Curse: Eat your own body & children

RUTH
3:6-9 To "hook" him as husband, Ruth sleeps with Boaz
4:9-10 Boaz buys Ruth

II SAMUEL
3:7 More concubine hanky-panky
11:1-27 Uriah sent to lose his life so David can get his wife
12:7-12 Obscene performance to be viewed by all Israel
5:13 David had many wives, concubines
Chapter 13 Amnon rapes his sister
16:20-23 Absalom copulates with father's concubines on rooftop
20:3 David imprisons concubines for above

I KINGS
1:1-4 Virgin as therapy for sick old man unsuccessful
11:1-10 Wise Solomon has wives and concubines galore
14:10 Him that pisseth against the wall
16:11 One that pisseth against a wall
21:21 Him that pisseth against the wall

ESTHER
Chapters 1-2 Sexual contest to decide new queen

EZEKIEL
4:12-15 God says: Eat bread defiled with dung
5:8-10 What's for dinner?
8:2 Lord's loins make guest appearance
16:15 Fornications pour out
16:36-37 Their "filthiness poured out..."
23:1-40 Sex organs and ejaculate of harlots' lovers compared to asses & horses
29:7-8 God performs bloody castration via a sword

HOSEA
1:2-11 God tells Hosea to take whore to wife
2:1-15 Complications ensue (lewdly described)

MALACHI
2:1-4 An angry god will spread feces on your faces

REVELATION
17:1-6 A whore is stripped, eaten and burned

Oh but wait... I shouldnt attack Christians and their bible after all there is a whole group of Christians who are also into BDSM.
http://www.christiansandbdsm.com

Hmmm makes ya wonder how in the hell they got around all the sinful, obscene, immorality of BDSM doesnt it?

Watch out Christian BDSM'ers the Feds may knock down your doors or raid your churches, confiscate your bibles and bdsm gear and haul you asses to jail!!!

Now if the above sounds ridiculous to you.. then LAUGH cause it does to me to... but stop to think about it and ACT! Write your congressman... stand up.... be heard because our rights are being violated, our personal lives and preferences are being put on trial and that is no laughing matter.

PS... on a side note dont think that its just obscene images that are being targeted.

Exerpt from Fetish Porn Blog: http://www.fetishpornblog.com Though adult content is, in theory, protected by the First Amendment,
only a jury can determine if a work is obscene or not under the
subjective set of standards that vary from one community to the next
established in the 1973 Supreme Court ruling, Miller v. California.

Text is not inherently more protected than images when it comes to
obscenity charges. The erotic fiction website Red Rose Stories is
facing obscenity charges after federal agents raided the owner’s
home on October 3rd, taking computer equipment and diskettes that
contained all of their files and site information.

An Introduction

2006-09-05T15:37:00.000-07:00

Hi my name is Teena. I'm 35 years old. I hesitate to put any labels on myself I hate being labeled and defined by one aspect of my personality it’s like being put into a little box and told how I should act based on societies standards and whatever label I have saddled myself with. I spent half of my life being oppressed and told what I should do, what I should think, how I should look.

I tried to wear a label, be that one dimensional person that I thought everyone wanted me to be, denying all other aspects of myself. I wore the label of SAHM (stay at home mom) for well over a decade. I was married to a controlling, abusive asshole. (I will spare you the details) you’ve heard the story a million times. I was a stay at home mom and that is all that I was. I focused 100% on my children. I was no longer a woman, no longer a sexual feminine being, no longer the strong willed, stubborn girl that their father married. I was a mother and that is all that I was. I put everything that I had and all that I was into raising and loving my children. I was content for a while but you can only hide from yourself for so long. I became depressed and withdrawn. Then something worse happened I became completely numb. I didn’t feel anything anymore and that is when I got scared. I knew that I had to do something. I left all I had known my entire adult life. I left everything behind. It wasn’t easy but I did it. I left with nothing. No Money, No Job, No Education, No work history, No car, No children. I couldn’t take them with me I didn’t even know where I was going or if I would have a roof over my head. Their father had never been abusive toward them it was me he hated. I wound up over 200 miles away from home starting over, rediscovering myself and shedding the dreaded labels.

It took me almost a year to get a divorce and two years to get custody of my kids back. In the time between I learned a lot about myself, men and people in general. I have remarried and have another child on the way. I stay at home with my children because that is what I choose to do but I am not by any means just a SAHM anymore.

Like my poem in the about me space says:

I am wife: In every sense of the word. I am his partner, his equal, his lover, his friend. The person he cherishes above all others.

I am mother: I am a better mother now than ever before because I am well rounded. I am strong, independent and proud. I am the type of woman that I want my daughter to grow up to be. I am teaching my sons that women are equal, showing them by example what a marriage and partnership should be.

I am friend: I am there for my friends, never judgmental, always supportive.

I am lover: I was never this with my ex-husband. He made me so uncomfortable in my own skin that I could never be sexy and uninhibited. I didn’t have my first orgasm until I was 33 years old! It was after I left him. I was masturbating (something else I never did before). When I experienced my first orgasm I was like WOW!! Holy fucking hell!!! Then a few minutes later I was pissed. I was like WTF… it took me 33 years to get to this point. My husband allows me to express that sexual, feminine being. I also learned that I am bi-sexual and enjoy the touch of a woman as well as man. How fortunate am I that my husband is open enough to not only accept but embrace this part of me as well? Well okay its not like he has anything to complain about I share my girlfriend with him. LOL

I am everything: To him I am everything. I am his wife, his lover, his soul mate.

I am nothing: To you I am nothing.

I am a walking contradiction: I have so many aspects of my personality that contradict one another. You will learn more about this if you continue to read my blog.

An enigma: Again something else that will become clear the more you get to know about me.

A Woman: In the truest sense of the word. I am not defined by one aspect of womanhood. I embrace my femininity entirely. I am more than a fertile womb, a sex object, a mother. I am all of this and more.

A Goddess: The Goddess resides within all women you just have to learn how to unleash her it’s ok to demand respect and expect to be cherished and pampered. I dare say even worshipped.

I started this blog just as another way to express myself. I invite you to take a peek inside my life. It may not be anything special or spectacular but it is Less Ordinary. Well at least it is from my point of view.

~ Goddess T

Why is your blog called a woman less ordinary?

2006-09-05T15:24:00.000-07:00

Why call my blog A Woman Less Ordinary? The poem below "The Woman In the Ordinary" describes me to a TEE back a few years ago. I am no longer that woman. I have let that "woman peppery as curry, a yam of a woman of butter and brass, compounded of acid and sweet like a pineapple,like a handgrenade set to explode,like goldenrod ready to bloom" out of the bottle. I let her bloom into something Less Ordinary.

Poem

2006-09-04T14:29:00.000-07:00

The Woman in the Ordinary

The woman in the ordinary pudgy downcast girl
is crouching with eyes and muscles clenched.
Round and pebble smooth she effaces herself
under ripples of conversation and debate.
The woman in the block of ivory soap
has massive thighs that neigh,
great breasts that blare and strong arms that trumpet.
The woman of the golden fleece
laughs uproariously from the belly
inside the girl who imitates
a Christmas card virgin with glued hands,
who fishes for herself in other's eyes,
who stoops and creeps to make herself smaller.
In her bottled up is a woman peppery as curry,
a yam of a woman of butter and brass,
compounded of acid and sweet like a pineapple,
like a handgrenade set to explode,
like goldenrod ready to bloom.

Marge Piercy