Dreams are what you wake up from

:: my tooth hurts ::

2009-11-09T10:08:00.000+08:00

OUCH!
its been hurting for days
and now
its there.. the pain..
and i'm in school
without my painkillers

omg.. its building up..
but how?
i don't want to spend $$ to visit dentist..
roar!

what's happening to the 3rd tooth on the left on my upper jaw?
argh!

its officially giving me a headache..
physical headache..
its all connected, i guess.

:: Come to Fashionisiac! ::

2009-11-07T16:33:00.000+08:00

ITS HERE!!

Fashionisiac is now in its beta period.. (lol)

Fashion news, lifestyle updates, style guide and more!

Check out the coolest trends now on Fashionisiac!

:: ZaCast revamped . ZACadisiac ::

2009-10-31T19:42:00.000+08:00

ALL NEW ZaCasts returns THIS NOVEMBER!!

Look out for all the all new ZaCast, the podcast featuring ME!! Haha..

This time, it returns as ZACadisiac, a brand new series that introduces the newest in places to play, the latest album to buy n hear, the best clothes to wear, and the coolest in lifestyle and fashion trends!

The name ZACadisiac simply combines my name (Isaac) with aphrodisiac, using the latest fun things to get you real high!

Introducing:
Melodisiac (pronounced Me-lo-di-sjiac) : Music and albums worth the listen.
Makanisiac : Food and food places worth the try, or worth a visit.
Cooladisiac : Uber cool events for places that you gotta be at.
Or people and news that you HAVE TO KNOW!
Fashionisiac : New trends n nice clothes. How to be the style icon? You gotta listen.

Fun episodes of the all new ZACadisiac ZACasts comes your way this November, watch out!

On a side note, Fashionisiac is proudly accompanied by a all new BLOG..

Check it out when its all ready to hit town this November too.. U may want to start

you fashion discoveries first by following Fashionisiac on Twitter..

Tweets start in November soon!

:: shingz! ::

2009-10-23T11:19:00.001+08:00

omg.. she's so SHINGZ.. SHINGZ off la!!!

:: super white ::

2009-10-23T11:17:00.000+08:00

fave song of the week!

:: thinking through things ::

2009-10-10T23:03:00.002+08:00

I sit down
looking through my stuffs
and thinking through the many happenings
that has happened during this holidays
and as i plan for the next week or so
and for the new semester..

Love:
its a complicated thing
between 2 persons
even more so between 2 guys
especially between 2 people who are so different
in many ways
yet sharing the same passion in life
and in this real world
real things happen
and feelings get tweaked

there's too much between us
and around us
for me not to feel tired
but because we love each other so much
we are able to look past these things
and appreciate each other
forget about the flaws
forgive one and others' misdemeanors
and love on like nothing happened..
i wish
this will stay on..
and on..

was at a class chalet i spearheaded
and am I glad that although the turnout was small
but we had fun
and bonded well
i had a chance to bond with the people were going to
be in the same class as me
and we talked also about many things
about class
about life
it was..
nice:)

attended BBE YEC's first meeting..
was a nice session selecting the committee
and the various office bearers..
there's going to be a lot to learn from
being a grassroots leader
in this youth group
and i look forward to working with this dynamic bunch of people
from different walks to life
to organise events for my constituency
and making friends in my neighbourhood
btw..
after little rounds of "elections" and "votings"
i am part of the sports and wellness team,
as well as the New Media and Publicity Secretary..
interesting..
as i hope to hone my skills in design and publication
doing publicity works and such
as well as maintaining good new media health
in the group.
might be able to apply wat i learn from webby design in the new sem..

currently out of dragonboating for awhile
because since i left for vietnam till now
my weekends are all jam packed
so..
no river regatta and db trainings for me this half year..:(

as for my new style in the new sem
i've decided
that i should be a fashion boy like i've always targetted
and go all out in dressing everyday
i've bought a big new collection for this sem
and hope to create new styles that will blow ppl's mind
and upping my own style quotient
to go well with my new fashion blog i plan for next year
as well as our little designing tees business:)
my great clothes collection from uniqlo n topman n river island n g2000
all waiting for me:)

that also brings me to another point..
i'm broke
and my lines are cut off temporary again..
i need to get a work
and try to pay off things for myself..
i dun noe how long more i can sustain a lifestyle like tt
without working
and i feel bad when i swipe the card each time..
well well..
any good job offers to fit my timetable?

and fitness calls..
i need to get a healthy lifestyle
gym n swim.,.
alot alot alot next sem..
loose weight!
with determination and sheer spirit.
i believe!!

alot in my mind
weighing me down..
if u don't see me smile so much
u understand
i've too much load
going through too much
i only hope to do my best in each section
and excel!

for now
i think i need to concentrate and enjoy whatever i have

HMS leadership camp from mon-thurs..
well well..
looking for other commitments..
and also job+money:)

:: my stylist friend ::

2009-10-07T23:05:00.002+08:00

Weirdly
It feels my heart with that awkward tinge
when I saw my hairstylist today

At first,
I had the heart and thought of "betraying" him
to visit another hair salon to do up my hair
and it wasn't the very first time
such thoughts have always risen
each time the bell rings for a haircut
but i have always banished those thoughts
and go back to him no matter what..

when he left klearcut earlier this year
i thought i shall move on and visit another place
but my "bond" with him was so strong
I followed him to his new workplace

its a quiet corner of orchard
at a rather run down shop in cuppage plaza
where its only him n his lady boss
tending to the little hair shop
but it was with him
that i felt comfortable
and that my hair was in good hands
and i'm paying for a great value

Zen may be just 2 years older than me
but he miraculously brightens up my dull look each time
and adds boomz to my hair
and a smile to my face

after that one visit to this "new" place in june
i thought i wud nv return
hahahaha..
because it just didn't fit my stature..

but i missed him so..
he's like a friend
his warmth
his character
those 1 hour interactive sessions once in a long while
for the past 3 years..

it was by chance that i looked for him on facebook 3 days ago
when my hair alarm rang once again
or that i feel hiao to have a new do
and i popped down today
when i entered the building
i question myself why? why i come this place to cut my hair?
the answer was simple: my friend, Zen..

the relationship from stylist and client has evolved
we are friends with that special touch..

and one of the first few opening sentence was:
This might be the last time i'm cutting your hair for you.
I felt the tinge of bitterness
he then told me that he was returning to JB later this month
to venture out and with his friends,
open a salon of his own.
i felt happy for him..

although I do not know if i can go visit him
and receive his treatment again..
(i certainly do hope so.. if i have the time)
i could sense during our conversation
how much he wish i would continue patronising him
despite the distance..

the conversation drifted from one which was sad
and it being the last hair cut..
into a more cordial one
where i shared with him about my life in the last three months
since i saw him
and the trends i picked up
and my possible design business venture..
and into him hoping that i will go over
and we can continue this special friendship..

Ken Hirai's over emotional Ken's Bar album was playing in the background
and the both of us spoke with a little tear oozing out somehow

when the job was done
and i had my new do
getting a little wash
and his nimble little amazing hands running thru
my hair to give it the brilliant style with wax
i can't help but reflect on the wonderful hairstyles he has helped
me create.. and the confidence i had each time..

then it was as if we were separating into worlds of drastic unknown
not known if i will meet him again..
he gave me his mobile back in m'sia
and i greeted him with that smile of mine
and somehow an affirmation that if possible
i'll go over for a visit..
little notes of how to manage
and what style i might want to create next..
then we parted..
wishing each other the best
and hoping to see one another again..

in 2 month's time,
perhaps
i would venture out into another salon and finally
without guilt,
look for another stylist
but somehow
somehow
i feel that i will take a chance in the near future
and visit him
a friend..

thank you for many wonderful hairstyles
and memories,
my dear stylist friend
Zen..

may you have a great career in front of you
and successes overflowing.. :)

:: YEP Vietnam - Another learning journey ::

2009-09-29T16:20:00.003+08:00

It has been a great trip to Vietnam
and due to the last three days of culture tours and shopping
i've sort of forgotten all about the torture i've been through
during the 10 days before.. haha

we painted
we played
we chatted
we taught
we interacted
we had so much fun
and endured so much as a group

and most importantly
i've made many new friends
although there were some unpleasant things that marred the great trip overall..

well
at least
i've seen through..
(kan tou le)

the experience is priceless
and i love it all!
no words can express the wonderful time i had!

thank you HMS YEP team for the memories!

:: off! ::

2009-09-14T18:59:00.001+08:00

off to Vietnam I'll go.. tonight!

yay.. filled with excitement, suspense, terror, thrill!

dun't know what to expect.. hope to bond well with my fellow team members..
and have loads of fun
doing the refurbishment work
and playing with the children, teaching them, and interacting with them

I believe it will be an eye opening experience!

Off I go, Vietnam Binh Duong and Ho Chi Minh City
15th-28th September 2009..

c u all soon!

:: vietnam.. ::

2009-09-11T00:23:00.002+08:00

going off to vietnam next tuesday
and doing a million things.. haha..

too many things on my mind..
dunno where to start..
dunno where to end..

maybe life should be like that..
just be happy and do things
and enjoy!

:: grassroots ::

2009-09-07T00:57:00.002+08:00

Probably not known to many of my friends

but i'm pretty active in my own community

often taking part in the activities organised by my CC and RC..

like tours to malaysia, cooking classes,

wine sessions, your regular festival celebrations and such

and it is one of my "dreams" to serve my community

as a grassroot leader

to make my affection to my neighbourhood and country known

(in fact, i love the people in white and aspire to be one,

tt i joined young PAP too.. haha..)

my little dream was a little closer

from today

as i joined my area

Bukit Batok East Youth Executive Committee

to serve my quaint little neighbourhood

and organising activities for the young people in the area..

I've long heard of the youth group and

People's association youth movement

and been trying to get myself involved,

since my pubescent secondary school days

but no news was heard of

and the group always seemed quiet and distant

until recently i got to know of my CC's YEC

thru a volunteers gathering

(i'm volunteering to help out my own RC activities too..)

and this journey began,

the nomination and meetings

till today the Biennial General Meeting

when i've confirmed gotten a seat in the committee.. haha

(it was considered an election,

but.. erm.. walkover la.. heng heng got enough seats for the nominees..)

i don't know what it will be like

but i certainly hope to get myself much more involved

for this is my neighbourhood

if i don't step up and do my part

in making this a tightly knit neighbourhood

who will?

i believe this little journey of being a "little grassroots member"

will be a fruitful one filled with endless

learning opportunities and even more chances to make

friends in my community

and also proves to be steps in my growing journey

as a person and as a community leader (hopefully) in future.

look forward to what may come...

:: reflections | songs that fills me ::

2009-08-31T00:56:00.003+08:00

Here we are
once again
at the end of a month
at a time of reflections
and a time to look forward
to yet another exciting, challenge filled month ahead..

the end of august also meant that i ended my first semester in NP
and boy, what a ride it was
i have made friends which i really enjoy being with and talking to
and friends where i can hang out with and have big dreams with
i've learnt, i hope, to handle stress a little better than previously
and also learnt many many new skills

now as we wait for the results
what I can do is to prepare for my expedition too Vietnam in mid sept
where i get to make friends and interact with the kids at the orphanages and day care
and extend my little warmth to them
as well experience it first hand
the many challenges in life others face.

looking back at August..
there has been music and lyrics that kept sticking to me..
great albums that lift me
and not forgetting our National Day Parade, the Pledge moment,
my 21km Singapore Bay Run Army Half Marathon Challenge
tanning sessions and dragon boat rowing
the many friends i've made
a race along Singapore's special places in the OutRace
and many many more fun filled moments..

i shall close this months with songs, music and lyrics that ring that special bell in me...

:: Khalil Fong "Timeless" Collection ::
this is a great laid back album i believe many would enjoy..
he re-interpreted some great tracks by music's legends
and gave a new feel to them
which u will fall in love with.. i particularly like these tracks,
and the emotions brought thru is powerful
either thru lyrics or Khalil's vocals..

La Bamba:

Para bailar la bamba,
Para bailar la bamba,
Se necesita una poca de gracia.
Una poca de gracia pa mi pa ti.
Ay Arriba ay arriba
Ay arriba ay arriba,
por ti sere,Por ti sere.
Por ti sere.

Yo no soy marinero.
Yo no soy marinero, soy capitan.
Soy capitan. Soy capitan.
Bamba Bamba, Bamba Bamba,
Bamba Bamba, Bamba.

:: Red Bean ::

还没好好的感受雪花绽放的气候
我们一起颤抖会更明白什么是温柔
还没跟你牵着手走过荒芜的沙丘
可能从此以后学会珍惜天长和地久

有时候有时候我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开都有时候没有什么会永垂不朽

可是我有时候宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透也许你会陪我看细水长流

还没为你把红豆熬成缠绵的伤口
然后一起分享会更明白相思的哀愁

还没好好的感受醒着亲吻的温柔
可能在我左右你才追求孤独的自由

有时候有时候我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开都有时候没有什么会永垂不朽

可是我有时候宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透也许你会陪我看细水长流

有时候有时候我会相信一切有尽头
相聚离开都有时候没有什么会永垂不朽

可是我有时候宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透也许你会陪我看细水长流

:: Remember ::

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

我们都忘了这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的有一天有一天都会停的
让时间说真话虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后我们都不知道会不会有遗憾

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

我们都累了却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑怎么说怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人等着对方先说找分开的理由

谁还记得爱情开始化的时候
我和你的眼中看见了不同的天空
走的太远终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我要有两个相反的梦

谁还记得是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话是我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后
我和你手牵手说要一起走到最后

:: chee meng and chun keow ::

a song at MayDay concert whcih i enjoy very much each time, amongst many many others that i love as well!!!

志明真正不知要按怎
为什么爱人不愿阁再相偎
春娇已经早就无在听
讲这多其实拢总拢无卡抓
走到淡水的海岸
两个人的爱情
已经无人看已经无人听
啊我跟你最好就到这
你对我已经没感觉
到这冻止也免爱我
我跟你最好就到这
你对我已经没感觉
麦阁伤心麦阁我这爱你你不爱我

志明心情有影寒
风这大你也真正拢没心肝
春娇你哪无要和我播这出电影
咱就走到这位准底煞
走到淡水的海岸两个人的爱情
已经无人看已经无人听啊
我跟你最好就到这
你对我已经没感觉
到这冻止你也免爱我
我跟你最好就到
这你对我已经没感觉
麦阁伤心麦阁我这爱你你不爱我
走到淡水的海岸
两个人的爱情
已经无人看已经无人听
啊我跟你最好就到这
你对我已经没感觉
到这冻止你也免爱我
我跟你最好就到这
你对我已经没感觉
麦阁伤心麦阁我这爱你你不爱我
我跟你最好就到这
你对我已经没感觉
这冻止你也免爱我
我跟你最好就到这
你对我已经没感觉
麦阁伤心麦阁我这爱你你不爱我

:: Little Sun ::

I've been trying hard the whole day to remember if they sang this song during the concert.. but can't seem to remember..
it was the "theme song" for last year's concert.. haha..

多么难忘
是你纯真的模样
突然的吻弥漫着茶香
多么向往
梦想总是在他方
你说等我不管多漫长

你就是太阳
蒸发了彷徨
所以挖开土壤
种下希望
离开了故乡
看着你的眼眶
忍着泪闪着光
我会很快回来
继续我们未完的天堂
看着你的脸庞
微笑着要我去闯
你的盼望是我握在手中
小小的太阳

念念不忘
此刻应该是农忙
如画风光有你在歌唱

你就是太阳
照亮了方向
你让地球旋转月亮发光
让我有翅膀
看着你的眼眶
忍着泪闪着光
我会很快回来继续我们未完的天堂
看着你的脸庞
微笑着要我去闯
你的盼望是我握在手中
小小的太阳

看着你的眼眶
忍着泪闪着光
我会很快回来
继续我们未完的天堂
看着你的脸庞
微笑着要我去闯
你的盼望是我握在手中
小小的太阳

看着你的眼眶
忍着泪闪着光
我会很快回来继续我们未完的天堂
看着你的脸庞
微笑着要我去闯
你的盼望是我握在手中
小小的太阳 oh~~

aiya.. got alot more songs.. another time ba.. hahahaha

:: Am I? ::

2009-08-23T12:22:00.000+08:00

Am I taking on too much
too much more than I can handle?
school, ovb, chinese soc, dragonboat, BBE YEC, designing, trevvy, sgrainbow...
and many many more..
i don't have time
and i am bad at prioritising
i feel lost

like in love
i don't know myself
what I want
i don't know where
I am
i play and slack too much
and play around far too much and put myself in sticky situations

i am neither here nor there
this juxtaposition feels awkward and wrong
the wary feeling after taking on the tasks..
is bad.. sad..

lost.. what am I?
what do i really want?
i am afraid i need someone to help me find myself
and the life I am suppose to lead.

multitask? multitalented?

i am only afriad that I will inevitably drown myself
in a million identities
that all isn't the real me.

：：戏如人生：：

2009-08-12T23:38:00.001+08:00

和大家分享我的一篇文章，拿A的哦。。哈哈。。（ok la, no A+, at least got an A lo.. )

:: 戏如人生 ::

林觉豪（T01）

日本戏剧大师铃木忠志（Tadashi Suzuki）曾说：“西方戏剧的主角，就如生活在医院的长期病患，都是病人。编剧，就是这些角色的医生，即也是病情的来源。”（铃木忠志，1982/唐十郎译，1984，页4）就凭这句话，让我深深地被戏剧影响，对实验性戏剧感兴趣，更是投入与各类戏剧剧本，对这类文学产生那份不解的热忱。

我是在小学的时候，被父母逼上英语沟通与戏剧班。当时是以玩玩的心态去参与，主要是为了加强自己的自信心，和建立良好的英语基础。正整六年的戏剧班，让我对这门艺术产生了浓厚的兴趣。到了中学，自然的就加入了戏剧社，在其中也学到了不同的演绎方式，与同学和教师沟通切磋时，认识了铃木忠志这位戏剧大师，偶然对不同戏剧法有了了解和尝试。

铃木忠志以独特的见解，创造出了自己的戏剧教学方式。这一套昭示，如今已被全世界接受与学习当中，最主要，是它勇于把古西方文学代表作拿来加入新点子、新生命，创造出全新的戏剧体验。这套戏法没有久远的历史，但却带给戏剧一个全新的态度以及层面，让大家以不同的眼光去看戏。这也推出了新颖的创作、理念。一套演员教学法让这门艺术潜移默化，成果不只限于演技，同样的也改变了当下新新人类的导演技巧和编剧写作。我就是当中获益不浅的门徒。

带着对“铃木戏剧教学法”的热忱，我有幸在中学时期加入了本地一代戏剧大师郭宝崑所开设的“实践表演艺术学院”。在那一年的课程中，学到了多种戏剧艺术与表演，更有机会向这位本地戏剧教师学习，更曾与郭宝崑老师对过话，过过招。

到我十六岁时，已接触过多种演绎方程式。尝试过传统与新世纪的，也有过中英语表演经验。从中，我还是最爱铃木忠志老师的演绎法，因而深入研究，磨出了自己的风格，投身入戏剧创作与指导。我不断阅读不同戏剧编剧的故事与剧本，从中学习。自己学习，自己领会。秉持着信念，发掘自己的才能。郭宝崑曾提过，“戏剧是生命的反影，更是生命的延伸。戏剧写作是发自内心的、独特的，没得学，也学不来的。”（郭键汶，2003，页194）。我也因此吸收各方创作概念，想不只当个会读戏剧剧本的，或只当演员，在初级学院一年级时，尝试写出生平第一个剧本，参加了当年由TheatreWorks举办的新加坡青年编剧奖，还得了第二名。对当时修读理科的我，不曾受过专业写作训练，让校方感到十分惊讶。

接下来几年，我都参加了新加坡青年编剧奖，年年都如前三甲，当中更有三次夺冠。这当中，我服过兵役，也念了大学。在升大学二年级那年，被本地戏剧团TheatreWorks邀请学习当一部短剧的导演。我那时是随父母心愿念工程系，内心十分不愿。当导演的机会来临时，当然得好好把握。那部剧是本地编剧Robin Loon的《LIV》。当中提到说人最大的困境就是梦境，无论是一直有的梦想，或是白日梦，也可能是晚上做的恶梦，都有它一定的烦恼。（Robin Loon， 2007，页3）我就是追逐着梦想的人，带着许多烦恼，但也把握这每一个机会，享受其中。以为自己是理科的料，却对文科戏剧有着不解深情，始终只能如点水蜻蜓，偶尔过个瘾。

说真的，我一向来都处生于戏剧当中。但都往往没机会去深刻体会或将戏剧当我人生至今的重头戏。戏剧的个各个层面，我都有碰触过，就缺真正的身在戏剧的生活里或真正的去了解它。但戏剧影响了我，让我以不同的角度看人生，体验着真实与虚伪，感受到另一个世界。读着各个不同戏剧文学作品，对我的影响就在于让我痛苦，没有机会去追逐着方面的梦想，却在其中的到了荣誉和加冕，体验过人生的高低潮。一切就如郭宝崑老师所说过，人生的确如戏，戏也的确表现人生，但没真正体验的梦想，最实际、最完整。因为在脑中的画面，永远刻画得最完美。（Kuo Jing Hong，2002，页29）

资料：
铃木忠志（1982）/唐十郎译（1984）。铃木忠志编剧的演绎方式。台北：台北时代国际。
郭键汶（2003）。回忆：郭宝崑（1939-2002）." Inter-Asia Cultural Studies 4.2 (2003): 193-201。
Robin Loon (2007). LIV. Singapore: TheatreWorks Ltd.
Kuo Jing Hong （2002）。Kuo Pao Kun: And love the wind and rain. Singapore: Crucible Pte. Ltd.

:: blur ::

2009-08-04T23:14:00.002+08:00

Why?
For what?
I don't know.

dear Isaac..

Don't let a moment's willful thoughts ruin you.
think of the future..
one which is happy
and positive
and endless possibilities..

that is far more important
and a fling or two
some random fun times

its okay when your relationship reaches a plateau
and you get used to one another
just think of the random happy moments and surprises you share
doesn't it still bring a smile upon your face?

why does the grass look greener on the other side?

and this person is willing to let you go have some fun
but unwilling to let go
it means something
because he understands you so much
and that he still loves you.

he knows that you will turn back.

and probably..

i will turn back..
because i've comed to my senses.. :)

:: Don't ask the Merlion come to you! ::

2009-08-04T22:59:00.001+08:00

Never, never ask the water spouting merlion to come to you..
you'll regret.. haha

:: have you seen Elmo sleeping before? ::

2009-08-04T22:56:00.002+08:00

Elmo with Andrea Bocelli

Notice the last part when elmo sleeps..
so cute la..

and i am amazed they got Andrea Bocelli to do this.. its great..

:: love . the time has come.. ::

2009-08-04T15:36:00.003+08:00

when we feel the relationship
and love has reached a plateau
maybe its time to talk it out
and me and W did.

we are still very good friends, buddy, brother..

a special relationship that we will treasure

i don't eliminate the fact that I will go back to him
in the future..

but for now..
i still feel very much loved by him
status and relationship might be at a different level
but we still care and concern for each other very much

and as for the other M..
we share many things in common..
and the passion n love within.. :)

:: gaining ground ::

2009-08-04T15:27:00.002+08:00

I like it when i feel relaxed, at ease.
I don't like it when i feel lost.

I like it when I sit on a dragonboat and rowing away..
I don't like it when I feel stressed doing, well, nothing in exact.

I like it when I am amidst the process of completing a project.
I don't like it when I am stuck with nothing and think of what to do.. waiting..

I like it when I am feeling grounded, doing things as supposed.
I don't like it when i feel guilty of not doing things i'm suppose to do.

I enjoy every moment of life, probably too relaxed
I don't like it when I feel not serious
and when I feel i'm going nowhere.

I believe I am going somewhere.. now..
in the midst..
enjoying myself..

I want to do so many things..
but there's a limit to what I can achieve.
So maybe I shall not be an overachiever..
and be the one who I really am
don't care about who says what
and what others can do but i can't..

this might be a long and tedious process
a long and tedious challenge within myself and with this world..

where do i have the time to relax?

I need to allocate time better
to be myself.
sleep less
and enjoy each moment I have each day with myself and the world around me..

keep more time to maximising my life!
stop wasting time in sleeping n slacking and doing rubbish..
live and love and be free!

:: 9th August . 8.22pm ::

2009-07-30T19:12:00.002+08:00

We, The Citizens of Singapore
Pledge ourselves as one united people
Regardless of Race, Language or Religion,
To build a democratic society,
Based on justice and equality.
So as to achieve happiness, prosperity,
And progress for our nation.

____________________________________________________________________

On 9th August 2009
at 8.22pm,
wherever you are,
whatever you may be doing
put it down, stand up,
clench you right fist and put it at your chest.
When you hear the public warning system go off
recite the pledge with the rest of the country
and affirm your loyalty to this country we call home.

feel the passion
feel the dignity
feel the patriotism.

the pledge moment.
I will be a part, will you?

:: sick is no fun - Day 2 ::

2009-07-28T21:56:00.002+08:00

Right.. so day two was suppose to be depressing as hell
and my nose,
by now,
has become red, swollen, and constantly dripping mucus.
i practically can't feel my nose
majiam its dropped off, like MJ..
aww..
the tickling sensation...
ah-choo..
there it goes again while i'm typing..
and again.. argh!

i need a box/packet of tissue wherever i walk
around the house.. oh man!

my fever spiked to a high earlier in the day
38.4 degrees today..
still considered mild i guess as compared to yesterday's 39..
but after popping the pills
my temp fell to normal range..
and the bad bad sinus/flu started kicking in..
have been sneezing non stop the whole day
still feeling chilly throughout the day
but at least i'm perspiring when the fan is not on..
but if i on the fan..
i'll start sneezing and the cold kicks in..
haiz~

was lying on the bed the whole day
still did not manage to do any work until now..
feeling lethargic and sleepy the whole afternoon
but can't manage to sleep.
kept playing on my phone..

and sneezing..
3 repetitive sneezes..
4 repetitive sneezes..
and during the evening when i was watching TV..
the ultimate 9 continuous sneezes with no pause in between kicked in!
whoa..
my nose almost fell out really..

i even nose bled at least 3 times.. can't remember..
prolly due to my intensive sneezing..
and i coughed out blood filled phlegm around twice today..

haiz~

i really guess its H1N1..
but it could possibly be dengue fever too..
well well..

bless me..
ah-choo..

damn, my computer screen is filled with my sneezing output!!

:: sick is no fun ::

2009-07-27T23:30:00.001+08:00

It's terrible being sick.
Sorethroat, fever, coughs, flu, headache..
It's unbearable and you just can't concentrate.
Even on the bus, I felt a weird sensation..
Sleepy, drowsy, and a cramped up head.
Argh..
My fever even reached 39.0 degree at one point,
Constantly cold n stuffy..
Can't breathe properly.

Finally my fever has subsided a little
And I'm beginning to sweat out the toxins within my body..
I've really nv gotten such high fever in a looooong time lo!

Now feeling really hungry coz the whole day I only managed to drink water
And steal some bites of little Jerry muffin
When my fever was not up..
And a sandwich at NP four leaves..
(the cold one, not the toasted one)
Was so tired n sleepy did not bother to go buy dinner lo.,

Just stole a 鸡蛋糕my mum bought.. Haha..
And it got my throat all choked up again with the irritating feeling.. Haiz..

Shall go sleep le..
Alot of assignments to do..
Mayb this happened for me to catch up with my projects..
But I still have assignments due later thus week
And it's group projects!! How???

Hope to recover soooon..

Sleep le hopefully tmr will feel better..

Btw, my uncle was rather joking when he diagnosed me to have H1N1..
Still dunno if it's true.. Hmm..

:: and the world went pop! ::

2009-07-23T22:40:00.002+08:00

Here's what me and haojie did for our publication design assignment for a poster of
an event held at Zouk.

The main theme was music X design X photography

we love it.. quite pro right? LOL!

:: The Answer Is... ::

2009-07-12T01:09:00.003+08:00

Just returned from stefanie's concert..
and it did make me think quite a bit..

been a rather hectic day,
attended a cooking class in the morning which I thought was rather "fei4"..
then went to dragon boating again..
felt good, although it can be a little tiring..
everyone has a passion
and weirdly, i seem to really want to get aquainted with watersport..
well well..
so back to kallang on saturdays, will be more positive, make friends..
and enjoy my saturday workouts + fun session + tanning session!!

The highlight of the day had to be Stefanie Sun Yanzi's 2009 world tour..
"The Answer Is.."
I am truly blown away by the show, completely!
it was awesome to the max, especially the STAGE!
its the most amazing stage I've seen in my entire concert watching life..
the show was so well planned, with the diamond cut background setting,
and endless changes..
It was a grand style concert I have never seen before!
and the costumes..
it made Stef shine like a confident, mature, radiant lady..

but i must still talk about the stage..
the many transformations and "ji guans" it has is simply amazing..
with just plain white light, it looks rather ordinary..
but when the strobe lighting comes on.. whoa!! tan4 wei2 guan1 zhi3 la!!
the whole lighting on the wonderfully down holed stage backdrop transformed the audience
into another fascinating world.. no bluff wor!
the different raisers and platforms were amazing..
the piano playing section was magnificent..
as stef "floated" in in a moving "cloud.." beautiful!
when it was near the ending.. the "rocks" by the side
was uncovered to reveal the great band who was working "backstage" throughout!

it was the best show I've watched..

the only gruntle i have was that there were not enough fast songs to get the audience standing on thier feet.. although i enjoyed all the songs..
i particularly did not really enjoy "green light" due to its arrangement.. abit la...

the final part when the stage extension moved out and rotated was another highlight..
and also when the image of her projected on a screen singing..

all these has to be experienced live at SIS for one to admire the whole beauty la!
seriously!

the title "The Answer Is.." was very cleverly brought out through the different segments..
but mainly, the key idea was that one should do whatever he/she wants to..
without much restrictions.. enjoying one's every moment, appreciating what he/she has..
that is the Happiness.. and that is the answer.. to life's never ending question..

I was inspired.. to take everything in my way..
to plan my daily live properly
to not waste any more time
and to try spending wisely from now on..
be a man that can be trusted and be a man of dignity..
excel in everything
at least attempt them..
don't give empty promises..
or dream too far out..
be realistic in the goals i set
and achieve them!

Be myself and be happy..
I hope that is the answer to my life's neverending question
and yours too!

:: I'm Back! ::

2009-07-04T20:10:00.002+08:00

Hello everyone,

As time past, I really wonder who are the ones who do pop by my blog once in awhile
who really bother's readin my blog to know who I am and how i'm doing
or any interesting stuffs I've been up to in the days before..

well
I think I've let many friends who followed my blog down..
my blogging have drastically decreased in recent times
especially since my birthday tt time
My sincerest apologies..

well, just a few updates..

Its the end of week 11 at CMC in NP
and the assignments are beggining to pile up..
poster design.. photography portfolio..
psychology projects...
design portfolios...
film project... study into mass communication, effects and components..
chinese writings... my CCA at OurVoiceBox.sg..
preparation for Danny Yeo's
lessons and tests in presentation
(i'm gonna teach my class Mambo dance moves.. haha, researching it now!)

and it gets really stressful.. as much I have tried to do my job on time
however.. it always seem impossible.. oops.. end up doing many last minute works since..
I shall change that!

really need a good break and go out with my close friends..
prolly for a holiday
never done that before..
i still very very much look forward to going Taiwan..
that is my biggest dream!
wonder if it will happen this year...????

My injuries have been improving, even though I did nothing to it..
and will be back in action in July.. this month..
I'm getting geared up for writing another play in 24 hours on 18-19july at marina barrage..
and I'll be getting back to dragonboating as a form to train up and get a tan.. LOL!
as soon as.. next week! cannot be lazy anymore.. its time!
will be watching Sun Yanzi's concert on 11th July as well..

gave up my chance to be NDP Usher this year because I think I can't cope with my work
and the training period got me a little bit down, because those weeks were really tight
with projects and tests due then..
so, no NDP this year, But I still look forward to catching it on TV!!
(unless friends want to meet up for dinner on tt day la)

Oh ya!
I'm also really excited as plans are in place for my primary school friends to meet up sometime in August! can you believe it? my primary school friends whom imany i've not met for a good 10 years.. and its all due to the power of facebook, that we have the chance of getting back...

our proposed meeting for chestnut 4A got stalled along the way.. people are just too busy when they grow up la! hope to meet those long lost friends from chestnuts too!

well, after this ssemester, I'll be heading down to Vietnam for a youth expedition project..
really looking forward to it
might be a life-changing experience! gotta start planning for it soon..
(i'm a project leader for a self-esteem lesson for the poor children over there.. omg, how??)

With lofty ambitions to start my own fashion and lifestyle magazine is still fresh in my mind as ever
I need collaborators la! anyone who might read this and keen in helping my kick start this,
either just by a blog then move from there
or got lobang help me learn how to establish or handle such a magazine..
do get to me ya! haha!

on a sidenote
this new idea came to my mind during a lesson sometime tis week..
prolly cause I was having lesson for visual comm (film)
I thought that if I were not to be able to get good enough results to enter university
(for that I mean NUS FASS/SMU Social Science/NTU HSS or WKWSCI)
I might as well now use my knowledge and my passion in creative things
built up a nice portfolio in design and film and photography..
and hope pursue a degree in NTU ADM Art Design Media.. in film or photography..
orh.. the days in NTU CAC, Epiphany, Hall 4... orh.. i miss my NTU days!!
(mayb NUS is fun.. LOL!)

alright.. thats just a short update on what's been happening in my life..
promise to update more often..

(ps, do check out my other blog too for random updates on life notes and other interesting ideas.. go to: mrisaac's livejournal)