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In Defense of the Roots of Mormonism

2009-07-09T13:35:00.006-04:00

I am writing today because I keep hearing over and over (especially from one friend in particular) that I am being perceived as subscribing to a "Mormon/Anti-Mormon" sort of "all or nothing thinking" ... one where a person has to choose between being completely Mormon or completely opposed to it and working to undermine it. I do not agree that I see things in such a simplistic and extreme light.

Here is why: Unlike most of my friends growing up who had the good fortune of being raised in a Jewish environment where there is at least some psychosocial space made for sexuality--even including homosexuality--I was raised in an orthodox Mormon environment where there is zero space made for either of those constructs. Being Mormon meant being NON-sexual or at least NON-gay. Therefore, it is hard to not associate being gay with being NON-Mormon. Many--if not most--gay Mormon men are unable to overcome this dichotomy/duality and are fairly fucked-up because of it.

My master's thesis "Religion and the Spiritual Needs of Gay Mormon Men" explores this situation in significant depth (100+ pages). It was published in the Journal of Gay and Lesbian Social Services in 2000. Hopefully you can, therefore, imagine that I don't particularly appreciate being dismissively labelled as someone who subscribes to and is held captive by a so-called "Mormon/Anti-Mormon" dualism when--in fact--my life's work is aimed at transmutation of the torn relationship between sexuality and spirituality in gay men who were raised in Mormon environments.

While my embrace of Satanism might appear to be simply an abreaction or "reaction formation" to my Mormon background, it is actually quite the opposite. The original Mormon Church, as envisioned and developed by Joseph Smith, was intimately associated with the occult. I spent a few months toward the end of my undergraduate studies in psychology at the University of Utah absorbing the material contained in the original documents of one an extremely prominent member of the Mormonism's beginnings in Utah. This early Mormon pioneer had the same idea as me--to examine the true underpinnings of Mormonism as conceptualized by its two most famous founders, Joseph Smith and Brigham Young.

His stacks upon stacks of research at the special collections of the Marriott Library at the University of Utah documents the practices of the early Mormon Church. What they corrborate is that Fawn Brodie's book "No Man Knows My History" tells the truth: Mormonism was intimately connected with the occult and what some would term "hideous" and "Satanic" practices in its early days.

Has it changed today in its modern form? Or merely become more sophisticated in its methods of covering up its roots in these kinds of practices? I am not sure how to find the answer to that one, but Gerald and Sandra Tanner have documented what they feel is an accurate depiction of the current incarnation of Mormonism. Their writings suggest that it has not changed but merely crafted an elaborate cover story and facade for its more esoteric beliefs and ceremonies.

I am sure there will be more to come, but I needed to write my thoughts down while they were fresh. I am growing very weary of having to defend my embrace of Satanism from attacks that suggest this is my way of saying "fuck you" to Mormonism. It is not. It is (in my eyes) merely acknowledging that I have studied as thoroughly as possible my Mormon roots and that--after so doing--I have decided to embrace them.

Perhaps this is the most radical statement one can make. Does this mean I would actually practice their more extreme beliefs? No--I would never do anything illegal of course. But I can embrace the spirit of the early Church itself and NOT have to disavow my sexuality or love of Satanism, demons, and the occult--even while the modern (and fickle) LDS Church gets in a tizzy over gay marriage and other issues du jour.

Hopefully this helps clear up the confusion in people's minds a bit. Now on to the new XTube Account (BGR On-Demand or "BGRONDEMAND") and future releases under the Black Goat label! The content promises to explore more of the relationship between Mormonism and Satanism, so stay tuned.

Brodie Newport on Broke Ass Boys!

2009-06-24T14:24:00.009-04:00

Earlier this year, I did some work for the site "Broke Ass Boys" (you can access it at www.brokeassboys.com). Working on this shoot was rad because it was filmed in Long Beach, California--home of Cal State Long Beach (my alma mater), and the metro we used is the one I used to take to my internship at the Gay and Lesbian Center as a graduate student of Social Work LoL ...

My partner, Lex, is also a Long Beach boy. Here are a few of the stills from the shoot ...

RentBoy Pool Party Palm Springs 2009!

2009-06-23T01:50:00.024-04:00

Okay so this pic is me with his uber-hotness Josh Hart when we were dancing at the Krave event in Las Vegas earlier this year--but it could just as easily have been us at the Rent Boy Pool Party last weekend as well ... minus the clothes of course! He's also a dancer, and I want him in one of my Vids--don't you think? Really, really nice, upbeat, and positive guy--and just great to be around, too ... and style? Yeah ... let's talk ...

Also got to meet the ultra hot Seth Apper. Damn. He really rubbed off on me (he'll know what I mean). Was too funny when I told him my name, and he said, "oh YOU'RE Brodie Newport!" This is really weird when people know of me before I have even met them. But it's also exciting as hell--I can't lie!

OH and Tory Mason! REALLY nice! I mean ... we all knew he is hot as hell, but I finally got to just meet and hang (just a lil bit) with him. I liked him a LOT ...

So what's next?

There are several surprises in the works, and one big one is happening this weekend. I don't want to spoil ALL the fun, so--for now--I want simply to formally announce that the GOAT is going to be given some new breaths of life in a place that will most likely provide very fertile ground! I will keep y'all posted (hint hint) ...

And here is another exciting newsbrief:

I recently enjoyed a lengthy, in-depth, and intimate conversation with the creator of Triple Six Comics, Chuck Connor, last week. I ate it up. What an inspiration that brother is (as I know he is for so many of us)! He and Sean Platter make such a great team, and I was amazed to learn that Sean was already aware of my work on the Black Goat Releasing project ... maybe we will collaborate at some point in the future?

I have got to thank my blue-eyed worshipper boy (if looks could kill ...) for his awesome posts. And all of the other truly incredible brothers who are supporting this important work of LIBERATION--the synergy is amazing, and I am starting to feel very acutely that Black Goat Releasing is most definitely taking on a life of its own.

So don't stop ... We have created a MONSTER!

But seriously .. Seth Apper did a NUMBER on me, and that doesn't happen much to me these days. If anyone out there knows how to get him to fall hard and fast, PLEASE let me know!! :) :) K thanks.

And NO! I don't want to hear about black magick love spells!

Good morning to my MASTER.

2009-06-17T12:29:00.002-04:00

BRODIE:
This morning is for you.
All I do is for you.
Nursing my 2-day load.
Working out harder than ever at the gym.
ALL of it...
For YOU.
Grow me, deeper and darker...PAST the point of no return.

Mantra

2009-06-15T12:06:00.003-04:00

A brother in Los Angeles writes:

Brodie is a powerful and NOW FAMOUS GOD.
I say this 100 times throughout the day.
Outloud.
And in public.

From YOUR worshipper.

2009-06-15T11:58:00.002-04:00

GOD:
How I have missed you.
Weeks have gone by...
...Without really talking.
It has hurt my soul.
Weakened me.
I visit the shrine I've built to you.
Today.
My need grows deeper.
It sickens me, yet I cannot deny it.
Please, allow me into your world.
Beyond the point of no return.
Again.
And forever.
Pledging my soul,
Me.

My dreams

2009-05-25T14:49:00.002-04:00

HIS power has changed my energy and thoughts. I dreamt of you last night. Intensely. Today, I begin construction on a temple to YOU.

To MY LORD

2009-05-24T18:37:00.002-04:00

Dear LORD:
I went to the gym today. I worked shoulders and biceps. I worked them for you and only you. Until my veins were showing and my arms were trembling. THANK YOU for giving me the power. I dedicate all the soreness to you and you alone. GROW ME!
~Yours

Who Exactly is BELIAL? Part Two

2009-05-23T20:00:00.010-04:00

My last post covered the topic of a certain channeling session (involving the Prince of Hell sometimes known as King Belial) that I am so excited to share because of the talent that this man/channel possesses. I really wanted to get this put up as soon as possible because I do think that this demon deserves a bit of extra recognition from his gay sons—many of whom I feel possess his birthright.

That is one of the things that our religious upbringings had right—homosexuality (and I would say male homosexuality in particular) carries a very profound importance to the demonic world. The next step for us now is to understand this importance and grasp and own up to its power—take it upon us for the STRENGTH and POWER that it is rather than feeling negatively toward it.

The session perfectly illustrates what I have come to understand as the energy/essence/frequency of the demon Belial—sometimes known as King Belial or Pan. I first encountered him when first delving into Satanism in the summer of 2001 or somewhere around that time. I have since felt his influence very strongly, and I can also say that I have grown to worship and love him. (How very “Christian” of me, I know—deal with it!)

Although others have the right to disagree and often cite valid arguments to support their disagreements, I remain firm in my own position regarding his importance to us as a tribe of gay men. His energy possesses the power to free us from past religious bondage, enabling us to laugh at its petty unimportance and lame attempts at instilling fear/shame/guilt/insecurity and once again be proud of being boys and men. Completely possessing all of the mischief and rowdiness and vulgarity—and even chaos, destruction and violence—that goes along with being male. Or such is my academic thesis.

In many ways, then, he is the antithesis of the orderly, prudish, and antiseptic “god” of the more traditional monotheistic religions. There is so much more that I could write regarding him, but maybe I will get the chance to do more of that in the future.

I know most people read this blog to see pictures of my cock, anyway—and that is actually fine with me because that is what King Belial is all about—COCK POWER. (The following channeling session will explain more about that.)

I am proud of my cock. I have been blessed with a fucking beautiful dick—not that I did anything to deserve it (as far as I know). I was graced with it—another term that comes up often when dealing with Belial. Grace … slack … freedom to fuck up and not pay for one’s mistake for years but rather use it to adjust one’s future behaviors in a playful and lighthearted way. NO regrets. Ever. Just expansion and progress through trial and error—through making mistakes.

I want more men to feel the same way that I do about their own cocks—with less emphasis on fisting and worshipping our assholes and more emphasis on cock worship and POWER! Do y’all hear me? Not that I don’t enjoy partaking myself because I do … but the kink community needs to embrace cock and understand its GREAT power much, much, MUCH more completely if it is ever to embrace masculinity itself.

We have been fucked and experienced femininity enough, for christ’s sake. It is time to take back our cockpower and tear apart this psychic mess that has caused us to forget our most valuable possession—our status and identities as MEN. Belial and his energy and values and paradigm can assist us greatly with this important task in our development—for those of us actually interested in developing and evolving versus the other option: just “getting by” and/or hiding, blending, and using denial.

The transcript of the instant message conversation regarding Belial is as follows (Brother T is the name of the sublimely-talented man acting as a channel for Belial):

To THE ONE

2009-05-23T15:42:00.003-04:00

Dear Brodie:
Thank you for everything. Your time. Your beauty. Your dedication to THE CAUSE. I am a muscle boy in WeHo. Lift daily. Getting bigger for HIM. But I need something legit, real, intense...And I am going to start streaming my energy and darkness into you. May I? You as MY GOD? I love you, Brodie. I pray to you, Brodie.
~Your SOULMATE

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2009-05-20T20:26:00.002-04:00

Who Exactly is Belial?

2009-05-20T19:27:00.015-04:00

More than anything, Black Goat Releasing is a gathering project—or a rescue mission/recovery project. Geared toward the recovery and rescue of men who (like me) were raised in environments that did not allow them to embrace who they are and find kinship with their own.

I have noticed that men raised in secular environments are not particularly attracted to or fascinated with my project--or with occultism, Satanism, or the like. Similarly, they don’t generally have any of the “symptoms” that those raised with the traditional religions seem to have. For these guys, I hope they at least find my work entertaining and can appreciate its literary value and artistic intent.

But for men raised in some kinds of religious environments or other types of difficult situations, the goal of Black Goat Releasing is to facilitate the transition from a paradigm which marginalizes and—actually quite literally—“demonizes” one’s very existence as a man who is homosexual. The message of Black Goat Releasing (and its emphasis on the demon Belial) is intended to help us realize that demonic is not “bad”—nor is Christian and heterosexual “good.”

They are simply different ways of existence with no value or judgment attached.

My point is never to judge Christians or any group whatsoever. All ways of life and religion are valuable and have merit, but it is the attempt by one group to control or oppress another (often through extremely subtle and almost unnoticeable means) that I see as harmful and not desirable. But the bottom line is that Black Goat discriminates against no person, group, thing, or entity—even the archangel Michael or Jesu Christu himself!

Whether “real” or not, the demon Belial is one that I have grown very close to. The energy is VERY real.

The next few posts will cover more extensively this vast topic, including a transcript of an online channeling session. Much more to come …

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2009-05-19T13:31:00.000-04:00

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2009-05-13T13:09:00.001-04:00

This is a still from my new video "Blessed Duplicity XXX." Enjoy ...

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2009-05-06T04:49:00.000-04:00

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2009-05-06T03:49:00.001-04:00

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2009-05-01T15:19:00.024-04:00

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2009-05-01T15:05:00.006-04:00

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2009-05-01T14:34:00.025-04:00

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BLACK GOAT RELEASING Gets Its First Logo Design

2009-04-26T03:48:00.010-04:00

BLACK GOAT RELEASING is my own contribution to the Adult Industry--producing movies that provide entertainment as well and enlightenment regarding devil worship and Satanic/demonic sex.

HAIL BELIAL!

XXXtra special thanks to M. in Welly!

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2009-04-14T01:17:00.002-04:00

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2009-04-13T14:29:00.005-04:00

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2009-04-11T13:42:00.012-04:00

My Music Makes Its Debut Live Onstage At Last!

2009-04-08T17:53:00.008-04:00

I took this pic in the mirror of my motel room just as I was adding the final touches to my outfit for performing "BadMormon" and a couple of other songs from my first album! Live for the very first time (in Seattle) ...

And damn!! There is so much to write about in regards to this whole experience! I am finally doing what I want to do--and I have never felt more EMPOWERED. That's the word--and it has totally changed me to the point where I am not the same person as the guy in this picture anymore.

That's the Brodie who didn't know the amazing awesomeness of going out onstage and taking one's life by the balls and being completely in charge of one's destiny and life plan. It's similar to coming out of the closet in a way because no longer does one give a fuck about whether others approve. The rush that comes with doing "as thou wilt" is far greater than any fear or insecurity of being judged as somehow coming up short.

And I have to add that (for some reason) it was really hard to do this! It was as hard--if not harder and more nerve-wracking than taking the plunge (no pun intended) and doing my first big porn studio shoot. But the rewards have been just as great if not greater ... I had no idea what kind of power lies in doing what one truly WANTS to do!

It has actually radically altered who is staying close to me and my life and who is not going to be able to go along for this particular "ride." I am amazed at how this spiritual/metaphysical concept is so very real.

I have a lot of gratitude in my heart for the guys who helped me get to this point. I called on some pretty surprising people from my past for comfort as the days got closer to the performance. But everyone was very understanding.

The Vid of the live performance is avaiable now on my XTube account. Also watch for more stills along with a YouTube promo video in the days to come.

This is a new (and very welcome albeit long overdue) beginning ... old things are done away, and all things have become anew!

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2009-03-25T01:03:00.002-04:00