noodle's on the floor

Spring Break!!!!!!!! (pt. 1)

2010-03-17T22:00:00.015-04:00

So since I don't work in just one school, and since none of their spring breaks line up, my spring break will take up a couple of weekends until the end of school! :)

I'm super excited about it. It will consist of things like:

and this,

hopefully a little of this,

and possibly some of this,

I couldn't be more excited.

Right now...

2010-03-11T10:06:00.018-05:00

What I'm listening to right now:

I'd never seen the ballet until now.

Fact: I love male dancers (not in the "they're sexy" way

but in the way their bodies are so rectangular, i love

lines.)

The human body is SO cool,

and secretly I wish they were all robots that would make my day...

also I love the end of this piece.

What I love right now:

(Pookie)

Really awesome friends who speak truth to my heart.

I also really love Love.

a.k.a. Jesus

He's really great.

Just sayin'

What do you say when you run out of thanks

2010-03-04T21:50:00.007-05:00

What do you say when you run out of thanks,

What do you say

when there are too many things to be thankful for?

What do you say when you are being constantly blessed,

when everything seems like it is going God's way,

when before you even finish saying 'thank you' for one thing

5 more things happen to be thankful for?

How can I thank a God who LITERALLY gives me everything?

How can I thank a God who literally provides EVERYTHING for me?

How do you thank a God who pours out in abundance

everything and anything you've ever wanted

then everything else you can't even think of!

How do you thank a God who already knows, before you do,

everything you need

and

everything you want?

How do you thank a GOD who will give you almost anything you ask

and give you anything you pursue?

And on top of that...

He thinks I am the COOLEST person in the world!

cool...

Yes

2010-03-01T23:29:00.007-05:00

"You're blessed when you're at the end of your rope. With less of you there is more of God and His rule." Matt. 5:3 Mess.

Psalm 119:9-16

9-16 How can a young person live a clean life?
      By carefully reading the map of your Word.
   I'm single-minded in pursuit of you;
      don't let me miss the road signs you've posted.
   I've banked your promises in the vault of my heart
      so I won't sin myself bankrupt.
   Be blessed, God;
      train me in your ways of wise living.
   I'll transfer to my lips
      all the counsel that comes from your mouth;
   I delight far more in what you tell me about living
      than in gathering a pile of riches.
   I ponder every morsel of wisdom from you,
      I attentively watch how you've done it.
   I relish everything you've told me of life,
      I won't forget a word of it.

⁹ How can a young man keep his way pure?
By living according to your word.

¹⁰ I seek you with all my heart;
do not let me stray from your commands.

¹¹ I have hidden your word in my heart
that I might not sin against you.

¹² Praise be to you, O LORD;
teach me your decrees.

¹³ With my lips I recount
all the laws that come from your mouth.

¹⁴ I rejoice in following your statutes
as one rejoices in great riches.

¹⁵ I meditate on your precepts
and consider your ways.

¹⁶ I delight in your decrees;
I will not neglect your word.

Crunch

2010-02-22T22:03:00.001-05:00

I'm really excited about breakfast tomorrow.

Home:

2010-02-21T20:50:00.003-05:00

Here's the thing about living alone

it's lonely...

During the day, it's magical!

Come night-time,

it's quiet.

Update:

2010-02-09T23:04:00.005-05:00

Just an update for all three of you who read this thing :)

So far this week I haven't died.

Tomorrow is my long day, starting out with high school, so we'll see what happens after tomorrow.

But I've decided to trust God.

I will trust Him with my income and I'll trust Him with my "outcome" (taxes.)

I trust that he will tell me what to say and what to do while I'm teaching and dealing with difficult students and colleagues. And I'm always praying for fun spontaneous things to do during breaks.

I'm also praying for more of Him due to this ravenous spiritual hunger (it literally can not be quenched. Thank God.)

So, we'll see what happens.

The Sunday night scaries

2010-02-07T23:26:00.005-05:00

It seems to happen about every Sunday night (and some weeknights)

that I get the Sunday night scaries

where I don't want to go back to work.

I don't want to teach. I don't want to deal with clients.

I don't want to feel pressure. I don't want to fail.

Sometimes my career feels like I'm walking on the ledge of a really tall cliff.

If I take one wrong step

make one wrong move

I'll fall off

and that's the end of that.

It feels so unstable.

And my job is almost solely reliant on me!

The amount of work I put into it directly affects the amount of revenue I get out.

Everything is relying on me!

Self-employed!

I'm my own boss, I'm my own secretary, PR, I'm my own accountant!

I run the books, I run the ads, I do the paper work, I do the schmoozing!

And I don't even know what I'm doing!

It's scary.

It's terrifying.

Sunday nights I just want to stay in bed and pretend it all isn't happening.

"Boone Kids"

2010-02-02T09:47:00.007-05:00

Right after God kidnapped me in college a lot of crazy things happened.

Where I was and who I was hanging out with was kind of like being in an incubator.

We were all spiritually charged and

hungry, hungry, hungry!

We couldn't get enough!

We would meet together to hang out,

we would pray together, love together,

we would drive down the mountain for church together,

get words for each other, we challenged and pushed each other.

We manifested.

We glorified.

These bonds will not be broken.

Now we've all mostly graduated and moved away, some got married.

And now we've been thrown into this world,

this different, different

world.

And we're working with these different, different

people;

who have strange and different views

strange and different thoughts.

But we know we've been called to love.

We know we have been called to bring light into darkness.

So we pursue, knowing truth and knowing life.

Knowing Love and what he brings.

It's back...

2010-01-17T22:51:00.007-05:00

Well, it's back. That spirit is back. The spirit of craving. The spirit of adventure! This passionate desire to do something. The unquenchable thirst for this thing is back!

I never know what to do with it! It makes me want to run, run fast, run far, in infinitely green meadows. It makes me want to go explore, take adventures and risks. To do something I've never done.

It makes me need.

It stirs up tiny dreams that have been hidden deep down. It taunts my vivid imagination. It provokes my inner child to burst forth and fly.

It sends my mind reeling and my heart beating.

It makes me want to join a convent, backpack across Europe, sail around the world, become a pirate, dive into days of visions from the Lord, scream out loud, paint wildly, dance furiously.

It stirs passion. It says something amazing has to happen. now! It makes me crave, it makes me drool for more.

But it has got to be from God.

Uncle Bob

2010-01-09T13:27:00.006-05:00

One time when I was in middle school my Uncle Bob came into town. Now, anytime U-Bob visited it was always a special occasion. This time was no different and my parents let me go to school late so I could visit longer with Uncle Bob who dropped me off at school on his way out of town. When I got to class all my friends asked where I had been and I told them I was with my Uncle Bob and they all thought I was making him up! "Yeah, sure, "Uncle Bob" Okay..."

But it was true.

To Uncle Bob, who taught me all my sass.

Survival

2010-01-04T10:51:00.005-05:00

You know those times when you are out of your comfort zone or in an unfamiliar place and, in every way of the word, you need God.

You need him to be right beside you, you need to read his words, you need to listen to his music, you. need. him.

This is what I like to call survival mode.

Where you know that if you didn't immerse yourself with him you would just die.

Or that something uncomfortable would happen.

Honestly it feels good to be in survival mode.

I feel fairly close to the Lord in survival mode

even when the walls still feel like they are closing in.

But why can't survival mode be every day mode?

Going back to when we first fell in love mode.

Where we couldn't get enough of God, when I wanted to read his words.

When I wanted to sing his songs.

When I wanted Him to be close to me all the time,

to lean on his shoulder and just talk.

What some like to call the "honeymoon phase."

But why does it have to be a phase? Why can't it be a life style?

I wish it was my life style,

where I am so passionately in love with God I can't help but be in His word all the time.

Where I can't help but sing songs for Him.

Where I don't want to run away from Him.

Where I can't help but bask in His love for me and me for him.

Oh, what a world that would be.

Isiah 49

2009-12-31T07:40:00.000-05:00

¹³ Shout for joy, O heavens;

       rejoice, O earth;
       burst into song, O mountains!
       For the LORD comforts his people
       and will have compassion on his afflicted ones.

¹⁴ But Zion said, "The LORD has forsaken me,
the Lord has forgotten me."

¹⁵ "Can a mother forget the baby at her breast
       and have no compassion on the child she has borne?
       Though she may forget,
   I will not forget you!

¹⁶ See, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands;
your walls are ever before me.

Sweet

2009-12-24T08:57:00.006-05:00

The Lord's Prayer

2009-12-11T23:08:00.007-05:00

Give us today our daily bread

Give us TODAY what we need for TOMORROW

I must tell you...

2009-12-07T14:38:00.005-05:00

about my recent discovery. Steel cut oats.

We had some sitting in our pantry for the longest time only being played with every now and again in recipes and last night I decided they needed to be tried as a warm breakfast cereal.

So I made some this morning with cranberries and brown sugar.

Yum.

And now I'm making some for breakfast for my early mornings tomorrow and Wednesday.

"Dyin' is the day worth livin' for!"

2009-11-22T22:21:00.009-05:00

I love reckless abandonment!

I love movies about it. (i.e. 300)

((But I just watched Pirates of the Caribbean marathon on TV.))

I love seeing people with crazy amounts of passion.

Reckless - (of a person or their actions) without thinking or caring about the consequences of an action. Rash, heedless, impetuous, audacious. (showing a willingness to take surprisingly bold risks.)

Abandonment - to give up completely (a course of action, a practice, or a way of thinking) cease to support or look after; to leave, without intending to return; to leave especially as an act of survival.

Recklessly obeying God, without even caring what will happen to you, or what people will think, just being obedient. Abandoning your past, your sin, your way of thinking without any intent of returning as an act of survival. Audaciously and impetuously following God.

Thats how I want to live my life.

As a big adventure.

Never knowing what's coming next, taking leaps for the kingdom.

Living for the day that I die.

Living only for God, my master.

Living for something worth dying for.

Boundaries

2009-11-14T10:15:00.004-05:00

Boundary - a line that marks the limit of an area

Everybody has boundaries,

and everybody wants to know where boundaries lie.

They are an important part in our life; personal space, property lines, rules and behavioral boundaries.

Boundaries are the first things babies learn.

Yet all the way through life we are all trying to push our boundaries.

Everybody wants to know what they can and cannot get away with, how far they can push the boundaries, how far they can push you what are you willing to put up with.

Boundaries are crucial between men and women.

Boundaries are good. They protect us as individuals and they protect us as people.

Where do your boundaries lie and what kind of a standard do they convey?

Some things about me:

2009-11-13T13:43:00.004-05:00

Some facts you might or might not know about me:

-I am a female percussionist

-I love being a girl

-I wish I could dress really cool all the time

-I love to bake

-I still struggle with my body image

-I can't wait to find my husband and be able to Submit

(email me about this and we'll twalk)

-I wish I didn't have to shave my legs

-I'm discovering that one of my top love languages is Quality Time

-I have the coolest boss ever!

-I really love the people I know but sometimes have a hard time

expressing and showing them how much I love them

-My little cousins and I dreamed up a Sweet dream house

not too long ago and you should ask me about it :)

-I love God and He loves me and sometimes I just want to

scream it to the world

Check it:

2009-11-02T14:23:00.004-05:00

Check out this cool B.V. God gave me this morning:

And a great road will go through that once deserted land.

It will be named the Highway of Holiness.

Evil-minded people will never travel on it.

It will be only for those who walk in God's ways;

fools will never walk there.

Isaiah 35:8

The whole chapter is cool and I'm sure if I read a lil' further back and a lil' further ahead it would be even cooler. But it's still pretty cool.

I CAN'T BELIEVE I HAVE A TATTOO!!!

2009-11-01T18:06:00.004-05:00

Sometimes it just hits me...

How do I know He loves me

2009-10-22T22:21:00.006-04:00

How do I know that Jesus is real?

It's when I get those goose-bumps

when I feel His love, excitement and enthusiasm

so strongly while teaching.

It's the goofy inside jokes I have with

....myself.

It's having the longest and hardest work day

and walking away with Joy

excited, enthralled and ready to go for the next one.

It's playing good timpani parts,

playing good music,

with great musicians.

Wanting to scream with excitement that

I get paid to do this!

My life

is good.

A Time to Love

2009-10-12T11:22:00.004-04:00

I just had a glorious moment while sitting on our "porch" with a cup of hot coffee spending a little time with God before my feet got too cold. And in those few minutes we had a good heart to heart I'll share with you.

I had the pleasure of attending a wedding last night of two of my friends and it reminded me of the brides perspective on a relationship with God. This morning as I was flipping through my bible I came upon an encouraging word she gave me probably two years ago and a couple things grabbed my heart. She saw a swing set and interpreted it as I am the Lords playmate, she saw angels in a forest watching me because they were intrigued by me, and this one, parts of God are captivated by me.

I forget sometimes about Gods romance.

It's not a one way street. I have my part in seeking Him out but sometimes I get caught up in 'I'm not doing enough' or that He's loving me in a far off distance only enough to cover my sin not enough to have passion for me. There's a time to be 'grounded' and know your place and there is a time to be wooed by your lover.

Lord, come show us your passion, your passionate love for us!

What God does for me

2009-09-26T10:14:00.004-04:00

Over these past couple of weeks (I have a short memory span, it's probably been longer) God has been amazing! Like, unexplainably great to me!

I've been praying and asking God for all sorts of things going into situations that I might not feel real comfortable in, teaching and dealing with middle and high schoolers, giving me TONS of grace with work...the list goes on!

I will pray and ask for all sorts of things (somethings I won't remember praying for) and God has been consistently delivering!

I'm still in shock.

I feel like I'm getting spoiled.....

I'm kind of okay with that...

Holy cow God is amazing!

It's probably time pt. 2

2009-09-24T11:29:00.008-04:00

"When you give your testimony, heaven Literally manifests around you and Literally drives away all demons." Brad McClendon

That fall semester of my sophomore year was when my drinking and foolishness peaked, I was depressed (thinking I was happy) and my body was deteriorating with my unhealthy behavior. Throughout my time in college Courtney would always invite me to events with her christian friends and although it was kind of nice being around them I would be introduced to 30 new people in 5 minutes and felt like I could never relate to any of them. Then she started inviting me to a house church her friends had started (with the help of said pastor) I thought I would go just to make her happy and why not its just another church thing right?

So finally around the end of April I decided to check it out, there was free food involved! So I walked over the the house and started the normal social-event chit chat while chowing down on pot luck food. Eventually they decided to get things started and unbeknownst to me there were some powerful spiritual leaders in the room.

So they started off with group praying (me: doing alright so far,) until I heard strange noises coming from different sides of the room, some of these people were not praying in English! Having never heard anyone pray or speak in tongues I thought the world was coming to an end! I stuck around until the prayer started getting really intense and turning into powerful worship, thats when I ran out the front door hyperventilating and honestly thinking I was going to die. I stood outside crying and trying to figure out what was going on but my head was spinning while the Lord was doing crazy things in my spirit.

I finally decided to go back inside because I desperately needed water so I ran back into the house and through the worship where there was a tangible presence of God. While I was chugging water like my life depended on it this wonderful woman of God came up to me and started speaking about how everyones relationship with God looks different and how everyone worships differently because no two people are the same. While I tried to compose myself strange things were happening in my spirit that I didn't know about and for some reason I decided to enter into worship.

I walked back into the living room back into the tangible spirit of worship and as I walked in I saw in my spirit something like a circle encompassing the room and as I looked closer I saw that it was a circle of angels flying around in worship. I entered into the circle and started worshipping for the first time, for some reason I wanted to close my eyes and stretch my hands up to God. When I looked up I saw God (The God!!) look down on me from heaven, it was like a pipeline a heavenly pipeline from his face to mine, and he said to me, "You're mine." I continued to worship crying the whole time.

Then someone asked for prayer for their brother and they asked me to pray, (me: ok, it's been a long time since I've prayed a non-drunken prayer...) so I started praying and claiming things for this person sincerely asking God for this mans life my prayer littered with curse words said out of habit.

It was over just as quick as it started and people were going home (I'm sure it wasn't really that sudden I just had no concept of time.) My sister drove me to my dorm, gave me her bible, some other things to read and prayed for me before I got out of the car.

It was a powerful experience that I will never forget, when God found me and claimed me for his own. I sure wasn't looking for God, but he found me! And I couldn't deny what happened, when you see God and feel his presence like that you just can't go back to a sinful life! Something had changed inside of me and for some strange reason I just couldn't go back! A Holy Spirit high is better than any other high ever experienced.

That was three years ago...

For God has done great and wonderful things!