The Chapters of Anthea's Life.

Take this pain away from me, its unbearable.

2008-09-01T11:07:00.005+08:00

A tribute.
She's as vain as me, she loves to be dressed up in clothes, with her hair tied up in diff colours of ribbons everyday, in diff styles.
She's the main distraction,with that extremely adorable face of hers, the one to be blamed whenever i cant concentrate on my revisions, always running off to play with her.
She's the one whom i tease with all sorts of names, lil princess, our baby, the spoiled brat, chubby,to whatever names i can associate with chubby and cuteness. cause she's all that.
She's the one that won a beauty pageant contest and was featured in the Star Newspaper.
She's the apple of the eye, the main joy giver at home, never fails to cheer me up whenever im down, just by looking at her, the way she sleeps, with her tongue always sticking out, her groggy face, just by talking to her, telling her my secrets, just by having her jump up and greet me.
Like a baby, despite having her for 7 years already, each and everyday, she never fails to amuse us with something new.
She's the epitome of cute, how i see her in everything cute stuff i see, how it reminded me of her.
She's friggin smart, she does high fives and tens, she shakes hands,all that we've trained her ever since she was a puppy. She's even trained on her toilet habits.
She loves to hear me read aloud, she loves the sound of the piano and guitar .
Superbly Cute and pretty is an understatement for her.
She's the centre of attention whenever visitors come to my house.
Everybody loves her, even ppl whose afraid of dogs.
She's not a dog in our family. she's a family member, our youngest member in the family.

And all that is history now, the heart wrenching fact, the harsh reality which im not willing to accept, hoping that i'll wake up from this dream. so, pinch me.
The whole house is weighed down with her absence.
Heavy silence of unspoken grief.
I know i'll wake up in the morning, just like i did this morning,with tears rolling down uncontrollably, having to realize all over again, that she's never coming back anymore.
I wont see her greeting me in the morning, excitedly wagging her tail.
I wont see her accompanying me throughout my late nights loyally, when everyone else's asleep in the household.
I wont have her clinging to me whenever lightning and thunderstorms frightened her.
I wont have her following my heels to the door, or greeting me enthusiastically whenever i go in and out of the house.
I'll never have to wonder what colour of a ribbon she's wearing today while im in school.
I'll never feel that satisfying weight of hers in my arms.
I'll never have her soft fur to snuggle into again.
I'll never have anyone to baby talk to again.
And now, whenever i eat my food, to the last piece of whatever's left, it feels weird not having anyone to pester me for it, cause the greedy girl's not around anymore.
Everywhere i go in the hse, her presence lingers, as if she's still there, like every other day, with her toys and clothes lying around, smelling of her.
But the fact is, she's not, and she's never coming back again.
I'll never see her peeking from the car window, whenever mum fetches me from tuitions.
I never knew that would be my last time seeing her when mum and sis sent her to the clinic, as we thought she was juz normally ill.

I've never lost someone so dear to me in my entire life before, so closely knitted and directly attached to.
She plays a huge role in every way in my life as well as my family's.
and now i finally know how ppl break down when they went to identify their loved ones' body.
God, it hurts like crap, right to the core, with the pain and sorrow squeezing the hell outta you.
My eyes and face feel sore from all the crying and tissues.Cant remember when's the last time i cried this hard.
Things only get worse when im in the middle of the crappy SPM trials. I cant seem to focus.No matter how hard to try to pull myself together, my thoughts will always stray and i'll find myself breaking down in hysterical sobs again. gosh.
I miss her terribly, i dont want anything else ,i only want her back again.
Tell me how am i gonna pull myself through this mess.
i pray that she's all safe and sound with God in heaven now, leading a way better life than she did before.

In loving memory of Cookie, my dearest and most beloved. I love you to bits, more than anything else in the world. She's not just any dog, she's our pride, she's the best among all, she's our dog. I swear to myself, i'll never keep pets again, the pain is overwhelming.
31.08.2008

Forsworn

2008-07-18T23:11:00.004+08:00

To make it up for the many days i havent been updating my blog, and for the sake of entertaining elaine =), and also to lay my mind off some workload , momentarily, i'll just fulfill my tagged obligations. Here's for you lah elaine chin . blah.

1. At what age do you wish to married?
ask my mates in class, they'll still josh about my initial "thought" of becoming a nun in the Vatican City, it aint impossible though ;) anyway, if i dont ,it'd prolly be around late 20's too. =).

2. Study hard or play hard?
honestly, it depends on the circumstances your in.

3. Who is the person u trust the most?
me, myself and i.

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
never stop striving for more each and every day.

5. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
my " beach dream". though not many know about it. p & c =).

6. Who is your favorite cartoon character?
tweety bird! lol.

7. What is your ideal friend?
someone who accepts me for who i am, and who never fails to be there for me, whenever, wherever.

8. What is your goal this year?
To be happier than last year and of course to obtain good spm results.

9. Do you believe in eternity love?
haha. no comments.

10. If you have all the time and money in the world, what would you do?
OBVIOUSLY, i'll go berserk on a shopping spree and i wanna travel around the world to exotic places and have the most impressive collection of luxurious chocolates =P.

11. When will you feel sad?
when you make me.

12. Balloons or Candy?
neither.

13. What feelings you hate the most?
Destitude. boredom. sadness. disappointment.

14. What is your childhood ambition?
Initially, it was being a doctor, until i came to realize that i cant pretty much stand the sight of blood or any other gruesome sights, makes me go light headed with that squeezing feeling in my heart.

15. Do you believe in love at first sight?
i suppose.

16. What do you want now?
honestly, everything. demanding, as always =).

17. Who do you hope to be always behind you, supporting you?
my loved ones.

18. People who are going to be hated by you?
people who put words into my mouth and accused me of things i didnt do.

19. Describe the person who tagged you in five words.
Noisy. Amplifier. Loud =P, nevertheless, an endearing and kind soul.

20. Do you deserve to be loved?
you bet i do.

21. Do you wish to have more than 24 hours per day?
i couldnt have wished for less. honestly, seeing how hectic it is for me nowadays. that should be ontop of my wishlist for the time being. in fact, i always have this secret wish that i can freeze time =P.

Race. I've never ran one as tired as this, so out of breath, i think im on the verge of giving up. Are you gonna stop running? or maybe you already did.

Brood.

2008-07-06T14:26:00.002+08:00

Time

Cruelly Irreversible.

It makes me so mad

Knowing i can never grab hold of it

Turn it around whichever way i wish to

Always speeding ahead

Oblivious of my yearns for it to stay

So mad

Cause i cant seem to be in control of it

If only....

So why dwell on the "what-could-have-been", when there really aint nothing much we can do about it now. & That's just my weakness, constantly running back into the past, an act which serves no purpose , but only as an impediment for me to focus on the now and the tomorrow.

.... because sleeping makes time seep faster, without u even realizing, and thats the best thing u should do, when you're tired of waiting .

Sunset.

Whats your problem? Your my problem.

2008-07-05T21:56:00.004+08:00

Jogathon.Its yet another silver medal for me, just like my 1500 m event, cause Li Wen's always hogging that gold =). 10 seconds was all that mattered. Her time clocked 16:10, my time clocked 16:20. my determination level was dying low. tsk tsk. i think the choc binging over the past month had a great deal to do with it too. excuses =P.Good job girl, once again we helped our house clutched first and second placing. Hopefully Hebat wins overall champion for the jogathon. Congrats to all you top 20 finalists too, great run peeps. & of course my two jogging buddies, eugene and adrian, clinched gold and silver respectively.

Daddy's back for the weekend. Bought for chocs for me from the airport. Hersheys, Cadbury's, Reese and Lindts. yup yup. time to satisfy that sweet tooth.So after church service today, i wanted to have Jap for dinner. Unfortunately, Sushi Zanmai had a friggin long queue awaiting, so we settled for Sakae instead. Though, i still preferred Zanmai.=). Went shopping with dad and mum after dinner. Gap was having sales, a spendthrift i was and still am, got myself a pair of jeans. There, i saw a familiar face, it was nice seeing him again. Victor. Just came back from Ns from Sabah apparently. With a crew cut hairstyle and looking a lil buffer now, currently working in Gap.

I bumped into Candy Sow too , then saw Pak Sen working in SonyEricsson. Seems like everyone's got a job in Ou. Anyway, i forgotten to get my mint choc chip Gelato ice cream before i left. =/ and the Theobromas Choc Lounge still aint open yet.. urgghh. bummer.oh oh! i saw a realllly looooveeely baby blue volkswagen beetle juz now. tsk tsk. love at first sight. i use to tell pig that my dream car wud be a yellow vw beetle, but now i change my mind. i want just that kinda blue. *drools*.

Lucky find. I thought thats the end of it when Jloh told me he cudnt find this pic of mine. Then i stumbled upon it in J Chan's pendrive the other day. This is in fact one of my fav pic.

In my green saree receiving the medal. privilege sial. solid proof of me rushing from 800m to perbarisan to price giving , without a second to kill, and then change for my 1500m run.

Im starting to like the colour green
though i like Hebat since long time ago. cheh.

Bittersweet, the time of our lives.

2008-07-02T19:51:00.010+08:00

01.07.2008

marks my retirement as a prefect and an assistant head prefect of SMKDJ, after 4 and a 1/2 years . All the way from form one,one of the oldest existing prefect in the board, to the extend i created a "trademark" for myself, where some ppl from other schools call me "Anthea the prefect". lols. It was relieving yet pretty rueful to leave the job, after all it covered pretty much the entire of my high school life. Having done something so routined for half a decade, it felt as if something was missing, having nothing to do, no responsibilities to bear, free to spend the morning and recess with your friends, no more speed walking to hurry around the blocks, no more entering the classes late, not having the liberty to go out of class anytime u want, basically just a powerless simple student =). On a brighter note, i'd say, hell yeah i deserve a good break , for starters , waking up late and going to school late =). Happy retirement y'all bunch of "senior citizens " of the board.

My TLS purse, prefect's room key, Rondaan Pass, Namebook,
Blazer, Best prefect pin, Name Tag and a framed up souvenir from my juniors.

No longer in use.

A day before we stepped down, 5 of us, Ming ping, Jason, Nic, Jloh and I attended SMKDU's prefect's installation and handover ceremony, courtesy of Ming Ping's 'skillful maneuver on his new Saga". U can say we made a grand entrance by being "fashionably" late, arrived in the midst of their assembly. tsk tsk. Anyway, the highlight of the day was basically the school. For Nic and i, it was love at first sight , after we went goo goo gaa gaa over the impressive landscapes, almost impeccably clean compound, lovely murals, huge compound, a gated asrama behind and everything. A good place to play hide and seek. haha, sorry , jakunness exposed. =P But seriously, our school looks really pathetic in comparison =).

Rollie Pollie and i.

*hands up*, its obviously her idea for the retarded syiok sendiri pose =).

Bonding- SMKDJDU PREFECTS.

i should say the du prefects are certainly very welcoming and sociable people.

The Scouts Alley.

hmm, a second look at it, makes me think of one the word SIBLINGS.

no?=)

Us invaders liberated ourselves to roam around the school, before being shown around by a kind prefect, easily the tallest guy in SMKDU i suppose. Manage to class- hop around and met up with truckloads of ex primary mates in du currently, like Hui Hun, Xinni, Jia Hui, Chien Yen, Shin Yin, Wes, Mark, Sun Siew, Eeven,Charmaine and many more. Bumped into my church mates too, Jaritha, Jacqueline, Christine, Thaddeus... Potato had her old school reunion too, while Jloh has his fellow interactors/scouts reunion =).

Told u the landscape was nice.

Us and our bodyguard of the day.

Overall, it was fun.

So long Du, thanks for being a great host.

Irrelevantly, went for my last hebat hse practice yesterday, lead my hse members for a quick run around the marathon route for this Sat's Jogathon.On our second round, an Unggul hse member joined us, no other than Eugene Lai here.

wanna know something? i think yesterday was the first time i ever lay my taste buds on Slurpee.

Another jakunness exposed. =P.

nyways, i loved it!

I just happen to stumble upon this pic, and realized i havent posted this overdue sports day shot.I oughta say i look downright retarded in this picture,BUT, for the benefit of the rest of u in the picture, all genuinely smiling away, this upload if for y'all. so steal or copy it whichever u want. =)

* Further updates as soon as i get hold of the pictures in everyone else's came. ta' raa!

- All good things come to an end -

The Blues

2008-06-28T23:19:00.009+08:00

House Captains and Co Captains of year 2008

Prefect's Camp - Kuala Kubu Baru
It was fun, though it cud have been better =). A pretty nice area though, huge compound,alot of land wastage i would say, though it makes u feel like running around all the time. Its an active NS training campsite btw, so it pretty much gives u a rough idea hows the living life for NS gonna be like. I gotta tell you, just the sight of those cutleries you'll be using makes u lose wtv appetite you've got . I wont even go further to the bedspreads and closets you'll be using, leave that up to your imagination =).

* note : picture's are not in chronological order, to lazy to organize em'.

Nic i , entertaining ourselves while waiting for dinner to be served.

in the sunset dusk

Anthea, Nic and Jo-yi

spell it with me, A-N-T-H-E-A.

Nic aka roly poly aka potato =)

woot, potato's pretty strong after all

Rendezvous

A night of mafia game, bonding, chipsmore , marshmallows

& " char siew bao "(inside joke)

Day 2-Jungle Trekking

Day 1- Hsien, Loh, Me and Wern Lin

Jloh and i
on top of my fav obstacle course.

Beloved chem pals

Taking a break in the midst of the course

nic and i

identities so commonly mixed and switched.=/
esp throughout camp, ppl kept confusing themselves over both of us.

Commando crawl

Day 1-J loh's Trust Fall

The super long corridors that freaks you out
when u walk back to your dorm alone at night

The gathered strengths of KP & PKP owning in chor dai di =)

Day 2- Flying Fox

Day 3- Rafting, too bad we dont have pictures of it.

Camp aftermath? all day long hibernation back home after tuckin in at 4.30 and wakin up at 6 for two days in a row. I counted a total of 20 + bruises all the way from my thighs to my legs, without a tiniest clue how i got it. sunburnt, and a vivid memory of camp to last me for a week's good night sleep. you guys were great company =).

Pictures , courtesy of Calvin ,Jloh & J chan. =)

bally-o-bongo.

2008-06-20T02:13:00.003+08:00

Bora Asmara

A sentimental balinese outdoor dining nestled within Kpg Penchala.

Belated birthday dinner with The Friends.
Ian, kikie, 3na, pig, kc, ws, gene, drian and i.

candid

my pigging partner

the cosy Bisek

peekaboo

3/4 of the quartet

the entrance

kikie, blending in with the balinese ambient.

the indian model =P

Iannie

The only distracting and disturbing thing of the night.
the cat, my phobia.
ironically, on my birthday.

Gene, Sheng, Loong.

cap and co cap.

adrian michael joseph sanker.

lai yong wen.

us again

adrian just ruined the picture.

3naaaa
i've saved the brownies for you=)

senoritas

the best bud.

Yew Hann and Chi Ming dropped by after dinner, ferried half the lot to my Condo, the remaining half wasn ferried by dad. The boys laid out the cards and vodka while i brought down my birthday brownies, only to be surprised with another huge cake brought by Ana when she came to join us after dinner. Thanks girl, Eugene and Candice too for the lovely surprise =). Since everyone had to go to school, so we ended at about 11 plus , though i stayed up a long while more to finish up my packing for my prefects camp the next morning .
A heartfelt thank you all for every single thing =).

Anniversary of my existence in this world =)

2008-06-19T12:25:00.007+08:00

Sexay Seventeenth Birthday.

Firstly, i thank God for the fact that I'm still happy, safe and alive to be able to reach my
17th year . Amen.
for some, its quite hard to maintain that streak, unfortunately =/.

Thank you all you darlings out there with ur calls, texts, blog, face-to-face and through friendster's birthday wishes.especially those of you who were struggling to stay up to wish me right on the dot or even those who intended to, but fell asleep in the midst of it.
seroiusly. Also, those ol mates of mine, who never failed to wish me year in year out. To Bernice, despite being far away in Melbourne, u never missed my birthday. miss u to bits and pieces =).
Thank you to my junior prefects, wai meng and syamir too for the early bday gift. appreciate it.
Y'all really know how to make a birthday girl's day.=)

At the stroke of 12.oo on Wed, got a call and was asked to go down to the poolside.
Man, i had a surprise. Chi Ming passed me a cake, a card and a present, on behalf of all the "steady bros". thank youuu. Then, i was even more surprised to see he wasnt alone there,
familiar faces of Pak Sen, Marc Wong, Eric and Fei Lou. Thanks ppl for ur wishes.

Slept at about 3, after replying all the messages and calls, and save the last talk with my buddy, ian of course. dragged the lazy bum to school. I suggest ppl should start declaring bdays as a holiday for the respective individuals =).Thank you ppl for all your thoughful presents .Went lunch with ma and che at O brien's and did a lil birthday shopping. Then headed to accounts tuition later in the afternoon ( which apparently is another thing which i should be deservingly spared on this special day ). pfft.

a birthday, a belated father's day and a farewell.

Purple fever

Birthdays are also a day to remember mums
They endured labour pain just for us .
luv u ma.

Dad and mum.

Daddy took a leave, and flew back today from out station esp to celebrate my birthday and of course sis' "farewell" too. tsk tsk, typical daddy's girls.
Had dinner at Vincenzo, OneBangsar,
since noone really felt like going Castell at the end of the day.
Great italian food served in a sentimental ambient.
Presention of food is highly noted

thinking what to wish

bye che, enjoy ur trip in Perth.
Don worry, i'lll hog your room and your com while ur away.
and your car too, soon.
i'll be waiting for you to bring truckloads of stuff back for me.
next month.

Then headed home to blow the cake( brownies) i got yesterday, and made my 3 wishes =)
My young Godma, dropped by my place to pass me my birthday gift.
it was the loveliest gift ever.
Thanks Kristie.

To make it up to me, since he said to drop by last night to wish me,only to fall asleep eventually,
Erwin picked me up to have dessert at Boathouse,
just one hour before my day ended.
Thank youuu for the treat and the ride, ol friend =).

All in all, i guess i've lived my day to the fullest.
love all u sweethearts out there for being guilty of one thing,
to make me swoon in bliss and for making my jaws ached with smiles.

You left me hanging by a thread.

Make me happy, if not happier.

A picture, flipped over.

2008-06-16T20:54:00.003+08:00

The long awaited day finally came. So long it took that people almost seemed to forget the anxiety that bubbled up while being kept in suspense, with so many speculations and rumours going about.
To the extend that, we ALMOST forgotten, it mattered, in any way.

So, it was officially announced today that Unggul was the champion for this year's Sports Day, while Hebat came in second, followed by Kesatria. All's been said and done, i guess we're all pretty muh contented with the result. Anyways, kudos to Eugene for clinching both b est athlete in our category and Sportsman of the year 2008 =). You bet u deserve it. I guess thats that. i should say all that training and sweat reli paid off, for a good ending =).

Pn yap's.
credits goes to Anabel for taking this candid shot.

No more hurrying for jogs right after tuition =)

no more dragging the lazy bums bums and the growling stomache
early in the morning and trying in vain to jog and stiffle a yawn.
not to forget the habit of buying soya bean after every run =)

what's left are only shadows and cherished moments .

alrightey, off to work on that stupid bm essay now.
i promise i'll see to that dramatic act of setting all my bm books on fire and watch each and every bm word turn into ashes, then sweep them off nonchalantly, as if it was never part of my life =P.
oh yeahh .

confused.

2008-06-14T22:24:00.008+08:00

Met up with old friend today, no other than Erwin Soon Wei Jin.
Picked me up at my place, then went over to ou, cause i was craving for Nando's.
Never tasted better, still the same yummylicious 1/4 chicken =).
We wanted to catch The Happening, but then the queue at Gsc was friggin long, and since i wasnt planning to seduce anyone at the Gold Class counter to get a short cut for a ticket purchase, we went off to Curve instead, with the hope of a shorter queue. oh, i just knew ou's openning this chocolate lounge place, soon. oooohh, for a choc lover like me, im ecstatic! =P cant wait.

Anyway, when we got to curve, the line's as long as usual, and the movie time was pretty late.
Then, we went browsing around for mint choc chip ice cream at BR, attempt was to no avail.Since we had time, and i was in a pretty desperate crave, headed over to Centrepoint instead.But wth, seemed like all BR's around just ran outta it. so i settled with Mc'ds Mcflurry =).Anyway it was a nice day, catching up with that ol buddy, much of laughs and old times pouring back. Thanks for everything you!.

Was suppose to tag Trina and Kirs to Jian Hao's partay at KLCC tonight, but since dad wudnt allow, and mum's home alone tonight, i stayed behind. went for a jog in the evening instead, wasnt that mundane a jog today, thanks to the "melodious tune" i heard,coming from an open window in the lowe rise block, some dude having his "malaysian idol" moment in the showers,, haha, cudnt help it but stiffled a laugh whenever i turned the same corner. but what do u know, he was singing so long in the showers that it actually lasted me for a few rounds. =)
off to bed now, night ppl, sleep well, to a better day tom! =).

thea.

Chagrin.

2008-06-11T21:48:00.003+08:00

I haven't much to blog honestly, much less the enthusiasm to.
Probably just updating about the last few days of hols,
since i'm still pretty much in my holiday mood.

so lets see , from 6th of june to 8th of june
Friday: movie with Mark, Wes, Chi Ming & Jien Yoong. Caught Prom Night.
what a joke, waste of money and time. it has got to be the most boring, draggy,
nonsensical and unexciting movie. Ever. I'd give it a C, if it wasnt because of the nice idea of "prom".
Headed over to Curve. Then Kenneth picked me up for mango dessert at Centrepoint.

Saturday: potong day. Pig and i were supposed to have our Undang Test, but the 'oh-so-responsible' agent dint inform us that it's postponed due to the public hol. i swear that wasnt the first time i've ever got so agitated with him. what a pity, Pig and i cud have joined Kc & the rest for Click Five at Genting. improvising, we decided to go Pavilion instead. so i tagged Pig's mum, sis and her fiancee to Pavilion for shopping.
After church, had dinner with family at King Crab.
Night, yam cha-ed at Rasta with the Mark, Jy, Cm, Derek and the usuals. Them boys suggested to go haunted house hunting at Penchala and TTDI.
Then , off i went home to finish up my addictive read of the paranormal.

Sunday : Pig's sis' fiancee dropped us at DU early. Had breakfast at Starbucks while "revising" and killing time. Coincidently, met Louis at the agency too,along with his two BU4 friends.
We got to the place at about 1, and guess what time did we take our test? 4.30 +. incredulous.
Good news though, we all passed. yeah. wee.

school reopened. boo hoo.
which means no more lolling around, and reliving the whole stressful routine again.
June's gonna be a busy month for me.
what with camp, sis leaving, birthday, party, catchin up with ol pals, relatives visiting, and upcoming jogathon. gahh.
guess its gonna be just me and ma and chubby pie at home after sis leaves.
<3.

& maybe im the only one still foolish enough,

to remember each and everything that used to happen,

oh so clearly and vividly, this time of the year

as if it had just happened yesterday,

the face and voice i was once so familiar with,

apparently having a good memory aint so much of a bonus after all

i feel like i've been going round & round in circles,

and still ending up at the same point, right where i started off.

so, help me to let go, cause u already did.

i wanna know what i want.

Cause i've learnt enough from my mistakes.

2008-06-04T16:31:00.002+08:00

So i met up with Kenneth (behbeh) today. Catchin up after 2 years of lost contact and before he leaves to Aus for his further studies. Had a good lunch at Nirwana Maju, Bangsar - my ol time fav for Banana leaf rice. Then, went over to Ou cause i had a crave for bubble tea. Killed time playing chor dai ti in Yippeee Cup. Dyamm, what a good boost of self esteem, i beat the self proclaimed chor dai ti pro. haha. sorray. gotta give myself some credit here =).

Anyway, what i really want to mention here is . He said something today that makes a whole lotta sense .He said something like " if a guy likes a girl for a good long time, as in really long, say years, sometimes it doesnt mean that that guy is simply loyal , or especially fanatic about the girl, but sometimes it means that he is simply too used to liking that girl, the guy prolly dint look around him to try and widen his prospects and accepts other choices, but rather he's too focused on the same girl to the extend it becomes a hard-to-kick habit to him , unknowingly. so routine that life wud feel a lil outta the norm once he stops liking the girl.

And thats why u cant be too sure of things at all times eh?;)

Paranormal

2008-05-31T21:51:00.004+08:00

Just a blink of an eye, its one week of hols gone. And it felt like yesterday when i was so exuberant over the first day of hols, exactly a week ago.

and i get so bored and restless so easily at home.

day before yesterday, was another lifeless day of mine at Ou with mum and sis. the Chua Girls day out. had a really good lunch at Sushi Zanmai, beats Sushi Groove hands down yo. yet another day of shopping. girls can never have enuf of it , it seems. bumped into truckloads of ppl, met up with Eugene too, after he went "MIA" for a few days, ishh. Headed for Starbucks then loitered around for abit before i rejoined mum and sis. Bumped into Kow and Yi Ching too. my biggest mistake? i forgotten that it was 30th of May yesterday, despite remembering that his birthday was on 30th of May all the while. needless to say, i also forgotten to wish him , despite meeting face to face. *slaps forehead *. anyway, gonna say it again here....

Happy Moo-ish 17th Birthday, Jer! =)

Bummed around in Rasta again at night, along with Jien Yoong, Mark, Marc, Chi Ming and one of their friend, too bad Jer dint come in time. Somehow, our topic of conversation strayed off to "ze supernaturnal " stuff. them guys were yapping away about haunted houses at various locations. mmm, interesting. just my cup of tea. made me realised how much i miss those younger days of mine, when i'll just pester any adult i know for ghost stories, or when a few of us young ones wud huddle together during halloween night to hear our uncle and aunties rant on about supposedly "true ghostly happenings", then one of us wud dare the other to climb the flight of stairs alone towards my aunt's attic. ciao-ed early at 10.30 just in time to see Khai reaching with his bunch of friends.

yesterday, outta boredom, i grabbed my Jodi Picoult's novel and went down to the high rise pool side, laid back lazily on the pool chair and started my first page. wonderful day for a read, the wind almost lulled me to sleep. the book was coincidently about the paranormal again - second glance.interesting read. im so in the mood for more ghost stories now.

i quote " we see only what we want to believe ".

today ... is.... World Milk Day! i honestly never knew such a day existed. Anyway, i heard that Dutch Lady's gonna offer 50,000 free milk tom at the Curve, so yeah, go get em freebies ppl.

my new promise to myself : I'm gonna abstain from Mcdonalds for one whole month, or maybe more. yeeeppp, mark my words . i never thought i'd get sick of it, but well, i finally did.

my latest addiction : soya bean milk! top it off with grass jelly or pearls. heavenly.

my latest want : that top in Pull & Bear.

you thought u found an entrance into my heart,

but it turned out to be a painted door drawn on a wall.

... it's a tuesday, a wednesday & a thurs.

2008-05-29T22:10:00.003+08:00

bummer, and double bummer.my com kena virus laaahhh.. isshhh..
so much for staying up late this hols and rot in front of my com till the wee hours in the morning,
pfft, i guess God really has plans for me to utilize my time on summin else..
so i guess y'all shant expect too frequent an update frommee these two weeks.yada yada..

my style, more backtracking...

THE TUESDAY,

i spent the entire day shopping with mama again, from Ikea, Ikano, Curve then to Cats Whiskers. "burning" more money , tsk tsk , ever so sinful. then night, was suppose to head to Rasta, but then i had bible knowledge class. After my class, kee chong and yew loong came over to my place from Rasta instead. Had a nice chit chat by the breezy high rise poolside.

THE WEDNESDAY,

Kane, Jason, and Audrey came over to my place to "revise" for our upcoming accounts exam. i know, we're such "nerds", hols also still have to study. ish.. but wut to do lah, we've got "important" accounts exam next week laahh. The day was pretty fun, i think we spent half of the time actively exercising our mouth on food and yapping away rather than focusing on those blurring figures.

THE THURSDAY,

Pig and i went for our "ceramah" thingie or u may call it the KPP course. My goodness, it was the longest Thursday for me ever. I think i'd prolly burst into tears if i were to go there alone. gaahh. Anyway, long story short, lets just say, pig and i learnt to appreciate the PJ area better now. We dropped off at Ou later in the evening, to treat our starved tummies with a good helping of Mcdees. & we've never been happier to be in Ou. haha, sounds like some refugees who have been kidnapped or thrown into a 3rd world country and haven eaten mcd's or seen a proper mall before eh?

well, i'll let u figure out that "long story" we encountered today =).

say hi to the newly turned 17 - Mark de alwis

mates since primary yoo

kirsten!

That thing you do

2008-05-26T20:20:00.004+08:00

woke up with a really heavy headache today, i wonder if its from "overdosage" of sleep.

1pm yoo, its been long since i last remembered waking up this late.

on the other hand, perhaps its to do with that lil brain mechanism of mine, actively overworked again.

i seem to to be travelling in some kinda time machine lately, somewhat brought me back to various stages and periods of my high school life. It's unfolding so vividly in my mind that i thought im reliving that moment yet again, enhanced by a lil touch of deja vu there.

although its not really an uncommon phenomenon anymore, it still made me wonder how people who were once closely associated , can just drift apart as unexpectedly as how they were once drawn together. and of course, looking back to the 5 years of high school life, you 'd see for yerself how many friendships or relationships did sustain thus far. then again it made me think, if we made a different decision in the first place, wud things turn out otherwise? or maybe we shud "go with the flow" and go with the phrase" everything happened for a reason", and leave things jus as it is and move on?

or shud we try to pick up from where we left, amend for the better? but then again, if the other party has no intention on picking it up along with you, let alone initiate it, shud we just forget all about it, and "accept fate"? tell me about it.

anyhoeeeeys, backtrack 24 hours.

25.05.2008 - i mark the 6 months "anniversary", though i still dunno why i bother.amazing how time flies. what anniversary? that's a secret , my secret ;) but maybe, just maybe, u'd know. you, yes you.

yesterday, not as eventful as sat i wud say. loitered around Ou and watched Narnia, met up with Sheng and Kenny, had a donut treat then headed over to Jer's partay later in the evening.

Pics will be uploaded la'er after i steal em from Kiki's blog.

meanwhile, this was sat's delayed uploads

Wei Sheng and I

7 years long good ol lousy friend.

yep, spot the irony.

my two men in black of the night.

and so i ask myself , what do i really really want?

la di dum

2008-05-25T01:26:00.004+08:00

All's great today. It's been long since i've managed to really let my hair down and go all out to enjoy myself. *pats anthea on back *. ahh.. well deserved =Pp

so i woke up this morning, late, and rushed down with a grumbling tummy to meet lai yong wen. Then off to the park for a jog, only to be more aware of my "deteriorating" stamina =/, my oh my, i wonder how long will it take for me to cover up all the days i've missed my jogs already. anyway, lai yong wen had to leave early, so i stayed on behind and ended up jogging back alone. but wth, ppl always say " look where ur walking",on my way back, i bumped into one of my worst phobias. rodents. my goodness, its two this time! flattened on the road, disfigured and disgusting rats. *
shrieks exaggeratedly*, that only motivated me to speed up my pace and reached home safe and sound.

its all ur fault lah lai yong wen, ish.

off to curve for brunch with mum and dad. i discovered my new "high-er class" mamak.- Teh Tarik Place . have always wanted to try it out, never managed to until today. mmm, they've got fabulous tosai, fried meehon,sambal and of course teh tarik! so anytime,y'all wanna go "yamcha or teh tarik" there , count me in too , u bet i'll be up for it =).then then, i met up with ol buddy, wei ian. seroiusly, i gotta say he's one helluva patient person laaaa. u see, im a pretty indecisive person, it gets worse when it comes to shopping, thats why not everyone can tolerate that "shopping manner" of mine. wei ian is definitely one of the very few who can. thumbs up boy, keep it up, good training for ur future, that is if u ever get a shopaholic as ur girl ;). sso my shopping spree only ended up with shirts, shoes nd earrings today. not quite done yet. to be continued tom , at a different venue though =).thanks for everything iannie!

credits go to wei ian for the pictures below. outfit of the day :

later, candy, ana and wei sheng came over my place and yew loong's future bro-in-law, dropped us off at Rasta. Since Mark was having his beldated bday celeb today as well, i decided to hop over his place and come back to Rasta when KeeChong is finally there . So mark and bro offered a ride there, since lil girl here still hasnt got her license. though tow jen came at the nick of time, so i tagged his ride instead. went to mark's place and everyone was there, was even surprised to see mun yoong there.was craving for bbq-ed marshies , though everyone cudnt buy marshies from everywhere or anywhere, so i settled with my barbequed lamb before tow jen and i left for Rasta again, cause poor yew loong and wei sheng was dying of boredome there =P.the girls left already leaving the 3 boys and i behind. starving, i had my long awaited waffle, while we rattle the night away. good to see ppl whom i haven seen in ages at rasta tonight, that includes khairil and adrian tay & the bu4 crowd. just realized i havent seen them in ages=/

oh oh! last night i stumbled upon that TAN HONG MING video clip ad by Yasmin Ahmad again.

haha, its shooo cute !

for those of u who hasnt heard of it, go google it up!

its an unfair life, so many boys, so little time ;)

Rest of the pics are in Ana and Ws's phone. couch potato duty calling! till then.

Ecstatic

2008-05-23T17:48:00.003+08:00

woot!
oh hail the long awaited 23rd of May.
last day of the friggin mid term exams.
i never felt as relieved as this before, despite the countless exams taken since form 1.
outta my sight, books!

i think im turning into a caffeine addict with a serious sleep deficit
what with 3 insanely killer week exams.
studying around the clock, downing anything caffeinated within reach
from cappucino, to latte to mocha to black coffee and what not =).

so yup, to reward myself,
im gonna have a huge ass shopping spree starting from tom
and looong list of "things to do", like how they always say it, longer than Natalie Portman's resume.
imma immmaa gonna refurbish my room too, esp my soon to explode wardrobe
which cant fit more clothes in anymore, before they come tumbling down like avalanche.

so yeeeepp, try to fit in my tight schedule then !;)

i'll update more when my holiday OFFICIALLY starts tom!

tara'!

Instant Remedy

2008-05-19T00:04:00.003+08:00

For those whose been pretty worked up lately, hope these pics can cheer you up a lil.

even for just a moment.

i know they did for me =)

I should say this is the only kinda flower that'll truly melt my heart.

genuine.

me and my chocolate obsession ;P.

sexaaayy.

2008-05-18T19:29:00.002+08:00

I never knew perfection till
i heard you speak and now it kills me
Just to hear u say the simple things

Now waking up is hard to do
sleeping's impossible too
and everything's reminding me of you
what can i do?

its not right, not okay
say the words that your saying
maybe we're better off this way

im not fine, im in pain
its harder everyday
maybe we're better off this way
its better that we break

A fool to let you slip away
i'll chase you just to hear you say
you're scared enough
you think that im insane

i see you, you look so nice from here
pity, i cant see it clearly,
why you're standing there
it disappears, it disappears

saw you sitting on the lawn
you're fragile and you're cold
but that's alright

the lie these days is getting rough
knocked you down and beat you up
but it's just a roller coaster anyway, yeah.

- maroon 5- better that we break -

nice one! ;)

Because Im worth it.

2008-05-15T22:03:00.004+08:00

* Heaves a breath *

2 weeks down, one more to beat.

ohhailthataddmath1paper.

Did u guys ever wonder how long the exam hours actually summed up to be?

us with our numb buttocks stuck onto the chair, while cracking our brains,

drying our pen inks while our fingers go blue-black due to the "exceeded speed limit" of writing.

well, i for one just happen to think of that today.

so i've calculated.( yup thats what exams do to people like me ).

FYI, its about 22 papers and approximately 41 hours , +-.

a blurdy 41 hours!! holy moly.

Anyhooeeyysss, just a lil update on the belated Mum's day last Sunday.

Venue for the occasion : TTDI PLAZA'S Korean Bbq Restaurant.

Moi

Ma & Pa

Bbq-ed meat with wine. Purrfect.

The tableful of so called " Korean Tapas"

and the finger licking good bbq-ed meat. mMmm

Happy Mums's day Mama!

Thats all for now, was supposed to be studying actually.

Unfortunately,

i was "side tracked".

Darn com.

=p.

You had more of me with you ,

rather than me having more of you with me.

Hush now....

2008-05-09T16:52:00.007+08:00

The way that it was and could have been surrounds me.
Memories of you are still peppered on my mind.
That i dont deny.
How did we end up like this.
If only you knew.
Etstranged.

Just got back from Ou . Had to unwind and do what a shopaholic does best.

Guess who was i with?

Was compiling all my old passport-sized pics , and ..

voila!

I dont mind going back to the younger days, even if it means gaining back the chubbyness.

Words i need to hear from you to get me through the day.....

Racing against time

2008-05-04T13:53:00.010+08:00

I woke up this morning, felt the warmth of the sun caressing my face.

Still feeling groggy and contented amidst the soft fabric of my quilt.

I had a sudden thought.

365 days from now, i neednt worry about SPM no more.

Rid of the blue uniform, rid of school.

Then i start to wonder what wud i be doing, 365 days from now.

The ecstatic idea of being a 19 year-old Anthea. "ahem".

ohh.. i cant wait!

so, count the days with me!!

Here's my fav phrase from CLICK, which never fails to make me go "Aww".

" will u still love me in the morning?"

" forever and ever babe".

Butterfly kisses.

I beg your pardon?

2008-05-02T22:07:00.005+08:00

You know, i happened to be a very demanding , spoiled, impatient, temperamental, troublesome, and whiny girl, at times/most of the time. So, really, i'm trully impressed with those who stuck with me for as long as it seems. The required patience, tolerance and perseverance from them. And u know what? Leong Wei Ian happens to be one of the most succesful person in doing this. =).a heartfelt thank you from yours truly for everything, although thats really an understatement.

what am i gonna do without you lahh

love u bestie!

Resist, Anthea. RESIST.

Bad thing about having your personal com in ur room? especially when its smacked right on top of study table, that smug looking screen, making ur fingers itch , to curl themselves around the mouse and start clicking away. thats exactly what happened to me for the past few days, knowing the fact that my com's 24/7 on.

argghh.i don wanna study anymore! *wails*. what more with a bugging wisdom tooth, a sore throat, and annoying sneezes, purrrrfeeect timing. sheesh. how now brown cow??=/

I'm seroiusly on "binging mode" now. I eat when im stressed up, bored or flustered, moreover i gotta put my jogs on hold, due to exams and a lousy immnune system. so yeah , " obese alert".

Anyway just got back from Boathouse. At least that cheered me up, momentarily. After our sumptious main course, got myself some "oh-so-well-deserved" desserts.

say hello to the Afurgato Gelato!

vanilla ice cream topped with whip cream, complimented with eclairs, and poured on with hot espresso . noticed the canon thingie there? its suppose to light up with kahlua and brandy mixture in the lil pitcher and topple it over the ice cream. mmmm sinful! a must try.

the house special. tiramisu.

one of the best i've had so far.

i love peaches!

hmmm, i somehow lost the motivation or kiasuness to study for this term. Probably its cause i've had my greatest relief already, which was Sports day. but dyammit lah, the overall results are still pending. so ppl, shush with the speculations kay, ur making me feel all jitterish!.

Dinie says " you dont look one bit like an indian"

attempted pin up failed miserably.

Adrian says "albino indian lah".

-.-.....

Oucchhh.

2008-04-30T17:22:00.002+08:00

Bad news for chubster!

Been complaining about my sore gum days ago.

Momma finally brought me to the Orthodentist t'day.

Much as i've feared, the wisdom tooth's already struggling its way out.

Why the fear? i've heard enuf stories about the excruciating pain that "wise-tooth" can bring u.

And knowing me, words like pain and blood are enough to make me go light- headed.

So anyway, doc says no crunchy, chunky foodie for me, only to resort to a soft diet.

which means.... no chocs for me too!! =( heaven knows how long i ought to stick with that =(

*sneezes* . yet again. you know the saying that goes " when u sneeze, it means that someone is currently missing you". Perasan alright,but i'd rather choose to believe so rather than to start thinking this is early signs of me falling sick in no time. Its the best way to convince yourself that your still in perfect health condition, even u've been sneezing for like the gazillionth time today. *sneezes*
God bless me.

Instincts over rationales

2008-04-29T18:46:00.008+08:00

For some reasons,

this is a very special picture to me.

Eugene, Anthea, Adrian

We've been good pals since form 1.

We've jogged and trained for long distances and marathons since last year.

We've joined numerous runs together and supported each other through.

We've shared our victories ad laughter together.

Though being the only girl in between, im usually "victimized" when they gang up to tease.

The two guys will be always competing neck to neck in every race.

As for our final year, we were all coincidently captains for respective houses .

All in all,for our individuals

Eugene's got 2 gold 1 silver, i've got 1 gold 1 silver, Adrian's got 1 Gold 2 silver.

I missed out one for not participating the 400 m event.

Bonded by sports.

Prouda y'all. luvs.

These are the only pictures taken on the day,i think. courtesy of Li Wen.

Me & Kieran, my good looking cheerleader ;)

Spot the megaphones, they're all my/our hardwork kay.

Candidly taken by Kieran.

Proud to be.

Jie Yi & Li Wen

Thanks Jie Yi for helping me so much with the preparation

& u were great with ur runs.

Li wen, my very Hebat long distance runner. Good job on ur 1500 m! =)