simple thoughts

missing you

2009-11-27T20:06:00.003+09:00

Nakachat ko si mama kahapon, first time namin mag chat since she left for japan, napaluha ako, I wanted to tell her how i miss her kaso lang nahihiya ako..

Hindi kasi ako ganun ka open kay mama, I never really talk to her about my feelings, Uuwi na nga ako sa amin kaso hindi naman kami mag kasama sa christmas and new year.

Hayyy

Just always take care of yourself ma.. miss you and i love you so much

and i love you so

2009-11-24T14:23:00.002+09:00

and i love you so
the people ask me how
how i've live till now
i tell them i don't know

i guess they understand
how lonely life has been
but life began again
the day you took my hand

and yes i know how lonely(loveless) life can be
the shadows follow me
and the night wont set me free
but i don't let the evening get(bring) me down
now that your around me

and you love me too
your thoughts are just for me
you set my spirit free
i'm happy that you do

the book of life is brief
and once the page is read
all but love is dead
that is my belief

Art of letting go

2009-11-23T11:08:00.008+09:00

I really appreciate those times that we've shared together. Since i've got you, I realize to myself how important you are to me in my daily life because I miss all the cherish moments we used to do when your still with me, even for just a few weeks.

There was a time that I enjoy being by myself but theirs still a missing pieces a part in me that no one can ever replace in that position & it's only "you".

if I've been given a chance to change to live again and then I would choose you, i would choose you to be with me for the rest of my life,

Im here to love you & and to be loved by you.
there haven't times that i think of the precious times that we shared.

I remember one day i called you up, after the birthday party, i was gonna invite you to watch a movie "New Moon" and have dinner in Good earth, I was fucking excited to see and and be with you again.

but when you answered the phone,

you said "mamaya na lang"

without even telling me why? so i said ok!!!

i said to myself maybe you were just busy then,

I texted you "san ka ba? anong ginagawa mo?

you replied "photocopying, photoshoot with my classmate, txt you later"

then i replied "ok..just text me wen ur done.. ok?"

later at around 8:30pm we decided to meet, i mean i insist that we should meet because of the text i received from you that tells;

"sweetie, i cant do this anymore, im sorry, i'll miss you"

Tang***, what are you saying, para akong gago sa mrt, di ko mapigilang umiyak, pinipigilan ko, nangingiwi ng bibig ko dahil sasabog na ang luha ko, pero i tried pa rin to calm down, i texted you,

"what do u mean i can't do this anymore? then you replied

"the relationship, i cant it hurts, im sorry i've been one bad person, my conscience is eating me up, sorry if i can't do this in person".

dumating ako sa place and then started to ask you why? right then and there you broke up with me, ang masakit pa dun, nagsisinungaling ka, nung tumawag pala ako, you and your friends watched New Moon, yong Housemate ko nagtatampo sa akin dahil dati pa balak na namin manood ng new moon pero i said No to her because im gonna watch it together with you, because right after nating manood ng New Moon we're gonna have dinner, at yon yong plano natin dba? and i was gonna tell you, iwas gonna surprise you that i will be spending christmas here sa manila, that im gonna spending christmas with YOU, but because you're breaking up with me hindi na sya mangyayari,

Nasasaktan ako.. sobra.. hindi mo lang alam.. pero its ok.. you were just 17 yrs old, madaling magbago ang isip. naiintindihan kita, and i realize now kung ganu ka importante ang age when it comes to relationship.

I miss you and i'll never forget you, kahit papano minahal kita ng totoo.

a new beginning

2009-11-13T14:06:00.009+09:00

Minsan ang buhay talagang nakakalito, siguro hindi lang minsan kundi most of the time, mahirap ipaliwanag ang di mo maintindihang nararamdaman sa kaibuturan ng iyong puso, subalit datapwat- pilit mong iniisip na tama ito pero at the back of your mind, naguguluhan ka lang..

tulad ng isang pag-ibig.. siguro lahat naman nakakaranas kung pano main-love, diba?

Isang araw dumating sa buhay mo ang taong iyon, sa hindi inaasahang pagkakataon o kaya sa di inaasahang lugar, tapos nagkatinginan kayo, at biglang nagkaroon ng spark, masasabi mo ba na sya na?

then, almost everyday magkasama kayo dahil feeling mo namimiss mo yong tao, feeling mo gusto mo na sya, pero at the end malalaman mo na naguguluhan ka lang pala, hindi ka sure sa mga ngyayari, naghahanap ka lang pala ng atensyon.

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sadya nga bang kay lupit ng tadhana, buhay natin ay pinag-lalaruan, pati puso natin kaya nyang saktan. Kung may pagkakataon man maituwid ang pagkakamali iyon ay huli na.

Sinaktan na natin ang taong kahit papano'y minahal din natin ng totoo, gayun nga lang sa mga oras na yon isip natin ay nalilito.

Minsan iniisip ko na lang ng matulog sa buong araw, manood ng tv yong tipong wala kang iisipin kundi kumain matulog at tumawa, pero malabo atang mangyari yon.

Ang hirap mag disisyon, hindi mo alam kung mapapahamak ka sa disisyon mo o ikakabuti sya, katulad ngayon aalis na ako papuntang davao as in uuwi na ako for good, nag render na lang ako ng 30 days sa company, pero hindi pa rin mawawala sa isip ko kung makakahanap ba ako ng work padating sa davao baka naman kasi ma tanggong ako pagdating dun, ayaw kong maging jobless ang hirap ata pag walang pera.

Naiiyak ako dahil mamimiss ko yong hauzmate ko na walang kasing ogag sa buhay, yong katrabaho ko, hindi nila inakala na magreresign ako sa work, for almost 3yrs di nila akalain na lilisanin ko ang lugar na iyon at mananatili na lang sa probinsya.

Naiiyak ako dahil sa mga taong malapit sa buhay ko ay iiwanan ko na sila, kahit sabihin nating meron namang kumyonikasyon iba pa rin ang nakikita mo at nakaka-usap mo sila ng harap harapan.

Naiiyak ako dahil mamimiss ko yong mga tawa namin, yong tipong nag-uusap kami tungkol sa hirap ng buhay, problema, alam mo yong may matatakbuhan ka pagdating sa mga bagay na iyon.

Naiiyak ako dahil hindi ko alam pano mag-umpisa ng panibagong buhay sa probinsya, pano ko itataguyod ang buhay ko kasama ang mga estranherong tao sa paligid ko,

Naiiyak ako dahil pano pag magkaproblema ko sino yong tatakbuhan ko, yong tipong isang text lang anjan na sila, kahit hindi pa ngyayari ang mga iyon natatakot ako dahil alam ko balang araw mangyayari iyon.

Naiiyak ako dahil ang liit ng sweldo sa davao hindi ako sanay, at wala akong mauutangan dahil wala na si mhel, alangan naman mag pa western union pa sya, malabo ata nyang gawin yon.

Naiiyak ako dahil may maiiwan, isang tao na minsan ay minahal ko ng totoo, hindi ko alam pano mag paalam sa taong ito, hindi ko alam pano sabihin ang mga katagang "PAALAM".

Pero alam ko isa itong kagustuhan ng Diyos, alam nya ang buhay ko, di naman nya siguro akong hayaang magdisisyon kung di ko kaya.

Sa lahat ng tao na nakilala ko dito sa manila, hindi ko alam pano sabihin ito kundi maraming salamat na naging bahagi kayo sa buhay ko, sa mga blogger na naging friend ko dalaw dalaw na lang kayo sa bahay ko.

handa na rin akong mag- umpisa ng bagong buhay sa davao...

Hanggang sa muli..

alone

2009-11-05T12:37:00.003+09:00

I'm in great pain now, I am hurt
I want to tell you about it,

I wish I have the guts to pretend that I'm Ok
but pretending is not gonna help me.

I always wanted you here beside me,
Now, I'm alone and so sad.

I'm still hoping that a second chance would come,
I still want you back.

and life is not worth living
if I don't have you around.

cause Life means You.

qoute for the day

2009-10-29T12:10:00.005+09:00

"Don't let your past dictate

who you are,

but let it be part of

who you will become."

something to ponder

2009-09-11T10:45:00.002+09:00

I would like to share this to you guys,

a good friend of mine e-mail this to me.

I love it.

MAXIM FOR LIFE

	Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.
	Memorize your favorite poem.
	Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.
	When you say, "I love you", mean it.
	When you say, "I'm sorry", look the person in the eye.
	Be engaged at least six months before you get married.
	Believe in love at first sight.
	Never laugh at anyone's dreams.
	Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.
	In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.
	Don't judge people by their relatives.
	Talk slow but think quick.
	When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?".
	Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
	Call your mom.
	Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze.
	When you lose, don't lose the lesson.
	Remember the three R's: Respect for self, Respect for others, Responsibility for all your actions.
	Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.
	When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
	Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.
	Marry a man you love to talk to. As you get older, his conversational skills will be as important as any other.
	Spend some time alone.
	Open your arms to change, but don't let go of your values.
	Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.
	Read more books and watch less TV.
	Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you'll get to enjoy it a second time.
	Trust in God but lock your car.
	A loving atmosphere in your home is so important. Do all you can to create a tranquil harmonious home.
	In disagreements with loved ones, deal with the current situation. Don't bring up the past.
	Read between the lines.
	Share your knowledge. It's a way to achieve immortality.
	Be gentle with the earth.
	Pray -- there's immeasurable power in it.
	Never interrupt when you are being flattered.
	Mind your own business.
	Don't trust a man who doesn't close his eyes when you kiss him.
	Once a year, go someplace you've never been before.
	If you make a lot of money, put it to use helping others while you are living. That is wealth's greatest satisfaction.
	Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a stroke of luck.
	Learn the rules then break some.
	Remember that the best relationship is one where your love for each other is greater than your need for each other.
	Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.
	Remember that your character is your destiny.
	Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.

nakakalito, nakakapagod pero go pa rin

2009-09-07T21:23:00.003+09:00

simpleng bagay minsan nakakairita, halos masira na buong araw mo, bakit kaya ganun? siguro sa dami na ngyayari sa paligid natin kaya tayo nagkaganito.

sa mga ginagawa ng mga tao kaya siguro ganito na tayo umasta, naiinis, gustong sumigaw at magwala. nakakalito, nakakapagod, parang walang katapusan ang hirap ng buhay.

hay ang buhay nga naman, sana pag ibig na lang ang isipin (jolens kaw ba yan?) sa bawat kilos ng mga tao sa paligid sana lahat ng bagay na ginagawa nila dahil sa pag ibig.

ang hirap naman kasi ng buhay natin, kung lagi nasa baba tayo parang nasa baba na tayo forever kahit sabihin pa nila na aahon din tayo.

pero kelan pa? pag pumuti na ang uwak? mantakin mo na lang pag nag iisa ka diba? para atang lahat ng bagay dito sa mundo walang kasiguraduhan,

walang mag tatagal, puro hiram, pagkatapos ka ng pag sawaan iiwan ka,

kahit pag ibig di mo alam good terms kayo ngayon pero hindi mo alam bukas wala na.pano ba maging handa tayo? matatanggap kaya natin?

pano tayo makapag move-on kung yong bagay na gusto nating mangyari sa buhay ay yaong mga bagay na dapat kalimutan at di pwedeng gawin?

sobrang nakakalito no?yong gusto mo di naman pwede? yong ayaw mo sdya naman ang dadating? hay ewan ko ba? basta ako go with the flow na lang,

kung masakit man pilitin kung iintidihin the best i can, pilitin kung tanggapin no matter how it hurts, alam naman kasi natin na sisikat din ang araw after ng bagyo pero pano pag matanda ka na saka pa sisikat? unfair diba?

ang tagal tagal mong naghirap tapos malalampasan mo lang yon eh matanda ka na.nakakatawa... kaya sabay na lang tayo sa agos ng buhay natin. masaya man o malungkot, mahirap man o hindi go pa rin friend malay natin along the road magkasabay tayo diba?

just in case lang na magkasabay tayo hawak kamay tayo ha walang bibitaw, maganda di kasi pag may kasama ka, may kausap ka, may kaagapay ka sa t'wina..

nakss naman..hanggang dito na lang, at salamat sa pagbabasa.. ok?

i don't know how to say it..

2009-08-05T09:20:00.002+09:00

its not about thinking what you should do or anything, its just following yourheart in something you want to do.

Have a little faith in something you want in life, no matter what it is. Just believe in it, dont let anyone or any thing stop you from that.

You may not know this but i do, i try to say Hi but the words dont come out of my mouth, so i stand there and walk away disapointed in myself cause i can't say anything to you.

I start to feel like a fool but you clearly dont see that. i ask this one question, if im trying to do that, why aren't you saying anything?

Are you noticing what im trying to do or do you just not pay attention?

Thinking of those words hurt inside but what can i do when every day i try to but i feel akward or just foolish to even do anything so as i lay there and start to not have faith at all,

i ignore what's going on and i just do my thing.

Its the only thing that will keep me from getting hurt and feeling retarted for trying to open my heart to you.

I remember the day

2009-07-30T16:06:00.003+09:00

I remember when I applied for a job somewhere in makati, Napadaan kasi ako sa building na yon kasi pinuntahan ko yong friend ko, of course exam muna bago interview, sa exam palang napansin ko na itong Gay na nag iinterview di ko alam na sya din pala mag iinterview sa akin, naiinis kasi ako kasi yong kasamahan namin sinigawan dahil may tumawag sa phone nya. siguro dahil ilonggo sya.

Guy: hello ma, wa gid ka nag hambal sa akon ba, sana ako na lang mag bakal nun.

Gay: (pasigaw) Pwede ba kung gagamit ng phone sa labas.

Kawawa naman si guy medyo napahiya din.. sabi ko sa sarili ko parang ayaw ko ng ituloy to. nababdtrip kasi ako pag ganyan ang mga tao walang motto. hehehe

Nakapasa naman ako sa exam, pauwi na sana me nang tinawag na name ko para interview, nawalan na me ng gana so napaisip ko total ayaw ko na man lang gagagohin ko tong taong to.

Gay: Hi gud morning, Maupo ka. after that sinabi nya agad itong napa ka common na tanong. "Mr. Noel tell me about yourself?" sinagot ko rin sya ng tanong which is not common to him.

Me: You first!

sagot nya..

Gay: Wow! i'm sorry..

Me: Didn't you hear what i said?

Nabadtrip sya kitang kita sa mukha, while he review my resume tanong sya ulit.

Gay: What do you think you can contribute to the company if you get hired?

Me: Anything that you can and you cannot, I can!

Gay: Thank you for coming over.

Me: your welcome!

Di na ako umasa pa, pag ka alis ko natatawa na lang ako sa mga sinasabi ko, kaya pag napadaan me jan napapangiti na lang ako. hehehehe

yon lang!

it takes time

2009-07-05T16:48:00.003+09:00

it happened just how I always imagine it would. so why do i feel this way? why do i feel so much sadness inside? How can someone whose suppose to makes me feel so complete, end up leaving me so EMPTY.

How can I love again when I can't stop loving the one that hurt me so much? if i could just turn back the time, if i have the power i'll probably make you stay but now, all that I ever held dear is just a memory.

its not love that takes time,
its the letting go that takes time, so much time.

goodbye...

2009-06-30T01:29:00.004+09:00

i'm letting you go. i'm letting 'us' go.

i've finally accepted that this is the way things would have to be. that i should allow us both to be free enough to seek whatever it is that trully makes us happy. even if it isn't with each other.

i must admit you probably won't be too far away from my thoughts, and that thinking of you will still bring that tinge of regret. but i'm okay. i will be okay.

thank you for teaching me the most painful lesson in my life.

coping up..

2009-06-05T09:45:00.003+09:00

waiting for a new beginning

current mood: sad.. so sad..

i want to hide,look for a place somewhere that nobody knows me, i'm tired being bullied. my anger somehow eat me alive." i don't wanna end up hurting myself just because i can't stop them.

Now, I know how it feels when you were so tired and needed some rest but was rejected by people whom you cared for. I should imitate God, leave without a single word and not a heavy heart. Continuously caring for those people, not from a distance but within my heart.

I know things would be very difficult, because I'm still holding on to my last grip and still on the process of letting it go from hands. Every step of it is a sacrifice but I know in the end, this will be best for me, for I will ache no more...

come back to me

2009-05-19T18:59:00.002+09:00

If I had a chance to speak to again, would you listen?

don't know what I would say, but there's so much I want to tell you.

Where would I even begin?

You've changed me in such a profound way.

Every single day,

I think of the friendship that I'll never get back.

I think of how much fun we had back then.

Back when everything was so perfect.

Back to the day when I thought to myself how I'll never find the same happiness again.

I'm constantly frustrated with myself for what I did and I breakdown.

How much longer must I go on like this before I can speak to you again

—to go back to where we left off?

"help me my friend, oh im so tired"

disturb

2009-05-05T14:13:00.005+09:00

Lately sobrang saya ko.. ganito ba talaga, after na maging happy ka ganun na lang kalungkot ang kapalit,

is this the prize of being happy?

the sorrow, the pain, the fear of the unknown future somehow eat me alive, and the loneliness is breaking my heart so bad..

i wanna commit suicide leaving the world behind,

I can live this sadness no longer,

"If I ever commit suicide,
Would you care that I died?
Would you cry and ask yourself why
You didn't get a chance to say good-bye?
Would you even come to my funeral
Dressed in black and filled with sorrow?
Please tell me now of how you feel,
So that I may still live and begin to heal."

im happy...

2009-04-27T23:09:00.005+09:00

every single day of our life is a constant tug-of-war, between doing good and doing what you want.

and everyday God never allow to see someone down,

i've realize God always been there for me no matter how stupid things i've done.

Lately, been acting crazy and weird, i just sometimes caught myself smiling without any reason at all..

when we are out there looking for that perfect person, keep this things in our mind:

..people change no matter how hard they try not to..

..as we grow older, we mature and with each new level of maturity comes,
different ideas..different needs and wants..

..the person who was perfect for us at 20's could be the person we hate at 30's..

..we have to find someone who will: grow with us.. change with us.. laugh with us and cry with us..

..remember that there is no such perfect person in this world but there is will always be someone who will be with us for the rest of our lives...

"in life there are times that you have to face tough decisions, either you make it or you break it..but do remember whatever way you go "there are no wrong decisions in life, its for you to make it right."

im home

2009-04-07T09:18:00.005+09:00

well, just got home after me mag muni-muni sa LAIYA COCOGROVE.. kakapagod pala hehehe.
ito nga pala some of the pix. sobrang mahal its like P2,400 per hear (ndi kasali katawan.. joke!) buffet na, may extension sila white beachmost of the pix here na makikita nyo taken sa white beach.

mhel and me

w/ mhel,dex,tinay,mai and me

treehouse, dito kami stay

harap ng treehouse

last 2 pix ang pinaka fave ko na kuha.. payat ko dito and HOT hahaha

you don't understand me

2009-04-03T16:40:00.001+09:00

roxette..

while i'm away.. makinig muna kayo ng fave song ko.. hehehehe see you around guys

mag mumuni-muni lang me...

found some old stuff

2009-03-29T08:20:00.008+09:00

I was digging thru a box last night trying to locate my old school ID I have seemed to lost. Much to my surprise I did find it and I did found some old birthday card that my dabarkads in college gave it to me a day after my Birthday in Gaisano mall of Davao in Sonic Boom area where I played Samurai shadown 4. I remember vividly It was of October 19, 1998 they gave the card to me. we called ourselves
CAMPUS CELEBRITIES

when my parents asked me to leave davao and stay sa province namin, they sent me a letter, and since i left my birthday card sa isa naming kabarkada isinama na lang nila sa letter.

Campus Celebrities are:

Dennis - (aka bueyes) he is my bestfriend, hes always there for meno matter what, whenever i need him most, he never leave me alone, and of course cum laude sya sa batch namin.unta anhi ka manila ha mga may, dayo ta ha.

kaya ganyan message na sa akin maganda kasi boses nya, unfortunately on my part napaka wala sa tuno ako, mahilig kami kumain ng bbq at mag videoke.and take note sa kanya ko na learned mag BLOG,

Ella - (aka chuella) sya naman ang laging ka kompetensya ni dennis, matalino din ito. Ka relasyon ko sya dati (hahahaha) kumusta na kaya ito? Huling balita ko sa kanya dean na sya sa isang College school sa davao ComSci dept. unfortunately na corrupt yong files ko kaya wala syang pix now. (upload ko later)

(si ella yong nasa left)

Edison - (aka Redskin) si edison naman 2nd honor campus crush sy sa school, gwapo sya dami gurls naghahabol kaso masyado syang kontrobersyal.. (hmmmm) hahahaha bakit kaya?Jona - well, nasa australia lang naman sya, nag aral ng Photography mayaman na ata to kasi nakapag-asawa ng aussie, i remember na pumunts kami sa bahay nila para kumain tapos nag share sya about her feelings kay kevin, nainlove sya kaso bata pa sa kanya, nalaman ko na lang sa letter na nag hiwalay na sila.

Marvi - aka fantine well wala me masyado naalala sa kanya pero ang alam ko sumali kami sa "maria polis" (di ko alam kung ama ang spelling tagal na kasi yon eh) magaling sya matalino honor din sya. alam ko na fave nya dati ang pabango na Gender2000.
Owen (ako) - (aka Daryl d hadsome hunk)kung si edison ay campus crush ako naman ang Hearthrob sa school, ang layo kasi ng itsura ko dati sa ngayon hahahaha.

I was like 21 yrs old that time mejo conscious pa ako sa health that time, active me sa sports, table tennis, lawn tennis and volleyball. kaya mejo fit pa me jan, gwapo ko no? hahaha walang papalag.Dati kaming adik sa chat sa TELNET Fapenet, hahahaha kaya may mga nick pa kami jan baka magtaka kayo.. ako yong pinaka palaaway sa amin, lagi namin inaaway ang mgataga NAGA.

Dumating sa point na after class naghahabulan na kami papuntang library para mag chat kasi mahal ng net dati its like 80-100 bucks per hour. kaya nagtya-tyaga kami mag net sa library, wanted na kami sa library kasi sobrang ingay namin nagagalit na yong librarian ng kung makapag skirt sya sobrang highwaist kaya pinagtatawanan namin sya, later nalang cguro napansin nya,
nag improve na sya at hindi na sya highwaist ang tawag naman namin sa kanya si ms improve.

dumating sa point na bawal na magchat sa library kaya ag ginawa namin patago, at minsan nahuli kami ni sir Rolly(yong nagbabantay sa net) na banned kami hahahah.

sarap balik balikan ang mga ngyayari sa buhay namin sa college, may kunting tampohan, kakulitan at ang pinakafave naming gawin after school ay ang mag-malling. kasi likod ng school namin (UIC Bankerohan) palengke, kaya amoy palengke.

Kaso lang after ng 2nd yr college nag shift me ng course, umuwi me sa province lumipat ng school kaya sobra na lang ang lungkot na adarama ko after that have to start a new life build a new friends.

Pero ngayon meron akong constant communication with dennis, minsa si jona at edison, si marvi wala na me balita sa kanya lalo na si Ella.

Kung saan man sila ngayon I hope naalala pa nila yong friendship namin at sana nasa mabuting kalagyan sila.

i missed you guys...

Happy Graduation day

2009-03-24T10:57:00.007+09:00

happy graduation day!!!!

"congratulation sis, i know na gusto mo na anjan ako pero di kaya ng budget, sana maintindihan mo ako, i miss you so much and im very proud.
Always pray to God alam ko kaya natin to.. tulungan natin si mama, ako din gusto kong pumunta pero mahirap, kulangin ako.. basta uwi na lang pag nakipon na..
i love you so much.. "

ang bilis ng karma...

2009-03-23T14:31:00.008+09:00

Di ko alam kung sino sa kanila ang magnanakaw.. 3 kami sa apartment mga friend ko, siguro this time di nila ako masisisi kung irereport ko na to sa police. simula ng malipat ako jan 4 na beses na me nanakawan plus yong friend ko ninakawan din. 2gurl ang kasama ko sa apartment pero magkasama sila sa room, pero ako lang mag isa sa room kaso nga lang walang lock pag umaalis me sa bahay.

maalala ko nung december pera ko worth 2500 ang ninakaw sa akin, phone ko worth 5500, tatlong every other day ata yon tapos when i invited my friend para mag inoman sa bahay itouch na naman nya ninanakaw, lahat ito nawala sa sala namin so kala ko ibang tao ang magnanakaw, pero na realize ko nung march 1 2009, iba na! bago ako mahospital ninakawan na naman ako ng 2000 sa room ko.

during that time walang ibang tao kundi ako, hauzmate ko na dalawang babae at mga 2 friend ko na lalaki, na realize ko kung ibang tao ang magnanakaw bakit pera lang ang kinuha, bakit yong dalawang watch ko andun pa rin pati ipod ko. dahil kung ibang tao ang nagnakaw ng pera ko di sana kinuha na nya pati watch ko na timex at fossil kasama na ipod, pero hindi eh, paunti unti.

sabi ko sa kanila, cge ok lang baka nahihirapan din yong tao makakarma na din yon.

pero last week, last tuesday yong 2 watch ko na naman ninakaw, ang masakit lang dun yong 2 watch ko bigay sa akin ng special friend ko, sabi ko hindi na to tama, nag magkakausap kami lahat sa bahay, sabi ko ibalik na lang yong watch ko kasi may sentimental value yan sa akin, after that walang kumilos sinurprisa ko sila nag usap ulit kami this time sabi ko galing me sa NBI bibigyan ko kayo ng 24hours para sauli nyo yong 2watch ko, itext nyo lang ako papatawarin ko kayo, i-try ko unawain ko kayo explain nyo lang bakit nyo nagawa sa akin.

feeling ko kasi kung sino man nagnakaw ng watch ko, sya din kumuha ng pera ko at phone ko at itouch ng friend ko.

after 4hours sometextd me number lang, ibabalik daw nya yong watch ko, pero di na kami daw mag uusap, since yong isang hauzmate ko kakapalit lang daw nya ng number i assume sa kanya yong txt na yon, pero when i textd her wid her name and question mark, she replied like "whos dis?" nagtataka tuloy ako.

what id did kinausap ko yong nag text sa akin,

i ask her "nagtext ka ba sa akin"

she replied "no, wala me number sayo dba nag change ako apat lang nakakaalm ng number ko"

idiin na naman nya yong isang kasama na babae, na ganito ganun daw, sobrang napaniwala naman ako, pero nung kinausap na kami ng management bakit yong salysay nya sa akin i di nagmamatch.

posible na sya ang kumuha, posible din na totoo ang sabi nya na yong isang kasama namin ang kumuha pero base on thier statements feeling ko talaga sya ang magnanakaw. nagwork sya sa callcenter, before matapos ang usapan namin with the management sabi ko talaga,

ikaw gurl1 "mamatay man ang mama mo or isa sa pamilya mo, matatanggal ka sa work, kung nag sisinung aling ka sa akin"

she replied "oo mamatay man silang lahat kung nagsisinung aling ako, dahil alam ng Diyos hindi ako kumuha."

i did the same thing with gurl2, isinama ko ng mag BF nila, ganun din parereho lang sinasabi nila sa akin..

ang bilis talaga ng Karma....

Kahapon, nalaman ko na ito pala si gurl1 na terminate sa work..

so ano kaya? what do u think? Gods answered prayer or totoo talaga na karma na ito?

pero di pa rin ako satisfied eh.. unless walang umaamin.. basta may isa pang karma na darating di ako papayag.. pag babayaran nya.

concrete angel

2009-03-16T15:19:00.003+09:00

martina mcbride

She walks to school with the lunch she packed

Nobody knows what she's holding back
Wearing the same dress she wore yesterday
She hides the bruises with the linen and lace, oh

The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask
It's hard to see the pain behind the mask
Bearing the burden of a secret storm
Sometimes she wishes she was never born

Through the wind and the rain she stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings and she flies to a place
Where she's loved concrete angel

Somebody cries in the middle of the night
The neighbors hear but they turn out the light
A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate
When morning comes it will be too late

A statue stands in a shaded place
An angel girl with an upturned face
A name is written on a polished rock
A broken heart that the world forgot

so sad.. this is so sad, it shatters my heart when i saw this video and it makes me cry, (deep breathe) why can't people stop this kind of stuff. i wish i could do something to prevent and STOP CHILD ABUSE.

How could some peolpe do this to their love ones.

operation success

2009-03-14T15:52:00.009+09:00

Finally natapos na rin ang operation siguro na admit ako from sunday march 8 till wednesday march 11. sa wakas at mejo nakahinga na rin me dahil before operation sobrang kaba at takot ang nararamdaman ko.
march 9 at around 9am dinala na ako sa operating room, sobra kaba ko at takot ang nararamdaman ko, hindi dahil sa ooperahan ako kundi dahil naka hubad ako.. ano ba yan, di naman ako sa tiyan or kung sang part ooperahan at bakit kelangan pang nakahubad, no choice SOP daw.
ayon nakamonitor lahat yong heartbeat ko, oxygen sa utak, blood pressure, at ang masakit pa dun wala me kain, NPO na me since 12 midnyt.
tinurok na sa akin yong dextrose, IV ba tawag dun di ko alam yon eh, di kasi ako medical, sobrang sakit, maya maya na lang ay inijectionan na ako ng anesthesia, ang naalala ko lang na huling sabi ko "doc ang hapdi" wala lang 60 seconds tulog na ako.
nagising na lang ako nasa recovery room na ako mag alas-dos. sobrang tagal, maya na lang at dinala ako pabalik sa aking room, mejo ok naman ako,
till now di parin me kumakain ng kanin puro lang malamig, kaya pumapayat me.. hahahha

kay abbie, jc, ian, mike thank you pala sa pag babantay nyo sa akin, ito nga pala sila.

jc, abie and ian-male version ni storm (hahaha)

natatakot

2009-03-08T09:28:00.005+09:00

In memory of the Master Rapper Francis Magalona (1964-2009)

"Every color and every hue
is represented by me and you
take a slide in the slope
take a look in the kaleidoscope...
spinning around, make it twirl
in this kaleidiscope world..."

Wherever you are, you will always be in our heart and in pour mind
we love and we will miss you.

isa sa mga favorite artist ko si Francis M. kaya di ko mapigilang umiyak nung araw na sinabi ni vic sotto sa eat bulaga that he passed away already.

Life nga naman full of surprises ndi mo alam kung kelan, pati tuloy ako natatakot.

Natatakot ako kasi ngayong araw na ito i-aadmit na po ako sa hospital UST para makapag rest daw ng maayos dahil bukas March 9,2009 at around 10am ay ooperahan na po ako.

hindi naman major operation kasi tatanggalin lang naman tonsil ko pero still andun pa rin yong kaba at takot dahil hindi ko alam, maraming bagay ang naglalaro sa isip ko na posibling mangyari.

buti na lang din at cover ng Healthcard ko yong pagpapaopera, dahil kung hindi, di ko alam kung san ako kukuha ng pera.

salamat sa lahat, sana maging ok naman ang resulta, hayy natatakot talaga ako. sobrang pag pray ko na mawala ang kaba at takot na nararamdaman ko.

salamat uli...

ewan

2009-03-05T23:55:00.005+09:00

heart to heart talks...

holding hands...

leaning on shoulders...

tight hugs...

goodbye kisses...

half meant jokes...

sweet compliments...

exchanging love qoutes...

tapos friends lang... hay buhay nga naman...