Mr Big

Death...13

2008-01-16T12:37:00.000-08:00

I pulled a tarot card at dance last night. Card 13, the Death card. At the end of the dance I found out that the owner of the dance space's son died the day before. Here's what the card read.

Strike!
Venom races to the heart.
Burning sensations invade the flesh (Oh this can't be happening, please don't take me)
But tears evaporate quickly in the heart of the callous fire; cries are muted by the collapse of the facade.
Then all is emptiness.
Out of the drama of death, surprised awareness arises like a phoenix from the ashes and takes flight to the land of hope.

My lover

2007-10-31T11:38:00.000-07:00

Love hurts, but I'm melting
You are part of me
You touch my body
I get you, I feel you, I want you
I want to play with you
Swim in the ocean, play amongst the waves

Love scars, it's written on my face
But my love for you runs deeper
To the core of my being
I'm overflowing, like the tide rising
I fill all the cracks
And warm your soul

Love heals, it sets me free
Dissipates the bars of my cage
To take the leap of faith
And fly with you
On a path of big love
My lover

DMT

2007-10-18T13:56:00.000-07:00

A piece of the puzzle...clicks
Taking me closer
To the sound of the sound
...the source
Where instruments play their bodies
And me...
I no longer exist

Waiting in the line at Burning Man

2007-09-26T12:27:00.000-07:00

Opens door, steps out, folds arms, SIGHS
I think, hmmm first time
Maybe that attitude will change
After all this isn't the checkout line or security at the airport
I love this place
I step out, grab a beer, mmm sweet plaaaaaaaaaaaya
I love everything about you
You are the vacant heart

What's Real

2007-07-17T07:23:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i think about impermanence. With so much change daily lately I'm finding it hard to hold on to THAT.

The Hotrod

2007-03-14T16:07:00.000-07:00

I remember being about 5 y.o and my Dad having a tear in his eye as he was watching his old hotrod being towed away from the back yard of Nannas.
I didn't know why Dad would be sad about someone taking away my cubby house.
Then he looked down at me and said " Son, I was hoping that you would do it up someday and race speedway like me "
hmmm... I guess that didn't cross my mind at the time.

Enfield Love

2007-03-01T18:02:00.001-08:00

I’ve travelled to India in 98, mainly the north. I love bikes and saw some some kick ass Enfields there. I want to buy one when I land there and give it a run for it’s money.

See more progress on: ride a motorcycle across india

Deep Creek hot springs

2007-02-27T17:25:00.000-08:00

Oh the big warm vagina of Deep Creek hot springs...takes me home.

Dance workshop

2007-02-05T13:50:00.001-08:00

I'm enjoying allowing the next thing to happen

Wet or Dry?

2007-01-27T08:35:00.000-08:00

I find that brushing my hair when it's dry works much better than when it's wet.

What does fasting mean to you?

2007-01-26T18:49:00.000-08:00

I'm on the 5th day of a 21 day fast right now and posing the question...
To me me fasting is about stepping out to my edge and seeing what happens.
It's about the unknown or not knowing what I don't know...phew.

Dreams

2007-01-21T22:48:00.000-08:00

Maybe we dream other peoples dreams. I mean is it so strange.
Another episode of Northern Exposure popped the question.
It made me think how logical I can be because I know.
I know that I don't know.
Like standing on my toes, reaching, trying, sweating...surrendering.
We live in a time where there is so much information that it's easy to think it's attainable and there's a way to get it. Just puting it out there...I don't get it.

Northern Exposure

2007-01-17T22:40:00.000-08:00

Now Northern Exposure is a great show, I love the way the personalities weave together to create "community".
Almost makes me want to put on a coat or two and go visit Alaska.

I dance to find stillness

2007-01-10T10:59:00.000-08:00

I was at a jam the other week and thought how great it is to be able to find stillness on the dancefloor. Funny that I find stillness in a place of movement. Go figure.

Bite off as much as you can & chew like shit.

2006-12-01T17:23:00.000-08:00

I remember chewing the fat with a high school friend Jamie, now the brother of my brother's wife. "Bite off as much as you can & chew like shit" he says like it's the secret.
I remember being inspired by this. Feeling like it's OK to get out of my comfort zone and try something new. I think I'm still living out that moment, but how much is enough? and how much indigestion do you have to go through before you find what just enough is? or is just enough enough? It's a big one for me, a Libran.
Coming to California is like being a kid in a candy store, no family and a community that loves creating, sharing, teaching and learning. It is so easy to take a bite of everything, but can I actually stomach it? Is my process to bite of as much as I can and then sit with the caos till I find some sense or bite off a piece at a time and see how it feels?

rain in sunny san diego

2006-11-27T20:34:00.000-08:00

quiet day at home watching movies

then had cheri and tech support over for dinner.

nice.