PRINTED.

2007-03-25T21:53:00.000+08:00

Its been awhile since i posted anything at all.
Let me update you guys.
(as if anyone reads my blog, kaw lang tan noh? :))

Dami nang nangyari.
In 4 months or so i'll be of to the States for my MBA.
Ang bilis!
Now all i need to know is where.
Bahala na si God! Its just been way too fast for me, everything that's been happening i guess. Parang kailan lang i was taking Gmat and review, now its crystal clear.
USF, Berkeley, NYU or Boston C?

Wherever is fine, kahit di Cali, pero shempre sana cali pa rin..
God is enough.

Bye bye Kellog had a bad interview with the Kellog man. He told me to speak straight english dehins ko kinaya. Called him pare pa. Its good though. Maybe I'm nt meant to be there; God has other plans. Maybe those guys are too smart for my own good? They won't like my jokes anyway. HOO HOO HAH!

Chances are bleak for the other ivy leagues, but hey, if God wills i won't complain!
Its been real good. Its been great. Dad has been so supportive of me.
Minsan nakakahiya parang pinag-aral ka na tapos pag-aaralin ka pa ulit?
Sometimes i just wonder why me? Why do i have this chance at all? Crackhead like me. Who am I? I'll really make good with this chance and bring home the bacon for my old man.
Wait for me pops. 2 years lang ito then i can retire you na. You can enjoy your horses and all. I love you and i owe you so much.

What this experience has taught me has been to wait. Its hard having your life on hold, not knowing what's next. No control at all. Heck, not knowing if i'll spend the next two years or away has really been tough. My education has really been with my dad sa printing. Handling people, corporate guys, details details details. Detalye as he would put it. But the next two years really will be a test and a joy for me to see how i can improve as a person and as a man for God.

I am blessed. I have these opportunities and chances. I have a dad whose willing to support me and train me. My family has been so good to me. My God has been. Tan has been there always.

I haven't realy felt the months passing so fast with August coming up(start od classes) yet i know it'll be crazy when i realize it fast approaching. Its going to be great. :)

2006-11-07T11:29:00.000+08:00

Yeah.
He can take hearts and mold them into something even more beautiful.
Friendship is beautiful.
All the more its the journey of knowing the person without your best foot forward.

yeah yeah yeah.

2006-09-05T09:54:00.000+08:00

The past few days have been hectic. My test comes in less than two weeks, September 14 to be precise, and i've still got alot of brushing up to do. I'm fine answering the test, its just the time constraints involved with such.

Despite the pressure mounting, building up due to the coming test, i thank God for the people He's given me to help destress and remember that He uses them to encourage me and to always have in mind that when i do things for Him and i do my best, He will be pleased. It doesn't hurt having family and friends supporting you all the way. These people remind you that they are behind you all the way.

An extra measure of grace has been our bible study group tuesdays. I've been part of people's lives and been involved in helping them grow in their walks with God before, but this group has really reminded me of the joy there is learning from people and serving them. Minsan we get caught up thinking of what we can give to people when actually God just wants us to be quiet and let Him work, perhaps we might learn a thing or two. Its such a privilege being trusted by such good friends and overwhelming that God planned somehow somewhere that your paths meet in such a big, wide world. Nothin compares when these people tell you and assure you that God has worked in your life to help bring them closer to the joy they have now. Who am I, Lord, to be part of such a plan? It is just my prayer that God keeps taking control of what He's started, and that we serve each other well.

God has really been teaching me so much the past few weeks to keep trusting Him with all my plans, big and small. Its just great how a big powerful God would always draw close to us and listen to our smallest rants and biggest supplications. The peace He gives is something i wouldn't trade for anything, the comfort and the silence of being in His will, The joy of trusting in his heart and not knowing what is to come yet understanding that He knows best.

I also thank God for books he inspires people to make. My good friend has always been wanting to lend me her book a love worth giving by max lucado, i just never got it from her. Perhaps i was too busy. But finally i borrowed it from her and i learned so much. you may never read this pero thanks jill. :)
The book gives love a meaning; God. 1 john 4:10- This is love, noy that we loved God, but that he loved us. God is the maker of love and He alone perfects it in us. We will never be able to love tohers like He did, but he develops our character towards that. We don't even have the potential of real love, only God gives it to us.
His illustrations are really good, and insights are really deep. "God can only give authentic love if we let go of our own imitation." We have so many perceptions of what loving is, be it towards our family or friends, how we grew up, but only God gets it right. He made it kasi. Where better to get it than from the creator, the only power source?
"Hope doesn't promise an instant solution but rather the possibility of an eventual one. Sometimes all we need is a little hope." Love endures all things. Do we have the capability to endure all things? Certainly not me! But the grace of God has convinced me that He really is at work in all of us to learn and live this out. The list goes on. Love is patient, kind, etc. Things God is working in us and perfecting in us more and more each day as we trust him more and more.

The book challenged me in the end to rephrase the famous conrinthians verse and put my name in it. I tried it out.

Mike is patient. Mike is kind. Mike does not envy, Mike does not boast, Mike is not proud. Mike is not rude, Mike is not self seeking, Mike is not easily angered, Mike keeps no record of wrongs. Mike does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. Mike always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Mike never fails.

Okay pare pakulong mo na ko. I couldn't bear to read this. No sir! No boss! No commander! I'm not patient. I don't always hope trust and persevere. I am not alot of these things.
But that's the point. When we stop pointing to ourselves and just enjoy and trust in God's love, we learn to focus on Him and let Him take control of our lives and change us. In the end, i just sat silent and nodded my head.

God is patient. God is kind. God does not envy, God does not boast, God is not proud. God is not rude, God is not self-seeking, God is not easily angered, God keeps no record of wrongs. God does not delight in evil but rejoices in the truth. God always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. God never fails.

2006-08-12T22:22:00.000+08:00

GMAT COUNT: 24 DAYS TO TAKE-OFF

Time flies!!! GMAT time is just around the corner. Bakit hindi KMAT or Blue mat? or Green mat? Sino kaya may pakana nun?

I'm not really content with my scores for the GMAT mock tests i've been taking. Still way of from the targeted scores, yet i know things will be fine. More practice lang and more confidence and total trust. I know God will see me through. when hasn't He? Its gonna be good.

When I land in any of these schools (in this particular order) i will really be thrilled.
1. Stanford
2. UCLA
3. Rice University
4. Tulane University
5. Wake Forest University
6. Boston University
7. NUS

Yes it can be done. All things are possible. Got to believe it. He said so.

2006-07-23T22:06:00.000+08:00

Nanood ako ng I wanna be happy nung isang linggo.

I just want to say it was a very nice movie.
Unang reaction ng mga tao jologs movie siya, NO!
I say before you brand something as corny, give it a chance. Understand what you are labelling as baduy, intindihin muna.
We might learn a thing or two about it. Kahit mga baduy lang na hirit. haha.

Iyong story is how Eddie Garcia and Gloria Romero "break" up because marami silang differences. Well who said being married is easy? i've never been married myself man.
Siyempre they get back together in the end, shempre magkakaheart attack lagi. iyon naman ang laging sakit eh.
Malupit pa rin si pareng Eddie Garcia. Ang lutong ng hirit. Heheh.

Just made me realize again that marriage is no easy thing. Pinag-iisipan talaga. Kahit just getting into a relationship eh. Everything is at stake. Your friendship is at stake.
We're dealing with feelings, emotions, investment. Pain, Joy, all at the same level.
Wow. ang tanda ko na.

I still can't believe how i got to the age of 23.

With all the things happening around me, things i've gone through, friends i've seen go through things, changes that have happened, it just becomes so much clearer how God holds everything in place. His mercies are new every morning.
Everyone has their own story. Mine has been sort of slow. But its moving slowly. And i won't have it any other way because God has His reasons for such.
I was never the smartest kid around. I've always been the type to study only when i needed to. pag bumabagsak na. urong sulong. I've never been the type to take initiative, i was always the one slacking off and being lukewarm in things. que sera sera.
At this age it isn't easy to change such attitudes and bad study habits, but i realized that somehow i've learned to depend on God that He would always be enough and come through. Not because of me but because He gives me grace to be just enough.
Now, its not good to just pass hehe. But i see myself as not the major factor but JC. He allows me to live. He lets me take the steps. He makes things happen. Without Him, game over na.

4 years ago i just wanted to go out in the world and finish school. have kids, get a job, sing.
Who would have thought mike, the underachiever would end up taking an MBA? Even i would have never thought of such. Masyado akong tamad for that. But not because of me, but because God enables me to do so.

Its just funny how when we rely on God and trust Him, He makes us leaders. Paradox talaga. And i'm confident how God will make something wonderful and excellent out of me as He makes me obedient and even more trusting in Him.

2006-06-30T11:43:00.000+08:00

the hunks.

hehehe.

vacations with family sure are fun.

sana maulit.:)

2006-06-28T23:47:00.000+08:00

Wonderful.

There are just so many things to be thankful for.

Sometimes its so easy to take things we have for granted, air we breathe, love we can give, smiles we can share, help we can offer, people we can drive. Words which can encourage, time we can spend, the ground we can walk on, the breeze that we feel, the rain pouring on us. The talks we enjoy, the voices we can sing with, the ability to drive cars, the clouds above the heavens, the feel of your pillow against your head when you wake up.Your blanket leaning on your shoulder as you snug of to sleep, gasing up your almost empty car, reading the bible early in the morning or late at night. Songs that make your day on the way to work, my mother's voice asking me where i am, my father's calls letting me know he's holding down the fort for me til i come back from my MBA. My sisters always cracking jokes abut how old i act, my brother inquiring if i could drive for him in the morning, ate elsie letting me know the toasted corned beef is ready for my lunch.

The sound of machines running and raring to do production, the chatter of the bindery people as they work like busy bees, the quotations waiting to be signed and faxed to clients. Coffee in the mornings, afternoons, and nights especially at UCC, jolibee's chickenjoy and mais con hielo occassionaly.

I can go on forever but God has given me so many things to be happy about, and if we look even deeper we'll see a million more reasons to be happy and give thanks.
I feel like i just need to interpret my favorite song of the moment, one of my all time favorites; definitely apt for my condition right now.

Protest to Praise
-i just love the title. intrigues the mind. It's like Reklamo patungo sa Pagsasamba. The great irony of how if we just let God know how we feel, and become honest with Him and allow Him to change and break us, we will end up praising Him and finding our joy complete in Him.

I knew the times would come and
now the times have landed
With stinging abrasion
-Time comes and goes. Times when you feel like nothing's happening in your life, you feel bored(in my case reviewing for MBA) Times of testing. Times of joy. Times of waiting. Times of displacement. But in reality, these are the times we can and may be transformed to someone/something better.

As ready as I seem to be
It's never like I planned it, yeah
-This is the start of the breakthrough. When we begin to complain, we question God, we are anoyed at God, it seems like God may not be doing anything. Does he really know best? Does he really loves us? MANNN!!! We begin to demand, stomp our feet, question Him. We pour out our hearts and are just dead honest, we want answers and we want the truth from Him.

I'm wrestling my thoughts I'm overcome
Would you give me up I'm asking Lord
-We begin to think who are we to question the living God. Who am i but mere dust? Who am i but a shell of a man without God? I'm not worth much Lord, do you really love me so much? Why?

There's no where I sense Your presence here
So I will cry out, until I go
-We begin to desire God's presence even more and more. We acknowledge we need Him and Him alone. Total surrender is almost reached. We seek Him with all our minds, hearts and souls. We desire one thing. One thing, to be with God and just enjoy Him.

From Protest to praise
You're always amazing me
-The wonderful process of changing people through transformation. Honest, broken people reaching out to the living, ever present God. The life of clay in the potter's hand, accepting its role that all it must be is still and let the master mold the clay to be the pot He should be. And the process of the Master having to break the pot again to make the clay into whatever the Master wants the clay to be again. The process. The change. The transformation.

You're changing me slow, but surely
And You're gonna see me to the end
-Ahh. The sheer beauty. Can't help but shed tears at this part. I'm a work in progress!! I'm gonna be the man God wants me to be! All i have to be is patient with Him and trust He is not done with me yet. Regardless what happens, i am in Him and He will finish the work he has started in me. I'm for real! Jesus said He;s gonna see me to the end!! What else can i say? I'm going to make a lasting impact on this planet because God loves me and use me for his purposes.
How long will I be forgotten by You forever
You're not making sense here
Seems like eternity
has made a home between us, yeah
-The silence. The desert. The hard times when we feel God isn't with us. The times we feel God has left us, has forsaken us. Where'd the King go? We can't seem to find Him. We waver in our trust and commitment to Him.

You're changing me slow but surely
I just can't help but see it that way
Cuz You're gonna see me to the end
-The change. The beauty. The process. He makes all things beautiful in His time.

Kudos to shaida. Her testimony made my day yesterday. You'll never know how you encouraged me and challenged me, pero mabuhay ka :)
Queen of faith, man. Galing. Again, your life reminded me yet again that we may not always get what we think is best for us, but by trusting God, we are assured that we are at the center of His will; and the lessons we learn are lessons we can never buy nor purchase. In those times of testing, we are renewed and changed. Characted is formed.

2006-06-23T22:59:00.000+08:00

It's official.
Miami Heat win!
Everyone counted them out.
It was going to be Detroit's defense. It was going to be Phoenix's running game. It was going to be Dallas' scoring and shooting. San Antonio could bring home the bacon with the Big Fundamental and Eva Longoria's hubby. Even Cleveland got consideration if only for King Jame's sake.
Kudos to D Wade for being as clutch as any manual transmission ever created. He got to the rim. He hit his jumpers. He hit his free throws. He put it down hard. He even hit some threes for crying out loud. What can this man not do?
But more than anything, he made everyone better. He knew what it would take to win the title. He deferred to Shaq. He made his team mates look god. He made no excuses. To top it of, in the awarding ceremony for his MVP award, he thanked God. He gave Him praises. Very same words. The NBA has a bright future. This is to more D wade attitudes to come.
I just had to get that of my chest. Wade is the truth.
Shaq still has something left in him but he needs to develop more post moves For the daddy, it might be too late to develp this at 34 years old.

Thank God for healing Ate elsie, our helper/ friend/kapamilya. Tests for a tumor near her ear were negative. Praise God. Hearing her crying out to God was irreplaceable. God sure makes things happen for us to turn to Him.

2006-05-29T11:24:00.000+08:00

Regrets and repentance can never be far away from lessons and change. Forgiveness and deliverance always have to go through the fires of pain and sadness. In the same manner, we have all gone through stages in our lives in which we have hurt others and been hurt likewise some way or the other.

Flashbacks come and go, memories, good and bad. But we try our best to just remember the good and take away the lessons we have learned from the past. Scars will remain, but the ripples formed in the sands of time are subject to change when the winds of healing come once again. Truly the mourning comes before the dancing.

We will never forget the past, because doing so simply deprives us of the purpose of all the things that happen to us; for every experience and event in our lives is planned and willed to be. We must simply admit our mistakes, apologize to our God and to the person we are accountable to and move on. Life must go on, even if we have no control of what the future holds, or what others will think or feel. We are accountable for our own actions and must take responsibility for them.

Each person must come to a point where he or she realizes the business of life is waiting on God. Such an easy thing to say. Easier said than done. But God has always been faithful for the last billion or so years.

Isaiah 30:18- The Lord waits to be gracious to you; therefore He exalts Himself to show mercy to you. For the Lord is a God of justice; blessed are all those who wait for Him.

I thank God for everything in my life. I thank Him because He promised me He would never leave me nor forsake me. He gives peace to the weary and the weak of heart. Everything happens indeed, for a reason. We just need to saddle our sneakers after every fall, and get up again and again. Run the race well, and run it the right way. Thank you Lord.

2006-05-21T20:36:00.000+08:00

THINGS THAT MAKE MY DAY PART TWO

67. seeing the gate open automatically
68. knowing uncertainty but being excited what's gonna happen
69. listening to people's problems
70. giving counsel
71. writing down jokes in my joke notebook
72. seeing my car cleaned
73. cleaning my car myself (sometimes)
74. giving tips to people who work hard
75. giving food away
76. cleaning my room
77. kissing my parents
78. hugs
79. being responsible and doing things needed to be done all the way
80. singing in the car
81. singing with friends
82. grapes
83. brownies
84. writing things that i'm happy about
85. seeing underdogs win
86. seeing guys like michael redd and dwight howard make it big in the nba, yet remain firm in their indentity as Christians
87. highlighting jobs finished in my press schedule
88. bears
89. sam our maltese
90. our wireless mouse
91. theme music which gets my adrenaline pumping or makes me drive fast
92. spontaneous jokes
93. pens whick last for months
94. correction ink
95. seeing my family happy
96. mrs fields
97. gel-less hair
98. comfy sneakers
99. long lasting jeans
100. muncheese
101. angel hair pomodoro
102. mushroom soup
103. tomato soup
104. pene al telefono
105. cleaning shoes
106. posting new pictures
107. having the chance to help someone know God in a personal way
108. sleeping early
109. toasted corned beef
110. reading

2006-05-18T22:08:00.000+08:00

THINGS THAT MAKE MY DAY

1. funny jokes
2. people who laugh at my funny jokes
3. cold fresh air
4. snow
5. clear skies
6. good conversations
7. good friends
8. on time deliveries
9. appreciative clients
10. thoughtful employees
11. the sound of the ball ripping through the net, no rim, just all net. the rush of shooting from three and hitting nothing but nylon.
12. knowing there are alot of things bigger than me
13. learning lessons
14. my parents
15. knowing my siblings love me even if they're not showy
16. kutchinta
17. long, smooth traffic-free drives
18. UCC irashaymase!
19. nice views
20. understanding that God has a great plan for me
21. realizing how great a family i have
22. knowing we have great househelp who genuinely love us
23. psalms and proverbs
24. long walks
25. mantao
26. coffee
27. blueberry cheesecake
28. pasta
29. singing for God
30. understanding the meaning of grace
31. God's patience with me
32. not knowing the future but knowing its going to be cool
33. driving my siblings while i still can
34. helping out
35. Stillwaters people
36. making people happy
37. undeserved love
38. good running shoes
39. good printing quality
40. highschool
41. suprises
42. cheese
43. stress-free days
44. going through trouble yet solving problems in the end
45. good songs
46. good movies
47. forgiveness
48. preparing even when there's nothing to prepare for, then being suprised you're ready when the situation arises.
49. nature
50. my lola
51. dilis
52. mais con hielo
53. getting lots of things accomplished because you prepared in advance
54. getting my back scratched
55. good worship
56. lifestories
57. lying in bed with soft pillows
58. rolling in bed
59. old pictures
60. long lost friends
61. megaman, sonic the hedgehog and contra
62. learning from my dad
63. encouraging people
64. finding long lost things after missing for years
65. old notebooks and memoralibia
66. seeing you made a little difference in people's lives

2006-05-13T01:24:00.000+08:00

the shadow proves the sunshine.
switchfoot
stars

Sunshine, won't you be my mother
Sunshine, come and help me sing
My heart is darker than these oceans
My heart is frozen underneath

We Are Crooked souls trying to stay up straight
Dry eyes in the pouring rain,
When the shadow proves the sunshine,
the shadow proves the sunshine

Two scared little run aways
Hold fast till the break of daylight where,
The shadow proves the sunshine,
The shadow proves the sunshine

O, Lord, why did you forsake me?
O, Lord, don't be far away (away)
Storm clouds gathering beside me
Please Lord, don't look the other way I am a,

Crooked soul trying to stay up straight
Dry eyes in the pouring rain
Where the shadow proves the sunshine,
the shadow proves the sunshine.

Two scared little run aways
Hold fast till the break of daylight where,
The shadow proves the sunshine,
The shadow proves the sunshine.

2006-04-30T08:34:00.000+08:00

The time of my life. It is a joy to be given the chance to help out. There's nothing quite like it. Thank God for the opportunity.

The wealth of proverbs.

Proverbs 30:7-9: "Two things i asked of You, do not refuse me before i die: keep deception and lies far from me; give me neither poverty nor riches; feed me with the food that is my portion, That i not be full and deny you and say "who is the Lord?" Or that i not be in want and steal, and profane the name of my God."

Proverbs 29:23:"A man's pride will bring Him low, But a humble spirit will obtain honor."

Proverbs 21:2: "Every man's way is right in His own eyes, but the Lord weighs the heart."

2006-04-26T22:36:00.000+08:00

Miscommunications.

The perfect way to define a time when you do something and you don't do it your best. This happens when you say something just so you were able to say it to get it over and done with. Blurting something out something without ensuring the other person understood what you said. One of the primary reasons people fight, deliveries aren't met, mistakes are made, friendships are broken, drivers don't go to work on time, operators don't go to work on holidays. Couples quarrel because of this, students study for the wrong topics for their exams, basketball players shoot on the wrong goal, people buy french fries instead of twister fries.

When its all said and done, sasabihin lang ng both parties, "eh akala ko...".
Then, magtitinginan na lang kayo.
No use crying over spilled milk. You can just reflect and think why such happened.

Case in point, Account executive orders 125oo magazines for client. Client tells Account Executive to print all 12500 magazines. The latter tells production to print all magazines, production does so. Just when production is done with printing and is about to bind the 12500 magazines, Account Executive tells production, "hold the 7500 copies! proceed only with the 5000 copies to be delivered. The 7500 must be held because i am awaiting further instructions on how a sound chip will be inserted to the magazine balance."
Production obliges and holds the 7500.
Holding this pertains to NOT binding the 7500 copies.
Account executives assumes the 7500 are bound. Production knows otherwise.
One month passes.
Client tell Account Executive to deliver the balance the next day. The latter tells the client it is ready. Of course its not ready. its not bound. Morning comes. The endorsement for the insertion for the sound chip is given by the client and expects a delivery right away.
No delivery can be made.
We all end up in the office.
There is no point in pointing fingers, we just talk how can we avoid this next time?
Miscommunication. The culprit.
Frustrating, but what makes it harder is it is preventable.
Communication is the key.

Actually i think listening is also key, actually. if we take tiome to be still and tune our efforts to understanding each other, less miscommunications would be present. Staying silent and giving your conversation partner attention is vital. I think i could learn from that. Oftentimes i find myself babbling away and speaking too fast. Less talk less mistakes. It says in proverbs the fool cannot stay silent.

My friend asked me this question the other day; "What type of person are you, do you think feel then act? or the other way around?"
I immediately said i felt, thought, then acted in that way. I guess i'm a very emotional person. It made me think alot too. Because i think its important that we think first before we feel something then based on our logical thinking, we act. I guess to each, his own. every individual is beautiful in this way. No one is excactly the same. Okay i'm not making sense.

Its so hard talking to your employees when it comes to them borrowing money. on one hand you want to help them. on the other you have to take care of the company and remember that helping them also means lending them the amount of money they can pay for. Striking the balance between compassion and objectivity is key. Wisdom from the Lord is greatly and desperately needed.

Lola is having her pacemaker operation tomorrow, please pray for her. We prayed for her already, Bahala na si God.
I'm wondering if i ought to get a bike or just swim daily. sayang yung pool sa house eh, walang gumagamit.

2006-04-20T23:11:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i just like to stare and think about nothing.
These are moments when i get stressed and things at work go AWOL. literally.
"Ser!!! Sira iyong 5 colors, tumirik iyong compressor! Ser! umaapaw ang tubig ng makina walang production sa gabi! Ser! Ser!Ser!!! Iyong truck natin nasa Splash pa paano natin madedeliver iyong Abbott before 2pm and Delbros may convention ng 5 pm..."
Stress. How to deal with it.
And what is management's role? To troubleshoot. To make sure things work. The crazy thing is, sometimes crazy things happen for consecutive days straight.
I wonder how my dad copes with it, dealing with these things for 25 years now. Hmmm.
My dad and I. We may not be alike but i pray God enables me to learn things fast. To handle the pressure calmly and make decisions guided with wisdom.
Sometimes i regret not being serious with life in my younger years.
Maybe i should've gotten in the business earlier. Maybe i should've been less carefree and more serious than i am now.
So many ifs buts and hows and whys.
But hey. We all have our learning curves and personally i'm just glad i have my dad to guide me. My old man is my biggest boss. It may not be very pleasant to live in the same house and report to your boss day in and day out in or out of the house, but i appreciate the guidance he has offered me. i love you dad. arguments, good times or bad times.
Management sure is a whole new ballgame.
Doing your job and managing people seem to be worlds apart, with the former ending at 5pm, while the latter is 24/7.
Still i am confident in time i shall understand and know the meaning of trusting in the Lord with all my strength while being fully confident that Him living in me enables me to do far more greater than i could ever achieve. Lord may you establish my confidence and decision making so that people may see that only You helped me to be the man i am to be in you in all things one day.

2006-04-16T14:12:00.000+08:00

RANDOM.

Empty hands reach out to you
Unseen dreams i offer You
Useless steps i used to take
Decisions apart from you for my own sake
I've played the fool for far too long
Went my own way i've sang my song
Thought i knew what i was doing
Now i know it was your plan all along
Broke me so could see how simple it is
That life is meant to be lived beside You
No other way to grow old
My eyes look on all i see is yours
The seas the waves and every movement
The rocks the creatures of the land
The islands the wind dwell in your hand
What can i give which is not Yours
Every breathe i take my steps my thoughts
The way i speak my movements my actions
Every fabric of my being was molded by you
Make me like the wind it blows like you made it to
The birds they fly as you commanded them to
The sun it shines as you set it to
Now make me grow and know how to live for you
To know no fear no hate no pride
Make me a servant i want to know no shame
May i see myself as the lowest yet glorify your name
You died for me and was the lowest for me

2006-04-13T01:23:00.000+08:00

I'm of to laguna in 6 hours..
time to see the chickens fight and have myself eat as much santol and suman as possible. i wonder if its going to be as hot in laguna as it is here in qc? sana naman hindi masyado.
We'll probably be done with Laguna and back in the farm at Lipa by late night.
I dislike going back to the province. its not that i don't like the place, its just that after not seing your cousins for so long, such that you don't even remember your names, you have nothing to talk about. i just kiss all the elders and everyone i see so at least i'll be polite. may be it would be fun if we went to pagsanjan falls... hmmm...

I need to pray about which school the Lord wants me to take my MBA. i know it should be the best, but i need His input. it bothers me too that the enrollment period is over and i need to wait til next year. GRUNT. GRUNT. GRUNT.

Ate bought a copy of the hills have eyes.. sana maganda. after vcds, basketball, and watching horsies, nothing to do in the farm.
i'll probably bring my joke book and update it for leisure's sake.
i should bring my bible and catch up on my quiet time.
it's holy week!!!!
i don't really feel like its holy week but i'm sure glad Christ rose for me. man, sometimes its so easy to take Him for granted. He would rather die for me than not spend eternity for me. and he is the God of all.
i went to greenbelt to catch midweek service there, it was such a reminder of how important it is to spend time w God. i felt refreshed, being reminded that God pursues us even though at times we don't have the vigor and the motivation to seek Him out.
I've been pretty dead in my ministry for awhile due to work and other personal issues, but i'm ready to make time again and serve my God more.
I know i've got to get back to singing again. i love singing and being used by Him. i love knowing that He chooses me despite my inadequacy and loves me despite my shortcomings. its just a blessing and a privilege to lead people into an intimate time with Him.

I hope all the workers and operators rest well this holy week. i pray God gives me the courage to finally try reaching out to our workers and letting them know who my Jesus is. i need to rid myself of this fear and shame that hinders me from doing just that. i know i'm just a vessel and God will be God.
But this week of from work, more than anything, i want to be intimate with God. I just want to be happy knowing i can trust Him with all my plans, all my dreams, and all i am.

well, God gave me the heart to crack jokes, so i will crack some for pete's sake.
Q: anong picture frame ang masipag?
A: FRAMEWORK
Q: anong kapi ang mayamang bitwin?
A: STAR(bitwin)BUCKS(pera/salapi)
Q: anong filipino dish ang masamang sine?
A: SINE(movie)GANG(masama ang gang diba)

goodbye apple pie!

2006-04-10T14:59:00.000+08:00

24
Switchfoot

Twenty four oceans Twenty four skies
Twenty four failures Twenty four tries
Twenty four finds me In twenty-fourth place
Twenty four drop outs At the end of the day

Life is not what I thought it was
Twenty four hours ago
Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
And I'm not who I thought I was twenty four hours ago
Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You

Twenty four reasons to admit that I'm wrong
With all my excuses still twenty four strong
See I'm not copping out not copping out not copping out

When You're raising the dead in me
Oh, oh I am the second man
Oh, oh I am the second man now
Oh, oh I am the second man now

And You're raising these twenty four voices
With twenty four hearts
With all of my symphonies
In twenty four parts
But I wan to be one today
Centered and true
I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You

You're raising the dead in me
Oh, oh I am the second man
Oh, oh I am the second man now
Oh, oh I am the second man now
And You're raising the dead in me

I want to see miracles, see the world change
Wrestled the angel, for more than a name
For more than a feeling
For more than a cause
I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You

And You're raising the dead in me
Twenty four voices
With twenty four hearts
With all of my symphonies
In twenty four parts.
I'm not copping out. Not copping out. Not copping out.

2006-04-09T20:44:00.000+08:00

me and my cousin patrick. paano ba magrotate ng picture? teka, kung nirotate ko yan tas bumaliktad baka mamatay ako, mahuhulog ako sa picture. okay lang ganitong posing. eto ang tawag na living by the edge. hehehe.

sunday service was great. talked about king azariah.
thing was, this king reigned at 16 years old and served God for 52 years! ang tagal! he listened to God. he did everything right. but he did so and God helped hime marvelously until he was strong. until he was strong. when he was strong, he decided to enter God's temple altar and offer. wrong decision. God is holy. the ending was the king got leprosy right away and had it til he died. Azaria's name in hebrew was "helped by God". oh that my name may be such. oh to have no confidence in myself and only in God! i really want that.
grabe. the word was about how great men of God who start out so well end up so bad. how did it happen? he did serve God still, but he didn't serve God His way. how many times have i had my agenda and "prayed" for His will and made my agenda "his will"? all things indeed should be prayed about and consulted to the God of all. all of us no matter how close to God we are and great are always susceptible to being proud of ourselves. we see ourselves as adequate enough to be independent from God.
i pray in my heart that i have a life in which God is honored. in which i am totally dependent on Him. for i know that only when we are totally dependent on God are we capable of truly loving Him and being the best we can be.

2006-04-09T07:37:00.000+08:00

i just like this pic alot. parang reflective eh heheheh. reminds me of really giving up and giving God.

i love my sister. we may not agree on lots of things but i'm very grateful for our friendship and our business relationship too.

i love the cruise deck. water all around and wind galore.

2006-04-09T00:27:00.000+08:00

i don't know how to put pics on my blog! how do you put pictures in the background anyway?
somebody help me!
stressful day at work.
imagine working 8am to 9pm on a saturday night. its fine with me, i like printing. i love my job. but i need time with my cell too.
holding 5 straight meetings with all the various departments in our printshop on a weekend really drains me. plus the fact that i couldn't start the meetings because my dad asked me to wait for him. i had to wait for 3 hours because of such. the result? i got to leave the office 9pm because we started really really late.
i just figured that things have to change sooner or later. i pray God aids me that i have time to really give to the things that truly matter, such as my walk with Him, and the people He has given me to care about and to share my burdens with. hay naku only God can help me. but i have faith that things will get better.
Psalms 46:10 just blows me away.
Cease striving and know i am God. I will be exalted in all the Earth.
what about that. nothing i do can add or take away from my God. he has no benefit for me. yet he loves me for who i am and knows all my thoughts and desires. Psalms really rocks. i can really relate with the psalmist when He always says how he cries out to God. and when he does, he always asks for help from God because of God's lovingkindness, it is God's character to love us and take us back. to care for us. nothing more. nothing less. God doesn't owe us anything but it is His very nature to love us. hay salamat. :)