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Moved

2008-01-13T01:32:00.000+08:00

I have relocated to LJ:

Lucieatskittens.livejournal.com

It's much nicer, easier to use, and looks better than this one.

School again

2007-09-30T22:58:00.000+08:00

So here I am in school again. But this time in the US. Its kinda weird, I feel all the old signs of college over me again. But at least this time I am old enough to ignore them. No Schin.. no alcohol. Baaaad. But swearing alot is ok.
I like having my own dorm and things, and I am enjoying some classes. I only regret not having enough time to work on my own art, I even have to turn down a commission. Thats the first time I ever done that.
I miss driving alot. And Malaysian food. At first the cafeteria seems fun yknow.. like a night out in a fancy western restaurant everyday, but eventually I grew sick of the foreign food. Goddammit what would I do for a decent plate of curry laksa or nasi lemak and teh tarik. No more of the goddamn soda crap. And here they even put blue cheese in the salad. I almost puked all over the salad bar.
I better start bucking up on my sketchbook. I'm such a silly illustrator. Two nice sketchbooks and havent even started on both. Well yeah there's like three pages of art in it but.. thats embarassing.
I still don't like showing my art around.
I like quarter coins, they're so cute. I hate dimes, theyre confusing.
I don't like the bills, they're all the same size, how the hell can we tell them apart? People hate me when I'm buying something in the line and can't find the correct bill.
Well, back to homework!

MGS Hari Kantin 2007

2007-06-30T23:44:00.000+08:00

music: Michael Buble "I'm Your Man"
mood: ....sunburnt 8D
current art: oh shit

So today Su Li and I went to our old school's Hari Kantin day. Kinda like a fair or something. It was so freakin hot, we're both totally sunburnt now.
First we got our tickets, then ate some stuffs. It was very crowded and it was an especially hot day, so we had many cold drinks.
Then we went around exploring.. and its nice how the school has changed in the years under the new headmistress. It looks more cheerful now, but goddamit. They removed my murals ;_;.

In my final year, my friends and I painted a waterfall in that space there. The 'pond' was newly constructed, but the pipes didn't work or something, so the water in the pond is very dark and murky. They won't drain the gross water, so we asked the gardener to put planks over it for us or something, but it didn't happen, so what the hell. We climbed around the rocks and held on to the wall or something and painted and hope to hell noone falls in.
Noone did though, and I must say we did quite a nice job painting quite a realistic waterfall. The last time I saw, it was peeling, so I guess they painted over it. Oh well.

Su Li did this thingy, forgot what it's called. She wanted me to join her but.. a) I'm wearing boots b) I'm chicken. It was scary but she did it confidently XD Awesome.

As if that's not enough, Su Li did abseiling too. They tie you on a rope and you kinda lower yourself down from about 3 storeys high. I'd rather break an arm than do that, so I'm on photographer duty again. It seems pretty fun though.

Then the both of us did archery. We shared 5 shots each, and I went first. I sucked though XD The damn arrow won't go! I spent like 2 mins going 'wtfwtf' and my arms were very tired, cos that damn thing was heaaavy. Then I gave up and handed it to Su Li. On her first try, swoosh it hit the board! Cooool. But then she had the same trouble as me and can't make it go either XD She handed it back to me and I don't know what I did, but it swooshed as well and hit the board.

The pic is not very clear, but you can see where mine is. I hit a red and Su Li got the blue. Not bad eh?
We went to Jusco and hung around after that, gossiped around and looked for shoes. Next time we're gonna buy beads and things, as it turns out that Su Li is into jewellery making too. Sweeet.

Bunbun

2007-06-15T17:10:00.000+08:00

When one fails to think, one imagines
When one fails to imagine, one dreams
When one fails to dream, one dies
When one still fails to die after failing all the above,
One lives in a lie

I got a new phone! It's a Sony Ericsson W810i. Quite abit of problems at first, but its good now. His name was supposed to be Binbin, then Bunbun.. now I just call it My Phone.

Handling visa issues.. very complicated.

2007-06-04T12:38:00.000+08:00

music: Max Christian Friedrich Bruch - Violinkonzert Nr. 1 (Op. 26) - Adagio
mood: mmmmm violins
current art: this one pic.. with stars and things. *_*

People read this thing.. hi. Gosh.

New dorry! Her name is Mulberry. isnt she a cutiepie? i put her makeup and made her look so freakin sad in the hopes i'll dress her up prettily. but alas.. shes still naked today. sorry mulberry

Im into jewellery making these days, you wouldn't believe it. for dolls and humans. I just made three bracelets for meself yesterday. i need more beads and swarovski crystals *_* i duno if i should put em up for sale, the pattern is very popular and anyway who'd buy em? i'll just give em away to friends for special events or so.

oo i made apple pie the other day. dont they look gooooood. i made choc cheesecake yesterday and maybe later i'll try apple muffins.

i wanna open a artshop + jewellery shop + bakery *_*

anyway, thanks for reading.

Russiaaaaa

2007-05-25T01:53:00.000+08:00

music: Portishead "Scom"
mood: Portishead is so depressing..
current art: this. thing im doing..

Russia arrived a few weeks ago! she's a sweetie.

I'll probably never forget the day I picked up her in KL central from my doll partner. The nick on her head is from my nail polish.. yeah im a genius. managed to get it out tho.
Her default makeup is very simple, but just so incredible.

She is my little Kimono wearing, Nadsat slang speaking devotchka.

fuckin hot.

Yummm

2007-04-16T21:49:00.000+08:00

So I've been busy these days, and have been baking alot. It's fun. Not so much cooking tho.. I don't like handling meat (ew blood and cold and icky) and veggies (EW what if there are caterpillars in it?) ..yeah. anyway. Foooood!

Au gratin potatoes. That is, a cheese sauce poured over potatoes then baked. Its very popular with the family.. and I should make more.. but it needs like so many potatoes =-=;

Sliced beef in mushroom sauce.. I used too much oil tho, ewww, and overcooked the beef. Eheheheh..

I've made the banana cake many times, very easy and everyone likes em. Not so with the choc fudge tho. Too rich.. maybe for a birthday cake or something.. but not for fun..

Chocolate chip cookies, my third batch! looks goooood doesnt it. Baked with love too, hehehehehe <3333

This one was weird.. it was supposed to be choc muffins, but we ran out of papercups. So I just added more flour and eggs to everything and poured the mixture into a cake pan. Its mighty rich.. noone dared touch it. Still tastes good tho.

Cornflake cookies.. not so good. I don't see myself maknig anymore either.. so much trouble and they kinda taste bland.

Farmstyle oatmeal cookies. They're kinda nice, but noones gotten around to finishing em yet. Very crunchy things.

Orange butter cake. I never liked butter cakes but my mom does.. oh well. I didn't put in grated orange peel.. maybe it would have tasted more interesting if I did..

Peanut butter cookies. Aren't they so CUTE? You eat em together with jam but we're lazy and just ate em. Very delish too, I should make more next time.

I wanna try cooking fish next time, but ick.. meat..

People..

2007-04-03T21:38:00.000+08:00

Person says: (9:01:12 PM)hmm who are you??
Person says: (9:03:08 PM)hmm ı remember
Person says: (9:03:08 PM)ı need photo
Person says: (9:03:08 PM)tatu pen work

Luc says: (9:03:38 PM)huh?

Person says: (9:04:39 PM)ı m looking around on web yerterday night
Person says: (9:05:06 PM)ı found an internet adress
Person says: (9:05:48 PM)anime and penwork pictures
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Luc says: (9:08:00 PM)oh.. ok :)

Person says: (9:08:33 PM)ı found a tatu penwork photo
Person says: (9:08:42 PM)but lınk is died
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Luc says: (9:09:34 PM)why doyou want it?

Person says: (9:09:48 PM)ı use ıt wallpaper
Person says: (9:09:53 PM)my destkop

Luc says: (9:10:26 PM)did you save the other pics?

Person says: (9:11:00 PM)yes

Luc says: (9:11:19 PM)why?

Person says: (9:11:50 PM)ı use these

Luc says: (9:12:17 PM)as what?

Person says: (9:13:05 PM)wallpeper and in my blog my avatar

Luc says: (9:13:38 PM)images like these arent free. you shouldn't use them in your blog or avi as you please

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Person says: (9:14:37 PM)and visit the site ı down load free

Luc says: (9:15:03 PM)it is better if you ask the website owners for permission to put in your blog
Luc says: (9:15:18 PM)because these images are not for free, eventhough they are on google

Person says: (9:17:32 PM)sorry ı didnt know
Person says: (9:18:04 PM)but you send me tatu photo

Luc says: (9:18:10 PM)what is your blog?

Person says: (9:20:13 PM)my favorites pictures grups musics bla bla blaa

Luc says: (9:21:08 PM)do you link back to the website that you took the pictures from?

Person says: (9:22:03 PM)ı look wait
Person says: (9:23:28 PM)lucioleloong.com/gallery.htm

Luc says: (9:24:19 PM)no, i mean you should link to those galleries in your blog if you took the pictures
Luc says: (9:24:35 PM)but better still if you ask the artist if you can use the pictures, sometimes they say yes
Luc says: (9:24:41 PM)but it is not good to just take and use it

Person says: (9:25:27 PM)my blog adress ??
Person says: (9:25:36 PM)my blog is my msn spaces
Person says: (9:25:42 PM)bla bla

Luc says: (9:27:15 PM)yes, you should email the website owner and ask about those pictures, or else it is very much like stealing

Person says: (9:28:18 PM)ıdidnt tane any photo your site

Luc says: (9:28:40 PM)you just said you did

Person says: (9:29:47 PM)ı look only tatu photo in your site
Person says: (9:30:00 PM)but ı didnt download ıt
Person says: (9:30:15 PM)ı down load pen work phaotos ın goog le

Luc says: (9:30:58 PM)google is a search engine, they link to websites, so the images are from artist websites as well. that is how you came to my page, and to me
Luc says: (9:31:36 PM)anyway, i hope you will understand

Person says: (9:32:12 PM)yes ı understood
Person says: (9:32:30 PM)but ı download photos google
Person says: (9:32:45 PM)your tite link not
Person says: (9:32:50 PM)other site

Luc says: (9:32:57 PM)???

Person says: (9:34:24 PM)ı download photos thıs sıte www.wetcanvas.com/forums/showthread.php?t=330485
Person says: (9:34:58 PM)ı only download tatu your sıte but ı didnt download but your lınk ıs dıed
Person says: (9:35:10 PM)dıd you understand

Well, I didn't understand so I just stopped talking and so did s/he. I don't mind people using my art as avi, and blog even as long as they link me back, but I think some people just don't get the concept that behind every artwork there is a person..
Of course, all of the above probably don't apply to 4chan. Anonymous does what it pleases.

2007-03-27T03:24:00.000+08:00

A Message to Garcia
By Elbert Hubbard

In all this Cuban business there is one man stands out on the horizon of my memory like Mars at perihelion. When war broke out between Spain & the United States, it was very necessary to communicate quickly with the leader of the Insurgents. Garcia was somewhere in the mountain vastness of Cuba- no one knew where. No mail nor telegraph message could reach him. The President must secure his cooperation, and quickly.

What to do!

Some one said to the President, "There’s a fellow by the name of Rowan will find Garcia for you, if anybody can."

Rowan was sent for and given a letter to be delivered to Garcia. How "the fellow by the name of Rowan" took the letter, sealed it up in an oil-skin pouch, strapped it over his heart, in four days landed by night off the coast of Cuba from an open boat, disappeared into the jungle, & in three weeks came out on the other side of the Island, having traversed a hostile country on foot, and delivered his letter to Garcia, are things I have no special desire now to tell in detail.

The point I wish to make is this: McKinley gave Rowan a letter to be delivered to Garcia; Rowan took the letter and did not ask, "Where is he at?" By the Eternal! there is a man whose form should be cast in deathless bronze and the statue placed in every college of the land. It is not book-learning young men need, nor instruction about this and that, but a stiffening of the vertebrae which will cause them to be loyal to a trust, to act promptly, concentrate their energies: do the thing- "Carry a message to Garcia!"

General Garcia is dead now, but there are other Garcias.

No man, who has endeavored to carry out an enterprise where many hands were needed, but has been well nigh appalled at times by the imbecility of the average man- the inability or unwillingness to concentrate on a thing and do it. Slip-shod assistance, foolish inattention, dowdy indifference, & half-hearted work seem the rule; and no man succeeds, unless by hook or crook, or threat, he forces or bribes other men to assist him; or mayhap, God in His goodness performs a miracle, & sends him an Angel of Light for an assistant. You, reader, put this matter to a test: You are sitting now in your office- six clerks are within call.

Summon any one and make this request: "Please look in the encyclopedia and make a brief memorandum for me concerning the life of Correggio".

Will the clerk quietly say, "Yes, sir," and go do the task?

On your life, he will not. He will look at you out of a fishy eye and ask one or more of the following questions:

Who was he?

Which encyclopedia?

Where is the encyclopedia?

Was I hired for that?

Don’t you mean Bismarck?

What’s the matter with Charlie doing it?

Is he dead?

Is there any hurry?

Shan’t I bring you the book and let you look it up yourself?

What do you want to know for?

And I will lay you ten to one that after you have answered the questions, and explained how to find the information, and why you want it, the clerk will go off and get one of the other clerks to help him try to find Garcia- and then come back and tell you there is no such man. Of course I may lose my bet, but according to the Law of Average, I will not.

Now if you are wise you will not bother to explain to your "assistant" that Correggio is indexed under the C’s, not in the K’s, but you will smile sweetly and say, "Never mind," and go look it up yourself.

And this incapacity for independent action, this moral stupidity, this infirmity of the will, this unwillingness to cheerfully catch hold and lift, are the things that put pure Socialism so far into the future. If men will not act for themselves, what will they do when the benefit of their effort is for all? A first-mate with knotted club seems necessary; and the dread of getting "the bounce" Saturday night, holds many a worker to his place.

Advertise for a stenographer, and nine out of ten who apply, can neither spell nor punctuate- and do not think it necessary to.

Can such a one write a letter to Garcia?

"You see that bookkeeper," said the foreman to me in a large factory.

"Yes, what about him?"

"Well he’s a fine accountant, but if I’d send him up town on an errand, he might accomplish the errand all right, and on the other hand, might stop at four saloons on the way, and when he got to Main Street, would forget what he had been sent for."

Can such a man be entrusted to carry a message to Garcia?

We have recently been hearing much maudlin sympathy expressed for the "downtrodden denizen of the sweat-shop" and the "homeless wanderer searching for honest employment," & with it all often go many hard words for the men in power.

Nothing is said about the employer who grows old before his time in a vain attempt to get frowsy ne’er-do-wells to do intelligent work; and his long patient striving with "help" that does nothing but loaf when his back is turned. In every store and factory there is a constant weeding-out process going on. The employer is constantly sending away "help" that have shown their incapacity to further the interests of the business, and others are being taken on. No matter how good times are, this sorting continues, only if times are hard and work is scarce, the sorting is done finer- but out and forever out, the incompetent and unworthy go.

It is the survival of the fittest. Self-interest prompts every employer to keep the best- those who can carry a message to Garcia.

I know one man of really brilliant parts who has not the ability to manage a business of his own, and yet who is absolutely worthless to any one else, because he carries with him constantly the insane suspicion that his employer is oppressing, or intending to oppress him. He cannot give orders; and he will not receive them. Should a message be given him to take to Garcia, his answer would probably be, "Take it yourself."

Tonight this man walks the streets looking for work, the wind whistling through his threadbare coat. No one who knows him dare employ him, for he is a regular fire-brand of discontent. He is impervious to reason, and the only thing that can impress him is the toe of a thick-soled No. 9 boot.

Of course I know that one so morally deformed is no less to be pitied than a physical cripple; but in our pitying, let us drop a tear, too, for the men who are striving to carry on a great enterprise, whose working hours are not limited by the whistle, and whose hair is fast turning white through the struggle to hold in line dowdy indifference, slip-shod imbecility, and the heartless ingratitude, which, but for their enterprise, would be both hungry & homeless.

Have I put the matter too strongly? Possibly I have; but when all the world has gone a-slumming I wish to speak a word of sympathy for the man who succeeds- the man who, against great odds has directed the efforts of others, and having succeeded, finds there’s nothing in it: nothing but bare board and clothes.

I have carried a dinner pail & worked for day’s wages, and I have also been an employer of labor, and I know there is something to be said on both sides. There is no excellence, per se, in poverty; rags are no recommendation; & all employers are not rapacious and high-handed, any more than all poor men are virtuous.

My heart goes out to the man who does his work when the "boss" is away, as well as when he is at home. And the man who, when given a letter for Garcia, quietly take the missive, without asking any idiotic questions, and with no lurking intention of chucking it into the nearest sewer, or of doing aught else but deliver it, never gets "laid off," nor has to go on a strike for higher wages. Civilization is one long anxious search for just such individuals. Anything such a man asks shall be granted; his kind is so rare that no employer can afford to let him go. He is wanted in every city, town and village- in every office, shop, store and factory. The world cries out for such: he is needed, & needed badly- the man who can carry a message to Garcia.

art comments

2007-01-28T00:18:00.000+08:00

music: Muse 'Hysteria'
mood: um..
current art: eh..

I dont think ive ever talked much about my msot popular drawings, so here I will. of course i aint gonna post this in my DA journal, but in this blog all disclaimers are covered (scroll to bottom of page and no I never liked your sissy cheapo windows) so here goes.

Fairy titania: Crys and I were praactically kids when we did this. It's okay to me now but I got better stuff in the gallery dammit. I probably owe the popularity of this pic to my mom, cos she suggested dark clouds. if it was up to me id probably do bright skyblue clouds. it was the dark clouds that totally made this pic. thanksmom.

crystal princess: i am bewildered.. this pic took me like what, 2 hours? its only popular cos its shojo sprakly and look, wings!! AUGH i got better stuff in the gallery dammit!!

siren: i actually do like this pic and am glad it did well. the colors arent satisfactory though.. TOO fucking cerulean blue, but it was hard to control. i hope the next pic will be better.

new friend: pink, anime, bunnies. i dont wanna talk about it. leavemealone.

forbidden love: while i did spend alot of time on this pic, its not something im proud of at all. it was more of a.. fanart. its got nothing to do with me. I didnt even read the manga or watch the anime. its like one of those filler no brainer pics.

sweet roses: ooo something i actually like! though i regret not paying more attention to the proportion and not cleaning up the first rose at the bottom of the pic. i actually like this pic *_*

lilithia moonchild: does this thing fuckin blind you or what?? so fuckin sparkly. i like it but not proud of it.

princess of blablabla: wanted to do something epic but it actually in all honesty, turned out shitty XD. good effort though i feel.. taught me alot. i should mess aroudn with acrylics more.

i loved you: probably my most stolen pic, yet i dont give a shit. i think it was a fluke when i was 15 or so.

princess aves: the composition goes all over the place in this thing. i guess its ok thugh. i have better now.

copics do my homework and give me bigger boobs!

2007-01-28T00:09:00.000+08:00

music: Muse "Endlessly"
mood: eh?
current art: ya?

Yeah I've caught the copic bug. I don't know how that happened. One thursday night at 3am i was browsing ebay (bad move, bad move) and the impulse purchase demon just made me hand over US130 by 10 mins. At least I think it was US130? Hmm.

Individually, the markers are slightly more expensive than the ones in KLCC when you include everything plus shipping and divide em all. but the set comes with a cool velcro carrying case and a 50 page sketchbook so I figure its ultimately cheaper. The shop I got it from is: oozakonline. They're awesome. Shipping is abit steep but they're fast and lovely :D.

I wanna get another set soon.. but i should probably use these abit more often XD. I'm still not so used to the colors.

bottom up!

2007-01-22T22:15:00.000+08:00

music: Zero 7 "I Have Seen"
mood: *_* Hi.
current art: *_* How are you?

Whoa, I'd better call this a bi-monthly update, rather than a diary. Eheehe. Sorry.

Anyway.. yeah.. I should also update the site. No updates since May 06?? WTF. Half a fuckin year! I am working on a completely new layout and evrything.. but kinda got stuck in the 'misc' page. You know that section has tons and tons of new pages. Ick. That and dreamweaver is soooo slow *_*

I'm buying a new doll. No buts about it. The girl only. But I'll probably only be able to order her in March (cos another girl is buying the boy and blablabla) and she'll only arrive in May or something. *_* Can't wait.

I'm gonna order the makeup too. The job I did on Islington is.. well.. not so good (islington: T___T). Her name will be Russia :D. Or Persephone. But I'm leaning towards Russia *_*

Enough about dolls. I ordered some markers and so do expect lots of marker anime shit coming your way soon. And the new site will (read: maybe read: uhhh) have a sorta shopping cart system for bookmarks and the original art and shit. I duno. Uhhh.

London's off to live with Dan. I swear that guy is turning em all against me.

I will now end this entry with some lulz. See? Luciole cares. Read from bottom up.

the banquet

2007-01-02T02:21:00.000+08:00

what blessed night is this?
drifting down the river qian
what auspicious day is this?
dreaming beside my prince
too bashful to stare
a secret i cannot share
my heart fills with longing
to know you, dear prince
trees live on mountains and branches live on trees
my heart lives for your heart
but you do not see me
you do not see me

Fan.. art..?

2006-12-26T21:56:00.000+08:00

music: Shy "Sonata Arctica"
mood: @_@
current art: uhhhhhhh.

I feel like doing fanart.
But since I'm not a hugely big fan of any particular anime or manga, thats a bit hard.
Sailormoon is so.. well.. did that before.
Motoko from GITS is cool but.. I don't like her THAT much.
Kabuki would be interesting but I dont feel like drawing masks.
Always wanted to paint Gwen Stefani in that alice in wonderland music video, but.. nah.

I had a few discussions about doing Sephiroth x Cloud, or Naruto. Lolol.
They're like.. do a Seph and Cloud, naked and kissing. God, I feel guilty even THINKING about it. But Naruto isn't too bad. No, not kakashi or sasuke, I'm currently thinking of making a serious nice Aburame Shino (the insect guy) in a style similar to my Binky pic. That'd be cool.

It'd take alot of planning and time, but I like that guy and always wanted to do this. We'll see how it goes!

Image heavy!

2006-11-20T01:21:00.000+08:00

music: Franz Ferdinand "Do You Want To"
mood: my butt itches
current art: Hope 1 & 2 uhhh.. about 20%? ahahaha

Lilith, Black Enchantress. She'll go on ebay very very soon so do save up! I'll take more pics comparing her blushed body and that face and then put her up <3 I'm gonna miss herrrr.

Her eye makeup. It was fun doing that! *snaps airbrush gun*

But it turned out lovely didnt they? Those are masterpiece acrylic eyes.

I love her wig!

Lilith is doing a cackle here.

I bought this gorgeous black dress, but it was too plain for my taste. Then I added lace, chains, roses, ribbons.. etc etc etc etc.

I even went nuts decorating her headpiece. Its gorgeous though.

These two shots look kinda princessy to me.

sasssyyy!

Before she was finished. London doesnt like Lilith much >>...

..meme

2006-11-19T12:44:00.000+08:00

stolen from Dan

1. Pick one of my characters, any one.
2. I will tell you the origin of his/her/its name.
3. I will tell you five random facts surrounding his/her/its creation (if I can remember).
4. I will tell you his/her/its favourite colour, book, band/song/album, and/or movie. Indicate which one.
5. I will give you a brief summary of his/her/its backstory, if you desire. Indicate yes or no.
6. I will give you a brief summary of his/her/its forestory, if you desire (and if active rp plots allow). Please indicate yes or no.
7. You may ask me up to ten questions about the character (I have the right to refuse to answer any due to active rp plot spoilers).
8. If you place this in your journal, I will return the favour.

hi

2006-11-12T01:40:00.000+08:00

music: Radiohead "Paranoid Android"
mood: uhhhh..
current art: Kimaya

So apparently people read this thing. Uhhhhhhhhhhhhkay. XD
Yeah, it was my graduation today. Long tiring day wearing the fuckin huge robes. Our color was yellow, for Illustration. Yeah.. so it was cool.
Umm.. here's a WIP to something I'm working on.

I colored it, the awesome Dr Euphony linearted it. Talented bastard that he is.. <3

Umm.. the dolls say hi.

2006-08-09T13:26:00.000+08:00

you wake with the feeling that
something extraordinary has happened

as if you've finally figured it all out

the world should be in focus and all clear

no more problems

then you realize you're in love

and the problems have only just begun

2006-08-05T19:15:00.000+08:00

music: Radiohead "Paranoid Android"
mood:
current art:

It's like a valley.. beautifully lit. You stand on the edge looking into it and try not to be tempted.. but the valley compels you, its so beautiful, and the feeling of it is so wonderful that you can't resist and so you let yourself go.. and the initial rush of air is so welcome and the surge of excitement surpasses all you've ever felt before, but you also sense the danger of the fall, and you don't feel the same and you feel agitated and everything speeds past so quickly.

And as you fall, fear takes over and eventually there will be a time when you finally crash, and the ultimatum is whether you can still walk away after the fall or if you just die. If people say it's worth the experience of falling, I don't know, because it's hard to experience anything when you're dead.

I'm looking into a beautiful abyss..

cars and i just get along so well..

2006-07-14T22:22:00.000+08:00

music: Tori Amos "Siren"
mood: ..wtf IS Tori singing about??
current art: Card deck! 7 of Clubs

Man.. it's like life passes in a blur unless I blog to keep track of what I did..
Life was fun yesterday.. good god. Mom got some car power steering oil, and dad put it in for me, and I happily drove off to work.
When I arrived, GOD it was SO hard to move the steering! I swear I can't turn it at all, freakin heavy and tight. It took me like 5 turns here and there to park the car in one of the easier spots. I thought something was amiss so I texted dad about it, and he said he'll come up after work and have a look at it.

So after work, he checked the oil thingy.. and it's EMPTY! Holy shit! How did that happen? Well, anyway, its obvious we can't drive it around now, so we hailed a cab and went to a petrol station back and forth to buy the bottle of steering oil thingy.

We filled it up, and for the first few seconds it was okay. Then it was tight again. We checked the oil, and its empty again! Leaking omg! We tried it another 2 times just to make sure, and when we saw the trails of the oil on the floor, yes.. it is leaking. So I packed up my things and off we went home on a cab to the train station and back.

Today we came up to work, and Uncle Singh came up with us. He confirmed the leak, and that's that. I went home on the train (god it took me an hour to hail a cab! I hope the bastard who stole my cab (I was in line first!) gets some embarassing disease).

I guess it was really lucky for me to arrive safely at work before the steering wheel fucks up completely.

Man.. the mac keyboard at home and at work is different.. <_< I wanna swap mine for the one at work.. I wonder if anyone will notice.. teehee..

islington is such a pretty name

2006-07-08T17:59:00.000+08:00

music: Portishead "Trash"
mood: man my nails are so gorgeous
current art: breeables.. the last one, finally..

Yep.. Luciole is working.. some jobs are fun, some not. But all art-related at least. And kinda hectic.. 9 times outta 10, I gotta bring it home so I can finish it in time tomorrow. But I don't mind.
I just got my new computer at work.. its a G5, with like 2.8g RAM. New mouse and keyboard too, but a simple (but new) monitor. Teeheeeeee~ Its awesome listening on an ipod working on a G5, then coming home to an imac *shot*.

I got my sunglasses today, and I look hawt wooo. No pics though, I'm too lazy to change (I'm wearing the ugliest shirt ever).

I'll give Islington some new makeup tomorrow, if I can finish work in time. My nails are so pretty~

I'm currently having this mad pain on my left abdomen.. whenever I cough or sneeze, it hurts unbearably.. really bad. Thats not good cos I'm still having my cough. I wonder when it'll go away..

Back to work!

pink heels <3

2006-07-02T01:57:00.000+08:00

music: Nine Inch Nails 'Closer'
mood: mann its hot here
current art: breedables..

Mann.. so hectic today. Pre-emplyment medical checkup thing in a clinic, mom followed me. The nurse asked for an urine sample and I almost split my sides trying not to think of that Austin Powers gag thing. We had to go to Arunamari and back for the Xray.
The clinic doc was gross.. he coughed in my direction without covering his mouth or excusing himself.. I was like @_o wtf kind of doc are you??

Anyway. After that was lunch.. and we went to a spectacles shop cos mom wanted to fix her glasses.. and I got me a spanking new pair of sunglasses. It's some weird brand.. butt looks awesome. I'll take pics next week when I get it.
I bought Starz, Gempak and Blues Untuk Aku magazine.. I wanna apply as freelance colorist or illustrator or something but.. damn.. I think I'm chickening out again..
We went to some clothes shops and we got two pairs of working pants for me.. two bottles of nail polish, and two pairs of shoes. Mann one of the shoes is a really cute high heel pink ribbon thing, really awesome, I'll take pics next time.

Kitty's looking good today. I really love her glittery lips.
The girls are expecting a new roommate coming in August or September.. we don't know her name yet, but I think she's called Apple, Bobbi or Puppy. Maybe a new roommate at the end of July too, but we don't know if she's coming. We'll see eh? Whatever happened to the 'only 10 dolls' rule?

I don't like the new work much, but maybe cos I don't have much to do and feel like I'm wasting my time. We'll see. I'm brushing up on my Adobe Illustrator as that is what I will have to do, too. I wish they told me all this before I accepted the application..
I'm going to continue brushing up on my illust skills anyway the best I can in the meantime.. and hopefully find a good job relating to it.

Working life

2006-06-26T00:43:00.000+08:00

music: Norah Jones "Feelin' The Same Way'
mood: urghhhhhh
current art: um.. the breedables thingy.

Well, worked start last Thursday, and for two days I had absolutely nothing to do, no work. I spent the whole day surfing the net (they all use Macs, but an older version, I'm using a G5 *_*), looking up all kinds of shit on ebay and Blythes. I just helped someone do something.. but I think I worked a total of like 2 hours in two days =_=. Let's hope tomorrow will be different.

Everyone is very friendly, but I still feel kinda lonely. The actual people sitting around me are very um.. quiet.. well, they're Chinese speaking so I don't really talk to them.. and anyways they're so busy with their work that I think it's best not to bother them. I must seem like some moron just sitting in the corner looking at dolls all day.

I feel very stupid though, not knowing everyone's names and the protocols and everything. I think for this few days I'll go down, buy something then eat back in my desk.. I don't mind eating alone really.

My desk is very empty, well I'm new.

I don't know what work I'll be doing, but I hope it's more illustratory stuff. I'd hate doing Photoshop montages all the time.

It's 6 months training.. the pay is good but I don't know if I can survive so long =_+.

o_O Me work?

2006-06-18T00:21:00.000+08:00

music: Ayumi Hamasaki "Endless Sorrow"
mood: @_@ huh wha
current art: Breedables 30%

Second interview with O&M on Friday, the interviewer was a very nice foreign lady called Brenda. It was very nice, and they called me later in the day that I was hired.. okay I almost died.

So celebration time with WY at Midvalley today! We watched Cars, and its very nice X3.. perhaps comparable to Finding Nemo, I think. We ate sushi (um, what else) then Baskin Robbins, eventhough I'm still kinda sick. Like, WHATEVER! It's BASKIN ROBBINS.

I bought a purple skirt :D When I brought it home to proudly showoff to my mom, she brought out the same style of skirt but 500% nicer, dark green, flamenco style cut, with beads, and made of velvet >_>. I don't even know she wants me to buy clothes.. as every year I inherit tons of old clothes from her and my sis.

Tomorrow I'll try to finish the breedables pics, then I gotta do a poses thingy for this other commission, then attempt to finish Toto&Met's pic, and if I'm not dead by then, start planning for the deck of cards thing. The other breedables and freebies will have to wait..

Lookitme!

God I hate my hair. But awww its Patrick Starr *___*. WY took a pic too! We couldn't get one with Spongebob, but well we wouldn't have the guts to huggle the famous fry cook anyway.

I really want a sorta ipod/car thing so I can listen to my music while driving (no CD player in my car.. it only does cassette and the radio anteanna is broken- in some respects, I'm very technologically deprived), but its RM300. There's another for RM200.. sigh. I'll try and look for a cheap one on ebay..

hopping into mud

2006-06-14T09:16:00.000+08:00

music: Sigur Ros "Hoppipolla"
mood: happy!
current art: um.. Toto & Met still 40%

The video to Hoppipolla is just so sweet I could cry. I think I did, when I saw it for the first and last time, and I don't doubt that I will if I see it again.

The days just fly by when I'm sleeping. Yesterday morning we went to the doctor, and she gave me a whole bunch of medicines. Let's see.. a supposedly raspberry flavored cough, two packets of really foul tasting lozenges called Tussils 5, small red ones for the phlegm, huge orange and yellow ones for the fever and pain. I don't know why she gave me those, I don't even have fever and the pain went away when she dropped some really gross burning liquid into the ulcer in my throat. And some antibiotics called Avexus, Clarithromycin, which really takes the ticket cos it makes me feel dizzy, sleepy and wanting to disembowel meself. Real nasty stuff.

I found some neat widgets for my comp. God I love my mac. Everytime I enter my room, I can't believe its mine. I just regret naming it Luciole. It sounds really weird going 'I love you Luciole, you're the bestest computer ever.' Um. I added a cool currency converter widget, and a translator widget. Dieses ist ich sprechender Deutscher. Abit de Français, aussi, y español. I'm going to have such fun.

I still sound like a dragqueen.

I don't remember doing anything yesterday. I think I slept the whole day away. I know I got up at 1am and watched the second half of the World Cup (Brazil vs Croatia, Kaka is so cute), then mom brought me some breakfast, and slept somemore. Before I know it, it's 9:30am Wednesday.

I need to get a LCD screen cloth, and a keyboard cleaner too. This mac is owning me.