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This is where I am

2008-05-08T06:58:00.000-07:00

Hi
Just saying hello
been taking some time off from here
Theres been lots to write about
Just not so compelled to post it here
and some time off from my bloggity blawg
Not sure how I feel about joujoujolliejunket right now
Not feeling as private as I need it to be for the next stage of my life
Feeling complete with it all really
And then when I went back and read that indeed it was like I was "riding into the sunset"
I felt as if Wow, that was kind of a perfect closing for it
But then some dear friends reached out and said "hey where are you"
and that felt good that people still check in on me here

So, I am thinking of starting something new and exciting
If you are interested , please send me a message and I will let you know whats next
I'm not convinced of this, just flirting right now, so stay tuned
In the meantime, all is well here, and I wish the same for you dear friends

Riding off into the sunset... (literally)

2008-04-04T09:30:00.000-07:00

I finished my job yesterday
It felt as if I was breaking up with fourty families
really
It was a great gig
for that time
I am in gratitude
and ready to move on
into the next
allowing the mystery to unfold

and I know that as hard as it is it was to leave
it was time
time to ride off into the sunset
and I did this, literally
one of the first warmer nights of the season
with some breezy 70's lovey tune
rolling over the hills and onto the Kingston bridge
who's views rivals any other natural habitat
feeling utterly... serene
serene
a feeling I have not been in touch with in a long while

This winter has pushed me
it's been my marathon
and I feel as if I am only coming up for air...now
and I am certainly reaping my harvest as well
and have lots that I am enjoying and I am looking forward to a whopping ten days off
spending them getting ready for our upcoming move (again) then off for a jaunt with my sister who is flying in from Telluride for an east coast family tour

I think I was able to make some sort of impact in my work too
and it feels good to know that
and I am proud of the work these kids did on themselves
It's not easy to go into a room
with a complete stranger
at age 6, 11, 16
and tell them your deepest darkest secrets
to be able to be vulnerable enough to share
how daddy took off or how that mean person did x y and z to you
I am honored to be that person for them
and as we were wrapping up our work together
it felt good to know that they are in good places right now too
I received so much amazing support feedback from them
and from their parents
it's good to know
it means something
because it does
and I am astounded every day
at how strong and resiliant people are
we all just want to be here
really

Frolicsome

2008-03-28T11:44:00.000-07:00

I feel my boots trying to leave the ground, I feel my heart pumping hard. I want to think again of dangerous and noble things. I want to be light and frolicsome. I want to be improbable beautiful and afraid of nothing, as though I had wings. -Mary Oliver

Spring Spring Spring!

2008-03-20T09:37:00.000-07:00

Hi all! ~*
Happy Spring Equinox!

So after a long ,studious winter, I passed my Social Work Board exams yesterday with a whopping score of 83! So basically this means I am a Licensed Clinical Social Worker in the state of NY and can do private practice, supervision, and all that good stuff. It's the last hurdle in my long history of being a Counselor and I am thrilled, relieved, and celebrating!

I feel so good about it. I worked really really hard on this, in addition to working my butt off at my job and other projects I am working on.I appreciate the way I approached it in the end as well, very positive and calm, using all my good tricks to take care of the nerves you get when approaching something like this. It's good stuff, and I couldn't have done it without the amazing support of my incredible man. Thanks love, you are best! So yes, we are celebrating, it's been a long time coming, and I really thrilled to move on into this next cycle of our life. Colors are brighter, scents are stronger, I can read or study anything I want. I have a long list of good books waiting for me, and I can hardly wait.

I also received the good news that I will be working at a local college as a Counselor for their students. It's a really good school and its a great chance to do my work in a creative and thriving environment, and be in Higher Education which is an amazing field. I've been trying to work at a college for a few years and I finally found the right fit. They want me to start up their "Wellness" curriculum so it's a perfect opportunity to incorporate some of my holistic practices that I have been learning for many years. Yay and Yay! And I have a lot of time off in July (one of the perks for working at a college) so look out my SF peeps, I am heading your way!

So today is the first day of Spring and I wish you all the very best for what ever you are cultivating and growing in your own world.I am going out now to enjoy the blustery winds and muddy piles of snow that are slowly melting, making it's way into the green grass and flowery buds that will soon be showing...

Much love and Happy Spring!

Green Light Go

2008-03-15T20:40:00.000-07:00

This week for me is about faith
it is about destiny
and perseverance, hard work, and determination
It's believing that I know what I know
and knowing that I possess
loads and loads of support
which is the secret of my success ~*

For those of you who know me,
you know exactly what I am talking about
and for those that don't,
you hopefully will soon

I've decided this week,
my success is based on
all the spirits of those
I have been honored to work with
who have hopefully gained something from
giving themselves time to take care of themselves
and shine their light so very bright

It's about not attaching to others anxiety
and their own fear of failure
or their real fear of actually succeeding
and that's the real test,
and I feel as if
I've already passed

This week
It's about my positive attitude
and knowing I will get the questions
I will know the answers to
I will be calm and confident and in my power

And this week
is about lots and lots of prayer
so if you have a second and can spare it,
send some my way
shine on...

May today there be peace within. May you trust God that you are exactly where you are meant to be. May you not forget the infinite possibilities that are born of faith. May you use those gifts that you have received, and pass on the love that has been given to you. May you be content knowing you are a child of God. Let this presence settle into your bones, and allow your soul the freedom to sing, dance, praise and love. It is there for each and every one of us.

St. Theresa's Prayer

International Women's Day!

2008-03-08T08:34:00.000-08:00

Back to Basics

2008-03-01T16:39:00.000-08:00

Browsing through the channels
after taking another
four hour test
feeling defeated
and anxious
still scoring just below
the pass rate
again

Feeling bad for myself
total Christie pity party
sinking into the couch
wondering how much more can I do?
flipping the channels
trying to escape my overwhelming
frustration
and there it is
my favorite yoga program
on Fit TV
cheezy but it's true
I like that they do Yoga in a bar...

My body has been suffering lately
all hunched over and twitchy
from driving and sitting and taking it all in
my daily walks have been thwarted
with another foot of snow

I know better
it's all very simple
Now is the time
right now

So popped in my Vinyasa Flow tape
from my favorite Jerzey Yogini Seane Corn
fifty minutes on the mat later
and I am back to bizness
tears flowing down my face
heart open
mind calm
body relaxed
grateful

It brought me back to the days
that I spent with her this summer at Omega
she truly is an amazing woman and teacher
with the mouth of a trucker, hair like a hooker, and the prayers of an angel
she has become one of my most important teachers
I looove her and all her glorious Jerzyness

Just needed that reminder
that it is all practice
and that I am really here for
is to do my work from a heartfelt place
and learn these theories and questions
as a sacred practice
to embody spirit
and share and give what I can
take a deep breath
all the rest is fear

Thank you Seane
thank you spirit
what she says about the Yoga practice below
I directly apply to my counseling practice
and to a larger degree
this process of studying for my
licensing exam

Here is an excerpt that I kinda paraphrased
and typed out
to share with you
from her "Vinyasa Flow" DVD
which I loooooove
it completely helped me tonight
and I share it with you
in hopes
that it finds you well
Happy March!

"What we need is a sense of humor and play,
things are going to be challenging
the point is to explore and get into your body
link the mind and body
with breath..
we get into habits in our body...
we need to learn how to integrate the technical pose
and move with absolute awareness and let the breath take you there...
practice is about awareness and intention
to open our heart and mind, if you are connecting with spirit, you are going to feel good, connection to spirit is what is important and with practice
you will get this, you will get this,
it is a process...bring in the feminine.....it's the relationship with the inner world and outer world....and bring this all together"

Oho ~*

Glorious Ashokan Reservoir

2008-02-29T08:40:00.001-08:00

Last weekend, it was so beautiful out
Just incredible with all the snow
it was that clean, soft white snow
that just sends sparkles all over the world

After a very long study cram
I knew I had to get out
and we went about twenty minutes to the Ashokan Reservoir
for a long long walk
they have a bridge that goes right over it so you can really take in the scale of the reservoir
which used to be one of the largest in the country

It's a curious place
apparently the area was flooded
in the Early 1900's
to make way for the reservoir
and in its wake took nine towns
and thirty two cemetaries
including two thousand eight hundred bodies or skeletons with it
Mostly of Revolutionary Soliders
all in the sake of water for the surrounding areas and NYC

Hallowed Ground
indeed
and it feels like it
very mystical and
otherworldly

I kept seeing hearts
in the snow
it really is one of the most beautiful places around here
It was just what we needed
to embrace the snow and enjoy the majesty of our area

PS Happy Extra Leap Year Day!

The Road Ahead

2008-02-28T08:55:00.000-08:00

I have to be honest
I am working my tail off over here

When I am not working seeing nine clients a day
or writing proposals for projects at Omega this summer (more to come later)
I am working on my potential new job that may happen
after an extensive background search (again more later)
intimidating, yes
luckily I've never even had a speeding ticket, how'd I get away with so much?

I am studying my head off
truly
at least three or four hours a day
sometimes six on the weekends
I have never been so diligent
and I have to say
I am very proud of me, te he he!

My test day is less than three weeks away
and thanks to some great consultation (thanks Rachel)
I think the most important thing is
to take care of the anxiety around this beast
breathe breathe breathe

Six years in the making
all comes down to 170 multiple choice questions
two questions are correct
you guess the one they want to hear
whether you agree with it
or not

But what I find my mind doing
is the chatter
How am I going to terminate with my therapy clients
and take the test and start a new job
all in a matter of three weeks?
Am I taking on to much?
It's all timing, glorious timing
and it's all happening
this month

Scott is taking
SUCH GOOD CARE OF ME
I can't even begin
from being quiet when I am taking my tests
to making me beautiful brain food
and raw chocolate smoothies
to lighting fires
and taking on a lot of the house chores
and making sure we have a great place to live
this summer
(again, more to come)
baby, I am so grateful
thank you thank you thank you

And its all beautiful things
Things I have been working towards
and working hard for
for the past six plus years
here it is, here it is
and I am grateful
its just a lot... of work
and balancing
and praying

Mostly though
my number one priority
is my licensing exam
this is my "Moby Dick"
I have been waiting to take this
for so long
and I think
I am ready

I just visualize myself there
taking the test
making all of my best choices
and mostly the ride home
windows down
music blasting
calling all of you
Rejoicing

Please if you can, set that intention with me....

A few more shots

2008-02-24T09:05:00.001-08:00

Here is Scott as he is off to scrape the roof, thank God for that. The picture below shows you the roof he has to scale with a rickety ol thang from Laura Ingalls Wilder days. It's a freakshow but has to be done so that the water doesn't leak into his studio. Like most things around the house, he just does it, with a smile. Whatta guy! Jeesh I love him...

These are some shots that he took this morning at the break of dawn
He has been taking some great pictures lately

Scenes from a Snowy Winter

2008-02-24T08:28:00.000-08:00

We had another foot of snow on Friday
Scott and I got cozy and just settled in
No where we have to be... just here, quiet and watching

Right now he is filling up the bird feeder for hopes of visitors
who are singing to each other
across the yard
And our two deer friends are watching us closely
They visit us every afternoon around four thirty
Scott's putting out some wheat grass today
as a special treat

We had a fox visit us too
Scott got this picture, a very rare sight around here
just before the storm

And then there was the lunar eclipse the other night, brilliant reds and oranges for over a full hour

I sit here, in awe

Sweetness

2008-02-18T09:10:00.000-08:00

I have to say
I am surrounded by sweetness

Look at all the love!
Went to my lovely Gma's house this weekend
on the Connecticut coast
This place I have called one of my homes
used to play here on the beach when I was little
My Mom and Presley met us there
for an utterly sweeet sweeeet weekend

Having "shocks" of blessedness lately
It just comes to me in one divine moment
of how much I am surrounded by goodness
At one moment I was lying on my Gma's bed with her
We were all watching the gorgeous images from the "Planet Earth" series
(if you haven't checked it out, do yourself this favor)
And I was encompassed by how I have been waiting for this
for so long
to have Scott with me at my Gma's was such a gift
this home of mine for the past twenty something years
and here we all were
taking in the beauty of the world
in one of the most comforting places of my life

Here are some pics to share
the cupcake that I bought Scott for Vday
I just thought it was a work of art
and was worthy to share

Puppy Love

2008-02-15T09:44:00.000-08:00

OK
We are just crazy about dogs right now
in particular puppies
Scott and I every chance we get are either talking about dogs
watching dogs
planning for dogs
just plain puppy love!

It's dangerous as we have a pet shop down the street that always has new puppies in the window
I find that cruel as it is cold out
and we plan their escape every time we go by

Here is the one he gave me until we can actually get one
I have like five different names for him right now..
He is hanging out with me
studying today
you press his paw and he goes
"you are so doggone cute!"

Was watching the Dog Shows last week and my favorite dog "Uno" won!
he is so beautiful, a Beagle which never wins the shows
It's always those weird looking poodle types
like that bitch Vicki, the little white one with the pom poms
don't see the appeal really
I always hear how smart they are
sorry, still doesn't cut it for me
The only thing really keeping me from falling headway into the dog show world
is the crowd
grim group really...

Yes, I think we might be turning into weird dog people

Watched "Best in Show" the other night by Christopher Guest
If you haven't seen it, check it out
One of the funniest movies ever!

CUNT

2008-02-14T17:06:00.000-08:00

Go Jane Fonda!
All I have to say is CUNT CUNT CUNT CUNT CUNT!
Wait, one more time... I just have to get this out
CUNT

I can't believe in a world where someone just walked into a University
and shot a bunch of people dead
we are concerned about a word...CUNT
Maybe if we talked about the CUNT a little more,
or had a little more CUNT
the world would be a more peaceful place ~*

At Omega this summer I had the pleasure of being around
Jane and Eve Ensler and their radical crew
who were there for the Women and Power conference
spreading the good V day word
And I spent V-Day with them
in 2002 when the huge Vagina Monologues came to San Francisco
and I walked through a huge entrance of a CUNT to get to the performance

I was so turned around by her presence
she is one of our elders
and owns her mistakes
and has learned from them
and isn't perfect
but the difference is she knows this...
and isn't afraid of opening her mouth

thanks Jane
just please don't back down
like you did with Vietnam
please please
own your CUNT this time...
no apologies ladies

OK, just one more time for the road
CUNT

From My Perch

2008-02-10T14:24:00.000-08:00

Just wanted you to see where I am posted during most of my free time
I am surrounded here in this room by windows, trees, and 180 degree views of
our front lawn
This is where I study, relax, and watch the amazing views of my home
Here I am visited by sun, crows, bears, deer, and yesterday, an Owl

If you look really really close you can see her shadow
(I assume she is a "she")
up in the tree
She sat there for a very long time during one of more blustery parts of the snow storm
I think she is the same one who visited me sometime ago, she sat in the same exact spot during another storm, probably taking an assessment of the blustery situation. It's a wild thing to see an owl during the day, as they are nocturnal and I am assuming that she woke up during the storm. On another level I believe in Animal Spirits and know that she is a messenger for me as well. In feeling her message I think she was just letting me know that she "sees" me and the hard work I am doing in this room of mine day after day to get pass my exam .

She sat with me for a very long time, and as I turned away for a moment and she was gone...

Year of the Rat

2008-02-07T16:04:00.000-08:00

This is one of the few times I am glad to be called a "Rat"

Happy Chinese New Year!

THE YEAR OF THE RAT, 2008

February 7, 2008 - January 25, 2009 (Earth)

According to the Chinese Zodiac, the Year of 2008 is a Year of the Rat (Earth), which begins on February 7, 2008 and ends on January 25, 2009. First in the cycle of 12 Animal signs, Rat Year begins the sequence and recurs every twelfth year. It is a time of renewal in so many ways. From New Year to Valentine's Day, to the arrival of spring, may all the blessings and delights of the New Year be yours.

A Rat Year is a time of hard work, activity, and renewal. This is a good year to begin a new job, get married, launch a product or make a fresh start. Ventures begun now may not yield fast returns, but opportunities will come for people who are well prepared and resourceful. The best way for you to succeed is to be patient, let things develop slowly, and make the most of every opening you can find. People born in an Earth Rat are said to be logical realists, shrewd, charming, ambitious, and inventive. Of course, the entire horoscope must be considered when making any personality assessment.

In Chinese, the Rat is respected and considered a courageous, enterprising person. People born in the Year of Rat are clever and bright, sociable and family-minded. They have broad interests and strong ability in adapting to the environment and able to react adequately to any changes.

They are gifted in many ways and have an easy going manner. They are active and pleasant, tactful and fantastic, and are able to grasp opportunities. They seem to have interests in everything and hope to participate in doing it and usually do it very well.

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Rawspendor

2008-02-03T16:19:00.001-08:00

Entertained a bunch of great people from Omega last weekend in our home. It was the second of a winter potluck series we are having to keep us connected and it was a blast. The house felt so warm and cozy, we had a fire and it was very ambiant and beautiful. Scott made a bunch of Raw treats that everyone devoured, raw spinach masala, mushroom caps, tacos, apple cookies, and more. It was delish and everyone was whoooed by his raw food prowess. He had all the ladies in the kitchen at one point showing them how to vortex water and make chocolate coconut smoothies, this lady was proud. It's nice to be able to have people over and make deper connections here.

Thanks Suzanne for the great pictures.

So close, almost spring

2008-02-02T16:17:00.000-08:00

My driveway is an ice rink
literally, its a luge
we can't leave the house without slipping
I am ready for my dog sled...
I always did want to do the luge for my olympic sport though
time to get that started

I am cozy inside with a fire and my man
studying my head off for my March 10th test date
but whoa, do I miss hiking, flowers, and fresh spring air...
anyone else?

My Counsins Big Fat Irish Italian Wedding...

2008-02-01T15:16:00.000-08:00

Recently we were in Hartford, Connecticut for my cousin Julie's wedding... was a blast with all my family there for a few days . My favorite picture is below with my Mom and beautiful Nana dancing all night long, she's 84 and rocks it!Grew up tight with Julia and it was such a joy to see her really happy. It was a more traditional wedding than I've been to in a while, but had her own style too it. The taxi they rode off in is actually from the tv series "taxi"..that my uncle borrowed from his boss as he owns it. What a trip! Along with all my mothers side there is her fathers side of the family who are old school Italians, a very "Godfather" flavor indeed. I always say I am vicariously Italian as I've always had their influence on me, as well as my Sicilian step mother. I even swear in Italian as Scott will attest to- when I dropped baking soda from the fridge the other day I didn't even realizing I was saying "FCUK" in Italian!

These friends of mine....

2008-01-28T19:38:00.001-08:00

For Gal

2008-01-25T09:53:00.001-08:00

I know it's a fuzzy picture, but do you know what this is? It's the "friendship pin" you gave me years ago. I have it pinned to my favorite bag, and I think of you and all your silly wonderful ways every time I see it!
Sending you big love and strength now sister... and as you heard so clearly in your dream,
HOPE

"Mondo Beyondo" oh eight

2008-01-18T09:03:00.000-08:00

I have a few crushes in the blog world, two of them I want to shout out in '08 for their courage and inspiration to me. Its weird because I have never met them, but feel as if I have been friends with them for years as they are so giving and intimate with what they share with us in this wild blogger world. Two of them (who are friends) are Superhero (http://www.superherodesigns.com/journal/ ) and Boho (http://bohemiangirldesigns.blogspot.com/index.html).

Last week was wild and challenging and shot me into new places. I was surprised by it, and what came out was a really strong voice with clarity. Thanks for all your support (you know who you are). I am great, the interview went really well, I feel strong and clear on the other end.

I think we all have these expectations that since it's a new year all is going to be groovy and squeaky clean. Then the snow piles up on the side of the road all yellow and grey and we go "WTF". I have wanted to take Superhero's Mondo Beyondo challenge for a while, so here it goes.

1. What do you want to acknowledge yourself for in regard to 2007?
(What did you create? What challenges did you face with courage and strength? What promises did you keep to yourself? What brave choices did you make? What are you proud of?)

I created a new life in a new state with a new man who exceeds my dreams and hopes and expectations. I was holding his face last night thinking "wow, it was you , and here you are", swoon.... thank you love.

Challenges I faced with courage and strength: Being in love and staying there, taking that awful but necessary job in Newark, staying on the east coast while I was missing my friends and home big time....

Promises I kept: to stay put when I was scared shitless, to be more honest with myself in what I need, not to run when I wanted to, staying close to my family

Brave choices are going back to Omega with Scott and loosing my stable income to plant fertile seeds for a wonderful life

I am proud of interviewing at Cornell for my dream job, and going through the most rigorous job interview I ever performed and for staying true to my dreams.

2. What is there to grieve about 2007?

(What was disappointing? What was scary? What was hard? What can you forgive yourself for?)

I grieve my life in San Francisco, the reality that I am living now on the East Coast, my community. I forgive myself for that choice.

3. What else do you need to say about the year to declare it complete?

(Okay, the next step is to say out loud, "I declare 2007 complete!" How do you feel? If you don't feel quite right, there might be one more thing to say...)

I am so grateful for 2007, it was a cornerstone year and I am grateful to all and for all. I am proud of myself and my choices , thankful for my losses and see now that it is all part of this wild and wonderful path we are all on.

I declare 2007 COMPLETE! Hazaaah!

(The final step is to consider your primary focus for the year to come. What is your primary intention or theme for 2008? Is it the year of joy? the year of self-care? the year of partnership?
Stand up and say it proud, "2008 is my year of...."

After you list your intentions, let's do the list that is truly Mondo Beyondo status. What are the things you are wanting to manifest that are almost too scary to even write down? The ones that elicit a gremlin response of "You can't have that!" or "Who are you to ask for that?" or "Fat chance. That will never happen. You're not a good enough....(fill in the blank)"

Are you nervous? You should be. This list should be a bit dangerous. It should make you feel a little shy and excited. Butterflies abound.)

2008 is my year of surprises, of joy, and of stepping strongly onto this new path.

I know that sometime this year I will finally get licensed for that bloody LCSW test I have been dreading for six years. Also I will be starting my own therapy practice and starting my own business consulting and providing therapy for those who cannot find a solid practitioner in their area (coming soon to a website near you...). I want to create a strong home based business. I want to sort out some of the yucky ambivalent financially successful guilt I have been avoidant of. I can be a strong social worker and therapist and be able to take care of myself financially as well.

I step strongly into my role as a dedicated sister, a strong advocate, and loving partner of Scott.I an really excited for our love, and I am so here...

In 2008 I will love well, live well, be softer and gentler with myself, not be so frikin serious, and have a lot more fun. I want to step deeper into a solid body based practice, to really commit to something that helps me continue to feel good and grow good. I commit to growing towards the raw/living foods path that Scott and I are on, and will have grace for myself when I am not there as well.

I will also be seeking out a woman/spiritual group that I can grow. Even if I have to start the darn thing. I want a community here dammit. So bring it!

And how about you? I look forward to hearing about your dreams and aspirations as well. Thank you Andrea Superhero, I am grateful for this challenge, and thank you for so freely sharing yours.

I'm no angel

2008-01-11T09:27:00.000-08:00

It was all I could do to just let the tears roll down my face.
It was just an incredibly emotional day of listening to seven families in a row tell of their tragic tales and how messed up everyone is after it all. And i'm just sitting here thinking " who am I to think I can help anyone?". I was actually relieved to finally be crying. How could I be a person who sits in a room all day hearing of the darkest hardest secrets in a persons life not have some emotion about it? As a therapist doing this for years I have trained myself to have clinical skills, coping skills, rituals to leave it behind. And there I was bawling in the bathroom stall with the puke pink walls and fake flowers all around. "Country Kitch" is the look they are going for in the drab and dismal attempt to cheer this place up i guess. I know its cause its unnatural to have as many clients as they are asking us to have with no break in a forty five minute session four days a week with no support and very little pay. I know this. And wow was I feeling it.

Every morning I glide down the mountain top and put the angels around my car. I learned this trick as one of my grounding rituals, and as I have had a particularly hard time around the mountain feeling safe with all the deer and icy patches and swirly curves, I thought this would help. I look to my right and there is the reservoir and I look forward to my day, being a safe place for these kids to land. I have come into a deeper practice of asking for help, a lot of it, from the universe, the angels, god, what ever will do, when I get stuck in the room and need it to turn to being a session of what it needs to be. What I want to acknowledge is that they are there for me too. I know this... and here is a reminder of how.

Last night, I was disillusioned, burned out even. I know I can do good work. But at what cost sometimes? The amount they are asking of me is too much with very little compensation. I get a world of good from the love of these kids. I do. And my personal boundaries tell me it is too much to ask of me to have seven clients in a row every day. I had had enough. Scott saw it with me on the couch as I was watching "Grey's Anatomy" last night after my crying spell telling him I want to be a bean counter or a telemarketer. The whole show was about faith, and boy, did I need that. Cried through the whole thing I did. Wow I needed that reminder. Faith, hmm. I could sit with that. Faith that I do what I can. Faith that I am where I am to be for now. Faith that I will enlist proper support and receive what I need. Faith. good. thanks ABC television, I needed that. It comes from the weirdest places sometimes...

And then I move to open my junk email on my hotmail account, and there it is. The news I have been waiting for. The interview I have wanted for over two years, on Tuesday, and did I change my phone number because they have been trying to find me....

ps thanks to Katia who reminded me in her post about the site that it was a new moon in capricorn on tuesday where I learned the phrase "in your patience is your soul." http://www.mooncircles.com/newmoon_pythia.html

Don't You Hate These Things?

2008-01-06T17:19:00.000-08:00

These frikin chain emails
makes me zaaany
I just got home from a huge Irish Italian family wedding
I'm exhausted and so cookied out
and received this
so I read it cause I'm a sucka for the horoscope
and it pretty much nails me, Virgo chic
so instead of forwarding to my friends who will hate me
(ahem, Gal...)
I figure I'll just post it here
cause at least 7 people will read it
that way I'm not "sending it" per say...
but won't have the bad luck to boot
not like i really believe in that stuff...
but just in case
I think I have fulfilled
my forwarding obligations...:

This is the real deal. Try ignoring it, and the first thing you'll notice
is having a horrible day starting tomorrow morning - and it only gets worse from there.

ARIES - The Aggressive

Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY adorable. Loves relationships, and family is very important to an aries. Aries are known for being generous and giving. Addictive. Loud. Always has the need to be 'Right'. Aries will argue to prove their point for hours and hours. Aries are some of the most wonderful people in the world. 16 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

TAURUS - The Tramp

Aggressive. Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight.
Fight for what they want. Can be annoying at times, but for the love of attention. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Good kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. A caring person. They can be self centered and if they want something they will do anything to get it. They love to sleep and can be lazy. One of a kind. Not one to mess with. Are the most attractive people on earth! 15 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

GEMINI - The Twin

Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners Very Good at confusing people... Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Gemini's will not take any crap from anyone. Gemini's like to tell people what they should do and get offended easily. They are great at losing things and are forgetful. Gemini's can be very sarcastic and childish at times, and are very nosey.
Trustworthy. Always happy. VERY Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE. 9 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

CANCER - The Beauty

MOST AMAZING KISSER. Very high appeal. A Cancer's Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet in your life. Entirely creative Person, most's are artists and insane respectfully speaking. They perfected sex and do it often. Extremely random. An Ultimate Freak. Extremely funny and is usually the life of the party. Most cancers will take you under their wing and into their hearts where you will remain forever. Cancers make love with a passion beyond compare
Spontaneous. Not a Fighter, But will kick your ass good if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to! 12 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

LEO - The Lion

Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Usually happy, but when unhappy tend to be grouchy and childish. A leo's problem becomes everyone's problem. Most Leos are very predictable and tend to be monotonous. Knows how to have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Very predictable. Outgoing. Down to earth. Addictive. Attractive. Loud. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Not one to mess with. Rare to find. Good when found. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

VIRGO - The One that Waits

Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always wants the last word. Caring. Smart. Loud. Loyal. Easy to talk to. Everything you ever wanted. Easy to please. A pushover. Loves to gamble and take chances. Needs to have the last say in everything. They think they know everything and usually do. Respectful to others but you will quickly lose their respect if you do something untrustworthy towards them and never regain respect. The do not forgive and never forgetThe one and only. 7 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

LIBRA - The Lame One

Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! However, not the kind of person you want to mess with... you might end up crying... Libras can cause as much havoc as they can prevent. faithful friends to the end. Can hold a grudge for years. Libras are someone you want on your side. Usually great at sports and are extreme sports fanatics. Kinda dumb at times. 9 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

SCORPIO - The Addict

EXTREMELY adorable. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Will try almost anything once. Loves to be pampered. Energetic. Predictable. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Loves to party but at times to the extreme. Loves the smell and feel of money and is good at making it but just as good at spending it! Very protective over loved ones. HARD workers. Can be a good friend but if is disrespected by a friend, the friendship will end. Romantic. Caring. 4 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One

Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. A loner most of the time. Loses patience easily and will not take crap. If in a bad mood stay FAR away. Gets offended easily and remembers the offense forever. Loves deeply but at times will not show it feels it is a sign of weakness. Has many fears but will not show it. VERY private person. Defends loved ones will all their abilities. Can be childish often. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in bed..!!! Not the kind of person you want to mess with- you might end up crying. 4 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

CAPRICORN - The Passionate Lover

Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Grouchy at times and annoying to some. Lazy and love to take it easy. But when they find a job or something they like to do they put their all into it. Proud, understanding and sweet.
Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always
gets what he or she wants. Cool. Loves to win against other signs especially Gemini's in sports. Likes to cook but would rather go out to eat at good restaurants.
Extremely fun. Loves to joke. Smart. 24 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

AQUARIUS - Does It In The Water

Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind, loves being in
long-term relationships. Can be clumbsy at times but tries hard. Will take on any project. Proud of themselves in whatever they do. Messy, and unorganized. Procrastinators. Great lovers, when their not sleeping. Extreme thinkers. Loves their pets usually more then their familiy. Can be VERY irritating to others when they try to explain or tell a story. Unpredictable. Will exceed your expectations. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out. 2 years of bad luck if you do not forward

PISCES - The Partner for Life

Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. Messy at times and irresponsible! Smart but lazy. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Passionate, wonderful lovers. Fun to be around. Too trusting at times and gets hurt easily. Lover of animals. VERY caring, make wonderful nurses or doctors. They always try to do the right thing sometimes get the short end of the stick. They sometimes et used by others and hurt because of their trusting. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. Good friend to other but need to be choosy on who they allow their friends to be. 5 years of bad luck if you do not forward.

OK here's the thing you cant send this to the person who sent this to you so good luck! the other hard part is that last one with this is the loser.

ready ........ set............ GO!

1-3 people= 1 minute of luck

4-7 people= 1 hour of luck

8-12 people = 1 day of luck

13-17 people = 1 week of luck

18-22 people = 1 month of luck

23-27 people = 3 months of luck

28- 32 people = 7 months of luck

33-37 people = 1 year of luck

38 and more = a very lucky life!

Year Of Surprises

2008-01-03T15:17:00.001-08:00

My Step Mom, pictured above dancing with my father, is a very wise Sicilian woman from the Bronx, who is "usually right". She made the statement that last year was "The year of change" for our family. This year she predicts it to the "The Year of Surprises"

It started off already with them finding out that they have had a four hundred pound black bear settled in living under their porch, right under where they spend most of their time. And we have bear prints all around our yard, esp. near our dear bird feeder. Looks like that is coming down sooon.... arn't they supposed to be hibernating? It's cold, two degrees!

Oh yea, I got my hair cut off. I was butchered by the local yocal hair cut lady. I should know better than to go to a place called "Haircutz". Not much of an option up here though. Next time i'll travel for my cut. Spent Christmas eve having my "mullet" fixed... turned out ok though. My Christmas Miracle: having my Mom's hair dresser "pop by" for dessert and ended up performing emergency surgery on my disastrous dooo. Have bangs now... bangs! It's a good change, I lost five inches off the back, but I like it.

Spent New Years at my brothers, totally fun. Very mellow and cozy. Played "Songster", like Karaoke but you get points. It was great to finally learn the words to "Come on Eileen" by those British guys in suspenders. They are dirty lyrics.. have you ever noticed that? My friend from grammar school said that she used to date one of them. But then again, there were like fifteen of them in the video...

My sister is visiting from Colorado, so
good to have her around. Lots of family time, lots of napping, lots of snow. So far, its great!

In pics:
Scott and his buddy Santa after a nap
Songster
NYE stroke of midnight, taken by my bro
Me my sister and Dad, and my parents dancing, so cute!