Shyam's Space

blogging closed

2006-08-23T21:03:00.000-07:00

Shutters down on Blogging.

Will delete this page soon!

visiting frnd's houses

2006-03-06T23:49:00.000-08:00

i feel so bored to jus read novels all day... so i drop into all my frnds houses everyday. its so amusing why some frnds dont want other people to know that i spent time with them. its so silly. i'm not so fussy like that. my life is an open book. only the deep secrets are shared with my close frnds. watever, it doesnt hurt telling the world wat i do with my life otherwise.
siraj was telling me that he too felt the same last yr. but, unlike me, he doesnt get bored easily. siraj is more of an outdoor person. wish i had frnds like he does. he seem to have so much of fun and yet finish off all his work too. but its no big surprise, he is so much of fun to be with...

2006-03-03T08:45:00.000-08:00

Today I went to yams house. I was watching a movie at her home. I ate some food cooked by yams. We wanted to drop in at another friend’s house too, but he said he won’t be home to entertain us. So we planned to go to shopping in the evening. Then after watching the movie, I tinkered with her ThinkPad. It was kewl. I liked it very much. Yams and I left to shop some jewelry. After some roaming, I left home. She later told me that she didn’t buy even after I left. Anyways, just being with yams itself gives me some pleasure/satisfaction.

2006-03-02T08:44:00.000-08:00

I called up udhya early this morning. She has an interesting experience to share. I almost advised exactly what divs told me six months ago (when I faced the same situation). It was funny.

I was at home all day. It was so bugging. Sitting at home all day idle literally drove me nuts. I was online in the afternoons, chatting with my classmates, and then asha and I dusted and pulled out our mics to talk… the afternoon just flew away so. Then in the evening, I was msg’ing sima and we were msg’ing each other all rubbish for a long time. I simply admire the way he can stand my nonsense so cheerfully. I really felt very frustrated to do nothing.

I want to go and meet my school friends sometime. I felt even more tempted when I saw my school alumni party fotos. Mom agreed. But I am yet to decide on the dates.

Last day at college

2006-02-28T07:40:00.000-08:00

It was our last day at college. Everybody spoke out what they felt about these four years. Later I passed on my slam book for everybody to scribble something. Ya, I don’t believe in all that crap, but many of my classmates wanted to fill in something for me. So I didn’t wanna disappoint them. I forced myself to bring one slam book and passed it on. We had arranged for cakes and cokes. We took snaps in our lab and had fun.

During lunch, divs and I confessed our displeasure over something to ani. I expected a big explanation. She simply told us that she had read our minds right. We didn’t press her either.

That evening when I read my slam book, I realized that I had made very few good friends in these last four years. After reading ani’s slam book, I felt that neither were others very much interested in/fancied my friendship. No, I didn’t envy ani, I just felt so proud of being her best frnd.

and then our one and only manasa's bday treat. it was so funny. it reminded me of attending some bday party back in school days. like how we go to bday parties arranged at their houses in the evening... ha ha ha... miss all those parties now.. especially divs, bhavs, and nj.

Missed yams treat

2006-02-26T07:43:00.000-08:00

Today yams was giving us her bday treat. But I chose not to go. I simply hate going to dad for getting permission everytime I hafta freak out. It’s so silly. I’m so grown up and I want the freedom to go anywhere anytime without anybody wondering where I’m going or had been to. My parents won’t say no, but I just don’t feel like approaching them for permissions often. Manasa’s treat was approaching in another two days. So I decided to skip yams and attend manasa’s instead. Not that manasa’s treat is more important to me. But yams won’t make a fuss if I don’t turn up to hers unlike manasa. I didn’t even give yams an explanation. I just told her that I was too lazy to come, which is also true. She was disappointed but forgave soon.

Lazy day off

2006-02-22T07:44:00.000-08:00

Feb 22
I took today off. Even though I was feeling a lot better, it was better to take a day off when you are allowed to. Even divs had bunked but she couldn’t come to my house coz she had some other work to do too.
Siraj had sent me a huge recipe collection that he promised to send few weeks back. My mom and I were reading it. Rams came online and buzzed me just then from ani’s house that evening. But I was busy browsing through some embroidery designs online with my mom. So I couldn’t chat with her.

Feb 21

2006-02-21T07:45:00.000-08:00

I had a terrible cold and headache. I wish I had bunked college. Inspite of that I had filled a couple of my friend’s slam books.

Back to college

2006-02-20T07:47:00.000-08:00

It was back to college after a long time. I didn’t like venki taking up our last week of college life. Thankfully, my counselor had two units to share too.
I went to the post office on my way back home and collected my passport. So I didn’t hafta take the next day off to finish this job.

freaking out wid gals

2006-02-15T07:48:00.000-08:00

The next morning, as I was getting ready to meet divs, ani called me up and said she and anbu bunked, and were free to come too. So we changed plans quickly and went for a dumb movie in a popular multiplex. Five other classmates of mine had come and we six had a nice time together.
After the movie, myself and ani went with divs for a late lunch. It had been two months since we met divs, and catching up with her was a wonderful experience. We were so glad to see her.
It was so funny when divs promised to take us out to a popular icecream corner and how we roamed that entire neighbourhood giving confusing directions to the auto-richshaw guy. And after locating it finally, we landed up at a closed restaurant. Ha ha ha.. What can disappoint you more than this? So we had to chill out at to a nearby supermarket where bought ourselves ordinary chocobars.

monday again

2006-02-13T07:51:00.000-08:00

It was Monday and back to qls again. I went there with the temple kunkum and a small bottle of the tirtam. The folks out there pissed me off by asking about my draft report. I decided I am not gonna return to this damn company till I finish something in my report.
So in the night I was asking my classmates out. Even thou manas and faust agreed, I chose to go out with divs instead. We planned a lunch together. Ani and anbu had work so they couldn’t agree to our plan.

Temple trip

2006-02-12T07:51:00.000-08:00

Today I went with my family to a dozen temples. We had joined our neighbors and went on a planned trip together by hiring a van. It was a very different experience. I learnt that vaishnavite temples were little different from our shivite temples only after this trip. I got back home pretty late in the night.

Second review and lunch at yams place

2006-02-10T07:52:00.000-08:00

Today we had our second review. Ani/anbu pair was the first to present. They had no presentation ready. So it was a messy start to the review meet.
I was the second to be called to present. I had an awful time out there too. My audience had 7 lecturers with two HODs. All of them were enthusiastic to raise doubts. Finally, I felt that it was not a bad show on my part. I somehow handled them decently well and left.
That afternoon, I went to yams house. We gals had a great time together at her place. Some of the gals cooked a good lunch. Since she was in town after 1month or so there wasn’t much in her kitchen. So yams and myself went to fetch some vegetables from a near by store. Yams was looking kinda dull, and so I asked her wat was wrong. She confessed after some persuasion. I can’t blog it here, but I can say I felt very sorry for her. I later told ani about that. She too was sympathetic. I realized that sometimes friends can make life miserable too if you are not frank with them.

School alumni and College farewell

2006-01-26T01:54:00.000-08:00

There is an ‘alumni meet’ back at my school during this first week of February. My friends have been inviting and ordering me to attend it for quite some time now. I’m in touch with most of my school friends almost everyday, and even though I would love to see them again in person, I am in no mood to convince my parents and rush up 300 kms all by myself to hug them now itself. I’m not going for sure this time, but don’t know how to tell them tactfully that I won’t be coming. I don’t intend to keep them expecting me and not turn up at the last moment. That’s not fair either. All I can do now is to lay quiet for sometime and then excuse myself later.

My classmate asked me to sign her autograph book already. I was amused. I knew farewell is around the corner, but it is too early now. I had scribbled some crap in another friend’s slam book already, but now this sounds like a chore. I never believed in this filling up some crap in everybody’s book. It is meant for ‘parting’ friends. I always believe that world is such a small place, and nobody is parting anybody for good. We will continue to be friends even after leaving school and college. There is no need for getting to sentimental about these superficial farewells.

Friendship is not about spending 12 hours a day in each other’s company, but the warmth we feel when we reminiscence or meet even after 12 years and still feel that there is no thawing needed to get back to the old rhythm!

Creating my class blog

2006-01-19T08:20:00.000-08:00

Tonight, we created our class blog. Initially, I didn’t want to create it. I told sharath, sima and Richie. Sima told me that Richie would create it instead.
But tonight, I was free and so thought why bother him and created it myself in a jiffy. Richie wanted the black template. I didn’t like it at all. I wanted a more cheerful template. I found his personal blog was also in the black. I wanted to disagree with his choice. But why take chances with Richie?
He had always been very formal with me. So I can’t take him for granted. I find Richie always jovial with other gals but he is most of the time snobbish with me. So I don’t want to go beyond his hi-bye level either. I mutely accepted the black template.
I’m highly skeptical about the success of our class blog. I know its gonna be even joined by just few of us. The yahoo group itself drove me nuts.
I’m waiting for sima and sharath to join as members. I can make them administrators too and relieve myself.

Is getting upset normal?

2006-01-18T09:10:00.000-08:00

Elil lost his gold ring today. We were helping him search the lab just before lunch. But he got so upset about it. At first, when I saw the two girls nursing his bleeding hand, I thought it was an accident. Later the wash boy told us that he found broken test tubes and nobody was around to see what had really happened. We suspected that elil must have hurt himself deliberately. He got so worked up that he didn’t work after that and left early.

I don’t understand why these folks get so emotional over petty things. I hear that some of these folks used to skip lunch (often) if blasted etc. It must be tear jerking if all your hard work goes down the drain. Nevertheless, I don’t remember anything stopping me from eating or sleeping. I know many folks doing self-denial, if they fare poorly in their exams, etc. But I simply don’t understand it. May be I never got serious about my work.

How dumb can we get?

2006-01-18T09:08:00.000-08:00

Today, we wanted to know if our compound was a polar compound. None of us knew correctly how to predict it from the structure. Then we tried to answer ‘what is a polar compound and what is a non-polar compound?’ first. In an effort to answer it, we debated into other concepts. Finally, we got so muddled up and foolishly wondered ‘if polar substances dissolve in a polar solvent?’, etc. It was embarrassing that we stumbled over such simple fundamentals learnt at school level. I told myself, it is time to pull up a good school chemistry text and learn it first.

PETA stickers

2006-01-13T22:04:00.000-08:00

I badly wanted to stick a couple of peta stickers in my locker at QLS. I had to restrain myself wondering if udhaya wud b upset by that or if it ll get me into some problem. I dint want another snub from the picky ramakrishnan…
So everyday I open my locker sighing how nice it wud b with a screaming sticker on its inside….

Crazy kashmiris!

2006-01-13T08:18:00.000-08:00

i was pretty amused to know that this udhaya is a kashmiri by birth. it took me some time to digest that fact becos all along i was assuming that she was a south indian.

it is true that i had a tough time guessing her roots, first i thought she was a tamilian (seeing her dressing sense), then i wondered if she was a maloo(curly hair), etc. One wild guess was a konkani too. So i left nothing to speculation, and just asked her one day at lunch.

she told me she was from a town(from where even my college director hails from), and then studied at another southern city. everyday she had a new place added to her list of 'where u from?'. i soon lost interest and left it alone.

then suddenly, out comes a revolting revelation that she was born in kashmir. my eyes literally popped out in surprise. i told myself, forget the looks and accent, but she even thinks like a south indian. how can people adapt to new stuff this well?

i secretly wished these hindus didnt flee kashmir. it looks as if they left their land fully in the occupation of these ungrateful terrorists. their presense there wud hav added a new dimension to the problem of kashmir. its a pity, they(people like udhaya) are refugees in their own land.

i have nothing against the muslims. i dont generalise the kashmiri muslims either. but... we cant deny that these kashmiri muslims are not patriotic enough. if they want to be with pakistan why can we just deport these people there and give space to the indian kashmiris?

reminiscencing wid srijanani

2006-01-12T18:13:00.000-08:00

Jus as I was planning to log out after winding up with harini, I found srijanani online. It was tempting cos I dint hav touch with her after a really long time. After a brief chat, I jus plugged on my mic to the pc and we spoke for some time. But damn that poor signal, we got disconnected. Nevetheless, talking with janani is always like recharging ur batteries… her energy is jus contagious…

Harini’s tutorials

2006-01-12T17:12:00.000-08:00

Rams gave a small treat at chill out and I headed home in afternoon itself. back home, I met harini online. She taught me about blogging and I got very excited about it. It was because, reading her blog gave me the thrill of reading someone’s personal diary. i don’t want my frnds to read my blog ever. But nevertheless I started mine…

Back to college

2006-01-12T15:58:00.000-08:00

I went to college today. It was a pleasant surprise when I stopped an auto rickshaw early in the morning to find my junior vidya already in it. I was seeing her after some two months or so. I wished divs had come to college too. It was so incomplete without her.

Bad day

2006-01-11T22:01:00.000-08:00

I was sick with a severe headache all day. i had an blocked nose which carves for all my attention.... phew...

Yams called me at 6pm and wanted me to forward her a resume. I felt glad to get her std call. I also felt bad at being remembered when a favor was needed. I jus asked her to get me a dress when she shops which she gladly accepted to.

bored bored and bored....

2006-01-10T22:05:00.000-08:00

I am simply bored going to qls everyday and doing nothing but drag my feet there. I am simply being bugged up. I don’t know what to do, cos the folks there are too busy to be disturbed.

i jus msg'ed udhaya for taking two days off... and from her cheerful reply i understood that it makes little difference whether i go or not(work-wise)...

Jobless and yet fun

2006-01-10T09:23:00.000-08:00

Last week, Elil too spoke with our little boss regarding my project. She seems to be convinced that I have to just join them in their work and cant be let alone. I was cursing myself cos I do work only when responsibility and deadlines are given to me. Joining and doing work with others excites me very little.

i realised that i don hav much work to do here than to timepass daily. they lead a stressful life and i dint njoy disturbing them to ask about my job. i just hop cabin to cabin and hav a nice chat with everyone....

i wasnt keen to work either cos i knew my no-work days are numbered. i wanted to enjoy that now itself.