HumanRemodeling

being a tourist

2009-07-12T14:25:00.003-10:00

Today at the farmer's market there was lots of "tourists." They didn't buy any food or much of anything, they just walked around not even looking at you. Like we are dolls in the windows of a shopping mall.

People used to commercial stuff and not much anything real.

The guy next to me is a surf photographer who actually took the photos he was selling. Each photo came with a story - as he was chatting with the people looking at his photos, he was telling about it, and it was the BEST shop talk ever.
I don't think that these "tourists" even noticed or understood that.

The tourists were local people but also a lot of actual tourists. It is kinda easy to tell who doesn't live in Hawaii - they do have that "shopping mall" look and walk, they are bored and need to be entertained, they are nervous, they are in a hurry, they drive fast. That's why HI cars have stickers "slow down, this ain't the mainland". For someone from a fast big city like LA, HI is sloooooooooooooow.

Attention getting: continuing....

2009-07-12T14:04:00.004-10:00

So on Friday I experienced being able to trust the drummers enough to actually relax, be in the "spirit" mode and even collaborate with them.

On Saturday, I wasn't feeling like going to town. There was that sinking feeling - which is always a sign of resistance because something deeper is at work.

I went. While dancing, I realized that I was dancing with other women, yes, but actually quite by myself. I definitely ignored the drummers.

Most asleep women are dependent on male attention and try to be "nice" and get some attention. In dance, a lot of dancers show off in front of male drummers. The drummers often are into chasing the hottest chick. I must confess that I look down upon that. First, I dislike ass kissing in principle. Second, women vying for male attention is quite cheesy and humiliating, and also brings women down and allows men to pretend they rule the roost.

Attention is a resource. Some people are willing to compromise their own integrity in order to get the "resource". Some other people, like me, say to hell with your games, I am not playing with you.

The attitude I saw in me yesterday was exactly that: I do not need any men, and I don't care for them.

So, two extremes, both which boil down to the same thing - an unhealthy sense of self and others, leading to situations where everyone gets stuck and hurt. The women who like to flirt are trying to "bait" males with a little bit of female attention and sexual tease in order to get a lot more attention from males. A male on a flirt bait will be like a puppy begging for a bone and willing to do any trick to get it, i.e. he will be nice, he will be suuper nice, he will give you LOTS of attention. As long as the "promise" is there. When it is not - he is gone. Women (and men) who are very good at getting attention through flirting are masters of keeping others interested "just enough" and for a long time, dangling the carrot with just enough hopes or payoff so that it is worth still trying to put a lot of attention to get the carrot.
What I was doing is also not ok, it is like being at war and dissing others. My attitude is: who cares about you, you are worthless and I don't need you. Get out of my way.

The healthy sense of self is being comfortable, not needed anything from or against anyone, relating to others in a gender neutral way and based on spirit. Then if the hormones strike sometimes, it is ok to feel it and express it, but it is not for getting attention or for taking attention.

The drummers were putting a lot of effort to drum well yesterday and I didn't pay any attention to them, as if they weren't there, as if they were a tape player playing a tape, something which is not alive, has no feelings, does not need any attention, you just push a button and let it do its job and take it for granted.
Especially in dancing - I don't want anyone admiring my shaking booty. African dance is really not about that, however - there is always a little element of that in anything we do, esp. if we actually DO shake our booty. And, many dancers do make it into that, because they like male attention (or female, if the dancer is male).

It was a lot easier to relate to fellow drummers later in the drum circle, as a drummer. When we drum together, everything becomes gender neutral to me, the music is the only thing that matters.

one higher thought is more powerful than all others

2009-07-11T22:35:00.003-10:00

A Course in Miracles says, if I remember correctly, that one Higher thought is more powerful than all others.

I had that experience today. I woke up and while still laying in bed, enjoyed birds, etc. Then my mind wanted to start thinking the usual crap - it likes to rant and rave in a very angry, upset way, complain, etc.

But something else in me said: oh well, cut it. The day is so nice. I am happy. I want to think about God.

Then I thought about God. I cannot remember now what specifically I was thinking. There was something that I was sincerely trying to ponder, something very specific about God.

I could feel how my head lit up. Like there was light inside it. It became huge and lit up. My whole body became huge and lit up, and I was totally blissed out.

So - there you go. ONE THOUGHT. Just ONE THOUGHT.

women are maybe more evolved...

2009-07-11T22:23:00.002-10:00

I realized that I was irritating some males because I was disagreeing with them. I remembered my client who told me that "men don't like to be told what to do."

Heck, women too don't like being told what to do. Who says that women have smaller egos???

What women have is more control of themselves, and even a more genuine inclination to consider someone else's opinion. In short, women have been trained more along the enlightment path.

What my client said actually means: males are more immature and have a lot less control in showing their temper tantrums, likes and dislikes.

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Everyone physical on Earth is asleep. Some people very deeply, some less, and some Jesuses and Buddhas -likes are quite awake, thank you. Jesus and Buddha were probably awake 100% or very close - my educated guess. There is no way to find out while here though :)

Anyways, we all have illusions and delusions, and our minds are SO GOOD at fabricating excuses. It is pretty amazing! Lately I have been listening to a lot of minds fabricating wiseacring and justifying all kinds of things in a very slippery manner. It is AMAZING.

Today I talked with someone who smokes pot, and considers it an "herb" that helps to "set you free" and "be aware", when you are not stoned, but just "airy" (or whatever other word it was) with it.

First, if someone needs ANYTHING to be "free" then they are not free, by definition. They depend on that something. Dependence on anything external is not being free.

We need to go to God naked, no cruches, no props, nothing external, just what is inside us.

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English is easy?

2009-07-11T21:05:00.000-10:00

You think English is easy?

1) The bandage was wound around the wound.

2) The farm was used to produce produce .

3) The dump was so full that it had to refuse more refuse.

4) We must polish the Polish furniture.

5) He could lead if he would get the lead out.

6) The soldier decided to desert his dessert in the desert.

7) Since there is no time like the present, he thought it was time to present the present .

8) A bass was painted on the head of the bass drum.

9) When shot at, the dove dove into the bushes.

10) I did not object to the object.

11) The insurance was invalid for the invalid.

12) There was a row among the oarsmen about how to row

13) They were too close to the door to close it.

14) The buck does funny things when the does are present.

15) A seamstress and a sewer fell down into a sewer line.

16) To help with planting, the farmer taught his sow to sow.

17) The wind was too strong to wind the sail.

18) Upon seeing the tear in the painting I shed a tear.

19) I had to subject the subject to a series of tests.

20) How can I intimate this to my most intimate friend?

Let's face it - English is a crazy language. There is no egg in eggplant, nor ham in hamburger; neither apple nor pine in pineapple.
English muffins weren't invented in England or French fries in France .. Sweetmeats are candies while sweetbreads, which aren't sweet, are meat. We take English for granted.
But if we explore its paradoxes, we find that quicksand can work slowly, boxing rings are square and a guinea pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.

And why is it that writers write but fingers don't fing, grocers don't groce and hammers don't ham? If the plural of tooth is teeth, why isn't the plural of booth, beeth? One goose, 2 geese. So one moose, 2 meese? One index, 2 indices? Doesn't it seem crazy that you can make amends but not one amend? If you have a bunch of odds and ends and get rid of all but one of them, what do you call it?

If teachers taught, why didn't preachers praught? If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat?
Sometimes I think all the English speakers should be committed to an asylum for the verbally insane. In what language do people recite at a play and play at a recital? Ship by truck and send cargo by ship? Have noses that run and feet that smell?

How can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same, while a wise man and a wise guy are opposites? You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language in which your house can burn up as it burns down, in which you fill in a form by filling it out and in which, an alarm goes off by going on.

English was invented by people,
Not computers, and it reflects the creativity of the human race, which, of course, is not a race at all. That is why, when the stars are out, they are visible, but when the lights are out, they are invisible.

PS. - Why doesn't 'Buick' rhyme with 'quick' ?

You lovers of the English language might enjoy this .

There is a two-letter word
That perhaps has more meanings than any other two-letter word, and that is 'UP.'

It's easy to understand UP, meaning toward the sky or at the top of the list, but when we awaken in the morning, why do we wake UP ? At a meeting, why does a topic come UP ? Why do we speak UP and why are the officers UP for election and why is it UP to the secretary to write UP a report?

We call UP our friends. And we use it to brighten UP a room, polish UP the silver; we warm UP the leftovers and clean UP the kitchen. We lock UP the house and some guys fix UP the old car. At other times the little word has real special meaning. People stir UP trouble, line UP for tickets, work UP an appetite, and think UP excuses. To be dressed is one thing, but to be dressed UP is special.

And this UP is confusing: A drain must be opened UP because it is stopped UP. We open UP a store in the morning but we close it UP at night.

We seem to be pretty mixed UP about UP ! To be knowledgeable about the proper uses of UP, look the word UP in the dictionary. In a desk-sized dictionary, it takes UP almost 1/4th of the page and can add UP to about thirty definitions. If you are UP to it, you might try building UP a list of the many ways UP is used. It will take UP a lot of your time, but if you don't give UP, you may wind UP with a
Hundred or more. When it threatens to rain, we say it is clouding UP . When the sun comes out we say it is clearing UP...

When it rains, it wets the earth and often messes things UP.

When it doesn't rain for awhile, things dry UP.

One could go on and on, but I'll wrap it UP, for now my time is UP, so........it is time to shut UP!

Oh . . . one more thing:

What is the first thing you do in the morning & the last thing you do at night? U-P

duality

2009-07-11T00:43:00.004-10:00

I spoke with a Self Realization Fellowship nun when I was getting rid of Born Ignorant Hell, and I told her that I really needed to get married. I will never forget the puzzled silence on her side. She certainly didn't think that a man was necessary for life. I guess that's why she is a nun :) My path is the path of householder and marriage yoga. Although, I have been living like a nun for many years now :) :) :) My neighbors think I AM a nun LOL

Anyways, this evening, as I was dancing in the Congolese dance class, I noticed the phenomena that Gurdjieff talks about, which is increase in enthusiasm when we get attention from opposite gender. I was all tired to begin with, but then a new drummer walked in, and 3 drummers can make a lot more hoola boola than 2 drummers, and suddenly my energy level went up, esp because this 3rd drummer enjoyed looking at us dancers. And he is a very nice guy and he is "safe". I suppose that is what opposite genders do for each other - the admiration we have for the different and the need we have for the "other" that completes our half of the whole possible.

Also, there is something I noticed before in my dance classes, and that is being able to dance more easily when I get closer to the drums. (In African dance, we start far away from the drummers, then we dance and come closer, and when we get quite close, we break and go back to the start line).
How much is it the drums and how much is the drummers themselves, who are typically male?

I suspect there is probably both factors. What dawned on me this evening is that I was a lot more female around male drummers. Somehow them being different is what brought out from me things that otherwise cannot be brought out. Very interesting observation.

Basically, it is not possible to be light unless there is presence of darkness. It is not possible to be feminine unless there is masculine. I AM feminine but I don't even know it if I am alone. There is nothing to compare myself to. When I am around (nice, safe) guys, then I become aware of my feminine side. Otherwise it is like a ray of light on a sunny day - it is there but invisible.

Another thing that also dawned on me this evening is my background - I actually come from a very strong culture and strong family, and I am a "child from a good house" and it shows. I have something to fall onto, I have been taught discipline and good manners and "doing things the right way", and I have a history that is normal. No drugs, or dramas, no religious dogma, or whatever, only normal human stuff, normal human life, very common sense. I am lucky! Very lucky.

I also realized how the drum/dance community must have had difficulty with me because I really look and behave rather lame. Nothing flashy, etc. (I am beautiful but I don't strut it, quite the opposite ... ) I am not into clothes and looking pretty, so what I wear must be really ticking them off. I am the kind that has tags showing, pants falling below butt line, old clothes, holes, hair standing up, etc. I really should pay more attention to what I wear. I have been a loner all my life and am not socially very skilled (nor interested nor enthused) in environments like theirs, which are completely socially "showy". I am not socially showy at all. I am a sociable introvert.

3-D street paintings

2009-07-10T10:52:00.001-10:00

http://users.skynet.be/J.Beever/pave.htm

what is expected of a relationship; being in the moment

2009-07-09T22:13:00.004-10:00

It took me about 2 days of intense musing on the subject, because Born Ignorant date was hell - that religion should be renamed Born Again Hell, or Born Again in Hell, or something like that. And I don't see any other good candidates on the horizon. They all want something for nothing.

They all want something for nothing because the deal is:

I will continue living my life and just incorporate YOU, because you are nice to me and you will take care of me.
So I don't have to give up my childish immature selfish habits, like ___ fill in the blanks_____ (hints: Born Ignorant dogma, womanizing, drugs, alcohol, working all the time, never spending time with you, not talking to you, making you feel stupid, etc etc.)
And we shall be happy ever after! I will get to do what I want, AND I will have good care on top. Awesome! I love you!

Well, even a dog could hardly accept that. Even dogs have needs, like walks, food, bath, and lots of company.

Human partners have even more needs. (and children and families and communities, for that matter). Not to mention the marriage yoga: a human partner is supposed to be a partner for spiritual growth.

So, unless one is willing and able to Grow, why bother with a relationship. To be able to sleep with someone? But then where does it end - both parties get bored and eventually split. To have someone support you? That sucks.

The case of Born Ignorant is a very good illustrative case of an immature asleep person. Every immature, selfish person who cannot relate does the same thing. The story is the same for womanizers, chemical addicts, workaholics, absent ones, moody ones, ... The story goes like this:

Phase 1: He lies about his beliefs, to be able to get the care he wanted;
Phase 2: he gets the care, and he is unwilling to change his limiting beliefs.
Phase 3: When cornered, he leaves - to find another victim who will finance his habits.

Phase 1 is the courting stage, where he is "nice" and the victim is usually blinded by their own desires - for love, company, sex, partnership, etc etc. This is the rosey phase with great potential for getting stuck by making kids or having joint finances.

Phase 2 is the life after the courting. The caretaker is still working hard in caretaking, hoping that the addict will somehow "change."
This phase is such a good deal - he gets to have his cake and eat it too. The other person has to grow, and he stays where he is at, comfortably. In short, he just found someone to FINANCE HIS ADDICTIONS. To take care of him and enable him to keep on doing more of the same.
So, in case of Born Ignorant, he can proudly parade around carrying his Bible, never forgiving, never giving, never showing any trace of love, just TALKING TALKING TALKING about it and never doing any of it, and his partner must do all the Inner Work of True Christiantity and shower all the love and care on him in actual specific terms.
See the parallels? A womanizer gets to run around and come home for a nice meal and ready bed, a drug addict has someone to drive him home when drunk, a workaholic has someone at home to clean the house and watch the kids, etc.

(AND on top of it, he tries to convert his caretaker. My goodness, that is stupidity. It leads to losing the care! The care is contingent precisely on the fact that the caretaker is a normal human being able and willing to give, share and love. Once they go off the deep end too, there is no more giving. It is like a womanizer converting his caretaker into running around too, or a drug addict hooking someone on drugs. Bye bye all the comforts to the leach.)

During courting and caretaking stages, the addict lies about his beliefs and tries to hide them. He also lies about "loving" his caretaker. As long as he is taken care of unconditionally and without any obligations, he is "in love" and wants more.
Phase 3 is when the addict becomes suspect, because his behavior finally drives the caretaker insane and some questions are raised.
As soon as something is expected of him, he is not in love anymore. Any threat of him having to give something of himself immediately dries up his enthusiasm, and he sulks, accuses, stabs, bails.
Eventually the caretaker will get fed up and will not try to cajole the sulky kid, and then the sulky kid will leave on his own. Some leave quietly, some steal whatever they can and stab you on the way out.

And of course, as every addict will do, no addictions are ever given up.
Womanizer wants women who will be fine with his escapades, and hate OTHER WOMEN that he is escapading with, not him. He will always the darling one and off the hook. Other women are guilty, not him. He sets up women against each other and sets himself as a prize to be gotten at any cost. Drug addict wants someone who will drive him home when he is drunk and stoned and not be grossed out by all of it and never mind that the drunk one is totally out of it and definitely totally out of being able to relate to his "loved one". Born Ignorant wants someone who will read the Bible with him and never question any of that insane reality of some partial god who is there to whack you or praise you if you are "bad" or "good" - and as long as we TALK "good" we are fine regardless of what we are actually DOING. A partner who will participate in that hypocrisy. Born Ignorants are also very afraid of ending up in hell, which is very suspicious - they must have been there already to be able to be so afraid on such visceral level. Their whole religion is hell. And creates hell for anyone and anything that comes in contact with it. Like a poison. I have never seen anything so evil so subtle and so slimey that just sucks life out of a person.

Phase 4 is just the repeat of the cycle, going back to Phase 1 with another victim. How do they spot their victims? I don't know! How do they figure out: this one will take care of me and not ask any questions, at least for a while until I get fat again.

So every one of these selfish people will try to keep and justify at any cost his addiction. Their addiction is just a smokescreen to allow them to continue in the same vein, selfish and immature, closed off. They DO NOT FEEL. They cannot feel. They don't want relationship. They want a nanny, a nurse, a caretaker.

So, as soon as their addiction is on the agenda, they will stab and bail. And forget very quickly.

Born Ignorant was an amazing case because his dogma is such that he is brainwashed to forget _super quickly. He said he had a difficult time over ONE weekend, then got into charitable events on Monday after, and was a happy proud productive christian ever since. This comes from a man who for 2 years claimed he loved me more than anything. Some weeks after that difficult weekend, he saw nude Jennifer Aniston on yahoo news, and he thought about it while driving, which eventually made him think of me for about 5 minutes, but then he got out the car and forgot all about me. That's the power of Born Ignorant christianity and any addiction - it completely kills any sense of life. This man is completely in the Matrix, completely asleep, and dreaming of himself as someone grand and also someone completely "bad" at the same time. All addictions are driven by a deep sense of insecurity and falsity. If he felt genuinely and deeply confident in his place in Life as a Human Being, he could never be an addict. Addiction is just to give him that smokescreen, that fake mask of being "good enough." He is completely delusional.

All addicts are delusional and trying to escape reality by feeding off something external, by attaching to something external. They all want to be high. The chemical addict does it by taking chemicals. Womanizer does it by praying on the attention he gets, by being tickled by sexual innuendos. Born Ignorant imagines himself as a knight in the schining armor.

They are just avoiding FEELING and BEING IN THE MOMENT, RAW MOMENT. With all that it is. Boring, hard, mundane, tough, pretty, relaxing, exilirating, ... whatever. Any addict picks just the "fun" parts on the "up" side, of being special and powerful and having ONLY pleasure. But those are not real moments. Those are our mind interpretations of real moments. Real moments are raw. They are deep. They are very concrete and very transforming.

Women are asleep as much as men are, however, women are a little more sensitive and aware beings in general, so the blame is on them: Women have made a tremendous mistake in raising such immature men (and women). Every mother who could not teach her sons to Love and Give is a failure as a mother. Every woman who accepted such morons for lovers, husbands and fathers of their children is a moron too, helping to propagate this immaturity and madness. Sex and also money issues is a great blinder and makes people do stupid things. Some women choose to attach because they don't have financial independence. That's immature woman who does that, afraid/lazy to go out into the world and make it her own. Many women become enslaved because they are too quick to have sex and thus children, and then they are tied. However - as my brother said: "we will raise the kid and maybe one day tell him who the father is."

My letter to the President

2009-07-09T17:02:00.002-10:00

WELL THERE ARE SO MANY DANGERS TO HUMANS TODAY - IF WE DON'T DIE FROM POLLUTION, GLOBAL WARMING, GMO FOOD, MANDATORY VACCINES THAT KILL AND INJURE, ETC ETC ETC - ALL THE THINGS THAT YOU GUYS *** SUPPORT ***

WELL EVEN IF WE AVOID ANY OF THOSE, THERE ARE STILL BOZOS THAT LIKE TO EXPERIMENT WITH NUCLEAR STUFF AND DESTROY OUR ENVIRONMENT AND HUMANS THAT WAY. PLUS THERE CAN STILL BE SOME BOZO THAT PRESSES THE RED BUTTON AND NUKES THE WORLD.

ALSO, ALL THAT NUCLEAR STUFF - EVEN IF UNUSED - LEACHES INTO OUR WATER AND LAND AND AIR SO WE ARE STUCK PAYING FOR IT WITH OUR LIVES AND HEALTH AND WORRYING THAT SOMEONE WILL BREAK IN AND MAKE A REEEEEAAAALY BIG MESS

YOU GUYS ARE FOOLING AROUND WITH IT AS IF IT WERE KIDS PLAY. IT IS NOT KIDS PLAY, IT IS REAL. IT IS KILLING ALL OF US ALREADY. ALL THAT CANCER, IMMUNE DISEASES, ETC ETC IT IS ALL BECAUSE OF WHAT SOMEONE LIKE YOU DID TO THE ENVIRONMENT. (didn't say it: and millions of asleep, mechanical people blindly followed)

STOP IT, ASAP.

is there "the best" therapist?

2009-07-09T14:00:00.001-10:00

Comment: The styles that ppl like are as varied as the individuals. If someone gains clients by relaxation massage without fixing their issues, then who are we to say he's rubbing ppl the wrong way.

Milica: Thank you for helping me say this more clearly.

Yes, we don't say which is better therapist. That's exactly how I feel. Every person needs to work with exactly the therapist they are comfortable with. Because I am really involved in healing practice, if I work on someone, their life will change. Not everyone wants change and a healing experience. That's their decision. I am available to those who want it.

As for deep bruising massage vs light: sometimes you need needle nose pliers for the job, sometimes you need a hammer. One is not better than the other, they just accomplish different things. It really depends on what the client needs, what works for them in particular.
Personal rapport and trust the clients establishes with the therapist is #1. Then the therapist must have enough skill to actually repair and help.

The key is the fine line of matching the "personal feeling" AND skill set between therapist and client.

So imo there is no "best" therapist for everyone, there is "the best therapist FOR ME, AS I AM NOW." A client is a being on a certain level of consciousness and goes to a therapist who has something to offer to them, whatever the client deems valuable. Some people will go for a happy ending massage, some for feel good or beat-me-up massage, some for a nice chat with someone nice, some for deep transformative work. People pick what they want.

I am a healer, my job is to challenge as well as encourage and pamper people. There is no change without some challenge. I am in the "deep transformative work" category which also feels good and relaxes. That's the jist of lomilomi practice - nothing is separate, it is all related.

My issue is showing dislike for anything less than very deep. In some ways it is less, but in God's kingdom there is room for everything and a healer must be patient and considerate and keep on educating. If Jesus or Buddha came down here and started feeling like it is lesser - which it IS - they would have never been able to do what they did. The key is to stay disattached and disidentified and compassionate towards everything, including ourselves, and keep on working for God. I am trying :)

Matrix

2009-07-08T12:56:00.004-10:00

Ok, life on Earth is a little crazy and everyone on Earth is crazy in their own way. So everyone tries to make sense out of this mess and live a life that gives them some meaning, some assurance, some comfort. Everyone wants to sleep peacefully at night and not be bothered with anything unpleasant. What an asleep person will do is try to BELONG to something, to identify with something that will "save them".

Human mind wants to identify, to latch itself to something "powerful" that gives security and pleasure and power and specialness, to ATTACH.

So, some will find solace in their religion (e.g. because they are expecting Jesus to save, i.e. bail them out); some feel secure because they have lots of money; some find comfort in going out partying and having fun and being popular; some find comfort in drugs, alcohol, whatever chemical will take them out of here and to a "nicer" place; some find comfort in belonging to a family, to a country, to whatever that makes them feel secure and special; some find comfort in knowing that they are in charge and controlling their environment;

and so on.

So, being of the crazy kind that seeks to Look Within and Without and find the Truth is definitely not the kind that gives one comfort and security. If anything, it removes all comfort and security - in the external. That's the glitch. The external gives that false security.

The external is the Truman show, the nice happy life Truman leads thinking that is it.

The external is the Matrix - when the traitor character says to the Rulers: get me back into Matrix and make me dream of something really nice, e.g. I am a famous actor.

Being outside of the Matrix relies on comfort and security of something very slippery, unpredictable, mysterious, incomprehensible, impossible to put a finger on. Yet that is the only thing there is. And the only thing that gives one true comfort and security, not just a dream, an illusion of the real thing.

Hm, how does one hook up with that Unseen that actually runs this show, the only One Who Knows?

NO MORE GMO - only organic local food

2009-07-08T12:55:00.003-10:00

GMOs behind forced vaccinations:

http://www.infowars.com/canadian-doctor-h1n1-vaccination-a-eugenics-weapon-for-mass-extermination/

Argentina bank to close because of "epidemics"
http://www.prisonplanet.com/argentinas-banks-to-shut-friday-as-swine-flu-measure-report.html

How to grow our own good food:

http://sweetwater-organic.com/blog/

fromCealo

2009-07-06T15:02:00.001-10:00

Subject: June Full Moon Meditation Message from His Holiness Gayuna Sundima Cealo
Date: Jul 6, 2009 2:46 PM

Go beyond the flow of time to be in a place of tranquility
without being controlled by the consciousness or emotions,
and without considering gain or loss.

Now this time is here for your heart.
Be away from all the causes that might affect your heart.
Just be alone with your self and your heart for the best meditation.

Gayuna Sundima

God as matchmaker

2009-07-06T13:14:00.002-10:00

Just some comments which I am putting into my blog:

As I am preparing to go into a Vision Quest again, the last VQ comes to mind, year 2005, where God made me look through all my relationships, and then I had to promise that I will go out and at least talk to men, and find my mate. Back then, I was about 12 yrs old, badly divorced and then freshly broken up, very hurt, and didn't talk to anything male between ages 25 and 50. Back then, I was really kicking about my new instructions and tried to get out of it, which led to many comical events. It was clearly a wickedly planned setup by Higher Forces. Even in the midst of it, it was clearly hilarious and there was nothing I could do, the events rolled in such a way that even movies seldom have such plot. Other instructions I got was "more fun and more discipline" and I was sent to play drums. Eventually I decided to be a little more compliant and reluctantly went on a date in 2007 just for the heck of it with someone I didn't even like at first but grew to appreciate a lot, which ended recently (and disastrously because as usual I was procrastinating until it was too late - just like VQ was warning me).

Right now, the instructions from the last VQ are very very clear, I am painfully aware of what they were trying to say, and I am willing to follow the instructions and find that mate that I am supposed to have. Where to look? Having landed on Earth as a complete alien, I am going over my experiences and strategizing where to look next.

I have met a lot of earthlings that totally blew my mind because they are obviously from a different planet. Someone recently asked me why I didn't "try out" dating someone else and I was so dumbfounded by a question that I didn't know what to answer.

If someone just stares at my butt at an event and then ignores me and flirts with others, if someone just hangs out but never speaks to me and talks with me, is that a sufficient clue for me to "try them out" as a date???

I don't think so. First, if the person never approached me, never courted me for real, and in particular, never asked me out - what is there to respond to? They are simply waiting for me to chase them, cater to them and be responsible for everything. No thanks. They are not risking anything of themselves and thus are not serious for sure. Also, they are likely a lazy coward. And, most importantly, they are likely estimating that they have no chance, so they won't even try. If they are estimating they have no chance, they probably have a good reason for it (e.g. I do drugs and she doesn't like that), so it *IS* better that they are not even trying.
They can be a friend if they really were interested in me as a person. But if they are not approaching me to talk with me and hang out with me, then they are not interested in me as a person, they are most likely interested just in sex. So they say: ok, let me give some weak signals, and if she is so crazy to go for it and start chasing me down, great, otherwise I am not going to work too hard on this. IF SHE FALLS INTO MY LAP, WONDERFUL, OTHERWISE I DO NOT CARE. Well, I don't care either.

Second, they don't want a relationship, they want - whatever it is, it is not a partnership based on communication, talking, spending time together, enjoying each other's company, etc. In my experience, what they want is just some sex. Very young males who are into still immature and into hormones try such approaches. My favorite is when a 25-yr old tried me on about 6 years ago, by passing close by me with his shirt off. Yes he is very good looking, muscular and nice, well respected, famous guy and I noticed a lot of younger ladies chasing him. Was I supposed to get swooned and jump on him too? I am way older and thus wiser :) I have done those things already in my wild youth and I know where it leads - nowhere. Unless a guy is there WITH me and willing to stand by me no matter what, he is a wannabe and not serious. A guy has to be MATURE enough to understand what a relationship is.

The Born Again that I dated last actually knew this. He was a mature person, also a divorced father of two grown kids, and he knew what it means to stand by a woman, and he did put effort into making it happen. That was his definite and clear plus. An adult, mature male knows what he wants and he goes for it, he makes it happen, and he stands responsible. He didn't have problems stating his feeling and intent and saying "I love you" and he enjoyed hanging out in simple or deep things, was dedicated, and was willing to talk things over. We were good friends and had great time together although it was long distance and we didn't see each other often and slept together only maybe a couple of times at the very end. (It was me, I jumped on him. If we both say "I love you" and we mean it after 2 years of spending time together, I feel entitled to jump. But Born Agains are impotent with fear of God, they are incapable of Love.) We were able to Transcend a lot of issues for both of us, which was immensely productive.

The thing he didn't understand is that a relationship is based on honesty, and he was hiding his Born Again stuff because he knew I didn't like it. It is like hiding a drug habit.
This man was already married to his Born Ignorant dogma and trying to convert me. That is dishonest and delusional, and also: no real woman wants to be second to anything but God. This man's "I love you" was very cheap and very conditional - "if you are exactly what I want from you and you do as I say, I love you, otherwise I don't."

Relationship is something that comes from God, and God wants both people to grow and that's why he puts them together. And, God is something very Large and requires stepping forth, all the time. There is no drawing back - unless you want to leave the relationship for good. There has to be forgiveness as well as discipline. A Born Again has to be willing to move on beyond his limited ideas of Universe and Open to Something Larger. Otherwise - leave. Which he finally understood and left.
The test of the relationship is when two people have to spend time together in mundane tasks beyond just having fun. Kindness, attention, forgiveness, care, all that comes out when it comes to solving problems together and then the TRUTH comes out.
"I love you" has no "but" in it. If a person is committed, they have to step forth and Work to overcome whatever it is that the relationship is showing is the area to Work on. (That's why it is important to match people properly. Most people are mismatched because they got together too quickly to jump into the sack asap without thinking of consequences. Consequences are very dear and long term - we are karmicaly connected to all who we slept with.)
Also, anything that stands in the way of personal growth and transformation is totally counter any relationship. Relationships are meant as spiritual practice where two people help each other grow. Thus, by definition, the relationship is based on Inner Work and Transformation. If that is lacking, there is no relationship. If one person is following any dogma of any kind, and is refusing to Open and Grow, then there can be no true relationship.

The dogma and being closed can come in so many ways... Guys who have chemical dependencies, guys who run around, guys who work 100hrs per week without you, guys who are insisting on "having their own space and doing their own thing" etc etc - all guys who are INTO THEMSELF and definitely not into a relationship. All those ways to push someone out of their life and to keep doing whatever they please. Trying to push it on someone else is selfish. A guy on drugs should seek only those on drugs and/or tolerant enablers. A womanizer should seek other loose and loose-tolerant people. A Born Again should seek only another similarly brainwashed person to read Bible with. And so on.

So, any "relationship" is based on the common spiritual beliefs. Two people getting together for a short sex stint are on the same level, a low level. A true relationship is based on the high standards of both parties putting effort into Inner Work and growth and demonstrating love and care to each other at each step. That requires a lot of work, committment, and self responsibility. Not everyone is willing and able to participate in something like that. It requires Feeling. It can hurt. It requires Inner Work. That definitely hurts.

Trying to mismatch people on different levels is only detrimental to both. Dating a Born Again was experience straight from hell. A religios fanatic has no shame in trying to protect his own ass from his perceived "wrath of God" and he will stab you as soon as he thinks his ensured spot in heaven is at stake. Flirting with a womanizer is extremely humiliating, nausiating, and demeaning, I did it once and it made me feel so violated and negated, it is violence in a very slimey manner. Even asking God the question: can it be that this someone who is chemically dependent is a possible candidate??? brought me nightmares. Intellectual discussions with so-called "intellectuals" are just fancy cover-ups for the same story of "I am going to do what I want."

Is it possible that all these people really do not know what they are doing? Yes, it is. We are all asleep. There are women and men who do those things because there are enough men and women who do the same things so nobody ever learns, they just keep on doing the same thing. The chemically dependent gets gifts from his girlfriends and asks them if it is smokable or drinkable. The womanizers have baits for attention getting and they make sure to put the lures out. The Born Again was a total hit in his BIBLE-STUDY GROUP FOR SINGLES. Hm, a bunch of singles coming together to study the Bible - I wonder where their attention is. What a riot of a church. (To be honest, this person at least had common sense to ask to be removed from the singles group, because he really wanted to just study.)

And so on. Those Who Are Trying To Wake up are a little more rare to find.

Where does one find Those Who Are Trying To Wake Up? Hm! Someone like that has a dedicated spiritual practice in some form, and is closely related to God. Some more likely places are some organizations, like "protecting native species" or "clean up land" or some other higher level causes like that. Meditation groups. Spiritual groups. Often, Native people with nice families. I noticed that some West African djelis are like it.

God arranges everything so this will be arranged too, just like everything else. Since there are no matchmakers these days who will bring potential husbands to me, I need to help out by putting myself up front into situations where I need to be, e.g. I need to go out and have myself accessible, and then be sensible enough to recognize The Right Guy. Hm, where.....

Friend: yeah where to meet like minded people who want a higher experience is good question. If I knew I would go there. This is a prison planet, heaven here is a state of mind.

Milica: easy! Go to Gurdjieff group meetings, Unity Church, Honolulu, Tuesdays 6:30-7:30. http://www.gurdjieff.org/
Unfortunately, there are no eligible guys for me personally there. However, that's a group of people who want a higher experience and it is IMMENSELY useful.
I would even dare say that some spiritual practice like that is a prerequisite for any relationship.

Young Living rocks

2009-07-05T21:46:00.003-10:00

I wanted to do colon cleanse with angelfarms.com, because it is a good thing to do, we all need to do it occassionally, and because the owner looks very radiant. Well, 10 days of colon cleanse retreat on Big Island in a place famous for "miraculous results" is $3600 + lodging. Oops!

So I decided to use Young Living recepie "cleanse colon, then liver" - their program is on their web site, youngliving.com. So, first "comfort tone" pills for large intenstine cleansing, since I already had them in the cupboard. That worked very well.

Then I started taking Young Living "juva tone" for toning the liver, since I already had them in the cupboard, and the results were so immediate and so good - my skin got soft, I wake up rested, a few gray hairs that crept up in the last months, when I worked too hard and was exausted, are gone. And all in a matter of a days.

So, check out Young Living youngliving.com. I find them to be the best essential oils. The pills also work well, the oils are in them. The pills I used were even slightly expired, which was actually better for me, my stomach didn't complain. Usually their pills are way too strong and I take them with food.

Seems like the pills work very well only if we do the inner work to resolve whatever it is. I never got such immediate positive results before.

Yahoo PineHill group in health has lots of good posts on Young Living aromatherapy.

http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/PineHillGroup

Beauty is all around me....

2009-07-04T21:16:00.003-10:00

I walk in beauty
Beauty is before me
Beauty is behind me
above and below

Navaho song

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very appropriate - swimming in warm salty dense powerful moving Ocean while watching the sunset over the far horizon, playing drums looking at the blue and silver and green shades of Haleiwa hills and sky and clouds over them, full moon rising, it is AH SO BEAUTIFUL.

Appreciating the beauty came a lot more easier after some good fresh local food, a nice afternoon nap, rest, and liver toning herbals from Young Living. My skin also improved with the liver herbs. And, last but not least, the quiet nights with crickets and Ocean sounds, allowing one to sleep deeply and rest.

Finding a way to include resistance

2009-07-01T23:10:00.001-10:00

Experiencing a certain "sinking" feeling - fragility of humanness, need for food, shelter, other people's help, etc. Trying to reconcile the stark reality full of problems with the "dancing lights" behind everything.

Question: how do we deal with our own resistance?
"As we move closer to these moments of bearing witness to ourselves impartially, the conditions of life and especially of one aspect of our personality oppose this movement. We begin to encounter resistance, which sometimes manifests itself as this "sinking" you speak of. It's a sign that something genuine is at work, and from that we may take courage. We need to find a way to include the resistance, because only then will we be able to see the truth."

I like, I don't like: seeing clearly

2009-06-28T21:55:00.003-10:00

First I was thinking about my conversation with the Born Again Ignorant practitioner from my dance class. I actually went on a date with another Born Ignorant, so I am very familiar what that brand of religious dogma. He was claiming he was in love with me and would give "anything he owns just to have me", he hang around for 2 years and wanted to marry me and move to Hawaii, but as soon as we touched into his religion (which is a huge issue because he TALKS about everything oh so high but never DOES it nor feel it) - well, as soon we questioned that wanna-be christianity, he left in a jiffy, and claimed he totally forgot me in TWO DAYS. That's a big switch, isn't it? Plus, he was completely high because he acted like a "good christian" and he strutted around proudly telling people that "he is a christian."

If your religion can make you forget someone over a weekend because you have to stay a good "christian", then what kind of "religion" is it? I say it is the worst case of dogma and brainwashing and it forbids you to feel and to be honest with yourself. It is amazing that an adult human being would fall for that kind of brainwashing. They are completely addicted. Also, what kind of "human being" can believe in something like that? Only someone very very low on the evolution level.

Finally those dots got connected in my head and the whole case is clear. If this person can finally see what his "religion" is doing to him, perhaps there is some hope for his salvation.

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As I was driving to Honolulu on a beautiful Saturday morning, I was noticing car "logos". Am not sure how it is called in English :) You know, the little "badge" that shows car manufacturer. Honda's logo looks like H, Ford says "Ford", BMW has a circle with black and blue squares, Mercedes has a tri-fork in a circle, Toyota has a symbol, Lexus looks like Nike-like shaped "L" in a circle, etc.

And so: all those brand names are prominently displayed on the back of the car. Interesting. People like branding. Furthermore, humans like brand prominently displayed - so everyone can see you are wearing LaCosta or Ralf Lauren or whatever the brands are these days.

Keeping up with the Joneses and strutting your brand around is a part of owning the car, for majority of the people, otherwise those little logos won't be so prettily displayed.

Just like people put tatoos on top of their butt. I was thinking how car manufacturers and tatoos are related :) Humans got to like that kind of display. It is interesting what corporate advertising can get people used to.

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Then, as I was driving and looking around and noticing some houses I have never seen before although I have driven that road for years, I realized a big thing:

my mind was just resting on various "objects" and *** I NEVER REALLY SAW THEM ***. The only thing that happened as my eyes rested on an object was my reaction: I LIKE IT or I DO NOT LIKE IT. I never really saw the thing I was looking at!!!

So, looking without any preferences, I was actually able to SEE houses, gardens, details that I have never noticed before.

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That way of thinking was very fruitful because I started looking like that into internal things in my life, and was able to let go of an old enemy. Being of competitive nature, I love to "get even" and I can be very revengeful even after a long time, however it costs me too much to carry that around. Also, I already "won". I got what I wanted way back then anyways, I have proven a long time ago that my case was legit. (The person was making fun of me and bullying me. I woved that I was going to make them eat it. They did - not because I did anything to them, but because I became "popular" so their opinion that I was lame was just publicly refuted.) I just let it go. It is actually very simple to let things go.

From my personal experience, it seems to be easy to let things go when we are sure in ourselves, that our case is "legit." Then we don't depend on any opinions or approval of others.

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Now I need to work on letting go of this Born Impotent ex-date. A part of me loves to snivel about how terrible experience that was. Sure it was. That was one of the worst dates I ever had, because there was some good parts about it and then there was the totally evil presence of that religious brain sucker. I was dating an addict. Another part of me is completely happy he is gone, understands his complete spiritual and life impotence due to this addiction of his, and feels forgiving and compassionate and wishes him well. If this experience doesn't help him see it, nothing will. He "loved" someone so much and forgot them in 2 days because his religion mandated so. Wow.

For me, the lesson is to trust myself more. I kinda knew this, I felt it, and I should have not interacted with him. Interacting with shit only can make you dirty and smelly and feeling like throwing up. Thus: avoid shit. As simple as that. As soon as it smells, run.

We learn as we go. I am very good with following the rule above with things I am familiar with, for example I won't go out with a womanizer or someone with chemical addictions, because I KNOW for sure how detrimental they are. I just flirted briefly with a womanizer once and then he did his number with someone else and even that little was a very nausiating scary experience, a clear violation of any human dignity. Plus, he must be an STD case. Another guy who smokes pot and gets drunk (yet has a job and a functional life) was after me, and he is nice but no thanks! Two times as I even briefly thought about "hm, is he it???" I had nightmares about drugs, which I never do, and it is clear that any closer dealing with him would be extremely dangerous. He would make anyone feel very trashy. When drugs take over, he is gone, and in a very bad way. He would always make any woman feel like a very unimportant second thing in his life.

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So, that's all very interesting stuff, being able to SEE CLEARLY, without any "I LIKE THIS" or "I DISLIKE THIS."

wisdom from oldies

2009-06-25T23:07:00.001-10:00

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your
friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what
their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie.
Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ''In five
years, will this matter?".
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything.Give time, time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or
didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day.Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's,we'd grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

Who knows us?

2009-06-25T12:36:00.003-10:00

M: How well do you know me? Questions include: Which of these movies best reflects my personality? What time am I usually in bed by? What is my middle name? How many times have I traveled out of the country?

Milica: Hey M, is there anything that you don't know that other people do know about you? Some new insights....

M: that's an interesting point you raise, but how would I create an fb quiz to yield those new insights ;) ?

Milica: Well, my point was that we often have idealized images about ourselves, i.e. we can know less about ourselves than other people see in us. So, *I* might think that the movie that represents me is XYZ but in reality, others see me (because I am truly like it!) as ABC. XYZ can be (a lot) better or worse than ABC :) I might think I am a moron but I am kind and considerate, or I might think I am a super hero but am actually selfish and arrogant.

Also, my point was that trivia questions like: what is my favorite movie? really do not tell us if someone Knows us, or even more, Cares to Know us.
Someone who truly knows us and Cares to know us is someone who knows how many spoons of sugar we take in our coffee and serves us that, who knows the note that makes our eyes schine the most, and what we are like when baby wakes us at 2am. And a lot more, it is difficult to put in words.

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Also, the best way to find out if someone knows us and cares about us is to take them to a difficult situation and observe. Simple things: do they care to know how many spoons to put into our coffee? Family dinners, business receptions, are all good tests. I once carpooled in a car with a driver under influence and needed a ride back with someone sane. I asked a prospective suitor, but he was in a rush to go somewhere else and never even said a "sorry" about my situation. So much for that moron, he will never take time to know me. Another one I asked to come with me to the most important activity I do, meditation group. He never did. So he stands no chance of ever knowing me.

And so on. Mothers usually know us the best :) At least mine is super accurate :) "Ok you ditched that guy, he WAS a moron. .... But: were you a little too strict?"

Oh yes, watch "Groundhog day". At one point he knew all about her because he was hunting her. There is a happy end because the "quiz" became a lot deeper.

what is more "important" - truth or memory

2009-06-25T12:02:00.004-10:00

Q: what is more "important" - truth or memory?

Milica: Depending what you wan to be: an asleep or an awake person? Also, the "truth" is different for each one of us, depending on our own state of consciousness. WHEN A PICKPOCKET MEETS THE SAINT, HE SEES ONLY THE POCKETS. Read Kahlil Gibran's book on views of Jesus. Some saw him (truely!) as criminal, some as a lunatic, some as a saint. The "truth" we see is in accordance what we are like ourselves.

God is the only one who knows The Truth. Saints and other awake objective, neutral people close to God can see more of The Truth than an asleep unaware person who is only capable of seeing their own little view of the world.

Also, The Truth can be contraversial and contradictory. Probably some remember Hitler as a nice guy, because he *was* nice to them for a second or more they met him and they never knew of his killing side. I know such people, who were always nice to me, and terrible to others. Milarepa, a Buddhist saint, was a criminal before he started spiritual practice, and even when he started, he tried to cheat and get out of it a lot and he was a nuisance. Eventually he reached enlightment.

So, Milarepa was a "bad person" before he reached enlightment. So who can tell what is the Truth and what is memory about Milarepa? The people he hurt or the people he saved?

So, it is very very complicated, and to see the Whole Truth is something only an evolved person can See. The more evolved we are, the more we will See. The less evolved, the less we see, we will see only the pockets.

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Yogananda shares how to get there: "be kind to all and then you will know the mysteries of the mind. It is only when you become kind that God will give you His Power."

Being kind doesn't mean faking it or thinking it :) It means truly feeling it and acting it. That is difficult and possible, with a lot of Inner Work.

GMO Madness

2009-06-25T11:50:00.005-10:00

GMO Madness

NO MO GMO.
That stuff is dangerous!!! GMO stuff is in all junk food.
******Mice and other animals refuse to eat it.******
When force fed it, it caused mice to become depressed, get aggressive, not sleep, become fearful and paranoid, even die.

http://www.organicconsumers.org/articles/article_14507.cfm

This has a lot of good info on EVERYTHING you need to know about GMOs:

http://todayyesterdayandtomorrow.wordpress.com/genetically-modified-food/seeds-of-deception/seeds-of-deception/

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I agree totally! This GMO stuff is really scary and people do not realize the damage being done physically to our health and that the plants once the pollen escapes from the GMO will never be the same. The plant DNA is what we have evolved with for millions of years and some company thinks that they can change that and not negatively affect the planet or our health. This is not going to be pretty. I really think the demise of the planet is well underway.

Goats milk is what I have read before for a healthier milk. I am sure there are websites about naturally feeding a baby.
I will pass on anything I can find in that respect.

I too think it is criminal what people are feeding and injecting into their children and selves.
Aloha no,
R

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So what is a good infant formula?
I looked at the organic web sites and some look better than others.

I wonder how to find a good naturopath too..

What people are feeding babies is completely scarey. They are feeding them regular infant formula, which is full of GMO stuff and that stuff causes problems!!!! serious problems!!!! did you see those reports when Winsconsin school kids fed mice with it. The mice could not sleep and became very aggressive, fearful, sick, some died, some committed suicide, some killed other mice.

It is scarey what is happening to this planet!!!! IT IS COMPLETELY SCAREY.

Congolese music

2009-06-24T12:31:00.001-10:00

Congolesecamp.org has posted some youtube videos of the drummers and dancers - yay!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iwAMo0hw6fg Drummers dancing while drumming -
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hchA2hNORzM Chrysogone dancining - an excellent intro to Congolese dance - the guy dancing is over 42, and just look at him!!! If you want to be in such shape, start dancing now!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WsQ5JRV6Zlk dancer and drummer (Chrysogone and Hyacinte) dancing together, more dancers

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lEVxkFrWxyM Chrysogone dancing at Maui 2008
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_95t3h13nJA Chrysogone dancing a story

IMPORTANCE OF NUTRITION AS BASIC BUILDING BLOCK

2009-06-24T12:27:00.004-10:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yPqqP0u3a4s
Nomads in the desert going to get water.

Two new babies are born in the USA and have issues, crying. They are fed formula. What is in the formula? GMO corn and soy and who knows what else. These kids are supposedly getting the nutrition but what kind and also what junk is included in it.

I am lately VERY concerned about what we eat and drink. Somehow it got into my tissues, into my brain, that WHATEVER I EAT ENDS UP IN ME. And it can be good or bad for me. Good stuff makes me feel good. Bad stuff makes me feel bad and function less.

And chemicals and GMO are definitely bad.

Did you see reports about what happens when mice are fed junk food (which is full of GE food). Mice cannot sleep, become depressed or aggressive, etc. Search for school kids feeding mice GE food.

math is fun....

2009-06-19T17:31:00.003-10:00

OK, so then I get into the lecture notes prepared by David Allister for McGraw Hill, and the notes are so witty and I think (again) that math is fun.

Oh well!

Here is a problem to be solved:

F(x) means: x is a fleegle
S(x): x is a snurd
T(x): x is a thingamabob
x can be only from {fleegles, snurds, thingamabobs}

Write this out in math formulas:
1. Everything is a fleegle
2. Nothing is a snurd.
3. All fleegles are snurds.
4. Some fleegles are thingamabobs.
5. No snurd is a thingamabob.
6. If any fleegle is a snurd then it's also a thingamabob

Yes, you guessed it right, I like Alice in Wonderland and this is fun and interesting to me.