Rosa's Rambles

Live and Learn

2009-09-19T01:42:00.010-05:00

Much time has passed since my last blog writing,
too much darkness in my life I've been fighting,
traveling a journey I didnt want to take
picking up pieces of a lifetime mistake.

Live and Learn.. three short words that inspire, console, advise.. and promise.

I have no doubts to say the past several months of my life have really SUCKED!, and yet I still cant discount in the midst of the darkness I've been lucky to see a few bright points of light shinning for me.

My marriage of two decades came to an end... and revealed to me a strength of self I never would have guessed I could possess. My dream job I loved took on fascets of inappropriateness that made it a nightmare .. yet I can now look to the future with eyes wide open. I've had disappointments in trust and lost friendships too never more did those words " live and learn" ring true.

I've found great wisdom from a Coyote and a Catt:)), I've discovered courage thats stronger than wind and the vision to see the new beginning and not dwell on the end Ive felt angry and sad for lifes mess, but reality shows. I'm just truly blessed.

Thanks for reading :)

Todays Poem:

Moving On-

Our time together is over the time for sadness has passed
its fruitless to sit and go over what is now in the past
move on with your life the one that is your own
and know that in a special way my how much you've grown

remember the good times and learn from the bad
What an expierience you've had
Pick up the pieces now that your through
pick up those pieces and start anew

Keep the memories you feel are fond
and realiize the time has come to be Moving On .

Time Marches On .....

2009-06-28T06:29:00.002-05:00

Hello...*echos*..hello hello hello .... Yes its been quite a while since I have written on this blog.. events in my life killed my muse... I was in a pretty low place for a long while and firmly believed this blog should only be about positive or at least negatives with a slant of humor for things to say. I had to grieve.. heal ...and begin again. Its been a journey of many emotions I hope never to go through again. I am not the same as I was, nor ever will be. But I am stronger ... and in that .. lies a nice positive :) Sooooo here begins Rosa Rambles blog post #93!!

Time Marches On ..........

There was a time in my life where I , like most of us do in our youth, felt I was immortal.. ne'er a thought crossed my mind about the ramifications of daredevil stunts, or crazy zany shinanigins. Climbing a tree as a tomboy with the only thought in my mind being. how fast can I get to the top?? A world of ramp jumps on rickety bicycles willingly attempted for the mere taunt of a double dog dare! I even met my future.. and now ex .. husband on a dare. Yes.. there was a time...

Funny thing about time marching on .. you dont notice it ......you dont hear it .. it just quietly plods along till one day you have THAT moment! Mine arrived June 23rd as I walked down the exit ramp of the same gigantic roller coaster Id been ridding for years before..

My legs were wobbly......my hands were sweaty ... and my forehead pounded like a jackhammer inflicting that one track thought to my mind .... DOH! DOH! DOH! DOH! When did this happen?

My love to ride the roller coasters .. daredevil heart.. I stood in line for 45 minutes.. watching those before me ascend to 310 feet in the air ... and plummet at 80 degree angle some 200+ feet to the ground below. I heard the screams.. the wails.. I had no thoughts as to my personal impending peril .. I looked to my kids and smiled and heard myself saying " This is gonna be sooo FUN!"

I board the coaster.. strapped in .. lock us down.. employee comes to check were intelligent enough to fasten a seatbelt.. yeah yah ya .. come on .. push the button already lets get this party started! wooot!......

We clink clink clink clink up the steep 310 foot ascent... a sound that recalls in me more feelings of comfort from my younger days than fear of what im about to subject myself too... the smooth release from the chain that drew us up the hill .. that rush of the wind on your face as your falling ... im still living in the moment the exhileration of senses.. anti gravity hang times.. we reach the bottom and rocket forward tilting sideways at 93mph.. and hit that first loop... and BANG .. i get that forehead slam of DOH DOH DOH ... down another hill and my tummy suddenly has that very green and not so good feeling ... another quick tilt to the left and I slide in my seat jarring my hip into the side of coaster.. OUCH .. hey .. when did that hurt before?? ... and the last super high speed spin and jet launch to from 70mph to 0 mph in 3.2 seconds.. finds my back being cracked and that eyeball widening experession is shown upon my face as my kids say " WOW that was...hey mom .. you ok?"

Sighs..... 20 years ago I was a daredevil ... not a care in the world ... 20 years later im standing in line for colossal coasters with quite minds thoughts of did I bring the asprin from the car... wheres the nearest trash can in case I need to hurl .. and my worst moment .. when I heard myself volunteer to hold the bags and save a 10 locker fee to avoid placing myself on a coaster that hurls me 80mph upside down 6 times to avoid the now certian headache Id endure as consequence.

*hangs head* Hello My name is Rosa and I am a former daredevil?? Ha ha probably not, for despite the headache, the hip ache, the back cracks, and the very concious awareness of walking all day in a theme park of giant steel monsters.. I still found joy in the adventure :) Time marches on and has left me with a bit more awareness of my limitations but the daredevil in me lives on and I'll still take that chance........ now and then........in pursuit of that one thought goal .. how fast can I get to the top !!

Todays Poem: (Penned in a very lonely lost low moment of my life ) But life's much happier now *smiles at Forsythe *

Dear Ol Lonliness:

Oh dear old Loneliness, why do you plague my life
weight upon my broken heart and fill my day with strife
Why do you show me others who have someone to hold
share their daily lives in pairs and hear sweet nothings often told

why must I face this role in life and on the path to roam
is it fates destiny that I'll always be alone
souls they come and souls they go each time I hope I'll see
a heart that truly cares and desires my company

but life is cruel, and timmings bad
moments of memories will be all thats had
Will I grow bitter and close up tight
withdrawl from friends and never feel right

I ache for a touch that never will be
I pine for a heart that doesnt for me
Tears, they flow and flood my soul
is this all there is or does fate have a goal ?

the music still plays but ive lost my feet
the melody rings yet the dance isnt sweet.

Thank you for reading :)

The Best of Intentions

2009-04-29T11:34:00.002-05:00

Who says the darndest things only come from kids?

Recently my teenage son and I ventured out to our local zoo to take in the sights, sounds and adventures.. little did I know it would be my own best of intentions that would cause the appearance of more adventure than wanted.

My son and I , while waiting in line for a tram ride at the zoo, a group of young kids, about 3-4 graders, and their parents came to occupy the bench next to ours. They were enjoying the zoo and decided to pick that particular time to recall all the birds they'd seen thus far in their day...from robins to barn owls they voiced the sound each animal had made. I happen to look over and see my son who was wearing a expression that indicated he wasnt all that pleased haha An avid video game enthusiast, my son had willingly left his controller to come and spend the day with me. He leans in and whispers some comment about the bird noises. I replied perhaps a bit too perky, they were just socializing ...its good to do that.

My son mumbles in typical teenager attitude.. he didnt want to be "social" today..and then it happened...that moment ...when you have the best of intentions........and it comes out the worst nightmare HA HA . As a large crowd of zoo visitors passes by my son and I .. I say to him.. ( intending to encourage his get out of the house and socialize idea ) " Aww it feels good to get out and expose yourself more to new people!" We heard the inital "gasps!" and a few giggles but it was the look on my sons face holding back a laugh I knew was imminent to explode that turned my cheeks three shades of red !

So in this time of woes and wonderments about life, love, and friendships its good to see Fate still has a sense of humor to keep us all smiling ;)

Todays Poem:

Best laid plans inside your head
realitys paths you travel instead
hear what I mean , not what I say
foot in my mouth, oh lord did I pay!

One Quarter Thinking

2009-04-03T21:26:00.002-05:00

Hello! *looks at date* well see there I squeaked this entry in under the Wow its been a month since I last wrote line :) Thank you to all of you who faithfully continue to read my rambles I apprecaite you greatly!

Okay so its taken a few weeks , I admit to some distractions * Cutter* and some real life agendas keeping me busy a blog topic idea hadnt yet struck me however today ......it did! and without haste here I am to share it all with you :)

Here in my town, I'm sure probably in yours too , we have a food store that has shopping carts you must pay a quarter to use and are returned your quarter upon returning the cart. A nice idea that cuts down on those unreturned carts that dent cars in the lot . Well today as I walked up to slide my quarter * which I spent 5 minutes trying to find in my purse* .. into the slot I noticed there was one already there!! A free cart! well its free anyway as you get your quarter back when you return it but ... a step in my procedure saved.. that little thing ...that made a smile !!! I looked around for an absent minded shopper to call out but I was alone. Just the shopping carts and I . I took the cart , grinning for that hey that was nice moment ... and went into the store. I did my shopping and loaded the items in my car... returning the cart to the outdoor collection area I by habit took the quarter out and pocketed it as I walked to my car.

Three steps later my concience taps me on the shoulder and I am reminded of the great feeling " I " had in finding a quarter already there so I turned around and walked back...reinserting the quarter in the slot . Driving home this thought hit me ...........what would most do ? Would they take the 25 cents? would it be by habit? by greed? by need ? what would you do if it were you?

Thanks for reading :D

A penny saved
is a penny earned
a quarter found
is a lesson learned

instant feel good
thrill was had
by thoughtful someone
or forgetfully sad

what would you do
if morals are in question
would it be an action
you'd be proud to mention

Thanks again for reading !

Fresh View, New Perspective

2009-03-14T05:57:00.003-05:00

Hello Everyone! Well looky me I have remembered how to post a picture in this blog!

Its those little victories in life that really make us appreciate how far we've come in our life right?

So if you looked at the pic on the left, and its just human nature to do so , you will see that yep, I have some new glasses. Thank you's to all my friends who have sent such kind and positive comments regarding how they look, or how I look in them lol. Most appreciated!

But I find in additon to my new view of my old world ... I'm getting a fresh perspective on more than just eyesight.

Sterotypes and prejudgments... I've always strived to be a pretty positive person in my life, look for the good in all things even when bad times happen.. theres a silver lining right? When the optomitrist told me I'd have to wear glasses all my life now, I'm not proud to say I was feeling " Oh great... now im going to look dorky and get judged for stereotype of wearing glasses labels you".

Prejudging........that was my first mistake! I have found the reactions I've recieved in this new attachment to my appearance to be in fact the very opposite of what I'd expected. Its left me feeling more than a bit guilty for my self assesments and stereotyped expectations, whereas I never intentionally judged anyone I know who wears glasses, I guess society had me feeling wearing glasses was a handicap and boy was I wrong!

Having a clearer view of the day to day things I do I'm jsut a happier person, I am more productive in things I accomplish... I find with a sharper view I notice more things now that I may have let go unseen before. I do not feel handicapped for having these eye opening lenses I feel in fact like I am participating in the world more being able to see clearly and appreciate what I can do now with clearer vision.

So thats it, my little profession of ignorance... I let what I thought society's viewed stereotype of wearing glasses hinder me from seeing the real view of how wonderful a impact having glasses really is for society's citizens! Do you have any prejudgements in life you've found to be just the opposite?

Its okay my visions fine

I can still read the sign

a little fuzzy, perhaps so

but still clear enough I can know

eye exam I need to have glasses??

surely not! .... folks will harass's

Don the frames .. my view pristine

prejudgements wrong now I've seen

happier world when vision's its best

not a bad thing at all ....I'll loudly profess.!!!

Thanks for reading :)

Gold Star

2009-01-30T08:29:00.002-05:00

Greetings to all of you kind hearts who continue to come and read my wayward thinking! One of these days I really must learn some technical skills and figure out how to see just how many of you there truly are ...of course my imagination is probably far kinder to my ego than reality might prove to be hahahha!

You know when your in school the teacher would give you a gold star for a great accomplishment! Or one of your parents or family member would give you a "gold star"
for a personal accomplishment, as we get older the stars become trophys, and as we get older still they might occasionally come in the form of a attaboy at work or friends thumbs up! wtg! but every now and then .... you have a moment that you really wish.. it wasnt too cool to brag about your accomplishment!

As I sat in the dentist chair this week at the end of my cleaning I heard the hygentist say " Wow, this is what we really like to see...all your teeth are in great condition and no cavaties :) " So many times in life we have a wonderful thing happen but .. its not considered socially acceptable to run out in the street screaming WOOO HOO I have no cavaties!!! So here today.. I'm making my own opportunity to brag my gold star moment that life might not care so much about!
41 years old and still no cavaties!no dental work done *yet* lol(applause ) and I'm giving you the chance to do the same! Mark your moment of pride! share your story of spectacular show off! Post your particular period of praise! and consider this your Gold Star for it all!!

Thanks for reading this silly little ramble of mine! You all are the most wonderful friends!

Todays Poem:

Golden Moments here and past
a hearty praise said to last
so proud of you and who you are
wtg! *pins Gold star *

2009

2008-12-30T00:35:00.002-05:00

A scant few days are all that remain of 2008. Its at this time of year we all do it, we get reflective on our lives and what we've done or didn't get around to doing, or wish we'd done... and yes ..wish we'd not done. I am no different. Its been on my mind a lot this holiday season just where life took me in this past year. I have had a lot happen and have had not enough happen. Thats life I guess. Its been a difficult year and yet... in the growth I'm finding... it will most probably turn out to be one of my best years of my life.. in the long run.

2009 is fast approaching and we toss around those words like resolution, promise, goal.. things we say to better our view on where we are and give ourselves hope we'll be even better in the new year. I could easily turn this post into just that .. a list of things I hope better in my life in the new year... Lord knows.. I could use it ...but .....instead Im striving to leave you all ending 2008 with a smile where this blog is concerned. So here for your funny bone tickling pleasure
is my slant on the top ten New Years Resolutions of 2008

1) Time with Family and Friends: yes lets time them!! When that alarm goes off in the morning jump right in with a stop watch and cheer them on through their morning routine! coach them into a better time of up and out the door!

2) Fit in Fitness: Yes... lets do that shall we! Let us feel the burn of the starbucks coffee on our tongue as we try to drink it way too soon. Let us put in ten more reps of hand to mouth as we hold the fork that slides the yummy starch laiden pasta into our mouth! Let us break a sweat in the 15 minutes of jumping and leg kicks and cave man grunt yells it requires to slide into those "what the heck am I thinking" jeans!

3) Tame the bulge: I dare say this is a piggy back to 2 ...perhaps thats why its got a bulge? Lets give it due credit however and offer this helpful piece of unsolicited advice... if running to reduce your bulge should blacken your eyes from slap impact... disregard resolution number 3 :))

4) Quit Smoking: I have never been a smoker... I have known several who have. Smoking can have positives and negatives... Be skinny.. long and lean like a chimney shape.....but puff heavily like a chimney. I know quitting is hard and really shouldnt be a laughing matter.. to those of you who are striving for that goal.. in all seriousness I wish you the very best! to those of you who have achieved this goal! Congratulations!

5) Enjoy life more : I think this one is going to have to be on your own personal perspectives.. If 2008 was spent enjoying life by beliefs and morals.. then to enjoy it more in 2009 would imply breaking those moral boundries and expanding those beliefs... I cannot in good concience encourage any of you to go out and break boundries and exceed your good morals :P

6) Quit Drinking: I see why this resolution pops up every year on the list.. its not specific enough. Quit drinking conveys we simply stop partaking of all liquids. We'd all fade away without proper fluids! I say pick a liquid and make that your goal. I will quit drinking *****
if you try , perhaps we'll find a bit different resolution on next years list hmm?

7) Get out of Debt: Now here is a good resolution. Society has us in such a hamster wheel does it not... We need money to purchase things to meet our basic needs... we have to work to make the money... in order to work we need things like clothes, food, car, those misc items required to keep our morale up to satisfactory levels sufficient to allow us to be productive at the job we need to work to make the money to meet our basic needs... when the math is unbalanced and the supply is less than the demand... its no wonder were swimmin in "Da B's Tea " ( De B T ) .
Bee's Tea sounds so much more pleasant ...go with me on this one.

8) Learn Something New: Well .......I think New Years Day at 12:01 would cover this resolution for most of the partying population... isnt it at 12:01 when those overly intoxicated souls try out their best pick up lines? Okay perhaps not. this actually is a good resolution... everday is potential for learning something. education, socially, financially, globally... dream big ! If youd like to start small ... how about learning how many minutes it takes to finish off the pint of ice cream in the freezer?

9) Help Others: HELP ( Hand Everyone Less Politics ) ??? ( Have Everything Legally Paid ) ....( Happy Ether Lan Port ) ... ( Hang Essentials Low Please ) ( Hand Exceptional Lease Price )however you choose to abide by resolution number 9. Best of luck to you in your efforts!

10) Get Organized: When I master my PDA,...pdq.....so I can AFK... from the PC . When I can open up my inventory and not have to spend 5 minutes looking for my shoes... when I can open up my rl closet and not spend 5 minutes looking for my shoes. When my hanging file folders no longer double as storage bins of useless misc. sentimental treasures.. then......and only then ...can I claim victory over resolution number 10.

I hope you have all enjoyed this little attempt at making you smile. If I dont happen to see you
before the new year dawns.. may you find 2009 brings you many blessings and triumphs! I love the toast that always says .....may the worst day of your future.....be the best day of your past!
HAPPY NEW YEAR! Take Care Everyone! Thanks for reading.

Todays Poem:

Lines Ive said , words conveyed
another poem on this blog is laid
rhythmic text to is played
entertainment to you I gave

New Years Dawns so very near
and resolutions were soon to hear
promise this, and strive for that
quit smoking, and lose the fat.

In all you do and all you say
in how you try to change your ways
never forget this ..as I end ..
its for how you are ....I'm glad to call friend.

Thanks so very much ! God Bless and Happy New Year!

Happy Holidays

2008-12-21T07:47:00.002-05:00

Its Holiday time, our thoughts and ambitions focus toward giving and sharing and enjoying the gifts that this time of year brings, more than the latest eletronics or fashions, the coolest new music cd's, or those clever creative gifts imagination and whimsy can combine to bring. The gifts of life, love, laughter with friends and family. The greatest gift our faith humbles us to appreciate recieving.

In my home growing up we had a particular way of enjoying Christmas morning... Dad who was an early riser would roust us kids at the * come on as a kid especially teen years who gets up that early* 5 or 6 a.m. we'd all share donuts or pastries and OJ * dad had coffee* , I suspect now in my adult age this was to give him an edge.. caffiene to wake him up while us kids yawned and marveled at his energy?? Hmmm.... anyway.... we enjoyed pastries and OJ and then traditional gift opening.

Opening gifts in my home was always the same... someone usually picked by Dad.. passed out the gifts to various family members... then one at a time , often starting with the youngest..which I was so that worked out well, opened one gift...everyone else sat and watched. Dad would tell me later... this was to ensure we kids grew up with lessons of value for showing kindness. Seeing someone appreciate what youd done went a long way toward encouraging the desire to want to give more to others. Youngest to the oldest wed go around our small circle opening gifts.. some years were lean and it wasnt long till were done.. some were well blessed and it would be a hour before we were through... but all christmas's left me personally with the same feeling.. joy.. Joy for family, joy of giving and being given too .. just feeling happy for the joy of everything.

In later years we started to have the custom of writing a letter to family member and putting it in the tree. A heartfelt wish or telling to that individual on what they meant to our lives and giving thanks for Jesus and his gift he gave us all.

What traditions do you have in your holiday celebrations? Posing by the Christmas tree for photos? Specific food dish that is prepared just so ? A object or trinket set out in same spot year after year in comfort or tribute to someone special? Drop a comment down and share some of your traditions for the holidays :)

HAPPY HOLIDAYS! Thanks for reading :)

Todays Poem:

GASP! :

Who is that roly poly man
dressed in a suit of red
hes got a great big rosy nose
and white fluff surrounds his head

he totes a bag of red satin
laiden down with joys and treats
and boots as black as night
are attached to his feet

He's placing gifts under the tree
each one is brightly wrapped
and as he bends each time down
bells jingle on his cap

I am so excited and happy
to watch him do his task
there's much I'd like to know of him
but now's not the time to ask

I am crouched down in awe
here hidden on the stairs
silent and bewildered
at what I'm seeing there

He doesn't know I see him
and I am very glad
for I am just in awe to find
that SANTA's really DAD!!!

Merry Christmas!

Bell Ringers

2008-12-10T08:54:00.003-05:00

Its the holiday season and as we bustle in and out of various shopping establishments, and stroll the busy sidewalks its not silver bells we hear on the street corners but those devoted bell ringers.. those diligent individuals who give their time to stand in the cold for hours at a time indulging the looks of shoppers who greet them with a range of annoyance to excitement.

Adults who look upon them, some with guilt that they have no money to drop in , or have money they dont want to part with... the bell ringers smile and cheerfully bid us "Merry Christmas" calling out for all to hear " Happy Holidays". They dont seem to mind the adverse
weather, they are resistant to the snubs of those who simply wont give.

A small reward now and then is when the young kids will run up.. excited to drop the little amounts of change in the bright red bucket they see more than a smile on a kids face, they see
joy of a heart thats giving! What is it about life that changes us .. from that young child happy to drop our pennies into a bucket for others ... to the adults who clutch our loose change in our pocket as we hurry on by?

I am sure there are a great many people in this world who give of themselves to better the lives of others and of themselves.. but for this post.. I am tipping my hat to the bell ringers. The time they give for small change.....makes a big change for many. When your out and about this holiday season and hear a bell or a shouted " MERRY CHRISTMAS" .. take a moment to give a nod to the bell ringer and appreciate what they stand for..there .

Thank you for reading.

Todays Poem:

Wrapped in scarf and big thick hat
ring the bell and kindly chat
stand in boots and feel the chill
watch the little ones giving thrill

Takes the change little in size
makes big change in many lives
endless hours stood in cold
was there ever once a Thank You told?

Breaking Point

2008-11-21T15:24:00.002-05:00

Human spirit can endure the most amazing things... we hear stories of impossible survival and feats of super human performance I know even I have found in life's trials and tragedys I am stronger than I ever thought I would be...but what makes that breaking point to where the spirit just stops trying?

When life deals you punches in such a frequent rate you find you've fallen to the ground and have little care of rising up from it all. When you find the doctors news regarding the latest test isnt the hopeful diagnosis you'd been wanting ....when you find what you thought was your true love finds his own love in someone else... when you work hard at something your whole life and
in course of a day.. forces you have no control over blow in and leave you with little left.. when you give your heart away only to find .. its not wanted. How does the human spirit take such pains and push through to a brighter day?

Is it faith? Is it how were raised? Is it our genetics?? What drives us to keep going when every thought in our heads tells us to quit? What drives you in the dark times to keep a bright outlook! Ive had two people in my life ...take their own life due to sorrows they found unable to cope with... Ive seen how it solves little and leaves even more pain. Life is pretty low at this point and a quick fix to escape it all for good might sound good in theroy but I think theres a
little human spirit yet left to push through and do my best to prevail for brighter times.. but it
just leaves me curious.. what sparks that human spirit in others ???

Todays Poem:

Darkest days suspend thy head
banish thoughts its easier dead
hard times come.. but hard times go
and better days.. you'll have to show

lost at love and it sure smarts
but with every ending there's a new start
friends rally and do their best
to cheer and enourage and ease the stress

Human spirit is alive and thriving
pushing the darkness to brightness surviving
darker days might reign on this day
but tomorrow's news.. " It'll be okay!"

Thanks for reading

Color Blind.....

2008-11-14T09:04:00.002-05:00

Is it just me or for the past several numerous years have we listened to politicians preach to us about being color blind? Wasnt that a lesson we as people were taught since civil rights.. to ignore the color of skin.. .to embrace one race.. the HUMAN race.. I think that was the overall concept conveyed by some of our countrys more prominant leaders right? So my question is
in all that energy spent on obsolving segregation and promoting one unified race.. of humankind.. why was the vast majority of the headlines regarding the United States Presidental race all screaming " FIRST BLACK PRESIDENT!" ??? Any thoughts?

Color Blind:

Red or white
yellow or black
were taught that color
is not where its at.

Man is man
or so they say
the color he is
should not convey

when i voted
for presidents position
the color of their skin
was not in my opinion.

So why when Obama
takes the title earned
the color of his skin
most headlines now spurn.

Thanks for reading.

Reality Bytes....

2008-11-14T08:04:00.002-05:00

We see articles and hear stories all the time about those who indulge in the internet and get swept away to lose touch with reality.. it bites hard on the life
you knew and disillusions you to feeling your virtual reality is reality. I have to say after nearly five years living in both worlds.. I can neither fully agree or disagree with ither of those broad statements.

When I first came to indulging a online game my real life was not in any serious turmoil, it was a suggestion to "talk to folks" give a online game a try.
Being a social type of person, I took to this bonified "chat room" like a fish to water. I enjoyed the interactive banter, the thrill of kind hearted text statements causing smiles in others. It was fun. It was in moderation. It was good.

However, in the four plus years I have participated in online games I have seen many a friend fall victim to some level of online addiction. I upon recent hard look at my own life the past four years would have to in all honesty claim I am probably one among them.

Initally online socializing was not in seeking anything other than simple curiousity to see what its all about.. time passes and life changes as it always does and suddenly that moderate log on.. turns into a daily occurance in seeking that self esteem boost that real life no longer brings... and time passes.. to the point you
wish your real life held the same happy group of souls your virtual life does..

you develop emotions and attachments to people in manners You convince yourself are geniune....real.... and for some cases... it really is ... but in some.. when real life deals a blow that sets you reeling... having your best friends be thousands of miles away.. makes that need for a shoulder to lean on a bit more difficult. And if you fall in love... reality can certianly come bite you hard in its reminder.. your relationship as real as it feels, and seems...and you believed... is nothing more than im's and pixels bridging two lonely souls in virtual space.

Im not in any way saying real life and virtual life cant both be shared and enjoyed in healthy moderation.. and for most of the worlds gamers.. that is a good working chemistry and I would be the last person to discount the importance of virtually made friends impacting your life happily! However, just caution any of you who, like me, find all the best friends all around the world being the sweet treasure they are to your life... just cant be there when you need that real life contact.

INDULGE in games!! ENJOY and have fun!!! I whole heartedly encourage that as I did find a bounty of great blessings in my times I dipped a toe into virtual reality!! But just be cautious in doing so is my point of this post ... keep a perspective of
whats real and give some time to reality's presence too, and its my hope any of you reading this will be spared a reality byte :D

Todays Poem:

Reality Byte pretend or real
the warmth of friendship is what I feel
addiction or attention daily gave
bonded friendships is what I made

sincere meant joy each log in gained
or real lifes attentions unintenitonally refrained
moderation, jubilation can be shared by all
too much of one or the other and happiness will fall

Onliners enjoy each moment
be it the day or night
but keep a realistic eye out
to avoid Reality Byte!

Silly Pet Peeves

2008-10-14T13:11:00.002-05:00

Pet Peeves:

Main Entry:
pet peeve
Function:
noun
Date:
circa 1919
: a frequent subject of complaint

Pet peeves! We all have them! Come on, admit it.. even you ...yes you in the cubicle.. even you have at least one pet peeve! What are those tiny little things in life that get to you just enough to not be a big deal but still make you want to scratch your head and go " HUH?" !!

Here are a few of my sillier ones:

FUN SIZE - Who invented this? Okay sure .. as a kid its "fun" to pocket a sweet candybar bite in one hand to snack on when syblings arent looking... its compact size allows you to stuff more in a halloween treat bag when out trolling for your innocent adolescent annual sugar rush.. or gained you instant popularity points socially in the school lunchroom when you crack out the "fun size" goodies hungry eyes zoom in on...but lets face it ... when you reach adulthood... is this tiny little size really living up to its name anymore? This little fun size becomes a adult nightmare! Its so small, how could this possibly fill you up! Its so small you simply cant stop at just one .. what kind of chocolate fix would it be if you stopped at ONE!!! Before you know it youve consumed three or four or .....more and repeat this process often as .. they are small you can fit lots in a treat bag !! Next thing you know your at the gym sweatin like a pig, sit ups, push ups, treadmill all to drop those pesky extra chocolate fix pounds... your mind drifts off to a visual of that little candy treat and you can only ask yourself ......"Are we having FUN yet ?" :)

Wedgies and Rideups:

Why is it we can land on the moon, build massive technological wonders that fuel the progress and advancement of mankind.. but we cant seem to manufacture a pair of undergarments that wont migrate for the great divide of our bodies southern hemisphere!!! I positively hate when this happens.. your walking along... disillusioned to the full belief that you are cool! You da man! when * flooop!* there you are... in the middle of public and faced with a choice of how to solve the perdicament! Do you try a new walking step in hopes the excess cloth thats now bunched up your backsides will take part in a miracle and magically drop back to form fitting comfort? Do you duck in what you imagine to be hidden corners, hallways or doorways in hopes of manually manuevering the offending garment back to covering its intended assests? Or do you just take caution to the winds and reach round and solve the issue regardless of public comment or opinion. Hear ye! Hear ye!! All you engineers, scientists, and inventors! Can you apply your skills to "cover" this issue :))

Sneezing while driving:

This is one of those things that doesnt happen often enough to be a widely voiced pet peeve but it exists none the less! Your tooling down the road, 4 lanes of traffic, high rate of speed, darting traffic and along comes a sneeze and your fearing for your life as you struggle to keep your eyes open until the event is over! If your like me who always sneezes 3-4 times in a row... road rage is stressful enough in todays traffic.. lets NOT add the element of suspense to it by sneezing and find yourself steering a large box of careening metal with your eyes closed!

There are many more I could go on with but for the purpose of this post .. perhaps this is plenty! If you share any of these with me .. let me hear about it !! If you have some of your own you would like to vent about .. let me hear about it !! If you have no pet peeves whatsoever and your perfectly happy and content with llife and all its moments.... wait 24 hours till the happy pills wear off .. then . Tell me about it!!

Have a superduper day!

Todays Poem:

Pet peeves rear from time to time
annoying moments in life to find
some are silly and make no sense
some are logical, I do confess

Each can cause our head to question
amusing views that warrant attention
we ask "Huh?" or wonder why..
how on earth that could fly...

No fancy mirrors
or tricks up the sleeve
just lifes humor
showing its latest pet peeve!

Thanks for reading.

IT Always Knows ....

2008-09-30T14:39:00.002-05:00

My Dad bless his heart used to have a saying " IT always knows" . I know you know what I mean. You get yourself just a little bit ahead and something happens to cause that surplus to dwindle. Dad would get a little in savings and one of us kids would pick that particular time to be exceptional daredevils and get a injury or a common ailment that would see a physican happily taking the surplus off our hands.

Last weekend I got my first paycheck from my part time job. Its not anything special to boast or brag amount wise but it was hard earned and more importantly it was "Paid" employment. But just as Dad always said ..." IT" always knows... I got a nice happy grin putting it in the bank .. then .. my computer router dies......then my cell phone dies.......and I find I have to take a academics test to continue to do my job that gives me the pay to feed "IT". Do you have an " IT" in your life too? I think " IT " should stand for Infernal Taker ! What do you think??

Todays Poem:

IT always knows when I get ahead
even when its under the bed
IT takes from me sometimes a lot
or just a little it knows I got

If Im stealthy and tip toe around
will a fortune for me abound
IT seems to always sense my glee
thats when "IT" comes to take from me.

Have a nice day! Thanks for reading :D

Life Changes

2008-09-16T08:55:00.002-05:00

Seasons come and seasons go
happy times will ebb and flow
ride the wave of good times wake
many blessings from life to take

Life changes it always does
for good reason or just because
when it does I stumble and stagger
feel depressed and think " no matter"

But as a circle comes round anew
life brings good changes too
the key to traveling life with a smile
Keep a positive mind for every mile

Have a good day

Big Decision

2008-08-31T16:04:00.004-05:00

Hey! Its nearly September already!! My goodness gracious the year has simply flown by! Its been quite a busy time this past year ... triumphs! travels .. tragedys... and ongoing trials filled the months for me. I've faced a lot of first's and believe it or not .. I'm about to add one more to my growing list. I am going to VOTE! * pauses for gasps and cheers* .

Yes I have been remiss in voting ... and upon reading all the information I can on the candidates I myself am a bit loathe at myself in my lack of doing this long before now ... I grew up nieve to the real difference one vote can make. I was busy focusing my prioritys on family and my domestic responsiblities.. not even comprehending the value my one voice could pay the process of voting for those who would lead us in choices for my home. *hangs head* I neglected it then I'm nurturing it now! I have my registration card and im reading about each candidate. Its a priority to be as informed as I can when the time to cast my vote comes. I am excited to add my voice to the decision and yet I'm nervous in adding my voice to such a big decision. How do you feel when you vote?

Thanks for reading :)

Todays Poem:

He said ..she said ..
fingers point, debates rage..
weeding out the data
from speeches sour or sage ..

Which one rules the country
have to pick before to long ..
which one leads the nation ..
has morals and can be strong ?

Democrat , Republican
pick a side to stand
I dont see the partys ..
I'm voting for the MAN

screaming bout the issues
ranting o'er our stance
he who leads the country
steps a very tricky dance

One human being ..
protecting his home
one human being ...
seeking peace for when we roam

Presidency is Power
the job has pressure too
I'll cast my vote this election
for who'll best know what to do

Poet Night

2008-08-11T01:05:00.003-05:00

Live Music Poetry Jam 4 ..

I've been here.. I've done this ...so why do I still have butterflies?? Tonight I join with my very good friends and amazingly talented musicians Jaycatt Nico and Patrick LaSalle in the realm of Second Life to once more slip into the beatnik theme and share my poetry. A while back after seeing a few poet readings in Second Life I had the notion to combine two of my loves... 1) Live Music and 2) Poetry. I bounced the idea off Patrick and Jaycatt and was met with wonderful support.. and Live Music Poetry Jam was formed. Without Patrick and Jaycatt the poet nights would just not be the same. I am deeply grateful for their help and guidance :)

Poet Night it has arrived
back on stage to kick the jive
nerves I feel to share my heart
friends support will not depart

words of expression, spoken in rhyme
layed out in hip themed beatnik time
although i am nervous and hope its a hoot
with my friends there .. success ..cant refute!

Thanks for reading :D

Silent Treatment

2008-08-07T13:13:00.002-05:00

Hello! *brushes off cobwebs* yep.. its still here ... my blog ...Ive had much going on of late and sadly dear old Blog posting was casualty. The username typed.. the password entered.. and my 75th post .. now begins ;)

Who formed the concept of silent treatment? Was it a torture expert from a foreign country? A special agent in mental battlements? Its not even aptly named in my opinion... Treat ..implies something special and something good ..ment... leaves one to assume it was intentional. How is silence a meant treat? I wonder if we harnessed the power that Silent Treatment has over people if it could power a citys electric supply for a while.

What purpose does a Silent Treatment serve? Who comes up with this sort of idea .. communicating.. with silence. I understand theres a time to be silent. Theres a place to hold your tongue... but if communication is key ... why do so without words :D What do you think? This is just a ponderment on my part :) Break your silence and Treat me to some soundoffs :D *be gentle*

Thank you for reading

Todays Poem:

Say not a word
make not a sound
make a point
but cause a frown

fold your arms
and lips zipped tight
this aint progress
to make it right

speak your mind
when something ails
communicate
or solution fails

Have a super day!

Humble Pie and Sweet Rewards

2008-07-15T10:35:00.003-05:00

Hello Everyone! Greetings to you from the Pacific Northwest. I've always wanted to say that !!! and now I have * Crosses yet one more first time for that* off my long list. I am on vacation * insert woot here * I have reaped the sweet rewards of friendship in the awesome hospitality of
Jaycatt, Hunter and Frogg :) As well as that of Patrick and Lyndon too :D I have consumed great slices of humble pie in my awe of the views here in the Pacific Northwest! In the extrodinary talents of my fine friends as Ive been privilaged to enjoy their concerts live! and in the gift of such a wonderful blessing to be among great people I care about :D I have made memories in sitting down on the train next to a stranger and disembarking the train waving adieu to a new friend. I have lived more in that past 2 weeks I think I have in last 2 months!

I have been on planes, trains, buses, and cars.. I have seen Mountains, Oceans, Forrests, Sand Dunes, Bridges, Buildings, People, Pets and breathtaking moments! I danced at a live music concert.. yep....me ....dancing in public and get this ......I was asked to !! *pinches self its not still virtual reality* I have seen awesome art and some questionable items disguised as art! I have taken long walks in exploring and short drives of discovery in short I've had a marvelous time
and will blog highlights in the days to come! Thanks for reading!

Todays Poem:

Every post a poem I leave
rhyming lines for you to see
saying sentiment from the heart
four short lines to get a start

vaction memories I have made
blessed and lucky I came and played
weathers kind so sunny and clear
PNW is happy I'm here :D

Soon I'm home and back to the norm
ready to weather life's coming storm
Pleased to enjoy any travel like most
but always be partial to great west coast!

Thanks for reading.

The Wave

2008-06-10T18:50:00.002-05:00

Hello Everyone!

In my zest to better my health through physical fitness I have been passing my option to drive to work each day and have been walking ( About a mile in distance ) during one of my trek's to work this past week the following scene played out :

Walking on a sidestreet close to the curb, as there was no sidewalk, I happed to be passed by a US Postal Service truck.. I lifted my hand and cast a gestured wave..the driver smiled at me and waved back ... which caused me to smile too ... as I got a few feet further I passed a man bycycling and again .. lifted my hand to wave and as he passed he smiled and said " Good Morning to ya ! " ... closer to work I passed one final person a elderly man walking his dog .. I waved and smiled because by now I'm feeling pretty upbeat about the kindness of others and the man smiled, said " Hello! Beautiful day isnt it ??" and a short conversation about the weather was held between two strangers.

As I finished off the last bit of my journey to work I pondered...What about a wave is not a good thing! At sports events crowds do "the wave" which brings fun! and joy!, when you are "waved on" its usually a sigh of goodness that is felt, surfers share great adventures and happiness ridding that big "wave" and a simple shake of a hand from one person to another still can bring the greatest of feelings! If I'd not waved and just stared at my feet when I passed by I'd have missed out on all those feel good moments! The opportunity to share a kindness and meet someone new. So bravo for the wave! Here here for taking a chance to say Hello! and Applause for those kind hearts in the world who open up to smile and wave and make the day a bit brighter for others! *Waves*

Todays Poem:

The Wave

Hand held up in the sky
shake it a bit to passers by
add a smile and kind hello
brigtening a day as you go

Nod your head, wink your eye
Kindly greetings hello goodbye
little things that we can do
help to beat away the blues!

Wave your hand, speak your heart
for new friendship, make a spark
if any advice ever to save
its never forget the power of a wave!

Thank you for reading :))

Anticipations

2008-05-27T12:36:00.007-05:00

Anticipations:

Oh its an exciting time of life right now ... okay its not the race down the stairs to see if Santa brought us our youthful wishes or that wild and crazy excitement of a run down the hill to the lake to go swimming.. or skinny dipping but its a kind of excitement of... knowing one task is ending and your about to embark on a cool new one!

The school year is winding down... a few more days and summer break will begin.. for students and us as staff the anticipation of knowing a vacation is soon to be makes each day seem unending when its really not that bad at all.

I am excited for the anticipation of my revisit to see Jaycatt this summer in the Pacific Northwest,he is such an amazing, and awesome friend to me! We hope to make it to the coast this visit where I will be able to dip my toes in the ocean! A practice not uncommon to tourists but I am sentimental and look forward to the personal accomplishment of , having been on one side of the ocean during my trip to Australia, I will get to touch the other side of the ocean in this lifetime. I enjoyed the beauty of the land when I was there last year and I really look forward to seeing it again. Also on this trip I am happy to revisit my very close friend Tom! He is so fantastic and fun! I might even get to see him play music with one of the bands he performs in :) I love live music and dont get to appreciate it much in my hometown, It will be very cool to see a good friend and have a good time :))

Life has brought some expected turns and unexpected hurdles this year and so this fall I get to hit the pavement again in search of full time employement! I have great anticipation to find something that is both fun to do and finances figure well I remain hopeful that as far fetched as those goals seem.. I will find something that
fits :)

Thank you for reading!

Todays Poem:

I mentioned my friend Jaycatt earlier in this blog.. he recently got to visit Disneyland!! ( Did I mention I'm so jealous! ) so todays poem is about a Disney Day

Our Disney Day:

When I was in Tomorrowland
I felt that life was truly grand
but you weren't there with me ....

When I was in Fantasyland
enjoying all the rides
I was thrilled with the excitement and overwhelmed with pride
but you weren't there with me ....

When I was in Frontierland
hanging with the country bears
I was having so much fun without a single care
except that you weren't there with me ....

When I was walking on Main Street
I smiled at all the faces I'd meet
but you weren't there with me ....

When the day was over
my journey back to camp was done
I lay in bed remembering
the day and all its fun

when suddenly it hit me
a thought that wouldn't part
why,... all day long you'd been with me
I carried you in my heart!

70th post-Friends are like Sidewalk Chalk

2008-04-30T12:37:00.005-05:00

Hello!

Wow! 70 thoughts and comments.... I guess the blog is aptly named :)

Soo I was at work the other day .. doing my job ... when I happen across some children drawing their colorful masterpieces on the pavement .. as I stopped to admire all the stick figures and crazy squares and spheres, the colorful expression that was a visual to their imagination...... a thought popped in my mind....

A bit of symbolisim perhaps as I let the idea grow in my mind .. if we, as idividuals were the
pavement ... were strong.. we can be firm ... dependable ... and occasionally we crack up a bit ..
If we .. are the pavement then all our friends who effect our life.. would be the sidewalk chalk.
Single colorful lines that blend and compliment one another until the cement is a bonified piece
of artistic beauty! Alone were all pretty nice .. but when we let friends in to brighten our canvas.. thats when we really start to see the beauty in who we are ! Just my silly rambling thought. I hope wherever your day finds you as you read this blog ... theres been an abundance of color on your pavement :)

Reds and Yellows.. Greens and Blues
friendship bears such special hues
color my world with your special touch
brighten my existance, very much

visuals etched for all to gain
proudly displayed , until the first rain
Purples, Orange, Brown and White
my colorful friends, make life allright :))

Thanks for reading

Picaholic

2008-04-06T11:55:00.004-05:00

Hello my name is Rosa ...it has been roughly two weeks since my last blog post. *hangs head*

Hello my name is Rosa and I am a picaholic.....

We all have our addictions in life .. some smoking, drinking, shopping.. even boots can be a addiction as we've all recently learned in Bax land.. but I would have to say my greatest addiction is pictures. Photographs, snapshots, paintings.. I am hopelessly drawn to this marvelous preservation of great times and happy memories.

In my home I have many photo albums claiming space in my closet, packed full of randomly taken photos! There are the family portrait shots .. a visual of the progressive changes of ones timeline, there are the scenic photos, these I find interesting to look at years later and see how the land has changed, and then there are the goofy photos.. those quick candids taken in the spur of the moment that never fail to make you laugh when seen no matter how much time passes by.

In the realm of Second Life ... for as long as I've been a resident I have happily indulged my addiction to photographs.. my first year in world Id easily spend more than half my weekly stipened on snapshot uploads.!! I learned putting them on harddrive was less costly to my inworld bank balance but quickly took space on my hard drive . When Flicker was introduced to me .. I thought Id died and gone to heaven! A entire site soley for photographs?? What a fantabulous idea!! Having only a freebie account then I was limited to how many photos I could share. Then one special rezday a sweet cheesey girl and a man who loves his PI gave me one of the best gifts I'll ever receive.. a pro account on flicker! *swoons* The flood gates were opened and a treasure trove of stored photos were uploaded, shared, commented on and gave me the nicest thrill to share :) It was a good addiction fix :D and one I admit today I delight in daily.

I dont know what exactly it is about photographs that I find so appealing, perhaps its knowing I've captured a moment of happiness that can be forever remembered, perhaps its preserving the faces of those close to my life, photos of Dad still comfort me at times, perhaps its simply more selfish and I just like to enjoy taking the photos. Whatever it is .. I'm happy to say .. I'm a picaholic.

Todays Poem one I think I've posted before but suits todays blog topic perfectly.

Photograph:

A tiny box
you hold in your hand
a device which to capture
the face of a man

It stops time
and suspends it forever
small square memories
for generations to treasure

Capture beautiful sunsets
gorgeous mountains and trees
or some of God's other creations
perhaps you , or maybe me

Is it a comfort
for us sentimental types
there is a way
to preserve memories of life

For the next time there's a memory
that you've just got to have
click the button on your tiny box
and remember it always in your
Photograph.

Thanks for reading

Ironic Idiot

2008-03-22T08:21:00.005-05:00

Welcome Back :)

How many times have you been out and about in life and encountered a person behaving so oddly youve muttered.. " What an Idiot " or other such unfriendly titles ?? We know these types .. they follow the beat of a off beat different drummer .. the sort to do those things in life that you just shake your head. I had an experience yesterday that left me indeed shaking my head ... sadly ... at myself.

The Backstory:

Bad weather is forecast to arrive, a large snowstorm with huge accumulations.. a typical grocery day is transformed to a city wide stock up now day so crowds are liken to that of pre christmas toy shopping size ..

The Scene:
I am driving into the parking lot ... the traffic is thick.. I drive down one aisle searching for that much coveted parking space... the snow falls so fast my wipers are keeping a steady back beat on the windshield.. I reach the end of the aisle and begin my turn left to begin a trek up another aisle when a elderly man in a giant truck cuts me off ... I mutter in startled suprise.. "Idiot!" .. and turn up the closest aisle open to me and find myself being further irked at the long line of cars coming at me .. the aisle way barely wide enough for my car .. let alone two ... im doing my best to be positive.. yet feeling greatly annoyed at close quarters to get through this aisle.... when a gentleman honked his horn and gestured his hand at me in a manner most unbecoming .. I was in disbelief people could be so rude ... I looked at him as our vehicles passed..... now I am not a lip reader but .. did he just call me "Idiot " ?? I reach the end of the aisleway I've been forced to drive up and find a parking spot ... I get out and begin walking into the store ..

The Realization:

As I walk I am .... as I tend to do ... watching my feet... the snow is begining to stick and a snowy scattered blacktop is my view... as I reach the end of the aisleway ive parked in I see there on the ground .. half covered in snow ... a giant yellow arrow... *gulps* .... a DOWN arrow ...

There are many moments in life we find help us grow as a person... be it stronger, closer, wiser or in this case.. finding humiliaty can bring out your softer side ... I had driven UP the down arrow ... this wasnt a intentional action .. yet ... there I had been pushing my way along ..
annoyed at the agitated folks who showed negative behavior.

The Moral:

The next time life finds you crossing paths with an Idiot in Action.. remember this entry and think twice about your reaction... it might very well be a good hearted person having a bad day :)

Thanks for reading !

Todays Poem :

Up and Down cars scurry around
rush and bustle to and fro
seeking out a coveted spot
and dealing with the snow

sudden block I am in shock
I turn an unexpected path
honking horns and gestures made
enduring people's agitated wrath

stand my ground Ive done no wrong
bewildered at the scene
a lady just trying to drive here .. * brooklyn accent *
whyz you got to be so mean

Make my way to end of aisle
my error seen, my jaw it drops
cheeks take on a crimson hue
I doubt it ne'er will stop

Respectable Names

2008-02-26T18:07:00.002-05:00

Hi there ! *does a turning spin* Yep! As you can visualize its really me.. I know .. I was in a blog slump again! I like to write when I have something worth sharing .. not just write .. to post everyday.. for those of you who come and check this blog for anything new faithfully.. I salute and respect you !! Speaking of respect this brings me to my blog post idea ...

I recently read a article in the newspaper.. was it a Dear Abby column or a local community column.. of where in the paper I dont recall however the topic was the improperness of addressing a group of mixed genders as " You guys". Much opinion was expressed in this
article for how women were finding more and more offense to be referred to as "you guys".

As I read this article , I found myself cringing for I too have greeted a room of mixed genders as " hi you guys" .. not once did I think it to be offending the ladies of the room. As I continued on further in this article I thought .. isnt it a bit turn of the tables.. or ironic .. or whatever you would prefer to label it .. that for as much toil and effort women of society have put toward breaking the glass ceiling there would be such fuss made over the collective " you guys" greeting. Does it threaten the idenity of a woman to be addressed in that manner??

One more example of how the power of words can effect a persons feelings. I can think of many far worse words that have been applied to address the female population of our planet that would no doubt be quite offensive .. but I struggle to see in the approach of a collective group greeting how "you guys" should be taken harshly. How about you ? Does your opinion differ
I'm not saying my opinion is right .. or wrong .. its just .. my opinion. What's yours?

Todays Poem:

See a crowd , greet hello
but just how, I do not know
Hiya folks might play it safe
but if not all parents .. then its too late

Hey there friends could work I assume
unless their all strangers that fill the room
Greetings peeps could fit fairly well
chatting with Easter chicks in a padded cell

Salutations Society!! You could say with a smile
but the time for reply could take quite a while
I guess its the best , although not exciting or fun
to simply address and say " Hello Everyone! "

Thank you for reading.