...life as it is...

see you in August!

2008-06-13T22:15:00.001+08:00

exam just finished

am currently doing last min packing and cleaning

prep-ing for the trip

in few hours....

bye bye Calgary

hello Malaysia!

and LA, Taipei, Singapore too

sweet ride home

will try to updet if i can get free internet access in any of the stops along the way
see u guys in Malaysia!

itchy fingers

2008-06-12T18:49:00.000+08:00

i have diagnosed myself with
itchy fingers nk main game pre exam syndrome

wat is it is i have this overwhelming urge to not study and play wateva game (mainly computer games since i only pandai how to play these) when i'm suppose to study
weird thing is the symptoms only intensify when the exam is so near like a few days before sitting for the paper n miraculously vanishes when the invigilators announced it's time to put down the pencils and i'm free of exam!

i know, i am not alone in this
i know Puteri too suffers from the same syndrome, at least during IMU years

erghhhh!!!!
tulungsssss!!!!
i so wanna play games
*itchy itchy fingers*

i still haven't finished Chocolatier 2
n i found several new games on the net and already download their cracked full version
aihhh have to fight against it
have to say TAK NAK to games

princess big day

2008-06-11T08:03:00.001+08:00

to Miss PUTERI ZATIL

HAPPY 24th BDAY DEAR!!!

have a good one~

would love to attend ur bday bash but Calgary and Auckland isn't exactly next door neighbour
ur pressie will have to wait k?

hugsies and kissies
CT

keep on fighting

2008-06-10T10:21:00.005+08:00

getir times ahead
2 days to finish all Endocrine
*cries*
Endocrine is a lot!!!

you can do it, Dalilah!!

p/s: have u heard the RapidKL "let us moves you" ad on radio?

hahaha
not going anywhere lah i must say

*gruk gruk*
craving for laksam
or laksa kuah putih
=((

distraction!

2008-06-09T16:31:00.002+08:00

i know i should be studying
but my mind keep on focusing on the nk balik kampung!

like which baju should i wear on da flight
n which handbag and shoes to match?
which outfit i wanna bring as a change before continuing to Terengganu?
wat else do i wanna bring home?
should i make a list so dat i wont end up in airport without the *God forbids* travel doc or tickets etc? -i had a dreams few days ago dat this happened-

ouh, i can't wait to see how my bro would react when i give him the psp then later tell him, it's only a temporary pinjam *evil laugh*
heheh no la, i'll give it to him as a gift
lucky lucky lil sucker!

havent pack my carry on or kemas the room dat has been my study room, dining room and bedroom for the last few weeks
i still need to do my laundry n change the bedsheets n all
and i only have 4 hrs post exam!!!

good start of the day?

2008-06-08T18:19:00.000+08:00

seems like they really like oink oink for breakfast

at Tim Horton's the other day i ask them wat do they put in the breakfast muffin
egg and bacon or egg and sausage
wat kind of sausage i ask out of curiosity
erm...pork

then this one time i went to McD for breakfast
also the same thing

and A&W too

so have make extra special request
can i have the egg and sausage muffin or wateva without the sausage?

ohhhh i so wanted to have big, juicy beef burger
ohhhh Double Big Mac and Double Cheeseburger and Junior Whooper *salivates*

ohhhh burger special double Abang Ramly
aku rinduuu itewww terutama skali!!!!

updates on Saturday

2008-06-07T18:02:00.001+08:00

lalala~

i did my 1st P.O.P cast yesterday

lalala~

stay in school until 10 pm (on FRIDAY!)

lalala~

study is going slow but going nonetheless

lalala~

going to Guess outlet tommorow to spend my gift card

lalala~

start to solek2 the psp n brought few games too

lalala~

p/s: i had cast on my forearm for like 10 mins n cannot stand it anymore. can't imagine how is it for ppl who had cast on for weeks and months *gaps* so, better not get any broken limbs ppl!

not too soon

2008-06-06T19:37:00.001+08:00

this time next Friday, i'll be on the plane enroute home
7 MORE FREAKING DAYS!!!!!
and 6 more days to exam
*yes, as small as possible coz i'm in denial so dat i dun freak out*

can't believe i've finished my 1st yr alreadi
won't be long before the clerkship n graduation n then real world!!!
erkkkk~

can't believe dat it's been almost a yr since i left home
how is it back home i wonder?
grant there will be a lot of changes around but will some things just stay the same?
will it make me remember?
if it does, will it still hurt?
or will a new good change is bound to happen?

in amidst of excited to go back n meet loved ones n the prospect of traveling alone thru places i've nvr been before
i dislike the packing n preparation part n somehow reluctant to go back n face wat i've left behind n hope nvr to deal with
*sighhhhh*

the mightiest sword

2008-06-05T10:19:00.000+08:00

one word i find ridiculous --> FOREVER

forever is a very very long time so i find it funny when ppl promising forever to their significant other...u dun even know if u gonna woke up next morning, how can u promise forever? dun even use it figuratively, it's not romantic, it's hurtful when u leave

one word i try not to use *much* --> HATE

it's a very strong word i tell u, so most of the time i try to use the word dun like or similar to it. i reserve the word hate for things i really2 can't stand anymore. so when i use it, it means i really really dislike wateva it is dat i'm referring to (read: i can't even stand the slight mention of it) so trust me when i say u dun want me to hate u

one word i realise can mean so much but so little too --> LOVE

when said the first time, sounds magical. i love you, the three not so little word u said to the one u thought u love at the moment or u've been waiting to hear it from him/her.
when said too often, meaningless can be wat it defines
when nvr said, reality can be denied easily
it's a promise, so be a man/woman and honour ur promise
it'll hurt so badly when u don't

pleasure-business cocktail

2008-06-04T19:23:00.000+08:00

try having group discussion in a dim-lighted bar surrounded by loud music n stank of alcohols

try seating not close to the preceptor n ur laptop battery doesn't even last 1/2 hr n all ur notes is on ur computer

wat a 'fun' field trip eh? *sarcasm*

i heard tmr will be another 'let's get a drink n discuss the cases!'
if dat so then i'm not going
ponteng pon ponteng la

i dun have extra time to bermesra with urologist
not when exam next week n i'm wayyyyyy behind my own study schedule

red hot alert!

2008-06-03T19:11:00.001+08:00

look at wat i got today!

it's for my bro *lucky boy!* but for now, i'm gonna use it first
n to make worth of my money this shall be my slavery device
the next time i need my bro to do sumthing i will go like this
"i already brought u psp, now go do this and this"
*evil laugh*

now dat i godek2 it a bit
dh jatuh cinta la plak
how lah? i'm suppose to get this for him
initially i nvr thought to buy one for me cos it has to many button to tekan2 when playing the game, i nvr master the similar ps2 during the long holidays before
but now, i find it not so bad la
oh well, i can always bg pinjam n then take it back
my money wat?
*evil laugh*

yes, i'm a nice but evil big sister

it's in my nature

2008-06-02T18:59:00.000+08:00

according to some ppl, a mole on the feet denotes a very suka berjalan2 kind of ppl

must be why i can't even hold it for a day

so much for strict house arrest

sila denda diri sendiri +_+

weirdo me

2008-06-01T21:55:00.000+08:00

i let u in one of my secret

i can develop a very strong dislike toward a person without any reason at all, without the person doing anything to me

yes, i can be psycho laidat

the dislike meter? i can't even stand the thought of dat person n i usually pick on all the flaws i can lay my hands on

sounds so keji i know

but no worries, it's transient n resolve on its own
i notice it is sex-biased, the one with penis falls victim more than the one without
i also notice it happened during when my hormones runs amok
stupid stupid hormones for messing wit my mind

sleeper cells

2008-05-31T20:20:00.002+08:00

i wish all my body hair is so emo it'll cut itself *sigh*
in genting moments like this no me-time available

back to study

uh, effective tmr, i'll be on strict house arrest
just home n school, nowhere else
boooo! i hate exams!!!!!

ok, back to study

what makes you different, makes you beautiful

2008-05-30T13:21:00.001+08:00

guys and girls, do read this article by Walter Kirn from ELLE June 2008

girls,
no need to be size 0
no need to be a double D
no need to be fair n lovely
no need to be supermodel tall
no need to be scar free
no need to be enhanced
YOU just PERFECT the way you are
apparently, FLAWED is IN!!!

guys,
no need to judge from the cover
no need to believe first impression
no need for trophy, arm candy
SHE who is plain can be so much more~

today i learn this

2008-05-29T14:45:00.000+08:00

lecturer to class: "how long do you think a guy can hold it post penetration? (ie ejaculate after penetration) how many of you think 1-2 mins?"
a guy hold up his hand
lecturer: "2-5 mins?"
few agreed
lecturer: "greater than 10 mins?"
a few more raises their hand
lecturer:you watch to much porn

info: average in North America, guys can only hold it for 2-5 mins

*smirk*

ouh, apparently penis is the window to the heart
man with ED will have heart attack in 3-4 yrs after ED set in

ouh, med students
here's an easier way to remember the nerve for erection and ejaculation
*i always have this mixed up*

"S2,3 and 4 keep your penis off the floor"
P-parasympathetic-penis

"S1, 2 helps to shoot the goo"
S-sympathetic-semen

oh well, things they teach in school these days

whoever broke it, fix it

2008-05-28T22:15:00.001+08:00

according to Syrus Publilius
"amoris vulnus idem sanat, qui facit"

~the wounds of love can only be healed by the one who made them~

if dats the case, then mine won't heal at all
*sighhhhhh*

pls dun ask me any question

2008-05-27T15:12:00.001+08:00

HPOP poster presentation DONE!!!!!!!
writing this while awaiting to evaluate 2 other colleagues
yeah, soo time wasting la this whole thing
presentation only 20 mins but have to spend extra 2 and half hr to evaluate other ppl
we already have the written exam but the faculty still want us to do poster and present sumore

anyway, my presentation is a bit sketchy
badly stammering my way thru but both my evaluators and the faculty evaluator said it was GOOD so i'm good xD

now i can finally focus on studying for Course IV Renal/Endocrine finals
12 weeks of lecture to crammed in plus minus 2 weeks!!! die la~
also in plus minus 2 weeks i'll be going HOME! yipeeeeeee ya yayyyyy!!!!!

sky is crying

2008-05-26T19:13:00.000+08:00

it has been raining most of the time (more like all the time) for the past week
n it looks like it's going to be raining yet for few more days
i dun mind the extra dampness coz it's too dry here
but i really dun like the wetness n this

eeuww yucky yucksie eeuww
let me tell you one thing, earthworm here is the size of snake offspring, no kidding!
besar-besar, gemuks gedempol unlike the one i usually see in Malaysia, skinny2 semuanyer
and they have this weird habit of coming out beramai2 when it rain
i can hear they plotting
"lets go out guys!" "shower time, yeah!" "do the rain dance!"

luckily it's harmless earthworm, not the blood sucker pacat n lintah *shudders*

mini sunflower and cherries

2008-05-25T22:57:00.001+08:00

things SPRING made of

dead TV

2008-05-24T23:04:00.002+08:00

disclaimer: the following post contain spoiler for the latest season available for TV series esp to ppl without the wonders of torrent. reader's discretion is advised

so finally every series i followed come to season finale this week
how la i'm gonna survive for the next 4 months awaiting for them to come back?
*sigh*

America's Next Top Model

so tis 'enhanced' girl won this round, making it a question of is America going for a revolution in it's model size? even France starting a ban on too skinny model. personally i would love for Anya to win despite her weirdo accent because i dun think Whitney deserve it (it got nothing to do with her extra assets, in fact i'm jealous of it!), she doesn't show any potential except for the last battle and sadly, Anya seems to lose it at the end

CSI:Crime Scene Investigation

dah happy ending elok2 alas that mamat was shot dead....easy way to kill off a character i'd say

CSI New York

After the killer cabbie was nabbed, now Detective Mac Taylor played the role of tipah tertipu and got kidnapped *gasps* n they let it hanging there!!!! erghhhhh suspenso betui~ luckily it's not Detective Flack *swoon*

Smallville

As usual the ending is inconclusive but hey, Brainiac is gone for good *yeay* or does he? n Lana left Clark *again!* saying dat altough she need him, the world need him more...wat a load of crap la and Jimmy propose to Chloe *auwww~ so sweet* and Lex finally knows Clark's secret n self appointed himself to be the saviour of mankind *yeah rite!* n go on to destroy Clark and then abessss...wait for next season yer~

Ugly Betty

Wilhemina back n Daniel get rooted out and go membawa diri wit his newfound out of wedlock son from France. Henry also back n proposed to Betty while at the same time Gio (betul ke eja name mamat nih?) wanna take Betty to Rome for a month for their 1st date. So Betty, which is it? psttt...i definitely go Rome with Gio since Daniel paid for 1st class air ticket n 5 star hotel but Rome Betty Rome! what is Tuscan dessert compared to Rome? p/s: last scene show Betty heret her luggage but doesn't says where she's going so again, wait for next season to commence la yer erghhh!

Desperate Housewives

Ok, after all the drama n everything, fast forward 5 yrs...Gabby has 2 daughters n no longer look glam. Bree is back with Orson and Susan is kissing a dashing young man dat look nothing like Mike Delfino! damn it, another 4 months!!!

House

Amber died, Wilson crushed, No 13 tested positive for Huntington's and House almost die trying to remember...I just hope House is watchable next season, getting drier n drier

The Tudors

Still think got few more episodes for this season but now it has come to the point where Anne about to be replaced with the wife no 3, Jane Seymour who will give the King the son he crave for *anxious*

Private Practice

No new episode after writer's strike. I do hope they came up with new season this Fall. I love Addison n the quack Dr Pete thehehe. Luckily she make an appearance in Grey's few weeks back

Heroes

Also no new episode after writer's strike but for sure it'll come back this Fall *crossing fingers*

last but not least *mane boley x include my fav show u'ols*
Grey's Anatomy

O'Malley with Lexie kah next season? Alex n Izzie seems to be heading the same road too but it's heartbreaking to see Alex break down like dat n Izzie should know better not to cave in to Alex in his lowest point. Yang finally getting down with the get down~ Callie n Erica? bet it gonna draw in guys for the hot girl on girl actions next season and it's heartwarming to see McSteamy turning a new leaf but i sense he's not gonna be around for long (aaaaa...dun la, no fun if McSteamy not around). Glad dat Bailey is back with Tucker. YEAYNESS to Mer n Derek! finally! finally! I got so sick of doe eye Rose alreadi but can't help to pity her for being the rebound girl..now, Sheppard can go back to being McDreamy instead of McJerky, i heart! can't wait for wat's next season ah drama drama, u'll nvr know the twist~

aiyoh! 4 months is so long away~

growing pains

2008-05-23T00:17:00.004+08:00

this is me today

all because of this

multiply dat by 4
yes, all four at the same time
so do be kind if i all of the sudden cranky or moody
damn i gonna lose some weight waiting for it to pass
looks like i haven't finished with all these business of growing up physically
i'm adamant that it shall come out tis summer though i hate going to dentist
no need for wisdom tooth to make sumone wise *obviously!*

p/s: i heard dat wisdom teeth removal can cause vision problem later, is it true? or is it just a myth?

in a dark place

2008-05-22T15:43:00.005+08:00

few days ago denotes 24 years i walk this spinning rock
thank you for all the wishes n the whole weekend long of cakes n celebrations n the bday tokens too
as always the wishes of long, happy life n murah rezeki is most appreciated and valued
but one wish not so welcomed is the one for me to find some guy n tie a knot ASAP or at least find a guy n be in a relationship ASAP
i know these ppl meant well but this is one of the thing u dun wanna push it with me
n coming from u who is glowing with happiness from getting hitched soon makes it feel like a slap in the face
as if i meant nothing if there is no guy attached
as if i am a failure
as if i'm inadequate
i'm glad it work out for u n i am really happy for u, i really do
but just because it work for u doesn't mean it'll work for me too n my life works just fine for me these days
i'm still optimistic n everything but right now, i have bigger things to do n i hate the notion dat my purpose to be on this rock is solely for reproduction n survival of homo sapiens
i'll get there, i hope but not now
so for now, just lay it off ok?

do take me away~

2008-05-21T12:07:00.007+08:00

remember the scene from Grey's where Meredith n Christina n everybody else were dancing in the living room?
I found my own song to dance too...

I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine
I got a love, and I know that it's all mine
Do what you want, but you're never gonna break me
Sticks and stones are never gonna shake me, no
Take me away: A secret place
A sweet escape: Take me away
Take me away to better days
Take me away: A higher place
I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine
I got a love, and I know that it's all mine
Do what you want, but you're never gonna break me
Sticks and stones are never gonna shake me, no
I got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine
I got a love, and I know that it's all mine
Wish that you could, but you ain't gonna own me
Do anything you can to control me
Oh, no
There's a place that I go, but nobody knows
Where the rivers flow, and I call it home
And there's no more lies
In the darkness, there's light
And nobody cries
There's only butterflies
The sun is on my side
Take me for a ride
I smile up to the sky
I know I'll be all right

forever 15

2008-05-20T06:32:00.002+08:00

age is just a number

p/s: pics in Facebook