tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1833977.post-13979158913524397312008-03-31T13:44:00.002+11:002008-03-31T13:54:01.722+11:00epiphany! plus also maybe NOTE TO SELF:<br /><br />just because you don't know jackshit abot molecular gastronomy doesn't mean you have no skills in the kitchen. you're still a student, for fuck's sake, and one with no commercial experience. wait a while, until you have the time to think/experiment/play with food, then beat yourself up for being a dipshit if you can't get it right. <br /><br />just because you are finding certain things difficult to make vegan doesn't mean you're an idiot. it means, again, you need time to play. you need money to buy weird ingredients from la sanctuaire and play around with corn-based emulsifiers and stuff. learning food tech would probably help, too, but that's not going to happen. train yourself, learn what you have to, but give yourself time. geez. recreating dairy is hard. give yourself a fucking break. <br /><br />just because you look at all the fancypants avant garde stuff coming out of NYC doesn't mean that you have to do it, too. you wanted to be a <i>patissier</i>, remember, not a pastry chef. we've already figured out that you like creating baked goods more than plated desserts. stop looking at the fancy stuff and go play in the web of the old-school pastry world. <br /><br />finally, have you seen your hair lately? damn, baby, it looks good. and EVERYONE knows that looking good is the first step to world domination, right? right.michellehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04586693301701926023noreply@blogger.com