Khuman Ngakpa

ScribeFire !

2008-08-29T15:10:00.001+05:30

ScribeFire ,a cool add-on tool for any blogger for posting anything to your blog. Worth installing this add-ons to your browser.

I'm posting this post about ScribeFire using the just install ScribeFire from my Firefox browser.

Check Out. I'm loving it.

PS : The label part seems to be not working currently and live-preview fails to show in paragraph format. I'm forced to sign-in to blogger to put the label.Rest is damn cool.

Arrival & Depature !

2008-08-26T11:19:00.002+05:30

A hectic week since last Friday with the arrival of my States-Bound cousin coming to Mumbai for eventual trip to States, my cousin from Surat and my Uncle-Aunt for uncle's medical check-up. Plus, with the kind of pressure from office with the final delivery pending from my team in this weekend.

Been trying to keep up pace with cousins, Uncle-Aunt and work. My house is full with guests. The food are delicious due to aunt taking the role of chef. At both the ends, in office and home, I have been stretched. But, the worst part is that I'm not to get sound sleep since last week due to which I'm feeling very tired in office also but, the kind of pressure in the office is keeping me alert, awake and running after my team-mates to finish the last minute details of the deliverable.

Yesterday, I helped my US-bound cousin to finish his packing. Felt bit bad as we won't be able to meet again for another 5-6 years till he finishes his studies. So near yet so far. Anyway, this is life. Wish he will do best in his field.

Tonight I'll be going to see him off. Day after very early morning I'll going to airport again to see-off my uncle and aunt for their home-bound journey then at night to the railway station to see off my cousin for Surat.

In another 2 days my full-house will again become empty with the loneliness haunting me as usual.

Ways of tackling deadlines

2008-08-19T13:46:00.004+05:30

Interesting chart which was after surveying more than thousand Project Managers of tackling the delay in the deadline.

No matter how well you plan and execute but, the project always seems to be heading for delays.

Overtime and ignoring the deadline seem to be the best way of handling a delay.

courtesy : Code Project

PS : The survey answer were in multiple choice so the percentage may add above hundred.

Impact of Bindra !

2008-08-13T10:57:00.003+05:30

Since the opening ceremony of the Beijing Olympics games, I had been fighting with my cable operator to increase the quality of reception of DD Sport (Sole Olympic telecaster of India) which was falling to the deaf ear. I complained and threatened him saying 'Mein Cable ban kar doonga' or 'Mein paise nahin doonga jab tak...' but, still he got one reply 'Company se aise hi hain'. So I had almost given up hope of catching Olympic actions as the current DD sports was too low quality to watch both in audio and video.

That morning I put on the TV before going to office to catch a glimpse of news. Somehow I could sense some kind of happiness and excitement to the news reader. Few seconds later I saw the scrolling news "ABHINAV wins GOLD".

To catch the action, I started changing channels to the DD sports where i didn't found none. Got so angry and switched to the channel which was telecasting ESPN and suprisingly found DD sport so clear and loud and repeatedly showing the white smiles of "BINDRA".

From that day, my cable operator is putting DD sports in the high quality channel making it a joy to watch.

Thanks to 'standing-ovation' achievement of Bindra.

Perhaps, this will change the outlook of Indian to the other sports. I hope the GOI will start looking sports as a serious affair rather than adhoc matter.

Many of the Indian medalist of World Champions are struggling to find a good square meal everyday. For little luckier ones, their career has been ended with some kind of clerical jobs in railways or petroleum or hell.

Time has come for every association to grow like BCCI because they can't wait for the government for everything as this is killing the career of many thousands. Many blame BCCI for senseless commercialization of cricket but, I respect them for giving good life to every cricketers in India thereby inspiring thousands more.

Well done Abhinav Bindra.

The unhappy Kinng !

2008-08-10T17:56:00.001+05:30

A much anticipated but, a disappointing movie at the end. Neither does it has the kind of comedy of "No Entry / Welcome" nor the kind of story line of "Namaste London". The movie was much below my expectations. Being a big fan of Akshay's movie, this movie is big turn down for me.

Except for Akshay Kumar in the movie, rest of the casting seemed to be misappropriate and without much sense and redundant. The story line delivered nothing at the end. The maker failed to realize that they couldn't solely dependent on the comedy of errors for the whole movie.

The title, the kind of song, the kind of the trailer they were showing from the last month seemed to misfit with the actual movie. Except for the title track and sense of humor/acting of Akshay (perfect punjabi) rest of the movie is worthless.

To sum up everything, "The Singh is Kinng" is below average.

A pledge !

2008-08-06T12:33:00.001+05:30

I took a decision, a decision which was received with bitter heart burns and followed by full of repentance till now.

But, life is all about taking choices. You need to believe in your choice and only this thing will only make you happy. The one rule in life is that "Never look back" because life is full of "ifs and buts". Perhaps, this will help me in lessening the pain of repentance.

Looking forward is way of life.

I pledge to look forward.

My Life !

2008-08-05T11:05:00.001+05:30

Now, I'm at the crossroad thinking which way will make me more happy. For sure, I know that I'm going to repent for the road not taken. Confuse totally with the kind of consequences I can think of.

Life has become more and more complicated with each passing days. At times, my heart want to go out to the open sky and shout till my voice drop dead but, the obligations, commitments and responsibilities is tying me down. I know I can break free but, I'm scared because I'm going to hurt many more closed ones. I had already hurted many.

Life is full of choices. I want to take the blue pill.

It hurts to see you crying and worst part I'm helpless like a handicap. Rather than some consoling words and hearing your sob I'm helpless. I crust on myself for this. I can't be worst than this. Perhaps, I could be a better man next time.

A hole in my soul !

2008-08-04T11:05:00.001+05:30

Each day is filled with a huge repentance. A repentance which I'm guarding secretly. A repentance which will take my whole life to correct it. Every single idle second I spent thinking about her and thinking how much I have hurted and hurting you.

My dreams has now turned into a nightmare. I see you almost every night crying besides me, crying for the pain I caused to you. I know and can feel how hurt you must be. Except for wishing and repenting myself I can't do much.

My heart tells no one can love me as much as you did. Now, I know it's has turned to hatred for me.

But, the repentance of losing you and repentance for my actions have already created a hole in my soul which will be never filled for this lifetime.

Now, every day I tried my best to drown myself in work, shopping or doing something stupid just to ensure my mind is occupied else the repentance put me back in wilderness.

You'll never know how much I'm missing you. But, I don't have the gut feeling to call you or sms you to let you know this.

The Mummy: Tomb of the Dragon Emperor : My Take

2008-08-04T10:32:00.001+05:30

The first two installations of the movie "Mummy" film was very good. Both of them are one of my all time favorites. The best part of the movie was the how they put some kind of humor in such a movie and the combination of Brenden Fraser and Rachel Weisz. They were the perfect couple in both the movies. And, the story narration was too good.

But, the third installation which I saw just yesterday on the day of release after much preparation was much below the expectation. It didn't fit at all in the mummy-series. They had replaced Rachel Weisz. The replacement was awful and the Brenden Fraser looked old, tired and fatigue in the movie. The humor was stale. Borrowed from the previous installation. There was nothing fresh in the movie. Except that this time the mummy belonged to China rather than the customary Egypt. The narration and the way how the movie ended was the same with the previous installation. No heart stopping actions.

For a mummy-fan, this movie is a big turn-down.

Grinding Halt !

2008-07-23T10:00:00.004+05:30

Right now everything for me seems to be converging to a grinding halt. I have already give up my last hope on them. Perhaps, the time has come for me take things on hand. With the kind of atmosphere prevailing and the kind of work pressure in office, things are very draining, irritating and painful. I shout at them in the possible loudest silence. Perhaps, I may give up very soon.

For me, everything is converging to a grinding halt. My best effort is not good enough for anything.

Only a miracle can help me now.

Yahoo India sucks !

2008-07-19T13:21:00.006+05:30

Was going through Yahoo India website dated July 19 2008. Caught my attention by a photo of famous Brazilian Striker Ronaldo. When I went to the link to read the article, i found that it was for Portugese Striker Critiano Ronaldo. Perhaps, Yahoo India doesn't understand the difference of the 2 soccer legends. How much we are ignorant of soccer in India. Check the screen shot which I had uploaded.

Yahoo India sucks at the end and no way to report them this blunder in the content of front page.

Now Migraine !

2008-07-16T19:57:00.003+05:30

Every neck pain is followed by migraine in my case. Somehow, this two pains seem to be related for me. On the first day of severe migraine attack I somehow manage to make it to office with heavy medicine as I had a strict deadline for the first delivery. So I was bit uncomfortable leaving them all alone. But, the migraine took over the battle by the lunch time. Had literally collapsed in the office.

Today, 2nd day, I took off from office but, still in the morning I got up early to mail to my team for the expected work from them. No idea where they were now as the office hours got over sometimes back and no mails from them.Hoping for the best. At any cost I want to make sure things get delivered on time. I know it'll be too big challenge for me with the kind of team combination I have in hand. But, I'm ready to put in extra hours and work even on weekend to make it happen.

I normally wear my spectacles occasionally. It's really painful to handle it with the kind of extra activeness in me. Perhaps, my reluctance to wear it is inviting the migraine attack. Perhaps, I need to start wearing it like a life-saver from now onwards. This is one thing I realized and decided when I was badly down yesterday. From onwards, specs will become a permanent feature in me.

Hopefully, I'll be perfectly alright by tomorrow else I need to seriously do a medical check up of my neurons.

Neck Pain !

2008-07-10T17:28:00.003+05:30

Like a kind of headache or migraine, I usually have this neck pain quite often. But, this brings me lot of good memories which brings a little smile on my weary face. And, at the same time also reminds me the grim reality of how sinful and wicked I'm at times.

I hate this neck pain so taken as many pain killers I could in past couple of days. Had applied a one tube of balm. The pain has lessen but, not gone till now. It's still nagging. I hate this pain.

I changed my messenger status to "I'll be a better person next time". Many friend closed and far repeatedly asked me why for putting such a tasteless status. My only answer to them is "Wait and Watch" because I only know that I'm bad bad person from deep inside.

Wait and Watch. I'll be a better person next time. Please hate me for this.

Weekend Update !

2008-07-07T10:55:00.001+05:30

Perhaps, the most traveled weekend till date in Mumbai.

Friday Night Thought : Was in office till 9:30pm trying to wind up certain things.With the kind of responsibility on my head in the office I had made up mind to make to office on Saturday also. By the time we reached the threatre it was little too late for "Jaane Tu.." so ended up watching "Love Story 2050". Pretty awful movie. Sucked little anything from beginning till the end.

Saturday Morning : Got up early for the office. Had to go to bank also to deposit money for the LIC policy's which were paid by my mom. But, the rain caught me unprepared. Totally drenched but, I make it to bank to transfer the money but, my mood suddenly turned off for office. Decided to go out with my room-mate. Half-drenched after spending more than hour in the bank we went to catch "Jaane Tu..". Good movie but, much below the expectation level. Was feeling little awkward as most of the crowd for this movie were college students. A grim truth that we had grown up.

Saturday Night : Was going to Tamo S's place for dinner invite. After long time I went going to his place for dinner.Midway, I had to rush to airport for postponed the ticket of my cousin who was stuck in somewhere in Orissa due to the flood. Finally, reached Tamo S's place for dinner.The chicken was awesome and the kind of hospitality was great. Felt bad that he is going to leave Mumbai for a greener pasture.Reached home little bit after mid-night but, my spirit was high.So, me and roomi D decided to go to Bandra to hang out for sometime. But, the traffic at the highway caught us for more than an hour or so. So, by the time we reached it was too late for anything. So, had to take a U-turn as soon as we reached. Spent around Rs 400/- on auto for taking an U-turn.

Sunday : Got up after noon. So had a hasty brunch. Went to the usual afternoon nap. Saw a terrible dream. Mood really piss-off due to this. Realized how lonely I'm. Watched the clash of the titan in Wimbledon. It was the best tennis I had ever seen. At the end, it was the Hercules who won after long struggle and wait. Then, went to Hiranandani to hang out. Was getting bored all of a sudden. Also, install FC8 after so much delays. It was simply amazing. Now, I need to configure few things so that the multi-media works like that of windows.

Somehow, it seems that I'm trying to run away from myself. Nowadays, I'm afraid not to be occupied and idle. My mind turns me to such a impatient and lonely person at times.

My In-Complete Novel : Atlas Shrugged

2008-07-01T11:37:00.002+05:30

It is more than 6 months that I bought this famous novel "Atlas Shrugged". Normally, I buy all my collection of novels from Second Hand Shop only because I don't believe in keeping them after once read. I normally give them away to my friends, cousins or whoever asked for the same.

After a long and painful un-successful search in Second Hand Shop, I decided to buy it from anywhere even if it is gonna to cost me because I like the character "Howard Roark" in her novel "The Fountainhead" a lot. When I first saw the novel in the First Hand Shop nearby my house my hearts skipped a beat and immediately ended up paying Rs 300/- for the same. Never thought twice while buying it.

Six month have past but, I have yet to cross the half mark. In fact, I have forgotten the last page I read. Atlast Shrugged is not as good as "Fountainhead" till the page I read. Moreover, the internet, movies in PC is taking much of my time after the office. All these new things seem to be eating some of habit of reading. I ended up surfing / watching some movie almost everyday.

Someday, I'm gonna complete this. This is the thought which immediately come in my mind whenever I saw the novel in the morning laying by my bed while getting ready for office. Maybe never.

My Little Niece

2008-06-23T23:32:00.003+05:30

My little Niece. My sister is looking for a name starting with 'T' on which I suggested "Tum-Shak" to my sister's much displeasure.

Borrowed Quotes !

2008-06-14T10:58:00.001+05:30

Both the quotes are borrowed because I like them somehow so decided to post it in mine.

1. Programming is all about knowing when to boil the orange sponge donkey across the phillipines with an orangutang gorilla crossed with a ham sandwich to the fourth power of twelve across the nile with an awful headache from the previous night when all of alfred's naughty jalapeno peppers frog-marched the nordic elves across the loom-lined geronimo induced swamp donkey over and above the fortran fortified kilomanjaro fence past the meticulously crafted anti disgusting sponge cake scenario where all the hats doth quoteth the milk which is not unlike the super werewolf from the infinite realm of ninja-step. it's hard to define, really.

2. Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it's better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.

Must Read : A Grim Truth of Percentage

2008-06-12T10:22:00.002+05:30

An article from e-pao. Must read which reflect the kind of corruption prevailing in Manipur.

A Grim Truth of Percentage


http://www.e-pao.net/epSubPageSelector.asp?src=A_Grim_Truth_of_Percentage&ch=news_section&sub1=opinions&sub2=Politics_and_Governance
(in case the above link doesn't open. Please do copy, paste this url to the address bar)

You !

2008-06-05T10:13:00.000+05:30

It is not that I care less for you. But, it's that I chose the lesser evil.

Only thing I repent everyday is that why I haven't met you earlier. The pain of losing you forever hurts a lot and it's going to haunt me forever.

I know it would take more than many life-times to correct my path but, wherever I'm I only wish for your goodness.

Till my last breathe, I'll remember you as someone more than special.

I miss you and will miss you forever !

A Wish !

2008-05-28T04:53:00.000+05:30

You are doing good
You are doing better
You will do best than ever.

On hearing this, I feel good

Always wish for your goodness wherever I'm.
The only thing I could do for you.

All the best.

Percentage Cut !

2008-05-24T01:22:00.004+05:30

Percentage cut of a thikka (project) undertaken in Manipur :

Underground / millitants : 16 % ( can also increase)
Ibobi and his ministry : 10%
Concerned Department : 4%
Concerned Executive Engineer : 2%
Concerned Supertindent / Chief Engineer : 5%

(There are many more of cuts depending on the size of the projects. But, this is minimal for every project undertaken in Manipur currently).

Total Cut in the project : 37% of the total alloted fund for the project.

Assuming that our infamous thikkadar (contractor) makes a minimum profit of 10% then, the kind of cut in the project will be 47%.

In lay mens' word, for every Rs 100/- alloted for the project then only Rs 53/- reaches to the intended destination. Rest of the money goes to various pockets as shown above in percentage.

No wonder why so many project are delayed , so low in the quality and many are far from complete after the deadlines.No wonder why our first flyover turned into a simple bridge serving little or no purpose at the end and why it took so long. No wonder why the houses / buildings of such pocket owners are growing every day.

Happened to talk to a friend who is currently doing some thikka (projects) for Govt. of Manipur. This stats are loosely based on his inputs on my various questions.

UGPur !

2008-05-14T14:29:00.002+05:30

Picture worth more than thousand words !

Courtesy : Hmar.net

Warning !

2008-05-04T23:04:00.001+05:30

Only because we ignore the hints / warnings we are always in deep trouble.

Guns !

2008-05-03T14:09:00.003+05:30

Perhaps, the Govt. Of Manipur (GOM) has finally realized the gravity of the militancy problem due to which many innocent citizens are suffering every day due to extortion, ransom etc. The GOM has decided to empower the citizens with guns to make the fight lot easier. Perhaps, a wise move if implemented wise and ideally else this will lead to a kind civil war. The gun revolution is taking a final dive to reach the abyss for a better tomorrow.

Check the link below to believe your eyes

http://e-pao.net/GP.asp?src=1..030508.may08

http://www.ndtv.com/convergence/ndtv/story.aspx?id=NEWEN20080048667

Happy Quote

2008-04-21T09:53:00.001+05:30

Being selfish is key to pure happiness.

Think about it.