dysamoria

tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-166634542009-07-09T03:38:38.270-04:00dysamoriadysamoriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10297987530825303618noreply@blogger.comBlogger691125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16663454.post-12393189850068041912009-07-09T00:28:00.004-04:002009-07-09T00:36:39.474-04:00coplay authorties pander to the elderly & harass the disabled

3 minutes after i make noise and they're there, knocking and calling me by my first name. they try to lure me to the door by lying that they cannot hear me, despite they can hear me tell them to get off my property. they harass me about my lawn, despite that i'm disabled. they shine flashlights into my windows. they ignore all the noise in the town (farty cars and motorcycles... and anna). they

dysamoriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10297987530825303618noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16663454.post-86997665336663067932009-06-28T22:26:00.002-04:002009-06-28T22:28:32.340-04:00the king of puhlease stop already

is there a single website i can go to that isn't going on about you-know-who?

dysamoriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10297987530825303618noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16663454.post-74806282917943680892009-06-28T19:38:00.003-04:002009-06-28T21:13:10.541-04:00abnormal

i posted my respect for Ju Gosling's work once before... & now again: HERE.

dysamoriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10297987530825303618noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16663454.post-16542425178115039422009-06-24T22:29:00.005-04:002009-06-24T22:56:58.213-04:00more inappropriate censorship on the part of flickr

under the guise of removing offensive content, flickr continues to offend its users by removing them with no warning or explanation. this time the crime was... expressing left wing political opinions. read about it on Thomas Hawk's blog.

VictoryGreynoreply@blogger.com14tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16663454.post-33222778463264389492009-06-18T19:18:00.003-04:002009-06-28T16:32:39.673-04:00what's been missing all along: everyone else's empathy

i don't need to analyse my dreams. i know what they're about almost automatically. never had to interpret much at all. but twenty minutes ago an element finally became clear that's been ever present in a majority of them... as too the reason why.like many, this was a dream of me crying and screaming at parents, family, people... about my suffering. the topic was my home. lost home. as in several

dysamoriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10297987530825303618noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16663454.post-73904781651076129342009-06-18T08:29:00.004-04:002009-06-18T08:43:07.675-04:00in states unknown and accents yet unspoken

sing about death and dying.a happy song with skulls,tears, grey hair, dust &rusting star ships.finite. perishable. burst like bubblesor deflate like this horrible bit of cremative writing.cans, bottles, wrappers, scatteredalong the roadside, tossedby careless beingsthat used to play here and slaughterthe innocent.detritus. left to die, alone, unneeded.autistic child, become my adult corpse.

dysamoriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10297987530825303618noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16663454.post-31297477932337499662009-06-18T08:13:00.005-04:002009-06-18T08:24:59.665-04:00lost myself in this burnt out shell

click for a larger view (larger than what's in the gallery)this was my home, once. i was a person, once. i used to know what i was.i cared. i thought it mattered. i thought something was worth the effort.turned out, there is nothing, this is not my home and i am nobody.now i'm just a shell within a shell. a burnt out man in a burnt out home.

dysamoriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10297987530825303618noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16663454.post-15002348381114964322009-06-17T05:37:00.007-04:002009-06-18T08:57:25.438-04:00new photochops [updated]

updated the gallery... 5 new images...[updated with 5 more and they're all larger now]

dysamoriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10297987530825303618noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16663454.post-60649140117825830242009-06-16T07:42:00.008-04:002009-06-16T08:16:09.496-04:00don't i have the RIGHT to NOT be drugged??

d'you know, if they force you into hospital, they can forcibly INJECT you w/medication any asshole doctor prescribes? even if you're AUTISTIC, they don't know SHIT about you, autism &/or they specialize in CHILDREN (not adults). where is fucking human rights & dignity? they can take it away. i call THAT despotic. i call it neuroracist SLAVERY.4+ years of effexor xr wrecked my life. off it five(?)

dysamoriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10297987530825303618noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16663454.post-77268137980498493712009-06-15T21:00:00.005-04:002009-06-15T21:20:07.545-04:00neurological observations of jace

- THIS i sent to a beautiful, intelligent & talented girl i met on flickr. she was seeking answers to personal issues. it helped her determine she has AS. she eventually became an asshole to me (blaming me for her cruelty - notice the trend - she must have BPD, too). originally compiled for disability/diagnosis purposes, now posted here in case someone finds it useful/helpful.- THIS was donna's

dysamoriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10297987530825303618noreply@blogger.com13tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16663454.post-69314300964326475972009-06-15T20:28:00.008-04:002009-06-15T20:47:36.374-04:00full "On," or full "Off"

from me to a friend, about so-called black & white thinking in people with AS. it references sex, but it applies to many "B&W issues" with autism. especially important read for relationship partners where one or both have AS. read HERE (save to disk & read w/TextEdit if using Firefox on Mac; Safari is fine.)note: i suggested medication as a possibility. i take that back. after 4+ years on an SSRI

dysamoriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10297987530825303618noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16663454.post-50721510665044351832009-06-15T19:55:00.006-04:002009-06-15T20:49:40.312-04:00an endless debate

chat transcript: myself & a guy i worked with at Kensington Tech Support in 2000. i was still with jana & employed full time (thought i had a life so didn't consider ending it; my prior view on suicide).interesting & telling (annoyingly): steve's constant asking questions he doesn't like my answers to (so stop asking!). a perfect example of what i've dealt with in "believers..." & everyone else.

dysamoriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10297987530825303618noreply@blogger.com31tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16663454.post-71105099034769076622009-06-13T20:58:00.001-04:002009-06-13T21:01:39.780-04:00thoughtful and aware people

here's one: http://thetoofarfuture.blogspot.com/(with respect and thanks)

dysamoriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10297987530825303618noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16663454.post-85121284740197123862009-06-13T14:20:00.002-04:002009-06-13T14:46:40.312-04:00The Desire to Hurt Back

I wear a breathing mask to protect against the dust cloud that forms as I change cat litter. Today as I took off that mask after a particularly smelly change, I lost my grip on one of the elastics and sent it snapping back onto my skin. "Fuck You!" I yelled with a nasty expression on my face, then finished taking it off.This isn't the first time I've yelled at an inanimate object. And I'm not

VictoryGreynoreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16663454.post-68097422149751248992009-06-10T01:51:00.001-04:002009-06-10T01:53:11.326-04:00James Williams (of Illinois)

www.jamesmw.com is an good site for parents to read for perspective.

blogavoidanthttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03277411985577293905noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16663454.post-18951266475999476032009-06-09T07:23:00.003-04:002009-06-09T07:26:09.650-04:00it can't rain all the time... but maybe it should

it can rain all the time, but it's rarely a satisfying electrical storm like this morning (CRW_4683)

dysamoriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10297987530825303618noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16663454.post-54027912759243498602009-06-05T02:31:00.005-04:002009-06-05T02:37:15.633-04:00the dead and dying

two old, one new.

dysamoriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10297987530825303618noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16663454.post-74560620061556781182009-06-04T20:06:00.002-04:002009-06-04T20:16:58.648-04:00PROOF that the home invasion was unwarranted

blogavoidant did some research for me about my exposure to carbon monoxide. you know, the reason i was torn from my home in handcuffs, sanctioned by my fucking false parents... She sent this to my "mother" to prove to them that they were WRONG and were pushed around by ignorant crisis intervention FUCKWADS. no response ever came.I have read the ER report and the police report from the night Jace

dysamoriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10297987530825303618noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16663454.post-92014392231795804692009-06-04T07:43:00.012-04:002009-06-04T22:23:35.392-04:00i HATE YOU. coplay is LAWLESS; bitch neigbors can do whatever they want because they're good 'ol boy miserable elderly CUNTS. FUCK COPLAY!! [UPDATED]

anna is allowed to blast her motherfucking television from 5pm to 10pm. It's so loud that i cannot sleep, or even think in MY OWN HOUSE. i cannot work in my studio to attempt suicide-preventing creativity. i can make out the words to her mindless television game shows. the OTHER one harasses me about my lawn. OH WAIT. BOTH DO THAT. and she has loud company EVERY FUCKING WEEKEND. have i EVER

dysamoriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10297987530825303618noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16663454.post-26384163495417808982009-06-04T06:36:00.002-04:002009-06-04T06:37:02.384-04:00dignity at the end of life... what if you want the end and you're not "terminally ill?"

http://www.candcofwa.org/initiative.html

dysamoriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10297987530825303618noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16663454.post-60098911159004903462009-06-04T06:00:00.011-04:002009-06-04T23:13:37.054-04:00the egos rage on at socipathic Kutztown University's Rohrbach Library HELL HOLE [UPDATED]

this is just disgusting. i had to read bullshit from a former colleague at KU about "changes" at Rohrbach fucking Library on Assbook... so i replied to it. here's the deal:Changes Contine [sic] in Rohrbach LibraryTo members of Kutztown University Rohrbach LibraryKaren WanamakerMay 20 at 10:02am ReplyReport Message. Changes continue during the summer in the Rohrbach Library. We are currently

dysamoriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10297987530825303618noreply@blogger.com29tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16663454.post-78987385392226012009-05-29T15:56:00.004-04:002009-05-29T16:08:14.287-04:00poverty means you can't read their letters

i have no money to pay a lawyer to represent me or even translate this fucking legalese bullshit. WTF does most of this garbage even mean? ever heard of plain language, you fucking elitist cunts? i'm an educated, intelligent person with a sharp grasp of the English language & this is not it. oh, and you filthy sociopathic corporate pigs, your money can be recovered from Wyeth and KU.

dysamoriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10297987530825303618noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16663454.post-54741054366640625272009-05-29T14:49:00.007-04:002009-05-29T16:09:58.203-04:00unrewarding work, unrespected intentions, antisociety

i spent a few hours working in the front & back yard. i'm weak, shaky & itchy. i'm disabled, you know? fuck. no one ever gives a piss about MY disabilities. they forever expect me to be a conforming mindless drone & have 1" perfect grass with razor sharp edging. i've physical issues thanks to the shit chemicals you fucktards pushed on me (john, doctors, etc).dickwads of coplay:if you can't tell

dysamoriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10297987530825303618noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16663454.post-26323204169994945862009-05-29T10:22:00.003-04:002009-05-29T10:28:30.030-04:00random dysamoria music upload

"new" mp3 available on the music page. "Alive and Well" is a modern version of an old mod. it's cheerful & nice. it doesn't reflect how i feel at all, but the work is mostly done & people wont download mod players... enjoy.

dysamoriahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10297987530825303618noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-16663454.post-8725028367195926102009-05-28T10:50:00.002-04:002009-05-28T10:52:38.704-04:00random music discovery: Hunz

nice stuff... http://hunz.bandcamp.com/album/thoughts-that-movefound via Renoise (a 'tracker style" music creation tool)

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