SMDesires

not forgotten, just sidetracked

2009-05-09T23:25:00.000-07:00

I haven't forgotten about this blog, its still in the back of my mind to finish aubrey's site and move the contents over but I decided to go back to school to get my masters and writing and sex have gotten a little put aside. You know when you don't have sex for a long time, that other things just fill the space, women know this, you start to channel other things to fill the void and it gets to a point where you don't miss all that much until wham, it hits you like a tons of bricks and you're having sexual dreams, hot sexy dreams about that boy you made never get to touch and then another wham and you finally do get to touch him and yes, its was worth the wait. I can not get his sexy ass out of my head and I wish I had been more prepared for his return, I was so turned on with the idea of touching him, I forgot about everything I had wanted to do when I got the opportunity. He needs to come back!! I want to play with that ass again.

He's looking for something else

2009-02-07T15:13:00.000-08:00

I was sitting in the darkened corner of the bar with a couple of friends, Mike and Jason. Jason was on the prowl tonight for something special leaning over the couch, looking down my shirt, sticking his ass in the air, waiting for just the right person to catch his attention, his manner was nonchalant about the whole prospective of finding just the right guy for his night of fun. I must
have gasped and Jason followed my line of sight to you. You were looking for something tonight and it wasn't a girl, you were looking to play dirty. You had on my favorite jeans with just the right rip in just the wrong spot. Jason asked, "you know him?"

"uh huh", I couldnt take my eyes off of you.

"Oh, " Jason sounded disappointed, "he's into girls, then nevermind."

"Wait", I said, "he likes both and tonight he's not looking for girls, watch how he looks right past them or shakes his head when one approaches, he's looking for something else tonight. You're interested, aren't you?"

"Yes, but aren't you? What's he doing here if he's looking for something else?"

"You're here. Of course I'm into him. Damn that's making me wet just thinking about you fucking him and me playing with both of you."

"What's his name?"

Jason walked over to you and nonchalantly stood behind you, reach around you and set his beer down, grazing your ass with his hand, whispered in your name in his ear and ask to join us in the back. I thought you were going to jump out of your pants but you followed Jason back to the couches. You looked surprised when you saw me sitting there but it was a quick flash in your eyes and nothing else. I could tell you were getting hard and Jason wasn't that far behind. Mike was sitting on the other side of me, his hand on my knee. Jason sat down on the other side of me and motioned for you to sit down next to him. Jason ran his hand down your leg and back up again, grazing you cock slightly...we sat there for a while barely talking, I didn't know how much longer either you or Jason could contain yourselves when Jason stood up and put his hand out to pull you up, saying it was time to go upstairs. Jason walked to the back of the club, unlocked the door and motioned you inside. Before Jason went through the door, I whispered in his ear, "he likes to be dominanted."

Jason looked at me with a quick gleam in his eye and said "baby, what have you been up to while i was away."

"oh nothing," I said innocently.

Jason could barely wait once he got you inside his place, he couldn't wait to feel his hard cock in your ass. He pushed you up against the wall and stuck his tongue in your mouth, his hands exploring your hard body, your hard cock. You wanted him as much as he wanted you, you had been wanting him all night.

"Really, you couldnt wait til you got him upstairs to the playroom?" As Mike and I pushed past you and Jason. We thought Jason might take you right there on the stairs.

Jason's playroom was amazing, it was his bedroom but it was decandant and rich and subtle in his sexual desires. The leather and hooks on the walls to hold you just the right position softly.

He grabbed your hands and pulled you towards his playroom, once inside, he didn't waste much time, he pinned you against the wall with one hand and undid your jeans with his other, sliding your pants and boxers to the floor, pulling out your hard cock, stroking you expertly, just right but not enough to make you come. From the air it seemed like, he slipped a cock ring on your hard cock just to make sure, he wanted you hard until he was ready. He released your hands and they feel limp at your sides. Moving down your body, slowly, he took your hard cock in his mouth while he got you to step out of your clothes, he wanted you naked, aching and needing more.

He quietly whispered to you to get on your knees on the bed, he wanted you now. He grabbed the lube off the dresser and dribbled it down your ass, he knew that he should be gentle but he couldn't wait, he couldn't wait for anything, your hard muscler blond body was making him hard and horny and when he got you on your knees, your ass was begging for his hard cock. He stroked himself a little with the lube and entered your ass forcibly, rocking you forward in surprise and begging for more. Pulling back slowly and savoring the moment, he fucks you
slowly, gently, not wanting to come just yet.

Mike and I have figured we've given Jason enough time alone with you. We walk into the bedroom naked surprising you and ask Jason, "what you couldnt wait for us?" I walk around to Jason and give him a deep kiss while he's fucking your ass and rub his back, fingering my pussy. Mike pulls me back from Jason and pushes me down on the bed, manevuring me close to your hard cock and pushes his hard cock into my wet pussy. Fucking me slowly, yet deeper and deeper matching Jason's strokes into your ass, they create a rhythm of sexual music in the playroom, as I suck on your hard cock, finally tasting every single inch of you. As I cum in a wave of orgasm, shaking from the sexual overload, you cum down my throat, Mike pulls out of me and forces his hard cock down your throat and Jason finally unable to contain himself anymore cums in your ass, as Mike cums all over your face.

Lying there in a heap of sweaty, hot bodies, Jason leans over and kisses you tasting Mike and mine cum mingled and sighs, whispering, "I've guess you've met my wife."

nailing it down

2009-02-02T22:18:00.000-08:00

I've promised this story for quite awhile now but as you know life takes twists and turns and I just haven't nailed down the characters or the plot quite yet and I was thinking about posting this one on the new site but that seems to be in the future, so for now, a sneak preview of the new story coming soon, seriously its cumming soon....havent yet quite figured out the title either
~~~~~~~~~~~Sneak Preview of new story ~~~~

I was sitting in the darkened corner of the bar with a few friends, Tony, Pat and Jason. Jason was on the prowl tonight for something special leaning over the couch, sticking his ass in the air, waiting for just the right person to catch his attention, his manner was nonchalant about the whole prospective of finding just the right guy for his night of fun. I must have gasped and Jason followed my line of sight to you. You were looking for something tonight and it wasn't a girl, you were looking to play dirty. You had on my favorite jeans with just the right rip in just the wrong spot. Jason asked, "you know him?"

"uh huh", I couldnt take my eyes off of you.

"Oh, " Jason sounded disappointed, "he's into girls, then nevermind."

"Wait", I said, "he likes both and tonight he's not looking for girls, watch how he looks right past them or shakes his head when one approaches, he's looking for something else tonight. You're interested, aren't you?"

"Yes, but aren't you? What's he doing here if he's looking for something else?"

"You're here. Of course I'm into him. Damn that's making me wet just thinking about you fucking him and me playing with both of you. But what about Pat, what am I going to do with him?"

"Pat's into you, he'll play along. What's his name?"

Jason walked over to you and nonchalantly stood behind you, reach around you and set his beer down, grazing your ass with his hand, whispered in your name in his ear and ask to join us in the back. I thought you were going to jump out of your pants but you followed Jason back to the couches, quietly and submissively. You looked surprised when you saw me sitting there but it was a quick flash in your eyes and nothing else. I could tell you were getting hard and Jason wasn't that far behind. Pat was being shy but a few more drinks and he might loosen up. Jason sat down beside you and ran his hand down your leg and back up again, grazing you cock slightly...

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now, see I'm thinking I have too many characters going and what happens next, how do we all end up in the bedroom, maybe I'm overthinking this, but this one needs to be something more, something sweeter, dirtier, something ?

I need to feel his ass

2008-12-24T23:25:00.001-08:00

Not sure how to explain exactly what I want but I do know that I need it, i need to feel his hard cock in my mouth while I play with his ass. I want him to strip naked and be on top while we 69, I want his ass within reach and his hard cock in my mouth. I want him to fuck me with his tongue and fingers in my pussy and my ass and while he's fucking me with his tongue, biting my clit, I want to run my fingers down his ass and slowly, teasing insert one then two and maybe three fingers in his ass, I want to tease him slowly and make him cum when I want him to come, although maybe we'll need the cock ring unless he can hold out.

I NEED to PLAY with his ass. I NEED release, texting back and forth when he's fucking himself in my bed and then no nudity the next day, makes for a very horny frustrated girl. The shower massager is nice and all and I know he likes listening and the toys are great but a girl needs to feel the sensation of his ass in her hands.

And next time I say take a pic, that means take the pic and send it to me!!

I'm wondering if I could tie him up in the position? Another story..soon

crazy idea, maybe

2008-11-21T01:55:00.000-08:00

I like girls, I don't just like girls, I LIKE GIRLS! The thought of kissing a girl, feeling her tits in my hands, rubbing her clit, licking her wet pussy totally turns me on and yet I've only explored that avenue once when in high school and it was an weird moment. So I'm trying again, I have a date next week with a girl. Now don't get me wrong, I still love men and would never give up having a hard cock in my pussy or my ass but I have this fantasy about this girl that I see every other week, her tits are so hard and perky, I would love to hold them, squeeze her nipples, slide my hand down her pants and rub her hard little clit until she was screaming for mercy but I doubt she's into that....so the date with girl, I'll tell you how that goes....until then, sweet naughty dreams

a few shorts

2008-11-13T17:44:00.001-08:00

had a smidgen of writers block but I think my muse maybe has found her way back....and so a new chapter of lust and love for the kinky has began again...a few shorts if you will

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As I watched you watching me, its the way you watch me with complete lust in your eyes. You want to touch, I know you do, the way your eyes dance over my body and to my very wet pussy. The way you smile when feigning something in the back room just to watch me dress, how many times did you forget something in that room. And I love watching you, watching your hard cock in your hands, wanting so much to sit up, grab you and taste your hard cock, lick it, put it down my throat and suck til my hearts content. And the other day, I can't get that out of my head, when you put your hands on your ass and started to play with your ass, I came right there and its making me so wet thinking about you playing with your ass. I want to play with your ass, I want you stripped and down on your knees with your ass in the air, I want to fuck you from behind, feel my fingers in your ass til your coming hard and fast.

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Omg, you are awesome, 5 times in one night, I want to know your kinkiness, what are your fetishes, your secret desires. Do you like your ass played with? Have you ever had your ass fucked? Everytime you went down on me, to lick and finger fuck me, I wanted you to slide your fingers a little further and titlate my ass just a little. Everytime you moved into position to let me suck your hard cock, my arm and fingers were inches from your ass, I wanted to play there but I wasn't sure if you'd like it or not. I like my clit bitten just a little not too hard but enough, use your teeth babe. And most of all, I want to feel your hard cock in my ass. Do you like anal sex?

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And last but not least, I haven't forgotten about you, its hard to give someone specs on what will happen when I don't know what will happen. When we meet for the first time, I want you naked and lying on your bed. I want to watch first, watch you stroke your hard cock with one hand and I want your other hand playing with your ass, I want to watch you for a little while, don't worry, I will touch you, lick your hard cock, taste your precum and fuck your ass, I've been waiting for the chance for someone to let me fuck them completely.

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Author is extremely wet and horny now, one finger is on my clit, rubbing furiously, i am so wet, mmm, tastes good, feeling my ass slowly, I need more, I need to feel a hard cock in my ass, faster, harder, omgggggggggggggggggggggggggggg, yessssssssssssss

the studio

2008-10-22T15:45:00.000-07:00

We walk into the studio, I want to show you where the lights will be and where I need the cable attached. "what's the cable for?"

"Since this place has so many windows, sometimes, I'm going to want a little privacy when other people are going to be working in the house, so I thought I'd put curtains on a cable to pull close occasionally but let the air in."

"Privacy for what?"

"Something like this." I turn around and push you against the unfinished wall, push your hands up behind your head and lean against you, "am I invading your space again?" I ask breathlessly, a hint of mischeviousness, kissing you deeply. I can't handle this watching, no touching policy anymore, I want you. I realized I want you, no one else and I don't want to play games anymore.

My hands move down your chest, omg, finally touching your chest, your skin. I can feel your hard cock beneath your jeans, I want them off but we're still exposed and as much as I like being on the verge of being caught, I don't want to be caught by my employees, I want you to myself.

Its a muddle mess of hands touching each other exploring each other for the first time, touching and kissing each other for the first time, an urgent need to satisfy each other after months and months of frustrating just watching, no touching. You reach under my shirt and squeeze my breasts in your hands.....

**side note** author is having a smidgen of writer's block..will continue the story soon

aching for his touch

2008-10-18T10:06:00.001-07:00

despite everything that has happened in the last 24 hours, I still want to feel just how far he can slide into me, just thinking about him is making me so wet. Everytime we kiss, I want more.

**i need more research on this subject to clearly write about this sensation**

to be explored

2008-10-14T00:03:00.000-07:00

Its been awhile since I've posted here but alot of changes since July, my sexy muse - she quietly escape for a hiatus of sorts but she's back. There is a new enchantment waiting to hatch and yet writing about this new one seems to be providing quite a difficult task, its not that i'm not completely and utterly turned on by him because I am but I think there is quite a bit of exploration to be done before the words can escape my mind, my sexy muse is slowly waking up or maybe she's just waiting for me to move forward to the new layout/location...she waits with bated breath as does my soul.

Yearning for more yet waiting patiently in the wings, she sits upon the door of the stars, gathering her dust to spread beneath the wind, the sun and the moon for sleep she will dream of her inspiration, by day and night she will experience her desires, feel his touch.

Touch me

2008-07-20T16:38:00.000-07:00

I need you to touch me. I crave your touch. Is touching me off-limits? I know touching you is off-limts. Do you want to touch?

Next time you walk into the room when I'm getting dressed, come closer, alot closer. Put your hands on my breasts and touch me. Hold my breasts with your hands, squeeze my nipples with your thumbs, fondle my breasts. Touch me.

I'd love to feel your teeth on my nipples and your lips sucking my breasts. I'd love for you to cup my pussy with your hand and insert a finger or two and finger fuck me but that might be a little too much touching, a little too far beyond just touching.

Touch me.

oh yea baby fuck me harder

2008-06-04T17:35:00.001-07:00

Thank you. Omg that was so intense. I was walking to the bedroom to get changed, my robe barely covering my ass, I didn't notice him behind me so intently trying to figure out what I was going to wear that day, my mind thinking about too many things at once per usual. He pushed me against the wall and grabbed my neck almost like he couldn't take it anymore, that look on my face that I just wanted to fuck him and fuck him hard. He didn't give me a chance to react, to think before he pushed me into the bedroom and pushed me down on my knees, my bare ass sticking up in the air and before I knew it, his hard cock was pushing its way into my ass, harder, deeper, in and out, oh yea baby fuck me, fuck me harder. It like he was punishing me for all those attempts to seduce him and I wasn't protesting. His fingers found my clit and started to pinch and pull at it, tweaking it hard, I was so wet and so close, I wanted to feel his hard cock in my pussy but he was holding me down with his weight, face down in the bed, I could barely think, let alone talk. Just as I about to cum, he pulled out. Oh no, don't stop! He pulled me up and flipped me over, finding my nipples with his teeth, he bit them hard, his hard cock slide into my soaked pussy and his hands grabbed my neck, while my hands finally free slide down his ass, pulling him deeper into me, my fingers finding his ass and playing with it finally. Between his hard cock driving deeper and harder into my pussy and his teeth on my nipples, my fingers playing were they had been wanting to go for such a long time and his hands around my neck, I was pushed over the edge, hot and sweaty, I came in uncontrollable wave of sheer ectasy.

oh yea baby fuck me hard.

no touching the display

2008-06-04T16:36:00.000-07:00

no touching the display

Everytime she saw him with his shirt off, she wanted to push him against the railing and run her teeth over his nipples, slide her hands down his belly and unbutton his jeans. She wanted to take his hard cock in her mouth right there and suck and lick to her hearts content but she could only watch and imagine because he had a no touching policy. It was like he was a display in a candy store and if she touched she might melt him. Her body twitched at the slight contact they had, her mouth watered at the thought of watching him masturbate, the slight wetness between her legs kept her thoughts from concentrating at the task at hand. She never quite got anything done while he was around and yet she worked madly at all her tasks, savoring the glimpse of his skin. She wanted to see more, she wondered what they could do without touching, an erotic pleasure of non touching one another made her imagination wander to new heights.

She wanted to paint him, cover his body in bodypaint with a paint brush, that wasn't touching, only the paint brush would be touching his body. She wanted to paint swirls around his nipples, brush the brush against his cock, his ass and then have him lie down on a drop cloth to capture the image.

Wonder how else she could not touch?

Personal Playtime

2008-05-28T17:44:00.000-07:00

As soon as the last employee walked out the door, my personal playtime began. I shimmed out of my jeans and thong, hoping you'd be online. I wanted to play with you so badly today, I wanted to watch you play. I sat for a moment enjoying the peace, fingers lazily rubbing my clit while I logged on, feeling my wetness that had been lingering there all day. As soon as I'd start to write this out, someone would be in my office and I had to put this on the backburner, all day in my mind, various storylines started and then stopped, frustration coursing through my being. I longed to be able to stick my fingers in my pussy but alas I had to wait and wait and wait. And so I sit here now, lazily playing with my clit, running my fingers up and down my swollen pussy, the rabbit standing by, ready for some action. My shirt and bra need to be taken out, I stop for a moment and pull my tshirt over my head and unhook my bra, my hands grabbing both breasts and kneading, fondling my nipples, squeezing and pulling, pinching harder and harder, bringing my nipples closer and closer to my tongue, almost but not quite can I lick my own nipples, imaging your teeth biting them hard and pulling them between your teeth, using a piece of ice to stimulate the feeling of a tongue brushing up against my harden nipples, my breast just seem to sensitive and round and firm today, I just want to feel them roughly played with, feel your hands on them. I know its only a fantasy that you'll ever touch them but its all I got is my imagination today and the thought you of fucking my breasts with your hands is making me wetter. I leave my breasts alone for a moment, while I lazily move the ice down between my breasts, down my belly to my clit and imagine its your tongue bitting and nipping while I slowly put my rabbit in my pussy, my very very wet pussy, slowly turning the vibe on, level 1, then 2, then 3, then 4, then 5, as one finger lubricates my ass with my sweet nectar, don't you wish you could taste it right now? Yum.

I ask what you are wearing, do you realize how much I want you to want to watch me play? I'm so willing and able to turn on the webcam for you right now for your own private pleasure and yet you don't even ask and so I start to tell you what I'm imagining, I'm imagining you watching me while I watch you while I put the vibe in my ass but instead I hold the vibe with one hand and put one finger in my ass, then two while my other hand is around my neck, squeezing my throat. I don't know what it is today but I have this desire to feel a hand around my throat while getting fucked and I imagine you cumming on my ass or cumming on my breasts, all over me while I watch but don't touch. My mouth waters in anticpation.

I don't know if it was the porn playing in the background or the thought of you sitting your green polka dotted boxers or my hand around my neck or just the thought you watching me while I watch you or the thought of watching you masturbate, seeing your precum at the top of your hard cock and imaging licking it off that made me want to put the vibe on level 10 right against my clit, pushing at the desk for leverage, fingers in my ass that caused that amazing explosive orgasm that has left me shivering, shaking and still so utterly wet.

I don't know whether to go take a nap or just play again until I cum.

writing style

2008-05-27T12:13:00.000-07:00

so I realized I've been using alot of third person writing instead of first person writing style, thought I'd see if I could change my style a little..might work, might not...and since at the moment I'm covertly writing this with my employees in the house - me getting all hot and horny right now might not be the best idea since it might leave me all frustrated...so on to the story...or maybe not, she's in the room now..might have to wait til later to try out first person writing style

don't touch

2008-05-17T00:44:00.000-07:00

She handed him a slip of paper and told him to read it and then come into her bedroom in 5 minutes.

He watched her walk away, opened the slip of paper and read what she had written, "I don't want you to touch, I want you to watch. I want you to come silently into the bedroom and sit on the chair and watch, don't touch. If you feel like masturbating, then by all means go for it but if you start to cum, you have to cum on my ass. Don't touch and don't ask questions. Don't think, just do it, now!"

He was full of questions, he couldn't help himself, they had been playing a game of question/answer except he refused to answer any more of her questions until she ask the one question she said she had to ask when they saw each other again and she wouldn't ask it.

He walked into her room as instructed and found her naked on her bed, her legs bent, one farther on the bed and she was facing away from him, her eyes closed, her ass and pussy exposed to him. One hand was lightly rubbing her swollen pussy lips and occasionally rubbing her clit. He sat down and watched for awhile silently as she rubbed her juices on her ass, back and forth between her pussy to her ass, a slow teasing torture of a slow song, was she testing him? What if he wanted to touch? She continued to go back and forth, lubricating her ass and then she put her finger in her ass. Oh, he was hard alright, he unbutton his shorts and took out his hard cock and started to stroke it lightly, he didn't want to cum before she was finished. She went back to lubricating her ass some more with her juices. She started to finger herself, putting three fingers in her pussy, finger fucking herself slowly. Her other hand started to tweak her clit, pulling at it, twisting it and then she put two fingers, then three in her ass and started to fuck her ass. He was stroking his cock harder now, he longed to touch, to taste but he couldn't touch, he couldn't cheat and she knew that. Her eyes were closed, her breathing was labored and she was moaning, she was close and he was not that far away. In and out, her fingers plunged into her ass, faster now, in and out, oh my, she was fucking her ass with her fingers, god that was hot, her ass looked so delicious from his view. He couldn't help himself, he stood up and leaned down onto the bed and came all over her lovely ass, never touching her.

As his cum spurted on her ass, she was so fucking turned on, that she came in a wave of leg shaking, heart stopping orgasm of pure delight. Her fingers felt so good in her ass but what she really wanted was to feel his hard cock pounding into her. She opened her eyes a few times to watch him masturbate, his eyes glued to her ass. Watching him masturbate while watching
her was so sexy. She watched him pump his cum on her ass and as he was finishing, she broke the silent, hoarsly whispering, "touch me, touch me now."

his tools

2008-05-07T20:45:00.000-07:00

she sat in the morning sunshine letting the heat warm her body, the wind like a tender caress against her exposed thigh, a slight tickle upon her hot warm pussy. Her eyes closed, she leans back and stretches, letting the wind dance along her body. Opening her legs a little wider to allow the cool wind to dance a little deeper, she begins to play with her nipples, pinching and pulling, her hands exposing her breasts to the sunshine.

Her pussy lips began to swell and she is beyond wet, as he watches her. She stares directly at him while sliding her fingers into her pussy, daring him to come closer but all he does is stare. Eyes closed, her fingers slide the length of her pussy, teasing her clit, cupping her pussy, sliding more fingers in and out, slick with her cum, a delicious foreplay as she feels his eyes boring holes into her skin. She moans, fingers furiously rubbing her clit, she wants to feel his tongue licking, sucking, biting but all he does is watches.

She momentarily opens her eyes to find him watching, his hard cock rising, the tip straining against his shorts to be let free. She stares for a moment, licks her lips and then reaches down to grab the nearest hard round solid object, his hammer. She closes her eyes again and begans to tease him, sliding his hard hammer up and down her swollen pussy. Squirming down in her seat a little further, she starts to push the hammer further and deeper inside herself, slowly as the wind caresses her thighs, his eyes burning into her soul.

Slowly sliding the hammer in and out, longer slower withdrawals hitting just the right spot, her fingers once again find her clit, rubbing furiously back and forth while she holds the hammer into her pussy, her juices trickling down to her ass. Eyes closed, head thrown back, waves and waves of delicious orgasm hit her body as the winds danced upon her temple and he watches, savoring her private moment, completely and utterly meant for him.

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he can't believe she is masturbating right there in front of him, she said she would but he didn't think she'd actually do it and she said she had when they were talking but he didn't think she actually was doing it. He is so rock hard but no way is he going to masturbate out there in the open. He licks his lips, he wants to taste but he doesn't want to disturb the moment or the show. Omg, she's grabbed the hammer, what the hell is going to do with that? Oh!

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(author note: I think he needs to finish the story. And definetly she should play with his tools some more)

sexy discussion

2008-04-28T19:34:00.000-07:00

I don't intentionally go after guys are in relationship (girlfriend, finance or wife) - normally these guys are off limits however the flip side to that is if he comes on to me and doesn't tell me he has a girlfriend or a finance or a wife(whichever the case may be) until I ask because he's acting so weird or doesn't act upon his desires, then yea, I might pursuit him or at least play with him a little..

Do I feel bad or guilty about potentiallly damaging his relationship? Or guilty playing with a guy that's in a relationship. No, not at all. He's the one potentially damaging his relationship. He needs to ask himself, is he completely 100% happy in the relationship? And then ask himself, if he was out there flirting with me (as in this case) and wanting/desiring to do more then there is already something wrong in his relationship. I'm not the cause, I just happened to be the one he likes/wants to play with. And why the hell would I stop him? (as in this case, he instantly turns me on, like I'm soaking wet turned on).

Would I feel bad about hurting these two people in a relationship? Yes and no, if I cared about the guy - I wouldn't want to hurt him (I could make him feel a whole lot better). But her, I don't know her, I have no feelings toward her.

Would I want to date this person that potentially wants to damage his relationship or already has cheated on her? Maybe, in this case, like I said before I'm instantly turned on by him. I like him as a person, he's smart, creative and hot and we like alot of the same things sexually, if he was single, yea, I'd definetly want to date him. But that's not always the case, there were a couple of ones few years ago, I didn't want to date them, we're still friends but I had no desire to date or be with them. In general, no, why would I want to date a guy that cheats on his girlfriend, he'd probably cheat on me too.

I seem to be drawn to smart, creative, hot, young unavailable guys (many of which never tell me they have girlfriends until I ask) I figure one day, one of them is bound to be single again, maybe I'll get lucky..lol I know what I like, I know what turns me on, I know the kind of person I want to be with.

Have I ever been cheated on? Yes and it broke my heart into little bitty pieces and it took me a long time to get over him. But it wasn't working between us and it hadn't been for a long time even though we kept trying. She wasn't the problem, something between us was and it took me a long time to realize that. She wasn't to blame. I don't think he was really to blame either - I couldn't say that before now but it wasn't anyone's fault, it just wasn't working. I honestly have to say if he was single again - I'd go for him a heartbeat - at least to play, we were good at that. (but alas he's getting married to her and I'm happy for him - he's off-limits - so sometimes is works out, sometimes it doesn't)

Curiosity killed the cat. One thing I'm always curious about though is that other person in the relationship (1) is she a cute little blond? (2) how old is she? And you ask why do I want to know how old she is because I've learned something as I've gotten older, when we're young and in our 20s (at least for me and a few women I've asked) we're not as experienced sexually. We grew up thinking things were taboo and many women never outgrow that thinking - then again they won't be reading this blog either because its not a good thing. Or maybe some of us are more naturally inclined to be open about our bodies and what makes us feel good, as we mature we gather more knowledge and we learn to new ways to satisfy our men. And now you're probably wondering why i wonder if she's a cute little blond, because I like cute little blonds - turns me on.

Does that make me a bitch? I don't think so, if you know me, you know I'm not. If you know me, you know I care about my friends and I would never hurt them intentionally.

nominated for 2007 Best Of Blog Award

2008-04-26T19:41:00.000-07:00

So I've been nominated for 2007 Best Of Blog Award - if you like what you're reading here, go vote for me....... www.thebestofblogs.com. Remember voting begins May 5th so make sure you pass the word to your friends, family, and faithful followers.

Avon - a little history lesson

2008-04-26T19:32:00.000-07:00

Avon and I'm not referring to the makeup, just a little history lesson

avon comes from the word afen or afon meaning river; its a Brythonic/Celtic word meaning river
I could dive deeper into this subject but this is an erotic blog, so I'll keep short and simple. It was just on my mind and thought I'd get it out there for someone.

so much for trying to get him out of my head today..lol but I swear sometimes it like I'm dealing with two different people. The one that is here working is quiet, shy, does his job and feels like he is afraid to look at me. The other one who is cocky and funny and someone I'd like to get to know a hell of lot better only comes out when we're texting or im'ing. I swear you'd think he was a gemini or something but I know he's not. If I could figure out how to get the cute, cocky, funny guy into the live person I'd be set. Its amazing how wet he makes me, just the thought of his gorgeous blue eyes or his smile - when he does smile or his ass - ok, so that's a little odd for me, not normally a girl that looks at a guy's ass - but this one, yea, it turns me on. Great mental image without the boxers. Gotta go, I'm trying to get him off my mind today so I can focus and work - yesterday was shot, after he left, I went out and had more to drink and caught up with old friends, came home feel asleep and had this amazing dream...which is cumlating into a story soon...it will be the first story up on the new site very soon.

he likes to be dominated

2008-04-21T18:12:00.000-07:00

ok, so he likes to be dominated, she can handle that and she's putting her plan into action tommorrow. He made her tired, a good tired, a satisfied tired and yet it was all still virtual through texting. They danced around the tension all day and finally told her to go take a nap, why was he so insistence on her taking a nap? Was he thinking he could go to her? She wasn't asleep the whole time, she heard him masturbating in the bathroom and she too was imaging his fingers fucking her while she listened. She wanted him there was no doubt about it and he was interested, so what was stopping him?......

changes coming soon

2008-04-19T08:36:00.000-07:00

think it might be time for a change, more serious yet erotic change, I'd like to give this more time and I need to start taking more time for myself and do something I'm passionate about, lost my sexy muse for awhile, actually she might have been discouraged with me, but she's back and I'm back.

And since I really have't moved all my archives over yet from indecent, I have them backed up, just not posted as of yet - its a good time to change again.

If you've just started reading - don't worry, you're not going to lose the connection - there will be a link up and if I can figure it out, this will point to the new location as soon as you log in here.

anyways, isis is too linked to so many other things - she's still my dream muse, she's just out there working hard to get my dreams set in motion

you know what is sexy?

2008-04-17T23:00:00.001-07:00

the thought of him naked and masturbating and getting off while reading one of my stories - that is so hot. Would have loved to be a fly on the wall watching

until next time

2008-04-17T08:13:00.001-07:00

until next time

she wanted him to make the first move, push her against the wall, grab her head and kiss her, guess she's going to have to make the first move next time, they were so close so many times and yet she wasn't sure until the texting started

(in retrospect, she's a space, there were so many clues)

how she wished she was in the truck with him on the way to nowhere, as he pulled out his hard cock and started to stroke it, up and down while she watched, she loved to watch his hand moving deliciously up and down imaging her tongue swirling the head of his cock and her mouth watering at the thought of tasting him, feeling him against the back of her throat, could she do it from this angle?

fast forward a few minutes, he's home and naked, sitting in front of the computer, reading erotica, she imagines herself kneeling in front of him, taking him in her mouth, slowly, licking, drinking in his scent while her hand slyly slides down her jeans to her clit, oh, she is so wet, she knew she was wet but ohhh, so much more than she realized. The window is open, the front door is open and she is expecting a client to show up any minute and yet she can't wait, she needs release now. Damn these jeans are tight yet there is no way she can slip out of them for a minute not while she is waiting, slowly she starts to rub her clit imagining her mouth on his hard hot cock, throbbing and pulsing, his hand on her head, slowly licking, teasing and then her own needs overcome her as she imagines watching him stroke his hard cock and cumming..then he disappeared, leaving her wet and frustrated..

until next time

twisted

2008-04-16T13:39:00.001-07:00

original story written on August 21-30th, 2005
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I think I need to finish this story - there needs to be a beginning or maybe another chapter but then again, I get sidetracked alot..at least now it has a title

de..funny thing, this isn't neccessarily about you but you'll find interesting inspirations from you

now onto the story
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Part 1
with bated breath, she stirs from a catnap, stretching out her long legs, looking him straight in the eye "I'm getting married," she says. He looks at her dumbfounded. What had he been thinking letting her go all those years ago and now she was getting married to someone else. WTF? They had been friends on and off the last few years and they were dating other people but he didn't realize that it had gotten serious for her with someone else. He always thought she be there when he needed her, when he was in between relationships, when he needed that safe comfort loving place, he could go to her and now she was getting married? Where the hell did that come from? He knew they hadn't really talked in a few months but still, WTF?

"Say something? Aren't you happy for me?" He closed his mouth, he realized it was wide open, in shock. What was he suppose to say? Don't marry him, I love you. No, he couldn't say that, he couldn't hurt her again and it would mean she knew the truth of his feelings when she walked away from him the second time around.

His current girlfriend situation threw his butt out the door when she woke up to hear him moaning her name the second time in a month and now she was getting married to someone else. How could he be so so stupid? He came to tell her how he felt and it was too late or was it?

He wondered did he still arouse those feelings deep inside her heart. NO, he told himself, be happy for her, smile and say something now. But what was he suppose to say when his heart was in turmoil. Damn, this must be how she felt all those years ago having to let go and move on with her life.

She looked at him, his gorgeous eyes and sexy smile and she knew she still had deep feelings for him and always would but she had finally fallen in love again with someone new, someone that made her a priority in his life. Someone that she could trust as deeply as she trusted her best friend, someone that surprised like he did, someone that shared her passion for sex everyday, someone who would cuddle with her at night. He would always be her best friend but she couldn't wait forever. Knock it off, her mind thought. It was over a long time ago between you too and don't even think about kissing him.

He finally blurted, "Who?"
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Part 2
She looked at him, like he was not making sense or something. Who the fuck is it he wondered?

"Oh, come on, you know," she said, "its Jeff."

WTF? His best friend? When did they hook up? "But he doesn't live here," he blurted again. Although he remembered his friend telling him he was moving back and slowly looking around the room, he realized that the things in there were Jeff's things. Why didn't that dawn on him before? Did he just rationalized that she had the same taste as Jeff? OMG, he couldn't tell her the truth now, he couldn't fuck up her happiness or his best friend's happiness or could he?

She looked at him, wondering what was going through his mind. He seemed distraught, looking around the room.

His mind was racing, he had to get out of there. He sat instead and stared at her, "I need a drink."

"What's wrong? Aren't you thrilled?" she asked. Stretching again, her robe slightly exposing her breasts. oops, she thought, pulling her robe closed. She could see the smile start to spread on his lips. Just a little tease to ease the tension, maybe one last time. NO, she couldn't think like that

Damn, he wanted her. He wanted to play with her nipples, bite them and caress her. Hold her close. He could feel his cock getting hard. He wanted to thrust deep inside her, kiss her passionately, feel her wetness surround him. NO, he had to stop thinking like that. He couldn't do that to Jeff.

She got off the couch, exposing her ass, and went into the kitchen to get him a drink. He looked like he seriously needed something. She came back to the living room and sat down, handing him his drink. "Are you alright?" She wanted him badly. She was so wet. She wanted to bend over the couch and have him fuck her ass.

"How long have you two being seeing each other? When did you two hook up? Where is Jeff right now?"

She didn't answer right away. Her mind was lost in her sensations. She moved her hand across her thigh, inching her silky robe up. She wanted to grab her nipples and pinch them. "I don't know, he's off somewhere filming something. He could be back any moment." She stood up and walked towards him. She leaned down and kissed him hard and passionately, while her hands swiftly undid his belt and pulled out his hard throbbing cock. She immediately lowered her head and started licking his cock, slightly moaning.

He didn't stop her. What was he thinking? Jeff could walk in the door at any moment. What would he do?

She stopped and stood up, leaned over the couch exposing her ass. "I want to feel you in my ass now!"
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the questions..
where is Jeff?
what will he do?
does he do as she wishes?

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Part 3
lets back up a moment..

part 1 synopsis: They are best friends - she is getting married and just told him. He's in a daze because he has come to tell her he's in love with her and finally blurts out "Who?"

part 2 synopsis: She tells him that its his long time best friend, Jeff, that ask her to marry him. She exposes herself to him, leans over and kisses him and starts to suck his cock. She leans over the couch and says, "I want to feel you in my ass now!"

we are left with several questions:
where is Jeff?
what will he do?
does he do as she wishes?

Characters need names before we move forward to part 3, me thinks people are getting confused

Her name is Isis
His name is Aaron
and Jeff is the finance

and now onto part 3....
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Aaron looks at her ass, it looks delicious, what the fuck is he going to do? Oh what the hell, she's inviting him to fuck her and she said that Jeff was out filming and he knew when Jeff got to filming, he got lost in the moment and it might be hours before he came up for air. One last time with Isis, why not, could he just walk away after this, he didn't know but she had. He stood up slowly, he pants dropped to the floor. He reached down to the table and grabbed the cherry lube sitting plainly in view, did Jeff fuck her here, he wondered? He drizzled the lube down her ass and started to massage the lube into her ass. He drizzled lube on himself, coating his hard cock.

Isis looked behind her, oh my, he was rubbing the lube on his hard cock, she loved to watch a man stroke himself. And the sensations where his fingers where playing with her ass, ooooooo. She felt him move towards her clit, he was rubbing the lube everywhere, she wanted to feel his tongue licking it off her.

Aaron gently put his hard cock against her ass and entered her, she was gently bucking back into him, she wanted him. He heard her whisper, "deeper, harder." He complied, he started to thrust into her faster and harder, grabbing her ass with both hands to steady her. He brought one hand around her waist and found her clit. She was so wet, he started to pinch and rub her clit, she bucked harder. He was pounding her ass. He reached up and pulled her up to him, deeply kissing her. He reached up and grabbed her tits, pulling at them. He moved his hands back down to her ass and grabbed her ass, pulling himself deeper and deeper within her.

Her legs were shaking, she was moaning. Oh my, she was in heaven. She could hear him moaning. Oh my, he was close.

Aaron could feel her almost to the brink, she was close. Her hands were gripping the edge of the couch and she exploded, he could almost feel her vibrating against him. He couldn't take it anymore and with one last deep thrust, he came in her ass. He collapse on top of her back.

She was out of breath and as she opened her eyes, the room was a more vibrant color. She felt Aaron slightly kiss her back as he lifted his weight off of her.

Isis trembled under him, he loved when he left her trembling and shaking. He slowly moved back, kissing her slightly as moved. He licked the cherry lube off her ass and lazily licked her clit from behind. She trembled even more, he gently bit her clit and pushed his tongue deep into her pussy, savoring her taste. He felt her thighs clench as another powerful orgasm overwhelmed her, her juices flowing down his chin. Satisfied, he leans back, pulled up his pants and sits down.

Isis couldn't move, she was in a daze. She wanted to feel his tongue back in her pussy now. She slowly recovers, pulls her robe back on and leans over to kiss him, tasting herself all over him, she licks his chin to taste herself even more and then she sits back down on the couch grinning at him.

They hear a car pulling into the driveway and then Jeff walked into the house. Isis jumps up and runs to him, kissing him passionately on the lips as if nothing had happened. She's good, Aaron thought to himself.

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With a start, Aaron, shakes his head and hears Jeff talking to him, "dude, are you ok?" Aaron looks around wildy, Isis is sitting on the couch next to Jeff innocently looking at him, wearing a tshirt and shorts. Jeff has his hand on Isis' thigh. WTF, weren't they just by the door kissing? They both had a look of concern directed towards him. WTF is going on? He felt like he was in the twilight zone.

Jeff looks at him again and says, "dude, it looks like you were lost in your head or something. Do you want another beer?"

Oh my god, Aaron realizes it was all a dream or was it? He licks his lips and he can still taste her, he touches his lips and they feel sticky. He can smell her on him, his taste buds overwhelmed with her scent.

Isis licks her lips, winks at him and turns and kisses Jeff passionately and deeply. Jeff looks at her and says, "I see someone has been playing." Then Jeff looks at him, "did she include you? Sometimes she is so selfish and play with herself before I get home."

Aaron too stunned to speak, shakes his head. Twisted, was it a dream?

Halloween 2005

2008-04-15T18:20:00.000-07:00

Interesting Halloween Party..I dressed up as a gothic archangel and no one knew who I was, when they realized, everyone said it was a good look for me, that I looked hot and sexy.

The party was at one of my client's house and it was a great party except that Z and S started hitting on me at a certain point.

Now don't get me wrong, both are hot and in all honesty, I wouldn't mine having S lick my pussy, I'd love to play with her but no way in hell do I want to incur the wrath of her girlfriend, who happens to be another client of mine and someone I like, plus she's a big women. And many of times, I've fantasized about touching her but nothing will ever come of it.

And Z, if he wasn't married, I'd love to feel him in my ass, grab his ass and pull him deep into me or suck his hard cock but he's married and apparently bi-sexual as he told me in detail how he likes to have a hard cock in his ass. So that explains why all of his friends are gay, it was like one of those ah-ha moments when the light bulb goes off but he also likes pussy and he would to fuck me. He thinks his wife is too skinny and he likes women with a little extra padding, so one like myself might asked, why did he marry her? He's told me before that he really doesn't like sex with her, she's not adventurous enough. I'm confused on that point. Besides those mysterious questions, he came up to me at one point and kissed my chest, then started pawing me and kept trying to kiss me, I kept having to tell him no and pushing him away. Now thinking about it, if he had pulled me into a closet or into the bathroom, I might have gone for it but his wife was in the house. And if he pulled me into a hidden room in the office, damn he could definetly get on his knees and bite me.

Z told me I should work S, that she was interested. Oh god, how did that happened? And I had no idea that he was interested, he's totally cool. I wasn't drunk, they were. Z apologized today for everything which tells me that he remembers what he said, I mean if he didn't what did he apologize for.

Anyways, I have a huge grin on my face, its not like it unusual for Z to hit on me, he's done it before. I just never knew in detail what he'd like to do to my body and he's never touched me like he did that night. He also told me about the power exchange, interesting, might go check that out.

Although, I've got to say, when I ask my friends to go with me to a party, would somebody please go with me!! At least when I give you a look that says HELP ME, you'd understand it.